Wahan se main ek dost k pas gya chaaye pi or phr ghr chala gya. Mehreen k msg ka intazar krne lga. Akhir kaar uska msg aa hi gya. Wo bht shukar guzaar thi ky meine uska trust nhi tora. Usne apni dosto se suna tha ky mard bs apna mza lete hen or larki k dard hne ki b parwaah nhi kartay lekin usko bht maza aya itni to usko umeed b nhi thi ky itna mza ata hoga. Usne mujh se pucha to meine kaha mujhe jse mza aye ga wo tme pta hai, par tmari marzi main koi zabardasti ni krta. Sath hi bs idr udr ki baaten krte rhe. Phr kuch din koi khaas waqya nhi hwa. Ek din rat ko main mehreen se msg py bat kr rha tha kay 1 unknown number se msg aya, meine pucha ky kon to usne kaha faiza apki class fellow, thora sa yad krne py mje pta chal gya ky wo mri uni ki class fellow hai. Faiza lambay qad ki smart c larki thi jo abaya pehnti thi or hijab krti thi. Main class men b sakht mizaaj hi rehta tha apne kam se kam rkhna lecture lene ya bahar dost k sath chaaye pini ya uni k ground men jakay running krni. Uske elawa meri koi activity nhi thi uni men. Mere puchne py us ne btaya ky ap naraz na hona main ap se sirf islye baat kr rhi hu ky mri dost kehti hai main larko se darti hu or bat nhi kr skti, meine usko challenge kia kay tm apni mrzi ka banda btao main us se bat krungi. To usne aap ka naam lya kyun k ap sb se serious banday ho or gusa bht jaldi ajata hai apko. To meine kaha badlay men tme kia milay ga. To kehti ky main ap se jo bat kr rhi hun is chat k screenshot main apni dost ko bhejungi as a proof. To wo mujhe icecream khilaaye g. To mujhe hansi agyi ky ye ksi bongi larki hai ek icecream ki shart iski phudi men mra lun dalwaye g. Meine us sy pucha ky tme mera number kahan se mila to usne btaya ky FB py class k group men se jakay apki profile se apka number dekha. To meine kaha acha ab icecream paki hogyi tmare? To usne hanste hwe kaha han hogyi thank you, wse ap men itna b attitude nhi hai jitna log kehtay hen. Meine kaha log mre reserve rehne se mre baray men kia sochte or kehtay hen mujhe koi farak nhi parta. Or phr usne ek bar phr thank you kaha or bye keh dya. Uni men main hmari classes weekend py hti thyn sat-sun, kyu k mre mostly class fellows working class ky jobs ya business walay log thy mri tarah. Or degree sirf timepass k lye kr rhe thy. Next weekend py jb main uni gya to mri nazren faiza ko talaash krne lgi. Kuch der main class k bahar dost k sath khara rha to samne se faiza apni dost k sath aati dikhayi dyn dono k hath men icecream thi. Meine usko dekh k halki c smile di to usne b jawab men smile di. Hm ne koi bat ni ki or wo chup chaap class men chali gyi phr professor agye or hum b class men chalay gye. Us din meine usko zra gor se dekha. Uska rang gandumi tha lambay qad py nazuk sa body structure, mre dil men tarah tarah k khyal anay lagay. Ek faislay py pochnch kay main wapis apne kamo men magan hogya. Meine faisla kia kay main khud se isko msg nhi krunga dekhte hen ye khud bat krne ki koshish kry g ya nhi. 2 haftay guzar gye or uska koi msg na aya. Is doraan mehreen k sath b koi khas waqya na hwa bus ye tha kay ab wo mre sath confortable hogyi thi or jb b darwaza kholne ati thi ya hm dono akele hte thy to pyar se mra hath pakar leti thi. Meine usko response dena chor dya or msg py bhi bs wo bolti rehti thi or main hmmm haan acha men jawab deta rehta tha. Ek din wo mre is rawaye se tang agyi or jb wo mujhe darwazay tak chorne ayi to usne mujh se pucha ky kia ap mujh se naraz hen, to meine kaha nhi to naraz kyu hne laga main, tm ne to shart pehle hi bta di thi kay sirf tme mza chahye. Meine tme mza day dya to phr ab wo bat khtm hogyi na. To usne kaha ky please mujhe maaf krden meine selfish hoke khud ka socha or apka socha hi nhi. Meine kaha koi bat nhi, mujhe ase behaviour ki adat hau shuru se. Ab tme smjh aya kay main kyu reserve rehta hu or free nhi hta ksi se. To usne kaha ky acha main apse rat ko msg py bat krungi phr kuch sochte hen apke baray men b. Meine kaha tmari mrzi, meine to kuch ni kaha abi b kay tm socho mre baray men.
Main rat ka khana kha rha tha to faiza ka hello ka msg aya. Meine b jawab men hi keh dya. Agla msg mri expectation ky ain mutaabiq tha. Usne kaha ky ap kse mard ho, kitna sakht dil hai apka. Ab jsa sochte hen ap wse hi ho. Meine kaha kyu bai ab meine kia krdia asa. To usne kaha ky ap ne us din k bad to mujh se haal chaal puchna b gawaara nhi kia halakay larkay tp tarastay hen larkyo k pichay pichay phirte hen. Apko to khud meine pehla msg kia or uske bawajood apne dobara koi bat hi ni ki khud se. To meine kaha tmara jo maqsad tha mujh se bat krne ka wo pura hogya to uske bad mera tum se bat krne ka koi jawaaaz hi nhi banta tha. To us ne kaha asa b kia attitude, zarori to nhi hai na ye. Ap haal chaal to puch saktay thy na. To meine hanstay hwe kaha ab puch lya na, to wo boli kay ye to meine pehle msg kia hai meine pucha hai to apne jawab men pucha hai. To meine kaha acha tm msg krna band kro, usne pucha kyu naraz hogye ab kia ap meine kaha nhi tm ruko to shi main bat krta hu. Khana khatam krke chaaye leke teras py jakay beth gya jo ghr men mri favourite jaga hai, kyu k wahan sukun hta hai or main akela mze se betha rehta hu open air men. Tb meine usko hello ka msg kia or haal pucha, 1 min se b kam men reply aya ky kitne batameez ho na ap.... Meine kaha lo tmara gila door kr rha hu or tm us se b khush ni ho rhi to or btao kia krun. To wo boli ap bht ajeeb ho ap ko samjhna mushkil hai bht. Ase hi phr baaten chalti rhi usne btaya kay class ki sb larkyan mre baray men tarah tarah ki baaten krti hen, ky ye khobsorat larka hai upar se intelligent itna hai ky ye teachers ki help kr rha hota hai lectures men, iski to pta ni kitni girlfriends hongi ye isi lye class men ksi ki taraf dkehta b nhi bht proud hai isko khud py ye wo.
(Yahan main btata chalun kay asal men hamri class masters in econimics thi, jo ky mera favourite subject hai kyun ky main 2012 se forex trading or financial markets men in tha, to practically to mujhe economic factors or projections ka pta tha, ab yahan masters men akay jb woi chezen theory men parh rha tha to bht easy lagti thyn, upar se mri yadasht bht tez hai, to ek bar ek chez parh li to wo foran smjh ajati thi or yad hojati thi, yhi wja thi ky 1 female teacher or hmari class k coordinator professor sab jb kahin jatay thy to mujhe bta dete thy ky kal tm ne is topic py lecture tyar krke ana hai or class ko parhana hai, mze ki bat ye hai ky class k students ko mri baaten jaldi smjh ajati thi teachers ki bajaaye)
To meine usko kaha kay yar dekho, meine pehle b kaha tha ky koi mere baray men kia sochta hai or kia kehta hai mujhe koi parwaah nhi. Lekin na hi mri koi girlfriends hen na hi mere ase koi shok hen. To wo boli ky ap kse mard ho. Meine kaha asa hi hun bs. To usne kaha agr main ap se dosti krna chaahun to ap krengy? Meine jawab dya kay depend krta hai dosti ki noiyat py. Usne kaha kia matlabl, to meine kaha ky mujhe chaand sitaaro wali khyali baten na smjh ati na hi krni aati, apne problems share kr skti ho unka solution puch skti ho, shadi wala koi chakar nhi sochna b nhi, agay tm khud samjhdar ho. To usne kaha han shadi to maine b apne maa bap ki hi mrzi ki jaga krni hai or cast se bahar wse b shadi ni ho skti mri to is point py to main b clear hun. To meine kaha thik hai next jb class hogi to milte hen phr bat krengy or phr main sogya. Subah utha to mehreen ki miss calls or msgs aye hwe thy. Meine socha chlo ye b acha hogya ky pehle hi sogya nhi to ye sone hi na deti phr....