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LAST UPDATE- Aarti sabse mil rahi thi...........jaane kya ahsaas hua tha use.............. Sab log whi room me hi the jab sahil chuchap aaya aur ek kone me khada ho gya................... “mummy ......”aarti ne maa ki ro dekhte huye bas itna hi kaha aur mummy sabko lekar bahar chali gayi..........kisi ke pas koi sawal nahi tha aur aarti aur sahil ko ab koi fark bhi nahi panda tha .... Sahil aur aarti rah gaye the room me ................... Sahil chupchap jakar aarti ke pas baith gya ...........aur uska hath apne hatho me le liya............... Sahil ne apne jeb se ek chhot sa packet nikala........usme chudiyaan thi..............ek ek karke usne aarti ke dono hatho me wo hari hari chudiyaan pahna di aur uske hath ko choom liya...........aarti kea ankh se ek aansu nikal gya jise usne jaldi se saf kar liya................ “bahut pyari lag rahi hain,,,,hai naa???” sahil ke chehre par bachcho jaisi khusi thi, lekin dil ke andar ek jwalamukhi dhadhak rahi thi. Aarti kuchh nahi boli................ “kya hua jaan......achchhi nahi lagi...........” sahil ne ek bar fir badi masoomiyat se puchha. Aarti ko uski halat se dar lagne laga tha.................... “sahil,mujhe maaf karna jaan..............” aarti ki aankhe dabdaba aayi........... “are tum ro kyu rahi ho.............oh...in sab logo ki baten sun kar.....pagal hain sab ....kuchh nahi hoga tumhe...........mai thodi na tumhe kuchh hone dunga..............aarti chahe kuchh bhi ho jaye, mai apni gudiya ko kuchh nahi hone dunga........”sahil abhi bhi zid par ada tha ....khud ko juhthi tassalli de raha tha............ “sahil mujhe dar lag raha hai..........”aarti ke ye sabd sahil ke dilo dimag ko jhakjhor gaye the..........uski upar ki sakhti tutne lagi thi............. “aarti mai pass hu tumhare fir kis bat ka dar.......... daro mat .....mai hu jaan..........aarti kuchh gao aaj mere liye .......please ....bahut waqt ho gya tumhare geet sune...........gao na kuchh...........” sahil ne aarti ka man bahlane ke liye kaha tha........lekin aarti ne sach me gaya...............apne dil ke dard ko sangeet ki jubaan de di.............. Ek nazar sahil pa dali ,uska hath apne hatho me liya.........aur uski aankho me dekhte huye gane lagi.................... tera mera pyaar amar..... hai shabaab par umang, har khushee javaan hai meree donon baahon mein, jaise aasmaan hai chalatee hoon main taaron par, phir kyon mujhako lagata hai dar teramera pyaar amar....... tera mera pyaar amar, phir kyon mujhako lagata hai dar, mere jeevan saathee bata, kyon dil dhadake rah-rah kar kya kaha hai chaand ne, jisako sunake chaandanee har lahar pe jhoomake, kyon ye naachane lagee chaahat ka hai harasoo asar, phir kyon mujhako lagata hai dar tera mera pyaar amar.... kah raha hai mera dil, ab ye raat na dhale khushiyon ka ye silasila, aise hee chala chale tujhako dekhoon, dekhoon jidhar, phir kyon mujhako lagata hai dar tera mera pyaar amar..... hai shabaab par umang, har khushee javaan hai meree donon baahon mein, jaise aasmaan hai tera mera pyaar amar..... hai shabaab par umang, har khushee javaan hai meree donon baahon mein, jaise aasmaan hai chalatee hoon main taaron par, phir kyon mujhako lagata hai dar tera mera pyaar amar....... ((Pori story copy paste hy kuch b writer ka likha change nhi kea sirf is song k Ye song hindi me likha hva tha jisy my ny is story k hisab sy urdu me translate kar k paste kea hy)) 👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆 Sahil aarti ke aawaj ko apne dil ki gahrayi me mahsoos kar rha tha ....gate gate aarti ki aankho se aansu bahane lage .........usne jor se sahil ka hath daba diya aur jor jor se saanse lene lagi........ Sahil ek tak uski or dekhta raha aur fir jor se chillaya.................”aartiiii” Sab log bhag kar room me aa chuke the...............aarti ko turant ICU me le jaya gya..........uski saanse ukhad rahi thi ..................lekin koi fayda nahi tha.............kuchh ghanton bad hi doctor ne jawab de diya............aarti ke pas sab log the .......sab ro rahe the .......aur sabse buri tarah se tadap rahi thi uski mummy............ek taraf mummy aur dusri taraf sahil............sahil ki aankhe ek dam laal ho gayi thi............ “aarti “usne bulaya.........aarti chuchap sahil ki or dekhne lagi....saanse niyantrit thi uski lekin hath pair thande ho rahe the................ “ye cheating hai aarti............mai har bar tumse haar jata tha kyuki tumse haarne me meri jeet thi ....lekin aaj mat harao mujhe kyuki aaj mai haar gaya to tumhe haar jaunga..........plssss....ek bar to jeet lene do.............plsssssssss.....aarti mai kiske sath un kheton ki pagdandiyon par daudunga....kisko sataunga ....kiske sath nadi ki un kanaron par jaunga...........nahi aarti plsssssssssssss.............aisa mat karo....bas ek bar mujhe jeet jane do......... didi bolo na ise ...dekho hmesa mujhe rulati hai...aisa kya kar diya ki aise dhokha de rahi hai..........mai nahi jane dunga ............nahi jane dunga tumhe..........” sahil jor jor se ro raha tha aur aarti ki aankho se bhi aansu bah rhe the .................. “aarti , mai kabhi nhi jaunga tumhe chhod kar , tumhe tang bhi nahi karunga.....mai sabkuchh thik kar dunga....bas mujhe chhodkar mat jao plsss.................”sahil ka dil tadap raha tha aur wo aarti ka ek hath pakde cheekh cheekh kar ro rha tha.......... Lekin aarti nishturata ki moorat ban gayi thi..............uski aankho se bhi aansu bah rahe the............lekin aaj wo fir se sahil ko harane wali thi . Aarti ne mummy ko ishare se kuchh kaha ........mummy ne ek bag me se kuchh nikala aur aarti ke hatho me rakh diya................. Aarti ne sahil ke hatho me rakh diya.................ek dark red colour ki diary thi ....jiske front page par sunahare sabdon me likha tha..................... “TUNE MERE JANA, KABHI NAHI JANA” Aarti ne pas khadi juhi ko ishare se bulaya aur uska hath sahil ke hatho me de diya..............sahil ki or ishara kiya wo uski or jhuk gaya ..............aarti ne pyar se uske mathe ko choom liya...........aur fir apne dono hath jod diye uske samne .......... Mummy ke samne bhi waise hi hath jode aur papa ke samne bhi.................aur aarti chali gayi apne antim safar par...........b**** ki do ultiyaan huyi aur wo sahil ke hisse me ek aur haar dalkar hamesa hamesa ke liye chali gayi............aaj sahil sach much haar gya tha........ek aisi haar jiska bojh poori zindagi uthana tha use. Sahil juhi ka hath pakde pakde hi cheekh utha ............aur behosh hokar juhi ki bahon me gir gaya................ Sab log cheekh rahe the....................sab tadap rahe the...........lekin sahil ki tadap ko samjhane wali use tadapta chhodakr chali gayi thi. Sahil behoshi ke aalam me apni aarti ke sath gaon ke rang birange kheto me daud raha tha.... use pakad raha tha us se lad raha tha, use mna raha tha............lekin ab uske ek hath me aarti ki nishani wo diary thi aur dusre me uski pari ka meharbaan hath, jisme aaj bhi ek maan tha.............. “mai tumhe tutne nahi dungi sahil” Jate jate bhi aarti sahil ko akela nahi chhod gayi thi ........uske dono hatho me kuchh dekar gayi thi. Aur juhi !! uske pas fir se ek tuta hua sahil bacha tha..........fir se use sambhalan tha ...use sawarana tha......... wo ek pari thi, fir se whi farz nibhana tha use. Muhabbat ki bazi haskar haarne wala sahil,aaj apni zindagi ki sabse badi baji haar gaya tha........lekin fir bhi uske hatho me kuchh aisa de gyi thi thi uski muhabbat jiske bharose ek nayi suruwat honi thi,........par dil ki duniya ka ek kona to hmesa ke liye veeran ho hi gaya tha.....wha ab kabhi khusiyon ka phool nahi khilna tha. Ek hi daulat bachi thi in sab muhabbat walo ke pas – WAFA KI DAULAT. Muhabbat ho jaye , to nibha dijiyega dosto.........,sahil aur aarti ki muhabbat ke naam, juhi ki kurabni ke naam , kisi pari ke farz ke nam, kisi aarti ke wafa ke nam aur kisi sahil ki badnaseebi ke nam. Kash muhabbat ki kismat aashikon ke hath hoti ! THE END Writer Aashiq tera.................... *********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************** NOTE--( Friends this story is not 100% true..please read it like any other story ! Maine ye story likhi, ye bahut dardnak hai , mujhe pata hai.lekin iska maksad sirf itna hi hai ki ek sandesh aap sab tk pahuchaya jaye-- muhabbat par yakeen kijiye,lekin kabhi kisi ko muhabbat karne par majboor mat kijiye. pyar nibhate jaiyee, kabhi pane ki kosisi mat kijiye. muhabbat pane ka nhi nibhane ka naam hai, bas itna hi kahna hai. thank you .

UPDATE 22 Sahil ki aankhe us tasweer se chipak kar rah gayi............... “jeevan-vatika” .........use aarti yha lekar gayi thi........use sab yad aa rha tha........... “Kahi wo sab log shimla to nhi chale gaye..................”achanak sahil ko khyal aaya.......... “par shimla kyu jayenge...........ho sakta hai ki didi ghoomne gayi ho....rohan to pahle se hi ghar par nhi rahta aur aarti vishal ke bich kuchh unban huyi ho.........ho sakta hai aarti ka shimla jana use pasand na ho............lekin fir vishal ki baten............??????” sahil ke soch ke ghode bahut tej daud rahe the lekin wo kisi nateeje par nhi pahuch paa rha tha........thak harkar wo wapas laut aaya juhi ke pas...........dil to chah raha tha ki ud kar pahuch jaye aarti ke pas lekin juhi ko kaise chhod deta.................???????? “kya hua sahil...........”juhi hath me coffee ka cup lekar sahil ke bagal me baith gayi aur use pakadate huye boli. “kuchh nhi.........juhi aarti ne MBBS nhi kiya tha.............usne jhooth bola tha............aur bhi jane kya kya jhooth kaha hai usne................” sahil bahut dard me tha aaj...........bas itna hi bola . “kaha hai abhi wo.............”juhi ka dil ro raha tha lekin badi majbooti se usne khud ko sambhal rakha tha............. “pata nhi ............” sahil is bar bhi itna hi bol paya .........uski aawaz ab bheegne lagi thi. “sahil,u ok na.........thik ho na aap.............” juhi ne pyar se uske kandhe par hath rakhte huye kaha........... “nhi juhi !!!!!!!!! Thik nhi hu mai.........mujhe khud se nafarat hoti hai, bahut jyada nafarat...............mai bahut khudgarz insaan ho gya hu juhi.............kisi ke liye life me kuchh nhi kiya maine............bas hmesa apne bare me socha ..........keval apne khusiyo ki parvah ki maine,.................” sahil ke aansu ab aankho me samaa nhi paa rhe the. “aisa mat kahiye sahil........plz......” juhi ka zabt bhi ab zawab de raha tha. “nhi juhi kah lene do............plsss.....nhi to mera sar fat jayega...........juhi mai tumhare sath bahut galat kar rha hu .......mujhe ahsaas hai juhi .......kya kuchh nhi kiya tumne mere liye...........meri kismet ke sitare ko gardish se nikalakar bulandi par pahucha diya............meri roti bilakhati zindagi me ek bar fir se naye rang bhar diye...........mujhe sab yad hai juhi..........wo tadpana ,bilakhana aur fir wo tumhara mujhe samet lena..................” sahil ab ro raha tha aur bole ja raha tha................ “juhi mai kuchh nhi bhoola hu.............kis tarah se tumne aur khan baba ne ek marte huye insaan ko nayi zindagi di, kaise bhool sakta hu mai...................khan baba se kiya wada yad hai mujhe juhi...........lekin mai wo wada nibha nhi paa raha ..........ahsaah hai mujhe......................mai kya karu juhi...........sari duniya se takra jaun tumhare liye.........lekin jab us ka nam aa jata hai to mai bahut bebas ho jata hu..............haan juhi mai bahut majboor ho jata hu............meri sari soch mera sath chhod deti hai..........uski muhabbat mujhe kuchh sochane nhi deti.............” juhi ke bhi aansu bah rahe the aur wo sahil ka hath apne hatho me lekar uski baten sun rahi thi. “juhi tumhe to sab pata hai, janti ho na kya kiya hai usne mere sath.......lekin fir bhi mera dil uski or bhagata hai............use dekhne ko dil karta hai.........juhi main kya karu ..........plsss batao mai kya karu.............mujhe maaf kar do juhi ...........pls maaf kar do yaar.............” sahil itna bol kar chup ho gaya aur niche dekhne laga....aansu tap tap jameen par gir rahe the. “sahil, maine muhabbat ki is shiddat se hi to muhabbat ki hai..........aapki muhabbat me itani tadap thi ki mujhe aapse muhabbat ho gayi..........aur muhabbat me insaan kitna majboor ho jata hai iska ahsaas mujhe bhi hai..................sahil aap kabhi mat sochiyega ki aap mujhe dhokha de rahe hai..........sahil aap jaiye aarti ka pata lagane................aap jab bhi aayenge juhi aapko aise hi aapka intjaar karti huyi milegi.........” juhi sachmuch ki pari thi kyuki itna badaa dil kisi insaan ka to nhi ho sakta........... “nahi juhi..........mai nhi jaunga akele.......tum chalo mere sath.......pls.........” sahil ne kaha. Aur juhi ne ek bar nhi puchha mai kyu jau,kaha jana hai,kab jana hai...........apni muhabbat ki muhabbat dhundane jane ko taiyar ho gayi wo pari.........use dhundhane ja rahi thi juhi , jiske milne se bhi use dukh hona tha aur jiske na milne se bhi use dukh hi hona tha................. Sahil ne ek bar shimla jane ka faisla kar liya tha.....dilli me jitana pata kar sakta tha kar liya lekin kuchh pata nhi chal paya............sahil aur juhi dusre din shimla pahuch gaye.............. Sahil seedha us hospital gaya jaha use aarti lekar gayi thi........... Ek bar fir se sahil ko chhan bin karni padi.............hospital ka administration waise hi tha jaise sabhi bade hospital ka hota hai......students aur patients ke sare recorda alag alag jagah maintain kiye jate the............sahil ke puchhane par pata chala ki same aarti singh ka admission waha hua tha lagbhag 6-7 sal pahle aur usne waha se apni MBBS ki degree complete ki thi............ Sahil ne aur kuchh nhi puchha aur juhi ke sath bahar nikal aaya................lekin abhi bhi kayi sare sawal the jinke jawab nhi mile the......khas karke aarti aur vishal ki shadi ka . Sahil ne ek nazar door bane khoobsoorat JEEVAN VATIKA CAMPUS par dali aur juhi ke sath us or badh gaya............. Thodi der wha ki khakh chaan ne ke bat sahil bahar nikal gaya.........wha se bhi aarti ka koi surag nhi mila..........sahil ka dil bahut bhari ho raha tha............... Wha ke staff se pta chala thi ki aarti nam ka koi wha nahi tha.........sahil behad uadas sa bahar aa gya aur chuchap ek bench par baith gya.........juhi bhi sath me thi aur sahil ke dil me chal rahe tut foot ko mahsoos kar rhi thi lekin aaj wo bhi bahut majboor thi. Sahil kuchh der yuhi chuchap baitha raha fir juhi ki aankho me dekhte huye bola................ “juhi,kaha dhundhu mai use........milti kyu nahi wo mujhe.......aise bhi koi naraz hota hai kya......... Juhi tum ne har kadam par mera sath diya hai...........juhi tum to pari ho na...plss bolo na apne us khuda se ki ek bar mila de mujhe us se ........mai use ek bar dekh lu fir chala jaunga..........plss juhi bola na ki mujhe ek bar aarti se mila de.” Sahil itane yakeen se kah raha tha mano sach me juhi koi pari ho aur uske pas koi jadu ki chhadi ho. “sahil,aarti aapko jaroor milegi......jaroor se milegi....plsss rowo mat sona.” Juhi ne uske aansu ponchhte huye use apne gale se laga liya aur dil me apne rab se dua mangne lagi..........apni muhabbat ko khud se door karne ki dua............ uske kisi aur ke ho jane ki dua...........wo jan chuki thi ki chahe aarti ne sahil ke sath kuchh bhi kiya ,lekin sahil ke dil me aaj bhi aarti hi dhadakati hai........aur wo sahil ko uski muhabbat mil jane ki dua maang rahi thi............bina apni muhabbat ki parwah kiye.......  Kaisi muhabbat hai ye ????  Sahil aur juhi thodi der baad main gate se bahar nikale aur apni gadi ki or badhane lage.........sahil ke hath ek bar fir nirasha lagi thi.................lekin is bar uske sath ek pari thi, jo har pal uski takdeer ki rekhaon se lad rahi thi aur unhe badal rahi thi ............aur is bar bhi aisa hi hua................ “aap sahil hain na............” sahil sar jhukaye bahar nikal raha tha jab ek ladki ki aawaz par uska dhyan toota aur usne sar uthakar dekha. Samne 3-4 ladkiyon ka group tha......aur unme se ek ladki wahi thi jo sahil ko tab mili thi jab wo aarti ke sath yha aaya tha.......sahil ne dhyan se dekha ...pahchan to gya tha par thoda confuse tha............ “are aapne shayad pahchana nhi.......mai aapse mili thi jab aap aarti ke sath aaye the.........remember?” ladki ne use yad dilaya. “oh........haan....yad aaya.” Sahil ko umeed ki ek kiran nazar aayi. “aarti se milne aaye the aap...........?” “haa....kya hai wo yha par..........??” sahil ne jaldi se puchha. “haa...cottage no 012 me hai.......shayad mummy ke sath apne..........aap kyu nhi aaye uske sath......she needs u..........zindagi ke ************ ” sahil ne bas cottage no hi suna aur juhi ke sath turant palat gya....aage wo ladki kya bol rahi thi usne suna bhi nahi. Sahil daudate huye cottage dhundh raha tha......juhi bhi teji se uske pichhe aa rhi thi............... 010,011 and .........012......... sahil ne jor se door khola aur andar ghuste hi chilla pada............... “aarti , kaha ho tum............mai aa gya aarti.” Samne mummy bed par baithi huyi thi............... “sahil?” didi ko jyada aascharya shayad nhi hua........mano wo sahil ka intzaar hi kar rahi thi............. “didi ,aarti kaha hai...sab thik hai na..........kaha hai aarti........????” sahil ki aawaz me itani tadap thi ki didi ka bhi dil tadap utha...........aaj wo tufan aa hi gaya tha jiski aashanka unhe barso pahle ho gayi thi............ “haa wo bas..........sab thik h, aao.......meri tabiyat kharab ho gayi thi to aarti yha le aayi..............thik h sab kuchh.....are juhi...aa ja beti..........” didi ne juhi ko dekh liya jo darwaje par hi ruk gayi thi..............juhi ka dil bahut udas ho raha tha.........kitni berahmi se usne didi ko daant diya tha unke ghar par aur wo aaj bhi us se itane pyar se bat kar rhi thi........... “aarti kaha hai didi.......” sahil ka sabr jawab de raha tha....aur uski bechaini un fizaon me ghul gayi thi .........................sahil ki is aawaz ke sath hi washroom ka darwaz khula aur aarti bahar nikal gayi.............sahil par nazar padi aur ek pal ko dono sari duniya bhool gaye........... Sahil ki nazre us masoom mukhade par ja kar jam si gayi......... Shadi ke bad pahli bar aarti ko dekh raha tha sahil.................gulabo ke jaisi khili khili rahne wali aarti patjhad ke phool ki jaise murjha gayi thi............kahi se dekhkar nahi lag raha tha ki uski shadi huyi hai......na sindur ,na mangalsootra.......kuchh bhi nahi..............bahut kmajor ho gayi thi wo.........chehra bilkul peela pad gaya tha.......aankhe dhans gayi thi aur unke niche kale dhabbe pad gaye the...........sahil ka kaleja fat raha tha juhi ko is haal me dekhkar.....................na koi shikwa aa raha tha uske dil me na koi sawal...bas ek tadap thi................ “didi ye kaisi ho gayi meri aarti..............aise to nahi chhoda tha maine aapke pas.........yahi khyal rakha aapne meri aarti ka didi......isliye mujhse juda kar diya ise ........”sahil ki aankhe fir barasane lagi. Didi ki aankhe bhi bheeg gayi, juhi bhi ro rahi thi...........lekin aarti bilkul khamosh thi.................. “sahil aapko yha nahi aana chahiye tha............mummy ko thodi problem thi to mai yha le aayi..........baki sab thik hai......” aarti nishthurata ki moorat bani huyi thi......lekin sahil ko to wo bachapan ki hasti khilkhilati,use tang karti masoom si aarti nazar aa rahi thi................. “aarti, ye kya haal bana liya apna............”sahil ko uski koi bat buri nahi lag rahi thi..............use bas aarti ki wo bujhi huyi aankhe dikh rahi thi.....jin aankho me kabhi uske liye jeevan ke haseen sapne hote the......sahil ka bas nhi chal raha tha ki wo daud kar aarti ke gale lag jaye............mamooli se suit salwar pahne wo barso ki thaki thaki si lag rahi thi.........aur chehre par sahil ke liye narazagi .....ya shayad naraz dikhane ki ek nakam kosis. “mai thik hu.........aur agar aap chale jayenge to aur bhi achchhi ho jaungi.........”aarti ka har sabd sahil ke dil ko cheer dene wala tha ..........lekin aaj sahil ko fark nhi pad raha tha............use bas ek bat ki fikar thi........apni aarti ki. Sahil kuchh nhi bol raha tha bas chupchap use dekh raha tha...............fir wo achanak se chalkar uske pas pahuch gaya..................aur usko jor se apne seene se laga liya.................. “aarti, sab thik ho jayega....mai aagya hu na........ab m sab thik kar dunga........mujhe maaf kar do .....tumhe chhoda ke chala gya na ....isiliye ye haal bana liya hai na...............ab nahi jaunga....chahe tum kitna bhi bhagao..........mai nahi jaunga.............sab thik ho jayegi aarti..............sab” sahil ro raha tha aur pyar se aarti ke balo me hath pher raha tha............didi aur juhi ke bhi aansu bah rahe the. Lekin aarti abhi ek patthar ki moorat bani huyi thi. “chale jaiye aap....plsssss........jaiye.........i hate u...........bahut nafarat karti hu mai aapse.......jaiye nahi to mera mara muh dekhenge aap.....” aarti cheekh padi. Sahil ek dam jhat se us se alaga ho gya..............ye kya kah rahi thi aarti...........sahil ki aankho ke aage jaise andhera sa chha gya................ “mera mara muh dekhenge aap” aarti ke ye sabd uske dil ko kirchi kirchi bikher gaye............jiski khusi ke siwa aaj tak usne kuchh chaha hi nahi, aaj usne kaha tha use jane ko........... “nahi aartiiiiiiiiiiii....pls......mai ja rha hu .........kabhi nahi aaunga.......kabhi bhi nahi....tum kabhi dubara ye mat kahana.....kabhi bhi mat kahana.........aarti shayad tum sab bhool gayi lekin mujhe mere bachpan ki wo gudiya aaj bhi yad hai aarti.............aur mai apni gudiya se aaj bhi utna hi pyar karta hu...........aisa fir kabhi mat kahana......jaa rha hu mai..............jaa rha hu aarti....is bar nhi aaunga.........khus rahna...” sahil ne apne aansu ponchhe aur teji se bahar ki or badha . “sahillllll...”didi ne aawaz lagayi.” “mummy meri kasam plssss......” aarti jaldi se chikhi....... Sahil ek pal ko thithka ,juhi bhi ruk gayi..............pichhe muda ......poora chehra aansuo se bhiga hua tha.............. “ GOOD BYE AARTI ” bas itna hi kaha aur wapas muda.......kuchh kadam chala tha ki dhadam ki aawaz par wapas muda.............aarti farsh par giri huyi thi aur uski naak se khoon nikal raha tha. “AARTIIIIIIIIIIIII”” sahil ki cheekh se jarra jarra kaanp gaya tha us fiza ka............ Wo paglo ki tarah aarti ki or badha aur use apn baho me utha liya.................. “aankhe kholo aarti..............mai chala jaunga...........hmesa ke liye ............sach kah raha hu...........tumhari kasam aarti apni shakl bhi nahi dikhaunga........bas aankhe kholo..........aise to mat rutho yar.......pls...............doctorrrrrr.............” sahil uske galo ko thapthapata raha aur fir god me uthaye ward ki or bhagne laga ....... ************************************************************************************* Aarti admit thi ........behosh thi..........aur sahil ka chehra safed ho gya tha............usne ek chuupi sadh li thi kisi se kuchh nhi bol raha tha............. Jeeja bhi aa gaye the............juhi aur jeeja aarti ke pas the aur sahil chuchap didi ke pas chala gya jo usi cottage me mandir ke samne baithi ro rahi thi..................... Rat ke 9.00 baj rahe the............... Sahil jakar didi ke samne khada ho gya...............didi ne use dekha to apne aansu ponchhe aur wo bhi khadi ho gayi...............sahil ki aankho me ek sawal tha.............aur us sawal se didi ko dar lag raha tha............. Sahil ne apne back se pistol nikali aur apne sar par laga li.................... “sahil ye kya kar rha hai..........pls....nahi beta.......plss...ise rakh de.......sahil plss..........” didi ek dam sann rah gayi............ “bataiye mujhe sab sach sach..........aap sabne mujh se hamesa jhooth bola hai...........lekin agar aaj mujhe ek bhi bat jhoothi lagi to mai khud ko shoot kar lunga.............mummy ki kasam hai mujhe.” Sahil bahut thahar thahar kar bol raha tha....bahut dard tha uski aawaz me. “mai sab sach bataungi...........plss ise dur rakh de..........plsss beta................aarti ki kasam sahil plsssssssssssss................mai sab sach bataungi...................” didi gidgida rahi thi....sahil ne pistol door phenk di aur didi ki or dekhne laga......... “sahil itani himmat nahi hai mere andar..........aa mere sath...............”didi bilakh bilakh kar ro rhi thi aur room me rakhe ek suitcase ko khola ........usme dher sare papers the......didi ne ek 3-4 pages ki file nikali aur sahil ko pakda di.................. Didi buri tarah ro rahi thi .......sahil ke hath kaanp rahe the......usne patthar ka kaleja karke file ka cover palat diya............. FRONT PAGE---- PATIENT NAME - AARTI SINGH. DISORDER- LEUKAEMIA (BLOOD CANCER) DIAGNOSIS DATE- 20/0*/20** Date wise lagbhag 6-7 sal pahle se...................sahil ke hath se file gir gayi ,uski aankho ke samne andhera chha gaya ,use jor ka chakkar aaya aur wo wahi dhadam se farsh par gir gaya aur behsoh ho gya. Didi jor se chillayi.........”sahilllllllllllll” Aaj aur kuchh nhi kah paunga dosto......... SORRY.  (dosto aarti ko bimari bahut pahle se thi uske symptoms bhi the lekin is story me maine mention nhi kiye nahi to story behad predictable ho jati............jaise jab sahil ke accident ke bad wo aati hai to bhi kayi sari prblms face karti hai lekin chunki ye sab sahil se chhupaya gya tha to mai wo mention nhi kar sakta tha......baki sare sawalo ke zawab kal khud aarti degi ... bas aub door hai ye dard apne anjaam se ......... ) Sahil ko hosh aa chuka tha jabki aarti abhi bhi behosh thi......aarti hospital me thi ........sahil didi ke sath whi bahar gumsum sa baitha tha..............kuchh bhi nahi bol raha tha.............. Didi ne pyar se uske kandhe par hath rakh diya.............. “sahil tumhe kuchh batana hai........mai is sthiti me to nahi hu lekin agar aaj nhi bata payi to shayad kabhi nhi bata paungi...........tumhara ye jan na bahut jaroori hai..............” didi ke aankhe bhari thi aur wo dheere dheere bol rahi thi.....jeeja kahi gaye the aur juhi cottage me thi........... “sahil yad hai jab tum apne interview ke bad ghar gaye the.............uske dusre teesre din hi dheeraj aur varsha wala case hua ......tumhare jeeja bahut gusse me the aur unhone ne bahut kuchh kaha dheeraj ko bhi aur tumhe bhi........us din aarti poori rat roti rahi ......dusre din bhi usne kuchh nhi khaya aur apni papa se bat bhi nahi kar rhi thi........usi din tumhara call aaya aur usne tumse thik se bat nhi ki.......gussa to wo kisi aur parr thi....lekin jaisa ki hamesa hota aaya tha, nikla ek bar fir se wo tum par................. “Uske kuchh do din bad aarti achanak behosh ho gyi aur uski nak se blood aane laga.....hm use hospital lekar gaye..................hme laga ki use koi chhoti moti problem hogi lekin use...............”didi itna kahkar rone lagi.........sahil chuchap unki or dekh raha tha................ “hamne aarti ko har jagah dikhaya ...AIIMS ke chief doctor ne bhi dekha lekin sabka yhi kahna tha ki iska koi ilaaz nhi hai..........aarti se hmne chhupana chaha lekin jane kaise wo jaan gayi..............aur fir ek din wo rat me mere kamre me aayi..................” Didi batate huye ateet ki dhundhali yado me kho gayi.............. “mummy ,aap soye nahi........”aarti ne room me aakar didi ko pichhe se gale lagate huye kaha.... “haan beta wo neend nahi aa rhi.......aa baith “ ...didi aarti ko lekar apne bed par baith gayi. Aarti ne didi ke god me sar rakh liya.....didi dheere dheere uska sar sahlane lagi ....anayas hi unki aankhe bhar aayi................... “mummy ,” aarti ki aawaz me bahut dard tha. “haan meri jaan”didi lakh kosis ke bad bhi apne aansu na rok saki. “mai marne wali hu na mummy............” aarti ne bahut mayoosi se kaha, didi ka kaleja fat gya uski bat par. “nhi meri jannnnnnnnnnn......kuchh nhi hoga tujhe meri bachchi........tu bilkul thik ho jayegi...bilkul thik....aisa kabhi mat kahna .....mummy kaise jiyengi tujhe kuchh ho gaya to .....haan???” didi ne jor se use apne seene se laga liya aur foot footkar rone lagi. “mummy kuchh kahna hai aapse.............” “haan bol na meri jaan” “mummy mai kisi se pyar karti hun...” aarti ka chehra bilkul shant tha. Didi ek pal ko chakit ho gayi, “kis se “ didi ne kaha “sahil se” aarti ne bade garv se kaha. “kaun sahil.........kahi apna sahillllll to...........” didi ko is bat ka gumaan to pahle se hi tha ,bas aaj us bat ki pushti ho rahi thi. “haa mummy,mere sahil se, aapke sahil se..........mujhe pata hai ye sahi nahi hai..........lekin ho gaya mummy.....maaf kar dijiye.........” aarti ki aankhe bhar aayi. Didi is samay use kya samjhati....chup rahi...........aur use ek bar fir gale se laga liya.............. “sahil hai pyar karne ke layak , mujhe naaj hai teri pasand par.......lekin beta duniya samaj ........aur fir tere papa........... aur kya sahil bhi...” didi ne dil ki bat kahi. “haan mummy sahil bhi mujhe se beintaha pyar karte hain.......lekin iski shuruwat maine ki thi....sahil ko maine propose kiya tha...............sahil ki koi galti nhi hai mummy..........” aarti aaj bhi apne sahil ko bacha rhi thi. “galti to teri bhi nhi hai meri jaan.............”mummy bas itna hi bol payi. “mummy kitna waqt hai mere pas............”aarti ka sara dard uski un jheel si kali aankho me utar aaya tha................aur didi se wo dard bardasht nhi ho raha tha............ “ kaisi baten kar rahi hai aarti......tu thik ho jayegi beta......bilkul thik....aur fir mai tujhe tere sahil se mila dungi........chahe duniya kuchh bhi kahe.......aur agar koi nahi mana to mai tum dono ko yha se door bhej dungi........mera yakeen kar................” didi apne lado ke laad me bole ja rahi thi...........jabki unhe achchhi tarah se pata tha ki aarti ab kabhi bhi normal life nhi jee payegi. “plss mummy sach bataiye na........mujhe sab pata hai mom...........kitna waqt hai mere pas............aapko meri kasam ............bahut jaroori hai ye jan na mere liye .................pls.........” Didi rone lagi aarti ki bat sunkar......aur rote rote hi kaha......... “doctor ne kaha hai ek do sal ya fir maximum 5-6 sal ...severety par depend karta hai.....meri jaan tujhe kuchh nhi hoga.........mujhse kabhi mat puchhna ab..........tu thik ho jayegi beta.........sabkuchh doctor hi to nhi hote..............bhagwan bhi to hota hai na kuchh..............dekhna tu thik ho jayegi.............” didi ki aankhe baras rahi thi aur unhone aarti ko gale se lagaye huye uske gal choom liye. “haan mummy mai thik ho jaungi...........mummy aapse kuchh mangu.............” aarti boli. “kya beta???? ...mummy se mangne ke liye ijajat mangte hain koi........” did boli. “mummy, sahil ko ye bat kabhi pata nhi chalni chahiye................plss...aapko meri kasam .........meri aakhiri tamnna samjh lijiye ise...........wo bardasht nhi kar payenge...........bahut jyada chahte hain sahil mujhe...........un aankho ke sapne tut jayenge...........mujhe bahut dard ho raha hai mummy.....maine apne sahil se bewafai kar di............mai “ BEWAFA “ ho gayi mummy.........mai bahut buri hu..........mera sahil bahut masoom hai......kaise bardasht karenge wo.........mujhe jeena hai mummy ...........mai marna nahi chahti............mujhe bacha lijiye maa....pls...........boliye na apne bhagwan se.......plss mummy bacha lijiye apni aarti ko...........” pahli bar aarti tutkar royi thi apni maa ki bahon me.......did bhi buri tarah se ro rahi thi , kitna majboor kar diya tha kissmat ne aaj us maa ko. Didi bata rahi thi aur sahil patthar ki moorat bane sun raha tha.........didi ro rahi thi lekin wo chup tha......... “sahil uske bad aarti ne jo kuchh kiya wo sirf ek natak tha ....wo tumhe khud se door karna chahti thi..........wo shadi ka card jo dekh kar tumne suicide attempt kiya ,aur fir wo jhoothi shadi........jo kabhi huyi hi nahi.” “jante ho ,jis din maine tumhe phone kiya ki aarti ki shadi tay ho gayi hai aur tumhe aana hai us din aarti mere bagal me baithi thi ....us samay juhi tumhare pas pahuchi hogi aur usne tumhe yha shadi me aane se mna kiya hoga........kyuki aarti ne use wha bheja tha........ ...use dar tha ki tum fir se aisa kuchh na kro .....lekin juhi ko wajah nhi pata thi ....use bas ye pata tha ki aarti ki shadi ho rahi hai ...........aur tumhe sambhalane ke liye use bhej rahi hai aarti.” har bat par sahil ka dil ro raha tha ...........kya kay nahi kiya tha aarti ne uske liye aur kya kya nahi saha tha us masoom ne. “sahil shayad tumhe pata nhi hoga..........jab tum yha se gaye to aarti saye ki tarah tumhare pichhe thi ....tumhara jis institute me hua tha wha tumhara resume aarti ne send kiya tha.......wo uske kisi dost ke uncle the jo wha ke director the..............usne tumhe akela nhi chhoda tha sahil kabhi bhi............lekin uske bad aarti ki tabiyat jyada kharab ho gayi aur wo shimla chali gayi....wha se usne MBBS bhi kiya aur jeevan-vatika me uska ilaaj bhi hota raha.......” Didi yad karke ek ek bat sahil ko bata rahi thi ...jaise ki apni beti ka case lad rahi ho....au dar ho ki kahi wo case haar na jayen......... “yad hai jis din tum hame mall me mile the , jab ham kapde aur lahnga kharid rahe the ............sahil wo aarti nahi kharid rahi thi ................uski ek dost ki shadi thi jo us samay sath hi thi................. aarti kahi bahar nhi aati jati thi isliye us din ham sab use jabdasti bahar le gaye the ...aur wha tum aur juhi mil gaye...........” “sahil aarti bahut ghut ghut ki jee hai ye 6 sal ....ek ek bat mujhse kahti thi aur har rat sone se pahle tumse maafi mangti hai ...aaj bhi ..........” Didi sab kuchh bata kar chup ho gayi thi...........itane me jeeja bhi aa gaye.........wo bhi wahi aakar baith gaye aur sahil ki or dekhne lage. Sahil ki or dekhte dekhte achanak foor foot kar rone lage............ “meri aarti ko bacha lo sahil........plss....tumne to use har mushkil se nikala hai.......har kadam par uska saaya bane rahe ..........aaj ek aakhiri bar........pls............apni muhabbat ko bacha lo sahil...............plssssss............mai har gunaah ki maafi mangta hu.............bas use bacha lo..............kuchh bhi kar ke............” jeeje jaise majboot insaan ko is kadar toot kar rote dekh sahil ka dil bhi dahal gaya.......dil to pahle se hi tar tar ho chukka tha............ unki baton se saf lag raha tha ki unhe bhi sab pata hai dono ki muhabbat ke bare me....... Wah ri muhabbat ! wah ri kismat! Aaj jab sabne unka pyar sweekar kar liya tha to unka pyar chand sanso ka mohtaj ho gaya tha “sahil doctor ne kaha hai ki bas kuchh din bache hai meri beti ke pas...........plsss..sahil .......bacha lo apni aarti ko ...bacha lo..........” jeeja sahil ka hath apni aankho se laga kar ro rahe the. Piche aakar khadi juhi dhamm se farsh par gir gayi.......uske pair kaanp rahe the ye sab sunkar ......use ab pata chal tha ki aarti itnai jyada bimar hai...........sahil ne fauran use uthakar apne pas bitha liya aur uska sar apne kandhe par rakh liya............. Juhi sooni sooni aankho se sabki or dekh rahi thi............. “ Mai dua karoongi ki tumhe muhabbat ki ek boond bhi naseeb na ho............” aarti ko usne yahi baddua di thi ...................aur aaj uski baddua use ek gali lag rahi thi khud ke liye........... Juhi chuchap baithi rahi.............use khud se nafarat ho rahi thi......kya nahi kaha tha usne aarti ko ........kitna bar beafwa kahkar gali di thi .....ek ek khusi ke liye tarasane ki baddua di thi .....aur aaj uski har bat uske kaleje ko chher rahi thi . juhi ne jo kuchh kiya halat ne karwaya tha us se ..........uska koi, koi dosh nhi tha lekin wo fir bhi khud ko gunahgar maan baithi thi.......uski aankho me ek kabhi na jane wali virani dikh rahi thi..........aansu nahi the.....................kyuki jo dard is samay uske seene me uth raha tha use bayaan kar pana aansuo ke bas me nahi tha......... “juhi plss sambhalo khud ko beta........” didi ne uske sar par hath phera aur juhi unke gale lag kar rone lagi........... “I m sorry didi, mai bahut buri hu...........maaf kar dijiye.............” sahil chup tha ....kuchh nhi kah raha tha......tabhi ward boy ne aakar kaha.......... “patient ko hosh aa gya...........aap chahe to mil sakte hai” sab ek sath uthe aur ward ki ro chal diye......bas sahil pichhe rah gya..........aur uske sath the jeeja................ “sahil doctor ne kaha hai aarti ke pass bas kuchh din hain.............plsss use bacha lo sahil.....meri beti ko bacha lo..............” jeeja aaj bahut dard me the ..............beti ki muhabbat ne unhe sab kuchh bhoola diya tha....duniya-samaj ,parmapara-maryada.....kuchh bhi yad nhi tha........bas aaj unhe unki beti yad thi. “use kuchh nhi hoga.........mai jane nahi dunga use .....chahe kuchh bhi ho jaye......” sahil ki aawaz me ek majbooti thi ,ek sakhti thi aur ek jid thi. Sab log aarti ke pas the.....rohan bhi aa gya tha..........bas juhi andar nhi gayi thi ...uski himmat nhi ho rahi thi aarti ko face kar pane ki .............sahil chuchap ek kone me khada tha.........aarti leti huyi mummy papa se kuchh kuchh bol rahi thi aur kabhi kabhi halke se has deti.......lekin uski nazre sahil par tiki huyi thi................. Sahil bhi uski or dekh raha tha.....sari duniya se naraz-naraz sahil aarti ko bahut pyara lag raha tha..........ek tees uth rahi thi uske dil me.............kash wo sahil ko mana leti........us chhote se bachche ke jaise naraz tha wo jiska koi pasndida khilona chhin gya tha us se........sahil ke chehre par saadiyon ki udasi thi lekin un aankho me ek jid thi ......... wo aankhe bol rahi thi-- “aaj sari duniya se takaraa jaunga ,lekin tujhe jane nahi dunga.” Aaj kismat ka takraw hona tha muhabbat se,aur unki muhabbat ke liye shayad qayamat ka din aa gya tha. Sahil chuchap kone me khada aarti ki or chor nazro se dekh raha tha.....mano us se sadiyon se naraz ho aur us se kah raha ho ki mana lo mujhe nhi to fir kabhi nhi milunga..........aarti bat to mummy papa se kar rahi thi lekin nazren uski sahil par bar bar ja rahi thi................. Dheere dheere sab log bahar chale gaye aur sahil aur aarti room me rah gaye..............aarti ne ishare se sahil ko apne pas bulaya............. Sahil chalta hua uske bed ke pas pahucha aur chupchap uske karib baith gya........bahut jyada narazgi thi uske chehre par.............. “sahil” uffffffffffffff! Itana pyar tha us sahil lafz me ............sahil ke andar ki sari narazagi hawa ho gayi.......wo chuchap uski aankho me dekhta raha................ “naraz ho mujh se..............”aarti ne apna ek hath badhakar uske gaal par rakhte huye kaha. Sahil kitna bardasht karta...............tut gaya.......... Jor se aarti ko gale laga liya............... “koi kuchh bhi kahe mai tumhe kuchh nahi hone dunga..........kuchh bhi nahi.....tum meri ho.....meri gudiya ho tum....koi kaise le sakta hai tumhari zindagi ke faisle ............sirf mujhe hai ye haq......sirf mujhe.” Sahil ka har lafz sukoon pahucha raha tha aarti ko. “uffff.............muhabbat ka ye kaun sa rang hai sahil jo itana gahra hai........kya kya nahi kiya maine is rang ko chhudane ke liye , lekin ye rang chhutta kyu nahi sahil........ Kyu itana chahte ho mujhe ....kyu...........” aarti aaj wo sawal puchh rahi thi jo pichhle 6 salo se uske dil me uth raha tha.....aur sahil ne jawab me wo sawal puchha jo uske dil me bhi pichhle 6 sal se tha.............. “kisne de diya tumhe ye haq aarti????????....kisne diya ye hak ki mere pyar ka rang chhudawo tum...............kya khata hai meri........ye ki mai deewano ki tarah tumhe chahta hu ya fir ye ki maine bachpan se lekar aaj tak sirf tumhari khusi chahi.............bolo aarti..........kya muhabbat karte samya ye wada liya tha maine ki jab tak tum aisi hi rahogi tab tak hi muhabbat karunga.............kya meri muhabbat bas achchhe dino ke liye thi............kya meri muhabbat par yakeen nahi tha tumhe ??? ......bolo.......kya tum me koi kami aayi, tumhari muhabbat me koi kami aayi.............. muhabbat to tab kamjor ho jati jab in aankho me kisi aur ka aksh nazar aa jata...........lekin in me to aaj bhi meri muhabbat aabad hai.........fir kyu mujhe khud se door kiya...........kyu di mujhe ye saja.......jo bhi hota uska samnaa hum sath sath karte ..........apni muhabbat ki taakat se us se ladte............lekin tumne to mujhe itana haq bhi nahi diya...........ye galat kiy aarti......ye galat kiya.” sahil kahte kahte rone laga.. “nahi jaan .............plss..........aapki aarti itani samjhdar nahi thi..........usne to aapko is dard se bachana chaha...........ek nakam si kosis ki...........bhool gayi ki aarti ki rooh to sahil se judi hai fir kaise us se kuchh chhupa sakti hai...........sahil maf kar do apni aarti ko ........mere antim palo ki khatir please.................”aarti bhi rone lagi. “nahi aarti, ye kabhi mat kahna............tumhare antim pal mai aane nahi dunga........aarti chahe kuchh bhi ho jaye, mai tumhe kuchh nahi hone dunga............kuchh bhi nahi....” sahil aur aarti aaj barso bad ekdusre ke seene se lage huye ,ek dusre ki rooh ko sukoon pahucha rahe the......aarti ko aaj bhi sahil ki masoomiyat par pyar aa raha tha............kismat se ladane chala tha uska sahil. Aarti ko wapas cottage me laya ja chuka tha.........wo normal to nahi thi lekin fir bhi wo apna jyadatar samay hospital ki Kothari se bahar apno ke bich bitana chahati thi..............shayad use ahsaas tha ki uske pas kuchh pal hi bachen hain aur har ek pal me wo ek zindagi jeena chahati thi............ sahil ka dil tadap raha tha lekin kuchh kar nahi paa raha tha ....usne abhi tak ek sakhti ka mukhouta pahan rakha tha jo sirf ek hi aawaz bol raha tha......... “ chahe kuchh bhi ho jaye ,mai use jane nahi dunga” Uska dil dimag par bahut jyada hawi ho gya tha....aur wo kuchh sochane samjhane ki halat me nahi tha........sab log sahil ki is halat se wakif the lekin koi kuchh bol nahi raha tha..........sahil ki deewanagai pagalpan ka roop le rahi thi........... Aur ek thi juhi ! mason juhi ! kya nahi kiya usne sahil ke liye........apna sabkuchh ,sabkuchh uske nam kar diya..........aur aaj bhi uski muhabbat me uske sath yha tak aa gayi thi........lekin aaj sahil ki halat dekhkar use dukh ho raha tha.............koi nahi ye soch raha tha ki juhi kaun hai , kya hai...........kitna kuchh kurban kiya hai usne sahil ke liye............aur wo masoom bhi khud ko gunahgaar man baithi thi.............use ab ye bhi lagne laga tha ki wo sahil aur aarti ke bich aa gyi............ye bhool gayi thi wo pari ki agar wo na hoti to aaj sahil bhi na hota............. Juhi chup chup si ,khoyi khoyi si idhar udhar rahti.......na sahil ke samne jyada jati na aarti ke samne..............sabse badi saja de rahi thi wo khud ko....jabki uske hisse me koi jurm to tha hi nahi.........usne to bas muhabbat ki thi ............sahil se............aur aaj sahil bhi shayad use bhool gaya tha..........lekin koi aisa tha jise juhi nahi bhool thi, jise ahsaas tha ki juhi kaun hai, jise ahsaas th ki aaj sahil hai , kyuki uske sath kal juhi thi........aur wo thi aarti.aarti ko juhi ka yu gumsum aur us se door door rahna bahut khal raha tha.......... 6 din beet gaye , sahil ne apna poora dam laga diya is bich aarti ka ilaaz karwane me..........3 foreign doctor aaye .......lekin sab ki report yahi thi ki is type wale blood cancer aaj ki advanced medical science me bhi la-ilaaz hai.................kuchh nahi kiya ja sakta tha...........kisi ne ye ummeed bhi nahi dilayi ki kahi foreign le jaye to kuchh ho sakta hai..........lekin ye baten aarti se chhupayi ja rahi thi......... ( friends blood cancer 3 type ka hota hai, first 2 ka kuchh had tak ilaaj sambhav hai lekin leukaemia ka nahi ) sahil ka dil buri tarah se toot chuka tha lekin abhi bhi usne ek jhoothi aas ka daman tham rakha tha .......is sach ko wo kabhi accept kar hi nahi sakata tha ...........kyuki ye sach ek bahut bhayanak sach tha ......itna bhayanak ki sahil sochta bhi nahi tha uske bare me..........chehre ki sakhti dil ke jakhmo par parda dale huye thi.........lekin ye sakhti jaan lewa hoti ja rahi thi...............aur iska ahsaas sabko ho raha tha......sirf sahil ko nahi..........is sakhti ka tootna bahut jaroori ho gya tha. Gaon se renu rahul , sahil ke mummy papa ......sab log aa chuke the.. Shayad jeeja ne bulaya tha.......unke hatho se ab umeed ka daman chhut raha tha . Aaj subah se hi aarti bahut khus thi..............usne aaj juhi ko bulawaya tha mummy se kahkar................. Juhi chuchap ek mujarim ki tarah uske pass jakar khadi ho gayi...........usne nazre jhuka rakhi thi......mano kah rahi ho bahut sharminda hu mai.....room me aur koi nahi tha.aarti ne us se akele milna chaha tha. “juhi pass aao na............”aarti bade pyar se boli. Juhi jakar uske pas baith gayi............aarti leti huyi thi. “juhi ,kitna pyar karti ho sahil se” aarti ne puchha. “pta nahi, par aapke jitna to nahi..........mujhe maaf kar dijiye .......please” juhi khud ko doshi maan rahi thi aur aarti ki halat use aur rula rahi thi. “juhi , tumhari jaisi muhabbat to koi kar hi nahi sakta .........mujhe pata hai mere pas waqt jyada nahi hai.........suno......” juhi ne aarti ke muh par hath rakh diya. “nhi,plss aisa mat kahe....aapko kuchh nahi hoga..........” “kah lene do juhi .........bahut jaroori hai ye kahna............sahil meri aatma se jude hain ..........wo chah kar bhi khud ko mujhse alag nahi kar paye.............aur na mai unhe khud se door kar payi...........hamari muhabbat hmare har faisle par bhari padi........hum kuchh nahi kar paye...majboor ho gaye.” “lekin juhi tumhari muhabbat............mai apne sahil ki kasam khati hu, bahut mahaan lagti ho tum mujhe................agr zindagi ne sath diya hota to hum dono ek sath bahan bankar rahte ...........sahil par tumhara mujhse jyada hak hai juhi.....bahut jyada..........janti ho jab mai sahil ko dusri bar mili to mai unke samne khus rahti lekin akele me roti thi.......har pal yahi sochti kya hoga sahil ka mere bad...........lekin fir rab jee ne tumhe bhej diya........jis din mai tumse mili aur tumhari tadap dekhi usi din dil ko sukoon aa gya.....haan juhi, mujhe tum mil gayi ,jo mere sahil ko tutne se bacha legi.........ab mai sukoon se mar sakti hu.................” Aarti bol rahi thi aur uska dil baith raha tha........juhi chupchap sun rahi thi aur aansu uske gallon ko bhiga rahe the.................... “juhi tumne mere sahil ko nayi zindagi di..........ye mat sochana ki sahil ki muhabbat koi khairat hai.............sahil ki muhabbat tumhara haq hai............tum se jyada muhabbat use koi kar hi nahi sakata............juhi mere bad mere sahil ko sambhal lena...........please........use kabhi rone mat dena..........bahut bhola hai wo juhi........tum to janti ho na............bas use ahsaas dila dena ki juhi uski aarti hi hai...............juhi tum ho ,ab mai sukoon se mar sakungi......thank u juhi.........agle janam me bahan banungi tumhari.........” aarti itna kahte kahte rone lagi aur juhi ko gale se laga liya...........juhi bhi bilakh bilakh kar ro rahi thi.................. Aarti aur juhi ek dusre se lage roti rahi ...aaj dono ke dilo me ek dusre ke liye maan tha, ijjat thi aur ek dusre ki muhabbat ki shiddat ke liye nadamat thi. Sab log aarti ke room me the ...wo sab se baten kar rhi thi .........sab ki aankhe nam thi............bas ek sahil tha jo ek dam shant tha......mano kuchh hua hi na ho..........

UPDATE 21 Juhi ki bat se bahut se logo ki aankho me aansu the lekin abhi bhi kuchh aise the jinki aankho me aansu nhi ek nafarat thi ..............juhi ke liye.................itane sab ke bich uska aa kar sahil ko yu le jana aur fir sabko is tarah se dhikkarana –kuchh logo ko pasand nhi aaya.................. “wo sab jo hua wo hamare ghar ka mamala hai .......tum kaun hoti ho isme dakhal dene wali.” Bade chacha ke andar ka insaan shayad bahut pahle hi mar chuka tha. Juhi ke kan me unki aavaz padi aur uske aansu ruk gaye............ “tum kaun hoti ho “ is bat ka kya jawab de.........wahi juhi jiski dahaad ne thodi der pahle sabki dilo ki mari huyi aatma ko jaga diya tha ,ab kuchh nhi bol rhi thi ............use samajh me nhi aa rha tha ki kya jawab de.......... “haa ...haan..........bikul sahi bat hai ...aur tum to hamari jat biradari ki bhi nhi ho .....tumhe kisne diya itana haq ki hamare ghar ke maamlo me bolo...” chhote chacha ki himmat bhi fir se badhane lagi thi, jaat-paat ,unch-neech –, yahi kiya tha in logo ne poori zindagi. Juhi kya jawab deti????? Uski aankhe khali khali si kisi ko dhoondh rahi thi ..........kaise batati ki wo kya hai sahil ki....sahil uska kya hai....in zahilo ke bich kaun samjhata un pak rishto ko .............. “abhi to bahut lecture de rahi thi.............ab kya saanp soongh gya ..........are wo sab bhai behan hai jo chahe ho unme aapas me .....tum kaun hoti ho ..........” dono chacha bari bari se juhi ko ghure jaa rhe the aur ek ke bad ek ilzaam lgayae ja rhe the . “are mai to kahata hu isi ne koi patti padha di hai sahil ko ............nhi to itana bhala bachcha kya aise bat karta .........sab isi ka kiya dhara hai.........” badi chchachi bhi bina kuchh kahe kaise rah leti. Juhi sabkuchh chuchap sah rahi thi.........kya kahti wo .......bas dil k ek kone me ek tees si uth rahi thi “sahil,aaj meri muhabbat bemol ho jayegi............meri muhabbat ko bacha lo......plsssss “ juhi ki aankh se ek aansu nikal kar jameen par gira.............aur jab kisi pari ki aankh se aansu nikal jaye to qayamat to honi hi thi. Bade chacha aage badhe...........juhi ki najuk baah pakad li..............aur jhatke se use khada kar diya.......... “bhai sahib chhodiye use......... nhi to mujhse bura koi nhi hoga.” Sahil ke papa jo ab tak sab sah rahe the ab bardasht nahi kar paye........unke jabde bheech gaye. “tu chup rah..........bahar ki ek musalman ladki aakar poora ghar fod rahi hai.....teri akal par to patthar pada hai............ab mai dekhta hu kya karti hai ye..........sab isi ka kiya dhara hai jo aaj do bhaiyo me darar pad gayi.........” bade chacha ne badi berahmi se juhi ki baah pakad rakhi thi ..........aur juhi ki aankho se ek aansuo ki dhar nikal kar uske laal ho chuke galo ko bhigoye ja rhi thi..........sahil ke papa aage badhe to unhe bade chacha ke bête ne pakad liya. Bat ab family ki na rah kar us gande samaj ki kayade kanoon ki ho gayi thi jahaa aaj bhi dusre religion walo ko achhut samjha jata tha................aur ab is baat ko us gande samaaj ke thekedar apni banaye kale kanoon ke hisab se suljhana chchate the. “bol kya rishta hai tera sahil se .......kya lagti hai tu sahil ki ............” bade chacha ne juhi ki kalai buri tarah se marod di . “zindagi hai ye meri............” sahil ka tej ghoonsa bade chacha ki nak tod gaya tha..........kab wo hawa ke jhonke ki tarah aaya aur kab uska hath utha kisi ko khabar na huyi........... Uske nathoone fool rahe the...................aankho me aangare dahak rahe the..........mathe ki nase khinch gayi thi....jo sahil thodi der pahle ek toote huye insaan ki tarah bilakh raha tha ,ab ek chattan ki tarah apni pari ki hifazat me aa gya tha.......... “maaf kar dena juhi ........” usne juhi ka matha choom liya. “oh to ye rishta hai........” bade chacha apni nak tudawa kar bhi kaha man ne wale the...ek khataranak muskan hotho par liye bole. Sahil ne juhi ko Renu ke hawale kiya aur ek bar fir se unka girebaan pakad liya................ Ek Jordar ghusa unke pet me pada aur unki haddiya tak charmara gayi.............sab sahme se sahil ka ye naya roop dekh rahe the..................wo sahil jisne apne kisi bade se aaj tak juban tak nahi ladayi thi, aaj apne baap ki umar ke shakhs ko buri tarah se peet raha tha............ Sab log chuchap khade dekh rahe the ......sahil ko rok pana ab kisi ke bas me nhi tha.....bade chacha ka bête aur chhote chacha unko chudane ki kosis me apni haddiya tudawa chuke the ............ “sahil ruk jao............” is bar sahil ko utha hua hath ruk gaya,uske papa samne aa gaye the....... “hat jaiye papa , mujhe jo bhi kaha gaya maine sab bardasht kar liya........lekin meri juhi ko hath laga diya is kutte ne............meri zindagi hai juhi......jaan hai meri...........usko hath laga diya is kamine ne ........”sahil ne papa ko bich se hatana chaha.........lekin wo nahi hate........ sahil ke shabd juhi ke dil me utar gaye.....bhare samaj me usne juhi ke sar par ijjat aur maan ki chadar daal di thi. “hat jaiye aaj mere samne se papa.....kahi aaj mai ye bhool na jau ki aapka mera koi rishta hai.............meri juhi ko hath lagaya hai is kutte ne .............iske hath todkar juhi ke kadmo me rakh dunga...............”sahil sachcmuch apne aap me nahi tha............uski aankho ki aag mano sabko jalakar bhashm kar dena chahati thi .........kisi ki himmat nahi ho rahi thi sahil ko rokne ki. Sahil ne khichakar papa ko ek taraf kar diya ............aur ek bar fir se uspar toot pada........... Niche gire bade chacha par ghuso ki barsat kar rha tha. “sahil “ kisi ne jhakjhor kar sahil ko upar ki or khicha........sahil ne ek pal ko nazre uthayi .........mummy ka zordar thappad uske galo ko jhanjhana gaya............. Zindagi me pahli bar uski maa ne sahil ke galo par thappad mara tha.......... Sahil ki aankho me aansu aa gaye........... Wo bade chacha ko chhodkar utha gya...... “maaro na mummy....maaro mujhe...........aur maro.............jaan se maar do............” sahil ek tak apni maa ki aankho me dekh raha tha.........mummy ki aankhe bhi bhar aayi. “ye sab kya ho raha hai sahil.............” mummy ne dabadabyi aankho se puchha ..........aaj zindagi me pahli bar apne ladle par hath uthaya tha. “aapke bête ka ek aur tamasha ho raha hai mummy........... aapke badnaseeb bête ki zindagi me ek aur aazamayish ho rahi hai.............ek bat puchhunga aapse...............mai sach me aapka beta hu na ? “ kya kah diya tha sahil ne aaj . “Sahil aisa mat kah mere laal...........” mummy ka dil tadap utha.... “mummy ,sab puchhte hai mai bade bhai se bat kyu nhi karta,.....aapne bhi puchha us din ...........papa ne bhi puchha ..........us bade bhai se kabhi kyu nahi puchha mummy...............” sahil ki sawal me bahut dard tha. “ye kamina kahta hai ki juhi kaun hai meri...........kya jawab du mai ...............kya naam du use jisne mujhe ek nayi zindagi di...........kya nam du use jiski baho ke sahare ne mujhe maut ke muh se wapas khich liya ............kya nam du us pari ko jisne mere toot te huye sapno me naye rang bhar diye..............mummy aaj aapke pas aapk sahil hai,kyuki uske pas juhi nam ki ye pari thi.........nahi to kab ka ja chuka hota is duniya se aapka sahil ” “sahil” mummy cheekh uthi........... Sahil ko koi fark nahi pada. “Juhi meri zindagi hai ............uski ibaadat karta hu mai ...........aur juhi ke liye mai kisi bhi had tak jaa sakta hu..........apni jaan de bhi sakta hu aur kisi ki jaan le bhi sakta hu.............sari duniya chhod dunga uske liye...........agar koi rishta mere aur meri juhi ke bich aaya , to us rishte ki kurbani dene me mujhe ek pal nahi lagega............aur agr kisi ke hath meri juhi ki or uthe ,to un hatho ko katkar uske kadmo me dal dunga.......chahe wo hath kisi ke bhi ho................apni mummy ke doodh ki kasam hai mujhe” Sahil ne aakhiri bat sab logo ko ghurte huye kahi ................uski aankhe kahar barsaa rahi thi aur ek behad khunkar chetawani thi un laal laal aankho me . Sahil ke is roop se sab log sann the ...........ek ek karke sab bahar chale gaye.........bade chacha ki aankhe me koi pachhtawa to nhi tha ............ha ek sharmindagi thi .............us sahil ke hatho beijjat hone ki jo sabki ijjat karta tha ................. Ghar ke andar ab bas sahil aur uski family rah gay the.................. Sahil ne juhi ko apne gale se lagaya .............juhi abhi bhi ro rahi thi .............lekin ab sahil ke andar koi jhijhak ,koi sharam nahi thi...............juhi ko khud se lagaye wo chuchap kamre me chala gya.............idhar bahar renu ne mummy ko sari bat suru se lekar ant tak sab kuchh bata diya. Mummy ki aankho me aansu aa gye.................dheerja bhi kafi gum sum sa tha...use bhi shayad ahsaas ho rha tha lekin bahut jyada der ho chuki thi. Lekin sabse jyada udasi jis chehre par thi wo thi badi didi................... Juhi ka har wo shabd “ kaha thi badi bahan us waqt” didi ki dil ko chhalani kar gaya tha......wo to itani majboor thi ki ek sabd apni safai me na bol payi.....didi uthakar apne kamre me chali gayi aur darwaza band kar ke foot foot kar rone lagi...............kathghare me khade kisi gunge mujrim jaisi halat ho gayi thi unki.............bas ro hi paa rahi thi wo. “ye kaisa imtehaan hai mere rab...jisme har taraf meri haar hi haar hai “...... bas itna hi kah payi wo apne rab se , baki sari shikayat aansuo ke roop me tootkar bah nikali. Papa bahar nikale .......unka man bhi bahot udas ho gya tha......aisa kya hua tha sahil ke sath dilli me ??? ye sawal unka man kachot raha tha.....aaj unhe samajh me aa rha tha ki sahil dhheraj se bat kyu nahi karta tha aur wo yha aane ke liye taiyar kyu nahi ho raha tha..........juhi aur sahil dono ki baten unke dil me ghoom rahi thi............lekin ghar se bahar nikalte hi unhe bahut aascharya hua..............keval bade chacha aur unke bête ko chhodkar sab log bahar hi baithe the............dono bua daudi huyi aayi aur unke pairo se lipat gayi............... “ hame maaf kar dijiye bhaiya........hamne jane kya kya kah diya...............” sahil ke papa ne khud ko chhudaya aur age badh gaye...........aaj unke inhi apno ki vajah se unka beta unke khilaf bol gya tha.......unhe nafarat ho rahi thi apne in apno se. Idhar sahil juhi ko kamre me lejkar bade pyar se bed par take lgakar bitha deta hai........aur khud uske samne baithkar uske dono hath apne hatho me le leta hai............. “plss ab mat rowo sona” sahil ne badi muhabbat se juhi ke aansuo ke saf karte huye kaha jo abhi bhi hichkiyo le lekar sisak rahi thi. “I m sorry juhi......sab meri vajah se hua............sorry ....maf kar do na yar......” Juhi ne sahil ke hath apne hatho me jor se daba liya.................... “nahi sahil aap ki vajah se kuchh nhi hua.............aapne kya kiya.............” juhi bas itna hi boli................uske dil me ek sukoon tha..........bhare samaaj me sabke khilaf jakar sahil ne apni zindagi kaha tha use...........usko apnaya tha sahil ne. “juhi ham yha nahi rukenge............chale jayeenge hum yha se...........” sahil ne juhi ke mathe ko choom liya aur use apni baho me bhar liya. “thank u sahil....aapne mera maan rakh liya....nahi to aaj mai toot jati...thank u so much sahil ...” juhi kisi bachche ke tarah sahil ke gale se lag gayi. “kaisi bat karti ho jaan........tumhare liye to mai sari duniya se takaraa jaunga..........sara jahaan chhod dunga tumhare liye........juhi tumhe mujhse koi juda nahi kar sakta .............koi bhi nahi” sahil ne kaskar juhi ko khud me samet liya. Sham ke 4 baj gaye the aur sahil ki mummy sab logo ko ghar me wapas le aayi thi ....badi bua,chhoti bua,chachi..............sab the lekin ab tewar pahle wale nahi the ............sab badle badle se the aur chehre par ek sharmindagi thi ...............bas bade chacha nahi aaye the. Sab kcuhh normal sa ho gya tha...........shadi ki sari rashme ho rahi thi lekin juhi aur sahil nahi aaye the bahar.........kaun kya sochata hai ab unhe is bat se koi fark bhi nahi padna tha......... Sahil aur juhi ekdusre ke baho me jane kab so gaye the aur unki neend khuli jab darwaze par kisi ne khat khat ki aawaz ki. Juhi ki jaise hi aankh khuli use apni sthiti ka andaza hua......rat ke 8 baj chuke the....shadi wala ghar aur itani der se wo dono akele ek room me ...........ufffff !! log kya soch rahe honge........aakhir thi to wo ek ladki hi na. Usne jaldi se sahil ko uthaya aur darwaza khola...........mummy thi saamne .......unke chehre par ek muskaan thi .......jaise kuchh hua hi na ho.......mano unhone kuchh faisla kar liya ho. “disturb to nhi kiya na beta..............” unhone ne muskuar kar bade pyar se puchha . “nahi aunty...aaiye na.........” juhi ko behad Sharma aa rahi thi ............ Mummy andar aayi aur sahil ke pas baith gayi............... “I m sorry beta........” unhone sahil ke kandhe par hath rakhte huye kaha... “aisa mat kahe mummy ...........plss......lekin mai yha ruk nahi sakta “ sahil ne dheere se kaha. “nahi beta ............dekh renu ne mujhe sab bataya...........jo hua use bhool ja.....mai ye to nahi kahungi ki dheeraj ko maf kar de.....lekin bhai to hai na wo tera...bas isi khatir kal ruk ja fir chale jana............” mummy ki baton me ek iltiza thi....lekin sahil ki aankho me juhi ke sath hua hadasaa ghoom raha tha.............. “please mummy ..........i m sorry “ sahil ne kaha aur uthkar bahar aa gya ....pichhe pichhe mummy bhi aa gayi......... “rook ja sahil ........tujhe aarti ki kasam “ mummy ke muh se achanak nikal gaya. Uffffffff!!!!!!!!!kya kah diya tha mummy ne...............jab sahil chhota tha to aksar us se koi bat manwane ke liye renu aur dheeraj use aarti ki kasam de dete the .......aur sahil kabhi bhi aarti ki kasam nahi todata tha .................ye sab ko pata tha.......kabhi kabhi didi bhi bol deti ..............lekin aaj itane salo ke bad use mummy ne aarti ki kasam de di thi............. Sahil ka dil ro raha tha........usne mummy ki or se muh fer liya aur apni aankhe ragad dali...........aansu rook nahi rahe the.....us se bardasht nahi hua aur wo teji se aage badh gaya.......bas itana bolta gaya............ “thik hai ,aap juhi se puchh lijiye” Mummy ne anjaane me aaj us jakhm ko hawa de di thi jo kabhi nahi bharne wala tha.........sahil lakh aarti ko bewfa kahta,lakh wo use bhoolne ki kosis karta ,lekin wo to uski nas-nas me basi thi, masoom bachpan ki wo msoom yaden uske rom rom me rachi thi........kaisi nikalti bhala wo bahar...........iska ahsaas khud sahil ko bhi nahi tha. Mummy juhi ke pas pahuchi ............ “juhi” bade pyar se uske sar par hath pherte huye unhone kaha. “jee” juhi ne sar jhukaye bas dheere se itna hi kaha. “beta mujhe nahi pata sahil ke sath kya hua............dheeraj ne aur uski didi ne uska sath kyu nahi diya........aur abhi shayad sahi waqt bhi nahi hai ye puchhne ka............lekin tumne jo mere sahil ke liye kiya hai wo mujhe sahil ki aankho me nazar aata hai...............agar sahil ko kuchh ho jata to mai bhi jee na pati..” mummy bade pyar se juhi se bat kar rhi thi. Juhi bas chuchap sun rahi thi........... “lekin beta dheeraj ka to mai maan bhi lu, par uski didi.........dil nahi manta .........wo sahil ko mujhse jyada pyar karti thi ........sahil uska dulara tha.........aur .aarti me to sahil ki jaan basti thi..........aur aarti bhi use itna manti thi.................mujhe nahi pata ki kya hua ..........aur abhi mai janna bhi nahi chahati..............ek bar ye shadi ho jaye fir sab kuchh puchhungi............lekin tab tak ke liye tumse ek vinti hai........”sahil ki mummy ne juhi ke age hath jod diye. “aisa na kahe aunty ...maine aapko maa ki tarah samjha hai....bole kya hukm hai.........” juhi ne unke hath tham liye. “beta jo kuchh tumhare sath hua uske liye maaf kar do....aisa ab kuchh nahi hoga......., bas is shadi tak yha ruk jao.....sahil ko bhi mana lo.......agar sahil chala gaya to uske papa bilkul toot jayenge..........plsss...ek maa ki prarthana hai tumse............”mummy ki aankhe bhar aayi. “hum nahi jayenge aunty ...aap koi tension mat lijiye............us bat ka jikar bhi nahi hoga ab shadi tak yha ....sab kuchh achche se hoga....mujh par bharosa rakhiye...” juhi bade atmaad se bol rahi thi. “jug jug jiyo meri bachchi.......khus raho....” “ juhi ek bat puchhu........” mummy ne uske mathe ko choom liya aur fir halki si muskan ke sath puchha. “jee ,puchhiye na” juhi ke to khwabo me bhi nahi tha ki mummy kya puchhengi. “mai tere abbu se bat karu kya..........” mummy ne kaha. “ jee kaun si bat” juhi samjh nahi payi .........itti bholi thi ya fir shayad use is samay ummeed nahi thi........ “teri aur sahil ki bat ........bol na ...............banegi mere sahil ki dulhan................hummm..” mummy ne pyar se uske chin ko pakad kar uske gulabi ho chuke mukhade ko upar uthaya. Juhi to sharam ke mare laal ho gayi....kuchh nahi boli...bas muskurati rahi sar jhuka kar ...... “bol na beta...mujhe duniya samaj , kisi ki parwah nahi hai....tu to mujhe pahli nazar me hi bha gayi thi...tabhi maine socha tha ki apne sahil ki dulhan tujhe hi banaungi...........pasand hai na sahil tujhe....pyar karti hai na use se?” mummy juhi ki khamsohi se hi samjh chuki thi uske man ka haal ....aur is bar juhi ne dheere se ha me sar hilaya aur unke gale lag gayi. “meri bachchi......bas ye shadi ho jane de.........fir teri doli bhi yahi aayegi.......” mummy ne uski peshani choom li aur use gale se laga liya. Renu jo sabkuchh sun chuki thi andar aa gayi................. “mummy aapne to meri dusri bhabhi bhi pasand kar li............ummm...........maine to pahle hi kaha tha..........” aur ab renu juhi ke sar par sawar thi..........dono ke bich nanad-bhabhi wali nok jhok suru ho gayi thi aur mummy haste huye bahar nikal gayi. Renu ,mummy aur papa , sabke man me ye sawal tha ki sahil ke sath kya hua tha aur kyu hua tha ....lekin kal shadi thi aur aaj wo is bat ko uthana nahi chahte the ....isliye sabne jitna ho sakta tha sab kuchh normal karne ki kosis ki thi ...aur sabkuchh normal ho bhi gaya tha.......bas do log udas the ..........ek sahil,aur dusri didi.....lekin dono hi apni udasi ekudsre se chhupa rahe the. Sahil ko mummy ki bat bar bar yad aa rhi thi........kaise bachapan me sab log aarti ki kasme dekar use majboor kar dete the aur wo khusi khusi majboor ho jata ......kabhi uske man me ye nahi aata ki aarti ki kasam dekar sab uska fayada uthate ....usne aarti ke liye haar janaa sikha tha.......aarti ke nam ke liye bhi haar jata tha.......jab bhi kabhi wo mana karta to sab yahi kahte-- “kya tu aarti ko bas itna hi manta hai,uske liye itna sa kam nahi kar sakta “ aur sahil kaise man leta ki wo aarti ko “itna sa “ hi “ manta “ hai......wo har bat maan leta .................sirf is bat ke liye ki mai aarti ko kitna mantaa hu wo sabkuchh haar jane ko taiyar ho jata...........lekin aaj to wo us apni jaan se pyari AARTI ko hi haar chukka tha ....fir kyu log uske naam ki duhaayi dete the......... Sahil kis se karta ye sawal ?????.............aur jiske pas iska jawab hota wo to khud uske paas nahi thi. Sahil bahar kuchh kuchh kam hota dekh raha tha aur kam karne walo ko instruction de raha tha ...........ghar ke samne bade se lawn me sabke khane peene ki vyawastha thi...........gaon me shadi k ek din pahle sare gaon walo ko khana khilaya jata hai ...wahi ho raha tha. Sahil ke aankhe bar bar nam ho rahi thi ...use aaj shiddat se AARTTI yad aa rhi thi .......... wo lakh kosis kar rha tha ki use yad na kare lekin yadon par kiska jor tha. Khud ko kamo me uljhaye huye wo apni aankhe bar bar ragad deta .... ”ek bar aa jao ,ek bar dekh lu tumhe” aaj fir se sahil ke hotho se ye sabd nikal gaye...... Us se control nahi hua aur wo chuchap ek kamre me ghus gaya aur aankhe band karke bistar par let gaya............ Sahil aankhe band karta to wahi bachapan ki nanhi si hasti khilkhilati, uske kandhe par chadhi aarti nazar aa jati.......aaj use aarti ki itani yad aa rhi thi ki aarti ki wafaa-bewafai ...sabkuchh bahut door thi.......aaj yad thi to bas aarti...sirf aur sirf aarti..................aaj sahil ka dil is kadar uske dimag par hawi ho gya tha ki use ye bhi yad nahi tha ki juhi bhi koi hai............kitna galat tha kitna sahi,ye kahana to bahut muskil hai lekin is samay sirf dil tha ,dimag kahi nahi tha aas pas. “ek bar apni aawaz hi suna do “ uske dil se aawaz nikali thi.........sahil aaj fir se haar raha tha.......uske man ka dwand aaj ek bhayanak shakl le raha tha....use nahi pata tha ki ye kyu hai....kyu ek “ BEWAFA “ ke liye wo tadap raha hai.........lekin wo tadap rahaa tha ...bahut buri tarah se. Wo aise hi bistar par pada tha ...shadi ka ghar hone ke vajah se sab saman idhar udhar bikhara tha ...kuchh hi minute beete the ki usi bistar me lipta kisi ka phone ghanghana utha....do bar ring aa aakar cut gayi ...........sahil ignore kar rha tha .......lekin is bar sahil ne phone dhunda ................bed sheet me lipta hua wo phone didi ka tha.............aur screen par nazar padi to sahil ki aankho me bhare aansu palko ke darwaze tod kar bahar nikalne lage...........screen par jagmaga raha tha ---------- AARTI CALLING. Sahil ke dil ki aawaz aaj fir aarti ke dil ne sun li thi..................Sahil ne kaapte hatho se phone uthaya aur call reciceve kar li................ “hello” .............uffffffffff ...kitni dino bad aaj aarti ki aawaz uske kano me padi thi............lekin us aawaz me ab wo pahle wali khanak nahi thi............sahil phone kano se lagaye the aur aansu aankho se bah rahe the ..........kuchh bol nahi paa raha tha wo...........bas us aawaz ki thandak apne dil me mahsoos kar rha tha. “hello...hello.............kaun?????.........s..sa...sahil” aarti ne sahil ki khamoshi bhi sun li thi..... sahil ke dil ka rom rom tadap utha ...uska bas nahi chal raha tha ki aarti ke seene se lag jaye...........bas aansu bah rahe the aur wo chuchap aarti ki saanse mahsoos kar raha tha. “sahil aap thik ho na.............kuchh bolo sahil.........kaise ho aap ” aarti ka ek ek sabd khanjar ki tarah sahil ke kaleje ko cheer raha tha. Usse aur bardasht nahi hua....usne phone band kar diya aur jor jor se rone laga..........wo aaj 5 sal pahle wale sahil ke jaise ro raha tha ..........tab jab aarti ne use thukaraya tha............sahil jo ek chattan ki tarah apne farz aur desh ke liye taiyar rahta tha,jiske hausle par pure department ko naaz tha,ek ladki ke liye aise tadap raha tha jaise pani ke bin machhli............jab bhi aarti ki bat aa jati wo chattan tut jati ,wo patthar pighal jata ....aaj bhi wahi ho raha tha. Wo buri tarah se bilakha raha tha ....achanak apne kandhe par use kisi ke hath ka ahsaas hua........usne aansuo se bhari aankhe uthakar dekha.............didi khadi thi aur unki aankho me bhi aansu the...............sahil ko kuchh samajh me nahi aaya ........usne didi ki kamar ko jor se pakad liya aur unse lipatakar buri tarah se rone laga. “use wapas laa do didi.......plss......use wapas la do..........plssssssssss didi...plsss...” sahil ko khud pata nahi tha ki wo kya kah raha hai...wo aaj hosh me hi kaha tha..................muhabbat aaj use rula rahi thi aur wo muhabbat ke hatho majboor ro raha tha. Juhi ki muhabbat sahil ki khuskismati thi, lekin aarti ki muhabbat uski majboori thi.........ek aisi majboori jise na sahil kisi ko samjhaa sakta tha aur jise na koi samajh sakta tha. Ufffff!!!!! kash ye muhabbat na hoti,to shayad samandar itna khara na hota. Sahil didi ko pakad kar roye ja rha tha.............didi uske balo me hath pher rhi thi lekin use chup nhi kara rahi thi..........bahut der tak rota raha sahil us bich kayi bar aarti ka phone aaya lekin didi ne nhi uthaya....aakhir kisi tarah se sahil ne apne aap ko sambhala aur bahar jane laga.........didi ko kuchh nhi kaha............lekin didi ko shyad uske kuchh kahne se pahle hi sab samjh me aa chukka tha. Sahil door ke pas pahucha hi tha ki didi ki aawaz uske kano me padi....... “aarti se bat kar lo sahil.......”didi ne phone uski or badhate huye kaha.........sahil chand kadam andar aaya,didi ki aankho me dekha aur fir wapas mud gaya...............saHil ke upar ek nashaa sawaar tha .......wo kya kar rha tha ,kyu kar rha tha wo khud nhi janta tha.........lekin usne aarti se bat nhi ki aur bahar chala gya........ Sahil ki aankhe laal ho gyi thi ek dam ............wo apne kamre me chala gya jis me wo kuchh der pahle tha.......juhi ke sath.........juhi use dikh nhi rahi thi aur waise bhi abhi us par aarti ki khumari chhayi thi ............. Sahil chuchap bistar par let gya.....kuchh hi pal beete the ki juhi sahil ke kamre me aa gayi............sahil ko leta dekh wo paresan ho gyi........... “sahil aap thik ho na..........” usne sahil ke mathe ko chhute huye kaha. Juhi ke hatho ki chhuwan se sahil ki aankhe khul gayi....... Juhi ne sahil ki aankho me dekha .........sahil ki laal aankhe dekh kar juhi tadap uthi......usne turant pas rakhi oil ki bottle li aur sahil ka sar dabane lagi.............. Juhi ke chehre par dard ki rekhaye saf dikh rhi thi...........sahil ki halat dekh kar wo samjh gyi thi ki fir se kuchh hua hai.............juhi jo mummy se bat ke bad se kafi khus thi is waqt sahil ki halat dekh kar udas thi ....sahil ek tak use dekhe ja rha tha.............. Ab tak sahil ko wo yad aa rha tha jo uske aur aarti ke bich tha.............wo bachpan,wo muhabbat .........lekin ab juhi ke wo hath aur juhi ka wo udas chehra use kuchh aur hi yad dila raha tha............. Sahil ko juhi ka har karam yad aane lgaa.......... “kya nhi kiya is masoom si jaan ne mere liye.............mai iski baho me tadap kar roya .....isne mujhse muhabbat thi, fir bhi mera sath us waqt diya jab mai apni muhabbat ke liye rota tha...........kitna bada dil hai iska jo apni muhabbat ko kisis aur ke liye rota dekhkar bhi use apne seene se laga leti thi..........aur aaj yha......mere liye sare jamane se lad gayi................kitna neech insaan hu mai ..........iski muhabbat ko bhi dhokha de rha hu.............aarti meri muhabbat thi ......aur mai sirf apne swarth ke bare me soch rha hu..........iske bare me nhi soch rha.......kyu aayi hai ye yha........kiske liye................” sahil ka man bahut bhari ho gya.............khud se nafarat hone lagi use........usne juhi ka hath apne hatho me le liya............... Juhi ruk gayi .......sahil ki aankho me bade pyar se dekhte huye boli......... “kya hua sahil .......koi problem hai” Sahil uski or dekhta raha...............aur fir uth baitha............ “juhi mere sath kya hua hai sab janti ho tum................juhi mai kayi bar kuchh kamjor lamho ka shikar ho jata hu...........us samay mujhe yad nhi rahta ki kya sahi hai aur kya galat...........lekin juhi mera bharosa karna......sahil sirf tumhara hai..........mai zindagi bhar tumhara hi rahunga.” Sahil jaane juhi ko bata rha tha ya khud ko. “sahil hmne aapko apna sabkuchh man liya hai........aur hum us muhabbat me yakeen rakhte hai jisme rishte ek aazadi ka ahssas dete hai us muhabbat me nhi jisme ghutan ka ahsaas ho.....hme apni muhabbat ki shiddat par yakeen hai sahil..........jo hamara hai wo hamare pas aayega........isliye hum uske pichhe nhi bhagte ...................bas apni muhbbat nibhate jate hai............agar wo hamara hua to hamre pas laut aayega...........” juhi bol kar chup ho gyi aur sahil ko lag rha tha jaise har sabd usko sharminda karta ja rha tha......... “kitna kamjor nikla re tu sahil” sahil ki antar-aatma use dhikkar rhi thi. “nhi mai kamjor nhi hu.......mai juhi se pyar karta hu.....aur poori zindagi usi se karta rahunga...........” sahil ne ek bar fir pran kiya apne man me . Wo rat aakhir beet gayi..........dusre din Rahul bhi aa gya..........rahul aur renu ka wahi luka-chhipi ka khel chalta raha.......rohan ab kabhi renu ke aas pas bhi nhi dikhta.............dusre din shadi hokar dulhan bhi aa gyi. Juhi ne ghar ke andar shadi ki har jimmedari sambhal li thi...............mummy jitni bar use dekhti apne bête ki pasand par unhe naaj hota aur juhi ke liye dua nikalti. Aakhir himmat karke rahul ne sahil se bat kar hi li..............sahil ne rahul ke sab batane par renu ke sath uske rishte ke liye papa se bat ki aur rahul aur renu ka rishta bhi tay ho gya...........mummy papa ne delhi jakar sarfaraz sahib se milkar sahil aur juhi ki bat bhi tay karne ki planning kar li ......................vaise phone par sari bat ho chuki thi ..............sarfaraz saheb ko kya aitraaz hota bhala .......to sahil aur juhi ka rishta bhi tay ho gya bas kuchh ek formality rah gyi thi ....................aur is rishte ke tay hone me sabse bada role khud sahil ka hi tha..............mummy ke puchhne par usne saf saf kah diya ki wo jald se jald juhi se shadi karna chahta hai. ................Wo nhi chahta tha ki wo kisi kamjor chhad me koi aisa kadam uthaye ki juhi ke dil ko thes pahuche. (*** Dosto hmne rahul ki story ko skip kar diya. ek bar bich me hamne likha tha ki sahil ko bahut gussa aaya rahul aur renu ke affair ka soch kar, lekin agr hum wo kahani likhne lage to fir kam se kam 10 udate lag jayenge usme.......isliye use chho rahe hai***) Sahil ne khud ko badalane ki kosis aur tej kar di ................is kosis ka ek aham hissa tha har bat me juhi ke liye muhabbat ................aur juhi ke liye jitni shiddat se muhabbat hoti aarti ke liye use se kayi guna jyada nafarat hoti............sahil ke samne koi aarti ka nam le leta to wo wha nhi rukta.............pta nhi ye sachmuch nafarat thi ya fir sahil ki aarti se door bhagne ki ek kosis. JYOTI, dheeraj ki wife,aur sahil ki nayi naveli bhabhi......hasmukh,khubsoorat aur seedhi sadhi ladki thi...............sahil unse bahut pyar se bat karta lekin jaise hi dheeraj se samanaa hota wo khamosh ho jata. Aaj bhi sahil, juhi, didi aur renu sab whi jyoti ke aas pas baithe hasi majak kar rhe the....didi baithi to thi lekin ekdam khamosh thi..............jabki baki sab chahak rhe the ................renu to bahut hi khus thi.................aakhir use uski muhabbat jo mil gayi thi. Dheere dheere karke sab log chale gaye .........juhi ke papa ka phone aa gya aur wo bhi bahar chali gayi..........sirf sahil aur uski bhabhi rah gaye the............... “sahil aapse kuchh bat karni hai............” jyoti boli. “jee bhabhi boliye na” sahil ko guman bhi nhi tha ki jyoti kya bat karegi..... “sahil aap jante hain hamare papa ne mana kyu kiya tha yha shadi ke liye jabki ek bar sab tay ho chukka tha to” Sahil janta to sab tha,lekin chup raha....... “jee nhi” sahil apne bhai ka maan rakhne ki kosis kar rha tha . “sahil aapke bhaiya ne dilli me ek bahut ghinauni harkat kar di thi...............wo....is se aage ham nhi bata sakte..............” jyoti thodi si mayoos lag rhi thi.......... “aur fir hamne hi papa ko phone karke kaha ki hme inse shadi nhi karni...........” jyoti boli. “to fir aapke papa ne ab kyu phone karke haa kiya yha par shadi ke liye..............” sahil ke man me ye sawal aana normal tha. “sahil kuchh din pahle hamare yha aarti aayi thi................” jyoti bolti gayi, aur na chahte huye bhi sahil sunta gaya. “sahil aarti ne hme samjhaya ki tumhare bhaiya ki galti utani badi nhi thi jitni hme laga.............papa to kiya tha inhone ..............lekin us paap ko karwane wali ne bhi inhe faansa tha.........aarti ne hme samjhaya ki jab kisi se muhabbat kar li to ek mauka to dena banta hi hai.............aapke bhaiya ko us din hamne do sal bad phone kiya to ye bhi bahut sharminda the, ro rhe the.............hmne pyar kiya tha sahil .........kya karte pighal gaye.” Sahil chuchap sunta raha.......aarti ka jikar use achchha nhi lag rha tha .............lekin abhi bhabhi se kuchh kah nhi sakta tha. “bhabhi aap ye sab mujhe kyu bata rhi hai....” sahil ne bade ukhade huye lahje me kaha. “sahil aarti ne hme samjhya muhabbat kya hai.........aur uski baton me bahut dard tha,aisa laga hame..............sahil ye to sab log jante hai ki aarti ko aap se jyada pyar koi nhi karta........bachpan me hum sab yhi sunte the ki sahil-aarti ke jaise raho....... mai to ye soch ke hairan hu ki aarti ko koi takleef hai aur sahil ko pta nhi hai........aisa kaise ho sakta hai sahil.. khair, ho sake to kuchh kijiye aarti ke liye.....use jaroor koi takleef hai sahil......plzzzzzzzz..............use aapki jaroorat hai sahil .............help kijiye uski.” jyoti sahil ke door ke rishte me aati thi aur kayi bar wo pahle bhi sahil ke gaon aayi thi chhote par ....sahil aur aarti ka pyar sablo pata tha. Sahil jitna aarti se door bhag rha tha takdeer utna hi uska imtehaan le rahi thi.........sahil kuchh nhi bola...........chuchap uthkar bahar chala gya. Uske dil me ek jwalamukhi foot rha tha........kya karta wo aarti ke liye ..........kaise bhabhi ko batata ki aarti ne use nikal fenka apni zindagi se, sahil ke sare haq chhin liye khud par se......thukra diya uski bachpan ki muhabbat ko ........sahil se hath chhuda kisi aur ka daman tham liya usne..........kaise batata ki kitna tadpa hai use bewafa ke liye. Sahil kuchh nhi bola,bas apne aansu chupke se ponchh liye............lekin aaj shayad uske sabar ka imtehaan tha....... Dheeraj mil gya baramade me...........aur koi nhi tha wha........... “sahil .....ek minute meri bat sun le please..................plsss sahil” dheeraj ne hath jod diye chhote bhai ke samne ,sahil ruk gya ............ “aa idhar bas kuchh der baith ja mere pas............” Sahil na chahte huye bhi baith gya dheeraj ke sath........... “sahil jo kuchh maine kiya uski saja tujhe mili.......iske liye mujhe kabhi maaf mat karna..........lekin teri aur aarti ki batchit band hai,itna pata hai mujhe.........in sab me aarti ka kya kasoor hai.............wo to teri ladli thi, us se kyu naraz hai tu.............”dheeraj ne itana hi bola aur sahil gusse se khada ho gya.... “kah liya aapne jo kahna tha ........”sahil aage badhne ko hua to dheeraj ne uska hath pakad kar fir baitha diya. “sahil sun kuchh bataana hai tujhe.......we sab kuchh hone ke lagbhag 1 mahine bad aarti ne mujhe bulaya apne ghar .......jeeja ne mana kiya tha ki mai wha kabhi na jau....lekin aarti ne jabrdasti ki aur mai wha gaya..........”dheeraj bolta gya aur sahil sunta raha.............. “jaise hi mai ghar ke andar pahucha............... “ tu yha ?????....himmat kaise huyi teri yha aane ki............sale jaan se maar dunga aaj tujhe .....” jeeja use ghar me dekhte hi nafarat se garaz kar bole. “nikal ja abhi ke abhi............” jeeja ne dheeraj ka baju pakad liya aur bahar nikalne lage. “rukiye papa, maine bulaya hai unhe..............”aarti ki aawaz par sab chaunk gaye. Jeeja bhi aarti ko dekh kar thode thande ho gye................ “wah beti wah............baap ke bat ki koi keemat nhi...sahi kiya tune..........” jeeja behad nirash lag rhe the.jabki didi aur rohan wahi sar jhukaye khade sab dekh rahe the. “aarti....in sab ka khoon ganda hai....sale jis thali me khate hai usi me chhed karte hain...........ye bhi aur iska bhai bhi..........ha aarti, sahil bhi isi gande khoon ka hissa hai............uska khoon bhi ganda hai...bol ise nikal jaye....nhi to aaj mai sab kuchh bhool jaunga.” Jeeja ka gussa dekh dheeraj sakte me aa gya...... “papa,ek bat puchhu.............”aarti ne bade dheeme kintu thahre huye lahje me kaha. Jeeja kuchh nhi bole................... “iske andar kiska khoon hai papa..........” aarti ne Rohan ko aage kar diya jeeja ke samne. Jeeja sann rah gaye............ye kya puchh rahi thi aarti.............unhe yakeen nhi aa raha tha ki unki laadli aaj ye sawal kar rhi hai. “boliye papa kiska khoon hai iske andar, aapka to nhi hoga....kyuki aapka khoon to ganda nhi hai na............” aarti ki bat poori huyi hi thi ki jeeja ka ek jordar thappad uske gaal laal kar gaya. Zindagi me pahli bar jeeja ne aarti par hath uthaya tha..........rohan kaanp gaya............lekin aaj aarti ka ek naya roop dekh rahe the sab..... “maariye papa.........jaan se mar dijiye.........lekin agar ek bhai ka khoon ganda ho jane se dusre bhai ka khoon ganda ho jata hai ,to ek bête ka khoon tabhi ganda hoga jab uske baap ka khoon ganda hoga.........haan papa...........aapke bête ka khoon bhi ganda hai..........aapka khoon bhi ganda hai...........kyuki jo galti bade mama ne ki hai, wahi galti aapke bête ne renu mausi ke sath bhi ki hai.......puchh lijiye is se............” aarti ki aankho se aansu bah rahe the aur uska chehra gusse se laal tha.use sab kaise pata chala koi nahi janta tha. Jeeja aage badhe............”rohan bol ki ye jhooth hai” .......rohan kya bolta. Jeeja ke thapaddon ne uske chehre ka haal bigada diya............mummy na pakad leti to shayad aaj rohan ki jaan le lete papa. Aarti chuchap ro rahi thi...........papa sar jhukaye jameen par baith gaye............... “gussa aaya na papa...........i m sorry papa.............mujhe maf kar dijiyega is badtamiji ke liye.............lekin papa mujhe bhi gussa aaya tha.............jab aapne sahil mama par yahi ilzaam lagaya tha........papa sahil mama ka khoon kaise ganda ho gya...........wo to aapke hero the............kya nhi kiya unhone mere liye.......jante hai kyu kiya............kyuki wo sapana dekhne wali aankhe meri thi ,lekin wo sapanaa aapka tha....unhone aapke sapne ke liye sab kiya tha papa...... ..aur aapne kisi aur ki galtiyo ki sajaa suna di unhe..............ek dewata ke gale me fansi ka fandaa dal diya........aapne galat kiya papa.........bahut galat kiya aapne..............sahil ro kar gaye yha se...............mera kaleja chhalani ho gya papa.” Aarti bhi whi papa ke pas baith gayi aur unke kandhe par sar rakhkar rone lagi. Jo aarti kabhi papa ke khilaf ek lafz nahi bardasht karti thi, kabhi unse unchi aawaz me bat nhi karti thi,, aaj usne papa ko aayina dikha diya tha...........kyuki is bar kalank uske devta par laga diya tha unhone, jiski wo apne man mandir me rakhkar pooja karti thi. “jeeja galti meri thi ...........mai ek bahkave me aa gya.........” dheeraj ne wo sare love letters jeeja ke samne rakh diye jo varsha ne use likha tha........lekin antim palo me saf mukar gayi ki dheeraj us se jabardasti kar rha tha. Jeeja aaj zindagi me pahli bar foot foot kar ro rahe the ....aarti ko gale laga liya unhone.............. “mujhe maaf kar de meri jaan.........i m sorry beta................” aarti bhi papa se lipat gayi aur wo dono bilakh bilakh kar rone lage. Dheerj kah kar chup ho gya.............uski aankh me aansu the..............lekin sahil abhi bhi patthar ki ek murat bana hua tha............ “sahil, aarti tere liye jeeja se takraa gayi bhai.............wo aaj bhi tujhe bahut manti hai.....fir kyu nhi bat karte tum dono................aisa kya ho gya yar.......” dheeraj ne aaj shayad zindagi me pahli bar koi achcha kam kiya tha.... Sahil kuchh nhi bola....uske andar ke jwalamukhi ka lava foot gaya tha aur ab wo sahil ke dil ko jhulsa raha tha. Sahil juhi ke liye apni muhabbat ko sabit karne me is kadar gum tha ki use kuchh samajh me nhi aaya ....uske dil me bas yahi chal raha tha ki aarti ki muhabbat dhokha aur juhi ki muhabbat nishpaap.........aur wo ise sabit karna chah raha tha...............zindagi ke rahe itani kathin ho gayi thi ki sahil sahi galat ka faisla nhi kar paa rha tha. Sahil juhi ke sath lucknow wapas aa gya tha .....papa ko bhi sath laya tha...unhe kuchh heart problem thi ....lucknow ke doctor ne delhi refer kar diya tha aur aaj sahil aur juhi dono papa ko lekar delhi ke ek famous hospital me admit the............... Koi serious issue nhi tha par ahtiyat ke liye admit ho gaye the wo. Sahil aur juhi papa ke room se bahar nikle, canteen ki or ja rhe the.......tabhi sahil ki nazar kisi par padi................. “VISHAL” sahil ke muh se nikla. “aap jante hai use...........” juhi ne sahil ko kuchh dur par khade ek young doctor ki or ghurate huye dekhkar puchha...........wo kisi lady doctor se bat kar rha tha.............. Sahil ne juhi ka hath pakada aur unke opposite direction me chal pada.............. “sahil kaun hai wo.........” juhi hairan thi ............sahil ke chehre par ek sakhti thi .......wo kuchh nhi bol rha tha......... Juhi ko kuchh dar sa lag rha tha.............. “sahil meri kasam, kaun hai wo............” juhi ruansi ho gayi........ “aarti ka pati.............”sahil ne badi muskil se kaha. Juhi ka muh khula ka khula rah gya ..........usne chalet chalet hi pichhe palat kar dekha............uski aankhe aur badi ho gayi...............wo ladka us lady doctor ko kiss kar rha tha ........tanhayi dekhkar ek kone me dono ek dusre me buri tarah se lage huye the. Juhi ne sahil ka hath pakad kar jor se khicha aur dono palat gaye.................. Wo kafi door the ...............lekin corridor ekdam seedha tha to sab saf saf dikh rha tha.............. Sahil ne dekha ..............aur fir wapas chal diya, jaise kuchh hua hi na h................juhi ko bahut hairani ho rahi thi sahil ke behavior par. “sahil wo aarti ka husband hai..............kya kar rha hai wo...........sahil apni aarti ka husband...............” juhi bolti rahi lekin sahil uska hath pakde chalta raha............ab wo dusri or se chalakar canteen me pahuch gaye................sahil ke dil me kya chal raha tha wahi jane, lekin chehre se yahi dikha raha tha ki kuchh hua hi nahi.... Sahil ne kuchh order kiya aur wait karne laga..................juhi ka chehara gusse se bhabhak raha tha......... “sahil ye kya hai..........” juhi ne kaha. “kya hua” sahil ne jabrdast ignore kiya. “aap se ye ummeed nhi thi sahil.............” “kya kiya maine...........” “damn it!! Kya kiya aapne??????? jo kuchh aapne dekha uska matlab nhi jante aap.................”juhi rone lagi. “ wo dhoka de raha hai aarti ko...............aapki aarti ko dhokha de raha hai sahil........aapki aarti ki zindagi se khel raha hai............aapki aarti ki zindagi barbad kar rha hai............aapne kaise bardasht kar liya sahil...........apni aarti ko barbda hote kaise dekh liya aapne............ap wo sahil nhi ho jise hm jante hai, jis se hum muhabbat karte hai,,,...wo sahil nahi ho jiski ham ibadat karte hai........” juhi foot foot kar ro rahi thi aur sahil sunn ho gaya tha.............. Uske kan me juhi ke sabdo ne tufan macha diya tha............wo jaise kisi jadu ke prabhav se bahar aa gya tha........juhi ke wo sabd uske dil ko aaj ek bar fir cheer gaye............... “aapki aarti ko barbad kar rha hai sahil, use dhokah de rahaa hai sahil.......aapne kaise bardasht kar liya sahil ” ye sabd jaise sahil ke rom rom me aag laga rhe the........... Sahil tufan ki tarah canteen se uda tha ..............gallery se bhagta hua wha pahucha jaha vishal tha......... Jab tak sahil wha pahuchata wo car me us lady ke sath baithkar nikalta dikh gya............sahil us car ke pichhe paglo ki tarah bhagne laga.........uski aankho se jhar jhar aansu bah rhe the.......... “meri aarti ko dhokha de raha hai, meri masoom aarti ko..........uski zindagi ke sath khel raha hai..........meri aarti ki zindagi barbad kar rha hai.............duniya ko aag laga dunga usko kuchh kiya hoga kisi ne to” Sahil paglo ki tarah daud raha tha.....aaj use fir se wahi bachapan ki aarti nazar aa rhi thi, aaj fir uski aarti par aanch aa gyi thi..............aaj fir mano use aarti bahe failaya apni or bula rahi thi, aa jao mujhe bacha lo................us aarti ki poori zindagi ki khusiya daw par lagi thi jiski ek chhoti si khusi ke liye sahil kisi se bhi lad jata tha ..........kuchh bhi kar jata tha......aaj to sawal uski zindagi ka tha.........aaj sahil ko kaun rok sakta tha........aarti ki zindagi me lage grahan ko door karne ke liye aaj fir uska sahil sabkuchh pichhe chhodkar aarti ki khusi ki pichhe bhag raha tha. Pyar ka ye rishta hi aisa tha...............aarti ki khusiyo par kisi gham ka saya mandraye aur sahil na aaye, aisa to shayad kudarat ka kanoon hi nhi tha.............sahil aaj apni jindagi ke liye bhag raha tha..........bas use ahsaas nhi tha is bat ka....dekhna bas itna tha ki is bar aarti ki khusiya use laakar de pata hai ki nhi uska sahil. Kahaan hoti hai aisi muhabbat ?............juhi jaisi muhabbat, jisne aaj sahil ko uski aarti ki khusi ke liye bhej diya tha,- aarti jaisi muhabbat jisne apne pyar ke liye apne papa se unke khoon ka rang puchh liya tha ....sahil jaisi muhabbat ,- jo har kadam par tootne ke bad bhi apni “bewafa” muhabbat ki khusi ke liye paglo ki tarah bhag raha tha. Dosto muhabbat ho jaiye kisi ke sath, to aise hi nibha dena, dil ko sukoon mil jayega. Sahil paglo ki tarah us car ke pichhe bhag rha tha jisme uski aarti ki khusiya luti ja rhi thi.......lagbhag 1 km bhagta raha...............aur fir wo car ruk gayi.............shayad chalane wale ne use bhagte huye dekh liya tha......... Sahil teji se car ke paas pahucha aur jaise hi gate khula vishal ko bahar khich kar us par toot pada .........sahil ro raha tha aur vishal ko mar rha tha ............. “meri aarti ko dhokha diya tune...........us masoom ko.......”sahil bar bar bas itna hi bol raha tha......aansu to jaise uski kismat ban gaye the.............. “rukiye aap.........plssssssss” vishal ke sath jo ladki thi wo sahil ko rokane ki poori kosis kar rhi thi.........lekin sahil ek junoon sawaar tha.......... “rukiye plsss.......”is bar wo ladki vishal se lipat gayi aur sahil ke hath apne aap ruk gaye...........ladki badi dardanak nigah se uski or dekh rahi thi..........sahil ki aankho ke aansu use bahut kuchh sochane par majboor kar rhe the................ “ye kamina hai....ye aapko bhi dhokha de raha hai ..........................jaise isne meri aarti ko diya......ye married hai..............meri aarti se shadi ki hai is kamine ne.............meri aarti se..............” sahil khud ko bahut majboor mahsoos kar raha tha...... “nhi aapk ko koi galatfahmi huyi hai......ye mera fiancé vishal hai.........isne kisis ko dhokha nhi diya......” ladki ne bade bharose se kaha. “kutte chup kyu hai ????? bata ise ki jo mai kah raha hu sach hai......bata nhi to aaj sahil apni aarti ke liye har had par kar jayega............” sahil garajate huye bola Vishal kuchh nhi bol raha tha lekin uske chehre par sharmindagi ka koi bhav nhi tha...........na hi sahil ke liye koi nafarat............. “bolo vishal, batao inhe ....batao sach kya hai..............” ladki ne vishal ki aankho me dekhte huye kaha..........bada maan lag raha tha use vishal par............ “Sorry sir, aapki kisi bat ka jawab nhi hai mere pas.........aap ek rishte ka farz nibha rhe hain............samjhta hu mai...............lekin dosti ka ek vada hme bhi nibhana hai...............chahe to jaan le lijiye ..........chal suman ................” vishal ladki ke sath chuchap wapas car me baith gya......... “aarti mere pas nhi hai sir , I m sorry ” vishal ne jate-jate bas itana hi kaha aur sahil ki aankho se car ojhal ho gayi...........kuchh aisa tha vishal ki aankho aur baton me ki sahil kuchh kar na paya....na us se aur kuchh puchh paya na use rok paya... Wo chuchap hospital laut aaya........ek gahri mayoosi thi uske chehre par..........juhi ne use dekha aur bina kuchh kahe hi shayad sab kuchh samjh gayi.............. Sahil ke dil me ek toofan chal raha tha........ “ye kya ho raha hai mere sath ....kyu ho raha hai.......kya chahti hai ye kudarat mujhse...........ab jab mai use bhool jana chah raha hu to kyu wo bar bar meri raah me aa rhi hai................” “kya hua sahil.........kya kaha usne.......aapne use chhod kyu diya..........” juhi se raha nahi gaya sahil ki khamoshi dekhkar.............use lag pata tha ki is khamoshi ke pichhe ek bahut bada toofan daba pada hai. “kuchh nhi bataya usne aur wo kuchh batayega bhi nhi.............” sahil ne sar jhuka kar dheere se kaha. “to fir ????” juhi ne badi masoomiyat se puchha............ “kya karu mai juhi........” sahil aaj bahut udas ho gya tha........bas itna hi bola aur juhi ke kandhe par sar rakh diya.............ek kmajor ho rahe insaan ko khuda ne ek bahut majboot sahara de diya tha........... “sahil aaj aarti ko aapki jaroorat hai, jane aisa kyu lag raha hai mujhe..........”juhi ne kah hi diya jo uske dil me tha, apne dil par patthar rakh kar hi sahi, ..........kaisi thi uski muhabbat ????????...shayad kisi insaan ke bas ki bat to nhi thi is kadar muhabbat karna. Sahil kuchh nhi bola................ Thodi der bad sahil ke papa ko discharge kar diya gaya..........unhe lekar sahil juhi ke purane ghar pahucha....wha par ek do mulazim rahte the.............juhi ke papa ne use becha nhi tha aur kabhi kabhi wha rahne aa jate the............ Papa ki tabiyat ab thik thi..........sahil tha to unke sath lekin uska dil to kahi aur hi laga hua tha............. Juhi sahil ki halat achchhi tarah samajh rahi thi.........lekin use bhi nhi samajh me aa rha tha ki kya kare........... Sahil ne bari bari se didi ke yha sabka phone try kiya lekin kisi ka phone nhi lag rha tha...............didi ke phone par bell ja rhi thi par koi utha nahi raha tha.........aur aarti ka number to tha hi nahi sahil ke pas...........kitne dino se nahi tha ........na uske sasural ka address tha...........fir vishal ne jate jate kaha tha ki aarti mere pa nhi hai to wha jane ka koi matlab bhi nhi tha................. “Juhi mai thodi der me aata hu.................” sahil ne kaha aur bahar nikal gaya............ Juhi chuchap use dekhti rah gayi.........kya kar rha tha sahil wo janti thi ...............kitna majboor tha ye bhi janti thi.......lekin fir bhi sahil mujarim tha juhi ka. Sahil didi ke ghar pahucha ..........lekin waha pe lock laga hua tha.........pas-pados me puchhne par kuchh khas pata nhi chala...........bas itna hi ki koi 4-5 din pahle aarti ke mummy papa yha se gaye aur rohan aur aarti to pahle se hi nahi yha rahte the.................. Hazaro khyal aa rhe the uske man me..................sahil ka dimag kam nhi kar rha tha...........sahil bike se dilli ki galiyo ki khak chhan raha tha.......kuchh samjh me nahi aarha tha ki kya kare............... Kuchh bahut keemati kho gaya tha uska aur use hi shayad dhundh raha tha............. Aaj tak kismat ne sahil ka sath kabhi nahi diya tha, lekin aaj shayad dene wali thi.............sahil baawra sa bhatak raha tha ..............bheed me idhar udhar dekh raha tha..........lekin uski nigahe jise dhundh rahi thi wo chehra nhi tha us bheed me.......... achanak sahil ki nazar us college par padi jaha aarti ka admission hua tha MBBS ke liye......sahl ne jhat se bike roki aur andar pahuch gaya............... Sidhe DEAN ke pas pahucha apna parichay diya aur apna issue bataya..........sahil ko turant ek clerk ne attend kiya aur wo use lekar ek room me pahucha................ Sahil ke samne computer screen par aarti ki tasweer aur uski academic profile thi......year of admission ....form no....candidate ID....... aur uske hath me aarti ka admission form............ “Par sahib, in mem sahib ne to yha se sirf ek sal hi study kiya hai.......” us clerk ne kaha. “hummm...........ha usne apna transfer karwa liya tha shimla me..............first year ke bad hi...........” sahil ne kaha... “sahib shimla me isi college se afilliated ek college to hai ................ lekin yha se koi transfer nhi karwa sakta wha............aisa to koi system nhi hai...............” clerk ne jaise hi kaha ,sahil ko mano hazar volt ka current laga.. “kyaaaaaaaaaaaa??????? Nhi nhi tumhe pata nhi hoga........usne karwaya tha transfer......”sahil ke samne ek aur uljhan aa khadi huyi thi.... “maloom nhi sahib ...par rules to allow nhi karte............” usne bas itna hi kaha. Sahil wha se bahar nikla aur ek bar fir se dean ke room me pahucha.........DEAN ne clerk ki bat ko confirm kiya........rules yhi the ki last year me hi koi student transfer karwa sakta tha...........to fir aarti ne first year me kaise karwaya............. “sir iska kya matlab hua?” sahil ne dean se puchha. “sir iska matlab yhi hai ki first year ke bad student ne study chhod di..............kam se kam hamare yha se to nhi ki............haa kahi aur se ki ho to hum nahi kah sakte “ dean ne sahil ko bataya. Sahil ka dimag jaise fatne ko tha........ ”ye sab kya ho raha hai............aarti ne jhooth kyu bola.............kis se puchhu mai..” Sahil ko kuchhh bhi samajh me nhi aa rha tha, pahle vishal aur fir ye sab....... Lekin aaj kismat har mod par sahil ka sath dene ko taiyar hi khadi thi mano............. Wo dean office se nikla aur jaise hi bahar ki or badha uski nazar ek bade se frame me lage huye photo par padi.............. Sahil ki dil dhakk se kar gaya............uske muh se anayas hi nikla “JEEVAN-VATIKA” Sahil ki uljhane sulajh nhi rahi thi aur use ab ek “BEWAFA “ka samna karna hi tha.........aur dusri taraf thi wo masoom juhi , jiski muhabbat ki kasti to aise majhdar me fasti ja rhi thi jiska koi kinara nhi mil raha tha...........kya kar sakta tha koi.......sab majboor the ...kuchh kismet ke hatho aur kuchh muhabbat ke hatho. ufffffffff kash ye muhabbat na hoti.

UPDATE 20 Ek jeeta jagta sahil ek machine ki tarah se hota ja rha tha...............jab bhi juhi use dekhti uske dil me ek tees si uthati..............kis kadar buri hoti hai ye muhabbat.........???????? Aaj sahil office jane ke liye taiyar ho rha tha jab uske phone ki ghanti baj uthi.......usne ek nazar apne wrist watch par dali aur fir phone utha liya............juhi ka phone tha........... “hello” sahil ne kaha......... Dusri taraf sarfaraz saheb the............ “haa sahil beta ? ” “jee unlce, kaise hai aap sab log.....khan baba kaise hai............” “beta wo bahut serious condition me hai........bar bar tumhe bula rhe hai...........ho sake to aa jao.........” sarfarz sahib ka gala bhar aaya kahte kahte. “kaissi bat kar rhe hain uncle .....mai abhi aata hu.......... aap bilkul tention mat lijiye baba thik ho jayenge.....” sahil ne kaha aur travel agent ko phone karke sabse pahla flight me ticket karne ko kaha. Sahil lakh patthar banta gya tha to kya ........ahsaan faramosh nhi tha........us shakhs ne aaj use bulaya thi jiski muhbbat ne use ek nayi zindagi di thi, jin logo ne apno se jyada pyar kiya tha use.......sahil ne ek bar bhi apni meetings ya apne jaroori appointment ka nhi socha..........wo shakhs in sab chijo se bahut upar tha sahil ke liye. Sahil turant delhi ke liye nikkal pada. Hospital me pahuchte hi sabse pahle juhi ki nazar sahil par padi......aur uski aankhe chhalak gyi. Jee me aaya ki daud kar sahil ke gale lag jaye lekin apne abba ki maujoodagi ne pair bandh diye uske. Sahil unke pas pahucha aur juhi ki aankho me aansu dekhkar pyar se uske sar par hath phera.......... “sab thik ho jayega” bas itna kahna hi tha ki juhi sahil ka hath pakad kar apne aankho se laga kar jor jor se rone lagi.............sarfaraz sahib bhi behad bhavuk ho uthe. “chup ho jao plz, juhi khan baba thik ho jayenge “ sahil ko samajh me nhi aa rha tha ki wo use chup kaise karaye. Thodi der ke bad juhi badi mushkil se chup huyi. Sahil khan baba ke pas pahucha......unki halat behad najuk thi.........aankhe band kiye lete huye the............saanse halki halki chal rhi thi...............sahil bed ke pas rakhe stool par baith gya aur unka kamjor sa hath apne hatho me le liya...........hath kafi thanda ho gya tha unka. “baba” sahil dheere se bola. Khan baba ki aankho se ek aansu bah kar unke galo ko bhigo gya.............. “aa gya mera beta” unhone sahil ke hath ko apne hatho me le liya aur dheere se aankhe khol di. “aa gya baba.......aap bulaye aur main na aayu........?????” sahil bola. “sahil , lagataa hai mera bulawa aa gya hai beta......” khan baba ne dheere se kaha...sahil ke pas me khadi juhi ka dil tadap utha...khan baba ne bachpan se uske liye ek maa, baap, dost........har farz ada kiya tha........... “baba, khuda ke liye aise na kahe...........plsss” juhi ne rote huye kaha. “aapko kuchh nhi hoga baba............”sahil bola. “jana to ek din sabko hai mere bachcho...........sahil ek aakhiri tamanna hai ...ek iltiza thi tumse..........” khan bab ne badi umeed bhari nazaro se dekha sahil ko. “plzz khan baba , aisa na kahe............sahil nam ki ye kasti to aise bhawar me fasi thi jaha iska doobna tay tha.........aapne us kasti ko kinara de diya.....ye zindagi aap sab ki amaanat hai.........aap iltiza kaise kar sakte hai.........aap hukm dijiye..........” sahil ne unke dono hatho ko apne hatho me lete huye kaha. “beta , meri juhi bahut masoom hai.....maine kabhi dukh ka ek saya tak nhi padne diya apni beti par..........lekin ab bahut dar lagne laga hai.............zindagi me to bahut kuchh paa liya isne ....lekin duniyadari nhi janti meri bachchi................” khan baba bolte rahe. juhi ki or dekha, wo chuchap apni aankho me aayi badh ko rokne ki kosis kar rhi thi aur apne hotho ko apne dato se dabakr siskiyo ko roke huye thi... “sarfaraz ek behad achcha baap hai..........lekin kisi ke aansu ponchhne ki kubbat nhi hai usme........aur shayad wo mere bad bhi is duniya ke bhawar me hi phas ke rah jaye..........juhi ki bahut fikar hoti hai beta.........” khan baba bol rhe the aur juhi ki aankho se aansu nikal rhe the. “plz baba ,,,,aap jyada baten mat Karen...........doctor ne mana kiya hai na........” juhi ne khud parr control karte huye kaha. “bol lene de beta,,,fir ye saanse mauka de na de....... jaa jara sarfaraz ko bula la to...” baba ne juhi ko bahar bhejne ke liye hi shayad ye kaha. Usne ek nazar sahil par dali aur bahar chali gayi. “sahil beta jo kahne jo raha hu uske bad mujhe nhi pata tum kya sochoge mere bare me, lekin kahunga jaroor..............beta ye mat sochana ki jo thoda bahut tumhare liye kiya us ke badle me kuchh maang rha hu......nhi beta.....wo sab to tumhari jahaanat aur kabiliyat ke age kuchh nhi tha..........aur tumhari vajah se meri bachchi ne mera sapna poora kar diya.......... hamesa dil tumhe duayen deta rahta hai beta..........” khan baba ek pal ko ruke, “sahil isi liye tumhe bulaya hai beta................meri jane ke bad meri juhi ka khyal rakhna.......ise kabhi udas mat hone dena........sahil mujh budhe ki aankhe itna to dekh sakti hai ki juhi ko bhi tumse bahut lagav hai.......bahut apna samjhti hai tumhe.........beta ye bat iske baap se na kah kar mai tumse kah rha hu......kyuki mujhe pata hai ki tum juhi ko sambhal loge.........beta si duniya ki kadi dhoop me ek saya bankar meri juhi ki hifazat karna ........uski har khusi ka khyal rakhna.... ...uski aankho me kabhi aansu nhi aane dena..............” khan bab ki bat se sahil ka chehra kafi gambhir hota ja rha tha.........aur juhi kabhi khan baba ko dekhti to kabhi sahil ko . “sahil beta, mai janta hu ki bahut badi zimmedari tumhe de rha hu.......lekin beta tumse jayada bharosa mujhe kisi par nhi hai..........juhi bahut masoom hai..duniya me use ek sahare ki zaroorat hogi...........tum wo sahar ban jao sahil..........meri juhi ko apna lo beta....”khan baba ne kaha. “khan baba....mai aapki koi bat nhi talna chahta.......lekinmujhe thoda sa waqt chahiye............” sahil bhi majboor tha. “waqt hi to nhi hai mere pas beta.............jane kis pal ye saanse sath chhod de...........” khan baba ne thodi nirasha se kaha.. ”koi bat nhi beta mai samjhta hu...tumhari bhi apne pasand hai ....apni zindagi hai...........” khan baba bole.badi mayoosi thi unki nigaho me.. Sahil ke muh se khud ke liye gali nikal gayi.............us insan ko inkaar kar diya tha jissne use uske sabse bure waqt me sahaara diya tha........... ”sahil agar aaj apna farz nhi nibha paya to zindagi bhar tu khud ko maaf nhi kar payega” uske dil se aawaz nikli..........ek pal ko aarti ka chehar nazro ke samne aa gya. “I m sorry khan baba...maine aap ka dil dukhaya...plss maf kar dijiye...........” sahil ne kaha.. “nhi beta .....koi bat nhi mere bachche....” “mai rakhunga juhi ka khyal khan baba..........mai use duniya ki har khusi dunga........aapse vada karta hu mai.........juhi ki rah me aane wali har musibat ko mujhse gujar kar ustak jana ho ga...........aap koi fikar na kare khan baba...zindagi me aaj tak maine kuchh sahi nhi kiya........koi achchha kam nhi kiya............lekin ye vada mai nibhaunga khan baba.........mai juhi ki aankho me kabhi aansu nhi aane dunga..........vada hai mera “ sahil ki aankho me ek chamak thi . “jeete raho mere bachche........khuda tumhe duniya ki har khusi de..............ab sukoon se mar sakunga mai...........ek bar gale lag ja beta.......” khan baba ne sahil ko gale se laga liya. Darwaze ke thik pichhe khadi juhi sab kuchh sun chuki thi.......use sahil ke jawab ka intzar tha isilye wo whi ruk gayi thi.............usne apne aankho ke aansu ponchhe aur bahar chal di sarafarz sahib ko bulane. Ek patthar ki si sakht thi juhi ke chehre par.......bar bar yhi khyal aa rha tha uske man me ki sahil ne haa sif isliye kaha hai kyuki unhe lagta hai ki humne unpar ahsaan kiya hai..............pyar to aaj bhi wo aarti se hi karte hai. Sarfarz sahib andar pahuche sahil bahar nikal gya..........khan baba kafi der tak sarfaraz se bat karte rahe ...aur fir unhe apne gale se laga liya.. Do din bad khan baba ki saanso ne aakhir unka sath chhod hi diya........juhi to mano patthar ki ho gyi ..........use apne khane peene ka koi khyal nhi hota.......din bhar aansu bahati ........sahil ne office se 15 din ki leave li aur sachmuch juhi ka saya hi ban gya...........use jabradasti kuchh kuchh khilata ........hamesa uske sath rahta ......pal bhar ko bhi use akela nhi chodata tha...........juhi ko sahil par bahut pyar aata tha.........lekin fi use wo hi bat yad aa jati............”sahil ye sab sirf ek ahsaan utarane ke liye kar rhe hai......mujhse muabbat nhi hai sahil ko”.........is soch kea age nhi badh paa rhi thi juhi. Sarfaraz sahib ne sahil se bat ki aur khan bab ki kahi sari baten use batayi..........khan baba ne dono ki shadi kar dene ko kaha tha......aur sarfaraz sahib ko bhi koi aitraz nhi tha......unhone khud ek hindu ladki se nikah kiya tha.............to dharm jaat ka koi bandhan pahle se hi nhi mante the...... aur ...sahil ek bahot bada officer ban chukka tha....ek achhha insaan tha............apni beti ke liye is se jyada aur kya chahiye kisi bhi baap ko. Sahil ne thoda waqt mangaa tha......apne liye nhi, juhi ke liye....... Juhi bhi ab sambhalne lagi thi lekin sahil ko apni nazro se ek pal ko door nhi hone dena chahti thi....uska dil ek do rahe par aakar khada ho gya tha.........wo nhi chahti thi ki ek al ko bhi sahil us se jud ho lekin bar bar dil me aa jat tha ki sahil mujh se muhabbat nhi karte. Aur sahil duniya jahaan se beniyaaz juhi ki khusi ke liye sab kuchh karta ja rha tha.............koi bhi use dekh kar nhi kah sakta tha ki wo ek IAS officer hai....juhi ka kisi chhoti bachchi ki tarah khyal rakhta. Sarfarz sahib ne apni ek business partener se shadi ke liye juhi ki permission mangi .............juhi kyu mana karti bhala.....20 sal se uske abbu akele jee rhe the.........agr aaj unhe koi sahaara mil rha tha to wo kyu mana karti bhala.......usne khusi khusi kah diya ki “ abbu aap nikah kar le mujhe koi aitraaz nhi hai” Sarfaraz sahib ne ek aur ghar le liya tha..........juhi wha nhi rahti thi .....sarfaraza sahib ne lakh kosis ki par wo nhi gyi aur fir sarfaraz sahib bhi purane ghar me hi aa gye.........apni beti ko akela kaise chhod dete bhala...lekin aaj bhi wo juhi ko bahut jyada waqt nhi de pate the. juhi udas rahti thi ...bahut udas ...........ek nadi si bahne wali juhi ek thahri huyi jheel ban gyi thi............... “juhi tum apna transfer lucknow karwa lo.........mere pass...” sahil ne ek din bato hi bato me kaha.........sirf wo tha juhi thi.............. Sahil ki chhutiyan khatm hone wali thi .....par wo juhi ko chhod kar jana nhi chahta tha. Juhi ne sooni sooni aankho se uski or dekha aur fir nazre jhuka li. “kya hua” sahil ne pyar se uska hath apne hatho me le liya...........juhi ki kuchh nhi boli bas uski aankhe bhar aayi. “kya hua babu” sahil bola. “sahil , aap is liye ye sab kar rhe ho na ki kyuki aap ko lagta hai ki hum sabne aap par ahsaan kiya hai??? Hai na sahil........????” juhi ne aaj wo kah diya jo bahut din se uske dil me tha...jiski vajah se wo chah kar bhi sahil ke karib nhi aa paa rhi thi. Sahil ne uski aankho me dekha.......aansuo se bhari wo badi badi aankhe sahil ko bahut dukh de rhi thi....chah kar bhi wo jui ki aankho me aansu aane se nhi rok paya tha. Sahil chuchap uski aankho me dekhta rha aur fir use khinch kar apne seene se laga liya............juhi bilakh bilakh kar rone lagi.......... Aaj fir se wo patthar pighalne lagaa tha. juhi ke muhbbat jeet ki dahleez par pahuchti nazar aa rhi thi lekin sahil ki muhabbat ? shayad use khud nhi maloom tha ki uski muhabbat har rhi hai ya jeet rhi hai........aur aarti ki muhabbat .....shayad har chuki thi. Juhi yuhi sahil se lagi roti rahi .........sahil samajh nhi paa rha tha ki wo kya kare.............ek taraf uske bachapan ki muhabbat thi tha jo use chhodkar chali gyi aur dusri taraf wo ladki thi jis ne bina kisi swarth ke use apni baho me panah di thi.............. wo bhi tab jab sath wo zindagi ka daman hi chhodne wala tha Faisla karna shayad itna mushkil nhi hna chahiye tha......lekin “” bachpan ka pahla pyar !!!!!” Sirf wahi samjh sakta tha jisne kiya ho aisa pyar.bahut mishkil yha bachpan ki pahli muhabbat ko bhool pana. “hai na sahil ...aap nhi karte na mujhse muhabbat.............?????” juhi ki aankho me aansoo the aur un aansuo me ek mayusi thi....... Sahil se uski sooni aankhe bardasht nhi ho rhi thi.......... Sabkuchh to kiya tha juhi ne sahil ke liye aur aaj khan baba ke jane ke bad use sachmuch ek majboot sahare ki jaroorat thi ........sahil ne pyar se uske balo me hath phera ......... “I m sorry juhi....maine tumhe bahut rulaya hai na...........ab kabhi nhi rulaunga........chalo tum yha se .....ab hum sath rahenge.........hamesa sath rahenege.......hamesa hamesa ke liye...” sahil ne uski aankho me dekhte huye kaha. Juhi ne dabdabayi aankho se sahil ki or dekha ............mano puchh rhi ho sach me ??????? Sahil ne haan me sar hilaya...... “tumhari kasam juhi “ bas itna hi kaha aur uske mathe ko pyar se choom liya. Juhi sahil se lipat gayi ........uski aankho me ek bar fir se aansu aa gye.....lekin is bar ye aansu khusi ke the. Doosre din hi juhi ne apne transfer ke liye apply kar diya....aur apne abbu se permission lekar sahil ke sath LUCKNOW aa gyi............ Sahil ko official residence mila hua tha...... juhi ko alag se milna tha par usne lene se inkar kar diya aur sahil ke sath ek hi ghar me rahne lagi. Juhi aur sahil ka rishta ek vishwas ka rishta tha.............juhi sahil ko apni jaan se jyada chahti thi aur sahil juhi ko apni zindagi se badhkar manta tha.......juhi uske liye muhabbat se bhi upar thi........wo sachmuch hi uski ibadat karta tha apne dil me .........lekin ab shayad juhi ko iabadat nhi, muhabbat ki jaroorat thi.......... Sahil juhi ka har tarah se khyal rakhta..........uske liye juhi se badhaker kuchh nhi tha........lekin abhi bhi ek deewar thi un dono ke bich me jo gir nhi pa rhi thi.................aur sahil chah kar bhi muhabbat ke kadam uski or nhi badha paa rha tha.......... .juhi bahut masoom thi........wo khud bhi sahil ki or nhi badh paa rhi thi . ek hi ghar me rahte huye bhi dono aaj bhi dosti ki had se aage nhi badh paa rhe the.........lekin use yakeen tha ki ek na ek din saahil ki muhabbat uka daman tham legi aur wo us din ka intzar kar rhi thi......... NOVEMBER ka month start ho chukka tha ........zabardast thand pad rhi thi........sahil aur juhi ko sath rahte almost 2 month ho chuke the .....par abhi bhi dono muhabbat ke haseen safar ki suruwat nhi kar paye the.............. Lagbhag 6 baj gaye the sham ke ....Juhi abhi office me hi thi ..........IT department ki head hone ka bhi apna hi headache tha............wo behad imandar aur efficient thi .......lekin chehre se masoomiyat nhi jati ...kahi se bhi ek robile chehre wali INCOME TAX OFFICER nhi lagti thi .... juhi, office se ghar aur ghar se office.... yhi routine tha uska...........salary bhi kafi achchhi thi lekin life me koi charm nhi tha...........sahil ke sath rahna apne aap me ek khusi thi ........aur wo to bas itane se hi khus thi.......aur isiliye juhi ko zindagi se koi shikayat bhi nhi thi......sarfarza sahib bhi kabhi kabhi milne aate rahte the. Sahil ko rahne ke liye jo ghar mila tha wo kafi bada tha.........do bedroom the .......aur dono me attached washroom tha......ek juhi use karti thi ek sahil . Roj ki tarah aaj bhi juhi office se ghar pahuchi.........sahil ki gadi bahar nhi thi iska matlab wo abhi nhi aaya tha.............juhi chalte huye seedhe apne bedroom me pahuchi..........jab sahil nahi aaya tha to vaise bhi bahar rukne ka kya fayada. Usne room ki light jalayi........par light jali nhi...........juhi ko thoda ajeeb laga......usne off karke fir on kiya....fir bhi nhi jail..........juhi ko thodi si gusaa aa gyi..........usne apne phone ki flash light on kiya aur pichhe mudkar darwaje ki or badhi......darwaza bahar se band????? Juhi ne khicha parr koi asar nhi........... Ye kya ho rha hai sab..........juhi ko ab thoda thoda dar lagne laga.........usne ek do bar aawaz lagayi ki bahar khade security guard shayad sun le......par koi fayada nhi hua..........wo gate ke bahar hote the.......fir uske bad chhota sa lawn tha......fir ek baramada type hall aur fir rooms.......to aawaz pahuchana mushkil hi tha...........usne apna phone nikala aur sahil ko call karne lagi.......juhi apne phon ko kan se lagaye hi thi kiiiiiii......achanak kisi ne use pichh se baho me utha liya.............. “aah...........k..kk...kaun hai......”juhi ne jaldi se khud ko chhudaya aur mobile ki roshni us sakhs ke chehre par dal di.......... “sahill...........aapppp” sahil halke halke muskkura rha tha........ “aap bahut gande ho.......pata hai mai kitni dar gyi thi ........” juhi ki aankh me sach me aansu aa gye the “sorryyyy” sahil ne kan pakad kar kaha.... .juhi ko hasi aa gyi. “ye kya ho rha hai sahillll......” juhi ne muskurate huye puchha....... “ummm...kya ho rha hai.......tum dar gayi thi aur kya........” sahil ne bade maje se jawab diya...... “mera matlab....ye ye...ye light bhi nhi jal rhi... “ juhi thoda sa Sharma gayi “tum bolo to jalne ko .......dekhe jara kaise mana karti hai........”sahil bola...juhi ko samjh me aa gya ki sahil ki hi sharart hai kuchh...lekin ye sharart use bahut achchi lagi thi........ Usne halke se muskura kar sahil ki or dekha.......... “sahil plzz...” juhi ne kaha. “maine kucchh nhi kiya..........aaj ye sirf aapki hi bat sunegi.........boliye to ek bar............” sahil ne kaha. “kya bolu...........” juhi boli. “yhi ki lighit on ho ja.......” sahil aaj mood me lag rha tha. Juhi ko aaj sahil ka ye masoom sa roop bahut pyara lag rha tha.......aur usne bas sahil ki khusi ke liye hi bol diya........... “light on ho ja.........” Kuchh nhi hua aur kamre me abhi bhi gupp andhera tha bas juhi ke phone ki roshni me dono ek dusre ke chehre ko dekh paa rhe the... “kuchh bhi nhi hua........dekha aap ne.......ab bas naaaa ...plss” juhi ne sahil ki aankho me dekhte huye kaha. “Bas ek bar aur...........” Juhi ne fir se kaha .......fir kuchh nhi hua............. “sahillll.” Juhi ko ab thoda thoda gussa bhi aa rha tha aur sahil par dher sara pyar bhi. “bas ek aakhiri bar..............plsss” sahil ne kaha aur juhi ne uska dil rakhne ke liye fir se kaha......... “light on ho ja.......” Fir se kuchh nhi hua..........abki bar to juhi ko gussa aani hi thi............. “enough is enough,...maine kaha na kuchh nhi.............”juhi ka gussa dil me adhoora rah gaya aur uski bat juban par.... Kamre ki wo light to nhi jali lekin kamre ke bicho bich tangaa hua bada sa jhoomar jal utha......aur poora kamra uski neeli roshni me naha gya.... ye jhoomar aaj se pahle to nhi tha is room me.....sath hi room ke bich me ek table par rakhe bade se cake ki sari lights jal uthi aur room me slow music “ happy b’day to you “ chalne laga........ Aaj 16 november tha juhi ka B’DAY. Juhi ko laga jaise wo kisi aur duniya me hi aa gyi......poora room balloons se aur stickers se sajaya gya tha..........ek bada sa aquarium rakha hua tha ek kone me jisme rang birangi fish tair rahi thi......... Juhi ko khud bhi yad nhi tha ki aaj uska B’DAY hai ...........har bar khan baba yad dilate the aur is bar.............sahil ne. JUHI ki aankhe bhar aayi.......... “thank u sahil........” juhi ne uski aankho me pyar se dekhte huye kaha aur apne aansuo par kabu pane ki kosis karne lagi........aaj use khan baba ki yad aa rhi thi. “nhi..plz rona mat yar...abhi bahut se progrmme soche hai maine plz...........rona mat” sahil ne uske ek aansu ko apne hatho se saf karte huye kaha.........juhi sahil ke gale lag gayi....... “thank u sahil ......aapko yad tha ...thank u so much sahil.... ........” juhi ke dil me ek nayi umeed ne janm liya tha mano. “jinhe ham pyar karte hai unki chhoti chhoti khusi ka khyal bhi hame rakhna padta hai ...............” sahil ne dheere se uske kan me kaha. Juhi jhat se us se alag ho gyi............ ye kya kah diya aaj sahil ne........... ...jo sun ne ke liye uske kan taras gye the aaj wo bola diya tha uske mahboob ne............juhi ke dil me jaise naye phool khil uthe the.........uska man jhoom jhoom ke nachne ko kar raha tha.........par wo kuchh na kar saki.............bas nazre jhuka kar sharmane lagi............abhi ek khusi bhi hazam nhi ho payi thi ki sahil fir se bol utha............... “juhi , mai kuchh laya hu tumhare liye............” sahil ne juhi ke hath me ek shopper rakh diya...... “kya hai ye sahil.......” juhi ne kaha. “dekh lo kya hai.........” sahil ne kaha. Juhi ne shopper khola..........ek green colour ki sadi thi usme ... bahut hi lazwab pasand hai sahil ki , juhi apne man me sochne lagi....sahil mere liye sadi laye hain........hayeee Juhi ko lag rha tha ki aaj wo sharm se mar hi jayegi............ “kya hua .......pasand nhi aayi.” Sahil use chup dekhkar bola ... “nhi ye to bahut khoobsoorat hai......” juhi ne kaha “nhi, ye khubsoorat tab ho jayegi jab tum ise pahan logi.........” sahil eka-ek bol gya....... Aur fir khud bhi thoda sa sharminda ho gya...juhi to sharam se gadi ja rhi thi.......lekin use sahil ka yu ijhaar karna behad achchha lag rha tha.......... “sahil mujhe nhi aati sadi pahnne.............” usne bahana kiya...........kaise aayegi sahil ke samne sadi pahan kar .....use bahut sharm aa rhi thi. “juhi mera dil kiya mai le aaya...............agar tumhara bhi dil kare to pahan lo .........ab jao jaldi se change karke aao fir cake kat te hai.........” sahil ne apne dil ki bat kah di. “Sahil aap bahar jaiye jab mai bulau tab aaiyega.........” juhi ne kaha ... “kyu ..” “matlab??????...mujhe change karna hai to ????????? .......” juhi ki aankhe hairat se bad ho gayi sahil ke kyu kahne par.. “haan...m..mera matlab tha ki washroom me change karogi na.....ok mai jata hu........” sahil sakpka gya aur fir chuchap room se nikal gaya. “ekdam hi buddhu hai.........lekin bahut pyare hai..” juhi ne sahil ke jate hi khud se kaha........aur muskurane lagi. Usne apna ward rob kholo aur ek matching colour ka blouse nikala aur sadi se match karke dekhne lagi... Blouse ekdam matching hi tha.......... Vaise to juhi sach me sadi nhi pahnati thi par ek do bar usne apne training ke time par music function me pahni thi aur , ek do bar kisi kisi marriage function me bhi....to uske pas ek do sadiyan thi aur use pahnna bhi aata tha.......lekin aaj sahil ke samne pahnne me use sharm aa rhi thi......par sahil itane pyar se uske liye laya tha .......kaise mana kar deti bhala. juhi ne sadi pahna aur aainne ke samne khadi hokar khud ko niharne lagi...... “sahil mere liye ye le aaye.........aur wo bhi to kahaki jinhe ham pyar karte hai unki khusi ka khyal rakhna padta hai.......sahil mujhse pyar karte hai...muhabbat hai unhe mujhse........par bade badmash hain...ijhar bhi kiya to kaise......seedhe se nhi bol sakte ki juhi tumse muhabbat ho gyi hai.........hmm ...koi bat nhi sahil jee ......ek din ham aapse bulwa hi lenge........aap hamse pyar karte hai itna hi bahut hai hamare liye to............” juhi aaine ke samne khadi khud se hi bate kar rhi thi aur halka fulka make up bhi kar rhi thi........ Lagbhag 30 minute bad juhi ne door open kiya aur sahil ko aawaz di...do bar bulane ke bad bhi sahil nhi aaya aur unka home servant bhagta hua aaya........ “Mem sab, wo sahib kisi se phone par bat kr rhe hai...bole hai ki abhi aate hai........” “thik hai....kaka wo, saheb aaj office se jaldi aa gye the kya ?? ” juhi ne puchha. “jee mem sahib , sahib to aapke jane ke turant bad hi aa gye the... ...lagbhag 11 baje subah ko” naukar ne kaha. “thik hai aap jao........ghar chale jao ......aaj hme kahi bahar jana hai........” juhi ne kaha . “Iska matlab sahil ne aaj chhutti ki thi.....aur ye sab kuchh khud kiya hai..........” juhi man me sochne lagi aur uske man me sahil ke liye aur jyada muhabbat badhne lagi. “thank u sahil......maine aapko bilkul sahi pahchana hai.....aap wakayi muhabbat karne ke layak ho......jee chahta hai aapko duniya se churakar apne dil me chhupa lu.” Juhi man hi man soche ja rhi thi jab sahil darwaje par nazar aa gya....... Sahil ki nazar juhi par padi aur wo palke jhapkana hi bhool gya.............. Juhi khubssorat to hamesa hi lagti thi lekin aaj to wo qayamat hi lag rhi thi........green colour ki sadi aur full sleeve blouse me uska gora rang khub khil raha tha......kalaiyo me hari hari chudiya aur hotho par halki si lal lipstic.......gale me ek patli si chain aur un badi badi aankho me kajal.....khule huye lambe kale bal aur chehre par aati un balo ki kuchh laten.........aur un sabke bad us masoom se mukhde par ek pyari si muskan........ufffff......... yauvan ke rang se poori tarah rangi huyi wo haseena aaj sachmuch itani khubosoorat lag rhi thi ki menka jaisi apsara bhi sharma jaye uski khubsoorati dekhkar . Sahil ek tak dekhe jaa rha tha use... aur juhi uske is tarah dekhne se sharam ke mare pani pani ho rhi thi.......lekin aakhir uske liye hi to saji sawari thi wo........to dil me kahi ek haseen si tamnna ne bhi angdayi li. “kya hua sahil?” juhi ne kaha. “umm..aaaw..wo..wo...kuchh nhi chalo cake kaate.........” Juhi ko hasi aa gyi sahil ki halat par....... “hummm..bade aaye ......aankhe phad ke dekh rhe hai .......aur ek lafz tarif ka nhi bol sakte ....koi bat nhi sahil jee, dekh lenge aapko....”juhi ne apne man me socha aur dheere se muskura di. “jee....” juhi ne bas itna hi kaha aur dono cake ki or badh gaye. Juhi ne ek pal sahil ke chehre ki or dekha........... “bahut dukh jhela hai tumne meri jaan ....tumhe itani muhabbat dungi ki tum har dukh bhool jaoge......apne maajhi ki yad bhi nhi aayegi tumhe.........mai tumhe bataungi ki muhabbat buri nhi hoti ...bas insaan achchhe-bure hote hai...” “Kya soch rhi ho.. kato ne cake.........” sahil ne kaha. “umm haa...aap bhi sath me ...plss..” juhi ne kaha. Sahil kuchh nhi bola ......... juhi ne sahil ka hath pakad kar apne hath par rakh diya.....sahil ne dheere se uske hath me pakde huye knife ko uske hath ke sath hi pakad liya aur dono ek sath cake par jhuke hi the ki sahil ke jeb me pada phone ghanghana utha......... Sahil nhi utha rha tha ...... “sahil dekh le shayad koi important call ho......” juhi ne kaha aur dono alag ho gye..... Sahil ne phone recieve kiya........kisi naye number se phone tha......... “hello, jee kaun ???” sahil ne kaha. “hello sahil, mai dheeraj bol rha hu............” dusri or se aawaz aayi.......... Ufffffffffffffff............DHEERAJ , bada bhai........aaj 4 sal bad chhote bhai ki yad aayi thi.......aur wo bhi tab jab aaj bahut dino bad sahil thoda sa khus hone ki kosis kar rha tha. Sahil ne apni saanso ko niyantrit kiya aur phone utha liya............. “hello sahil, kaise ho beta “ papa ne hamesa ki tarah phone uthate hi puchha. “thik hu papa aap kaise hai, mummy kaisi hai ??? ” “ham sab bhi thik hain.............wo kuchh bat karni thi.......” “jee kahiye.........” sahil ne kaha .........papa ki awaz thodi gambheer thi .. “wo dheeraj ki shadi tay ho gyi hai....jyoti {dheeraj ki fiancée jaha uski shadi pahle tay thi lekin bad me un logo ne mana kar diya} ke papa ka kal phone aaya tha.............khud hi unhone mana kar diya tha bina koi vajah bataye aur ab khud hi fir se shadi ke liye kah rhe hain..............mujhe to bahut gussa aayi par tumhari maa ne haa kar di................” papa ek saans me hi sab kah kar chup ho gye..............mano sahil ka reaction jan na chah rhe ho. “jee...........” sahil ne bas itna hi kaha..............juhi bhi sahil ke kano se kan lagaye uske gale me bahe dale sari baten sun rhi thi. Sahil chah rha tha ki jald se jald bat khatm ho.....dheeraj ke bare me bat karna use achchha nhi lag rha tha . “to beta date kab ki rakhen......?????” papa ne puchha. “jab aap log thik samjhe “ ssahil ne sankshipt sa jawab diya.. “matlab tumhe kab chhutti mil payegi..........” papa ne fir se puchha. “papa aap jo bhi kahenge mai kar dunga par mai aa nhi paunga.......” sahil ne juhi ki aankho me dekhte huye kaha..... “kaisi baten kar rha hai beta....tu nhi aayega to shadi kaise ho sakti hai.............dheeraj ne phon kiya tha bata rha tha ki tune us se bat nhi ki....beta chhoti moti baten hoti rahti hai....bhai hai wo tumhara..........” papa ne kaha. “sorry papa main hi aa paunga....mujhe chhutti nhi mil payegi ..............” sahil ne fir kaha. “sahil log kya kahenge .........baut badnami hogi beta.........bade bhai ki shadi me chhota bhai nhi hoga to kaisa lagega.........” “mai nhi aa sakta papa........mai sara arrangement kar dunga...sare kharch aap mujh par chhod dijiye ....mai sab dekh lunga..........lekin please mujhe aane ke liye force mat kare.........” sahil ko papa ko na bolna achcha nhi lag rha tha...........lekin wo haa bhi nhi kah paa rha tha. “thik hai beta ........lo apni mummy se bat kar lo..........” papa ki aawaz me ek nirasha thi jo sahil ko chubh rhi thi.... “sahil aaja beta ...........apne budhe maa baap ke liye hi sahi........”mummy ki aawaz thodi bheegi bheegi si lagi sahil ko .....wo kaise rula deta apni maa ko. “thik h mummy kosiss karunga ...aap log date fix kar le ...mujhe bata dijiyega.....” sahil ne thodi der bat ki aur fir phone rakh diya. Sahil ne phone rakha aur juhi ki aankho me dekhne laga ...mano kah rha ho ki dekho ,tum to sab janti ho na....kaisi aazamayish ho hi hai mere dil ki..........juhi bhi un aankho ki bhasha samjh gayi.....usne apne dono bahen faila di aur sahil un baho me sama gyaa......sahil ko apne seene me chhupaye juhi pyar se uske balo me hath ferti rahi.......... Sahil ko hamesa hi in bahon ka shara mila tha ...........jab bhi dil udas ho jata ,ye bahen hamesa use apne aagosh me panaah deti .....aur kuchh pal ko sahil har fikar se beniyaaj ho jata. Sahil ne nazre uthakar juhi ki aankho me dkeha.............. Juhi ne aankho hi aankho me puchha kya hua............ “kya karu mai juhi ....mummy ko rota nhi dekh sakta na.........” sahil ne badi masoomiyat se kaha. “mai janati hu sahil ..........aapne thik kiya...........” juhi ne uska sar apne god me rakh liya. “tum chalo gi na mere sath............” sahil ne badi umeed se kaha. “mai kya karungi wha chalkar sahil ...aur fir mujhe to kisi ne bulaya bhi nhi..........” juhi ne uske balo me hath ferte huye kaha. “mere liye chalo..............nhi to apno ke bich bahut akela ho jaunga mai.............” sahil ne uski najuk si kalayi ki hari hari chudiyo ko chhedte huye udasi se kaha.. “aapke liye mai kuchh bhi kar sakti hu...jante hai na aap...............chalungi mai aapke sath” juhi har pal sahil ko yhi ahsaas dilate thi ki wo uske sath hai ,uske pas hai....hamesa hamesa ke liye. “Thank u juhi” sahil ne kaha aur juhi ne pyar se uska matha choom liya. Lagbhag do din bad fir papa ka phone aaya ........... “beta, 5 feb ka din rakh rhe hai ............thik hai na............” papa ne sahil se kaha. “jee” sahil bas itna hi bola..... “beta ...wo juhi beti ko bol dena.........tumhari ma kah rhi thi ....ya to number de do hum khud hi bol denge .....” papa ne kaha...sahil ne phone loudspeaker par rakha hua tha aur pas me baithi juhi ki or dekh kar muskuraya.......wo bhi khil uthi. “papa mai bol dunga.....aap koi tension mat lijiye.... mai sab dekh lunga.....” “jeete raho beta.......tumhari jaisi aulad bhagwan har ma baap ko de.” Papa ke dil se apne bête ke liye dua nikli. “Lijiye madam aapka bulawa aa hi gya” sahil ne phone rakh kar juhi ki or dekhte huye kaha. “hum to jate hi ...bulawa na aata to bhi..........”juhi ne bade maan aur apne pan se kaha. “achcha ji , badi jaldi hai sasural jane ki ....” sahil ne use chhed diya. “sahillllllll” juhi ekdam se lajaa gayi. “ dekha mummy tumhe nhi bhooli.........aakhir hone wali bahu ko kaise bhool sakti hai............”sahil ko sharamayi si juhi bahut pyari lagti thi aur ab to wo sharam se ek dam gulabi ho gyi thi... “sahil...mat kariye na aisi baten pls.............” use achchhi lag rhi thi sahil ki chhed chhad lekin sharm bhi bahut aa rhi thi. Sahil aur juhi ka pyar dino din badhta ja rha tha ...........juhi ke bina sahil ko ek pal bhi achcha nhi lagta...........jab juhi ghar par ni hoti to wo bhi ghar na aata ..............sahil ghar se bahar ek behad imandar aur sakht IAS Officer tha lekin ghar ke andar ek chhote bachche ki tarah zid karta ,apne nakhre juhi se uthawata aur hamesa use tang karta rahta.... Juhi ki duniya bhi sahil me simat kar rah gyi thi....wo office ke bad sara waqt sahil ko deti .......sahil ke sare najo nakhre wo kisi chhote bachche ke jaise lad se uthati..........sahil ne use itna pyar diya tha ki use kabhi apne maa ya baba ki yad nhi aayi...........juhi jara si bimar ho jati aur sahil sab kuchh chhodkar uske sath lag jata ........jab tak wo thik na ho jati sahil ko kisi chij ki parwah na hoti.........uski har chhoti badi khusi sahil ki zinadgi me bahut ya shayad sabse aham hoti ......... Juhi aur sahil ke liye ab ekdusre ke bina jeena shayad sambhav hi na tha. Sahil ne khud ko juhi ke liye badal liya tha ...............use khan baba ko diya vada, aur juhi ka wo be-intaha pyar yad tha...........sahil badal gya ,halat badal gaye bas ek bat nhi badali.............aaj bhi sahil ko wo “bewafa “ yad aati thi ................jab bhi yad aati ,to sab kuchh yad aa jata.........wo kisi kone me ek aansu gira leta aur chuchap aage badh jata..........sahil ka in yadon par koi jor nhi tha..........sahil chah kar bhi un yadon ko nhi rok pata tha............iske liye kabhi kabhi wo khud se khafa bhi ho jata ........use apna-aap doshi lagta ...lekin wo majboor tha shayad ..........aarti ki yaden aa hi jati..........aur ab un yadon ke siwa us rishte ka uske pas bacha hi kya tha. ************************************************************************************* Sahil aur juhi 30 january ko gaon ke liye nikal liye..............sahil ne hi wha ka sara intzaam kiya tha.........uska man nhi tha jane ko ......dheeraj ke wo sabd yad the use ........lekin apne mummy papa k liye use jana pada. Sahil ghar pahuch chuka tha .......juhi sabse milkar bahut khus huyi ........RENU se to vaise bhi uski achchai banti thi .....mummy papa bhi uske aane se kafi khus the ...........bas usne dheerej se koi bat nahi ki ..........na sahil hi dheeraj se koi bat kar rha tha ......juhi chup thi sirf sahil ki wajah se ...............jab bhi sahil ki didi ya dheeraj ka jikar aata tha juhi ki aankho me shole utar aate...........use wo rota bilkahta,akela sahil yad aa jata tha..........kitna akela kar diya tha use uske apno ne .....lekin wo chup thi –sirf apne sahil ke liye. sahil ke ghar par is samay kafi bheed thi .......uske dono uncle uski dono bua aur un logo ki family –sare log aaye the ....ye sab sahil ke papa ke bhai bahen the..............wo bhai behan jinhone unhe gareebi ke samay bilkul akela achhod diya tha ............aaj sab log aaye the ............qki ab unka beta IAS tha ........ab wo garib nhi the..........kafi bheed ho gyi thi lekin shail ne sara arrangement pahle se hi kar diya tha...........isliye koi paresani nhi thi . papa jitni bar bhi sahil ko dekhte seena garv se phool jata ...........lekin ek kasak thi unke man me ...sahil aur dheeraj ka aapas me na bolna............ aaj shadi k ek din pahle didi ke yaha se did aur rohan aaye ......na jeeja aaye thi aur na hi “ AARTI “ ....sahil didi se kuchh kuchh bat kar leta lekin juhi nhi karti thi.........use sab sahil ki kasoorwar nazar aate . sahil aur dheeraj ka aapas me na bolna mahsoos to sabko ho rha tha aur fir badi bua ne ye mudda utha hi diya............ Bua dheeraj ke sath baithi thi....sahil whi samne se gujara.......... “are sahil jara ek pal ko mere pas to baith ...........tu to dikhta hi nahi” badi bua ne kaha aur jane kaha se tahalte huye choti bua bhi wha aa gyi..... sahil na chahte huye bhi jakar unse thodi doori par rakhi chair par baith gya.......dheeraj ne ek bar sahil ki or dekha fir nazre jhuka li............. “aur sahil kaisa chal rha hai sab ........bada afsar ban gya re tu to.......ittu sa tha jab mai yha se gyi to.......” “jee bua ban to gya..........mere apno ka aashirwad jo tha....”sahil ne kaha aur dheeraj ki or dekha ......sharam se sar nhi utha rha tha wo. Bua apne aadat ke mutabik hi bhoomika bana rhi thi .......aur dhhere dheere baton hi baton me sahil ke dono chacha ,chachi unke bachche aur kuchh aur bhi relatives wahi baramde me ekatthe ho gaye.......... Aur ab bua ne jab dekha ki achchhi khasi bheed ho gyi hai to apna Ram-ban chhoda......... “tum dono aapas me bat kyu nhi karte..........jab se aayi hu dekh rhi hu.........” badi bua ne sahil ki or dekhte huye kaha. “bua mujhe bahut kam hai aap log baithiye “ sahil ne uthana chaha. “are lallaa jara baith to sahi.... kaam to hote hi rahenge.........” chhoti bua bhi maidan me aa gyi. ”are babu,IAS ho gye ho wo thik hai...par bhai to bhai rahega na..........”ye bade chacha the...jinhone shayad aaj pahli bar sahil ka jikar apni juban se kiya tha.........aaj tak sahil kaun hai wo jante bhi nhi rahe honge......... Sahil ko unki bat chubh gayi...........lekin wo kuchh nhi bola....kal shadi thi aur aaj wo koi tamasha nhi karna chah rha tha..... sahil ki khamoshi uski kamjori ban rhi thi aur dheere dheere logo ke muh khul rahe the............. “are bada bhai hai...............kuchhh bol bhi diya to bhool jao.....bhale ketne bade afsar ban jao ...rahoge to us se chhote hi.............” chhoti chahchi kyu pichhe rahti...unhone bhi aag me ghee dal diya. Sahil sabke bich me baitha kathgahre me khade gunahgar ki tarah sar jhukaye sab sun raha tha .....usakaa mukadama lada ja rha tha lekin uske paksh me koi nhi tha.... “aree bhaiya jab paise aa jate hai to kaun apan aur kaun paraya.........kaun bhai aur kaun bhaujai.............sab paise ka rang hai aur kuchh nhi” ye kaun bola sahil pahchan nhi paya........lekin us se baradast nhi hua. “dekhiye ................ye hamare ghar ka mamala hai.............pls aap log isme dakhal na den..........” sahil ne thode sakht hone ki koisis ki........... ....lekin uske andar ki sakhti gayagb ho gyi thi .........use fir se sabkuchh yad aa rha tha....dheeraj ki har bat, apni har asafalata..........aarti ko use thukaranaa........sahil ek bar fir se usi daur me pahuch gya tha....whi kamjor sa sahil..........udas sa sahil....majboor sa akela sahil........apni sakhti aur kabiliyat ke jhande gadne wala sahil aaj ek bar fir apno ke hatho haar rha tha. “haye ...haye...ham sab bahar wale hai.....to ham aaye hi kyu hain ....jaroorat hi nhi hamari............” badi chachi ko ek bat mil gayi ... “Sahi kah rhi hai bhabhi....hamari kya aaukat ...bade logo ke bich....ham to gair hai.” Chhoti bua ne to bakayda rona bhi suru kar diya.... Sab kuchh na kuchh kah rhe the .......achcha khasa hungama ho gya......sahil ke papa market gaye the aur mummy ghar par nhi thi ..... jaise hi papa ghar me ghuse sab un ki or lapke...sahil chupchap whi baitha rha............... “bhai sahib ham gair hai to kyu bulaya ...are bas yahi to samjha rhe the ki bade bhai se kyu bat nhi karte ...aur hame gair kah diya...haa hm to gair hi hai........” dono chachi aur bua ...sab milkar ek sath bol rhi thi ....yhi unka charitra tha hamesa se hi . “sahil ye kya kah rhi hai beta..........”papa ne dheere se puchha Sahil chuchap chair par baitha jameen ko ghur rha tha...............uske aankhe bhar aayi thi lekin kisi ko nazar nhi aa rha tha.... “aaye haye.....itani akada????? baap ki bat ka zawab nhi diya........bhai se nhi bolata......IAS hi bana hai na.................are baap bhai ki ijjat to bhagwan bhi karte hai...hunnnhh” badi bua sabse aage the.......... Sahil ke papa ko apne bête ke bare me aisi baten sun kar dukh ho rha tha ....lekin kal shadi thi ...unhe pata thi ki ye sab kitna bakheda karenge agar unhone kuchh nhi kaha to.. “sahil sorry bol do beta.........sab apne hi hai ........koi gair nhi hai” papa ne sahil ke kandhe par hath rakhte huye kaha.....kitni badi galti kar di thi aaj papa ne. Sahil chup rha ................sar tak ni uthaya usne ..... “batao...jo apne baap, bhai ki ijjat nhi karta , wo hamari kya karega.....are IAS bhi insan hote hai, koi bhagwan nhi ..” sab tarah tarah ki baten bol rhe the ..........RENU aur DIDI bhi wha pahuchi...lekin unhe samjh me nhi aaya ki kya ho rha hai........... “jab bade bhai se bolna hi nhi tha uski shadi me aane ki kya jaroorat thi .........sab akada hai aur kuchh nhi .....jab tak kuchh nhi the,tab tak bhai-baap ki jaroorat thi .........ab kya jaroorat......ab apno ki kya jaroorat” badi chachi ne kaha. Aur fir wha wo pahuchi jisne sahil ko us bhyankar tufan se nikal liya tha , ye to halat ke mamooli thapede the, ye uska kya bigad lete ...........jee ha ....juhi wha aa gyi thi........... -SAHIL KI JUHI- aur chachi ki bat sun bhi li thi usne . Juhi ne kisi ki bat par koi dhyan nhi diya .....teji se sabko hatate huye sahil ke karib pahuchi auer uske kandhe par hath rakha ........ “ sahil” usne bade pyar se use pukara. ”juhi !! tum aa gyi juhi.....dekho maine kaha tha na ki apno ke bich mai akela pad jaunga.......” sahil ki aankhe aansuo se bhari huyi thi....... Juhi ka dil tadap kar rah gya ...sahil ke aansu khanjar bankar chubhe use .......kitni muskil se sameta tha usne apne sahil ko aur aaj ek bar fir se uske apne apno uske jakhm kured diye the. “nhi sahil , aap akele kaise ho.....mai hu na......” sahil ne jor se juhi ko pakad liya ...sab log dekhte rahe lekin aaj juhi ko kisi ki parwah nhi thi. “lo bhai ye to hai hi , ab hamari kya jaroorat .............” chhoti bua boli ...ek tanj tha unki aawaz me.......... “vaise kaun hain ye.........????????” badi bua ne badi gahri aur taane wali ada se kaha. Juhi ne sabki bat unsuni kar di ....sahil ke aansu poche .....use chair se uthakar apne sath lagaye le gayi .... pas wale room me sofe par sulaya........darwaza band kiya aur wapas aa gyi, sahil jis chair par baitha tha us par jaka baith gayi. “pucchiye mujhse jo puchhna hai aap sabko ..........” juhi ke aankhe aangaro se dahak rahi thi. Kisi ki himmat nhi padi kuchh kahne ki .................juhi ke chahre se, ankho se , uske haw-bhaw se ek gussa,ek nafarat jhalak rha tha .......sab ko mano saanp sungh gya......... “puchhiye ?????? kya puchh rhe thi aap sab mere sahil se ??? ” aaj juhi ko kisi ki parwah nhi thi , parwah thi to bas apni muhabbat ki , jiske liye wo kisis bhi had tak ja sakti thi .........shant-shant si , hasamukh , khili-khili si rahne wali juhi aaj kisi sherni ki tarah dahad rhi thi .............dahadti bhi kyu na ...aaj uski muhbbat par aanch jo aa gayi thi................ “aap sab kya puchhenge......kya puchhenge aap sab ............kisi ki aaukat nhi hai mere sahil se koi sawal karne ki ........... “apne” ??????? kaun se apne ? sahil ke apne ????? sahil ne chhod diya .........??????? “ juhi aaj nhi rukne wali thi. “aap sab sahil se sawal puchhte hai ki wo apno se bat kyu nhi karta ..........use apno ki kadar kyu nhi hai...........hunnnhhhh ...........aur aap sab hote kaun hain ye sawal puchhne wale .........aur agar kuch haq samjhte hai apna sahil par ,agar sachmuch sahil kuchh lagta hai aapka........to puchhiye uske apno se --- kaha the wo apne jab sahil ek ke bad ek har jhel rha tha aur uske pas koi apna nhi tha ..........sahil ke sapne ek ek karke toot rhe the aur uske pas uska bhai nhi tha ......wo bikhar rha tha aur uske pas uski badi behan nhi thi............sar rakhkar rone ke liye bhai ka kandha nhi tha...... aansu poonchhne ke liye bahan ka aanchal nhi tha...............” juhi bol rahi thi aur sab chuchap sun rahe the. “jante hai aap sab sahil ke pas kya tha ......diili ki ghuti huyi galiyo me ek chhote se kamre ka kala andhera tha ........... us kamre ki seelan aur badboo bhari deeware thi ........sahil un deewaro se lipat kar roya –tab kaha the ye apne , jab sahil un tang galiyo me bhatakta raha –tab kaha the ye apne .......tab kyu nhi aaya koi ye kahne ki sahil tu mera apna hai, tera mera rishta teri safalta asafalta se nhi juda hai ....tu jaisa hai achchha bura –mera hai..... aaj itne log hai hai jo sahil ke apne hai ..............tab kaha the aap log ..............kyu nhi kabhi puchha ki jee rha hai ya mar gya sahil ........kaha the aap sab ....kaha tha ye bhai ...???...kaha thi ye badi behan ?????.........puchhiye aap sab apne aap se , puchhiye in sab se .......puchhiye .....please ek bar puchhiye ...mere sahil se mat puchhiye .........kuchh mat puchhiye ...khuda ka wasta aap sab ko .” juhi kahte kahyte buri tarah se bilkah kar rone lagi Sabki aankhe aansuo se bhari thi ....didi baithkar ro rhi thi ....aaj juhi ne sabko aayina dikha diya tha ...........mujrim ki kursi par baithkar sabko mujrim bana gyi thi aaj wo PARI--- SAHIL KI PARI.

UPDATE 19 SAHIL ko apni god me chhupaye juhi ka dil bhi bahut bhari ho gya tha...........aaj usne faisla kar l iya tha ki wo sahil ko sabkuch sach sach bata degi..............aur shayad use pata bhi tha ki sahil ka fiasla kya hoga................. “sahil” usne dheere se pukara..... Sahil ko rona ab ruk chukka tha usne sar uthakar aarti ko dekha............. “aaj mai tumhe bta ti hu ki maine aisa kyu kiya..............mai janti hu ki jo kuchh maine kiya wo mafi ke layak nhi hai...........ye bhi janti hu ki meri vajah se tumhari zindagi tabah ho gyi, ........... mai ye bhi janti hu ki tumne bahut dard sahaa hai.............aur sahil ab mere aaj ye kahne ya na kahne se koi fark un baton par nhi padega..............na tumhari zindagi ki wo dardannak raten mai mita paungi na wo dard bhare aansu ponchh paungi........lekin ek bar tumhe batana chahati hu............” Sahil uthkar baith gya......aur aarti ke chehre ki or aise dekhne laga jaise aaj uski zindagi ki parikshaa ka result aane wala ho..................aaj faisalaa hona tha ki uski muhbbat ki shiddat me kitna asar tha..........aaj faisal hona tha ki uski aarti bewafa thi ya ba-wafa AARTI ne bolna suru kiya.............. “mere councilling se thik pahle aap ghar gaye the ........... hai aapko.........” aarti ne kaha.......... Sahil ne bas haa me sar hila diya............. aarti fir aage bataane lagi................... “usi din bade mama (DHEERAJ ) yha aaye the , rohan bhi aaya tha.......aur mere Tau ke yha party thi.............tau-tayi ki marriage aaniversary thi.......... bade mama waise bhi jab aate the to Tayi ke yha jaroor jate the...............aur tayi bhi unhe bahut manti thi...........ham sab sham ko lagbhag 7 baje unke ghar pahuche.............sab log bade pyar se mile...........TAU,TAI AUR UNKI BETI VARSHA...........mehmaan bahut jyada nhi the..............bas kuchh bahut karibi log hi the...........kul milakar 10-15 log.... Der rat Sab log kha peekar baithkar baten kar rhe the.......... Sab log the bas VARSHA nhi thi........... Kuchh der bad bade mama bhi uthkar kahi chale gaye .............hm sab baithe baten karte rahe............ Tabi tau ke phone par varsha ki kisi friend ka phone aa gya............aur tau use bat karwane ka bol kar phone lekar andar chale gaye varsha ko doondhate huye..................... Thdi der hi samay bita tha ki andar se jor jor se gali dene ki aawaze aane lagi...........Tau kisi ko mar rhe the aur jor jor se galiya de rhe the.............mai mummy ,papa ,rohan sab bhagte huye andar gaye............. Tau bade mama ko thappad mare ja rhe the..............papa ne jakar unka hath pakad liya......... “bhai sahib ,ye kya hai.........aapne hath kaise uthaya.............” “hat ja sale, bahenchod..........salo tum sab ne mujhe badnam karne ke lye is se ye sab karwaya hai na.......aaj ise jan se mar dunga...........puchh kya kar rha tha meri beti ke sath...........” TAU ka chehra gusse se laal tha.... varsha whi khadi aansu baha rhi thi......tau ne un dono ko kisi aapattijanak sthiti {sex karte huye} me dekh liya tha..........”dheeraj kya ye sach hai ,”papa ne puchha....... bade mama kuchh nhi bole.......... “dheeraj bol na ye jhooth hai.......” mummy rote huye boli... “didi ham pyar karte hai ek dusre se....”bade mama bole hi the..... “hat randi....maine apni aankho se dekha hai.......tum sab ab natak mat karo.....salo maine apni beti ki shadi tay ki thi aur is bahnchod ki bhi to tay thi.....fir puchh ki kya kar rha tha yha...........sala mere hi ghar me meri beti ko..............abhi batata hu............ “ TAU gusse se andar gaye......shayad apni pistol lene “varsha ye kya ho rha hai ........tu kuchh bolti kyu nhi...........” tayi ne kaha... “mummy .........ye jabardasti kar rhe the.......” varsha boli, uske chehre se saf lag rha tha ki wo jooth bol rhi hai..........aur uska character to vaise bhi sabko pata tha...........lekin usne bat bigdti dekhi to palat gayi........aur aaj to koi bhi aisa nhi tha jo uski bat ka bharosa nhi karta,.......... Dheeraj mama ka chehra ek dam fakk pad gya varsha ki bat sunkar............unke sath to ye hona hi tha.......unhone bhi to kisi ko dhoka diya tha ....unhe dhokhe ke siwa kya milta...........unki shadi tay thi aur unhone kisi aur ke sath.............. Bahut drama hua wha .......lekin mai sab nhi batanaa chahti.......... Tau ko sabne kisi tarah se pakad kar ek kamre me band kiya aur hm wha se bahar nikle.......papa ki aankho me maine pahli bar aansu dekhe the..............wo bahut jyada gusse me the us din............... Kisi tarah se hm ghar pahuche ...............mama bhi sath me the..........mummy unhe jabardasti le aayi.......unhe dar tha ki kahi wo kuchh aisa vaisa na kar le ...............shayad isiliye akele nhi jane diya unhe.............. Ghar pahuchane par us se bhi bada hangama hua................ Papa bahut gusse me the...........aur wo sara gussa nikla mummy par aur mujh par.......... “Sali .......tum sab bhai-bahno ka khun hi ganda hai...........nikal ja tu abhi mere ghar se ......apne bhai ko liva le............aur ja yha se...........”papa mummy par cheekh rhe the....... Mummy bas roye ja rhi thi.......... “jeeja didi ko kuchh mat kahe...plz.....sari galti meri............”bade mama ki bat aadhi hi nikli thi..... “chup sale.........kamien.....tu abhi nikal mere ghar se........aur agar kabhi “ TUM DONO BHAI” me se koi bhi mere ghar ...aaya to goli mar dunga........sale tere jaisa hi tera bhai bhi hoga na.......kya pata wo sala meri beti ko.........tum sab ki nazar gandi hai........ sale aaj teri vajah se mai itna jalil hua hu.......nhi to sala kisi ki majaal nhi thi ki koi meri family ke character par unagali uthaye,...........nikal ja sale..........” papa dahaad rhe the aur har koi chuchap khada tha............. Dheeraj mama chale gaye.........rat ke ek baj rhe the..............mummy ro rhi thi aur papa ka gussa kam nhi ho rha tha............ “tu bhi nikal ja...............tu bhi to usi ki behan hai.............nikal ja..” papa mummy ko bol rhe the. Mai aage badhi aur papa ke pairo se lipat gayi............ “papa jane do na plz............mummy ki kya galti ........plz papa” mai jor se unke pairo se lipti ro rhi thi.......... Papa kuchh nhi bol rhe the............ Thodi der bad unhone mujhe uthaya........... “chup ho ja beta..........” mai papa ke gale se lag gayi aur jor jor se rone lagi...... “Mummy chali jayengi to mai kaise rahungi papa........plz papa..........” “thik hai aarti, mai janta hu iski koi galti nhi hai..........sorry.............lekin is ghar me un dono me se koi nhi aayega..............kabhi bhi............agar sahil bhi kabhi yha aa gya to mai pata nhi kya karunga..........mujhe khud nhi pata ...........aur tum us se door rahna............kabhi uski or aankh uthakar bhi mat dekhna...............wo achcha nhi hai beta......wo bhi isi kameene ke jaisa hoga....to bhaut bholi hai meri bachchi............wo tere sath...........tu samajh rhi hai na...........aakhir isi kamine ka bhai hai na...........aur agr kabhi us se mili to samajh lena ki bina baap ki ho gyi ho......” aur papa itna kahte kahte ruk gaye....... ************************************************************************************* Aarti apni bat kah kar chup ho gyi thi aur sahil uski taraf aise dekh rha tha ki jaise abhi kuchh aur kahegi wo..............jaise sahil ki khata batayegi....................jaise koi aur safai pesh karegi .....lekin aarti chup rhi........... “fir....?? uske bad..........” sahil ne beyakeeni se kaha........ “uske bad kyaa......aap delhi aaye .....mummy ne aap ko kuchh nhi bataya.......kyuki us samay papa ghar par nhi the...... aur maine aap se doori bana ne ki kosis..........” aarti ki bat poori nhi ho payi thi ki sahil cheekh pada............ “aur tumne faisla kar liya ki tum mujhe chhod dogi...........tumne ye man liya ki mera khoon ganda hai.......tumne ye man liya ki mai apne bhai jaisa hu...........tumne man liya aarti............” sahil ki aankhe bhar aayi.............aarti aage badhi uske kanhde par hath rakh diya............ Sahil ne uska hath jhatak diya..........aur uski aankhe aaj ek bar fir se barasane lagi............... “tumne maan liya aarti...........tumne man liya...........aur ek mai hu............sari duniya kahti rahi ki tumne mujhe dhokha diya, tum bewafa ho.........sab kuchh sahaa maine............kitni raten tanha tumhari yad me roya..........tumhare liye roya......khuda se tumhare pyar ki bheekh mangi............lekin maine nhi mana aarti..........kabhi nhi maana.......shayad jubaan se kabhi nikal bhi gya ki tum bewafa ho..........lekin mere dil ne kabhi nhi mana..........maine kabhi nhi maana.........par tumne maan liya......??????????.....” “tumne maan liya ki mere pyar me vasanaa hai........tumne maan liya ki mere pyar me tumhare jism ki chahat hai...........tumne man liya ki meri nazro me hawas hai...........nhi aartiiiiiiiiiiii.........nhiiiiiiiii..........are tum to meri zindagi thi, maine to kabhi tumhare siwa kuchh socha hi nhi..............meri to saanse isi aas me chalti rahi ki meri aarti bewafa nhi ho sakti............bachpan se lekar jawani tak kisi aur ladki ki or kabhi pyar ki nazar se dekha tak nhi.........lekin tumhe mere pyar par aitabar hi nhi aaya...........tumhari muhabbat bahut kamjor nikli aarti , jo halat ke in mamooli thapedo se toot gayi...........” “aarti meri galti kaha hai isme............????....kya khata hai meri ..............????? ek bar bhi tumne nhi socha.........aarti meri muhbbat aaj se 5 sal pahle nhi hari thi.......aaj haar gayi............” sahil niche gir pada aur bejar hokar bilkhane laga.......... Aarti ki aankhe abhi bhi bikool sukhi thi...........pattharr ki ho gyi thi shayad aarti..................usne sahil ko chup karane ke liye ek bar fir se uske kandhe par hath rakhna chaha...........sahul ne uska hath jhatak diya...........sahil ki aankhe ekdam laal thi ........... “nhiiiiiiiiiii........chhuna mat mujhe...........juhi sahi kahti thi aarti............tum muhbbat ke laayak nhi ho.......nhi ho tum muhbbat ke layak........... BEWAFA HO TUM ... BEWAFA.........are tum to nafarat ke layak bhi nhi ho.........aur ek mai hu....huhn.... jaan tak dene chala tha tumhare liye.............ek “BEWAFA” ke liye..........” “aarti mai ja rha hu.........hamesa hamesa ke liye...ab kabhi laut kar tumhare dar par nhi aaunga............aur haan....... is bharam me mat rahna ki sahil ab bhi tum par mar mitega, fir se apni zindagi daaw par laga dega..............meri zindagi bahut keemti hai.........tum jaisi kisi “BEWAFA” par lutane ke liye nhi........” “jao kar lo apni shadi ,ban jau kisi aur ki..........fir use bhi barbad kar dena.......fir kisi aur ki banna......aur fir use......” sahil mano kise nashe ke se aalam me bol rha tha........ “sahil” aarti ko bura lag rha tha..... “kya hua bura lag rha hai........haan...........sachchi bat aise hi buri lagti hai.........aarti mai sochta tha ki mai badnasseb hounga agar mujh tum na mili to.......lekin mai khusnaseeb hu aarti..........badnasseb to wo hai jiski zindagi me tum shamil hone ja rhi ho...................ek aakhiri bat jate jate kah rha hu............mujhe koi gham nhi hai............ kyuki maine use khoya hai jo kabhi meri thi hi nhi, lekin tumne use khoya hai jo sirf tumhara tha !!!!! sirf tumhara......” aakhiri lafz bolte bolte sahil ki aankh thodi si nam ho gyi par is bar wo roya nhi aur wo uthakr teji se bahar nikal gaya. “sab kuchh sahi kaha sahil......mai BEWAFA hu.............bas itanaa yakeen karna mujh par........ki maine kabhi ye nhi chaha tha , kabhi ye nhi socha tha ki tum jan dene ki kosis karoge.........kabhi nhi sahil......kabhi bhi nhi............ye maine kabhi nhi chaha.” aarti ne kaha aur chauchap uthkar apne room me jakar andar se darwaza band kar liya. Sahil apne bag pack karke bahar nikal rha tha ......aarti uske samne nhi aayi thi aur wo chahta bhi nhi tha.............. Sahil niche hall me aa gya tha..didi bhi sath me thi.......... ........aur sabse kamaal ki bat to ye thi ki didi ne ek bar bhi us se achanak jane ki vajah nhi puchhi..........na use rookne ke liye kaha............wo bas nikal hi rha tha ki tabhi uske jeeja anadar aate huye dikhe.........aaj kayi salo ke bad unka samnaa ho rha tha..........hospital me accident ke bad wo the lekin tab sahil thik nhi tha.........uske bad se jyadatar unse samnaa nhi hua tha.........ek pal ko sahil ko thoda sa dar laga...........fir usne soch liya ki ab kya dar........... jo apna tha wo to kho hi diya......... Lekin fir wo hua jiski sahil ko jara bhi umeed nhi thi..................jara si bhi nhi. Sahil whi khada ho gya apne jeeja ji ko aate dekhkar.............jeeja bhi uske bikul pass pahuchakar khade ho gaye..................... Sahil ne jhuk kar unke pair chhuye to unhone uthakar use gale se laga liya............ “kaha jane ki taiayari hai” unhone bade apne pan se puchha. Wah ri duniya !! kya khub matlabi aur swarthy logo ki duniya hai ye..............kal tak mera khoon ganda tha aur aaj mai itna apna ho gya..............sirf isliye ki ab mai ek hara hua insaan nhi hu..........kyuki ab mai ek IAS officer hu... .........sahil apne man me soche jar ha tha aur uske dil ki nafarat badhti ja rhi thi............. “jee...bas nikal rha hu..........lucknow ja rha hu.........join karna hu duty “ sahil ne bina man ke jawab diya.............. “are yar itande din bad mile ho...............thodi der to mere sath bhi rah lo............chalo kal chale jana.....” jeeja ne uske kandhe par hath rakhte huye kaha. “nhii jeeja .........jaroori hai ...........kafi time ho gya..........” “whi to kah rha hu kafi time ho gya...........mere sath tumhe rahe.......chalo aaj ruk jao kal chale jana.........” jeeja ne uske hath se suitcase lete huye kaha. Sahil ab bikul nhi jana chahta tha wapas...........aarti ka samn a ek bar wo fir se nhi karna chahata tha...........lekin jeeja itane apne pan se kah rhe the ki wo mana bhi nhi kar paa rha tha.......itana jahar ugala tha unhone uske khilaf,lekin fir bhi,,,,,,,,,,,...yhi to zindagi me sahil nhi kar pata tha........usne bina man se hi sahil lekin apne kadam ek bar fir se ghar ki taraf wapas mod liye. “tum bas do minute baitho mai abhi fresh hokar aata hu......” jeeja use baithte dekhkar bole aur washroom me ghus gaye......didi bhi kuchh bnanane ke liye kitchen me chali gayi......... Sahil whi baitha is ghar ki daro deewar ko nihar raha tha........aur uske dil me dard ki ek lahar uth jati thi...........aise hi baithe baithe use pata nhi chala ki kab aarti bhi wha aakar baith gayi........uski thik bagal me............. “sahil” uske muh se apna nam sunkar sahil ne uske chehre ki or dekho..............bikul sapaat chehra , koi emotions nhi,............... koi dekhe to pata na chale ki wo khus hai, dukhi hai ya fir naraz hai.................sahil ko bhi kuchh pata nhi chala.....aur chalta bhi to shayad ab use koi fark nhi padne wala tha.......... “juhi se pyar karte ho.............?...” aarti ne badi himmat juta kar kaha. Sahil kuchh nhi bola aur nafarat se dusri taraf nazre ghuma li............... “ wo to aapko bahut chahti hai.............kya aap nhi...” aarti bahut darte darte bat kar rhi thi aur jane kyu kar rhi thi.............abhi to itana kuchh sunaya tha use sahil ne......... “plz sahil, kuchh to boliye ........kya aap use pyar nhi..............” aari ki bat adhoori rah gayi........ “shut up ..........just shut up............pyar jaise pakh sabd ko apni juban par lakar ganda mat karo................aur juhi............hummmm........uska nam bhi lene layak nhi ho tum.......uske pairo ki dhool ke barabar bhi nhi.............tum kya jano juhi kya hai............mai use pyar karta hu ya nhi, iska tumse koi vasta nhi........lekin mai uski ibadat karta hu,,,,,,poojta hu mai use,......pari hai juhi,jo dusro ke sapne sajanaa janti hai, sabkuchh lutana janti hai............dusro ki khusi ke liye jeeti hai wo............” sahil bahut nafart ki nigah aarti par dalta hua bola......... “kya is ibadat me muhabbat bhi shamil hai sahil...?” aarti apni har beijjati bardasht karte huye bahut shant bhav se bat kiye ja rhi thi. “muhabbat ??????............hunh....ek bar m uhabbat karke dekh li..........jis se ki usko bhi dekh liya.........koi muhabbat nhi hoti duniya me.............sab kuchh sirf matalab hota hai.......sirf aur sirf apna swaarth............aur plz tum aur kuchh mat poochhana.............tumse bat karna bhi ek sajja lagti hai ab mujhe.............” sahil bahut gusse me tha lekin apni aawaz dba kar bol rha tha...........jaise koi funfkaar rha ho. Aarti ne kuchh nhi kaha.......bas ek gahri saans li aur chuchap baithi rahi.........tabhi didi hath me tray lekar andar aa gayi...............chai,kuchh snacks aur kuchh aur nashte ki cheeje thi usme............... Sahil ne chehra uthakar dekha unki or..............aankho ke kinare geele ho gaye the unke.............shayad unhone sahil ka jawab sun liya tha..........unhone jaldi se tray rakha aur sabse nazre bachate huye apni aankhe ponchh dali..............lekin sahil ki tej nazro se wo bach na payi.............wo kuchh nhi bola............is samay itani nafarat bhar gayi thi uske andar ki use kisi ke aansuo ki koi parwah nhi thi............... 5 sal bahut samay hota hai..........5 sal bina kuchh kahe, bina kisi shikawe- shikayat ke usne aarti ka intazaar kiya tha........sab kuchh harte huye bhi usne apni muhbbat ka daman nhi chhoda tha......apni muhabbat ka bhrosa nhi tootne diya tha.............apne dil me uski muhbbat ka chirag jalaye rakha tha............lekin aaj us chirag ne hi uske dil me hi aag lga diya tha aur us aag me muhbbat ka har sapna , har umeed jalkar rakh ho gayi thi. Thodi der bad sahil aur jeeja baithkar chay pee rhe the...........sahil unse bhi naraz tha,,bahut naraz lekin kuchh kah nhi rha tha...............wo to mano sari duniya se hi naraz tha..... “sahil,inassan zindagi me kabhi kabhi kuchh aisa kar deta hai ya kuchh aisa kho deta hai jisko kabhi wapas nhi laya ja sakta..............jiski bharpayi kabhi nhi ho sakti...........maine bhi kuchh aisi hi galtiya ki hai apne past me..........” jeeja bade dheere dheere bol rhe the........sharmindagi ka ek rang unke chehre se jhalak rha tha, Sahil ne kuchh nhi kaha bas unki or dekhta raha...kya unke chehre ki sharmindagi sahil ko uske wo din lauta sakti thi jo usne tanha ro ro kar gujare the...........nhi........ “mai kabhi itani himmat nhi juta paunga ki apni galtiyo ko bayan karu .......lekin agr ho sake to mujhe maaf kar dena............” aaj usne jeeja ki aankho me pahli bar aansu dekhe the...... Sahil kuchh nhi bol rha tha................itan bada nuksaan hua tha uska , kaise maf kar deta wo........... Sahil whi baitha rha ...........jeeja bhi baithe the lekin koi khas bat-cheet nhi ho rhi thi............... Sahil ka phone ghanghanaa utha............ Juhi ka phone tha............ “sahil , wo.... .wo..........babaa.........aap jaldi se aa jao sahil plz............” “juhi kaha ho tum .......ro kyu rhi ho .....mai abhi aata hu..............chup raho rowo mat .......mai abhi pahuchata hu..........” sahil ko juhi ki aawaz ke bich uski siskiyan sunai de rhi thi “sahil aap jaldi aa jao mai bahut akeli hu ............abbu bhi yha nhi hai........baba ki tabiyat bahut kharab hai................” “mai abhi aaya juhi.......achhha wha kisi ko phone do............” Juhi ne ek ward boy ka phone thamaa diya .............sahil ne whi pas me pade paper par address note kiya hospital ka aur turant nikal pada............. “sahil mai bhi chalta hu.........” jeeja bole. “nhi aap rahne de............abhi aaye hai.......mai dekh lunga.........” sahil bas itna hi bola. “gadi le jao sahil...........jaldi hoga.....” jeeja ne chabhi uski or badhate huye kaha.......sahil ek pal ko thithaka fir gadi ki chabhi tham li......... Sahil ghar se nikal chuka tha............ Thodi der bad wo city hospital pahucha aur teji se us ward ki taraf badh gya.......... Juhi bahar corridor me bathi thi jabki baba andar the aur shayad so rhe the.........dawa ke asar se........jaise hi usne sahil ko dekha bhagti huyi uske seene se lag gayi aur phoot phoot kar rone lagi.............. “chup ho jaye juhi......mai aa gya hu na ......plz chup ho jao.......khan baba ko kuchh nhi hoga...........” sahil use apne seene se lagaye lagaye uske sar ko sahlate huye use chup karane ki kosis karne laga........juhi abhi bhi bahut masoom thi ...........usne kabhi ye sab situation dekhi nhi thi........aur achanak baba ki tabiyat kharab hone se wo bahut dar gayi thi .....sahil ki baho ka saharaa pakar uska dil tadap utha aur wo rone lagi thi......... Thodi der me doctor se bhi sahil ki bat huyi .....unhone bataya ki baba ki halat stable hai aur shayad kal tak discharge ho jaye agar aaj raat me thik rahte hai to............. Sahil bahar se kuchh khane ko laya,,,,,jabardasti usne juhi ko thoda sa khilaya aur khud bhi khaya....rat ke 9 baj gaye the...........sahil ne lakh kosis ki par juhi use aur baba ko chhodakar ghar jane ko raji nhi huyi........aur dono baba ke room ke bahar baithe rahe........ “sahil baba thik ho jayenge na......?????? .” juhi bachpan se hi apne baba se bahut attached thi, uski koi bhi farmayish hoti aur baba muh se nikalte ke sath hi poori kar deti.............ab unhe khone ka dar juhi ko satane laga tha., “ha juhi,bilkul thik ho jayenge........” sahil ne bade pyar se kaha. “sahil wo aaj subah jo kuchh kaha maine ......uske liye sorry.........” juhi ne badi masoomiyat se apne hatho ko apne kan se laga liya. Sahil ko bahut pyar aa rha tha us par........... “pagal ho tum poori............sorry kis bat ki..........aur aise bhi koi sory kahte hai kya ” sahil ne halka se muskurate huye kaha. “ha jinhe hum muhbbat karte hai unse ........” juhi ke muh se achanak nikal gaya aur fir usne apni nazre juhka li. Sahil ke dil me kisi ka chehara ghoom gaya..........wo bhi to aise ho sorry bolta tha apni aarti ko manane ke liye..........aur fir usne apne sar ko jhataka.....us bewafa se ab kya rishta. “thank u sahil ....” juhi ne dheere se kaha....... “tum pagal ho.....poori pagal.........ye kya kabhi sorry ,kabhi thank u......juhi tum mere liye in sab bato se bahut upar ho............bahut jyada upar.........kabhi sorry mat bolna aur kabhi thank u bhi nahi............samjhi............” sahil ne uski aankho me ektak dekhte huye kaha.............aur juhi bas halka sa muskura kar rah gayi............. Rat ke 11 baj gaye the aur sahil chupchap baitha apne khyalo ki duniya me gum tha.........juhi uske ek baju ko apne hatho me liye huye us se chipki thi aur apna sar sahil ke kandhe par rakhe so rahi thi...................sahil ki nazar uske masoom chehre ki or barbas hi chali gayi............aur aaj zindagi me pahli bar na chahtte huye bhi aarti ko kisi se compare kar rha tha.......kyuki aaj tak kabhi usne aarti ki tulna kisi se ki hi nhi thi........aaj tak to uske liye aarti har shakh se se upar thi..............bahut upar. Lekin aaj wo compare kar rha tha..............”AARTI Vs JUHI” ‘aarti ki muhbbat ,ek dhoka......juhi ki muhabbat ek kurabni.............juhi ne mujhe tab bhi pyar kiya jabki use pata tha ki mere pass kuchh nhi hai........use pata tha ki mai aaj bhi kisi aur ko chahta hu...........use pata tha ki mai har baji har chukka hu...........lekin fir bhi usne mera hath tham liya......mujhe bikharne nhi diya...........itani pak muhabbat hai juhi ki.........” Aaj sahil ko juhi aarti se milo aage khadi dikh rhi thi.............aur aarti aur uski muhbbat “bewafayi” ke daldal me fasi kahi bahut pichhe chhootti nazar aa rhi thi............bahut jyada pichhe.......... “tumne sahi kaha tha juhi........... agar ab bhi mai apni sachchi muhbbat ko nhi pahchan paya to mai bahut badnaseeb hounga.............lekin kya mai tumhe wo muhabbat de paunga......” sahil ne ek bar apne aap se sawal kiya aur bina jawab ka intzar kiya juhi ke mathe ko pyar se choom liya aur use apne aap me samet kar khud bhi us se lag kar aankhe band kar li. Sahil ne aankhe band kar li aur shayad palak jhapakte hi ek neend ka jhoka aa gya......................... “kya hua sahil...........sari kasme ,sare wade,,,wo sari muhabbat ki badi badi baten.....kya hua un sabka...........tumne to kaha tha ki muhbbat sirf ek bar hoti hai ......fir kya hua....dusri bar kaise ho gayi sahil..........muhbbat ek bar hoti hai aur fir wo ya to haar jati hai ya jeet jati hai.......yad hai, tumhi ne kahi thi na ye bat.......to kya hua......tumhari muhbbat har gayi kya sahil...........ha ha ha........muhbbat karna aasan hai, kahna ki tumse muhbbat hai , aur bhi aasan hai............lekin muhbbat nibhana nhi aasaan hai.........jane do sahil tumse na hogi ye muhbbat......” sahil ne jhat se aankhe khol di.....aisa laga jaise aarti uski muhbbat ka majak uda rhi hai, has rhi hai usi muhabbat par....... “nhiiiiiiii” sahil ke munh se ghuti ghuti si chikh nikali..........juhi chaunk kar uth gayi........... “Kya hua sahil aap thik hai na” usne hairat se sahil ki or dekhte huye kaha.......... Sahil ne ha me sar hilaya..... “bas kuchh baten aisi hoti hai jo kabhi peechha nhi chhodati.......kabhi yaden bankar aur kabhi sapne banakr darati hai..........” sahil ne khoye khoye se andaz me kaha............ “mai samjhti hu sahillllll......sab thik ho jayega.......mai hu na.........” juhi ne pyar se kaha aur sahil ne apna sar uske kandhe par rakh diya.......... Baba ko subah discharge kar diya gya tha.............sahil juhi ke sath uske ghar aa gya .......baba ko chhodkar wapas lucknow ke liye nikal rha tha......... “sahil kuchh din rook jao.....ek bar baba poori tarah se thik ho jao fir aap chale jana nhi rokungi..........ya fir jaise hi abbu aa jaye........... Sahil ne ek bar uski or dekha.............. “Thik hai.........mai dekhta hu......apni chhuti extend karwani hogi mujhe..........”sahil ne kaha....... “yha se ho jayegi ya jana hi padega..........” juhi ne kaha. “mai dekhta hu shayad ho jaye......rahul se bat karta hu............achchha mai kahi ja rha hu isi chakkar me ....koi jaroorat ho to phone kar dena...............” sahil ne kaha.......juhi bas haa me sar hilakar rah gayi........... Sahil bahar nikla hi tha ki jeeja ka phone aa gya.........usne beman se phone uthaya......... “haa sahil ....kaise hain ab wo............” “jee ,thik hai,ghar par aa gye hai............” “tum rukoge ya jana hai...” “jee abhi dekhta hu....shayd rukunga.....” “kaha ho is waqt........” “abhi to bahar aaya hu .............sham tak juhi key yha pahuchunga” sahil har bat ka sankchhipt sa jawab de rha tha............ Aur fir thodi si bat karke phone cut kar diya.... ************************************************************************************* Door bell bahut der se baj rhi thi............juhi ne jaldi jaldi jate huye darwaza khola samne aarti khadi thi............udas si ,bujhi bujhi si, hari hari si aarti................. “kya chahiye” usko dekhte huye juhi ne badi nafarat se kaha. Aarti ne bilkul bhi aisa nhi show hone diya ki use zara sa bhi bura laga hai uski bat ka............. “andar aa sakti hu....???????...thodi der bat karungi fir chali jaungi.............” aarti ne dheere se kaha............. “jee to nhi chahta ki tumhe apne ghar me aane du.........lekin sahil jaise shakhs ne muhbbat ki hai tumse.........isliye majboor hu ,mna nhi kar sakti..........” juhi jo har kisi se bahut narmi se bat karte thi , aarti ke samne aate hi mano shole ugalane lagti..............wo darwaza chhodkar hat gayi aur aarti ko andar aane diya............. Aarti juhi ke room me bathi thi..........bed ke thik pas me sahil ki ek khobsoorat si tasweer rakhi thi........pahle ki aarti hoti to ye bahut jalaane wali bat hoti , juhi se ladayi bhi ho jati shayad.........lekin ab wo aarti thi hi nhi.....kahi nhi....... Usne juhi ki aankho me dekha......siway nafart ke kuchh nhi tha uski liye......... “bolo jo bolna hai....mere pas itna faltu time nhi hai ki tum jaisi ladki par barbad karu...........” juhi ne ek aur teer chhoda..........jo aarti ko bahut andar tak laga lekin wo in sab ko bardasht karne ke liye taiyar hokar aayi thi............ jab bhi juhi aarti ko dekhti thi use wo rota bilkhata, toota hua sahil yad aa jata tha......... aaj bhi uska wo ro ro kar kahna ki “ juhi mujhe uski yad aati hai......juhi use bolo na ki wapas aa jaye............” ........aaj bhi use yad tha .....sab kuchh yad........aur fir nafart ki siway kuchh nhi aata tha uske dil me aarti ke liye........... “juhi maine sahil ka hath us samay chhod diya jab use meri sabse jayda jaroorat thi............vajah chahe jo bhi rhi ho ................”aarti itna hi bol payi......... “nhi aaj tumhe wo vajah mujhe batani hogi............nhi to mujhe aur kuchh nhi sun na............” juhi ne sahi mauka dekhkar kaha...... “thik hai batati hu..........” aur aarti ne wahi sari story juhi ko bata di jo usne sahil ko batayi thi........... Uski bat sunkar juhi ka chehra thoda shant sa dikhne laga........wo ek ladki thi ......shayad aarti ki majboori ko jyada ache se samjh sakti thi......... “aarti ..fir bhi tumne jo kiya wo galat tha............poori tarah se galat..........agar sahil ko kuchh ho jata to.............” juhi ne pahli bar thodi narmi se kaha. “janti hu.........meri galti ki koi mafi nhi hai..........lekin mera vishwas karo maine kabhi ye nhi socha ki sahil apni jaan dene ki kosis karenge.....ye bat us samay mere jehan me nhi aayi.........shayad mujhe sahil ko sab bata dena chahiye tha...............”aur aarti kuchh kahte kahte achanak ruk gayi............ “janti ho insan ko sabse jyada dukh kab hota hai.......... tab jab “ wo shahs” uski baho me apni muhabbat ke liye ro rha ho , jise wo sabse jyada pyar karti ho........haa aarti.........mai bhi sahil se bahut muhbbat karti hu.....aur meri baho me sahil tumharre liye rote the.....mera dil har bar tutkar bikhar jata tha.........” Juhi bolti chali gayi............ “sahil ne tumse baut gahri muhabbat ki hai aarti.......kaun karta hai itni muhbbat .......sahil jaise shakhs pe to hazaro ladkiya mar mite............maine bhi sahil ko jee jan se chaha lekin unhone kabhi ek bar bhi muhabbat ki nazar se dekha tak nhi .............kyuki wo sirf tumse muhabbat karte the............itna sab kuchh hone ke bad bhi , kabhi unke muh se ek lafz tumhare khilaf nhi suna maine........kbahi tumhe koi dosh nhi diya unhone................wo aaj bhi sirf tumse muhabbat karte hai...........laut jao unke pas ho sake to..........” juhi ne apne dil par patthar rakh kar kaha. “nhi jjuhi ...........ab wo mujhse muhbbat nhi karte........ab hamare raste alag hai......mai kahi aur shadi kar rhi hu, apni marzi se ..........” aarti ne jabardast kosis ki apne aansuo ko control karne ki aur wo safal bhi ho gayi. Juhi ne ek taras bhari nazar us par dali.............kahi aur shadi apni marzi se............???????/uski kuchh samjh me nhi aa rha tha .....aarti ki juban kuchh kah rhi thi aur uski aankhe kuchh aur......... “mujhe samjh me nhi aa rha ki tumhe khusnaseeb samjhu, jise sahil jaisa muhbbat karne wala shkahs mila -ya badnseeb jise us muhbbat ki kadar hi nhi thi...........” “juhi, meri galti bahut badi hai.....aur mai koi safayi bhi nhi dena chahti hu........” aarti boli. “bas ek vinti hai tumse...........”aarti ne thoda sa ruk kar kaha........ Juhi kuchh nhi boli............ “ sahil tumhe pari kahte hai.....sabki wish pariyaan poori kati hai........ek meri bhi kar do........sahil ki muhabbat ban jao........sahil ko itna pyar dena ki use kabhi kisi ki yad hi na aaye,,,,,,,,,..bas yahi kahne aayi thi ........” aarti ne kaha aur turant uthakr pichhe mudakr jane lagi.......... Aarti darwaze ke pas jakar mudi.......... “ unhe bahut khus rakhna juhi.........jo pyar main na de saki tum dena.......bahut masoom hai mera sahil...apne sahil ko tumhare hatho me saup kar ja rhi hu..........kabhi use hurt mat karna........mere sahil ka khyal rakhna juhi..........” aarti ne kaha, usne chehre par kuchh nhi aane diya lekin uska dil ro rha tha.........cheekh cheekh kar. Juhi ko uska “mera sahil” kahna achcha nhi laga........shadi kisi aur se aur haq abhi bhi sahil par...... “mera sahil.......????????” na chahte huye bhi uske lafjo me tanj aa gya, “sorry, tumhara sahil ...........sirf tumhara sahil........ab kabhi nhi kahungi mera sahil........apne sahil ka khyal rakhna juhi......” aarti ne kaha aur teji se bahar nikal gayi. Juhi ko khusi nhi ho rhi thi......jane kyu use lag rha tha ki kuchh galat ho rha hai....kuchh bahut jayada galat..........kal sahil uske pas nhi tha is liye khus nhi tha, aaj sahil uske pas tha fir bhi wo khus nhi thi..........jane kyu use aisa lag rha tha ki usne sahil ko paya nhi hai.........chheen liya hai. Aarti apne gadi me baithi aur itani der se ruke aansuo ko aur na rok saki...............buri tarah se cheekh cheekh kar rone lagi..............aaj usne kya khoya tha sirf whi janti thi... Jane kaun sa mod lene wali thi ye chahato ki dastaan.........na sahil khus tha, na juhi khus thi aur na hi aarti khus thi...........kya diya tha un sabki muhabbat ne unhe ???????......sirf aur sirf aansu............. Kya fyada aisi muhabbat ka?????????????????????????? Juhi ko ek anjaane se dukh ka ahsaas ho rha tha...........aarti ke wo sabd ki “ mere sahil ka khyal rakhna” ...use bahut dukh de rhe the............ “aisa kya ho gya ki aarti kisi aur se shadi kar rhi hai..........mana ki uski ek majboori thi jab wo sahil se door huyi ...........lekin ab..........ab to sab kuchh thik ho jana chahiye............sahil to use ab bhi utna hi chahte hai.............ya ho sakta hai wo bat sunkar ab sahil ke dil me muhbaat na rhi ho..............” juhi apni hi socho ke bhawar me doobti chali ja rhi thi............... Use kuchh samjh me nhi aa rha tha................. Sham ke 6 baj chuke the aur sahil juhi ke pas wapas aa gya tha...............baba ki tabiyat kafi had tak sambhal chuki thi aur sarfaraz sahib do din bad aane wale the................... Rat ka khana khakar juhi ne baba ko dawaye di aur fir unke room me unhe pahuchakar sahil ke sath dining room me baith gayi.............. Sahil kisi gahri soch me dooba tha............dono sofe par ek sath baithe television par nazre jamaye the ......lekin sahil ka dhyan kahi aur hi tha............juhi uske bikul pas baithi thi.................usne sahil ke chehre ki or dekha........................ “kya hua sahil...............aap kuchh soch rhe ho............” juhi ne badi muhabbat se uska hath apne hatho me le liya. “aaww...haan.........wo ..............juhi usne mujhe kuchh bataya............” sahil bola. “kisne ? “ juhi janti thi fir bhi usne puchha. “aarti ne............” “kya bataya............?????.” juhi ne fir puchha. Sahil ne whi sari baten bata di.................... Juhi ko sab pta to tha hi lekin usne kuchh nhi kaha..............usne nhi bataya ki aarti aaj uske pas aayi thi......... “tumhi batao juhi......isme meri galti kaha hai............jo galti maine nhi ki uski sajaa fir mujhe kyu ???????????............4 sal ki aisi sajaa jo mere saanse tak mujhse chheen leti, agar tumhari ye meharbaan bahen mujhe tham na leti...........thank u juhi..........” sahil ne uski aankho me badi muhabbat se dekhte huye kaha............ Juhi ki samjh me nhi aa rha tha ki kaun galat hai aur kaun sahi............. “sahil kya pata koi aur bat rhi ho .......jo usne na batayi ho.............”juhi ne apne dil ki bat kah di...........ek kosis to karna banta tha aarti ke liye. Sahil khamosh rha is bar....... Sahil ne apna sar juhi ke kandhe par tika diya.................” “mai bahut thak gya hu juhi............bahut thak gya hu mai.............” usne dheere se kaha aur aankhe band kar li........... Juhi abhi bhi khamosh thi bas apne hatho se halke halke sahil ke balo me hath pherte huye sochti ja rhi thi.............. Aur thodi der bad sahil aur juhi dono apne apne kamre me neend ke aghosh me samaa gaye. “sahil ek bar kal chalenge ham aartii ke yha.......sabse puchhenge ......kya pata aur koi bat bhi ho.............” subah juhi ne chay peete huye sahil se kaha...........kitna pyara dil tha juhi ka...jis sakhs ko itana chahti thi sue bhi khone ko taiyar thi........bas isliye ki aarti ki muhbaat agar sachchi ho to fir use hi mil jaye sahil. Sahil kuchh nhi bol rha tha..........lekin uski aankho me sahmati thi. “ thik h ...jaisa tum kaho........juhi mai do din bad yha se chala jaunga........kal uncle bhi aa jayenge aur ab baba ki tabiyat bhi thik hai.......chalo aaj kuchh shopping kar lete hai.............mummy ke liye kuchh le lunga...............fir lucknow se hi gaon chala jaunga kuchh din ke liye......... jaise hi time milega..” sahil sham ko juhi ke sath baitha tha ,jab use kahi bahar jane ka mood hua aur wo bol pada. “thik h.......mai bas do minut me aati hu...............” juhi ne dheere se kaha.......sahil ke chale jane ka sunkar uska man udas ho gya........lekin wo kuchh boli nhi. Yu to aarti use bol kar gayi thi ki sahil ko wo pyar de, use apnaa banaa le........lekin juhi ki himmat nhi ho rhi thi.....jene kyu bar bar dil me aata ki kisi ko dukh pahucha rhi hai, kisi se kuchh chheen rhi hai.......aur juhi to pari thi.......usne to dena sikha tha..........fir wo kisi se kaise kuchh chheen leti. Thodi der bad juhi sahil ke sath market ko nikal gayi. Juhi aur sahil ek mall me ghoom rhe the........sahil ka dil ghar par bhi nhi lag rha th isi liye wo yha aaya tha ..........lekin ab use lag rha tha ki yha aana bhi bekar hi hai.........uska man nhi lag rha tha kahi. Sahil juhi ko lekar ek kapdo ke showroom me ghus gya aur mummy ke liye kuchh sadiya select karne laga.......... “aarti...! wo dekh sahil “ whi kuchh doori par dusre counter par aarti apni mummy aur kuchh ladkiyon ke sath baithe kuchh kapde dekh rhi thi .............jab uski ek friend ki nazar sahil par padi aur wo dheere se aarti ke kan me boli. Aarti ki nazar sahil par padi ..........khus to nhi lag rha tha sahil.........uske chehre par ek gahri udasi ka saya tha,,,,,,aarti ne apni nazre hata li uske chehre se..............aur saamne rakhe dher sare lahngo me hath pherne lagi........... “kya bhaiya, aapke pas kuchh latest ho to dikhau nhi to hum ja rhe hai.............” aarti ke sath wali ek ladki boli. “are kya bat kar rhi hai madam ...........ye green wala dekhiye.........ekdam jabardast item hai............abhi mangaya hai...........” salesman bola. Aarti ne wo wala joda uthaya aur apne sar par pallu rakh kar sabko dikhane lagi............. “wah madam ......khuda kasam bahut khubsoorat lag rhi hai aap......ekdam dulhan........” salesman is bar khusi me aakar shayad jyada hi tej bol gya..........aur thodi hi door par khade sahil aur juhi ki nazre us or uth gayi..................... Sahil juhi ko dekhta hi rah gyi...........sachmuch bahut khubsoorat lag rhi thi wo...............aur bahut khus bhi........ “Sahil , aari ” juhi ne kaha......... “hummm .............dekh rha hu...........” sahil behad udas lahje me bola. “kya kar rhe hai wo log” juhi ne ek bevkoofi wala sawal kiya. “apne shadi ki shopping kar rhi hai..........” sahil ki aankhe bhar aayi ye bolte bolte............ Juhi ne ek bar uske chehre ki or dekha.........aur dheere se uska hath apne hatho me le liya.......jabki aarti unki or nhi dekh rhi thi...............aur badal badal kar lahnge apne sar par rakh kar check kar rhi thi.............aur badi khusi khusi sabko dikha rhi thi........”kaisi lag rhi hu” “chalo juhi .........” sahil bahar ki or nikalta hua bola. Juhi kuchh samjh nhi pa rhi thi ki kya kare,,,,,,,,,, “juhi plzz...chalo yha se.........”sahil cheekhte huye bola..........sabki nazre udhar uth gai aur juhi sahil ke sath bahar nikal gayi............. Poore raste sahil ne juhi se koi bat nhi ki..........uska chehre par ek sakhti thi......... na koi dard tha , na koi aansu.......... Sahil juhi ke sath khana kha kar baith tha........dono me jyada kuchh baten nhi ho rhi thi.......... “sahil , “ juhi ne dhhhere se uska kandha hilaya.......... “umm........haaaaan..”sahil jaise kisi khwab se jag gya. “mai hamesa tumhare sath rahungi..............” juhi ke man me jane kyu yhi bat aa gyi.. Sahil kuchh nhi bola................... “juhi mai bhi hamesa tumhare sath rahunga,.....hamesa...........” sahil ne bas itana hi kaha. Juhi ki himmat nhi pad rhi thi ki aarti ki koi bat kare................aur shayad ab bat karne ko kuchh bacha bhi nhi tha............. “juhi ek vada karogi............” sahil ne kaha. “boliye........” juhi boli. “mummy papa ke bad, ek tum hi ho jise mai ab apna manta hu............tum kabhi aarti se mat milna ......mujhe achcha nhi lagega............tumhe meri kasam ............” ye kya bol diya tha sahil ne...........juhi ka muh khula ka khula rah gya........... “nahi milungi sahil....” juhi ne uske chehre ko apne dono hatho me bhar liya aur sahil uske gale lag kar rone laga............sari sakhti toot kar un aansuo me bah gayi...........uff ye muhbbat kiyna majboor kar deti hai insan ko. Dusre din sarfaraz sahib aa gaye aur sahil chala gya wapas lucknow..............apni duty par........dil ka dard ab bahut jyada badh gya tha ........dilli me aur rukta to jane kya ho jata............ Lagbhag ek hafte ho gaye the sahil ko aaye........aaj didi ka phone aaya tha.......sahil ne bujhe man se phone utha liya......... “ sahil,kaisa hai beta.......” aaj didi ki aawaz me sahil ko na jane kyu pahle wala pyar lag rha tha........aur jab bhi kuchh use pahle jaisa yad aata uski aankhe bhar aati....... “thik hu didi, aap kaisi hai............” sahil ko unki aawz bahut udas udas si lag rhi thi............ “mai bhi thik hu...........wo..wo..wo.beta...........”didi kuchh kahna chah rhi thi par kah nhi paa rhi thi....... “jee kahe...........” “beta ...wo.....aarti ki shadi ki date pad gayi hai ......to...wo......mai chahti thi ki tum aa jao...........sab jaldi jaldi me hua hai.......ladke wale simple tarike se karna chah rhe the to.....isiliye kisi ko bhi nhi bulaya............25 ko hai.......10 din rah gaye hai........” didi ne mano darte darte kaha........... Sahil ko laga kisi ne uske seene me khanjar mar diya..........”aarti ki shadi”.......meri aarti ki shadi ...... Sahil ne phone kat diiya aur farsh par gir kar rone laga............ “kya kar diya tumne aarti......?? maine kabhi nhi socha tha ki tum kisi aur ki ho kar bhi jee logi.......kya huye wo bade bade vade........kahaan gayi wo kasme........tumne to kaha thi ki tumhari doli sirf mere nam ki uthegi.......kya hua un baton ka aarti..........kya karunga mai tumhare bad..........” sahil ki sari narazagi ,aur aarti ki sari bewfayi , abhi kahi door door tak nazar nhi aa rhi thi.......... abhi to bas sahil ka dard tha jo use tadpa rha tha..........wo bachpan ki muhabbat use rula rhi thi .........aarti ka kisi aur ka ho jane ka ahsaas ,use kho dene ka ahsaas......sahil bardasht nhi kar pa rha tha............. aaj fir se wo bachcho ki tarah bilakh rha tha........ wo rota rha ..........didi ka phone bar bar aa rha tha lekin wo utha nhi rha tha......bas sisak-siasak kar roye ja rha tha............ Bahut der tak rota rha..........aur jab sambhala to ek bar fir dil par dimag hawi hota chala gya........usne apne aanssu ponchh dale.......... ”thik hai aarti mai tumhari khusi ke bich kabhi nhi aaya ,to ab bhi nhi aaunga............jaa “bewafa” khus rahna” Usne phone uthaya aur didi ko call lagaya...... “jee didi , mai jaroor aaunga...........” sahil ne bas itana hi kaha aur phone rakh diya........ whi pas me rakhe sofe par baith gya.......is se pahle wo kuchh aur soch pata bahar pahra de rhe guard ne aa kar kaha........... “sir koi madam aayi hai....bahar baithaya hai.....juhi nam bata rhi hai.............” “abe tum pagal ho kya......juhi ko bahar bithaya hai..............” sahil ek pal ko sab kuchh bhool gya...........aur daudat hua bahar nikala. Bechara guard kya jane kaun hai juhi........... “are juhi tum...........what a pleasant surprise.......ek phone nhi kar sakti thi..............” sahil ne use gale se lagate huye kaha........bahar khade gaurds ko dekh kar juhi thoda sharma gyi. Sahil ko bhi feel hua............ “aao andar chalo “ sahil fir bhi uska hath pakde use andar le aaya. “ab batao kaise aana hua........” sahil ne jabardasti ki muskurahat apne hotho par lane ki kosis ki. “aise hi .......aapki bahut yad aa rhi thi so chali aayi............aa nhi sakti hu kya mai???” juhi ne bade haq se kaha. “kaisi baten karti ho juhi........sahil ka sab kuchh tumhara hi to hai...........” sahil ne kaha. “sabkuchh?????? Soch lijiye..... fir mukar mat jayega apni bat se ” juhi ne thodi sharara t se kaha.........sahil ke chehre ka rang badal gya...........uske dil ki udasi chehre par aa gyi............. “chhodo ye baten....baba kaise hai.........” sahil ne poori koisis ki apne dard ko chhupane ki lekin juhi to uski rag rag se wakif thi.............. Tabhi sahil ka cook ,jo ki sare kam bhi karta tha ghar ke ,unke liye chay lekar aaya..........samne rakhe table par chai aur kuchh khane ki chije rakhkar wapas mud gya............. “lo chay.....ha batao na kaise ha khan baba” sahil dar rha tha ki juhi puchhegi fir se ........uski uadasi ki vajah. “thik hain.....par kabhi kabhi bahut serious ho jate hai..............aajkl abbu ghar par hai to maine socha kyu na mai hi thoda ghoom lu..............hamesa wo ghumte hai............” juhi sahil ki aankho me dekhte huye halka sa muskura kar boli. “achchha kiya chali aayi.....kal tumhe lucknow ghumata hu..........”sahil bola. “sahil ek bat batau, abhi bhi aap mujhse kuchh chhupa nhi sakte............bataiye kya bat hai........” juhi se ab bardasht nhi hua. “jab kuchh nhi chhupa pata to pooch kyu rahi ho........khud hi jan lo....” sahil ne badi berukhi se kaha.....shayad use juhi ki bat achchhi nhi lagi. “achchha sorry baba, ab bata do...........itana to mujhe pata hai ki kuchh bat jaroor hai..........aapki aankhe bata rhi hai............” juhi ne bade pyar se kaha. Sahil kuchh nhi bola.......... “plz sahil..........” juhi ne uska hath apne hatho me lete huye kaha. “uski shadi hai 25 ko, did ne mujhe bulaya hai...” sahil ne bas itna hi kaha aur chup ho gya. “wo to hame pata hi hai ki uski shadi tay ho gayi hai.................” juhi ne kaha.... Fir thodi der chup rahi, sahil bhi chup rha................ “aap abhi bhi use chahte ho na sahil.........” juhi ki aankhe bhar aayi.......... “nhiiiiiiii.............. us bewafa ko ???????........nhi juhi.......bikul nhi............maine itanaa kuchh saha........sabkuchh bardast kiya......lekin kabhi us ki muhabbat par shak nhi kiya......lekin usne meri muhabbat par shak kiya...........uske papa ne kaha aur wo man gayi...........mera bhai vahshi tha to usme mera kya kusoor tha.........ek bar mujhe bol ke to dekhti khusi khusi uski zindagi se chala jata.......... leki usne mujhe kuchh nhi kaha .....bas chuchap apna daman mere hath se chhuda liya.......aur kisi aur ki hone ka faisla kar liya..........mai ab kaha hu uski zindagi me juhi.....????....mai kabhi tha, kyuki tab use meri zaroorat thi.........ab nhi hai.......jis muhbabat par usko aitbar hi nhi rha us muhbbat ki kadar kya hogi use............” sahil bolte bolte ruk gya..........ab uski aankho me aansu nhi the.........gussaa tha, nafarat thi....... “mai jaunga uski shadi me ......jaroor jaunga......mujhe koi fark nhi padta .......” sahil ne nafarat se kaha Juhi samjh rhi thi uski nafrat ki vajah .....aur jo halat usne sahil ki dekhi thi, us sochkar use sahil ki nafart zayaj bhi lagti thi............... “nhi sahil..........aap wha nhi jaoge..............plz........” juhi ne kaha. “nhi juhi mai jaunga..........jaroor jaunga............” “kya milega aap ko wha jakar.............” juhi ne kaha. “kuchh nhi milega.......bas us bewafa ko dikhane jaunga ki mujhe koi fark nhi padta.............mar nhi jaunga mai agar wo kisi aur se shadi kar legi to................yhi batane jaunga use...........mai jaroor jaunga.............” sahil ka chehra nafart ki aag me bhabhak rha tha. “nhi sahil plzzz............aap nhi jaoge ............aapko meri kasam ...........agar juhi aapki life me kahi exist karti hai to aap plz mat jana.............plzzz .” juhi ne apne sar uske pairo par rakh diya....... “juhi ??????? ye kya kar rhi ho............” sahil ek dam sann ho gya aur uthkar sofe se khada ho gya...... Juhi ne sar uthakar bheegi aankho se uski or dekha.........juhi ki aankho me ek iltiza thi...........sahil ne use uthaakar apne seene se laga liya....... “nhi jaunga juhi..............nhi jaunga........tumne ye kya kaha.........ki agr juhi kahi exist karti h meri life me ?........... are Is juhi ki vajjah se hi to aaj mai jinda hu............pari ho tum meri......tum ek bar kah kar to dekho, tumhare liye mai jan de.........” juhi ne jaldi se apna hath uske muh par rakh diya......... “plz........akbhi aisi baten mat karna aap..........” juhi ne kaha aur fir uske seene se lag gayi. Sahil ne uske mathe ko choom liya.... “nhi jaunga juhi ...........nhi jaunga mai.” Juhi ek din ruk kar fir wapas delhi chali gayi...........lekin sahil ne wada kar diya ki wo nhi jayega aarti ki shadi me.....juhi ki kasam kaise tod deta.???? VISHAL nam tha us ladke ka..........ji se aarti ki shadi fix huyi thi.....dekhne me smart ..achchhi kad kathi..gora rang...... wo aarti ke sath ek garden me baitha tha is samay ...............doctor tha profession se. “aarti kal mujh se tumhare chhote mama sahil milne aaye the.........sab puchh rhe the ..............kya karte ho , family me kaun kaun kaun hai........papa kya karte hai.....” VISHAL ne kaha. Aarti ki dil jor se dhadak utha......uski aankhe vishal ke chehre se hat gayi..... wo dusri or dekhne lagi aur uski aankhe bhar aayi............. “ I m sorry sahil” usne apne dil me kaha aur uthkar dusre or chal di...............ek aansu palko ke por se tapak kar un hari hari ghaso me kahi gum ho gya. Dheere dheere kuchh mahine beet gaye.............. Sahil ki aarti kisi aur ki ho gayi thi ............aur sahil nafarat ki chingari apne dil me liye ek patthar banta chala gya..........jise na ab kisi ke aansu nhi pighla pate the aur na khud uski aankho me kabhi aansu aate the. Ab Wo bas nafarat karne laga tha ....bahut nafarat ....har kisi se nafarat. Sahil na kahi phone karta na kisi se bat..........bas chuchap apne farz ko nibhata chalaa ja rha tha...............sari nafarat aur sara gussa dil me liye wo safalta ki nayi bulandiya chadhta ja rha tha......apni honesty aur strictness ke liye kafi famous ho gya tha wo. Pure department ki shan banta gya sahil. Lekin is duniya se apne liye sare nata tod liye the usne ........kabhi kabhi didi ka phon aa jata ,juhi lagbhag roj phone karti thi.............rahul bhi dusre teesre din phone kar deta tha.........lekin sahil ka ab kisi se bhi bat karne ka man nhi karta..........wo khud kisi ko bhi phone nhi karta tha...........jaise duniya me use kuchh apne liye dikhta hi nhi tha............... Aarti ka phone kbhi nhi aaya ........aur sahil ise uski bewfai ka ek aur rang samjhkar us se aur jyada nafarat karne laga tha..................juhi jab bhi sahil se milti kuchh pal ke liye sahil khus ho jata ...........lekin jane kyu aaj bhi juhi ko lagata ki sahil aarti se nafarat karne ki sirf kosis karta hai.......... nafarat kar nhi pata............aaj bhi use aarti se jalan hoti thi .........wo sahil ke pas na hokar bhi , uske pas lagti thi............bhale hi sahil kabhi uska jikar nhi karta tha...bahle hi uske jikar par nafarat se muh fer leta tha. Jane kyu use lagta ki sahil ko ab bhi aarti ke laut aane ka intzar hai...........aaj bhi use sahil ki aankho me aarti ke liye dard dikhta .......kabhi wo dard uski bewafai ka lagta aur kabhi use khone ka........Juhi ne bhi soch liya thi ki wo bhi muhabbat sahil ke jaise hi karegi .......wo bhi apni muhabbat ke laut aane ka intzaar karegi......chahe ye intzar sari umar hi kyu na karna pade..........

UPDATE 18 sahiil ki mummy apne bête ke kandhe se lagi roye ja rhi thi............kitna struggle kiya tha sahil ne.......govt school me padhan........na koi coaching na tution .........aur fir kheto me bhi papa ke sath hath batana..........kitne hi bar aisa hua tha ki sahil apne school ki fees khud deta.............bachcho ko padhata..........sari umar uske papa apne bhai bahno ko karte rahe aur jab sab ki condition thik ho gaye to sabne unhe chhoda diya.............jo kuchh bhi bacha tha dheeraj ki padhai me lag gya.........sahil sabse chhota tha lekin kabhi koi sukh nhi mil paya use..............na bachpan me na jawani me................ab tak to nhi.,.. “mai tere liye kuchh nhi kar payi mere laal..........mujhe maaf karna beta.........” sahil ki mummy ko aaj apni garibi pe rona aa rha tha.........apne itane kabil bête ke liye kuchh nhi kar payi..........lekin fir bhi wo beta aaj duniya jeetakr apni maa ke kadmo me dal chukka tha...........usne wo kar dikhaya tha jo aas pas ke 50 gaon me kisi ne aaj tak nhi kiya tha...............aur fir apne maa ke gahne chhuda laya tha.................jiski umeed unhone khud bhi chhod di thi......... “aise mat bole mummy....................aaj mai jo bhi kar paya aap ke aasshirwad se hi kar paya...........kya mujhe nhi pata hai wo halat.,.........mujhe sab yad hai mummy ......aapki kurbani.........papa ki kurbani.................mai kaise bhool sakta hu ...........apno ke liye to sab karte hai .............aapne to dusro ke liye kiya hai............aur dekhiye aaj aapki kurbani rang layi hai...........bas ab kabhi mat royiyega.........kabhi bhi nhi...........” sahil jo khud bhi ro rha tha ...apni maa ko chup kara rha tha.............. “mera bachchaaa....mera laal........” ek maa ki mamta aaj mano phoot padi thi............aaj unhe unka whi 5 sal ka sahil yad aa rha tha jo unki god me baithkar unke aansu ponchhte huye kahata tha.... “maa mat rowo mujhe doodh nhi chahiye ...........bhookh nhi lagi hai mujhe.............” Sahil ki mummy ne un gahno ki taraf ek bar fir se dekha aur fir se rone lagi.................kais ek ek karke sabkuchh jata rha...........lekin aaj sabkuchh laut aaya tha..........sabkuchh. “plz........chup ho jao ab.............. .abhi abhi wo aaya hai...........” sahil ke papa ne aage badhkar sahil ke mummy ke kandhe par hath rakha aur unhe samjhate huye bole............... Sahil bhi maa se alag hua...........aur ek bar juhi ki or dekha ............uski aankhe bhi aansuo se bhari huyi thi.............sahil ne apne aansu ponchhe aur juhi ko bhi ishare me na rone ke liye kaha................. Sham ho rhi thi lekin garmi hone ke vajah se abhi bhi kafi dhoop thi............din ke 5 baj chuke the aur RENU bhi college se wapas a chuki thi ..........sahil ko dekhakr uske gale se lag gayi................... Sab bhai bahno me sabse jyada pyar renu aur sahil me hi tha.............renu use se thodi badi to thi lekin hukm hamesa sahil ka hi chalta tha.........aur wo hi bada banta rahta ............renu ye samjhti thi aur use achchha bhi lagta tha............ “kaisa h mera bhai...........ab to collector ban gya hai...........” renu ne uske bal bigadte huye kaha......sahil aur renu baramde me baithe the,............ek hi charpayi par............renu college se aate hi uske pas hi rook gayi.........baki sab log andar the................juhi washroom me naha rhi thi............ “thik hu meri bahanaaaa......... .ha collector to ban gya tera bhai.........tu bata kaisi hai.........” “ thik hu.......aur jis din se tere result ki news suni hai us din se to kuchh jyyada hi achchhi hu....pata hai pure gaon me charche hai.......aur college me bhi...........tu to star ban gya mere hero............” renu bahut khus thi ......... Sahil bas muskura kar rah gya.........tabhi parda hatakar andar se juhi bahar aa gyi............. Dhuli-dhuli si, khili khili si...........chhuyi -muyi si , pyari si juhi........badi-badi neeli aankhe, kale lambe bal ...............makhan me chutki bhar sindur mila hua gora sa rang, aur sabse khoobsoorat ---uske lala-lal pyare phadkte se hoth............kisi pari ki jaise khoobsoorat..........yelow colour ke cotton ke suit m wo husn ki mallika kisi ko bhi pagal kar dene ki had tak khoobsoorat lag rhi thi..........RENU ek pal ko use dekhti hi rah gayi jabki renu khud bhi bahut khoobsurat thi............... “sahilllllllllllllllll !!!!!!!!!! ...tune shadi kar li........bina bataye?????????.........lekni yar bhabhi hain badi khoobsoorat.........” RENU bade hairat ka ijahar karte huye boli,,,ab ye to whi jane ki sachmuch hairan thi ya bas nautanki kar rhi thi........... JUHI ne nazre juhka li sharm ke mare aur wapas andar bahg gayi........sharm se uske gal lal ho gaye..........the .....kitna achcha lagaa tha use wo sabd...” BHABHI” Sahil ne renu ke kan pakad liye ... ”renu ki bachchi ...........tujhe to mai abhi thik karta hu.......wo dost hai meri........tu kuchh bhi bolne se pahle kabhi sochati bhi hai..........kya soch rhi hogi wo................hainnnnnnnnnn” sahil ne dheere se uske kan kheenche....... “mummy........aah........achcha sorry............plz yar chhod na..........mummy dekh lo isko...........” renu jor jor se aawaze lagane lagi ........mummy andar se bahar aa gyi............sath me papa bhi........ “ye dekho in dono ka.........aate hi suru ho gaye............sahil chhod use...bade ho gaye ho ab tum dono........aur tune hi kuchh kiya hoga....” unhone renu ko kaha........... mummy ko itane dino bad apne bachcho ka pyar dekhkar bahut khusi ho rhi thi aur ek ghudki dono ko de dali. Sahil ne renu ko chhod diya......renu uthi aur mummy ke pichhe jakar khadi ho gayi.......... “kya kiya hai tune .......” mummy ne muskurate huye kaha,.......... “maine kuchh nhi kiya........basssss...yhi kaha ki.......” renu ek pal ko rook gayi aur papa ki or dekha... “bol ,kya kaha........”maa ne fir se kaha. “kiii..ki......bhabhi to bahut khoobsoorat laya hai mera bhai........batao kya galat kaha.........” renu ne mummy ke pichh se thoda sa nikalte huye kaha........... “mummy .....dekh loo ise....... bas dost hai wo meri.....” sahil bola......... “are koi bat nhi bhai....abhi bhabhi nhi bani hain to kya..... ban jayengi ........mai hu na ........tu tension mat le..........” renu to aaj pure mood me thi use tang karne ke............ Papa dheere se muskura diye aur mummy muh par hath rakhkar hasne lagi......... “ chudail.......mummy dekh lo ise............rook ja tu.............aaj gayi tu mere hatho se.......”sahil ne jab kahi se madad ki umeed nhi dekhi to juhi ki or lapaka................aur wo titali ki tarah udate huye dusre darwaje se andar bhag gayi.......sahil wahi bahar rook gaya...........usne pichhe mudakar dekha......... Mummy papa dono usi ki or dekh rhe the...........aur halke se muskuara bhi rhe the...........sahil bahut confuse ho rha tha bechara............ “kyaaaaaaaaaaaa huaaa???? ” usne hath uthakr puchhte huye kaha..... “beta.......vaise juhi mujhe bhi bahut pasand hai..........tu kahe to....... ” mummy ne kaha. “ mummy, wo bas dost hai meriiiiiiiiii...........kabhi gaon nhi gayi thi bas ghumne aayi hai mere sath...........aap sab pagal kar doge mujhe ............mai ja rha hu bahar ghumne ...........” sahil bolta hua bahar nikal gaya........ Parde ke pichhe kahdi juhi sari baten sun rhi thi aur pyar se muskura bhi rhi thi............ek umeed ki kiran uske man me jal rhi thi..........sahil ka pariwar use bahut achcha laga tha....................use lag hi nhi raha tha ki wo bas kuchh ghante pahle hi aayi hai wha...............wo garib the lekin dilo me pyar bahut tha.....apnapan bahut tha............wo sab bahut tha unke pas jo juhi ko kam mila tha............. Sahil ki aakhiri bat par use thoda sa dukh hua........... “sahil, aapke sath sirf goomne to nhi aayi hu.....aapke sath ke liye aayi hu....aapke pas rahne ke liye aayi hu...............kab samjhoge aap mere dil ki bat......kab meri nigaho ki chahat aapki nigahe padh payengi............kahi bahut der na ho jaye sahil...plzzzzzzzzzzzzz.” juhi apne aap se bol rhi thi .......... Ab yhi dekhna tha ki juhi ka payr sahil kab pahchanta hai ya fir shayad kabhi nhi............ Sham hote hote sahil ke ghar par badhai dene walo ka taanta lag gya tha.............gaon ke sarpanch se lekar Tahsildar aur Thanedar tak sare log aaye the.........sahil ke papa ka seena garv se chauda ho gya ........”har maa baap ko aisi aulad mile” har bar unke dil se yahi dua nikalti apne bête ke liye.............. Juhi ko sahil ke ghar aaye teen din ho gaye the...........aur use pata bhi nhi chala kab wo teen din beet gye ....roj kam se kam do bar baba ya abbu me se kisi na kisi ka phone jaroora aa jata.............ek do bar ghar ke aur logo se bhi baten ki unhone............juhi ko ek bhara poora pariwar mil gya tha...............aur uske man me ek hi khyal aata .............kashhh ye ghar hamesa ke liye mera ghar ho jaye......................kashhhhhhh. Har Roj ek nayi masti hoti....sahil kabhi kabhi udas dikhta tha........lekin ghar par aakar uski udasi thodi kam jaroora ho gyi thi............... “hello sahil...RAHUL bol rha hu.................kaisa hai........” rahul ka phone aaya tha...... “mast hu yar tu kaisa hai......” “mi bhi thik hu..ghar par pahuch gya tu..........” “Haa yar.......aur tu ???????.......” sahil ne puchha “mai bhi....achchha sun...allahabad aa na....purani yaden taja karenge .........sath ghumenege...........” “nhi is bar tu aa.....sale mai kitni bar aaya hu tere ghar...... tu kabhi nhi aata...........?” sahil ne shikawa kiya..... “thik h meri jaaan.......mai hi aata hu.........adress bhej de............abhi niklata hu...........” rahul ne turant kaha. Ok......chal aaram se aana........” sahil ne kaha aur rahul ko msg kar diya......... “Kaun aa rha hai sahil..........” renu ,jo abhi abhi bahar aayi thi keval itana hi sun payi ki koi aa rha hai....... “rahul..............jab tu Allahabad gayi thi to us se mili thi na...........jisne tera admission karwaya tha........whi...” “ohh....haan......” Renu ne kaha aur andar chali gayi..........juhi bhi whi thi ..........usne renu ko andar jate dekha.........jane kyo use laga ki renu ke chehre par ek sharmli si muskurahat aa gyi......... Aur wade ke mutabik sham tak RAHUL sahil ke ghar par pahuch chukka tha.........jane kyu bar bar juhi ko lagataa ki RENU ki aankhe use hi dhundati aur uske samne jakar thoda sa sharmati bhi thi .....lekin juhi jyada dhyan nhi deti..........RAHUL bhi kayi bar isi kosis me rahta ki akele me renu se mulakat ho....pata nhi juhi ka bharam tha ya sach........... ghar ke sab log , wo dono dost aur pyari si juhi........poora mahol ban gya tha...........juhi kabhi is tarah ke mahol me rahi nhi thi .....lekin use ye bhara poora pariwar bahut hi achcha lag rha tha ..........kab din hota aur kab rat kuchh pata nahi chalta............gaon me sabko pta tha ki wo bhi IAS hi hai..........gaon wale bhi bahut ijjat karte..........aur kahi kahi gaon ke ladke peeth pichhe uski khoobsoorati ke kaseede bhi padhte............jiski aawaz jane anjane us tak ek do bar pahuch hi jati...........lekin itani kisi ki himmat nhi thi ki samne se comment kar de............... Juhi ko hasi aa jati unki baten sun kar aur thoda sa achchaa bhi lagta.......... Sham ko khana banta to juhi bhi whi rahti ......mummy aur renu ke sath kuchh kuchh karti rahti ........unke lakh mana karne ke bad bhi........usne to kabhi ye sab dekha hi nhi tha.........ghar par bas naukaro ka sath rha tha.....ya phir ek budhe baba ka...........juhi ko mano zindagi mil gayi thi....hasti khilkhilati, renu se chhed chhad karti.........renu se kafi achhi dosti ho gayi thi.............juhi bhi shararte karna sikh gayi thi....................renu se ladti jhagdti aur mummy se apne laad uthawati ...........bas jab bhi akele me sahil se samna ho jata to aankho me ek sharm si aa jati......aur wo khoobsoorat ghaneri palke jhuk jati aur wo narm njuk se lab laraj jate. Sahil ka ghar purane jamane ka tha....... to ghar me bich me ek bada sa aangan tha jo ki khula hi tha........sab log sham ko ek sath udhar hi baithte...... Aaj ghar par bhutta ( maize or corn) laye the papa aur sahil aur RAHUL dono use bhoon rhe tha......jabki pados me ek shadi hone ki vajah se juhi aur renu apne hatho me mehandi lagaye baithi thi........... Mummy juhi ke balo me tel laga rhi thi..........juhi bade pyar se sahil ko dekh rhi thi.........IAS officer ban jane ke bad bhi sahil me bachcho jaisi masoomiyat thi,,,koi aatitude nhi tha uske andar .........sada sa , sachcha sa...... Thodi der bad sab log bhutte kha rhe the......... Mummy andar baithe apne hatho se juhi ko bhutte bade pyar se khila rhi thi renu bhi whi thi...............Juhi unki aankho me dekhne lagi aur uski aankhe bhar aayi................. “kya hua beta........” mummy ne bade pyar se uske sar par hath pherte huye puchha....... ”ghar ki yad aa rhi hai kya” “nhi aunty...................” juhi ka gala bhar aaya.... “fir kya hua mere bachche ko..........” “Aunty mujhe ammi nhi yad hai........jab me bahut chhoti thi tabhi khuda ko pyari ho gayi......lekin lagta hai aapke jaisi hi rahi hongi.........” juhi ne kaha aur unke god me sar rakh diya......... “tu meri beti hi to hai.......sabse chhoti beti...........udas nhi hote beta.....mai hu na........tera jab bhi man kare tu chale aana mere pas............ “ Juhi ne god me sar rakhe rakhe hi aankhe band kar li......... “jee aunty mai jaroor aaungi.,” “mummy kitna achchha hota na agr juhi aur sahil ki shadi ho jati.............phir juhi kabhi yha se nhi jati.............” renu ki suyi abhi tak whi ataki thi.........aur shayad use juhi bahut achchhi bhi lagi thi.....kise achchhi na lagti juhi .........wo thi hi itani pyari.......... “haa...beta ....lekin sab kuchh jo ham sochate hai wo kaha hota hai.......”mummy ne kuchh sochate huye kaha,. Juhi ka dil jor se dhadka......uske man me aaya ki abhi kah de ki haa.......mujhe yhi rok lijiye..... ..mujhe nhi jana......lekin wo kah na saki.......... Sham ko shadi me juhi aur renu bad me pahuche .........sahil aur rahul pahle hi ja chuke the........... Aaj juhi ne lahnga pahna tha.....aur renu ne bhi...........aaj juhi pure dil se taiyar huyi thi....apne mahbbob ke liye.......... Aaj wo kisi apsara se kam nhi lag rhi thi........kano me gol gol se jhumke, hotho pe halki si lipstic aur gale me ek patli si chain..............green colour ke lahnge me uska kamsin husn kitno ki aankho ko chaka chaundh kar gya tha......kitno ke hi dil par bijriyaan girii thi.................lekin wo sitamgar nhi dikha tha jiske liye usne ye shingar kiya tha........poori sadi me juhi ki aankhe bas sahil ko dhoondh rhi thi........... Aur fir jab wo dikha......phone par kisi se baten karta hua......to juhi ka dil hatho se jata lgaa use .......sahil bhi bikul shahzada lag rha tha........... Green colour ke three piece suit me wo mukkammal mardanagi ka malik lag rha tha............juhi ko sachmuch bahut pyar aa rha tha aur chalta hua sahil uske pas hi aa gya........ sahil ko aate dekh renu whi thodi door par khadi apni saheliyo ki or badh gayii..........shayd juhi aur sahil ko tanhayi ka mauka dene ke liye....... “achchhi lag rhi ho “ sahil ne bade pyar se kaha.....juhi ke dil me jaise guitar baj utha..........par use abhi thoda chhedana tha.......... “bas achchhi.........” usne muh banate huye kaha.... “bahut achchhi..............” sahil ne kaha. “ kya sahil.....aapko to tarif karne bhi nhi aata” juhi ne tunak kar kaha... “achcha ..........phir kaise karte hai tarif............”sahil ne muskurate huye puchha. Juhi ka dil dhakk se rah gya.........kitna payar lagta tha sahil muskurata hua.........wo apne socho ke bhawar me doobi use dekhe ja rhi thi......tabhi.... “mai batata hu tariff kaise karte hai........”ye rahul bhi galat waqt par pahuch gya tha.......... “to juhi jee.........aap itani khoobsoorat lag rhi hai..............” “Nhi nhi plz.......wo to mai aise hi bol rhi thi............” juhi ne sharmate huye jaldi se kaha......... “bhai tu hi tariff kar...............inko hamari tarif karna pasand nhi...ye to tum uh se hi sun na chahti hai............” rahul ne kaha aur muskurate huye udhar chal diya jidhr renu khadi thi..........balaa ki khoobsoorat lag rhi thi wo bhi........ Sahil aur juhi chupchap khade the...........juhi sahil ko dekh rhi thi aur sahil idhar udhar............. Thodi der me stage par programme suru ho gya.........dulha dulhan stage par baithe the...................juhi aur sahil dono ki hi aankho me ek sapna tha........... Juhi ki aankho me wo stage tha ......... dulha bana hua sahil tha aur dulhan bani wo khud thi..........lekin sahil ke sapno ki dulhan juhi nhi thi..........aaj bhi uski dulhan to shayd wo “ bewafa “ hi thi....... sahil ne stage ki or dekhte dekhte apne aankho me bhar aaye aansuo ko saf kiya aur dusri or chal diya.......juhi whi khadi ki khadi rah gayi.........sahil ki aankho ke aansu us se bahut kuchh kah gaye the......... “Kaise kar sakte ho aap itna pyar us se jisne aapko jeene layak bhi nhi chhoda.......kaise sahil...........kaise hoti hai itani shiddat is muhabbat me sahil?????............mai bhi aapse aisi hi muhabbat karoongi sahil ..........aapse hi to sikha hai muhabbta karna....... ” Aur juhi ki aankhe bhi bhar aayi.........ab uske samne na shadi ka stage tha na dulha aur na dulhan.......na koi sapna......sooni sooni viran aankhe...... Kuchh der bad ek bar fir renu juhi ko jabardasti khane ke stall par khich layi....sab log whi the........mummy ,papa, sahil ,rahul.....aur gaon ki kuchh aauraten jo sahil ki mummy ko ghere unse kuchh kuchh bol rhi thi...........aakhir ab unka beta IAS tha........... “ye renu ke sath kaun hai sahil ki mummy??????” ek ne kaha. “ lagta hai beta bahu bhi pasand kar laya hai..........waise hai bahut khoobsorat.....bikul chand ka tukada......” doosari boli....... “ bahut achchhi jodi hai dono ki....” teesri boli “are nhi.........wo to sath me hi padhte the aur bas ye gaon ghoomna chahti thi..........waise hai bikul mere beti jaisi hi.........” mummy ne bade pyar se uske sar par hath rakh diya........... Juhi ko ab ye baten dukh de rahi thi........uski aankho ke sapne toot rahe the aur wo toote huye sapne aankho me chubhane lage the ..................usne jaldi se kuchh kuchh khaya aur wapas aa gayi......... (“mai kya karu sahil......... kya karu mai..........aapke siwa mujhe kuchh nhi soojhta.........aapke ishq me diwani huyi jaa rhi hu......dil us chaand ki khwahish karne lagaa hai jo mera nhi hai ........kya karu mai..........kaise aapko batau........kaise sahil ......kaise.....” juhi darwaza band karke bilakh rhi thi aur sahil bahar khadaa sun rha tha........uska dil bhi tadap rha tha.) Juhi apne dil ki bat sahil ko bol nhi paa rhi thi.........shayad iski vajah yhi thi ki use pata tha ki jawab kya hoga.........use sahil ki aankho me aaj bhi aarti ka aks naza aata tha........Aaj bhi muhbbat ki bat par sahil tadap uthata tha.........jab tak juhi ijahar na kar rhi thi tab tak kam se kam ek bharam to tha na ki shayad sahil use haa kah de, shayad sahil kabhi laut aaye, shayd sahil ko kabhi uski muhbbat ka bhi ahsaas ho jaye..................lekin agar wo bharam bhi toot jaye to........fir to shayad ye sanso ki dor bhi toot jati.......... “Aur fir ham kuchh dino bad gaon se wapas aa gaye aur fir sahil chale gaye.............apni training par.....aur mai apni training par ..” - Aarti ko batate batate juhi ka gala bhar aaya aur uski aankho se aansu bahne lage................ “Tumne sahil ko bataya nhi ki tum us se muhabbat karti ho........” Aarti ne puchha. “sahil ko shayad pata tha......... jab hum gaon se wapas aaye to aane ke teen din bad sahil apni training par jane wale the.........maine soch liya tha ki ek bar jaroor bolungi, ek bar jaroor kosis karoongi..sahil ko jane nhi doongi khud se door....... lekin jis sham ko maine bolne ka socha tha usi sham ko sahil ne mujhe ek letter diya.......” juhi jaise sapne ki duniya me thi.........wo bolti rahi aur apne purse se nikal kar ek kagaz ka tukda aarti ki or badha diya............... “us din se lekar aaj tak mai is kagaz ke tukde ko apne seene se lagaye baithi hu.........ek jhooti umeed ki aas me ...........aapse kya chhupana lijiye..........yhi meri muhabbat ki kul jama punji hai.aur kuchh nhi aaya mere hath........” aarti ne wo letter le liya aur padhne lagi....... “PYARI JUHI, Dil me bahut si baten hai jo kahna chahta hu...........lekin jab bahut kuchh kahne ko ho to aksar juban sath nhi deti........isiliye is kagaj ke tukde ka sahara lena pad rha hai........maf karna...... Bachpan me kahniya suna karta tha...........pariyo ki ,rajao ki, rajkumaro ki........achcha lagta tha...........in kahniyo me sapne hote the..........kuchh adhoore adhoore, kuchh poore..........aur kuchh aise jinhe poore Karen ke liye koi farishta aata .......koi pari aati..........aur wo sapne poore ho jate.........kisi ke sapne ka rajkumar use mil jata,kisi ko rajkumari aur kisi ke man ki murad poori ho jati............... Mai bhi inhi sapno ki duniya me jeene laga............maine bhi sapne dekhe aur mere sapne me bhi rajkuamri thi.........mere sapno ki rajkumari.........kuchh pane ka bhi sapna tha........jaise jaise bada hota gya ye sab jhooth lagne laga....lekin sapne abhi bhi bade nhi huye shayad aur abhi bhi sachche lagte............meri rajkumari mujhe miilti,mujhse baten karti mujhe pyar karti..............aur mai khus ho jata......bahut jyada khus........ kabhi kisi aur ki jaroorat mahssos hi nhi hoti...........uske sath hasta ,rota. Roothat,use manata.......mera sabkuchh thi meri rajkumari. Lekin fir wo rooth gayi.........meri rajkumari mujhse rooth gayi..........mai rota raha ....use rokataa raha............apni khata puchhataa raha.............us se mafi mangta raha............lekin wo chali gayi..............aur mai mano sapne se jag gaya..........aur jab sapne se jaga to meri hatheli bikul khali thi.........kuchh nhi tha mere pass..........na koi rajkumari thi ..........naman me koi murad thi.........aur na koi mera apnaa tha mere pas ...........meri zindagi me kuchh nhi bach tha .........bachi thi to bas ek kali rat........bahut lambi rat.........aur un toote huye sapno ke chand tukde........jo meri aankho me us rajkumari ki yad bankar chubhate the............mai rota tha us kali rat me.........aur mujhe apne aansuo ko bahane ke liye ek kandhe ka sahar tak nhi milta tha .............pahle mujhe sapne jhoote lagte the ab mujhe duniya jhoothi lagti thi.............lekin jane kyu kabhi wo rajkumari jhoothi nhi lagi.......jane kyu...........????? kabhi bhi nhi. Mere man me bas yhi aata ki zindagi ki ye saja aur kitani lambi hai.........kab mai is duniya ke mele se niklunga.........mai ek tinke ki tarah se hi tootne laga......bikharne laga........maut ki duayen maangne laga......... Lekin fir meri kahani me bhi ek Pari aayi..........sabke sapne me aati thi meri zindagi me aayi...........shayad us se mera dard dekha nhi gya tabhi jannat se utar kar mere pas chali aayi............... Usne mujhe ek bar fir se samet liya..........mai reza-reza bikhra tha usne ek katra-katra mujhe sameta.......... Mere sapne me naye rang bharne lagi aur mujhe apni baho ka sahara de diya..........mai jab bhi tootne wala hota wo mujhe apne seene se laga leti.......aur mai rota ........bahut rota ..........lekin usne mere aansuo ko pee liya.........mere hisse ke gham usne apne seene se laga liye..............us pari ne mujhe fir se jinda kar diya.........aur meri murad mujhe de di............usne sirf mujhe diyaa.......kabhi mujhse kuchh liya nhi........aur mai bhala use kya de pata........wo to thi hi pari,jisne is dharti par kadam hi bas dene ke liye rakha tha.......... Juhi, muhabbat ke bahut se rang hote hai......bahut se roop hote hai.......aur jo sabse gahra rang hota hai wo IBADAT hota hai..............mai bhi us pari ki ibadat karta hu.........jee chahta hai uske kadmo me apna sar rakh du aur sari zindagi aise hi bita du..........lekin juhi kya ye sahi hoga,...........?????????? Meri rajkumari ne mujhe dhokha diya...........lekin ye dil aaj bhi usi ki yad me dhadkta hai.......aaj bhi dil ke har tukde me uski ek tasweer hai.........fir mai kaise us pari ke kadmo ki dhool banu........kya mai apni pari ko dhokha du juhi........kya mai ye paap karu............ ?????? Meri pari tum ho juhi.........tum hi ho mere sapno ko poora karne wali wo pari.........Mujhse ye paap nhi hoga juhi........mujhse ye paap mat karne ko kahna. Agar tum ye jaan maang lo to tumhari kasam ek pal me tumhare kadmo me rakh dunga.........lekin is dil ka kya karu jo aaj bhi use yad karta hai...................kya karu juhi tumhi batao???. MAI shayd is layak nhi hu ki tumhare pairo ki dhool bhi ban saku...............tumhara mukam bahut unchaa hai meri nazro me...........us khuda se bhi uncha..........fir mai tumhare bare me kabhi koi paap kaise sochu ..............aur ye paap hoaga aagr mai tumhe apne dil ki sachchai nhi batau to. Juhi wo meri pahli muhbbat hai......mai use bhool nhi pata..........kya karu in aankho ko aur kuchh dikhta hi nhi......... lekin tum meri devi ho jiski mai zindagi bhar apne man mandir me rakhkar pooja karunga.......jiski ibadat karunga. Juhi mujhe poora bharosa hai ki jab bhi jindagi me ladkhaunga ye meharban bahe mujhe tham lengi...........aur ise bahrose ke dam par aaj ye sachchayi byaan kar rha hu.........kyuki mujhe pata hai ki meri pari mere jism ke har hisse ki aawaz sunti hai , samjhti hai ........ to fir wo jaroor meri rooh ki is aawaj ko samjhegi. Mai janta hu ki jo mai tumse maang rha hu wo bahut jyada hai.........aur uske badle me mai tumhe kuchh nhi de rha..........lekin juhi mai kya de sakta hu tumhe.......dil apna raha nhi..........ek jaan hai, jab chahe maang lena. ---TUMHARA BADNASEEB SAHIL. Letter khatm ho chukka tha aur aarti ke chehre par chattano si sakhti thi............ “Sahil se bat hoti hai......?” aarti ne juhi se puchha... “ha kabhi kabhi.....lekin idhar bahut lamba time ho gya...............kayi bar phone kiya lekin unhone ne nahi uthaya...sahyad nayi nayi posting hai to time nhi milta hoga.............” juhi ne dheere se kaha. Aarti ko samjh me aa gya ki juhi ko sahil ke accident ki bat nhi pata hai.......... “juhi meri shadi tay ho gayi thi aur sahil ko pata chala to.........” aarti ne dheeme se kaha....... “to kya........bolo.” juhi ka dil dhakk se rah gya....... “to sahil ne shayad ......shayad suicide attempt ...................” aarti ki bat adhoori rah gayi........juhi ka jordar thappad uske galo ko lal kar gya............ . “you bitch !!!!! ............kaisa hai mera sahil .......agar mere sahil ko kuchh ho gya to mai jan le lungi teri...........mujhe pata tha teri muhabbat mere sahil ko chheen legi......are kuchh to taras khaya hota us devta par jisne tujh jaisi bewafa se itani muhbbat ki............” juhi ne zindagi me pahli bar kisi par hath uthaya tha aur fir farsh par gir kar jo jor se rone lagi.......... “kaha hai mera sahil ............kaha hai mera sahill ........mujhe abhi jana hai unke paas..................sahil kaha ho aap............plz aisa nhi karna jaan.........apni pari ko chhodakr nhi jana...mai kaise jyungi sahil,....plz..........” juhi boori tarah se ro rhi thi lekin aarti ki aankh se ek aansu tak na nikla........... “wo thik hai.............biikul thik ..........ye bahut purani bat hai ........ab wo bulkul thik hai......” aarti ne use samjhana chaha. “kamini hath mat lagana mujhe......chali ja yha se.........chali ja nhi to mai tumhe shoot kar dungi.......get out..............” juhi garzati huyi boli.........aur usne daraz me se pistol nikal li...........aarti chupchap mudi aur darwaze ki or badh gayi............ Darwaze ke pas pahuch kar mudi............... “juhi dua karoongi ki tumhe tumhari muhbbat mil jaye” aarti ne kaha. “aur mai dua karoongi ki tu muhabbat ki ek boond ke liye tarase............kabhi pyar ka ek katraa naseeb na ho tujhe” juhi ne rote huye behad nafart se kaha........aarti ki aankh se pahli bar ek aansu tapaka aur wo bahar nikal gayi. Juhi usi tarah se bilakh bilakh kar ro rhi thi............ usne apna phone nikala aur number dial karne lagi. Muhbbat ka takraw ho gya tha...........pata nhi ek aur muhbbat se ya fir ek bewafa se..... Juhi buri tarah se bilakh rhi thi..............usne rahul ka number milaya aur sahil ka address liya.....Rahul ne bhi use bataya ki sahil bikul thik hai............juhi ke dil ko kuchh sukoon to mila lekin ab bina sahil se mile us se raha nhi ja rha tha .............wo bhi tab jab ki sahil whi delhi me hi tha...........sahil to abhi bhi aarti ke ghar par hi tha.......rahul ne use aarti ke ghar ka address de diya.................. “Aarti,mai to tumse badi muhabbat se mili..........apne andar ke gusse ko peekar mili tumse........keval ek aas me ............badi chah thi tumse milne ki............ek bar dekhna chahti thi ki kaun hai wo ladki jiski muhbbat me sahil jaisa mukamal sakhs itna toot gyaa..........socha tha kuchh to tum me bat hogi jo sahil is kadar deewane hai tumhara.........lekin juhi tum to nafarat ke layak bhi nhi ho..............muhbbat to bahut badi bat hai..........i hate u..........duniya me sabse jyada nafarat karti hu mai tumse................ ” juhi gadi me baithi thi .....driver gadi chala rha tha aur juhi apne man me aarti ko kose jaa rhi thi.................wo apne sahil se milne ja rhi thi................ Idhar aarti juhi ke office se nikli.............chuchap gadi me baithi aur driving karne lagi..........kuchh door aakr usne gadi roki .............aur foot foot kar rone lagi. “juhi mai itani buri nhi hu...................mai majboor thi................” uska hath apne galo par pahuch gya jaha abhi bhi juhi ke thappad ki lali thi............ Aarti aage ko jhuki huyi ro rhi thi. Aarti bahut der tak roti rahi...............aur fir apne aansu pochhe....ghar par phone karke mummy ko kuchh bola aur chuchap ghar ki or chal padi............... Juhi aarti ke ghar pahuchi.........uski mummy ne darwaza khola.......... “namste ....mera nam juhi hai.......sahil se milna hai........” “jee namste,mai sahil ki didi......aaiye.........” didi ne kaha........juhi ke man me bahut nafarat thi in sab logo ke liye.........BHAI , behan aur muhabbat ...........sabne uske sahil ko akela chhod diya tha..wo bhi tab jab wo har raha tha.....jab use apno ki sabse jyada jaroorat thi. .............juhi ne jyada kuchh kaha nhi aur chuchap andar aa gyi............agar aaj sahil yha na hota to wo kabhi yha na aati.........in sab logo ki shakl se nafart si ho gyi thi use........ “aap baithe mai kuchh thanda - garam lati hu.........sahil ko abhi bula deti hu............”didi kahti huyi mudi hi thi ki juhi boli........... “jee koi jaroorat nhi hai...........mai bas sahil se milne aayi hu.........aur vaise bhi mujhe koi shauk nhi h gairo ke ghar...........” juhi ne bahut control kar liya apne gusse par......... Didi chup rahi...........kuchh jaise bolne ko tha nhi unke pas.............. “kaha hai sahil ,,,mai unke kamre me hi jakar mil leti hu...............” juhi ne kaha. “Third floor par hai room aaye aap mai le chalti..............”ek bar fir se didi ki bat adhoori rah gayi........... “jee koi jaroorat nhi hai.........m chali jaungi...............” juhi boli aur seedhiyo se chadhte huye upar chali gayi... Didi ko bahut beijjati mahsoos ho rhi thi.............lekin wo kuchh nhi boli.........bas aanchal se apne aankh me aaye ek aansu ko ponchhane lagi.....................aarti darwaze par khadi sabkuchh sun chuki thi................wo aage badhi aur apni maa ke gale se lag gayi.............. “I m sorry mummy....meri vajah se aapko itani insult sahni padi ......sabkuchh sun na pad rha hai.............mai bahut buri hu na mummy,,” aarti maa ke gale lage lage rone lagi....... “nhi meri bachchi............tu to jan hai meri................aisa mat bol..........” mummy ne pyar se uska matha chhom liya. “sahil” juhi ki koyal se aawaz sahil ke kano me padi...........sahil jo ki abhi abhi leta tha bistar par juhi ko dekhakr behad khus hua............ “juhi.......tum........what a pleasant surprise.........” sahil ne uthkar use gale se laga liya............juhi jor se us se chipak gayi............lagbhag ek sal bad mil rhe the wo ekdusre se..............juhi ke dil ko jaise sukoon aa gya ............. Aur fir wo alag hokar ek sath baith gaye bed par............... “aapka accident hua tha..........hai na......aur mujhe batana jaroori nhi samjha aapne..........haan kyu batayenge........., mai kaun hoti hu.........juhi to koi hai hi nhi na aapki.............” lakh jabt karne ke bad bhi juhi ki aankhe dabdabaa gayi............. “nhi juhi..........ye kaise soch liya tumne......tumhi to ek ho jise maine kabhi batane ki jaroorat nhi samjhi ki tum meri kya ho...........juhi soory yar...............maf kar do.......plz........” sahil ne uska hath apne hath me le liya......... “rahne dijiye.....aapko kya pata kya beeti hai mere dil par ye sunkar.......aap to bas................” “juhi ...tumhe kaise pata chala.......” sahil ko samjh me nhi aaya. “kaise bhi pata chale.............aapko kya.............”juhi thodi naraz naraz si bahut pyari lag rhi thi............. “sorry bola na yar......manta hu bahut badi galti ho gyi..........ab maf kar do ...... plz batao na .........kaise pata chalaa tumhe..............” sahil bola. “aaj aarti aayi thi mujhse milne.............”juhi ne dhamaaka kiya. “what? Uff ye ladki......kuchh kaha to nhi na usne tumhe.......” sahil bola. “uske pas kya tha kahne ko............kaha to maine sabkuchh...........sahil aapne to kaha tha ki aap yha fir kabhi nhi aayenge ..............” juhi ne puchha. “ha juhi ...kuchh mahine pahle ek din mummy ka phone aaya.............did ki tabiyat kharab thi wo admit thi........... ...aur us samy mai delhi me hi tha................mai mummy ko mana nhi kar paya........aur fir yha chala aaya...............tabse kabhi kabhi aa jata hu...........” sahil bola. “aap ka accident kaise hua tha sahil..............” juhi boli...........aur badi gahri nazro se use dekhne lagi........... “pata nhi .......koi sharabi tha shayad jisne thok diya.....chhodo na..........” sahil ne talna chaha. “aapne suicide attempt kiya tha na???” juhi ki aankh ek bar fir se bhar aayi.......... “nhii to..........kk...k...kaun kaun bola...” sahil ke juban ki ladkhadahat se hi pata chal rha tha ki wo thik se jhooth nhi bol paa rha......... “sahil meri kasam .....sach sach boliye...............” juhi ki aankhe chhalak padi. Sahil chuchap sar jhukaye baitha rha...kya bolta........ “plzzzzz” juhi ab bas ro dene ko thi “kya karta juhi...............wo kisi aur ki ho rhi thi..............mai kya karta.....kaise dekhta use kisi aur ka hote............bachpan se lekar jawani tak aur kuchh sujha hi nhi uske siwa........sabkuchh janta hu... lekin ye dil kuchh nhi samjhata.............kya karta juhi...........” sahil ki aankhe bhi bhar aayi..... “ aur mai kaun hu sahil...........????? ..........kaun hu mai aapki.........” juhi ke aansu ab uske galo par bahne lage the lekin uske chehre par patthar ke jaisi sakhti thi........ “juhi ye kya.........” sahil ne apne hath se uske aansu ponchhne chahe......aur juhi ne uska hath jhatak diya.......... “aaj mujhe jawab chahiye sahil........mai kya lagti hu aapki...........kaun hu mai sahil .......” juhi ek kadam se pichhe hatate huye boli........... “tum ye kya kah rhi ho....tum ...tum meri pari..........” sahil ki bat adhoori rah gayi.......... “nhi.........nhiiiiiiiiiiii.......nahi hu mai koi pari..........koi pari nhi hu mai sahil.......mai ek masoom si aam ladki hu.......... jiske seene me bhi ek dil hai aur us dil me aapki tasweer hai...........mai pari nhi hu..........aapne mujhe pari bana diya.........kya mila mujhe pari bankar........haan.......bataiye........aapne mujh se hamesa ke liye door jane ki taiyari kar li aur mujhse ke bar bhi kuchh nhi puchha ........kabhi aapke dil me ye khyal aaya ki juhi bhi koi hai.......kaise jeeti mai.?????..........kya karti mai agar aapko kuchh ho jata.............kya karti mai sahil.......... .kya karti............” juhi farshpar gir kar apna chehra apne dono hatho me chhupakar rone lagi....... Sahil ki aankhe bhi bhar aayi................. Usne juhi ke kandhe par hath rakha..........jise juhi ne jahtak diya....... “ mai pari nhi hu sahil.......... mai ek aam si ladki hu...mere andar bhi dil hai .,..kabhi socha aapne ki mai bhi pyar kar sakti hu............aapne mujhe pari bana diya aur mera sabkuchh mujhse chheen liya........meri muhabbat ,mere armaan ,mere sapne....sabkuchh cheen liya....... “.aap khudgarz ho sahil............. aapne sirf apne bare me socha apni muhabbat ke bare me socha.........jiye to apni muhbbat ke liye aur ab apni muhbbat ke liye marne chale the........meri muhabbat ka kya ...........??????? kabhi socha aapne..............mai bhi muhhabt karti hu sahil.............bahut muhbbat karti hu..............meri muhabbat ki koi keemat kyu nhi hai sahil...... .... aapne meri muhbbat ka gala ghont diya..............ek mauka tak nhi diya mujhe apne pyar ke ijahhar karne ka..........” aaj juhi bol rhi thi aur sahil sun rha tha ............har jagah use apni hi galti nazar aa rhi thi.........har jagah......... “aapne to apni muhbbat ke gham me marne ka faisal kar liya aur mai.......??????? mai kya kar payi..........mujhe to muhbbat ki ek boond tak naseeb nhi huyi..........sahil aajtak mai chup thi sirf is liye kyuki mujhe thoda sa yakeen tha ki shayad aapki muhbbat me sachchayi ho...........shayad aapki muhbbat aapko mil jaye...........shayad wo aapke pas laut aayee...............lekin wo to muhabbat ke kabil hi nhi hai.............” juhi siskiyo ke bich bole ja rhi thi......aaj use koi nhi rok sakta tha..........bahut dino se dil me daba drd aaj bahar nikal rha tha............... Sahil ko juhi ki halat par bahut dukh ho rha tha..........aur iska jimmedar bhi shayad wo khud tha....... lekin juhi ki aakhiri bat ”ki wo to muhbbat ke kabil hi nhi hai” shayd use achchi nhi lagi......... ”juhi plz......aage kuchh mat bolo.....plz..........” sahil use chup karana chah rha tha....... “aapko sun na hoga ............aaj aapko sab kuchh sun na hoga...........aapki aarti muhbbat ke kabil nhi hai sahil.....usne to kisi aur ke sang jindagi zeene ke sapne dekh liye...............kisi aur ki ho jana chahti thi wo.........kaha gayi aapki aarti ki muhbbat sahil............bada yakeen tha na aapko uski muhbbat par...........boliye sahil ,kaha hai aapke bachpan ki muhabbat..........” Sahil chuchap sun rha tha..............kisi bahut apne ke hatho hara tha bolta bhi to kya......... “sahil , muhabbat ka ek rang wo bhi hota hai jisme ek dulhan ke hatho me mehandi ki jagah uske mahboob ka khoon hota hai...........aur aapki muhabbat????.......are aapki muhbbat ne to aapko kuchh diya hi nhi ......aapse aapki zindagi tak chheen leni chahi...............aur agr aap ab bhi apni sachchi muhabbat ko pahchan na paye .........to bas yhi kahungi ki aap bahut badnaseeb ho sahil........aarti se bhi jayada badnaeeb..........” Juhi mudkar wapas bahar jane lagi...............ek bar bhari huyi aankho se mudkar tanha tanha se baithe sahil ko dekha...........ek bar fir se dil tadap utha juhi ka...... “ sahil aaj bhi aapke pas apna koi nhi hai.........aaj bhi aap akele ho.........juhi aapki hai aur aapki rahegi ........zindagi ke kisi bhi padav par agr kisi aapne ki jaroorat pad jaye to bas ek aawaz laga dena, aapki juhi hamesa aapka intzaar karti milegi.........khuda hafiz sahil ” Juhi apne aansuo ko ponchhati teji se bahar nikal gayi............. Aarti bahar darwaje par khadi mil gayi ......shayad sabkuchh sun liya tha usne..........juhi ne ek nafarat bhari nigah us par dali............ “agr mere sahil ko kuchh bhi ho gya na..............to tumhe koi nhi bacha payega mujhse” aarti sun kar rah gayi. “ maaf karna jan..........aaj tumhari juhi ne tumhara dil dukhaya.....lekin kya karu mai....tumahri aankho se wo muhabbat ka jhootha parda hatana chahti hu jisne tumhe andha kar diya hai............mere sahil ki hifazat karna mere khuda” juhi apni gadi me baithi abhi bhi ro rhi thi. Aarti ne chuchap juhi ko bat ko sun liya apne aansu ponchhe aur room ke andar chali agyi.......kamre ke farsh par bed se laga baitha sahil ............aansu uski aankho se bah kar farsh par gir rhe the.........aur wo chuchap apne dono hatheliyo ko dekh rha tha............... Ek aisa hara hua zuari jisne zindagi bhar jua khela aur aaj dono hatheliya khali............aise apni hatheliyo ko nihar rha tha, jaise abhi abhi kuchh bahut keemati fisal sa gya un hatheliyo se.......... Sahil ki halat par aarti ko bahut dukh ho rha tha.............uska jee chah rha tha ki abhi kahi doob kar jaan de de...............wo dhhere se sahil ke pas gayi aur uske kandhe par hath rakh diya..............sahil ne sar uthkar uski or dekha aur uske pairo ko pakadkar lipat gaya...............aarti ki to jaise jan hi nikal gayi........... “ye aap ky kar rhe hai sahil....plz............” aur wo niche baith gayi ...........sahil ne jor se use pakad liya aur jor jor se tadap tadap kar rone laga............... “aarti mujhe meri muhabbat lauta do....plzzzz..............aisa kya galat kar diya maine jo ye sajaa mil rhi hai........har koi kahta hai ki meri muhbbat jhoothi hai.......sab kahte hai ki mai pagal hu ............maine kya galat kiya......sirf muhabbat hi to ki ............ab agar us muhbbat ne mujhe apne layak nhi samjha to mai kya karu,.............agar usne mujhe chhod doiya to mai kya karu............aagr mera dil aaj bhi uske liye dhadakta hai to mai kyaa karu ............mai kya karu aarti.............maine to aaj tak sirf pyar nibhaya hai....fir mai galat kaise hu aarti......?????? ” Sahil aarti ke gale se lage roye ja rha tha aur uske aansuo ke sath sath uske lab bhi shayd ro rhe the aaj...........aarti ki aankhe bilkul sookh chuki thi shayad ek aansu tak nhi nikal rha tha..........lekin sahil ka har “kyu” uske dil me teer ki tarah chubh rha tha.......... “ wo juhi kahti hai ki meri aarti muhabbat ke layak nhi hai.......lekin mujhe agar aaj bhi uske siwa kuchh nhi nazar aata to mai kya karu............agar aaj bhi un aankho ke aansu mujhse bardasht nhi hote to mai kya karu..............sab kahte hai ki meri aarti mujhe dhokha de rhi hai.........meri aarti bewafa hai.....mai kaise maan lu...........plz aartiiiiii ..........sabko bata do ki meri aarti bewafa nhi hai...............bata do ki aaj bhi wo mujhse muhbbat karti hai...... tumhare sahil ki muhbbat haar rhi hai aarti.......use haarane mat do..........meri muhbbat ka bharam rakh lo aarti.......plz meri muhaabt ka bharam rakh lo” sahil aarti se lipate huye ro rha tha aur aarti uske balo me hath pherti chuchap baithi thi.....uske chehre par chattan ke jaisi dridhta thi............jane kyu aarti sachmuch ek patthar ki moorat si ban gayi thi jiske andar na koi khusi dikh rhi thi aur na koi gham..........sahil ke itane bilakhne par bhi uske aankh se ek aansu nhi nikla tha ab tak. “ Sahil ek din tumhe ahsaas hoga ki tumne kya muhabbat ki aur hamne kya muhabbat ki” aarti ne apne dil me socha aur aankho ke kinare par chale aaye ek aansu ko chupke se apne dupatte ke pallu se ponchh liya........mano kisi ko pata chal gya to qayamat aa jayegi....... Par agar qayamat aani hogi to aayegi hi kaun rok sakta hai use..........aur sahil ki muhabbat me itani shiddat thi ki agar use “ bewafayi” mili to qayamat to nischit hi thi...........ab to bas itan hi dekhna tha ki sahil ka pyar jeet ta hai ya aarti ki “ bewafayi”.

UPDATE 17 Juhi kuchh bol nhi rhi thi bas sahil ke chehre ki or dekh rhi thi aur uski aankho se aansu bah rhe the..........sahil ne uske sar se patti hatayi ,pani me dali aur fir uske mathe par rakhne ke liye jaise hi aankhe kholkar dekha to juhi ke aankhe uske chehre ko or hi lagi thi................uski aankho me aansu dekhkar sahil ko samajh me nhi aaya......... “kya hua..sar dard ho rha hai kya” Juhi ne kuchh nhi kaha bas ha me sar hila diya....... wo kuchh der aur sahil ko apne pas yuhi dekhna chah rhi thi.......uske hatho ko apne sar par mahsoos karna chah rhi thi...........zindagi me fir y mauka mile na mile.........sahil usske sirhane baith gaya aur dheere dheere uske sar ko sahlane laga........... Sahil ko apne itane kareeb paa kar juhi ke dil jor se dhadak rha tha aur uska jee chah rha tha ki waqt bas yhi tham sa jaye..........bahut sukoon mil rha tha juhi ke dil ko......... Juhi ke man me na jane kyu ek dar sa samaa gya tha.............sahil ko khone ka dar..........kya hoga jab kl ko sahil chala jayega,,,,,,,,,,,kaise rahungi mai inke bina “ juhi ka man bahut bechain ho rha tha............. “maine to sahil se muhabbat kar li lekin sahil .?????????.......wo to mujhse muhabbat nhi karte ........kya karu ki sahil mere ho jayen....sirf mere................” “mai aapko jane nhi dungi sahil ..........chahe kuchh bhi ho jaye...........” juhi ne apne man me socha aur jhat se aankhe khol di..........aur sahil ka hath apne hatho me lekar choom liya............. “thank u sahil.....thank u “ sahil juhi ki is harkat se ek dam awaaq rah gya.......lekin bola kuchh nhi............ “Juhi agar dard jyada hai to doctor ko bula du”.juhi ki harkat shayad sahil ko achchhi nhi lagi....aur wo juhi se alag hota hua bola......... “jee..........nhi m thik hu” juhi ko bhi ahsaas hua ki sahil ko achchha nhi laga .............lekin kya karti wo bhi dil ke hatho majboor jo thi. “thik hai fir fresh ho jao............ham thodi der me niklenge.............mai driver ko phone kar rha hu..........” “jee...” ..juhi ne bas itanaa hi kahaa.aur bisatr se uthane lagi............uske pair me thodi soojan ho gyi thi jaha moch aayi thi...dheere dheere chalte huye wo washroom me ghus gayi............... Karib 1 gahnte bad driver car lekar pahucha.........sahil aur juhi ne breakfast kiya aur ghar ke liye nikal diye..juhi ki tabiyat abhi bhi poori tarah se thik nhi thi.............. sahil juhi ke sath car me baitha tha............ sahil rat me thik se so hi paya tha.........car me baithe baithe hi uski aankh lag gayi.......... thodi der ke bad sahil ka sar ek taraf ko juhk gaya..aur juhi ke kandhe se lag gya..............juhi ko ek anjaani si khusi ka ahsaas ho rha tha...........wo thoda sa sahil ke karib khisak gayi aur uske sar ko apne kandhe par achchhe rakh liya aur pyar se uske sar ko sahla diya.............. sahil ko shayad thodi gahri neend aa gyi thi......aur wo bhi juhi se chipak gya tha...........juhi man hi man msukura rahi thi..........sahil ke hoth achanak juhi ko apne gale se lagte mahsoos huye........juhi ka poora badan jaise sunn ho gya...............use kuchh samjh me nhi aa rha tha ki kya kare..........sahil ke hoth gadi hilane ke sath hi uske gale se chhu ja rhe the aur fir hat jate..............juhi ka poora badan tadap utha jaisa............pahli bar kisi mard ka itna kareebi saprsh tha us najuk si kali ke shareer par..........juhi janti thi ki sahil kabhi bhi janboojhkar aisa nhi kar sakta .........aur wo use jagana nhi chah rhi thi.......use ahsaas tha ki sahil rat me bhi so nhi paya tha.........aur shayad juhi ko ye bura bhi nhi lag rha tha......... juhi bahut kosis kar rhi thi khud ko sambhalne ki lekin bat uske hath se nikalti ja rhi thi.....achanak shayd koi breaker ya gaddhaa tha road par aur unki car thodi jor se uchhali........... sahil ke honth juhi ke mulayam gore gore gale se chhu gaye..............juhi ke liye to ek pal ko mano sari kayanat hi rook gayi...........sahil ke hoth uske galo se ragad gaye the............ ”sahil ke hoth mere galo par....hiii........sahil ne mujhse kiss kiya.............uffffffff.....hii ammiii...” juhi to sharm ke mare dohri ho gayi...usne aankhe band karli........aur usi pal sahil ki aankh khul gayi .........shayad gadi ke tej jhatke ke vajah se .........use bhi pata chal gya ki kya hua aur wo aise chhitak kar door hua jaise kisi bichhu ne dunk mar diya................... “tum dekhkar gadi nhi chala sakte ...........liscence kisne de diya tumhe.........” apni ki huyi harkat ko chuupne ke liye bechare driver ko jhad diya.......juhi bhi thodi door khisak kar baith gayi aur sharm ke mare gadi se bahar dekhne lagi............. “sorry ...wo neend lag gayi thi isliye...........” sahil ne dheere se kaha....... Juhi ko to itani sharm aa rhi thi ki usne sahil ki or dekha bhi nhi ........bahar hi dekhti rahi aur halka halka muskurati bhi rahi..... poore raste dono ke bich koi bat nhi huyi......sahil se ek do bar juhi ki nazar takarayi aur turant hi dono muh fer lete.......juhi sharm se aur sahil guilty hone ke ahsaas se........... Lagbhag sham ke 4 baje sahil aur juhi ghar pahcuhe.........sahil ne juhi ko pakad kar andar pahuchaya.......aur fir sabko sari bat batayi............. “thanx sahil beta........ahsaan rahega tumhara hum par.....”sarfarz khan ne use gale se lagate huye kaha...... “are kaisi bat kar rhe hai uncle.......juhi to meri jimmedari thi........” “ha beta ..tum par bharosa tha tabhi to bheja tumhare sath...........aur tumne hamara bharosa nhi tutne diya.......tum wakayi bahut achche insaan ho sahil..........”’ sarfarz sahib sahil ke kayal hote ja rhe the...... Thodi der bad sahil apne room me chala aata hai...........aur use juhi ke sath bitaye pal aur juhi ki aankho me apne liye pasandagi ke rang................sabkuchh yad aane lagta hai............ Wo aankhe band kar leta hai.............. “ai mere malik...tu kya chahta hai....?????,..mere pas to jo kuchh tha tune sab le liya ....meri muhabbat mujhse juda ho gyi......... ab plz..is masoom si ladki ko aise sapne mat dikha jo poore nhi ho sakte......juhi bahut masoom hai..........bahut najuk sa dil hai uska......muhabbat ki tadap us se bardasht nhi hogi...........mere sapne chahe to ek bar fir se tod de...............mera jo kuchh bacha hai le le......lekin tujhe teri khudai ka wasta,----juhi ka dil mat todana........ uske dil me kabhi aise khwahish mat panpane dena jo kabhi poori na ho sake............plz...............maine tujhse aaj tak koi shikayat nhi ki...lekin agar meri juhi ka ek bhi sapna toota to ..........zindagi bhar tere dar par nhi aaunga........kabhi bhi nhi...” Kitna masoom tha sahil ...............use nhi pata tha ki jo sapne dil se jude hote hai uspar kisi ka bas nhi hota ........aur juhi ka dil to ab kisi masoom bachche ki tarah chaand pane ki khwahish karne hi laga tha......... Kuchh din beet gaye aur juhi aur sahil ek bar fir se apni study me busy ho gaye.bas ek bat thi jo badal gayi thi..ab juhi sahil se sharmati, uski care karti aur uska intzaar karti.........sahil ko dekhne ke liye uska aankhe hamesa lagi hi rahti aur sahil ko ab juhi ki is chahat se dar lagne laga tha............... Lagbhag one week ho gaye the sahil aur juhi ko wapas aaye lekin aaj bhi sahil ke hotho ki chhuan juhi ko apne galo par jaise mahsoos hoti aur jab bhi aisa hota uska gora mukhda sharm se ekdam gulabi ho jata........ Sahil aur juhi sath sath baithkar padh rhe the........sahil ka phone baj utha.......... Sahil ne phone uthaya aur uthakr bahar jane laga...........juhi ko achcha nhi laga......... “kiska phone hai...” usne aakhirkar puchh hi diya....... Sahil thithak gya.......juhi ki or gaur se dekha.......juhi ne nazre jhuka li.........”ek dost ka” usne itna hi kaha aur bahar nikal gya.......RAHUL ka phone tha......... “kaisa hai yarr” rahul ne chahkate huye puchha.... “thik hu...tu kaisa hai......” “mai bhi thik hu....pata hai mai bhi delhi aaya hua hu.....karol bagh me hu..........kab mil rha hai bata......????..” rahul bade khus hokar sahil se bat kar rha tha......ek hi to dost tha uska....sahil. “aata hu kisi din...........aur bata....” “bas yar sab thik hai..........pata hai mera bhi pre clear ho gya.........sale tune to sare contact hi khatm kar liye.......kitna phone kya maine result wale din par tune phone nhi uthaya,,,,bhool gaya na is dost ko.....” rahul ne shikwa kiya.......us bechare ko bhala kya pata ki kis kis tufan ke thapede sahe the sahil ne pichhle kuchh dino me,.......... “nhi rahul ............tujhe kaise bhool sakta hu mere bhai........bas thoda ulajh sa gaya tha.........khair chhod......... ..aata hu kal ..........kahaa rah rha hai.....?????????” sahil ne puchha. “mai tujhe address sms kar dunga...........achcha sun yar agr koi WORLD HISTORY ka badhiya note ho to lete aana ........plzz...” rahul ne kaha..... “ha le aaunga........aur kcuhh” sahil ne kaha.. “waise tu kaha rah rha hai.............didi ke yaha apne.........??” rahul ne kaha “nhi..........” didi ke ghar ko yad kar k ek bar fir aaj sahil ka gala bhar aaya...........uski aawaz badi dheeme se nikali..... “sahil kya hua............tabiyat nhi thik hai kya teri.........” rahul ko uski aawaz se laga kuchh gadbad hai.... “nh...wo phone me kuchh kharabi hai....”sahil ne kaha. “achcha to jab tu rent par hi rah rha hai to fir yhi aajaa......... sath me rahenge.........” rahul ne kaha. “ dekhta hu.........waise jab bhi tu kahega mai aa jaunga .........kahi bhi rahu.....chal rukunga kuchh din tere pas...” sahil ne juhi ki wajah se aisa kaha..............ab jab juhi ko uski sabse jyada jaroorat thi mains ke exam me, to wo use chhodakr kaise ja sakta tha.......... “wo to mai janta hu meri jaan, ki jab bhi bulaunga tu aa jayega.........abe ek tuhi to hai is poori duniya me jise ye rahul apna kah sakta hai” rahul thoda sa emotional ho gya, jo aamtaur par wo hota nhi tha.......... “chal achcha ..ab dialogbaji band kar aata hu kal.........”sahil ne haste huye kaha... “chal thik hai yar,,,aana jaroor ..bye..” “bye” sahil ne kaha aur andar ki or muda............juhi jo darwaje ke pichhe khadi sab bate sun rahi thi jaldi se andar ki or bhagi.........uska sun na jaroori jot ha........... aakhir use bhi to pata chale ki uske “ye:”” bat kis se kar rhe the............ Sahil ne usko duadate dekh liya aur sabkuchh samjh gaya.....ek halki si muskan uske hotho par fail gayi...........dono fir se sath padhne lage...mano kuchh hua hi na ho............. Rat ke 9 baj gaye the...........Jab sahil juhi ko padha kar uthane laga..to bola... “juhi kal mai kahi jaunga.......”sahil ki bat adhoori hi rah gayi......... “ rukna mat wha.... “ juhi tapak se bich me hi bol padi............. .....aur fir apne ungali danto se dabaa li.........apni galti usne khud hi sahil ko bata di ki wo sab kuchh sun chuki hai............sahil uski masoomiyat par ek bar fir se muskura utha........ “dusro ke baten chhup kar sun na bahut galat baat hai....” usne juhi ki or dekh kar kaha., “par doosro ki baten na....apno ki to nhi......” juhi fir jhat se boli..aur sahil ko koi jawab nhi sujha........juhi ke liye to sahil ab uska apna tha........... “padhai karti rahni ......bye...” usne kaha aur bahar nikal gaya........ Sahil Rahul se mila to uski aankhe bheeg gayi.......rahul uske liye bhai se bhadkar tha...lekin waqt ki tej rafter me shayad kahi pichhe chhut ta ja rha tha.............lekin rahul aisa dost nhi tha...........wo to sahil par jaan dene wala dost tha.....sahil ka ek khas mukam tha uski zindagi me ...sahil ne jo uske liye kiya tha rahul use kabhi bhool nhi pata tha..... “sahil ab tu bahut udas rahne laga hai........koi bat hai kya mere bhai” sahil aur rahul dono padh rhe the jab rahul ne us se puchha .... uske puchhne ki ek khas wajah thi....jo notes sahil ne se diye the usme kayi pages par kuchh-kuchh likha tha..............jaise....... “ I will not forgive u, kabhi maaf nhi karunga tumhe – BEWAFA...” aur bhi kuchh ...........aur jo kal ka news paper sahil ne padha tha usme isi tarah ka kuchh likha tha............un history notes ke back pages par bhi ............... “nhi yar aise hi..........” sahil ne talna chaha...... “sahil ,,tu mujhse chuppana chahata hai......?” rahul ko jaise bahut dukh hua is bat ka........... “nhi yar...bataunga tujhe bas abhi nhi...mains exam hai na...pahle ise de lete hai...........bas itna jan le ki kisi ki- BEWAFAI - yad aa jati hai tabhi ye lines likhta hu...........” sahil ke chehre par ek dard ki lakeer ubhar aayi........... “sahil,idhar dekh meri aankho me...kaun hai wo....bata mujhe kaun hai wo.......tu janta hai na mujhe.........tu to sab janta hai,,,,bas bata de kaun ho wo kamini........” rahul ka chehra gusse se bhabhak utha....... “nhi rahul !!!!! Plz...kuchh mat kahna use.....plz...aur ek wada kar ..tu kabhi nhi puchhega mujhse.........wada kar” sahil ne use kuchh bhi kahne se rok diya....... “yar aaj tak teri koi bat taali hai maine....,,.........,ja kiya wada..........nhi puchhunga.........waise bhi us badnaseeb ke bare me kya karungaa jan ke jise tujh jaise heere ki kadr nhi pata.......nhi puchhunga.,......bas agr kisi din meri jaroorat pad jaye to ek bar aawaz dena.........jaan de dunga tere liye........tu to janta hai na ki rahul tere liye kuchh bhi kar sakta hai kuchh bhi.........” rahul ne use gale se lagaa liya...... “haa mere yar..........janta hu mai.........thanx yar tu aa gya... ... bahhut akela pad gya that tera bhai..........”sahil bhi jor se uske gale se lag gaya......... “saale ek bar bol nhi sakta tha......tere liye sabkuchh chhodkar aa jata mai........” rahul ne kaha... “mujhe pata tha tu jaroor aayega...........” sahil ne kaha ur uski aankh bhar aayi. ****************************************************************************** Aaj sahil ko gaye teen din beet gaye the aur juhi ko ye teen din jaise salo ke barabar lag rhe the............na uska padhne me man lag rha tha na kuchh karne me...............wo room me idhar udhar tahal rhi thi.............hath me book thi lekin nak par gussa bhi bahut tha.............. “jane kya samjhte hai khud ko.........bola tha ki rookna mat ........lekin meri sunta kaun hai.....kise fikar hai meri....mat aayen...... ...mar thode hi jaungi...........” wo badbada rhi thi aur bar bar darwaje ki taraf dekh rhi thi............. “mai bhi pagal hu........ kyu itana paresan hu......nhi aate hai to mat aaye ...mujhe kya.......aane do is baar bat nhi karungi....” juhi ne kaha aur darwaje ki or dekha.....sahil darwaje par ek hath rakhe khadaa muskura rha tha...............juhi to mano sharm se gad gayi.......... “uff khuadaya.... suna hoga to kya socheneg...........kuchh bhi soche.....huuuuunnn.....muskurate bhi aise hai jaise mujh par ahsaan kar rhe hai........” usne kaha aur book me aise dekhne lagi jaise sahil ke aane ka pata hi na ho. Sahil ko uski har masoom ada par hasi aati thi.....adaye bhi aisi ki koi chhoti si bachchi ho.....wo muskurata hua room ke andar aa gya............ “kaisi ho juhi............?” usne andar aakar thodi doori par khade hote huye bade pyaar se puchha....... “nhi bolungi” juhi ne man me scoha aur books me dekhti rahi....jabardast ignore mar rhi thi wo masoom si pari...........aur gusse ke mare ekdam shoal lag rhi thi......... Sahil ka hasi ke mare bura hal tha...lekin use pata tha ki agar galti se bhi has diya to ye “shole” phat padenge.......wo dheere se aage badha aur juhi ki najuhk si kalayi tham li................... Juhi ki to mano jaan hi nikal gayiiiiiiii........... Juhi ne sar uthakar sahil ki or dekha par kuchh boli nhi aur apne dusre hath me pakdi book ko bed par fenk kar apna hath chhudane lagi.............. Sahil ko thoda sa maja aa rha tha use tang karne me to usne hath nhi chhoda...............juhi poori kosis kar ke thak gayi aur ruansi hote huye boli.......... “chhodiye hamara hath.............” “achchha aur agar na chhodu to ........” sahil ko sach me majaa aa rha tha use tang karne me......... “to...to..to hum chillayenge ...........” juhi ne badi masoomiya se kaha. “achchhaaaaa.....aur chilla kar kya kahogi,.........” sahil ne muskurate huye kaha....... “kahenge ki...kiiii...ki............” aur juhi chup ho gayi........use samajh me nhi aaya ki kya bole. Sahil ko fir se hansi aa gyi...... “naraz ho mujhse...........”sahil ne is bar bade pyar se puchha............ Juhi ne nazre jhuka li.......kuchh nhi boli.......sahil ne apne hath se uski thodhi pakadkar uska chehra upar kiya............. “bolo na naraz ho ??????............” Juhi ne is bar haa me sar hila diya................ “achchha sorry.......” sahil ne uska hath chhoda aur uske samne ek ghutne ko moadkar jameen se lagate huye apne hatho se kan pakada liya aur muskurate huye uski neeli,khoobsoorat aankho me dekhne lgaa........ Juhi ko bahut ppyar aa rha tha sahil pe....uske dil me aaya ki abhi uske gale se lipat jaye.lekin wo aisa nhi kar sakti thi....itana haq shayad use nhi tha abhi........... Juhi ne aage badhkar uska hath uske kano se hata diya....aur naa me sar hilaya...ki aise mat kiya karo............ “itane hi dino me hi gungi ho gayi kya........” sahil ne fir se jala diya use ..aur is bar juhi fat padi......... “ha mai gungi hu....pagal hu...befkaaof hu.............aap to bahut sayane ho...........itane din gaye ho gye the..........ek bar phone tak nhi kiya...........aur jab maine kiya to uthaye bhi nhi........aur fir puchhte hai naraz ho???.. are naraz to houngi hi na...” juhi aise daant rhi thi jaise koi bivi apne shauhar ko dant ti hai...........sahil ke chehre par ek bhav aaya lekin sirf chand lamho ke liye kyuki fir usne khud ko sambhal liya................... “sorry bola na ....achcha chhodo in baton ko.......chalo taiyar raho ..mai abhi aata hu fir padhenege dono............” sahil ab sulah karne ke modd me tha ,lekin juhi ka abhi aisa koi irada nhi lag rha tha............... “mujhe nhi padhana” usne fir se muh bichkate huye kaha..... “padhana to padega na babu...........” achcanak sahil ke muh se nikal gayaa............juhi ka to mano din ban gaya.........kitne pyar se sahil ne use ‘ babu’ kaha tha...........kitna apna pan tha us lahje me........uska sara gussa kisi jhag ki tarah baith gya...........whi sahil ko apni galti ka ahsaas hua........ “ab aap nhi jaoge na........” juhi ne puchha........sahil ke pyar se uski narazgi to khatm ho gyi thi lekin ab use guarantee chahiye thi ki ye galti dobara nhi hogi............ “yar wo akela hai delhi me ............dost hai mera” sahil ne kaha........ “to aap use yhi bula lena......mai kuchh nhi janti..........” juhi thode se jid karne wale lahje me boli.......... “juhi ek din to jana hi hai na.................” sahil ne kaha aur bahar nkal gya. Juhi whi khadi use jate dekhti rahi.............. “main hi jane dungi sahil aapko.......chahe kuchh bhi ho jaye.....kuchh bhi........dekh lena aap........” usne dabdabayi aankho se kaha. Sahil apne room me aate hi bistar par pad gaya..............juhi ke bare me sochne laga.........Use kuchh to andaza ho hi gaya tha ki juhi ke man me uske liye pyar ke jazbat hai ...aur wo apne kadam pichhe khichna chah rah tha......koi bhi aisa kam nhi karna chah rha tha jis se juhi ko koi galat signal mile...lekin har bar uske sachche dil aur uski masoomiyat se maat kha jata tha..................koi banawat nhi thi juhi ke dil me....koi paap nhiii. “kya karu is masoom ka......kaise samjhau ise...........”sahil juhi ke bare me soch soch kar paresan ho rha tha......use juhi ki chahat se sachmuch dar lagne lagaa tha........... Dheere dheere fir sabkuchh pahle jaise chalne lgaa ...........sahil rahul se milne jata tha par jyada rukta nhi tha........juhi bhi dil lagakr padhai kar rhi thi.........din rat padhne me pata nhi chalta ............aur bahut teji se din beetene lage................. December ka mahina suru ho chukka tha aur joro ki thand padni suru ho gayi thi....................Mains ka exam ho chukka tha aur ab feb ke end tak result aana tha...........sahil ke papaers achchhe huye the lekin UPSC aur civil services ki anischitata se sabhi wakif the .......to koi kah nhi sakta tha ki mera jaroor ho hi jayega.......... Sahil ne ek do bar is bich ghar par phone kiya a.............mummy papa se bat ki.......aur kabhi kabhi renu ka phone bhi aa jata.......lekin na to kabhi uske bhai ne phone kiya na didi ne ...........aur na kabhi us “ BEWAFA” ne ................lagbahg 2 sal ho gaye the sahil ko didi ke yha gaye aur un logo se bat kiye.............use lagta hi nhi tha ki koi uska apna bhi hai delhi me............ Sahil ab bhi uski yado me rota tha lekin ab itana to sambhal gaya tha ki wo aansu band kamre me nikalte the............... Agar koi delhi me sahil ka apna tha to wo thi wo masoom si pari.............. ***JUHI*** Juhi ab thodi udas rahti thi..........wo jitna sahil ke dil ke pas hona chahti sahil utna hi us se door bhagta..........use lagne laga tha ki uski muhabbat dam todati jaa rhi thi.............. kahne ko to sab kahte hai ki chahe muhabbat mile na mile........lekin muhabbat nhi marti ........shayad ye sach bhi hai .lekin ek sach ye bhi hai ki na-umeedi ka daman jyade der thamna aasan nhi hota......... juhi ko dil ab dheere dheere tutne laga tha.........uski muhbbat uske dil me ghut ghut kar mar rhi thi........lekin juhi ne har nhi mani thi........... “sahil aap sirf mere ho ...........aur mai itani aasani se apni kisi chij ko nhi chhodati........” usne apne man me than liya tha ki ek aakhiri kosis wo jaroor karegi aur sahil ke samne apna dil kholkar rakh degi...............use apni muhabbat ka yakeen dilayegi aur use jane nhi degi................ Lekin sab kcuhh hone ke bad bhi wo himmat nhi juta paa rhi thi................. Din beet te rahe.......sahil roj UPSC ki site check karta......juhi nahi karti............use ab IAS ban ne ki shayd itani khusi nhi thi jitna is bat ka dar tha ki......... “ sahil mujhe chhodakar chale jayenge” aur uska man bahut udas ho jata.......... Aur fir ek din result aa gya...............CS(MAINS) QULAIFIED-201*......upsc ki site par red color me chamak rha tha...............ghar par aaj sirf juhi aur sahil the ............juhi kucchh padh rhi thi jab sahil ne site kholi aur jaise hi dekha......jor se chillaya...... “juhi aa gya...........result aa gya” “sach?” juhi bhi bhagkar sahil ke pas pahuchi.sahil ne page download kiya aur juhi thik uske piche chair par tek lagaye uske pichhe se jhuki thi.....dono ka dil joro se dhadak rha tha...........sahil ne ek pal ko apne aankhe band ki...juhi ne bhi............ Dono ne ek dusre ke liye dua mangi................ “Mera sapna chahe toot jaye bhagwan..par juhi ka dil mat toadana.......plzzzzz” “aye mere khuda.........mere sahil ka sapna poora kar dena..mera kya hai....jee lungi” Sahil ne roll no dala.pahle juhi ka fir apna .....dono ki dua kubool ho gayi thi............... “Sahillllllll” juhi mare khusi ke uchhal padi.............. Ek pal ko sabkuchh bhool gya sahil...wo chair se utha aur juhi ko apne baho me jakad kar hawa me utha liya aur teji se ghumane laga.............. “juhi ...i m sooooooo happyyyyyy...tumne kar dikahya..............thank u juhi......thank u......”sahil behad khus tha aur use khus dekhakr juhi bhi ..sahil ke seene se lage use sharm bhi aa rhi thi aur pyar bhi bahut aa rha tha............... Sahil ne use niche utara aur uske galo ko jor se choom liya................. “I m so happy juhi........ummmmmmuuaaaaa” sahil ne uske dono galo ko choom liya........ Juhi to mare sharm ke pani pani ho gayi jaise............lekin use pata tha ki sahil khusi me ye kar rha hai............usne sahil ko jara bhi ahsaas nhi hone diya ki usne kuchh kiya hai............lekin ek bar uska dil fir se bahut jor dhadka tha.........kashhhhhhhhhhhh.. “mai bhi bahut khus hu sahil....thank u....... .thank u so much...........” “chalo baba ko phone karte hai.............”sahil schmuch bahut khus tha use khud bhi pata nhi tha ki usne kya kiya.......... Fir thodi der bad khan baba ur sarfaraz sahb bhi aa gaye..........wo dono bhi behad khus the.............khan baba ne juhi ko apne baho me bhar liya..........unki aankho me aansu aa gye the........khusi ke aansu.... Sahil ko rahul ka phone aaya........... usne bhi INTERVIEW ke liye qualify kar liya tha..................ab bas ek aakhiri padav rah gya tha.............INTERVIEW. Kuchh dino bad intervie ki dates aa gayi..............sahil ka interview pahle tha ............fir rahul ka aur fir juhi ka............sahil kyoki ek bar interview de chukka tha isliye use thoda bahut pata tha............usne jo kuchh bhi use pata tha wo sabkuchh juhi aur rahul ko samjhaya................ Kahte hai interview me 90% luck hota hai aur 10% knowledge...........shayad ye sach bhi ho...to ab sahil ko kismet aajmana tha.........wo kismet jisne ab tak sirf use dhokha diya tha........lekin ab uski zindagi me kuchh badal tha.........uski zindagi me juhi thi .............ek dost tha..........aur ek vishwas tha.......... Aaj sahil ka interview tha aur aaj sahil behad udas tha ...........sarfarz sahib khud use apni car me lekar aana chahte the lekin sahil ne mana kar diya........par juhi nhi mani aur wo bhi uske sath aayi thi.lagbhag 7 din bad uska apna interview tha.............. Auto me baithe baithe sahil ko aaj bahut kuchh yad aa rha tha......use aarti yad aa rhi thi...........aise hi ek din wo bhi aayi thi ..............ek aansu uski aankh se bah gya ..........juhi ki najro se na wo aansu bach saka aur na sahil ka dard........usne sahil ka hath apne ek hath me liya aur apne dusre hath se uska aansu saf kar diya............sahil ne dheer se apna sar uske kandhe par rakh diya...........jaha duniya bhar ka sukoon tha..........bharosa tha............ Sahil UPSC ke gate se entry karne ke liye taiyar tha.........juhi ne dheere se uska hath pakda.......... “sahil, mai tumhe kabhi akela nhi chhodugi.....chahe kuchh bhi ho jaye.....tumhari kasam !!!!!!!! ........pure confidence se interview dena............mai hamesa tumhare sath hu..........ALL THE BEST.” Sahil ki nazro ne uska shukriya ada kiya aur wo andar chal diya.........juhi ke un sabdo ne jadu ka sa asar kiya tha,,....sahil ka man aatm-vishwas se bhar gya ............ Sahil ka interview ho gya tha aur wo juhi ke sath wapas ghar aa gya......interview achcha hua tha...... Juhi aur rahul ka interview bhi khatm ho chuka tha..............unke interview bhi thik huye the........aur ab bas intzaar tha final result ka................. Sahil ko ab apna yha rahna thik nhi lag rha tha...........aur ek din usne ye bat kah di............ sare log sath me hi baithe huye the........juhi bhi............ “khan baba , ab mai sochta hu ki mujhe chalna chahiye.......” juhi ka dil dhakk se rah gya........ “kaha sahil beta.........” baba ne bade lagav se puchha... “jee mera matlab, hamesa ke liye ....ab kahi aur rahna chahta hu..........aur ab to juhi ki padhai bhi ho gyai hai...............to ab yha rahna thik nhi lagta...........” sahikll ne saf saf apni bat kah di....... Juhi ki aankhe bhar aayi thi.... usne sabse chhup kar sahil ki or dekha......un khoobsoorat aankho me aansuo ke moti chamak rahe the aur ek sawal tha sahil ke liye........ ” mujhe chhodakar???????????” Sahil jayda der tak uski nazro ka samnaa nhi kar saka aur ankhe fer li........... “sahil.......tumhe yha koi dikkat hai beta.........kaun sa ham tum par ahssan karte hai.....kiraya dete ho tum.........yhi raho beta ...........dil laga rahta hai tumhare rahne se...........koi dikat ho to batao............” “jee...nhi baba koi dikkat nhi hai.........bas ab soch rha hu ki.........” sahil kuchh bol bhi nhi paya.tabhi sarfarz khan bich m bole........ “sahil kahi na jaoge tum.....yar itane din se sath ho.....ek dam sage bête ki tarah lagte ho........kaise jane de tumhe..........aur vaise bhi kuchh din me to chale hi jaoge...jab IAS ban jaoge.........” “jee uncle......par kya pata?” sahil ne sar jhukaye jhukaye kaha... Juhi ne pyar se apne baap ko dekha aur dil me hi unka shukriya ada kiya..........sahil ko rok liya tha unhone ............kuchh din ke liye hi sahi...........lekin juhi ke dil me apne abbu ki wo bat baith gayi.......... ” kuchh din me to chale hi jaoge..........” wo uski aankhe dabdaba gayi aur wo uthakar andar chali gayi........... Aaine ke samne khadi jhui ne apne aansu saf kiye aur ek bar fir se boli............ “mai tumhe nahi jane dungi sahil ..................chahe kuchh bhi ho jaye.” Sahil ke dil ka dard ab dheere dheere nafarat ka rang leta ja rha tha...........use nafart ho gayi thi sabse ....is matlabi jahaan se .........lekin fir dil me khyala aata ki isi jahaan me to juhi jaise aur khan baba jaise log bhi hai............kaise nafart kar sakta hai koi use se.........sochana bhi shayad paap hai.........aur sahil ke liye to jo juhi ne kiya tha, wo to apni jaan dekar bhi shayad uska ahsaan nhi chuka sakta tha............. Lekin apno se nafarat ho gayi thi sahil ko.....shadeed nafarat............. Final result ke liye ab din gine ja rhe the kisi din bhi aa sakta tha................... (ek bat aap sab ko bata du dosto.....jayadatar logo ko pata hoga....jab bhi koi final result aata hai to har candidate ka poora nam mention hota hai.....jabki baki result me sirf roll number...to jo bhi result dekhta hai use pata chal jata hai..........) Pta nhi rumaors thi ya sachchai par news fail gayi thi ki aaj IAS ka result aane wala tha............. Sham ke 7 baj rhe the.....juhi aur sahil uske room me baithe idhar udhar ki baten kar rhe the.............juhi jyada se jayad time sahil ke sath rahna chahti thi.....juhi ka sath achcha to sahil ko bhi lagta tha...........juhi ne soch liya tha ki esult aane ke bad wo sahil ko apne dil ki bat saf saf bata degi.....aur use yakeen dilayegi ki uski muhabbat sachchi hai......... Juhi ke phone ki ghanti baji,.....................usne phone nhi uthaya....tabhi sahil ka phone bhi ghanaghan utha........ usne bhi apna phone nhi uthaya............sahil ne juhi ki aankho me dekha..........juhi turant samjh gayi..............dono ne jaldi se apane phone switch off kar diya.....aur teji se computer ki or lapke..............jahir tha ki logo ko result aane ka pata chala hoga aur fir se whi taane shayad sun ne ko mile jo pichhle bar mile the nakam hone par............... Sahil ka dil jor jor se dhadak rha tha........usne upsc ki site kholi .......aur result aa chukka tha............. “ CIVIL SERVICES (FINAL) RESULT-201* ” Sahil ne juhi ki or dekha.....sahil ki aankho me ek dar tha.......haar ka dar.........juhi ne uske kandhe par dheere se hath rakh diya......... “mai hamesa tumhare sath hu sahil.........hamesa.....” juhi ne kaha.uski aankho me itana pyar tha ki sahil ka gala bhar aaya.............sahil ne juhi ka hath apno hatho me liya aur result par click kar diya.................. PDF download ho chuki thi aur sahil ne teji se end ka button daba diya............page ekdam niche pahucha gya aur dheere dheere sahil upar badhne laga.............. RANK ROLL NO NAME 1126 00321 SAILJA 1127 05632 RESHAM SHARMA 1128 - 67341 PANKAJ SINGH Jaise jaise sahil upar badh rha tha higher rank ke students ka nam aata ja rha tha.............. List 200 tak pahuch gayi thi lekin na to sahil ka, na rahul ka aur na hi juhi ka ...kisi ka bhi nam nhi aaya tha...........sahil ka dil baithta ja rha tha.......... “juhi agar mera nhi hua to tum bhi mujhse dosti tod logi..............tum bhi mujhe akela chood dogi...........” sahil ke dil me sari purani baten ghoom rhi thi.............usne computer ka mouse chhod diya aur juhi ki taraf dekhakr bola.............. “ sahil??????.......juhi tadap si gayi uski is bat par.........aur aaj teesri bar uske dil se aarti ke liye badddua nikli......... .”bewafa,tujhe kabhi muhaabt naseeb na ho...........” usne apne dil me kaha. “bolo na juhi “ sahil uski aankho me dekhte huye bola........juhi ki aankhe bhar aayi sahil ke chehre ka dard aur masoomiyat dekhkar.......... kitni bar ye yakeen dila chuki thi juhi............lekin sahil ke dil ka zakhm itna gahra tha ki use aitabbar nhi aata tha........aarti ne bhi to kitni bar yhi kaha tha ...lekin kya kiya usne............ “mai aapko kabhi nhi chhodungi sahil........chahe kuchh bhi ho jaye ...” juhi ne kaha aur apne hath mouse par rakh diye........ Juhi ab dheere dheere mouse scroll kar rhi thi aur sahil chuchap screen par najre lagaye the.....wo shayad har man chukka tha...uski aankhe to us screen par thi lekin uska dhyan wha nhi tha.......... “RAHUL SHARMA” juhi ki nazar is nam par rook gayi..... RANK 195--- JUHI ne nam padha fir pas me rakhe paper jisme teeno ke roll ne tha, Us se roll no milaya...........wahi roll number tha................ “sahill..sahil” juhi ne sahil ka kandha hilaya.sahil ne aankhe khol di........ “haa,” aur jaise hi screen par nazar padi........... “ho gya rahul ka........????..” sahil ke chehre par chamak aa gyi ........... Juhi ne haa me sar hilaya aur fir chuchap aage dekhne lagi........... Sahil ne juhi ka hath fir se apane hath me le liya jaise ki mano dar rha ho............... Aur fir ............ “RANK -167, JUHI KHAN” sahil ka chehra khil utha....kuchh pal ko use sabkuchh bhool gya..........juhi ke chehre par bhi ek chamak thi...............sahil ne juhi ko gale laga liya.............. “tumne kar dikhaya juhi...........mujhe pata tha..........bahut fakr ho rha hai aaj tum par..........vaise tum par fakr hone ke liye is result ki jaroorat nhi hai............tum ek pari ho..........” sahil ki bat se juhi ka dil jhoom rha tha ....use khusi bhi ho rhi thi ki usne apne baba ka sapna poora kar diya ............lekin uska dhyan abhi bhi sahil ke result par hi tha..........use pata tha ki sahil na aata to shayad wo bhi apna sapna poora na kar pati...........sahil ke aane se use bahut bada sahar mila tha......itane apne pan se sahil use padhata tha ki use sabkuchh aasan lagta......aur aaj result bhi usi ka fal tha.......... “aye khuda ..........bass ab mere sahil ka nam bhi dikha de...........”juhi ne dil me ek aarzoo ki....... Juhi sahil se alag huyi aur ek bar fir se screen pe nazre jamma di.................. har gujarte nam ke sath sahil ka dil toot ta ja rha tha ........jab rank 50 tak pahuch gayi to sahil ki aankh se ek aansu nikal kar juhi ke hath par gir pada aur wo uthkar jane laga......JUHI ne jhat se uska hath tham liya ........aur na me sar hilakar use baithne ko bola......sahil ko bharosa to nhi tha ki uski rank 50 ke above bhi kabhi hogi...lekin juhi ki aankho me aansu dekhkar wo baith gaya wapas.......... juhi ne ek aakhiri umeed ke sath niche ko scroll kiya aur screen par nazar dali............ “RANK-38. SAHIL SINGH” juhi ki nazar us nam par jakar chipak si gayi.........sahil bhi ektak dekh rha tha.............ROLL NO par ek nazar dali ...same.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...............juhi ne sahil ki aankho me dekha..........aur sahil ki aankho se jhar jhar aansu bahne lage...............usne jor se juhi ko apni baho me bhar liya aur buri tarah se tadap kar rone laga................. Juhi bhi ro rhi thi ..........sahil uski god me sar chhupaye buri tarah se ro rha tha................aaj use sab kuchh yad aa rha tha.............sabkuchh. Sahil ko apni padhai ka sangharsh, college cycle se jana (jabki ghar par bike thi) , papa ka karj lekar uski fees dena ....aur coaching ke liye papa ka jameen bechana aur mummy ka apne gahne girvi rakhna............dheeraj ka use paiso ke liye saf mana karna..........aarti ke liye bachpan se uska pyar......bachpan me uske liye sabse ladna, ........ apne hisse ki cheeje uske liye chhupa kar rakhna ........., apne peeth par use ghumana...........nadi par uske sath ghumne jana.......wo kheto me ghumna.........ladna-jhagdanaa.........roothan-manana.....fir uski dosti............uska pyar........aur uski bewafayi..........akele dilli ki jhopad patti me gujari wo kali raten.........ro ro kar akele aarti ko bulana..use mafi mangna ..........us galti ki jo usne kabh ki hi nhi..........aarti ki yad me bhukhe-pyaase din rat tadapna....... ...aur sabse jyada yad aa rha tha use aarti ka kahna “ sabko jalan ho rhi hai mujhse”...........sabkuchh yad aa rha tha.......sahil apne pair mode huye juhi ki god me kisi bachche ki tarah dubaka hua jar jar ro rha tha........ “thank you juhi ....thank u juhi...................thank u.....”usne sar uthakr juhi ki or dekha aur bas yhi bolta rha .........aur ek bar fir se sar uski god me chhupakar rone laga....... Sahil kitni buri tarah se hurt hua tha iska andaza tha juhi ko aur aaj uska sara dard aansuo ki shakl lekar bahar aa rha tha..........juhi ne use rone diya aur khud bhi roti rahi........ sahil ka role uski zindagi me bahaot bada tha ......bhale hi usne sahil ke liye bahut kiya lekin sahil ke aane ke bad se uski zindagi ka ek khalipan khatm ho gya tha...........juhi ko ahsaas tha ki sahil na hota to shayd wo itni mehnat na kar pati aur na hi is teen stage wale, INDIA me sabse tough kahe jane wale is exam ke liye itna lamba patience rakh pati...............sahil ne use anguli pakadkar chalaya tha is raste par............aur ab wo use khona nhi chahti thi.... Juhi ko sab soch soch kar sahil par bahot pyar aa rha tha..........usne juk kar sahil ke sar ko choom liya.......... “chup ho jao sona.......plz..............” juhi ko ab sahil ka rona bardasht nhi ho rha tha..........kitna roya hai sahil , kitni tadap hai uske dil me..............juhi ka man sahil ke liye tadap rha tha........... “juhi mai mar jata tum nhi milti to.............mai marne wala tha juhi...........” sahil ne ek bar phir se sar uthakar bas itna hi kaha.........uska poora chehra aansuo se bhiga hua tha......... “mai aapko kaise marne deti sahil...........plz aisi baten mat karen...........plzzzzzzzz.....mai aapko kabhi kuchh nhi hone dungi......”” juhi ne sahil ke mathe ko choom liya aur use apne seene se laga liya...........juhi bhi buri tarah se rone lagi . Sahil ko aaj apno ki kami bahut khal rhi thi..........apne mummy papa k kami...............jab bhi sahil rota tha use maa bahut yad aati .......ghar par hota to kabhi ek aansu nhi nikalta......maa kabhi uski aankh me ek aansu dekh leti to pure ghar me bawal ho jata aur jo bhi uska jimmedar hota uski khair nhi........unka sabse ladla tha sahil............ dilli aane ke bad jaise aansu uske naseeb ban gaye the.................kisi ko parwah nhi thi sahil ke aansuo ki............jiske liye aaya tha, jiske bahrose aaya tha...sabne chhod diya tha.......... Sahil aaj sachmuch bahut jyada dard me tha........har dard aaj ek aansu ki shakl lekar bah rha tha..............juhi ke kahne ke bawjood ,lakho kosiso ke bawajood uske aansu nhi rook rhe the,,,,,,,..seedhiyo par kisi ke aane ki aawaz huyi ........... “sahil.........plz.........chup ho jaiye sahil,,,,,,,,,baba aa rhe hain ” juhi ne uske balo me hath pheret huye kaha....... Sahil ne muskil se apne aansuo ko roka aur juhi ki aankhio me dekhne laga.......juhi ne jaldi se apne duppate se uska chehra saf kiya ............aur thodi door hatkar baith gayi .....sahil ki aankhe lal ho gayi thi............ Baba jaise hi andar aaye juhi daudati huyi unke seene se lag gayi.............. “mera ho gay baba, sahil ka bhi..............” juhi ne bas itna kaha...khan baba ne uski peshani choom li............. “meri beti.........khus raho ...allah tumhe jamane bhar ki khusi de,........tumhe nhi pata tumne is budhe ko kitani badi khusi di hai...........jeeti raho....”khan baba ki bhi aankhe nam ho gyi........ Sahil bhi uthkar aage badha....khan baba ne use bhi gale se laga liya......ek taraf juhi ek taraf sahilll...... “jeete raho mere bachcho............aaj bahut dino bad is “KHAN VILA” me khusi aayi hai...........” khan baba ne mano elan kiya ho.... Sarfarz sahib bhi anadar pahuche......... “abbu “juhi daudkar unke gale se lag gayi.......... “sarfarz mere dono bachcho ne kar dikhaya........dono pass ho gaye” khan baba ne unke aate hi kaha.......... “mujhe poora bharosa tha in dono ki mehanat par......i m proud of u beta..........” sarfaraz sahab ki aankhe khusi se chamak rhi thi........... Thodi der ke bad khan baba aur sarfarz niche chale gaye aur sham ke liye ek chhoti si party ki palnning hone lagi............ aarti bhi unke sath niche chali gayi.sahil akela rah gya room me........ Sahil ne apna phone switch on kiya.......56 missed call thi..........wah ri duniya .......aaj tak jis sakhs ko koi puchhne wala nhi tha usko 2 ghante me 56 phone aaye the.............sahil ke chehre par fir se ek dard ubhar aaya..............kuchh jan pahchan wale the aur bahut sare unknown numbers se call the.............. Aaj sahil ko wo din yad aa rha tha jab uska do sal pahle interview ka result aaya tha aur uska nahi hua tha..........kitni naseehaten di thi sabne use... “bank ki taiyari karo, tumse nhi hoga............ “are isme bahut ghoos chalta hai.... “are college top karna aur bat hai ..IAS ban na aur......... “kaha tum iske chakkar me pad gaye ....koi chhoti moti naukri kar lete.......... Ek sakhs ne phone karke nhi kaha ki koi bat nhi sahil phir se karna........aur to aur uske apne bhai ne use chhod diya..............sahil har iljaam apne seene par chup chap sajata chala gya..........aur aaj ?????????..............ek bar phir se sahil ki aankhe nam ho gyi...tabhi juhi ne uske kandhe par hath rakha............aur naa me sar hila diya......sahil ne jabardasti muskurane ki kosis ki......... “mummy papa ko bataya????” juhi ne bade pyar se puchha........... Sahil ne naa me sar hilaya........... “sahil?........chlo abhi phone karo..........” juhi ne bade hak se kaha...........sahil ko bahut achcha laga........... “mummy mai sahil...........” sahil ne phone kiya.......... “kaise hai mera beta........bahut dino bad maa ki yad aayi...........tu bhi bhool gaya kya sahil ??” sahil ko sach much is bar kafi time ho gya tha phone kiye........ “mummy, tumhara beta IAS ban gya mummy.....”sahil ne kaha aur lakh kosis ke bawjood uski aankho se aansu nikal gaye......... “mera bachcha,jug jug jiyo mere lala.....bhagwan ne ham bhudho ki sun li.......teri tapsya safal ho gyi mere laal........bahut dukh uthaye tune apne sapne ke liye ....mera dil kahta tha tera ho jayega.........mai aaj bahut khus hu.........meri umar lag jaye mere bête ko......” sahil ki mummy bhi ro rhi thi Sahil ke papa ghar par nhi the..........sahil bahut bahvuk ho gya tha.........usne jyada bat nhi ki aur fir phone karne ko bolkar phone rakh diya............. Sahil ne phone rakha hi tha ki RAHUL ka phone aane laga.........sahil ne phone receive kiya......... “sahil , mubarak ho dost.........ham jeet gaye sahil.......mere bhai , mai bhi kuchh ban gya yar..........tera rahul bhi kisi layak ho gya mere yaar....”rahul ki aawaz bahut bheegi huyi lag rhi thi........ “tujhe bhi Mubarak ho meri jan..........haa mere yar ham jeet gaye,.......”sahil ki aankhe bhi nam ho gyi............... “sahil,tu to meri maa bhi ,behan bhi, bhai bhi........aaj teri vajah se mai kuchh ban gya yar...thanx yar.” rahul jo bahut hi majobot hua karta tha aaj ro rha tha........emotion jaise aaj sare darwaje tod kar bah nikle the........... “maine kya kiya rahul.......sab teri mehant hai mere yar.....plz tu to mat ro ...plz” sahil ne badi muskil se kaha. “sab janta hai tu............aur hai hi kaun mera..........thanku sahil...” Thodi der bat karke sahil ne phone rakh diya.......kal subah rahul se milne ja rha tha........Juhi ne sahil ke kandhe par hath rakhte huye kaha........... “ab mat ro sahil,,,aapki ksimat me jo kali badli thi wo chhat gayi..........plz......bahut aansu baha liye...” Sahil ka sar juhi ko dekhakr juhk sa gya.....uske dil me aa rha tha ki apna sar us pyari si ladki ke kadmo me rakh de aur ek bar uske kadmo se lipat kar ro le......... “juhi ,tumne to jo kiya hai mere liye............. “kuchh mat kaho aap....aur maine kuchh nhi kiya.....sab aapke patience aur aapki mehant ka inaam hai..........ab chalo thoda fresh ho jao aap .......” juhi ne bade muhbbbat se kaha. Sahil bas dheere se muskura diya......use pata tha ki juhi ne kya kiya hai uske liye..........lekin wo to pari thi ............apne ahsano ka ahsaas kaise hone deti......... Sham hote hote khan sahb ke ghar par poora huzoom pahuch chukka tha.......saare jan ne pahchane wale ,colony ke sab log ......sab Mubarak bad dene aaye the............bas sahil ka apna koi nhi aaya tha....... Der rat tak party chalti rahi aur fir sab log so gaye............aaj bhi sahil ko neend nhi aa rhi thi......aaj bhi use aarti ki bahut yad aa rhi thi............aaj uske zindagi ka sabse bada din tha aur wo uske sath nhi thi.......sahil uski yado me khoye huye neend ke aaghosh me sama gya....... Dusre din subah hi media aur sahil ke coaching institute ke senior members aaye the........aaj tak sahil gum naam tha lekin ab nhi.............aur fir ab wo ek hara hua insaan nhi tha....media ke liye to ye ek badi khabar thi....”ek kisan ka beta IAS” Sahil ko aaj uske coaching me request karke bulaya gya...........sahil juhi ko sath lekar gya tha............sahil ko Rs 3 lakh ka prize diya gya tha coaching ki taraf se aur ek chhota sa lecture bhi diya usne...........sahil ke din lautne lage the.................. Usi din sham ko sab log baithe the jab sahil ne kaha........ “baba mai kal ghar ja rha hu........mummy papa se mile bahut din ho gaye.......” “haan,haan jao beta........fir kab tak lautege..........” khan baba ne kaha... “jee....kuchh kah nhi sakta.......fir shayd training suru ho jayegi......1 month bad .....to shayd whi se chalaa jau.........” “sahil yha ho ke jaana beta......hame bhi tumhari yad ayegi........” khan baba bole. “jee,jaroor aaunga........khan baba aapne to ek baap se badhakr pyar kiya hai mujhe...... .pata nhi aapke ahsaan kaise..............”sahil ki bat adhoori rah gai....sarfaraz sahib ne dant diya ...... “khabardar sahil, jo kabhi ahsaan kaha to..........ham sirf beta kahte nhi mante hai tumhe.........jao ghar........jab chaho aa jana..........apna hi ghar samjh karo..........aur kabhi koi bhi jaroorat pad jaye zindagi me to ek bar aajma lena hame..........” “mai janta hu uncle...........thank u....” sahil ka dil bhar aaya unki bat par....aaj bhi aise insaan hai is dharti par........... “abbu.....” juhi ki jo ab tak chup thi boli.. “”ha bolo gudiya............”srfaraz sahb ne pyar se kaha.. “jee wo....” “bolo beta kya bat hai........” “jee abbu mai aaj tak kabhi gaon nhi gayi......agar aap ki ijaajat ho to mai bhi sahil ke sath........” juhi ne darte darte kaha............ Sarfaraz sahib ka chehra thoda sa gambhir ho gya........unhone khan baba ki or dekha.......... “jao beta...jao ghoom aao ....gaon bahut pyari jagah hoti h.” khan baba ne kaha. juhi fir bhi sarfaraz sahib ki or dekhti rahi ............. “jao bhai,jab abba ne kah diya to...vaise bhi kahaa kabhi tumhe ham kahi ghuma pate hai..............tumhari ammi ke jane ke bad tumhare liye kuchh nhi kar paya beta...........” sarfaraz sahib ne sar jhuka liya bolkar. “plz abbu aisi bat na kare...........aapne kya nhi kiya hamre liye.......mai nhi janugi jane de...........” wo apne baba ke kandhe se lag gayi........... “are jao meri gudiya......jao apne saman pack kar liyo...........sahil beta tumhe to koi problem nhi hogi na..............” “jee....jee nhi uncle.............” sahil bola................juhi ka chehra khil utha...........wo daudkar andar chali gayi apni packing karne............wo gaon ja rhi thi..............apne sahil ke gaon ..................apne sahil ke sath............ *********************************************************************************** Sahil juhi ke sath apne gaon ke station par utar chukka tha.............aur wha sa seedhe market gaya............ Thodi der ke bad sahil juhi ko liye huye ghar pahucha.........june ka mahina tha aur wo dophar ko pahuche the jyada log nhi dikh rhe the.............sab apne apne gharo me the.............. Juhi gaon ke khule mahol ko dekhakr bahut khus ho rhi thi.............sahil use kuchh cheeje batata ja rha tha apne gaon ki ....... Sahil ghar pahucha ..............kisi ko pahle se pata nhi tha ki wo aa rha hai............ Darwaje par dastak ki aur papa ne darwaja khola.............. “sahil.......”wo khusi se jhoom uthe........... Sahil ne unke pair chhuye to unhone use pakad kar apne gale se lagaa liya................ Mummy ke bhi pair chhuye ...........juhi ko dekhakr maa ne puchha,.......... “ye kaun hai beta.............” “mummy ye juhi hai...meri dost.......” “achchaa......”maa ne badi gahri nazro se use dekhte huye kaha........... “Mummy kuchh laya hu aapke liye...........” sahil ne kaha aur bag se nikalalr ek chhota sa box rakh diya unke samne .......... “kya hai isme......chhod ........pahle tum dono hath muh dho lo ...kuchh kha lo fir dekhenge.........” maa ne kaha.. “nhi ....dekho aap pahle........” sahil ne jid ki. Mummy ne ek bar uske chehre ki or dekha........aur fir box khol diya.............. Box me mummy ki whi gahne ( jwellery ) thi jo unhone girvi rakh di thi sahil ki study me aur dheeraj aur renu ki study me .....lagbhg sabkuchh ke ek karke giirvi rakha gya tha...........unke pas srif ek magalasootra bacha tha,,,,,,,sahil station se utar karke sabse pahle wahi lene market gya tha............... Sahil ki mummy ki nazar jaise hi apne jewar par padi .......wo bhabhak kar rone lagi......aaj unke bête ne unhe wo tohfa diya tha jiski koi keemat nhi laga sakta tha............ wo unke mummy papa ke diye huye jewar the jinhe majboori me unhone girvi rakha tha... ................. Mummy ne sahil ko jor se apne gale laga liya aur phoot phoot kar rone lage................kitne dino bad ..kitno dino bad .........aur laya bhi to unka ladla........ “tujhe sabse pahle mere jewar yad aaye.........jeeta rah mere laal....” mummy fir se us se lipat kar rone lagi... “plzz mummy aap rowo mat................maine dekhe hai wo majboori wale din jab ek ek kar ke sab meri aankho ke samne se jate rahe..........aapki aankho ke wo aansu main dekhe hai..........tab mai majboor tha maa...ab nhi hu..............” sahil ne unhe chup karate huye kaha.. “are mera gehnaa to tu hai mere laal.......” mummy ne kaha aur sahil ke sar ko choom liya....... Sabki aankhe bheeg gayi thi ..............juhi ke dil me sahil ki ijjat aur badhti ja rhi thi.

UPDATE 16 Khan baba room me pahuche….......sahil ko dekhkar bole……… “nirash mat ho beta…sarfarz ko phone kar diya hai….wo dekhta hai kya ho sakta hai………” “thank u khan baba……aap paresan na ho...........juhi ne mera form fill kar diya tha…..to ab koi problem nhi hai……….” Sahil ne pyar bhari nazro se juhi ki ro dekhte huye kaha,.... “shukr hai mere khudaya………..meri beti ha hi itani samjhdar ….aur tum???? Itane laparwah kaise ho gaye sahil?” “chhode na baba…….ab to sab thik hai na.....…………” juhi ne kaha.. “haan beta….ab bas tum dono dil lagakar padho…………is bar dekhna dono ka ho jayega mera dil kahta hai…………..achchha tum dono bat karo mai jara sarfarz ko bata du…paresan ho rha hoga……aur juhi aadhe ghante me dwa kha lena…………bhoolna nhi….” kahte huye khan baba room se nikal gaye. Juhi ne haa me sar hilaya………… “tumne apni kya halat bana li hai……………kaise padh paogi tum batao……” sahil ne uske pas bathte huye kaha. “fir aap mujhse naraz kyu huye the…….aur ek bar dekhne bhi nhi aaye ki jee rhi hu ya marrrrrrrrrrrr…..” juhi ki bat adhoori rah gayi…sahil ne uske muh par hath rakh diya……… “aisi baten nhi karte…………” juhi ektak uski aankho me dekhe gayi aur fir halka sa muskura di…. “ab mai bilkul thik ho jaungi sahil…….bas aap fir se ek bar lag jao…meri khatir….pllzz…..” “mai vada karta hu juhi,itani mehanat karunga jitni aajtak kabhi nhi ki…..apni taraf se koi kami nhi rahne dunga……….bas tum jaldi se thik ho jao …fir dono sath padheneg………” sahil ne juhi ka hath apne hatho me lete huye kaha…… Juhi bas haule se muskura di……… “ek bat batani thi aapko…………..” “kya” “Sahil aap shayad soch rhe honge ki maine aapki diary tab padhi jab aapke documents lene gayi….lekin maine us se pahle hi padh li thi…………..i m sorry…plz naraz mat hona aap…plz…” juhi ne confess kiya. “sorry to mujhe bolna chahiye juhi………..maine tumhare sath bahut bura sulook kiya………..” ek pal ko ruka sahil.. “juhi mai bahut bura insaan hu shayad isiliye aajtak zindagi me ek shakhs mera nhi hua…kisi ko nhi jeet paya…” sahil ne kaha. Juhi ke dil me aaya ki bol de aapne mujhe jeet liya sahil lekin na bol saki……… “nhi sahil …bure wo log the jo aapko mile….aap jaisa insane to khuskisamt logo ko milta hai………….ab ye sab baten mat kiya Karen …mujhe pata hai jo aapke sath hua hai use bhoolna aasan nhi hai..par aapko use aasan banana hoga…………” juhi ne bade apnepan se kaha. Sahil ki aankh ek bar fir aarti ko yad karke bhar aayi…………lekin usne apne aansu nahi niklne diye….. “sahil mera dil kahta hai aapke hisse me jitney gham the aapne sab jhel liye…….. ab ek khus-hal zindagi baahen failaye aapka intzar kar rhi hai………………dekhiyega ab aapki life me sabkuchh sirf achchha hi hoga………..” “achchha baten chhodo ,chalo dawa kha lo.............khan baba bol kar gaye hai na…………” sahl ne pani ka glass uski or badhate huye khaa… Juhi ko ek anjanai si khusi ka ahsas hua………usne sahil ke hath se pani liya aur dawa kha li………… “juhi tumhari is halat ka jimmedar mai to nhi hu na……….” sahil ne jane kyu puchh diya. “nhi” juhi ne dhheere se kaha aur nazre jhuka li………… “juhi,tum dekhna mai ek bahut achcha insane banunga………...ab tumhe kabhi koi dukh shikayat nhi hogi mujh se .......tum meri zindagi me us pari ki tarah aayi jo kisi ke toote sapne sawar kar unme naye rang bhar deti hai………mai ye din kabhi nhi bhoolunga,.......thnax juhi ..........” aaj sahil ki aankho me ek pachhtawa tha aur ek ijjat thi juhi ke liye........... “aap baten bahut achchi kar lete hai.............”juhi ne dheere se kaha aur muskura di. “achcha ab tum aaram karo.....mai jara apen notes aur books doondhta hu ...ab padhna hai na......” sahil ne kaha.... Juhi ke chehre par fir se muskurahat aa gyi aur usne haa me sar hilaya........... Ab juhi ki tabiyat sambhl gyi thi .........uska rang ropp fir se kisi gulab ki kali ke jaisa khil utha tha......fir se kisi jannat ki pari ki tarah khoobsoorat lagne lagi thi.............sahil ne uski sari jimmedari apne upar le li thi........uski dawa,uska khana peena aur uski padhai..........khan baba ya sarfaraz sahib kisi ko koi aitraz nhi tha....dono ko hi bharosa tha ki sahil ek bahut achcha ladka hai aur kuchh aisa nhi karga jis se unhe sharmsar hona pade..........unhe ahsaas tha ki juhi ko ek dost ki jaroorat hai aur sahil se uska rista dosti wala hi hai............... Sarfarz sahib jab bhi upar aate dono ko padhte huye pate aur unhe behad khusi hoti............sahil unhe bilkul apne bête ki tarah lagne laga tha...........sahil aur juhi ab din me sath hi padhte the............aur rat ko dono apne apne room me........... Juhi ko ab lagne laga tha ki sahil aarti ko bhool gya hai.........aur ab wo sahil par apna hak samjhati aur kabhi kabhar use pyar bhari ghudaki bhi deti............ek bar fir se sahil jeene laga tha..............sahil ko bhi juhi ka sath achchha lagta.............. Juhi din b din sahil ki muhabbat me doobati ja rhi thi.............jitna khyal uska sahil rakhta utana to kabhi kisi ne nhi rakha tha..........sachchi muhabbat kya hoti hai iska ahsaas hi use sahil se milkar hua tha...........subah aaakr roj use jagata .........aur fir din me juhi kitna bhi kahe aaj padhne ka mood nhi hai....lekin sahil na manta..... sahil ke sath sath padhna juhi ko aasan lagne laga........aur ab wo roj koi na koi bahana karke sahil se apne naj uthwati....................aakhir thi to wo bhi ladki hi.......uske man me bhi ek kuwari ladki ke jaise sapne the....koi use pyar kare ...use toot kar chahe...uske nakhre uthaye...............koi ho jo sirf uska ho... “.......agar ammi hoti to bhi is se jyada pyar mujhe nhi karti” ....juhi ke man me kayi bar ye khyal aata ..........lagta hi nhi tha ki ye whi sahil hai jo kuchh din pahle itna bikhra bikhra sa lgata tha......ye ishq bhi na ........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. “sahil ,aap wakayi muhabbat karne ke layak ho...............”juhi apne dil me sochti .... “ ........aapki muhabbat ki shiddat se mujhe muhabbat ho gyi hai.....koi kisi ko kaise itna chah sakta hai..........kaise????.......kash aapko mujhse bhi kabhi aarti ke jaisi muhabbat ho jaye.....mai aapko uske jaisa dhokha nhi dungi sahil,,,,bas ek bar.........”juhi ne khud se kaha aur sharm ke mare apna chehra apne hatho me chuupa liya......... Aaj 19th MAY ka din tha ..........Sahil aur juhi dono ka kal pre exam tha ....................dono subah se hi padh rhe the............sham ke 6 baje gaye the aur juhi ab bahut thaki thaki si lag rhi thi............sahil ne ek bar uski or dekha........ “thak gyai na” dono eksath sofe par baithkar padh rhe the........... “hmmmmmm” juhi ne book ek taraf rakhte huye kaha.......... “thodi der aaram kar lo.........” Juhi ne kuchh nhi kaha..aur chupchap sahil ke kandhe par sar tika diya aur aankhe band kar li......... “sahil” juhi ne dheere se use pukara. “ha bolo” “sahil agr mera nhi hua to baba ko kya bolungi..........” “pagal ho kya........tumhara jaroor hoga dekh lena....aur ek bat bolu ...............jo hamse sachchi muhabbat karte hai unki muhbbat hamari safalataa ya asaflata ki mohtaj nhi hoti.........wo to bas muhabbat karte hai......fir chahe ham zindagi me kuchh hasil kar paye ya na......aur khan baba to tumse babhut jyada muhabbat karte hai............” sahil ne use pyar se samjhate huye kaha.... “sach?????” “ha bikul sach.......bas insan ko mere jaise badnaseeb nhi hona chahiye............jise kabhi sachchi muhabbat mili hi nhi...jise har muhbbat karne wala khudgarz mila.........” sahil ke labo par na chahte huye bhi ek talkhi ,ek shikwa aa gya....... “kyu meri muhabbat sachchi nhi hai ?????????” achanak juhi ke muh se naikal gya......... “kyaaaaaaaaaaa??” sahil ka muh khula ka khula rah gya.......... “meri matalab hamari dosti .......bolo kya sachchi dost nhi hu mai?????? ” juhi bhi apni bat par sann rah gyi ur kisi tarah se bat sambhalte huye boli..........wo sahil ke kandhe se alag hokar baith gyi. “tum to bahut achchhi ho juhi............tumhari jaisi dosti to na koi kar sakta hai na nibha sakta hai.......kash mai bhi kabhi zindagi me tumhare liye kuchh kar pau..........” sahil ne bhi juhi ki bat ko ignore kar diya..shayad use bhi laga ki achanak juhi ke muh se nikal gya hoga ........ “aap aisa kyu bol rhe hai......aapne to itna kiya hai mere liye........aap jaisa dost koi ho hi nhi sakta...achcha chhode in bato ko...mera kuchh khane ka mann kar rha hai..........pizza order kare.....”juhi jaldi se jaldi topic khatm karna chati thi...use dar tha ki kahi wo galti dubara se na kar de............. “nhi kal exam hai na...........kuchh ulta pulta nhi khana hai..............” sahil ne kisi bade budhe ki tarah saf mana kar diya.......... “huh...jalim zamanaa ” juhi ne ek shokhi se kaha aur muh fulaa liya...........sahil ke sath ne uske husn ko aur nikhar diya tha...ab wo bhi patar patar bolna ,ladai karna..roothanaa ...sab sikh gayi thi...........ur fir thodi der bad whi hua ...sahil usko manane me lag gya............aur juhi khus ho gyi...........kitni masoom si tamnna hoti thi uske dil ki. Subah uth kar dono taiyar huye ......aur ek dusre ko all the best bola....... Sahil aur juhi subah apne apne centre parr exam dene pahuch gaye the.........dono ne dil me ek dusre ke liye dua mangi........aur apne apne exam me lag gaye.,... Sham ko juhi pahle ghar pahuchi .......sabne puchha exam kaisa hua ........usne simple sa jawab diya........”thik hua hai...result aane par hi pata chalega..” Juhi apne kamre me baithi besabri se sahil ka intzaar ka rhi thi...........lagbhag 1 hr bad sahil bhi ghar pahucha .......seedha juhi ke room me gya......... “kaha rah gaye the aap?...paper kaisa hua.........” juhi ne use dekhte hi sawal dag diya.......... “tumhara kaisa hua.........??” “nhiii...pahle aap bataye........? “juhi kahaa man ne wali thi. “achchha hua hai...ho jayega pre me to “ sahil ki aankho me gazab ka confidence tha....... “yesss...mujhe pahle se hi pata tha..........i knew it ...ab to aap MAINS ki taiyari suru kar do....“ juhi khusi se uchhal padi.. “are tum to batao...kaisa hua ??” “thik hua hai.....umeed to hai...........”juhi ne kaha.... “ho jayega tumhara dekh lena....” sahil ne kaha..... “I hope so.............chaliye baba se milte hai niche aur fir kahi challenge ghoomne bahut time se sadi huyi books dekh dekh kar mood off ho gya........” juhi ne sahil ka baju apne hath me lete huye kaha......sahil ko thoda ajeeb laga lekin kuchh bola nhi...dono niche chal diye........ Sahil ki zindagi fir ek do rahe par aa rhi thi..........ek taraf bachpan ki muhabbat ,jisne kam se kam uski nazro me use dhokha diya tha, aur dusri taraf ek masoom si pari jiska dil todana kisi paap se kam nhi tha aur sabse jaroori bat ----jiske ahsaano ke tale sahil dabta chala ja rha tha............ Aasan si lagne wali zindagi kitni muskil ho jayegi kisi ko andaza bhi nhi tha..........kash muhaabat na hoti ........ . . . . . . .. . . to shayad kuchh bhi na hota. Lagbhag 2 months hone ko aaye the sahil aur juhi result ka wait kar rhe the aur mains ki taiyari bhi kar rhe the............juhi sahil ko ab apna samjhne lagi thi ...........un dino ke bad se sahil wakayi bikul badal gya tha...........bahut khus to nhi lagta tha lekin ab mayoosi nhi dikhti uske andar ...............ab wo khud bhi bahut mehnat karta aur juhi se bhi karwata............. khan baba ki tabiyat thodi kharab rahti thi ......aur juhi ko unki chinta hoti thi.......lekin sahil ke rahne se use bahut sahara miilta ............ wo sar se paav tak sahil ki muhbbat me doob chuki thi ....lekin kabhi kahne ka hausla nhi hua..................use lagta tha ki ek na ek din sahil ko ye ahsaas jaroor ho jayega................ Aur wakayi sahil ko ahsaas hone laga tha ki uski aur juhi ki dosti , dosti ke rishte se kuchh aage badh rhi hai lekin wo aisa nhi chahta tha...........uske dil me kya tha koi nhi janta tha ..................juhi ne bhi kabhi use kuredne ki kosis nhi ki........uski muhbabat to ek bahut pak jajba tha jisme khudgarji ka ek ansh tak nhi tha............. “Sahil “ juhi ne sahil ko pukara, dono sath baithe padh rhe the...juhi apne bed par lete huye aur sahil whi pas me rakhi chair par baithkar.......... “hmmm???” sahil jo ki books me sar gadaye huye the ,dheere se bola.......... “ek bat puchhu??” “hmmm” “kya sachmuch muhabbat bahut buri cheej hai????????” juhi ne itani masoomiyat se puchha ki sahil ko hasi aa gyi...........wo uski taraf badi gaur se dekhne laga aur muskurate huye bola.......... “achanak ye kaha se aa gyi.....” “batao na sahil ..plzzz...” juhi ne kaha. “...tumhe kya lagta hai??” Juhi sakpka gayi.........sahil ki aankho me kuchh aisa tha ki use sharm aa gyi..... “mujhe kya pata.........maine to kabhi............” “ha ,tumne to kabhi muhabbat ki nhi na.......” sahil ne uski bat puri ki,.. “’ha whi to.........” jui ne tapaak se kaha.... Sahil ne apni books ek taraf rakhi aur juhi ki or mud gaya............ “ha juhi...muhbbat bahut buri hoti hai...bahut jyada.........isme sirf gham milta hai.......jab tak muhaabt nhi hoti achcha hai....kam se kam ek bharam to rahta hai ki ye bahut pyari ,baht khoob soorat hoti hai.....lekin sachchhai aisi nhi hoti..............bahut bura rog hai.......ek bar lag gay to fir kabhi nhi jata............” sahil ne apni hari huyi mhbbat ki kahani ko sare jahaan ki muhaabt bana diya.............. Juhi puchhna chahti thi ki kya wo abhi bhi aarti se pyar karta hai lekin puchh na saki............wo nhi chahti thi ki ek bar fir se sahil udas ho.......lekin use ye puchhne ki jaroorat hi nhi padi.......... “juhi, mai bhi kabhi yhi sochta tha ki muhabbat bahut haseen jajba hai..bahut kismet wali ko naseeb hoti hai...........lekin sab dhokha hai yar.........sach to ye hai ki ye kuchh hoti hi nhi ........rishte,nate..muhbbbat ..sab matalb ki baten hai....life me sirf end matter karta hai.........agr tum life me successful ho to sare rishte hai ,aur agr tumhare paas kuchh nhi to rishte bhi nhi rahenge..........bas maine to itna hi sikha hai...................” sahil ki baten sunkar juhi ko bahut dukh ho rha tha........... “to ab aap kisliye itna hard work kar rhe ho ............aapko to pata hai na ki sab dhokha hai.........?????? ” juhi ki aawaz me pahli bar talkhi aa gyi......use ahsaas tha ki sahil aisa kyu kah rha hai.........lekin sahil ki baten use apni muhabaat ki tauhin lag rhi thi aur us se bardasht nhi hua........... “sirf isliye ki us “ BEWAFA” ko dikha saku ki mai uske bina bhi jee sakta hu,apne sapne pure kar sakta hu...” sahil bol gya,lekin is bat ko bhool gya ki agar waqt rahte juhi ki muhabbat ne uska hath na tham liya hota to shayad aaj wo zinda bhi na hota........isi muhabbat ki wo tauhin kar rha tha usi muhbbat ne ne usko ek nayi zinadgi di thi..........bas is bar muhabbat kaa rang alag tha..... ....juhi ko behad dukh hua uski bat sunkar........... “ meri dosti bhi dhokha hi hai na sahil ??” juhi ne bade bujhe man se kaha....aur apni nazre fer li....... Sahil ne uski or dekha ...juhi ki neeli aankho me aasnu bhar aaye the.....aur uske gulabi hoth fadfada rhe the....aansuo ko rokane ki bepanaah kosis kar rhi thi........... juhi janti thi ki jo kuchh sahil kah rha hai sachchai uske bahut alag hai .......sahil abhi sirf wo kah rha tha jo aarti ki “ BEWAFAI” ” us se kahlwa rhi thi..........uske man me aisa nhi tha..........lekin fir bhi uski baton se juhi ko bahut dukh pahucha tha................... sahil ko ahsaas ho gya ki juhi ko uski baton se dukh pahucha hai....... wo chair se utha aur juhi ke pas bed par baith gya............... “I m sorry ...mera iradaa tumhe hurt karne ka nhi tha............” sahil ne uski najuk si kalai apne hath me lete huye kaha.............juhi ka jabt jawab de gya aur uski aankh se ek aansu bistar par tapak gya.............. “I m sorry juhi...........” par juhi ne uski or palat kar nhi dekha.......... “tum bhi rooth jaogi to kaise jiyunga yar.............bas ek tumhi to bachi ho mere pas.........mujhe fir se akela mat karna.....” sahil ko bhi ab dukh ho rha tha....taza taza jakhm tha fir se ubhar gya............usne bade jajbati lahje me kaha..... Sahil ka itana kahna tha ki juhi ne use kheench kar apne gale se laga liya..............wo to thi hi muhaabt ki pari................sahil ki jajbati baten kasie bardasht kar pati........ “nhi sahil mai aapse naraz nhi hu........i m sorry.......mai aapko kabhi akela nhi choodungi .........kabhi bhi nhi ...” juhi sahil ke gale se lag kar rone lagi aur sahil pyar se uske reshmi balo me hath pherta raha.....thodi der bad sahil ne juhi ko alag kiya..... “juhi.sorry yar.......kisi aur ke liye....nafarat thi dil me...............tumhari dosti dhoka kaise ho sakti hai...tumhari dosti ne to ek nayi zindagi di hai mujhe...ek maksad diya ..........meri ye puri zindagi hi tumhari dosti ki amaanat hai..........” sahil ne uske hath ko pakde pakde pyar bahre lahje me kaha.... Juhi ke chehre par ek sukoon tha............ “sahil, rishte bure nhi hote.....log bure hote hai..........” “haan.......tum itani samjhdari ki bate kaise kar leti ho......achcha chalo ab padhai karo.......” Sahil ki bat par juhi halka sa muskurayi ...use pata tha ki sahil ke andar abhi bhi whi pyar bhara dil hai aur bas tamanna yhi thi ki kash wo dil ek bar mere liye bhi dhadke ......use poori umeed thi ki ye jaroor hoga...............usne apni books pakdi aur fir se dono padhai me lag gaye............. Lagbhag 1 week bad prelims ka result aa gya...........baba,sarfarz sahb ,juhi aur sahil sare log ek hi kamre me maujood the..........poora parivar computer screen par nazre jamaye huye tha................. Sahil ne site kholi aur result downloada kiya.......pahle sahil ka rol no dala gya.................. “05534” sahil ka ho gya tha...jiski ki sabko umeed thi ...............juhi khusi ke mare jhoom gayi...lekin sahil ne sabko chup karaya aur juhi ka roll no feed kiya.............uske liye juhi ka hona apne hone se jyada mayne rakhta tha......... “05670” Aur is bar sabke muh se khusi bhari kilkari nikal gayi .....juhi khan baba se lipat gayi aur sarfarza khan ne sahil ko gale se laga liya.... “sabash meri bachchi ............mujhe pata tha ki tu jaroor pass ho jayegi” khan baba ne uske mathe par choomte huye kaha....... Sarfaraz saheb ne bhi juhi ko gale se lagaa liya........... “jeete raho beta...allah tumhe lambi umar de..............” khan baba ne sahil ko gale lagate huye kaha........... “chalo sarfaraz jara sabko pata to chale ki hamari juhi ne apne sapne ki pahli seedhi par kar li hai.........” khan baba ne sarfarz sahab ke shaane par hath rakhte huye kaha...... “jee abaa” sarfaraz sahab bhi behad khus the........aur dono niche chal diye....room me sirf sahil aur juhi bache ......... “thanx sahil” juhi ne bade payr se uski or dekhte huye kaha.......... “are pagal ho kya...thanx to mujhe bolna chahiye.............aur agar tumhara nhi hoga to paap nhi lagega UPSC walo ko...............itani pyari si ladki ka dil todane ki gustakhi kaun kar sakta hai bhalaa.......”sahil bhi aaj bahut samay ke bad behad khus lag rha tha.............. Juhi ko sahil ki bat bahut achchi lag rhi thi........ “sach sahil ....baba kitne khus the.........aur abbu bhi................sachchi khusi to tabhi hoti hai jab apno ke labo par muskurahat aa jaye..............mai aaj bahut khus hu sahil ...i m really happy.............ye sab tumhari vajah se hi hua hai.......thanku ...thanku...thanku......” jhui bolti huyi sahil ke gale lag gayi.......... Sahil ko ahsaas hi nhi hua mano...........wo to juhi ki usi bat me ulajh gya tha ki.. “apno ke labo par muskurahat” ...............kash koi mera bhi apna yha hota aaj..............kash aaj wo yha hoti jo meri sabse jyada apni thi..............kashhhhhhhhhhh... Juhi jo khusi ke mare sahil ke gale lag gayi thi...........use jald hi apni galti ka ahsas hua............aur wo tejise sahil se alag ho gayi.......uski nazre sahlil ke chehre ki taraf gayi..............ek dard tha uske chehre par..........juhi ko kuchh kuchh samjh me aa rha tha........... “kya hua sahil.....”usne sahil ka hath apne hatho me lete huye kaha............... “kuchh nhi.......”sahil ne apni halat sambhalane ki nakam kosis ki............ “aarti ki yad aa rhi hai????????? “ juhi ke dil me ek dard utha........ Sahil chup rha............ “yad aa rhi hai uski ???” juhi ne fir puchha....... “haa juhi.....mujhe yad aati hai uski..........bahut yad aati hai................jab usne mujhe chhod diya to uski yaden bhi mujhe kyu nhi chhod deti...kyu mer sukoon barbad karti hai................kyu mai use bhool nhi pata hu juhi...kyu????????” sahil juhi se lipat gya.............. juhi ko laga jaise kisi ne uske sapno ka gharonada kirchi krichi bikher diya.........wo gumsum si sahil ko gale lagaye room ke bicho bich khadi thi............ “mai tumhe nhi jeet paungi sahil.............. kabhi nhi.......”juhi mano har mante huye khud se kah rhi thi........... “lekin sahil zindagi bhar muhabbat to tumse hi karungi.......chahe tum mujhe kabhi na milo........muhabbat pana ya na pana- ye to kismet ki bat hai....... lekin muhbbat karne se to mujhe koi nhi rok sakta,,,,tum bhi nhi..........” usne apne man me soch liya tha.... “sab thik ho jayega sahil mai hu na....” juhi ne sahil ko pyar se bahlate huye kaha.......... thodi der bad pure ghar me ek jashn ka sa mahol tha...............sahil lakh samjhataa ki abhi do exam aur pas karne hote hai................lekin khan baba ke liye har chhoti khusi bhi badi khusi hoti thi .............ek zindadil insaan the wo... Rat ko lagbhag 9 baj rhe the ....mid july ka mahina tha aur mansoon ne delhi me dastak de di thi...............bahar halki halki barish ho rhi thi............sare log rat ka khana kha kar ek sath baithe the............. “sahil beta,khuda ne mujhe sabkuchh diya ............bas ek bête ki kami lagti thi......tumhe pakar lagta hai wo kami bhi poori ho gyi.........bahut apne se lagte ho tum.........” sarfarz khan jo apni masroofiyat ki vajah se sab ke sath kam hi rah pate the,aaj kahi nhi gaye aur sabke sath sath baithe baithe apne dil ki bat bolte rahe...sahil unke pas hi batha tha............ “bilkul sahi kah rhe ho sarfaraz.......sahil apna hi to hai......” khan baba ne bhi hami bhari.... “baba,ye to aap logo ka pyar hai.........” sahil ko kuchh kahte na bana. Juhi bas chupchap baithi thi ..aur kabhi kabhi chor nazro se sahil ki or dekh leti.......... “juhi beta tum ek bar ajmer sharif ho aao........fir dekhna tumhara baki ke exam me bhi aaram se ho jayega.........” baba ne kaha. “par baba.....mai akele kaise.......???” juhi boli. “aree akele kyu jaogi........sarfaraz le jayega........kyu bhai..time hai aapke pas..........” baba ne puchha. “abbaa wo..wo....sahil hai na ....sahil beta agar tum thdoa sa time nikal sako to............” sarfaraz sahib ne sahil ko aage kar diya.......... “nhi...har bar bachche ko pareshan karte ho............tum khud jao...........” “abba ..wo bahut important client se meeting hai..............” Ek pal ko sab log chup ho gaye........... “baba ,agar aapki ijajat ho to mai le jata hu...agar aap is layak samjhe to...........”sahil bola.. “are kaisi bat kar rhe ho sahil beta...........tum par to hum aankh band karke bharosa karte hai.....hum tumhe beta kahte nhi mante hai sahil.........mai to bas isliye kah rha tha ki tumhe lagega ki har bar ye nalayak tumhe paresan karta hai..........agar tum ja sako to is se jyada achchhi bat kya hogi...............” khan baba ne bade apnepan se kaha. “beta mante hai to fir kaisi taklluf.......mai chala jaunga...........” “khus raho beta” khan baba ne kaha “thanx beta...mujhe pata tha tum mana nhi karoge.........” sarfarza khan ne kaha. “chalo bhai ab tum dono baten karo ya padho.............mai to chalta hu ab..............” “aayen abba.............aapko room me chhod deta hu........” Khan baba aur sarfaraz ke jane ke bad juhi aur sahil hi rah gaye the............ “”aapko to koi aitraaz nhi hai mere sath chalne me........” sahil ne juhi ko chheda. Juhi thodi Sharma si gayi..............aur naa me sar hila diya.. “Thik hai fir kl taiyar rahna...........good night” sahil bolta hua bahar nikal gaya...... “good night” juhi ne kaha.. “tum ek bar kah kar to dekho mai zindagi bhar ke liye sath chal dungi sahil “ juhi ne uske jane ke bad dheere se kaha......... Dusre din sahil aur juhi ajmer sharif pahuche........khud ki car se aaye the........driver sath me tha lekin ajmer sharif me wo kisi jan pahchan wale ke yha chala gya tha aur juhi aur sahil dono dargaah par aa gye the......... Juhi ne sahil ke liye aur sahil ne juhi ke liye dua mangi.......... “ye mere maula..........sahil ko sachchi muhbbat mil jaye...........bas itna karam karna..........” juhi ne dua ki . .......dua usne sachchi muhabbat ki mangi thi .........apni muhabbat ki nhi.............kitna payar aur sachcha jajba tha uske dil me........... “ai malik ,juhi ka sapna poora kar dena..........uska sapna nhi tootna chahiye,,,mere hisse me agar koi khusi ho to wo bhi is masoom si pari ke hisse me kar dena ...........ek aur rahmat karna..meri aarti ko salamat rakhna...use mafi de dena..........bas mujhe aur kuchh nhi chahiye......” sahil ke dil se aaj bhi aarti ke liye dua hi nikli thi .........wo lakh kahe use bewafa...............lekin muhabbat itani aasani se nhi marti ..... Sahil aur juhi bahar nikla rahe the ki ek faker ne hath faila diya.......... “parwar digar aap dono ki Jodi banaye rakhe beta.....bahut khoobsoorat joda banaya hai upar wale ne aap dono ka............zindagi phulo si mahke aap dono ki.........bal bachche salamat rahe aapke...fakeer ki kuchh madad kar beta......” juhi to mano sharm ke gad si gayi....par use achchh laga tha...dil chah rha tha juhi ka bas ye pal yhi rook jaye...........usne dil me soch kash fakeer baba aapki bat sach ho jaye...aur kuchh paise nikal kar fakeer ke hath par rakh diye......... “sada sukhi raho beta.....allha aapke shouhar ko lambi umar de.......... aapke pariwar me barakkat de..........babu sahib, bachcho ke nam ki dua karwa lijiye....... “ faker ne kaha.. Sahil ke bardasht se ab bahar ho rha tha...........aur idhar bachcho ka nam sunkar juhi ka gal ekdam se lal ho gaye..........wo jaise khud me hi simat si gayi........... “ye chupchap nikal idhar se........kisne kaha ki hum shadi shuda hai.....” usne gusse se kaha . “babu sahib, nikah nhi hua to ho jayega...........meri duaaaaa....” uski bat adhoori hi rah gayi.... “band kar apni bakwas....hmmmmm....chal nikal..”usne buri tarah se jhad diya ...bechara fakeer apnsa muh lekar aage badh gya.. Juhi ko bada majaa aaya tha ye jhadap sun kar ...sahil ka gussa hona use aur bhi majja de rha tha..........par dil ke kisi kone me ek halki si tees uthi thi.....kashhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Sahil ne ek bar juhi ki or dekha...wo niche ki taraf dekhte huye muskura rhi thi..........sahil ko samjh me nhi aay ki kya bole.........kafi bhid thi us jagah par... “chalo ............jane kaha kaha se aa jate hai.. ’ usne juhi ki kalai pakdi aur age badh gaya......... “sahil aap is tarah gusse me hote ho to bahut cute lagte ho.” Juhi ne zara sa use chhed diya....... “hummm...usne pahle hi bahut mood kharab kar diya hai ..ab tum aur mat karo..............” sahil ne kaha aur juhi ka hath pakde aage badhta raha.... Jahaa bhid jyada hoti sahil juhi ka hath chhodkar use dono or se hath failakar apane baho ke ghere me le leta aur age badhne ki kosis karta........juhi ko bahut achcha lag rha tha.....wo khud ko bahut mahfooj mahsoos kar rhi thi............kash ye safar kabhi khatm na ho............uske dil me bas yhi aawaz uth rhi thi............... Kashhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.............juhi ka dil is kashh ki kahani se aage nhi badh paa rha tha.......ya shayd uski kismet use aage badhne nhi de rhi thi......... “mai tumhe pane ki har kosis karungi sahil.........agar meri kismet me hi tum na huye to apni kisamt se to nhi lad sakti na.””” Juhi ko sahil ke sath chalnaa bahut achchha lag rha tha...... “zindagi kitni aasan ho jaye agr in majboot baho ka sahara meri kismat ban jaye........” juhi ke dil me ek kasak si uth rhi thi.......... Sahil in ab socho se door juhi ko bachate huye bhhed se nikalne ki kosis kar rha tha.......... Achanak ek jor ka shor hua aur bheed me bhagdad mach gayi..............sab log teji se idhar udhar bhagne lage.....shayd kisi ne koi afwah faila di thi ...lekin ek bar jo log bhagna suru huye to fir kise parwah thi ki sachchai hai ya afwah.......... Sahil ka hath juhi se chhut gya aur juhi pichhe chhutne lagi....log teji se aage ki or bhag rhe the aur sahil pichhe ki or daudane ki kosis kar rha tha............juhi pichhe hi rah gayi thi................kisis tarah se sahil pichhe badh rha tha...lekin juhi kahi nazar nhi aa rhi thi.................. Idhar juhi ek kone me dubki ro rhi thi..........uske left pair me chot aayi thi aur wo chal nhi paa rhi thi bhagne ki to bat hi bahut door thi.............. “sahil ...kaha ho aap...........sahil............plzzzz....” wo ro rhi thi aur sahil ko pukar rhi thi...........juhi ka phone bhi bheed me kahi gir gaya tha.............. sahil bhi badhwas sa use dundh rha tha.........bheed bahut jyada badh gayi thi aur puri afara-tafri jaisa mahaul ban gaya tha.........sahil ka dimag bhi kam nhi kar rha tha aur wo juhi ko dhundhata hua dusri or nikal gya............ sahl ki aankhe bhi bhar aayi ..........”plz god aisa kuchh mat karna ki mai fir se kise apne ko kho du.......agar juhi ko kuchh ho gya to kaun sa muh lekar jaunga mai khan baba ke pas ...........nhi .use kuchh nhi hoga........ek dost to mai pahle hi kho chukka hu...ab fir se nhi kho sakta........” sahil paglo ki tarah idhar udhar juhi-juhi pukar rha tha........ “kaha ho sahil aap...plzz aa jo mujhe bahut dar lag rha hai..........khuda plz..mere sahil k mila do........sahil...sahl...kaha ho aap.........” juhi ab bahut tej tej ro rhi thi aur bheed me chillate bhagte log ghur ghur kar uski or dekh rhe the............ ‘chal mai le chalta hu tujhe....ae police hai udhar ..chal unke pas.......wo pahucha denge tujhe.......” ek gunde se dikhne wale aadami ne uska hath pakda......juhi ki to mano jan hi nikal gayi.......wo buri tarah sse dar gayi ....hath chuddane ki nakam kosis kar rhit hi...lekin us kale kaloote aadami se chhut pana us najuk kali ke liye impossible hi tha..............koi bhi uski or dhyan nhi de rha tha aur sab jidhar jagah mil rhi thi bhag rhe the............... Juhi ab buri tarah se ro rhi thi aur chilla rhi thi..........”sahil ..plz bacha lo .....sahillllll” uske gale se jor ki cheekh nikli ...aur mano uski dua khuda ne sun li........... Wo gunde jaisa dikhne wala aadmi lagbhag use ghassetane hi wala tha ki “juhiiiiiiiiiiii” sahil badhawas sa bhagta hua use aata dikha............ “sahillll” juhi jor jor se rone lagi sahil ko dekhkar........ Sahil pas pahucha hi tha ki ..........wo gunda cheekhte huye bola........... “sale zinda rahna chahta hai to chuchap nikal le...........” Sahil to use juhi ko daboche dekhkar hi mano pagal ho gaya .........usne us gunde ki bat suni bhi nhi shayad ...dan-danaate huye uske pas pahucha aur sahil ka jordar ghunsa uske jabde ko tod gaya............. Sahil ke sar par jaise khoon sawar ho gya tha ,aur wo gunda uska jabardast ghunsa kha kar ek taraf ludhak gaya...sahil ne ghunso aur laton ki barsata kar di............ “kamine teri himaat kaise huye meri juhi ko chhune ki............chhua kaise tune ise........” Wo gunda bhi sahil se tagada hi tha lekin sahil ke gusse ke age uski ek na chali....use sambhalane tak ka mauka nhi diya sahil ne.......... Buri tarah se peet rha tha sahil use...uski nak aur muh se khoon nikalne laga tha...sahil ka ye roop dekhkar juhi whi pas me padi huyi kaap rhi thi........... “sale meri juhi ko chhua tune, teri jaan le lunga mai.........” sahil ke hath nhi rook rhe the,. “Sahil chhod do use...mar jayega ........plz....” juhi sachmuch bahut dar gayi thi............aur bahut tej tej ro rahi thi.........wo gunda sachmuch adhmara ho chukka tha................aur shayad behosh bhi........ “sahil plz.....tumhe meri kasam ...chhodo use............”juhi lagbhag cheekhte huye boli....sahil ne juhi ki or dhokha...gunde ke chehre par ek jor ki lat mari aur juhi ki or badh gya................. Sahil ne jhuk kar juhi ke sar par hath rakha aur juhi us se lipat kar buri tarah se bilakh kar rone lagi.............. “chup ho jao juhi plz.....mai aa gya hu na ...kuchh nahi hoga tumhe........plzzz chup ho jao.......”sahil dheere dheere uske balo me hath ferta hua use tasalii de rha tha aur juhi uske chaude seene me muh chhupaye buri tarah se bilakh rhi thi.......... “sahil aap nhi aate to.............”...juhi ne sar uthakar sahil ki or dekha..........aur ek bar fir se rone lagi...... “kuchh nhi hota tumhe...........aag laga deta mai jamane ko aur is khuda ko bhi agar tumhe kuchh ho jata to”” ........... sahil ne usko apne bajuo me bheenchate huye pyar se uske sar ko chum liya........juhi ka dil ek pal ke liye bahut jor se dhadka....... Bheed ab chhat chuki thi aur kafi sari police aur CRPF us jagah pahuch chuki thi..........condition abhi bhi bahut tanav poorn thi...... Juhi sahil ko pakad kar khadi huyi lekin us se chala nhi ja rha tha...........usne majboor hokar sahil ki or dekha......sahil ne bhi uski aankho me dekha aur fir use apne bajuo me utha liya...........juhi thoda jhijhak rhi thi fir usne dheere se sahil ke gale me bahe dal di............... uske dil me sahil ki whi bate chal rhi thi......”aag laga deta mai jamane ko agar tumhe kuchh ho jata to” .........sahil ki har bat par juhi ka dil uski or jhukta ja rha tha........”.thank u sahil “ usne man hi man kaha aur halki si muskurahat uske labo par aa gyi.......... Juhi lagatar sahil ke chehre ki or dekh rhi thi ...............lekin sahil uski or nahi dekh rha tha....wo use uthaye aasani se aage badhata ja rha tha...........lagbhag 10 minute chalne ke bad sahil juhi ko lekar road par pahuch gaya................ Sahil ne ek taxi wale ko roka aur kisi hotel me chalne ko kaha.............karib 30 minute ki drive ke bad sahil aur juhi ek thik thak se hotel ke kamre me the...............dono ke bich koi bat nhi huyi thi.....juhi abhi bhi sadme me thi aur sahil ko apni galti lag rhi thi...........jabki reality me to uski koi galti thi hi ni.......... Sahil ne juhi ke liye juice order kiya ......aur reception se bat karke ek doctor ko bhi bulaya..........Dr ne juhi ko dekha aur bataya ki koi khas problem nhi hai bas kuchh hi dino me khud hi sahi ho jayegi............aur kuchh medicine dekar chala gya............. Din ke lagbhag 3 baj rhe the ...........juhi dawa khakr bed par leti thi aur sahil whi pas me rakhe sofe par baitha tha.............usne apna phone nikala...........sarfaraz sahib ki 16 missed calls thi ....usne fauran hi unhe phone lagaya........ “sahil ,kaha the tum ...phone kyu nhi utha rhe the..juhi ka phone band ja rha hai...thik to ho tum dono...wha kya hua hai...television par dikha rha hai ki curfew lag gya...”sarfaraz sahib ne phone uthate hi sawalo ki jhadi lagaa di.............. Sahil ne unhe sari bat detail me batayi...bas ladai wali bat ko chhodakar............... “tum log thik to ho na beta.....juhi kaisi hai.........kaha ho tum log....” “jee uncle hum bikul thik hai...aap paresan mat ho..........hm ek hotel me ruke hai.............juhi abhi abhi soyi hai...............kahe to bat karau............” “nhi rahne do,,,, achcha suno..........mahol thik nhi hai.........agar wo jagah thik ho to aaj whi rook jao.....tum kya kahte ho......” “jee , jaisa aap kahe..........” “sahil aaj whi rook jao beta, .....” “ jee uncle...........” “ meri juhi ka khyal rakhna sahil ............” “jee uncle aap paresan na ho...............” Sarfaraz sahib ne use kuchh aur hidayate di aur phone rakh diya..............sahil whi sofe par pada pada late gaya............. Sahil ke aankh kab lag gayi use pata hi nhi chala...........lagbhag 8 baje rat ko uski needn khuli........sahil ne dekha juhi abhi bhi so rhi thi.........usne khane ka order kiya aur juhi ko jagane laga............ “juhi...juhi .......”do bar bulane ke bad bhi usne aankhe nhi kholi..... Sahil ne dheere se uske sar par hath rakha..........juhi ka badan bahut garam tha.....use tej bukhar tha...........sahil ne ek bar fir se reception par phone karke doctor ko bhejne ko bola.............. Juhi ne muh par pani ki chheeten padne par dheere se aankh kholi...uski aankhe ekdam lal ho rhi thi...samne sahil aur whi Dr khade the................ “tumhe thoda fever hai juhi...isiliye dr ko bula liya.......” sahil ne kaha. Thodi der bad dr use kuchh medicine dekar chala gya...........juhi ko sahil ke sath ek khusi ka ahsas ho rha tha....lekin uska sar bahut bhari bhari sa tha aur us se bikul bhi utha nhi ja rha tha............ Thodi der bad khane ka order aa gya......... “chalo kha lete hai..mujhe bahut tej bhookh lagi hai............”sahil ne pet pakdte huye kaha..... “sahil aap kha le....mera man nhi kar rha hai...........” juhi boli. “thoda sa kha lo....dawa khani hai na...........” Juhi kuchh nhi boli.........sahil juhi ke pas hi baith gya aur dono dinner karne lage........... Sahil ne apne khane me hath lagaya hi tha ki ek aah si nikli uske muh se.......... Sahil ke hath me ladai karte samay chot lag gayi thi aur hath kayi jagah se chheel gya tha...lekin tab use pata nhi chala tha...jaise hi shayd mirch lagi chot par ,wo karah utha.......... “kya hua....” Sahil ne apna hath pakad liya..........”kuchh nhi.......” “dikhaiye idhar..........oh khuda..........aapko to bahut chot aayi hai...mai abhi doctor ko phone karti hu........” “nhi rahne do..........mai thik hu.......” Sahil badi muskil se thoda thoda uthakar kha rha tha........... “mai khila deti hu......” Juhi ne ek nivala liya aur uske muh ki taraf badha diya...sahil ne uski or dekha... “nhi ..mai khud kha lunga.........” “plzzzz...” juhi ne request ki....... “maine kaha na kha lunga mai..........” sahil ne thode gusse se kaha.....juhi chup ho gayi .par hath usne abhi bhi badhaye rakha............sahil ne bebas hokar uski or dekha...mano puchh raha ho ki kyu kar rhi ho ye sab........... fir usne muh khola aur juhi ke hath se khane laga.........juhi ke man me ek ajeeb si khusi ho rhi thi......... Khane ke bad juhi ne dawa khayi aur bed par baith gayi...kamre me bed ek hi tha..........to use samjh me nhi aa rha tha......... “kya hua let jao..mai yhi sofe par so jaunga...........”sahil ne kaha aur sofe apr baith gya... Juhi ne shukriya bhari najro se uski or dekha aur fir dheere se letakr aankhe band karli.............. Sahil bhi let gaya....rat me sahil ke needn khuli...use kise ke karahne ki aawaz aa rhi thi.............sahil ne time dekha....rat ke 2 baj rhe he...usne uth kar night bulb on kiya............juhi ke muh se dheere dheere karahane ki aawaz aa rhi thi.............. Sahil dheere dheere chalta hua uske pas pahucha........juhi ke chehre par ek msoomiyat bikhri thi.......wo thi hi itani najuk aur aaj ki ghatna ke bad se bahut dari dari si lag rhi thi aur fever bhi isi vajah se shayad hua tha.............sahil ne aage badhakr uske mathe ko chhua ..........juhi ko fir se bahut tej bukhar tha................aur isi vajah se wo karah bhi rhi thi................... Sahhil ko kuchh samjh me nhi aay ki iatni rat ko kya kare..........fir usne apna hanky nikala aur pani me bhigo kar uske mathe par rakhne laga..............juhi kuchh hosh aur kuchh behoshi ke se aalam me thi......use fir bhi itana to pata chal gya tha ki ye sahil hai....... aur itana hi kafi tha.............. Subah ke 6 baj chuke the ............juhi ki neend khuli to usne dekha ki sahil ki aankhe band thi aur abhi bhi whi baitha uske sar par pattiya rakh rha tha.............uski aankho se aansu nikal gya................. “kaise koi itna sachcha aur itna achchha ho sakta hai.........aye khuda is farishte ko meri kismet me likh de ......tujhse aur kuchh nhi mangungi...”juhi ne aansuo ki ladi ki bich ek dua mangi.... kahte hai subah ka dekha hua sapna aur subah ki mangi huyi dua – dono sach ho jate hai..............kya juhi ke sath bhi asia

UPDATE 15 Diary me last post ek din pahle ki thi aur uske niche ek dardnak ghazal ki chand panktiya likhi huyi thi………….. chamakte chand ko tuta hua tara bana dala meri aawargi ne mujhko aawara bana dala bada dilkash bada rangeen hai yeh shehar kehte hain yahan par hain hazaron ghar gharon mein log rehte hain mujhe is shehar ne galiyon ka banjara bana dala chamkte chand……… main is duniya ko aksar dekh kar hairaan hota hun na mujhse ban saka chhota sa ghar,din raat rota hun khudaya tune kaise ye jahan sara bana dala chamakte chand................... mere malik, mera dil kyun tadapta hai, sulagta hai teri marzi , teri marzi pe kiska zor chalta hai kisi ko gul, kisi ko tune angara bana dala chamakte chand................... yehi aagaz tha mera, yehi anjam hona tha mujhe barbaad hona tha, mujhe nakaam hona tha mujhe taqdeer ne taqdeer ka mara bana dala chamakte chand......................... Mera anjaam yhi hona tha………..Mai haar gayaa aarti ………ab aur ladne Ka dil nhi karta…..…bahut yad aa rhi hai tumhari……………bas ek baar aa jao na…… plzzzzzzzzzzzzz… ____SAHIL. Juhi ne poori diary padh li thi aur chupchap band karke wapas usi tarah se rakh diya….sahil ke certificate rakhte huye achanak uski nazar 10th ke certificate par padi…………14 /02/****…….sahil ki date of birth….yani kal sahil ka birthday hai…………par kal to valentine day bhi hai…….life me pahli bar juhi ke dil me ek mithi si kasak uthi thi is VALENTINE DAY ke nam par……is se pahle is khas din ka koi khas value nhi tha uski life me…………juhi ne sare certificates rakhe aur sahil ka room band karke wapas aa gyi……….. Is samay juhi apne room me gumsum baithi thi…………diary ke bare me hi soch rhi thi……………..sahil ne apne bachpan se lekar abhi tak ki kahani likhi thi …………jyadatar baten bachpan se jawani tak aarti aur uski nok jhok aur fir unki dosti aur fir ekdusre se pyaar ki thi…………….sahil ne apni padhai se related bhi kafi kuchh likha tha………aur har din ke ant me ek sawal likha tha…………….. “tumne aisa kyu kiya aarti ????” “AARTI ?””” kyu kiya usne aisa ?????.....ye sawal to ab juhi ke man me bhi uth rha tha……chahe vajah jo bhi rhi ho aarti , tumne jo kiya hai wo mafi ke layak nhi hai….kabhi nhi.------juhi ke dil ne to faisla bhi suna diya. “Kitna struggle kiya hai sahil ne…………suru se hi……..sahil deserve karta hai …uske jaise logo ko hi IAS officer ban na chahiye………mai to sirf pre na qualify kar pane par itani dukhi huyi thi….par wo to interview tak pahuch kar wapas aa gya………mere pas to suru se hi har facility thi lekin usne to apni education gaon me puri ki …….koi bhi coaching ya guidance nhi mila hoga use……….….aur fir itani shiddat se ki gayi muhabbat me nakami ??????…….ufff…kitna dard hai sahil ki zindagi me…………uski uadsi me kitna dard hai .??????.........kitani na-umeed hai wo aankhe……….” Juhi ka dil sahil ke liye tadap utha. “aaj bhi aisi muhabbat karne wale hai is dharti par???? Yakeen nhi hota…………….” juhi socho ke smandar se nikal nhi paa rhi thi ……….. “.sahil ko mai wapas laungi……mai uski aankho ko fir se wo sapna dekhne aur use poora karne ka hausla dungi…………sahil zindagi nhi rookti hai ye mai samjhaungi tumhe…………zindagi me ek insaan bura hota hai lekin puri zindagi ko uski sajaa nhi milni chahiye……….tumne muhabbat ka ek kala rang dekha hai…mai tumhe muhabbat ke sare rang dikhaungi……itna pyar dungi ki tumhe zindagi me kabhi us bewafaa ki yad bhi nhi aayegi….” Juhi ke dil me sahil ke liye bahut hamdardi ho gyi thi………..Tabhi dimag ke kisi hisse se bagahwat ki aawaz aayi………… “ye mai kya soch rhi hu……sahil aur mai???? Kya mai sahil se muhabbat…………???...nhi…nhi…bas hamdardi hai…………….lekin dil …………..”aur juhi apne hi dimag aur dil ki jung me fas si gyi thi………. “jo bhi ho insaaniyat ke nate hi sahi….ye farz hai mera ki mai ek bar to kosis karu ki wo fir se jeena sikh jaye……….mai ye kosis jaroor karungi………” juhi ne dil ki bat mani aur dimag ko thodi der ke liye chup kara diya……..muhabbat to ho gyi thi use sahil se bas abhi accept nhi kar paa rhi thi………. juhi ki duniya abhi tak sirf apni do logo ki family aur kuchh dosto tak hi rahi thi……muhabbat jaisi koi cheej uski zindagi me kabhi aayi nhi thi ……….usne is najariye se na kabhi kisi ke bare me socha tha aur na hi sochana chaha tha…..shayad yhi wajah thi ki wo abhi tak ye maan nhi rahi thi ki use bhi muhabbat ho gyi……….. juhi soch rhi thi aur usne nischay kar liya tha ki wok kam se kam ek bar to jaroor kosis karegi……………par is kosis ki suruwat kaise kare…???.....achanak uske dil me khyal aaya……..kal to valentine day hai……….? Haa To ??????? fir mano usne khud se hi sawal kiya,…….uski aankho jhuk gyi,,,,sharm se……..mai bhi kya sochati hu………..lekin kl sahil ka B,day bhi to hai…………ha yhi thik rahega…………juhi apni soch par khus ho gyi…..jane kyu ek sukoon sa mil rha tha use…… “sahil duniya bahut khoobsoorat hai aur zinadgi us se bhi khubsoorat ………zindagi me har rang hona chahiye aur tumhare zindagi me ab kale rango ka waqt khatm ho gya…….sahil tum bahut achche ho aur tumhare liye khuda ne kuchh bahut achchha socha hoga………..tumhari zindagi me koi aisa aayega jo itani khusi dega ki tum apne sare gham bhool jaoge…dekh lena….” Juhi apne aap se bate kar rhi thi….aur aakhiri bat par na chahte huye bhi wo Sharma gayi aur uske laal gal gulabi ho gaye. Sahil kafi rat huye wapas aaya……….main gate khulne ki aawaz se JUHI ne khidki se bahar dekha….sahil ki chaal dekhkar aisa lag rha tha ki usne sharab pee rakhi hai………lekin juhi ke pas koi tarika nhi tha confirm karne ka……..usne chupke se apna darwaza khola aur chalte huye niche aa gyi……..hath me ek book li huyi thi ki agar kisi ne puchha to kah degi ki kuchh puchhna tha…… use fir bhi dar lag rha tha……lekin kya karti dil ke hatho majboor thi… Juhi sahil ke room me pahuchi...........aur apne bed par leta hua tha……..pairo me abhi bhi shoes the aur uske hath me ek tasweer thi jise wo dekh rha tha…….juhi ke aane ke aahat se uth baitha……….. “aao juhi……..kaisi ho…….…kuchh padhna tha tumhe…kl padh lena ……” sahil ki aawaz se saf pata chal rha tha ki usne pee rakhi hai……….juhi ka shaq sahi sabit hua… “sahil aapne drink kiya hai???..sharab pee hai aapne???” juhi uske pas bed par baithte huye boli. “sahil kuchh puchh rhi hu mai” use kuchh na bolta dekhkar juhi ne gusse se kaha… “haa pee hai maine….tumhe kya…..ho kaun tum………jao yha se ” sahil ne lagbhag chillate huye kaha. Juhi ka dil chaha uth kar abhi bhag jaye…kuchh palo ke liye wo dar gyi……..lekin use sahil ki halat ka andaaza tha…...wo chahte huye bhi uthkar na ja saki………..sahil ne apni aankhe band karli………… “sahil plzz…shor mat karo……...mai kuchh khane ko lati hu aapke liye…..” juhi uthate huye boli… “nhi …ruko”sahil ne uska hath pakad liya…juhi ke sharir me jaise jhurjhuri si daud gyi…….wo mano boot ban gyi… “kyu kar rhi ho tum ye sab” sahil ko mano hosh aa gya aur usne jhat se juhi ka hath chhod diya….. “aapko vajah batana mai jaroori nhi samjhti” juhi ne kaha aur fir chuchap room se nikal gyi….. Thodi der bad wo wapas aayi ……...uske hath me plate me khane ki kuchh cheeje aur kuchh fruits rakhe the……….muhabbat aisi hi hoti hai……..har dar khatm kar deti hai insaan ke andar se…duniya ka samaj ka …zindagi ka aur maut ka bhi…jo juhi thod der pahle book lekar aane me dar rhi thi sahil ke room me ki koi dekh na le…whi ab hane ki plate lekar bekhauf aa gyi thi……..ye bat aur thi ki juhi sab kuchh jante huye bhi maan nhi rahi thi ki use bhi ISHQ ka rog lag gaya hai…………… Sahil uski or gaur se dekh rha tha…….uska sara nasha mano utar gya tha……….. Juhi ne sahil ke aage plate badha di………… “ab khilana bhi padega kya aapko”usne thoda sa muskurate huye kaha. Sahil kuchh nhi bola……..aur chuchap khane lagaa……..juhi whi uske paas baith gayi aur use khate huye dekhne lagi…..………kuchh nivale hi khaye the usne ki use jor ki hichaki aayi aur juhi ne pani ka glass uthakr uske hotho se lagaa diya………….sahil ne do ghoont pani piya aur utne hi aansu uski aankho se nikal gaye…………use aarti yad aa gyi …itani care to kkeval aarti karti thi uski……………. “kya hua….sabji tikhi hai” juhi ne anjaan bante huye kahaa….. “juhi….…mujhe uski yad aati hai…..bolo na use ki laut aaye” kuchh hosh aur kuchh behoshi ke se aalam me sahil ne kaha aur juhi ke gale se lagkar betahasha rone lagaa…use to ye bhi khabar na thi ki juhi ko aarti ke bare me pta nhi hoga…… Juhi ki samjh me nhi aa rha tha ki wo sahil se kya bole…………..wo chup chap use apne kandhe par tikaye uske sar par hath pherti rahi….. “sahil chup ho jao aap…plz…..aapko bahut majboot ban na hai….bahut aage badhna hai aapko………..” “nhi hu mai majboot……..mujhe kuchh nhi chahiye…………mujhe kuchh nhi ban na hai…mujhe bas meri aarti chaiye…mujhe meri aarti laa do juhi…plz…..bolo na use ki aa jaye…..plz….” juhi ke kandho se lagaa wo kisi bachche ki tarah bilakh rha tha….. Juhi kuchh nhi kar paa rhi thi…..usne sahil ko rone diya…..wo chahti thi ki wo ro le aur uske dil ka dard shayad kuchh kam ho jaye,……….. Thodi der bad sahil sambhala ……juhi k kandhe se alag hua aur kisi mujhrim ki tarah nazre jhuka li………..juhi ne apne hath me ek nivala uthaya aur uske hotho ki or badha diya……..sahil ne muh nhi khola…. “plzzzzzzzzzzz” juhi ne uski aankho me dekhte huye kaha. Sahil chupchap uske hath se khane lagaa. Sahil kha kar baitha tha juhi ne plates uthaye aur darwaze ki or badhi … “sorry” sahil ki aawaz uske kano me padi..wo fir pichhe mudi sahil ki or aa gyi…………. “kis bat ke liye…………mai kaun hoti hu jo aap mujhe sorry bol rhe hai” juhi boli. Sahil chup raha….. “Subah bat karenge”” juhi ne kaha aur bahar nikal gayi……… Sahil khud par naraz hone lagaa….......itane dino se dil me chhupa dard aaj aakhir bahar aa hi gya tha………usne soch liya tha ki ab juhi se iske bare me aur koi bat nhi karega. Sahil is bat se puri tarah anjaan tha ki juhi ne uski diary padh li hai……ye din bhi roj ki tarah hi bita....juhi nahi aayi …aur sahil ko yakeen ho chala ki shayad jo kuchh bhi hua sham ko juhi uske bare me nhi puchhegi……jane kyu juhi se dar sa lagta tha use……uske apnepan se ,uski sadgi se aur uski massomiyat se …. Sham ke karib 5 baje the thand ke din hone ke vajah se andhera ho gya tha…sahil yuhi apne bistar par leta hua tha aur zindagi ke achchhe dino ko yad kar rha tha……. Tabhi darvaze par kisi ne aawaz ki…. “jee khan baba?” “sahil beta juhi ne bulaya hai tumhe ……..shayad tum aaj padhane jana bhool gaye…” “jee aap chale mai aata hu…..” “beta mai to kahi aur ja rha hu…pass me ek rishtedar rahte hai unke yha kisi ki death ho gyi hai…mai driver ko lekar ja rha hu…2-3 ghante me aa jaunga…sarfaraz bhi ghar par nhi hai…tum ho isliye ja rha hu …jara dhyan dena “ baba ne use samjhate huye kaha. “jee” sahil kabhi bhi khan baba ko na nhi kah pata tha… Sahil koi 15 minute bad andar pahucha………juhi use apne room ke bahar bani balkani me hi baithi mil gayi …aankho par chasma lagaye ek book ko god me rakhe mano usi ka intzaar kar rhi thi………… Sahil bhi pas rakhi chair par baith gya…..”suru kare” usne normal se lahje me kahaa. “jee …aap zara ek minute rooke mai abhi aati hu…” Sahil chup ho gaya aur juhi room ke andar chali gayi ………..lagbhag 10 minute bad andar se hi uski aawaz aayi…. “sahil plz ek minute andar aayenge??” Sahil ne kuchh nhi kaha aur door ko halka sa dhakka dekar andar dakhil ho gya…….. Kamre ke bicho bich ek bade se table par ek behad khoobsoorat cake rakha tha aur uske charo or candles jal rhi thi………cake par likha tha …………….. “Happy B,day,sahil” Sahil ke dil me ek anjaani si khusi huyi ,,,,use to khud bhi yad nhi tha ki aaj uska janmdin hai…..aarti ko kaise pata chal ye uske khyal me hi nhi aaya…shayad isliye qki sahi mayano me to bahut dino bad use khusi ki ek boond naseeb huyi thi…………lekin usne koi khusi jhir nahi ki…mano khus ho gya to koi paap ho jayega…………. candles abhi jal nhi rahi thi ………… “happy b’day sahil…” juhi jo pas me hi kahdi thi muskurte huye uski or badhi aur use wish kiya.…………uske hath me ek shopper tha. “ye sab kya hai juhi……mai apna b,day nhi manata” sahil ne bina kisi khusi ka ijhar kiye kaha….. “koi bat nhi…is bar aap mana le….aur ye lijiye” juhi ne apne hath me pakda hua shopper sahil ko pakda diya. “juhi ….??dekho mujhe ye sab pasand nhi….plz chhodo ye sab aur chalo study karo…………..” “Sahil plzz….” Juhi ki aankho me ek iltiza thi …sahil use ab aur manaa nhi kar sakta tha…..chahta to bhi nhi…. “kya hai isme ? ” sahil ne puchha. “aapke liye dress hai…hamare yha janmdin par naye kapde dilate hai…mujhe baba dilate hai to maine aapke liye le liye…plzz aap pahan kar aaiye na…. fir cake kat te hai….” juhi ne badi hasrat bhari nazro se uski or dekhte huye kahaa. Sahil attached bathroom m ghus gya…shopper me ek navy blue shirt thi aur ek black jeans…sahil kapde pahankar bahar aaya…uska man to nhi kar rha tha …lekin juhi ki vajah se wo ye sab kar rha tha…use yad tha ki rat me hi usne juhi ke sath bahut galat bartav kiya tha…… “looking very dashing” juhi ne tariff bahri nazro se sarahate huye kaha. “thank u…plz tum mere liye ab kabhi kuchh mat lana nhi to mai lunga nhi….” “wo bad me decide kar lenge” juhi ne maje se kaha…”chalo aap cake kato …meri muh me to abhi se pani aa rha hai …” Sahil ne cake kata…aaj bahut dino bad use kise apnepan ka ahsas ho rha tha……uski aankho me kuchh nami thi lekin usne jahir nhi hone diya…..juhi ne apne hatho se use cake khilaya aur ek gaift pack jabardasti use pakda diya……….. Thodi der bat sahil juhi ke sath bahar baitha tha….sahil jane kyu juhi se nazre chura rha tha……. “kya hua…..janmdin par udas hona achchhi bat nhi …”juhi boli… Sahil kuchh nhi bola bas jabardasti muskura diya….. “padhai suru kare “ sahil ne kaha. “aaj mood nhi hai…kal thoda jyada padh lenge…….” “thik hai fir mai a rha hu “sahil ne lagbhag uthate huye kaha. “thodi der baithiye na…” Sahil fir se wapas baith gya………….. Juhi ko samajh me nhi aa rha tha ki kaha se bat suru kare …………….aakhir usne suru kiya… “sahil kya hm dost ban sakte hai….mera koi dost nhi hai ???? ” juhi ne kaha.. “sahil ko laga kisi ne ukse jakhmo ko kured diya………….tadap sa gya wo……. “nhiii…nhi ban sakte ham dost ..mai kuchh nhi ban sakta kisi ka…..mujhe nafrat hai rishto se …bahut jyada nafarat….mai sirf nafart karna janata hu……sabse….…duniya se …tumse bhi ….samjhi tum….” Sahil lagbhag dahadta hua bola. “sahillll”juhi mano dar gyi … Sahil ne uske dono kandho ko pakad liye…..uski aankho me aansu the aur chehre par nafart ..juhi ko samjh me nhi aa rha tha ki yakeen kiska kare …aankho ke aansuo ka ya chehre ki nafrat ka……………. “dosti,pyar ,rishte- nate…sab dhokha hai…sab kuchh bas dhokha hai…sab matlab ki duniya hai…..samjhi tum …samjhi????” sahil ne usko pichhe ki taraf dhakka diya aur niche chal diya….. Juhi thodi der sakte me rahi ….use sahil se dar lagne laga tha un kuchh palo me…..lekin use samjh me aa rha tha ki jab insane tootane ke bahut karib hota hai tab wo majboot dikhne ki kosis karta hai…sahil ab doobane hi wala tha…agar wo thode din tak aur isi hal me rha to fir shayad kabhi sambhal nhi sakega….juhi ko uski tanhai ka andaza ho rha tha…..use sahil ki condition par bahut chinta ho rh thi….kya karu mai sahil ke liye…… “aarti ! ek bar ko allah tumhe maf kar de lekin mai to poori zindagi tumhe maf nhi karoongi….ek mukammal insaan ki zindagi tabaah kar di tumne …””” …aaj dusri bat juhi ke dil se baddua nikli thi aarti ke liye…. Juhi niche jakar dekhna chahti thi sahil ko …lekin use thoda dar bhi lag rha tha……… tabhi uski nazar us gift pack par padi ….karib 20 minute bad juhi niche sahil ke room ki taraf chal di…uske hath me whi gift pack tha jo sahil andar hi chhod aay tha……… Darwaze pa pahuch kar juhi rook gyi…..andar ekdam andhera tha aur kuchh aawaze aa rhi thi…………………juhi dhyan se sun ne lagi ………….uska shaq sahi tha ……shil sachmuch tootkar bikhar rha tha…….wo kisi bachche ki tarah bilakh bilakh kar ro rha tha …… bahut mehnat karni padegi tumhe sambhale me sahil …lekin mai karoongi….tumhe is tarah tadapta to nhi chhod sakti….juhi ne apne man me socha aur kamre ki light jala di………..sahil ka chehra aansuo me dooba hua tha …usne juhi ki taraf dekha aur dudkar us se lipat gya…………….. “mujhe bacha lo juhi ………mai mar janunga” Juhi ke dil me aaya ki sare jahaan ka pyar lakar sahil ke kadmo me dal diya……….usne sahil ke sir ko apne seene se lagga liya…………… “mai tumhe kuchh nhi hone dungi sahil…….vada hai mera” usne kaha aur uske sar par pyar se hath pherne lagi. Kash ek bar tumhare hotho ki hasi wapas aa jaye..mai apni har khusi har sapna chhod dungi tumhare liye …juhi ne apne man me socha aur sahil ko aur jor se beench liya…. Kaisi ajeeb hai na ye zindagi …aur us se bhi ajeeb hai ye muhabbat …ek achche bhale insane ko awara bana deti hai…… Sahil ki halat dekhkar juhi khud ko kuchh der ko bhool hi gyi………use ahsaas ho rha tha ki kis kadar wo toot gya hai…………wo sahil ko apne gale se lagaye chup karane ki kosis kar rhi thi………….lekin sahil ke aansu nhi rook rhe the……….. “juhi mai aisa nhi tha………….bahut majboot tha mai…lekin ab mai bahut akela pad gya hu…..na koi rasta nazar aata hai an koi apna………….har rishta jhootha lgata hai ab …………I m sorry …..i m sorry yar…plz maf kar do” inhi sabdo ke sath wo ek bar fir se juhi ko pakadakr jor se rone laga. “mai hu na sahil…………….mai bhi to akeli hi hu…….lekin mai tumhe kabhi akela nhi chhodungi……sahil kuchh log bure hote hai………rishte bure nhi hote……….” wo sahil ko samjhane ki poori kosis kar rhi thi……….. “sahil plz chup ho jao….mujhe bhi rona aa rha hai…plz…” juhi khud bhi uski halat dekhkar bahut emotional ho gyi thi………. Thodi der bad aakhirkar sahil sambhal gya………juhi uske pas hi bed par baithi thi …sahil neeche ki or dekh rha tha …..wo chah kar bhi juhi se najre nhi mila paa rha tha………..juhi sab kuchh samajh rhi thi…………. “sahil,duniya me aisa koi nhi hai jise life me sahare ki zaroorat na pade………..aur agr ek sahara aap ko chhod de to iska ye bilkul matlab nhi hota ki aap baki baki sare saharo par yakeen karna chhod de………plz….ek mauka do……ek bar bharosa karo mujh par …mai kabhi tumhara bharosa nhi todungi…..” kahte huye juhi ne sahil ke kandhe par halke se hath rakha …sahil ne aankh uthkar uski jheel si neeli aur khoobsoorat aankho me dekha…………un aankho me ek vishwas tha, hamdardi thi aur dher sara pyar tha………itna apnapan tha un nigaho me ki mano kah rhi ho ki aao mere pass mai hu na…sab kuchh thik kar dungi………… Sahil ne kuchh nhi kaha bas halke se juhi ke kandhe par sar rakh diya aur aankhe band kar li…………… Thodi der dono ke bich khamoshi rhi fir is bar sahil ne is khamoshi ko toda…………. “juhi ,plz aap mujhe maf kar dijiye…maine bahut galat sulook kiya aapke sath…hamesa hi ….sorry ……” “aree…aap mujhe aap kyo kah rhe hai….tum hi bola kare …achcha lagta hai mujhe……aur dosto me--- no thanx and no sorry …….samjhe…………” juhi ne muskurate huye kaha….. Sahil ko ahsaas ho rha tha ki duniya me aaj bhi sachmuch kitne achche log hai…………..aur juhi???...wo to shayad koi pari hi hai…….jise khuda ne galti se dharti par utar diya tha…….aaj sahil ka etmaaad fir se bahaal ho rha tha………thodi der bad juhi chali gayi aur jate jate kuchh aisa bol gayi jo aaj tk sahil ne dusro ko bola tha lekin kabhi use kisi ne nhi bola………… “sahil ,chahe life me kitni bhi badi muskil aa jaye, chahe kuchh bhi ho,,,tum galat ho ,sahi ho…koi fark nhi padta …………..mai hamesa tumhare sath rahungi………..aaj hi nhi kabhi bhi……….agr meri kabhi jaroorat pade to bas ek aawaz dena ………………………juhi ko hamesa har kadam par apne sath khadaa paoge……jab tak mai hu,kabhi khud ko akela mat samjhana….” “aur haa ise kholkar jaroora dekh lena………..”kahte huye juhi ne wo gift pack whi rakh diya tha. Rat ko halka sa dinner karke sahil apne bistar par leta hua tha……………..bar bar jhui ke alfaaz use yad aa rhe the……”juhi tum wakayi bahut achchi ho ….god tumhe is duniya ki har khusi de” usne dil me dua ki aur aankhe moond li…………achanak use juhi ke diye gift ka khyal aaya…………wo utha aur wrapper kholne laga……….. Us wrapper me pichhel 6 month ke current affairs ki magazine thi ……aur ek chhota sa khoobsoorat golden pen tha…………….aur sath me hi ek chhota sa khat bhi tha…………sahil ko aise gift ki umeed nhi thi…wo to kab ka har man chukka tha……………usne to apne sapne ko ek toota hua sapna samjhkar poora karne ki kosis karna bhi chhod diya tha,….lekin juhi us sapne ko sakar karna chahti thi….…..sahil ne khat khola aur padhne laga….. “Dear sahil, khuda kare ki aap hazaro sal jiyo ………aapko kadmo me duniya ki har khusi ho………. Mujhe nhi pata ki aisa kyu hai….lekin jis din aapko pahli bar dekha use din se aap bade apne apne se lage…………jane kyu aisa lagaa ki bahut dino se janti hu aapko………pata nhi kisi janam me koi gahra rishta tha shayad aapse …….lekin jab bhi aapse mili aapko udas dekha…….aapki aankhe bahut sooni sooni si lagi…………..mai in aankho ka wo soona pan door karna chahti thi………..aapke chere ki udasi door karna chahti thi ……. mera pass bachpan se hi sari facilities thi lekin fir bhi ek khalipan sa hai……koi aisa nhi rha life me jise apna dost kahti…….koi bhai behan bhi nhi tha….dost the ,lekin bas kahne ko ……….baba hai lekin ek generation ka gap hai……..aapko dekha to laga ki shayd aap ek sachche aur achche dost ho ,,,,,,,maine isiliye aapse dosti ko kaha……….lekin shayad aap mujhe apni dosti ke layak nhi samjhte……….. aur rhi bat nafart karne ki????? Aapne kaha ki aap sirf nafart karte hai………..sabse ……mujhse bhi………..sahil zindgi bahut chhoti hai ……..…ise nafarat ke sahare nhi gujara ja sakta………..kuchh baten aisi ho jati hai ki hum kisi se nafart karne lagte hai…….lekin muhabbat ke bina life me koi khusi nhi hai……….. aur nafarat aap bahut dino tak nhi kar sakte………..ek bar muhabbat ka daman tham kar dekhiye zindgi fir se khoobsoorat ho jayegi………….. mai hamesa aapki dosti ko taiyar hu……ho sakta hai kisi ne aapki dosti ka majak banaya ho lekin ,sahil, agar duniya me kisi ek ke kiye ki sajaa har shakhs ko milne lage to ye sari duniyo chand dino me khatm ho jayegi…. plz ek bar apne aap par bharosa karo……….khud ko ek mauka do………..mujhe ek mauka do....mai kabhi tmhara bharosa nhi todungi……..promise. ..sahil kuchh sal hai sirf hamare pass…ek bar ye din nikal gaye to aap fir puri life chaho to bhi kabhi IAS ban ne ki kosis tak nhi kar sakoge,….ek bar over-age hone ke bad sirf pachhtawa hath lagea….ho sakta hai ki hum IAS na ban paye lekin ye sukoon to rahega na ki hamne poori kosis ki……….ye malal to nhi rahega ki kash ek bar aur try kar lete………. sahil zindagi me kuchh log selfish bhi hote hai…unke liye apni life barbad mat karo……..plzzzzzzzzzz.. ye pichhle kuch dino ka study material hai….…mujhe pata hai ki aapne nhi liye hai……plz ek bar fir se apne sapne ko poora karne ki kosis kare………..aur ye pen………..mai chahti hu ki isi pen se is sal aap IAS academy me pahli signature kare…..agar meri thodi si bhi ahmiyat hai aapki zindagi me, to plz ek bar jaroor sochiyega………… -- Aapki dosti ki muntazir – juhi . Sahil ne khat padha aur chuchap band karke wapas usi wrapper me dal diya……………. “kya se kya bana diya tumne mujhe aarti……….ye bat sari zindagi nhi bhoolunga ki jab mujhe apno ki sabse jyada jaroorat thi to mai blikool akela tha…………….” Use fir se ek bar us “ BEWAFA “ ki yad aane lagi………… Uski yado ke bhawar me doobe sahil ko jane kab need ne apne aagosh me le liya…………… In sab bato ko lagbahg one week beet gya…sahil fir se dheere dheere kosis karne laga tha padhne ki………au rise dekhkar juhi kafi khus thi …use lagne laga tha ki sahil fir se ek bar compete karega……….juhi ko padhaane roj jata lekin study ke alawa aur koi bat nhi hoti ……juhi janti thi ki ye itna aasan nhi tha sahil ke liye aur wo use thoda waqt dena chahti thi…………. sahil ab use achcha lagne laga tha aur use is bat ka bhi yakeen ho gya tha ki sahil dheere dheere aarti ki bewafai aur aarti dono ko bhool jayega…………uski aankho ne sahil ke sath zindagi ke haseen sapne dekhne suru kar diye the……………. Sahil aaj bahut dino bad diary likhne ke mood me tha …………usne suitcase khola….suitcase me rakhi cheeje us sequence me nhi thi jisme usne rakha tha …….sahil ko juhi ki bate yad aane lagi ….juhi ki bato se use thoda shaq to hua tha ki juhi ko uske bare me itna kaise pata….aur ab use yakeen ho gya tha ki juhi ne uski diary padhi……………sahil ke dil ko thes pahuchi is bat se ……….usne darwaz khula hi chhoda ur teji se chalta hua juhi ke room ki or badha…….. din ke 2 baj rhe the aur sab log apne kamre me the ……sahil kafi gusse me lag rha tha……………juhi ke room par pahuchakr usne darwaza khtakhataya………….juhi ne darwaz khola …bikhre bikhre se bal aur thaki thaki si aankhe…agar sahil thode bhi dhyan se dekhta to use ahsaas ho jata ki juhi thik nhi hai………….lekin use to gusse ke aag me kuchh sujh hi nhi rha tha………. “are aap…aaj jaldi aa gaye …chaliye padhate hai……….” Juhi ne khud ko sambhalte huye kaha. “tumne meri diary padhi ?????”sahil ne ekdam uski halat aur tabiyat ka galat andaza lagaya tha……….gusse me chillate huye puchha. “jee” juhi ne nazre jhukate huye kaha… “himmat kaise huyi tumhari…………..bina meri ijajat ke tumne chhua kaise use………..khud ko kya smajhti ho tum …….koi ahsan nhi kar rhe tum log mujh par ………..” sahil gusse me jo kuchh bhi uske man me aa rha tha bole ja rha tha…wo apneaap me nhi tha is waqt…. “sorry” juhi ki aankh se ek aansu tapak pada…. “what the hell sorry………….tumne bhi whi kiya…maine tum par bharosa karna chaha aur tumne mera bharosa tod diya…………ab samjha….……..isiliye mujhpar itna taras aa rha tha…….. mujh par taras kha kar hi tumne mujhse dosti karne ki sochi na……..achcha kiya juhi …bahut achchha kiya…….mai to kisi ke dosti ke layak hi nhi hu……………ek ne meri akele pan par taras kha kar dosti ki aur dost banakr meri sari khusiya chheen li , sare sapne tod diya……….aur tumne dost bankar mujhe meri hi nazro se gira diya……………..sab samjh gya mai…………daya aati hogi na tumhe mujhpar…..haan………. isi layak hu mai………..mujhe nhi chahiye tumhari hamdardi…….koi jaroorat nhi hai tumhe mujhpar taras khane ki……….ja rha hu mai yha se…….ab kabhi nhi aaunga…kabhi bhi nhi……………..” sahil aanakho me umad aaye aansuo ki badli ko rokte huye nafarat se juhi ki or dekha aur bahar ki or chala gya……….…juhi ki aankho se lagatar aansu bah rhe the aur wo darwaze ko pakdakr baith gayi aur bilakh kar rone lagi………. Sahil apna saman pack kr rha tha aur ek hath se apne aansuo ko saf kar rha tha……..aaj use lag rha tha ki zindagi ne fir se ek bar uske sath ek bhadda majak kiya hai….bahar se khan baba ki aawaz aayi…………”sahil” Usne teji se apne aansu ponchhe aur bahar nikala……….. “jee khan baba” rone ki wajah se uski aawaz me thoda bhari pan tha………. “ kya hua beta ,tabiyat thik nhi hai kya?” “jee nhi thik hu…bas thoda jukam lag rha hai… “achcha-achha..wo mai kah rha tha ki juhi ne tumhe kuchh bataya………” “jee…jee nhi to” beta tum use kuchh din tak mat padhana….mai to mana karke thak gya manti nhi hai……use typhide hua hai….lagbhag ek week ho gya…..dekha nhi kaisi kamjor hoti jaa rhi hai…..” “jee” sahil ko sunkar bahut dukh hua…………shittttt……….kya kar diya maine ….usne ek bar apne man me socha ….lekin meri kya galti…typhide hua hai to?????……usne fir se apne sar ko jhatka.. “beta jab se tum rahne lage ho ghar achcha lagne laga hai……..…bade apne apne se lagte ho………………juhi bhi ab khus lagti hai………..nhi to pahle hum dono hi hote the..sarfaraz to bahar hi rahta hai…………aur mai bhi budha ………………..juhi badi akeli si pad gyi thi……….lekin tumhare rahne se kafi khus rahti hai………bas ab is bar khuda kare tum dono hi select ho jao………..juhi ka sapna toot ta hua dekhne ki himmat to nhi hai…….….bin maa ki bachchi hai na..isliye bahut emotional nature ki hai……..” khan baba bol rhe the aur sahil ek bar fir se socho ke bhawar me fasta ja rha tha…….. Aakhirkar usne soch liya ki juhi ko padhate rahega lekin bas us had tak hi………zindagi me koi kam to poora kar du kam se kam ……yhi sochkar wo rook gya……….…lekin juhi se narazagi khatm nhi huyi…………. Lgabhag 15 din ho gaye the…………….sahil ko khan baba ke jariye pata chalta rhata ki juhi ki tabiyat thik nhi ho rhi hai…………aur wo kafi major hoti ja rhi hai…leekin sahil ek br bhi use dkhne tak nhi gya……….. Aaj kafi dino bad sahil cyber café aaya hua tha…….…usne UPSC ki site kholi…….chalo form fill kar hi deta hu …….. exam du ya na du bad me dekhunga……………usne socha .. Lekin site kholte hi sahil ke dil ko ek bahut bada dhakka laga… aaplication ki last date ko beete 10 din ho chuke the…usne apne sar par hath rakh liya ……….rahi sahi umeed bhi khatm ho gyi thi….juhi ki kahi batn use yad aa rhi thi …ek bar over-age ho gaye to fir chakar bhi ye sapna poora nhi kar paoge……aur ye sahil ke apply kar pane ka aakhiri sal tha……….qki next year ke liye uski age nhi thi………….sahil ki aankho me aansu aa gaye………uski zindagi aise mod par aagyi thi jaha use koi rasta nazar nhi aa rha tha……………..wo itana disturb tha ki use pataa bhi nhi chala ki kab last date nikal gayi……sahil sabkuchh har chukka tha…sabkuchh. …”.to aakhir mera sapna toot hi gya……….tujhse koi shikwa nhi hai upar wale……..…main kosis hi pure shiddat se nhi ki ….” Sahil ka dil ro rha tha….kya jawab dunga mai papa ko….unse to ab shayd kabhi mil nhi paunga…….3 salo ki meri tapsaya ka koi fal nhi mila………sahil ki aankho se ab jhar jhar aansu bh rhe the aur wo dheere dheere apne room ki or badh rha tha……… Room me pahucha kar sahil bed par baith gya……….exam ko 2 mahine rah gye the par wo to bina lade hi har gya tha…..uska dil uchat hone laga tha…har cheej se….sahil ne man me socha ki ek bar khan baba se mil lu…fir ye shahar hi chhod dunga hamesa hamesa ke liye…………… Usne khan baba ke room me dekha wo wha nhi the………ek mulazim ne bataya ki wo juhi baby ke room me hai…………sahil usi or chal pada……….aaj lagbhag 17 -18 din bad wo juhi ke room ki taraf ja rha tha…………….. Khan baba aur juhi dono balkani me hi baithe the aur khan baba jabardasti juhi ko kuchh khila rhe the………..sahil ki nazar juhi par padi…..ekdam murjha si gyi thi wo……..juhi ne sahil ko dekha to ektak uski or dekhti rahi ………. “are sahil beta aao baitho….dekho ise kisi chhote bachche ki tarah khilana padta hai…….itna muskil imtehaan sar par hai…bina khaye peeye kaise chalega…………tumhi samjhao ise “ “jee khan baba…wo mai ja rha hu……….” Sahil ne mano ek dhamaka kiya….juhi ne uski aankho me dekha………….. ek request thi uske nazro me ek sawal bhi…………mano kah rhi ho ki…. .plz mat jao…sahil ko un aankho ki tapish bardasht nhi huyi……..usne nazre pher li…. “q beta??? Exam sar par hai…koi pareshani hai kya sahil?” khan baba ne uske kandhe par hath rakhte huye bade apne pan se puchha …….. “jee..nhi khan baba…….wo darasal main form submit karna hi bhool gya…last date nukal gayi….…to ab kaisa exam??” sahil ki aankho me aansu aa gae.. “kya……….sahil tum ye galti kaise kar sakte ho….ye kya kiya tumne ? ab kya karoge…”khan baba ko uski bevkoofi par kafi sadma sa laga. “jee, chala jaunga apne gaon wapas” sahil ne kaha……..uske lakho jabt karne ke bawzood ek aansoo bagawat karke bahar nikal hi gya………. “areee…ye kya kiya tumne….ruko mai dekhta hu kya ho sakta hai…sarfaraz ke kafi contacts hai” khan baba bahar ki or lapke……sahil janta tha ka kisi ka koi bhi contact UPSC me nhi chalega……………ek nazar usne juhi ki aankho me dekha……….sahil ke aansoo teji se palko ka darwaz todakr bahar ane lage….juhi sachmuch behad kmajor ho gyi thi……………uski aankho ke niche kale dhabbe pad gaye the …….aur uska chehra blikul sukh sa gya tha………..juhi kisi tarah se dheere se uthi aur apne kamre me chali gayi……………… Sahil whi baitha rha…….juhi ka chale jana use samjh me aa rha tha …….…wo abhi bhi us se naraz thi …usne bartav hi aisa kiya tha………sahil chupchap uth ek bar juhi ke room ki taraf dekha fir thake tahke kadmo se bahar ki or chal diya…kuchh kadam hi chala tha ki uske kano me juhi ki pyari si aawaz padi……aawaz bahut dhhemi thi …..sahil rook gya….. “ek miute plz andar aayenge……………” fir se juhi ki aawz aayi…sahil aaj kuchh bolne ya mana karne ki halat me nhi tha ..chuchap chalte huye kamre ke andr pahuch gya…juhi ne kisi file me se ek paper nikala aur sahil ko pakda diya………..sahil ne paper nhi dekha bas ek sawaliya nazro se juhi ki aankho me dekha……….. “maine aapka aaplication form fill kar diya tha….” Juhi ne halke se kaha aur uski aankhe bhar aayi. Sahil ko jaise apne kano par yakeen hi nhi hua…………..usne apne hath me pakde huye kagaz par nazar dali…uske aaplication form ka print out tha…………….sahil ka hath kaapne laga…..usi samjh me nhi aa rha tha ki kya kare…………… “jaiye sahil aaj aapko nhi rokungi…….bas ek aakhiri kosis karne ka dil kiya so kar di……….ise lekar jaye……...wha chale jaiye jahaa se aapko lage ki aapka sapna poora ho jayega……….plz ek kosis jaroor kijiyega…….aapki kismat aapke raste ki rukawat mere rahte to nhi ban sakti……..jaiye…agar ho sake to mujhe maf kar dijiyega……khuda hafiz sahil ” juhi ki aankhe dabdabaa rhi thi …….. Sahil to mano jam sa gya tha……….kya kar diya maine………juhi ne mere documente lete samy hi shayd diary dekhi hogi…….kitna kamzarf insaan hu mai….…….sahil ki aankho se aansu aur teji se bahne lage……kitna dikh diya maine is masoom si pari ko………..aur sahil juhi ke kadmo me gir pada……………. Sahil to mano jam sa gya tha……….kya kar diya maine………juhi ne mere documente lete samy hi shayd diary dekhi hogi…….kitna kamzarf insaan hu mai….…….sahil ki aankho se aansu aur teji se bahne lage……kitna dikh diya maine is masoom si pari ko………..aur sahil juhi ke kadmo me gir pada……………. “I m sorry juhi…………….mai to mafi maangne ke layak bhi nhi hu………..mujhe kuchh samjh me nhi aata juhi……..tum kya ho…insaan ho ya koi pari ho……….maf kar do yar………….mujhe maf kar do juhi” sahil uske pairo se lipta bas yhi bole ja rha tha aur jar jar roye jaa rha tha….aansu to mano sahil ki ksimat ban gaye the.,aur udhar juhi bhi mano boot ban gyi thi……….uski aankho se bhi aansu bah rhe the………..sahil farsh par pade juhi ke pairo se lipta roye ja rha tha…..aaj use uski har bat yad aa rhi thi………. “’kitna bura sulook kiya hai maine is masoom ke sath……iski kya galti…isne to har kadam par mera bhala hi chaha………kitni bar maine iska dil dukhaya aur isne to kabhi ek lafz nahi kaha…..aaj jab mere hath se har manjil har rasta nikal gya tha to isne fir se mera hath tham liya……..………,,mere sapno ko ek bar fir se udane ke liye hausala de diya…..….sahil is janm me tujhe sukoon ki maut bhi nhi milegi agr is ladki ka karj na chukka saka to….” Jitni sahil ko apni jadati yad aa rhi thi utna hi dard uske seene me uth rha tha……………ur wo utna hi roye ja rha tha……………..juhi bhi uske pas farsh par hi baith gayi …sahil ka cherhra usne apne hatho me tham liya………………… “sahil plz aap mat rowo …plzzz…..mujhse tumhare aansu ab bardasht nhi hote…………..mai tumse naraz nhi hu sahil………kitne aansu likh diye khuda ne tumhari kismat me………plz mat rowo sahil……..”juhi jo khud bhi ro rhi thi…..use chup karane ki nakam kosis kar rhi thi…. Sahil ke aansu nhi rook rhe the….use juhi ke sath apna har atyachar yad aa rha tha…..aur har bat yad karke aur jyada rona aa rha tha…..kitna galat kiya hai maine…kisi aur ki galtiyo ki sajaa is masoom ko kyu???????? “tum aisa kaise kar sakti ho juhi,,,,,maine to aaj tak kabhi tumse pyar se bat tak nhi ki aur tum………meri har nafart ka jawab tumne muhabbat se diya…………itani achchhi kyu ho tum………kyu ho tum itnai masoom…….”sahil juhi ki god me sar rakh kar ro rha tha…ab dhhere dheere uske aansu tham gye the…lekin abhi bhi uski siskiya nhi rook rhi thi………… Achanak juhi ka sar sahil ke sar par pada……….usne juhi ka sar pakad kar uthaya aur uske galo ko thapthapaya………..uski aankhe band thi……………juhi shayd behosh ho chuki thi……………..kamjori ki vajah se aur bahut der rone ki vajah se …… Sahil ne jaldi se use uthakar bed par litaya aur pas me pade pani ki chand boonde uske chehre par mari……..thodi der me hi juhi ne aanke kholi…………..bahut dino bad sahil use itane kareeb se dekh rha tha……….sachmuch behad kamjor ho gyi thi juhi…………sahil ki aankho me abhi bhi aansu the………. Usne pyar se juhi ke sar par hath phera……..juhi ke chehre par halki si muskurahat aa gyi…badi bejaan si muskurahat thi…………….. “kya hal banaa liya tumne apna..” sahil ko aaj sachmuch khud se nafart ho rhi thi………….use pta tha ki juhi ki is halat ka jimmedar kuchh had tak wo bhi hai…………….. Juhi ne sahil ka hath apne hatho me le liya aur uske kap-kapate hotho se chand sabd nikle…………. “aapko jeetna hai sahil” Sahil ne apane hatho me kaid uske najuk se hath ko halka sa daba diya……....uski aankho me ek nischay dikh rha tha aur juhi ke chehre par ek khusi, ek sukoon tha. “Hum sath jeetenge juhi.”” Sahil ne kaha aur usi waqt kisi ke aane ki aahat huyi aur sahil juhi ke bed se uthkar pas rakhi chair par baith gya. Juhi abhi bhi uski or dekhkar muskura rhi thi …uski bujhi bujhi si udas aankhe chamak uthi thi.

UPDATE 14 Zulfiqar khan,dilli ke sabse bado namo me shumar…zindagi se bharpoor ek zinda dil insane ….daulat aur shohrat ki bulandi ko chhune ke bad bhi zameeni insaan…ek aisa insaan jiski dil me sabke liye pyar ,hamdardi aur apnaapan…..Jo har insaan ko insaan samjhta……unka eklauta beta sarfaraz khan …sarfarz ka dil ek hindu ladki par aa gya……...baap ne bête ki muhabbat ko kabool liya vaise bhi khan parivar ki parampara me kabhi hindu muslim ka bhed nhi rha …..unke liye musalmaan hone jitney fakr ki bat thi insaan hona bhi utna hi….. aur “ sanjanaa singh” sarfaraz khan ki dulhan ban kar aa gayi…..….sarfaraaz ne apne baap ka business sambhala aur unki khwahish ki sarfaraz koi white collar job kare bas ek khwahish hi rah gyi….. Sarfarz ne bhi bahut daulat kamai aur fir jab rajneeti me kadam rakha to wha bhi apna parcham lahra diya…pahli bar hi MP ka chunav jeet gaye…..khan parivar me bas ek hi kami thi …sarfaraz khan ki koi aulad nhi thi….aur sadi ke 8 sal bad jab nanhi si pari ne unke jeevan me kadam rakha to baba( zulfiqar khan ) ne pyar se uska nam “ JUHI “ rakha…………. sanjanaa jab juhi 4 sal ki thi tabhi use maa ke muhabbat se mahroom karke duniya se vida ho gyi…… khan baba ke jeene ka saharaa hi juhi thi aur duniya ki har sukh suvidha uske kadmo me dal di…jis cheej par juhi hath rakh deti wo uski ho jati…….juhi bhi baap se jyada apne baba se attached thi……. Zindagi ke solhave sal me kadam rakhte rakhte juhi sachmuch ek kali ban gyi thi……wo dilkash husn ki mallika ek behad suljhi huyi aur intelligent ladki thi….. .khoobsoorati ke sath sath uske taur tareeke aur ek ladki hone ke ahsas ne use aur khoobsoorat bana diya……apne baba ke liye IAS ban ne ka khwab uski aankho me samata chala gya…. Juhi me to jaise Khan baba ki jaan basti thi….jab JUHI ne IIT ka exam clear kiya to apne approach aur daulat ke dam par khan baba ne use delhi me hi admission dila diya taki wo unse door na chali jaye…juhi ko kabhi maa ki kami mahsoos nhi huyi…… Juhi ne IIT se B-TECH complete kiya aur ek sal coaching karne ke bad first time CIVIL services ke liye appear huyi lekin IIT ki gold medalist hone ke bad bhi wo pre clear nhi kar payi ………………aur use is bat ka ahsas hua ki is exam ke liye kya padhna hai jan na to jaroori hai lekin kya nhi padhna hai ye jan na us se bhi jaroori hai………….matlab ki agar sahi guidance na mile to kitni bhi mehnat karo koi fayada nhi…………..khan baba ne ye bat suni to uske liye ek sahi direction karne wale insaan ki khoj karne lage aur yhi khoj aaj sahil ko khan baba ke ghar layi thi….. “tum baitho beta …m abhi juhi ko bulaata hu……..” khan baba bolte huye andar chale gaye… Sahil pahli bar kisi itane ameer shakhs ke ghar aaya tha..ghar to nhi mahal hi tha wo….lekin ghar aur ghar walo ki soorat aur seerat me use koi interest nhi tha……use to pta bhi nhi tha ki wo wha kyu chala aaya…jabki wo to apni zindagi ko khatm karne ki soch rha tha ….khud ko mitane ke bare me soch rha tha …. “hello ,myself juhi ” khankati si aawaz par sahil ne sar uthkar upar ki or dekha…22-23 sal ki kajrare naino wali bala ki khoobsoorat ek msoom si ladki muskurate huye uski or hath badhaye khadi thi….. badhi huyi shave,lal aankhe aur bikhre huye baal…sahil juhi ko koi majnoo lag rha tha jiski aankho me kayi raton ki ratjagi ka khumar tha ….lekin is huliye me bhi smart lag rha tha…….itna smart ki dil har jaye koi haseena …lekin juhi aisi dil fenk haseena nhi thi…. Sahil ne kuchh nhi kaha aur na hi hath uski or badhaya…..juhi ko bura lagaa……lagnaa hi tha ..kisi ko bhi lagta…. Juhi bhi chupchap samne rakhe sofe par baith gyi…dono me se koi kuchh nhi bol rha tha….tabhi khan baba bhi chale aaye….. “areee tum dono me jan pahchaan to ho gyi na…koi bat nhi mai fir se karwa deta hu…juhi ye hai sahil,IAS ki taiyari karte hai …interview bhi diya..aur sahil beta ye hai meri juhi …meri jaan “ khan baba ne juhi ke bagal me baithte huye uske sar par hath fera…. “jee” sahil ne bas itna hi khaa…jaise uska dhyan wha tha hi nhi… “to sahil kya taiyari karni hogi juhi ko “ khan baba bole.sahil mano apne badhawasi pe kabu pata hua wapas aa gya… “jee jaisa ye kahe…agar kisi subject me difficulty ho to m help kar dunga …ye jaise bhi kahe” sahil ne pahli bar kuchh dhang se kaha.janekis jadu ke asar me tha sahil ki chah kar bhi inkar nhi kar paa rha tha ..... “kaho juhi beta” khan baba ne kaha. Juhi ka man to nhi tha lekin wo khan baba ka dil nhi todana chahti thi……sahil ki image ek akadoo,ghamandi aur badtameez insaan ki si ban gyi thi pahli hi mulakat me uske man me…jise tameez nhi thi kisi se milne ki ya bat karne ki……usne socha kisi tarah se kuchh din bita le fir khan baba ko manaa legi aur sahil ko wha se hatwa degi……. “jee mujhe economic bahut difficult lagi hai…”juhi boli. “ok..mere pas kuchh notes hai mai de dunga..aur aapke basics bhi clear karwa dunga…..abhi mai chalta hu kuchh kam hai….”sahil ne man me yhi socha tha ki wo notes juhi ko de dega lekin ab yha lautkar nhi aayega…jane kyu use juhi achchhi nhi lagi thi ……. Sahil ke sath khan baba bhi bahar taka aaye….. “sahil beta …juhi bina maa ki bachchi hai…maine bade najon se paala hai ise…kabhi kisi chhej ki kami nhi hone di….ab ye sirf meri khusi ke liye IAS ban na chahti hai…aaj tak jo bhi sapna isne dekha use poora kiya…maine poora kiya…lekin ab darta hu ki agar is bar aisa nhi hua to meri juhi ka dil toot jayega,…pahli bar jab iska nhi hua to maine kaha ki ab chhod do ye taiayari ..kya kami hai hame …lekin nhi mani…jiddi hai thodi…elkin ab tumhe dekhkar lagta hai ki wo jaroora kar legi agar tum sath rhe to….lagan hai uske andar bas thoda sa sahara chahiye……” “jee,…mai kosis karunga..” sahil ko samjh me nhi aay kya kahe… “dua lagegi beta tumhe is budhe ke dil ki……hamesa khus raho…kabhi koi jaroorat ho to jaroor kahna…. “ khan baba ne uske shane par hath rakhte huye kaha.. Sahil wapas jaa chukka tha ……khan baba bhi lautkar andar aaye … “achchha insaan hai sahil ……hai na juhi” unhone juhi se kaha. “baba,mujhe to bahut ghamandi aur akdoo lagaa….”juhi ne saf saf apn rai pesh ki. “nhi beta ,,tum pahli bar mili ho isliye……mera tazurba kahta hai ki bahut hi nek insaan hai….dekhna baht jald tum use pahchan logi” “jee” juhi bas itna hi bol saki… Sahil dusre din aaya aur apne notes juhi ko de diye aur wapas chala gya…….ye bolkar ki do din bad aayega ….. Rat ke 11 baj rhe the …. Juhi unhi notes ko ulat palatkar dekh rhi thi ……economis se bore hokar wo note band karne hi wali thi ki notes ke aakhiri page par use kuchh red color me hindi me likha hua dikha….ek nazm likhi thi ………….. “ek shakhs ko dekha tha taroon ki tarha hum ne ek shakhs ko chaha tha apno ki tarha hum ne; ek shakhs ko samja tha phoolon ki tarha hum ne wo shakhs qyamat tha kia us ki karen baten din us k liye paida or us ki he thi ratain ... kab milta kisi se tha, hm se thin mulakatin rung os ka shahabi tha, zulfoon may thin mayhkaryn ankhaain thin k jadu tha palkayn thin k talwaryn dushman b ager daykhen, tu jaan sy dil haren kuch tum se wo milta tha batoon me shbaahat thi han tum sa hi lagta tha shokhi may sharart mein lagta bhi tumhi sa tha dastour e muhabat mein; “wo shakhs hme ek din apno ki tarha bhoola taroon ki tarha dooba pholoon ki tarha toota” phir hath na aya wo hm ne to bohat dhoonda; tum kis liye chonky ho kab zikar tmhara hai kab tm se takaza h kab tum se shikayat hai ek taza hikayat h sun lo tu inayaat hai; ek shakhs ko dekha tha taron ki tarha hum ne ek shakhs ko chaha tha apnoo ki tarha hum ne!” nazm padhkar juhi ko lgaa koi use kuchh kha rha hai..kisi ko uski jaroorat hai…..jahir si bat hai ki ye chand lines sahil ne hi likhi thi …likhawat same thi…aur dekhkar saf lag rha tha ki bahut jyada din nhi huye hai ise likhe….. kya sahil jan boojhkar mujhe ye suna na chahta tha ya usne kabhi pahle hi likhi thi…kuchh bhi ho hai bahut dard is nazm me …aakhir kya baat hai…… aakhir kaun hai ye sahil …kya raaj hai iski life ka…….kya sachmuch use meri jarooart hai…….????????????????????? Juhi ke man me lakho sawal uth rhe the …use ek baat ka yakeen ho chala tha ki chahe jo bhi ho sahil vaisa nhi hai jaisa wo soch rhi thi……uski life me koi raaj hai…jab wo pahli baar mila tha to bhi ukhda ukhda sa tha …jis ladke ne IAS ka interview diya ho uske andr bahut maturity honi chahiye …lekin sahil…..juhi ne man me soch liya ki ek bar kam se kam kosis to jarror karegi sahil ke bare me jan ne ki. Sahil ke zindagi ke panno ka ek nya adhyay suru ho chukka tha….. Sahil ke bare me jan ne ki utsukta juhi ki badhti ja rhi thi aur sahil jo do din ka kahkar gya tha 2 hafto se nhi aaya tha………..juhi ab khan baba se bolne lagi ki ek bar centre jakar sahil ka pata Karen …….jane kya bat thi sahil ke andar ki ek mulakat me hi juhi ko uski taraf ek aakarshan sa ho gya tha …jabki wo mulakat to koi mulakat bhi na thi balki ek takrar hi thi ……. Khan baba coaching centre se wapas aa gye the aur unhone bataya ki sahil 2 weeks se centre bhi nhi aaya……juhi ke dil me ek ajeeb si bechaini ho rhi thi aur usne soch liya ki wo khud sahil ka pata lagayegi……….. Coaching centre pahuch kar usne sahil ka address liya jo ki delhi ke ek slum area ka tha ….juhi ek bade ghar ki ladki thi ..wo kabhi is tarah ke areas me nhi gyi thi lekin usne soch liya tha ki ek kosis to wo jaroor karegi………… Kisi tarah se juhi puchhte puchhte aakhirkar sahil ki jhuggi tk pahuch hi gyi….jane kyu uski aankho me aansu aa gye………………uska man bhar aaya……………..kaise rahte hai log yha par…………..kya sahil yha rahkar padhta tha……………………..kya yha rahkar koi itana hard work study me kar sakta hai………..apni socho ko lagam lagate huye use usne chhote se khidkinuma darwaze par knock kiya……lagbhag teen bar knock karne ke bad darwaza khula…….sahil ka huliya dekhkar juhi ko sachmuch hi rona aa rha tha…… Uski aankho me itani mayoosi dikhti mano kuchh achchha hone ki koi umeed hi nhi hai…….mano zindagi me kuchh bacha hi na ho………use dekhkar aisa lagta jaise koi badshah hai jiski saltanat lut gyi ………...koi aisa raja jo apna sabkuchh har gya……jiske andar na jeene ki tamnna hai na marne ka gham…duniya ki khusi aur gham se bejaar….thaka thaka sa insan…………………………….. Aur sahil use aise dekh rha tha mano koi azooba ho ….jab kisi apne ke aane ki umeed dam todane lagi thi to fir kisi gair ko apne pas dekhna ….aascharya to hona hi tha…… “tum yha???” “ha…aap nhi aaye to mai hi aa gyi aapko lene” juhi ne apni aawaz ko bheegne se bachahte huye kaha.sahil ne ek pal ko uski aankho me dekha aur fir nazre jhuka li……… “andar aane ko nhi kahenge?”juhi jo ab tak darwaze par hi khadi thi boli. “nhi…tum plz chali jao yha se” sahil ne badi berukhi se kaha. “chali jaungi…bas do minut bat karni hai…..”..juhi ne kaha. “bolo” abhi bhi sahil ne use andar aane ko nhi kaha…. “aap aaye kyu nhi “ juhi ne ektak uske chehre ki or dekhte huye kaha… “mera man nhi karta ……..…tum kisi aur ko bol do …paisa hai tumhare pas bahut se log mil jayenge…” sahil jaise uski baton se ukta gya tha aur use talne ke se lahje me bola…….. “sahil aap plz mujhe padhane aa jaye Karen…….maine aapke notes padhe …bahut clear concepts hai aapke economics ke……….…plz agar aap meri thodi si madad kar de to shayad mai apne baba ka sapna pura kar saku……” juhi uski rukhi aur gusse se bhari baton ko bardasht karte huye boli. “maine kahaa na mujhe koi interest nhi hai……..na tum me ,na tumhare sapne aur na is duniya me…………” sahil na chahte huye bhi wo bol gya jo pichhle 1 sal se uske dil me tha…aur fir nadamat me sar jhuka kar chup ho gya. Juhi bhi chup ho gyi aur ek tak uski or dekhne lagi….2 minut tak dono ke bich khamoshi rhi aur fir juhi palat kar jane lagi……kuchh kadam chalne ke bad wapas mudkar aayi aur sahil ki aankho me dekhte huye boli………….. “tum ek behad khudgarz insaan ho …tumhe kya pata ki kisi dusre ke sapno ko pura karke kaisi khusi hoti hai …kaisa sukoon milta hai…….tumne to shayad dusro ke sapne bas tode hi honge…….aur isi liye………..” juhi iske aage na bol saki…………….juhi ki aawaz bharra gyi aur is se pahle ki uske aansu nikal jate wo teji se palti aur daudati huyi wha se chali gyi…..sahil thaga sa khada rha……. “maine sapne tode hai???????????...nhi juhi …tum kya jano …” sahil ke dil me ek tees si uth rhi thi…….. Aaj 15 dino ke bad sahil khan baba ke ghar aaya tha……khan baba use dekhkar behad khus huye …aur use andar bithate huye bole…… “aree juhi…dekho sahil aaye hain” itane umrdaraz aur ameer hone ke bad bhi kitni ijjat thi khan baba ke lahje me ………..sahil ke dil me unka makam bahut uncha hota ja rha tha…. Juhi khan baba ki aawz par chaunk gayi….sahil ????????? aur ek halki si muskan uske hothon par tair gayi….. Thodi der khan baba se bat karne ke bad sahil juhi ko padhane common hall me chala gya……….khan baba apne room me the aur sarfaraz sahib apne msale me uljhe huye shahar se bahar…. “thanx” juhi ne behad lagav se kaha. “jee….laye aaj economics hi suru karte hai…..” sahil seedhe topic par aa gya… juhi pura man lagakar padhti aur sahil ki or kabhi kabhi chor nazro se dekh leti…badhi huyi shave aur bikhre huye bal…is rough tough look me bhi sahil behad smart lagta tha…lekin juhi kisi jahiri khoobsoorti par mar mitne wali ladki na thi…… Sahil teen dino se juhi ko roj sham ko 3 baje se 6 baje tak padhata aur fir wapas chala jata…juhi ko ek bat samjh me aa gyi thi sahil wakayi brilliant tha……….uske sare samjhaye juye concept juhi ki samjh me aane lage the ….. “agr sahil jaise knowledge wale bande ka bhi IAS clear nhi hua to mera kaise hoga” kabhi kabhi wo apne man me sochati… Ek aur quality sahil ki jo juhi ko bha gyi wo thi uski sharafat ….sahil seedhe uske chehre ki or kam hi dekhta ……..…use jyadatar sar jhuka ke hi bat karta tha aur baten bhi sirf study tak hi seemit hoti thi…….. Ek bat thi juhi ke man me ………… ki kaise bhi karke sahil ko us jagah se nikala jaye………….juhi ko itana to samjh me aa gya tha ki sahil kisi bahut gahri nirasha me hai,,,kuchh to jaroor aisa hua hai jiska bahut gahra dukh hai uske dil me aur aise me sahil shayad ab IAS ban ne ke sapne se bhi door hota ja rha tha ….aur agar chahe bhi to itna dard dil me rakhkar wo itana bada exam nhi clear kar pata…………..juhi sahil ko kisi bhi keemat par wha se nikalana chahti thi……….aur iske liye use khan baba ka sahara mila…….. Khan baba ke yha kafi kamre khali the aur bahut isarar karke unhone sahil ko apne yha rahne ko raji kar liya ……………sahil manaa karta rha lekin aakhirkar khan baba ki bat ko na tal saka………….is bat par raji hua ki wo yha par bhi kiraya dega……….…khan baba man gaye…………..qki unhe pata tha ki sahil vaise to kabhi nhi rahega…….. Sahil ka room khan baba ki haweli ke thik samne bane kayi room me se ek tha jo shayad guests ke liye banaye gaye the……bahut shanty aur sukoon tha wha kyuki sarfaraz khan jyadatar apne business se related meeting apne farm house par hi rakhte …………...juhi ka room sahil ke room se door tha ………..ek khidki juhi ke room ki seedhe sahil ke room ki or khulti thi…… Sahil kuchh dino me hi khan baba ka bahrosa jeet gya …… sarfaraz khan bhi behad apanepan se milte us se aur unhone sahil ko juhi ke room me hi jakar use padhane ko kaha qki bahar bahut sare naukar hote aur kuchh log aa bhi jate kabhi kabhr …....jis se study disturb hoti thi. Khan baba aur sarfaraz saheb dono ko hi juhi aur sahil par poora bharosa tha aur lagbhag ek mahine ho gaye the sahil ko yha aye huye…………...aur is ek mahine me dono uski imandari aur sharafat ke kayal ho gaye the …… Juhi ko sahil ek achcha insane lagne laga tha……… Din beet te rahe lekin na koi sahil se milne aata na sahil khud kahi jata…….jyadatar apne room me hi rahta….juhi ko uski zindagi ke bare me kuchh pata nhi chal paa rha tha ……..…wo chahkar bhi uske liye kuchh nhi kar paa rhi thi……………… february ka month suru ho chukka tha aur thande din aur surmayi raten ek ek karke beetati ja rhi thi……juhi apne exam ki taiyari pure jor shor se kar rhi thi …MAY me exam hone wale tha…. Sahil se kabhi kabhi wo uske room me bhi jakar kuchh puchh leti ……..uska confidence badhne lagaa tha aur use ahsas tha ki isme bahut bada hath us shakhs ka tha ……. juhi ko bas ek bat khal rhi thi ki kya sachmuch sahil ne apne khwab ke pura hone ki umeed chhod di hai …kabhi bhi wo sahil ko padhte nhi dekhti ……….uske jee me aata ki us se kahe ……..use samjhaye ………lekin samjhati bhi to kya …janti hi kya thi wo uske bare me ?????????? Lekin kahte ha na jahaa chah hai wha raah hai aur yha to sachche dil se kisi ka bhala karne ki kosis thi…kismet ne juhi ka sath diya…ya shayad ye kahna jyada hik hoga ki sahil ka sath diya…… Us din sahil kahi gaya hua tha aur subah hi bolkar gya tha ki aaj thodi der rat tak aayega aur JUHI ko padha nhi payega…….juhi khud se hi padh rhi thi……...room me ghoom ghoom kar padhte huye achanak uski nazar sahil ke room ki or chali gayi ………abhi subah ke 10 baj rhe the …halki halki dhoop nikal rhi thi aur mausam bahut hi suhawana ho rha tha …….jane kya aaya juhi ke man me usne book table par rakhi aur niche utarkar chalte huye sahil ke room me chali aayi………………….. Juhi jab bhi sahil ke room me aati sirf tudy se related bat hoti ……...aur use aaj tak sahil ki books ko chhodkar kisi cheej ko hath nhi lagaya tha………..juhi ne darwaza khola…….…sahil lock nhi karta tha room ko ….…tha hi kya chhupane ko………aur uski zindagi me kise interest tha bhala jo uske kamre ki tak jhank karta……. Juhi ke man bahut se khyal aa rhe the ….kya mai sahi kar rhi hu?...........? nhi sahi to nhi hai……..uske na hone par uske room me is tarah se aana……….lekin khuda janta hai mera irada nek hai……….mai to ye sahil ke liye kar rhi hu….…shayad koi contact number mil jaye sahil ke kisi jan pahchan wale ka to pta chale ki kya bat hai ……...juhi apne khaylo ke bhawar me doobi huyi thi …….sahil ke room me jyada saman nhi tha ….juhi sahil ki books ko ulat palatkar dekh rhi thi ki tabhi uski nazar samne deewar me bani almari me rakhe ek suitcase par padi………… Juhi ne suitcase utara aur khol diya………….sahil ke sare certificate rahke the…….…sahil ka academic record excellent tha………..aur niche rakha tha uska IAS ka INTERVIEW LETTER…….juhi use uthakr dekh hi rahi thi ki uski nazar niche padi ek red colour ki diary par padi………….juhi ne sare certificates wapas rakhe aur kanpte hatho se wo diary utha li…………… Juhi ne man hi man sahil ko sorry bola aur diary khol di…………….usne date par ek nazar dali …koi 7-8 mahine pahle hi diary likhni suru ki gayi thi …aur date wo thi jis din civil services pre ka resutl aaya tha ….usi din se diary likhi gayi thi….. (jise sahil clear nhi kar paya tha) “Tumhari parwah karte karte kitna roya tanha main jis raat tumhari zarurat thi us raat ko soya tanha main bojhal bojhal palkein lekar mandir maszid jata hun wahi takht pr baithe baithe ,yaad mein roya tanha main bade masihaa ho tum mere, mujhe bachaane aa jao pathar lekar moti samjha haar piroya tanha main…. DEAR AARTI, maine kabhi nhi socha tha ki ek din mai itna akela ho jaunga ki mujhe apne dil ki bat in bejuban kagaz par likhni padegi….lekin aaj agar nhi likunga to shayd zinda nhi rah paunga aur ghut ghut kar mar jaunga….. Janti ho aaj fir se ek aur nakami mere hisse me aa gyi ….…tum rooth kya gayi jaise zindagi ki har khusi hi rooth gyi……...mai itna akela kabhi nhi hua zindagi me……..aaj mai bahut toot gya hu aarti…..toot to usi din gay tha jis din tum roothi lekin ab shayd dhere dheere bikhar rha hu…....aaj mujhe tumhari bahut jaroorat hai…plz kahi se aa jao na…mujhe aakar samet lo aarti………..plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.. Jnata hu ki tum nhi aaogi….fir bhi dil ko tasaalli de leta hu…….janti ho mujhe is nakami ka itna dukh nhi hai…jab tum hi sath nhi to fir kya frak padta hai………..ab to padhne ka man bhi nhi karta…..jab hamsafar hi sath nhi to manzil par pahuchkar bhi kya karna …. Sach kahu to ab jeene ka man bhi nhi karta…..kya karunga jee kar …..lekin marne ki himmat bhi nhi juta paa rha….bas yhi sochta hu ki mummy ko itna bada dhokha kaise du……..jis baap ki aankhe apne bête ko IAS bante dekhne ko lalayit hai,unse apne bête ki laash kaise dekhi jayegi…….sabkuchh janta hu ……lekin kya karu tumhare bina sab suna suna lagta hai……..jiyunga jab tak jee sakunga…….jab tumne sajaa suna hi di hai to ab use katna hi padega……..janti ho bas dil me ek hi kasak hai…….tumne sajaa to de di lekin jurm nhi bataya….…aur ye kasam bhi de di ki mai kabhi jan bhi na saku….….lekin mai har wada nibhaunga aarti….kabhi nhi puchhunga tumse ki tumne mujhe tanha kyu chhod diya……...mere hi pyaar me koi kami rhi hogi….. Sochta hu ghar chala jau ….lekin nhi jaa sakta….qki mere toote huye sapne ki chubhan mere mummy -papa ko bahut hogi aur mai bardasht nhi kar paunga…..fir wha ki har cheez tumhari yad dilayegi…khas karke wo nadi ka kinara…….aur mai har yad par ek maut marta hu…. Aarti tumhara sahil itna kamjor nhi hai….mai hazaro nakamiya apne seene par sajaa kar bhi ladta rahta ……..lekin tumhari muhabbat meri kamjori ban gayi……..ek bar gale se lagakar bol do aur aaj bhi tumhari kasam mai duniya ki koi bhi imtehaan pass kar jau………..lekin tumhare bina nhi ….kuchh bhi nhi…… Dil me ek soona pan aa gya hai yar……..log kahte hai ki zindagi chalti rahti hai,lekin meri zindagi rook gyi hai aarti….aur ab to bas itani tamanna hai ki ye saanse bhi rook jaye….. Aur kya kahu ….kuchh samjh me nhi aata……...janta hu tumnhi aaogi phir bhi jane kyu ye pagal dil aas ka daman nhi chhodta …………aur jis din ye daman chhut gya shayad us din ye saanse bhi rook jayenge……. Khus rho…..bas itani dua hi de sakta hu aur kuchh to hai nhi mere pass tumhe dene ke liye … ..........miss you sona Ik Ishq Nager Ki Wadi Thi Jahan Pyar Ki Nadiya Behti Thi Kuch Dil Waley Bhi Rehtey They Jo Pyar Ki Baatein Kertey They … Jab Bahaar Ka Mousam Aata Tha Aur Phool Pyar K Khiltey They Mast Nasheeli Shamon Mein Pyar Se Do Dil Miltey They Ik Roz Woh Basti Ujer Gai Aur Pyar Ki Hasti Bikher Gai Phir Her Ik Dil Ko Sog Laga Aur Jeevan Bhar Ka Rog Laga Deewaney Phirtey Rehtey Hein Aur Her Ik Se Woh Kehtey Hein Iqrar Kisi Se Na Kerna tum Pyar Kisi Se Na Kerna…tum pyar kisi se na karna…………….. ab zindagi me kisis se pyar nhi karunga....kisi ko apna dost nhi banaunga............. Diary ke pahle kuchh panne padhkar juhi ne aankhe band kar li …..…aansu jane kab se palko ka darwaza todkar uske galo ko bhigoye jar he the…use kuchh khabar nhi thi….. “Itna dard………..itani muhabbat…… itani tadap……kaun hai wo bad naseeb jisne ek sone sa , muhabbata bhara dil tod diya…………khuda kare use zinagi me kabhi muhabbat naseeb na ho…”…….juhi ke dil se shayad zindagi me pahli bar kisi ke liye baddua nikli thi …

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UPDATE 13 MEGAUPDATE Sahil aur aarti ke bich aaj fir ladai huyi thi..whi remote aur channel ko lekar ..aur parinam bhi whi hua tha …aarti ki jeet aur sahil ki har aur ek bar fir aarti movie dekhne me lagi thi …movie thi “ KUCH KUCHH HOTA HAI”. Sahil ko bhi wo movie pasand thi so wo bhi baith kar dekhne lag …viase bhi kl hi exam khatm hua tha to thodi masti to banti thi…thodi der bad movie me wo scene aata hai jab class me teacher RAHUL ( Yani sharukh khan ) se puchhati hai ki pyar kya hai uar SRK ka wo famous answer “ PYAR dosti hai”…..anayas hi Aarti ki nazren sahil ki or uth jati hai jo usi ki or dekh rha tha aur dono ke man me ek hi sawal tha “ kya wakayi pyar dosti hai ??????????” Aarti ki nazre khud bakhud jhuk gayi aur sahil ko rahul aur anjali ke dosti ke rishte me apni aur aarti ki dosti ki jhalak dikhne lagi… “par rahul to anjali se pyar karta tha bas use pta nhi tha us samay ..to kya mai bhi aarti se???….aur kya aarti bhi mujhse ???? nhi..nhi ..mai bhi bevkoof kaha real life ko reel life se mix kar rha hu….wo to bas acting kar rhe hai…. Lekin story sach bhi to ho sakti hai….ha bilkul sach ho sakti hai …aakhir isme galat hi kya hai….”” Sahil apni hi socho me ghum tha …mano use khabar hi nhi thi ki aarti bhi uski hi bagal me baithi thi…aarti ne chehra uthakar ek bar fir sahil ki or dekha jo kisi aur hi duniya me ghum lag rha tha . Film me kajol ko pta chal chukka tha ki rahul teena se pyar karta tha aur ab wo rahul se door ja rhi thi aur film ka superhit gana aa rha tha “ tujhe yad na meri aayi,kisi se ab kya kahna” Sahil puri tarah se us film me doob chuka tha qki use film ki story apni story lag rhi thi aur is samay khud ko rahul aur aarti ki anjali samjh rha tha aur ……………sahil ne teji se aarti ko apni baho me bhar liya … “nhi tum mujhe chhod kar mat jana …kabhi bhi mat jana …mai tumhare bina jee nhi paunga “ Aarti ssahil ke is bartav se bhauchakka rah gayi…use kuchh der tak samjh me nahi aaya ki sahil ko kya hua..aur thodi der bad jab samjh me aaya to…..aarti ko samjh me nhi aa rha tha ki wo kaise react kare ..wo samjh chuki thi ki sahil kya soch rha hai…lekin kisi nateeje par nhi pahuch paa rhi thi agar wo khud ko anjali samjh le to kya kare…usne kuchh nhi kiya…sahil kisi bachche ki tarah us se lipta hua tha…mano usne aarti ko chhod diya to wo sachmuch chali jayegi …. “mama” aarti ne television band kar diya sahil ko pukara..sahil ne aankhe band ki huyi thi aur aarti ko pakada hua tha.usne koi jwab nhi diya ya shayad suna hi nhi .aarti ne fir se pukara” mama” aur sahil ke sar ko pkadkar khud ko chhudane ki kosis karne lagi ..T.V band ho chukka tha aur ab kamre me bilkul sannata tha aur sahil ki chetna mano wapas aa gayi thi …wo jhat se aarti se alag ho gya …kuchh pal uski aankho me dekhta raha aur jab ahsas hua ki usne kya kar diya to ow utha aur daudata hua apne kamare me chala gya ….darwaza andar se band karke bistar par pad gya …. “hey bhagwan mujhe maf kar do .ye mai kya sochne laga tha ….kaise mai khud ko aur aarti ko us film ke role ke roop me soch sakta hu???? …thik hai ki wo meri dost hai lekin mai kaise bhool sakta hu ki wo bhanji hai meri ?? kya muh dikhaunga mai aarti ko ab ….jane kya soch rhi hogi wo mere bare me…” sahil k man me lakho vichar aa rhe the aur yhi hal shayad aarti ka bhi tha . “ mama mujhe anjali ki jagah rakhkar soch rhe the …kitne buddhu hai wo bhi …lekin kahi mama mujhe pyar to nhi …………….aur kahi mai bhi to …..” aarti ne apne aap se sawal kiya aur dil ka jwab sunkar mano use apne aap par hi yakeen na hua ….dil ke har ek gali ,har kooche me sahil ka aksh maujood tha …bachpan se lekar jawani tak jis sakhs ne maa baap se badhakr use samjha tha us se lagav hona to lazami tha ..lekin dil uski chahat me dhadakne lagega,is bat ka andaza shayad aarti ko nhi tha. Sahil ke sath bitaye din aarti ke jahan me kisi film ki tarah chalane lage ..bachpan me gaon me aarti ki koi aisi zid nhi thi jo sahil puri na karta, uske muh se nikli har khwahish sahil us tak pahuchata, jyadar bar sabki jankari me aur kayi bar sabse anjaane me…fir jawani ke din ya shayad carrer ke din..jab aarti har man chuki thi aur uske sapne dam todte nazar aa rhe the to ek bar fir se sahil unmen naye rang bharne laut aaya tha…. “ wo shakhs jo apni zindagi me ab tak har jung jeet ta aaya tha kyu us masoom si ladaki se har ladai itani aasani se haar jata hai…jiske chehre par jeet ki koi kha khusi nhi dikhti , Q uske chehre par us se haarane ki khusi chamakati hai…Q sahil uski har zid puri karta hai …kyu uske liye sare ghar walo se lad jata hai…kyu uske sapne ko pura hota dekhne ke liye khud ke sapne ki parwah nhi karta ….aur kyu sahil ne kaha tha ki tumhari jagah meri zindagi me koi nhi le sakta ????????????????” sahil ki har bat par aaj aarti ko pyar aa rha tha . “ achchha jee ! to aap hamare pas hokar bhi kisi aur ke ho gaye aur hame khabar tak nhi hone di …..aakhir dil ki bhi kya galti …jab koi shakhs is kadar aapko chahega to dil uski chahat ka deewana ho hi jayega….” Aarti apne man me sochate huye muskurayi.mano apne dil se bat kar rhi ho aur dil ki daleelo se har chuki ho . Aarti ka man mayoor nach rha tha …uska jee kar rha tha ki wo khub jor jor se chillaye aur sahil ko I LOVE U bole …khoob nache ,gaye ..lekin sharm ka parda use aisa karne se rok rha tha .aarti behad khus thi …rajai ke andar ghus kar kabhi muh andar kar le rhi thi …fir bahar kar leti …kuchh sochati,sharmati fir khud se hi chhupne ki kosis me fir se chehra rajai me chhupa leti . Idhar sahil ke man me bhi vicharo ka toofan chal rha tha ….. Aarti uski dost se thodi jyada thi is bat ka ahsas to use tha lekin is had tak wo uske dil par kabja kar chuki hai iski ummed nhi thi ..aarti uski chahat ban chuki thi ..aarti ko anjali ke roop me door jata dekhakr wo apne hoso hawas kho baitha tha ….aarti usko zindagi ,uski zaroorat ban chuki thi. Sahil ke ankho ke samne fir whi drishya aa jate hai jisme aarti us se door jar hi hai ….” Nhi mai tumhe nhi jane dunga ..kisi bhi keemat par nhi …rahul ko to anjali dubara mil jati hai ,par meri kismet utani achchhi nahi hai ,mai janta hu …” sahil ke antarman me ek dwand chal rha tha …man ke kisi vidrohi hisse se aavaz aayi “ par rahul aur anjali ka rishta dosti aur pyar ka tha…lekin tumhara aur aarti ka khoon ka rishta hai …bahnji hai wo tumhari …dost to bad me bani hai …kya anjaam hoga is rishte ka.?? Aur kya hoga agar aarti ki dosti bhi nhi rahi to …wo kaun sa tumse pyar karti hai …aur agar karti bhi hai to kya duniya is rishte ko manegi…kya didi manenegi …kay jeeja manenge ???” dil ke us chhote se vidrohi hisse ki aavaz ab pure dil par havi ho rhi thi aur sahil ke man me KUCHH KUCHH HOTA HAI film ek naye roop me chal rhi thi …jisme sahil rahul ki jagah tha aur aarti anjali ki jagah …lekin ab is film ka koi ant na tha …koi kahani nhi thi. “ mujhe is bat ko yhi bhool jana chahiye ,,mujhe khood ko aarti se alag karna hoga ..use bhoolana hoga..us se door jana hoga …agar kahi aarti ke man me bhi whi ahsas jag gaye jo mere man me hai to aarti kaise bardash karegi hamari judai ko …nhi-nhi …maine to hamesa uski khusi chahi hai fir mai use itna bada gham kaise de sakta hu …is se pahle k bat aur age badhe mujhe kuchh karna hoga …mai sab kuchh khatm kar dunga …mere dil ki aavaz aarti tak kabhi nhi pahuchegi….bas ek bar aarti ka MBBS me ho jaye fir mai us se door chala jaunga …bahut door ..kabhi wapas na aane ke liye “ kitna nadan tha sahil..use nhi pta tha ki dil ki bat kisi ke dil tak pahuchane ke liye sabdo aur juban ki zaroorat nhi padti ..dil ki apni hi juban hoti hai jis par kisis ka pahra nhi hota . sahil aur aarti dono ke man me ye bat aa chuki thi ki wo k dusre ko pyar karte hai ..bas dono ko is bat ka poora yakeen nhi tha ki dusra bhi us se pyar karta hai...lekin ek antar tha ..jaha sahil is rishte ko khatm karna chahta thaaur iska koi future nhi dekhta tha whi aarti Is rishte se behad khus thi …use bas ek hi bat ki fikar thi ki sahil bhi use chahta ho?? Anjam ke bare me usne socha bhi nhi tha…ek bar bhi nhi . dono ki manjil kathin thi aur raste ekdam alag. sahil aarti ke samne ab khud ko badalane ki soch chuka tha ....wo man me dridh nischay karta hua apne kamre se nikalta hai ...sham ke 3 baj chuke the ...sahil niche aata hai ...aarti so chuki thi aur rajai uske gale tak ke hisse ko dhake huye thi... aarti ke masoom chehre par nazar padte hi ek bar fir uska dil jor se dhadkta hai ...."kitni khoobsoorat ho tum...kitna pyara dil hai tumhara ..kyu na tumhe chahane ko dil kare kisi ka " anayas hi sahil ke muh se nikla. sahil jo thodi der pahle dridh nischay karke niche aaya tha ,fir se aarti ke roop saundarya me khota sa ja rha tha ...use laga agar kuchh der tak aur aarti ke pas rha to fir us se door nhi ja sakega ...wo teji se wapas muda aur seedhiyo se chadhate huye apne room me pahucha ... sahil ke jate hi aarti ne aankhe kholi...jahir hai wo bas sone ki acting kar rhi thi... "yesssss !" aarti ne apni awaz ko dabate huye kilkari mari . "mere bhodu ram ...mujhe pata tha ......kaise masoom bane fir rhe hai hamara sabkuchh loot kar " aarti ek pal ko muskurayi " aapke chehre ke bholepan ne hi to hame loot liya " aur khood hi sharma gayi . aarti ne bed par khade hokar upar dekha ..sahil third floor par ja chuka tha ...aarti ko ab yakeen ho chala tha ki sahil bhi us se pyar karta hai...usne khusi ki bhavo ko geeton ke sahaare vyakt kiya ................ "PAHLA-PAHLA PYAR HAI....PAHLI-PAHLI BAR HAI " aarti gaye ja rhi thi aur fir geet khatm karke khud se hi sharma gayi mano ....ek bar fir se uski rajai hi uski sharm ko chuupane ka saharaa bani . sahil aur aarti dono is samay ghar me akele the lekin ab dono ke bich sharm aur jhijhak ki deewar khadi ho chuki thi . sham ko sahil neeche utar kar aata hai..aarti kitchen me chai bana rhi thi...sahil whi sofe par baith jata hai .... "chai" apni socho me doobe sahil ka dhyan aarti ki madhur aavaz par toot jata hai ... aarti us se nazre nhi mila rhi thi ..usko chai dekar dusre sofe par baith jati hai...dono ke bich me ek khamoshi thi ...jise sahil ne toda... " chai khatm karke apni books lekar aa jana ..chemistry padhenge..aur sham ke khane ke chakkar me mat padna..maine order kar diya hai.." sahil apni chai khatm karta hai aur seedhe upar ka rukh karta hai.....aarti ko sahil ka bartav kafi ajeeb sa lagata hai....aaj tak sahil ne us se is tarah se bat nhi ki thi ...sahil to hamesa us se ladne ,use chhedne ke chakkar me rahta aur fir unki ladai aur aarti ki us ladai me jeet ...lekin aaj to mano wo hukm sunakar chla gya tha .... koi aur din hota to aarti aur uski is bat par jung nischit thi lekin aaj aisa nhi hua ..aarti chupchap uski baten sun leti hai ...use sahil ka aisa bartav sahil ke sharmile nature ki vajah se lag rha tha....use lag rha tha ki sahil us se pyar karne laga hai isliye uske samne sharma rha hai...lekin dheere dheere ye aarti ko apni galatfahmi lagne lagi ...lekin use is bat me koi galatfahmi nhi thi ki uska dil sahl ke pyar me doob chuka tha .. aarti chupchap apni kitaben lekar sahil ke kamre me chali jati hai ... sahil aarti ko padhate samay kafi narmi se bat karta lekin koi bhi bat jo study se related nhi hoti usko karne me jaise koi dusra hi sahil ban jata...wo sahil jo aarti se ladta -jhagdata tha mano kahi kho sa gya tha ...ab wo aarti se baten karta to kafi reserve sa rahta....aarti ko sahil ka ye bartav kafi dukh de rha tha..jab bhi wo sahil se bat karna chahati wo koi na koi bahana kar kr wha se chala jata.. aise hi karib one week beet gya ....didi jeeja bhi wapis aa chuke the ...sahil sabke samne to bikul normally rahta lekin kabhi aarti se akele me mulakat hoti to bikul hi alag rang me lagta ...mano aarti ko janta hi na ho ...sahil ki berukhi aarti ko bahut dukh de rhi thi.... sahil aarti ko akele me keval padhate samay hi milta tha aur koi bhi idhar udhar ki bat nhi hoti ....aarti ko lagne laga ki uska pyar dam todata ja rha tha ...uske aankho ke haseen sapne toot kar uski hi aankho me chubhane se lage the .... january ka month suru ho chuka tha ...thand apne pure sabab par thi .....aarti ke medical entrance exam suru hone wale the .....isi bich jeeja ko ek mahine ke liye rajsthan jana tha ...kafi bada contractmila tha jise wo chhodana nhi chahte the ......is bar unki tabiyat thodi theek nhi thi ...to didi bhi unke sath jana chahti thi...aaj ghar par whi baten ho rhi thi .... " mummy aap papa ke sath chali jao..mai ghar par sab sambhal lungi ....." aarti ne kaha. " sahil tum kya kahte ho" sahil ko chupchap baitha dekhkar didi ne puchha. sahil akele me aarti ke sath nhi rahna chahat tha...use hamesa dar laga rahta tha ki kahi wo kisi pal kamjor na pad jaye ...aarti ki aankhe jab bhi uski or uthati unme ek sawal hota tha ...pichhle ek mahine me aarti ke chehre ki udasi se sahil ka dar aur badhta ja rha tha ...agar aarti ke dil me uske liye kuch na hota to ab tak kab ki wo use ladai kar chuki hoti aur puchh chuki hoti ki wo aisa bartav q kar rha hai uske sath....lekin aarti ke udas chehre aur sooni aankho ne sahil ko ahsas dila diya tha ki uske man me bhi pyar ke beej phoot chuke hain..aur ab sahil ko aarti ka samna karne me aur dar lagne laga tha ....lekin sahil ne aarti ki preparation ko is bich me nhi aane diya tha ...wo din rat aarti ke sath uski taiyari me laga rhata...uske liye notes banata...physics fir se padhne laga tha sahil ...qki 12th ke bad se sahil ne physics ne nhi padhi thi ...lekin aarti ko padhane ke liye usne puri physics fir se padhi thi aur aarti ko chapterwise questions solved karwaye the ....aarti ka aatm vishwas lautne laga tha ..ab use chemistry me jyada problem nhi hoti ...aakhir sahil ne chemstry me graduation me college top kiya tha ...usne sare basics achchhe se aarti ko taiyar karwa diye the ....jeetni mehnat aarti ne ki thi us se kahi jyada sahil ne kki thi ... lekin jab bhi aarti ke aankhe us se sawal karti sahil paresan ho jata...use yhi dar aaj bhi tha .. "jee mai kya bolu...jaisa aap log thik samjhe" sahil ne sar jhuka kar dheere se kaha. "are kaise bate kar rha hai tu??? tu yha hai tabhi to ham aarti aur is ghar ko akela chhodkar kahi jane ki soch sakte hai ....sahil ,beta tujhe koi paresani hai to bta de....kuchh dino se dekh rhi hu tu kuchh udas udas sa rhane laga hai ???" ddi ne behad lagav se puchha. sahil kya jawab deta .... " nnhi di ...aisi koi bat nhi hai ...aap log jaiye ham log sab dekh lenge" sahil ne bat bigadate dekha to tapak se bola. " sahil, aarti ka exam hai 24 january ko ???" jeeja bole. " jee mujhe pta hai ....mai dila dunga" sahil ne kaha. " beta ,tera nuksan hoga ..tu apni padhai kar mai rook jati hu " didi ne uske sar par hath pherte huye kaha. " are nhi didi , nuksan kaisa abhi to result wait kar rha hu ...aur fir aarti ke kisi kam se mera nuksan nhi hota " kitni dino bad sahil ne apni kisi bat me sabke samne aarti ka jikr kiya tha ...aarti ki nazre uski or uth gayi. " ha ye bat to sb log jante hai" jeeja haste huye bole.aur fir didi aur jeeja sham ko rajsthan ke liye nikal gaye ...ghar par ab ek khana banane wali Bai aane lagi thi .... rat ke 8 baj rhe the ....Bai khana banakar wapas ja chuki thi ..... .sahil aarti ko koi form online fill kar rha tha aur aarti whi pas me baithi thi ...aarti ke form bharne se uske admit card aur exam ,har cheej ki zimmedari sahil ne le rakhi thi ...aarti ko bas jakar exam dena tha ....aarti ko samjh me nhi aa rha tha ki wo sahil se kaise bat kare... sahil uska har kam kar rha tha ,uska pura khyal rakhta ,uski padhai ke liye sabkuchh kiya tha ....lekin fir bhi sahil ab use uska puana sahil nhi lagta tha ....wo sahil jo us se ladta tha,jhagdta tha ,us se roothata tha ,use manaata tha ...aarti ke dil me sahil ke is badlaw ko lekar kafi dukh tha ...lekin uski padhai me sahil ki lagan dekhkar use samajh me nhi aa rha tha ki sahil ke dil me kya hai .kaun sa sahil sachcha hai ...uska kaun sa roop asli hai ????? sahil aarti se koi koi detail puchh puchh kar form bhar rha tha ...aarti bhi bas utna hi bolti jitni jaroorat hoti ...lekin aankho me ek sawal tha abhi bhi jo sahil ko darataa tha ..qki us sawal ka koi jwab nhi tha uske pas. Isi tarah din gujar rhe the ...aarti ka exam pas aa gya tha...do din bad uska exam tha ....aaj sahil subah utha to dekha aarti ke kame ka door bahar se band tha ...aam taur par aarti der tak soti thi ..qki rat me kafi der tak padhti ...lekin aaj wo pahle hi jag gayi thi ...... sahil jaldi se niche aaya to dekha aarti taiyar hokar kahi jane wali thi ...sahil ko thoda ajjeb laga.. "kaha ja rhi ho???" mera admit card nhi aaya hai AIPMT ka ...jakar centre se lana hai ...whi lene ja rhi hu " aarti ne jawab diya .. "maine kal hi liya diya the ...." sahil ne dheere se kaha....aarti ne nazre uthahakr uski or dekha .... " kya samjhte ho aap apne aapko??" aarti gusse me boli. "kyaaaa??? maine kya kiya hai ??" sahil ne badi mushkil se kaha...jabki use bhi pta tha ki aarti kyu aise bol rhi hai... "ha...aapne kuchh nhi kiya hai...aap kabhi kaha kuchh karte ho ....koi jaroorat nhi hai mujh par ahsan karne ki " aarti ki aankhe bhar aayi thi ... " mai ahsan karta hu tum par " sahil ne udas chehre se uski or dekhte huye kaha. " ha ..ahsan hi to karte ho ....mujhse bat nhi karoge lekin mere liye sabkuchh karoge....mere sare kam karoge,lekin kabhi pyar se do bol nhi bologe ...aapke liye mera exam clear karna jaroori hai jiske liye aap mera sath de rhe ho ...mai to aapke liye kuchh nhi hu ......padhai se alag to aapka aur mera koi rishta hi nhi hai ....meri koi ahmiyat nhi hai aap ki nazro me ???" aarti ke jabt karne ke bawzood ab uski aankho ke aansu palko ka darwaz todkar bahar niklne lage the .. "aisa kuchh nhi hai " sahil ne badi muskil se apna chehra dusri or karte huye kaha..aarti ke aansu dekhne ki himmat nhi thi usme. " ha ..mai hi pagal hu ...mujhe hi lagta tha ki aisa kuchh hai ....aap bas khud ke bare me sochate ho..kabhi mere bare me bhi socha karo ...mujse lade jhagde bina aapka ek din nhi gujarataa tha aur ab........aap ko koi fark nhi padta ,pta hai mujhe ....lekin mujhe padta hai ...aapke tang karne ki aadat pad chuki hai mujhe ......aapse ladai ki aadat pad gayi hai mujhe ...samjhe aap ....kya kar diya hai maine aisa...kyu kar rhe ho aap aisa mere sath.." aarti sahil se sawal par sawal kiye ja rhi thi ....aur sahil ke pas koi jawab nhi tha ... " aarti plz chup ho jao.... tum apne exam achche se de do ...fir ham is bare me bat kar lenge..plzz....dekho abhi tumhare liye sabse jaroori shant dimag se ye exam dena hai ...nhi to ham dono ki sari mehnat bekar jayegi ....fir mai vada karta hu tumhare har sawal ka jwab dunga ...plzzz...meri khatir...??"" sahil use samjhate huye uske aansu ponchh rha tha ...aarti ka rona rook gya tha lekin wo abhi bi sisak rhi thi ...sahil use pakde huye pas me rakhe sofe par baitha tha . aarti ki aankho me dekhte huye sahil ne uska sar apne kandhe par dba diya ...ajeeb si sthiti me fas gya tha sahil...aarti ko agar abhi kuchh samjhata to wo samjhati nhi aur iska asar uske exam par padna swabhavik tha .........isliye use kuchh din tak aarti ke sath pahle jaise hi pesh aana tha ...lekin use ye bhi dar tha ki wo dono jitna ekdusre ke sath rahenge,utne hi pass aate jayenge aur fir door ona utna hi muskil hoga....sahil ko kuchh samajh me nhi aa rha tha ...kuchh dino ke liye usne sab kuchh waqt par chhod diya...is bat ko mante huye ki exam ke bad wo aarti ko sab saf saf bata dega ki un dono ke rishte ka koi future nhi hai aur use bharosa to nhi lekin ek umeed jaroor thi ki aarti uski bat ko samjh jayegi .... ab wo puri kosis kar rha tha ki aarti pahle ke jaise normally rahe aur kafi had tak wo kamyab bhi ho chuka tha ... whi aarti ko aaj ki ghatna ke bad is bat ka ahsas ho chuka tha ki sahil aaj bhi whi sahil hai ,uska apna sahil aur wo ek na ek din use jaroor jeet legi...dekhna ye tha ki waqt ka faisla kya tha.???? rat ke 11 baj rhe the ...kal aarti ka exam tha...aur aaj rat wo thodi tension me thi...sahil uske kamre me chala jata hai..aarti samne botany ke notes khole kuchh dekh rhi thi ..sahil ko dekhkar usne books band ki aur uthakar baith gayi,,, " are abhi bhi padh rhi ho ...sham ko bola tha na maine ki ab 10-10.30 tak so jana ...8 ghante ki need bahut jaroori hai ...." aarti kuchh nhi bolti ....bas uski or dekhti rahti hai.. "kya hua...???" sahil ne pyar se puchha. "neend nhi aa rhi " aarti ne dheere se kaha. " nervous ho ??" sahil ne uske bagal me baith te huye puchha. aarti ne haa me dheere se sar hila diya. "are ye to natural hai ..exam ke pahle sablog nervous hote hai ..." "aap kal chaloge na mere sath?" aarti ne bas itna hi pucha.jane kyu..jabki use pta tha ki sahil jaroor jayega. "ha...ye bhi koi puchhne ki bat hai " aarti ne muskrate huye sahil ka hath apne hatho me le liya. "fir thik hai " " chalo ab so jao " sahil ne uske bed par se sari kitabe samet te huye kaha... aarti dhhere se muskurayi .. "aap bhi mere kamre me hi so jao" "pagal ho ???" "fir mujhe need nhi aayegi...exam se pahli wali rat mai mummy ke sath soti hu " aarti ne kaha. sahil bura fasa tha ...use samjh me nhi aa rha tha ki aartisach bol rhi hai ya use tang kar rhi hai . "chalo tum so jao ...mai yhi hu tumhare pas" sahil ne uske sirhane baithte huye kaha. fir idhar udhar ki bate karne laga aarti kadhyan exam se hatane ke liye aur jald hi aarti neend ke aagosh me thi...usne abhi bhi sahil ka hath pakad rkaha tha. sahil ne dheere se apna hath chudaya...dusre kamre se ek chatai le aaya ...whi niche farsh par bichakar uspar bistar lagaya...fir aarti ka admit card ,pen etc sabkuchh uske bag me rakha..aur light off karke night bulb on kar diya ... aarti so chuki thi ...lekin sahil ki aankho me neend kahi nhi thi ... "hey bhagwan , maine kabhi nhi socha tha ki zindgi aise dorahe par lakar khada kar degi ...tum to sab jante ho ..mere man me is pyari si ladki ke liye koi paap nhi hai ...mera rasta bahut kathin hota ja rha hai ...plzz mera sath dena aur meri jaan ko uski manjzil " sahil ne aarti ke msoom mukhde par ek nazar dalte huye dua ki ...night bulb ki doodhiya roshni me uska husn chaudahvi ki chaand ki tarah damak rha tha ..sahil ne aankhe band kar li aur let gaya. subah pahli sahil utha..aarti abhi bhi so rhi thi ...sote me aarti ke chehre ki massomiyat aur badh jati thi ..sahil jab bhi uske chehre ki or dekhta uska dil ,uske dimag ki khilafat karne lagta ....jee chahata duniya ke sare bandhan todakar ,sare rishte nate chhodakar bas uska hokar rah jaye....is riwajo ki duniya se kahi door chalaa jaye ...jaa sirf wo ho uski aarti ho aur unka pyar ho .... sahil aarti ke chehre se apni nazre hata leta hai,,,use pata tha unka pyar duniya roopi sagar ki ek aisi kasti par sawar hai jisme sapno ke sundar phool to hai lekin haqiqat ka kinara nhi hai...uske sapno ke phool bas kagaz ke phool ban kar rah jayenge jinse kabhi bhi vastavik phoolo ki khusboo nhi aa sakti ....sahil ek aah bhar kar rah jata hai ...aur muh se bas itna hi nikalta hai ...."KAASH" aarti ka exam 9.30 se tha ...bathroom me pani girne ki aawaz se aarti jag jati hai ...aankhe malte huye wo uthkar baithti hai to niche fllor par bistar laga hua dekhkar use samjhte der nhi lagti ki sahil whi niche soya tha .... " kyu ho aap itne pyare" wo bas itna kahti hai aur apne bikhre balo ko clutcher me kaid karti uth jati hai ....uske chehre par sahil ke liye ijjat thi ,maan tha aur pyar tha .... aarti washrroom se nahakar nikli thi aur uske lambe baal peeth par faile huye the jo abhi gile the ......usnme chamakati pani ki boonde kisi moti ki tarah uske khoobsoorati ko badha rhi thi ....bina kisi makeup ke hi uska roop sone ki tarah damak rha tha .... sahil ek nazar aarti par dalta hai aur apne dil ki dhadkano ko kaboo me karte huye bolta hai..." chalo jaldi se ready hokar aa jao ..7.30 ho gaye" aarti ne sahil ke nazro ki tapish apne chehre par mahsoos ki thi ...aur use achchha lagaa tha ..."jee..bas abhi aayi " aarti bas itna hi bolti hai aur apne room ki or badh jati hai .. thodi der bad aarti ready hokar niche aat hai....sahil dining table par baitha hua tha ... toast , chai aur senke huye bread table par rakhe the aur ek juice ka glass bhi...aarti pyar se sahil ki or dekhti hai .... "chalo time waste mat karo ..fatafat breakfast karo " is se pahle wo kuchh bolti sahil bol padaa. aarti sahil ki or dekhe ja rhi thi aur apna breakfast kar rhi thi ...sahil kabhi nazar utha kar aarti ki or dekhta aur use apni hi or dekhta pakar nazre dusri or kar leta... thodi der bad aarti breakfast finish karke apna bag lekar sahil ka wait kar rhi thi aur wo kitchen me tha .... .... "ab aap der kar rhe ho ...jaldi se aao na" aarti ne sahil ko mama bolna chhod diya tha . sahil kitchen se nikalkar uske pass pahucha ..uske hath me ek chhoti katori thi jisme dahi (curd) thi... "lo thodi si kha lo ...mummy bolti thi ki exam ke din dahi kha kar jate hai " sahil ne behad pyar se uske hotho ki taraf spoon badhaya. aarti ne sahil ke hatho me thame sppon ko muh me le liya ...lekin is bar apne aankho me fanse aansuo ko aazad hone se na rok saki. " pagal ho kya '''? ro kyu rahi ho ...ab dahi jyada khatti hai to isme meri kya galti " sahil ne use hasane ki neeyat se kahaa... "dahi achchhi hai buddhu ram" aarti ki aankho me aansu the aur hotho par hasi ...itna bolte huye wo sahil ke gale se lag gayi ....sahil ek hath me dahi aur dusre me spoon pakde khada rha ...samjh me nhi aa rha tha use ki kya kare.... "thank you " aarti ne gale lage lage hi uske kano me sargoshi ki . "ab ho gya na....chalo ab " sahil se kuchh kahte nhi ban rha tha . aarti sahil ke sath bike par baithi thi ..ek man tha uski aankho me sahil ke liye ....sahil ne uska har roop me khyal rakha tha ...aur aaj mummy ke na hone par ek maa ki kami bhi use mahssos nhi huyi thi ....bahut kam kismat walo ko aisa pyar naseeb hota hai ...aarti ke chehre par sharm aur garv ka mil jula bhav tha .. sahil ke sath bike par baithkar use lag rha tha ki kash ye zindagi yuhi sahil ke sath ek haseen safar me gujar jaye . aarti ka paper kafi achcha hua tha aur use umeed thi positive rsult ki.dheere dheere din bit rahe the aur aarti AIPMT,CPMT.MANIPAL,,jaisi kayi exam me appear huyi thi ... aarti ke sare papers ho chuke the ....teen paper me use sahil liva kar gya tha aur baki ke do me papa ke sath gayi thi .....february ke end chal rha tha ....sahil ka result ab aane wala tha aur sahil ko result ki tension hona swabhavik tha... dheeraj kabhi kabhi delhi aata tha didi ke yha....wo jab bhi aata aarti ki tayi tau ke yha bhi jaroor jata...unhe bhi wo didi jeeja hi bolta tha. aarti din pratidin sahil ki chahat me doobati ja rhi thi whi sahil apni lakho kosiso ke bawzood aarti se door nhi ja paa rha tha ...ab uske pass ek hi rasta bachta tha ...wo aarti se door jane ke liye didi ke ghar se hi chala jaye...ab use bas aaarti ke result ka intzar tha ...qki agar uska result positive aata to ya to aarti kahi kisi hostel me chali jati study ke liye ya fir wo khud wha se chala jata ..qki fir aarti ko study me uski kisi help ki jaroorat nhi padti ...kya wo khood aarti se door rah payegi ???? is bat ka sahil ke as koi jwab ni thi. har roz sahil UPSC ki website check karta aur aakhirkar wo din aa hi gaya jab UPSC ki site par block letter me red coloured announcement publish huyi... " CIVIL SEVICES(MAIN) QUALIFIED RESULT" sahil ke dil ki dhadkan badh gayi thi ..usne turant aarti ko aawaz lagaya... " aarti,jaldi yha aa...jaldi se" ghar par sab log the lekin wo dono top floor par the aur baki log niche .... "kya hua ...itti tej kyu chillaye " aarti daudate huye aayi aur jaise hi computer screen pe nazr padi chup ho gayi .... " aa gya ????" "ha" dono hi nervous lag rhe the ....sahil ne pdf download ki ....mainz me kayi bar role number likhne ke bad use roll no yad ho gya th -029729. dono hi taktaki lagaye us pdf ko ghoor rhe the jisme sshil ki kathin tapsyaa ka parinam tha ....aur ek barfir se us pdf me wo number maujood tha ... ek bar fir se sahil ne kar dikhaya tha....aarti sahil ki or aur sahil aarti ki or dekh rhe the .....aur achanak se aarti teji se uchhal sahil ke seene se lag gayi sahil sambhal nhi paya aur pichhe bistar par gir gaya aur aarti uske upar .... "mujhe pahle se hi pta tha ki aap ye kar jaoge ....." aarti uske pet par chadhi huyi thi aur ye batana muskil tha ki dono me jyada khus kaun hai .... sahil ke ankho me kamyabi ki chamak thi aur aarti ki ankho me us chamak ko dekhkar khusi ki chamak. Dheraj aur sahil ke mummy papa bhi is bat se kafi khus the...didi jeeja bhi sahil ki saflta par behad khus the ...sahil ne is bar kisi bhi tarah ki party se manaa kar diya tha ..wo chahata tha ki ab jo kuchh bhi ho final result ke bad ho..... ab sahil ke samne aakhiri padav tha " INTERVIEW"...sahil ke liye ab tak ka safar kafi kathin rhaa tha ...pahle attempt me hi civil services ke interview tak pahuchacnaa ,wo bhi uske jaise background wale student ke liye ,bahut badi bat thi... do dino bad interview ka shcedule aa gya ...sahil ka interview 10 din bad tha aur ek bar fir se wo duniya jahaan ko bhoolkar apni taiyari me lag gya tha.. Do din rah gaye the sahil ke interview ke liye …aaj rat ke khane ke bad aarti aur sahil ek sath baithe the…. “aarti tum chalogi ne mere interview wale din???” “jaisa aap kaho “ aarti ne jawab diya. “ye meri zindagi ka sabse badaa din hoga ..mai chahata hut um mere sath raho …bahle hi andar na chal sako” “to fir puchh kyu rahe ho…aap chahte ho to mai jaroor chalungi….aap jab bhi life me mujhe jahaa bhi chalne ke liye bologe,mai chal dungi “ aarti ne apne dil ke emotions ko sabdo ka roop diya. Sahil use dekhta rah gayaa…pta to use bhi sabkuchh tha bas wo samjh nhi paa rhaa tha ki kya kare…wo chup rah jata hai … Sahil aarti ka samnaa karne se katrane lga tha….pahle jaisi aarti se baten bhi nhi kartaaa aur aarti ko achchhi tarah se samjh me aa rha tha ki wo aisa kyu kar rha hai… aaj sahil ka interview tha..sahil ne blue colour ka suit pahna tha aur behad handsome lag rha tha ....aarti ne ek bar pyar se uski or dekha aur mano khud hi sharma gayi " bade aaye " muskurate huye usne khud se bas itn ahi kaha.did jeeja bhi sahil ke sath UPSC aaye the ..sahil ne andar jane se pahle unke pair chhuye aur gate ki or badh gya ...tabhi pichhe se aarti ki aawaz aayi .... " ek minute...mummy mai All d best bolna bhool gayi " aarti mummy ko bolti uyi sahil ki or badh gayi aur wo gate se thik bahar khada tha...aarti uske pas aayi .... "aap jao ,pure confidence se apna interview do ....result ke bare me mat sochate rahna nhi to nervous lagoge ..bas ek bat sochana ...zindagi me kchh rishte aur kuchh insan kabhi nhi badalte ....wo aapki saflta asafalta se bahut upar hote hai......aur aap kuchh dino bad is gate ke andar ho ya bahar us se koi fark nhi padta ....mai aapka hath kabhi nhi chhodungi ... ALL THE BEST " sahil ko aarti ki baten behad pyari lagi thi usne ek halki si mukurahat di aur thanx bolta andar ki or chal diya . Sahil ka interview ho chuka tha ..aur ab wo final result ka wait kar rha tha ….bas ek bar uska nam aur us list me aana tha aur sahil IAS ban jata…lekin use dar lagtaa tha….interview to achchha hua tha lekin fir bhi …. Idhar aarti ke result bhi aane suru ho gaye the ,,,aaj uska UP-CPMT ka result aaya tha ..aarti ka fir se nhi hua tha ….. Sahil kahi bahar gya hua tha ..ghar aay to didi ne bataya ki aarti ka result aaya aur uska fir se nhi hua …. Sahil ko ye sunkar kafi dukh ho rha tha ..wo teji se upar ki or chalaa jata hai….aarti apne kamre me hi tha ..door khula tha .. “aarti?” sahil ne sar jhuka kar baithi aarti ko aawaz di . Aarti ne sar uthakar uski or dekha …uske chehre se lag rha tha ki wo ro rhi thi … “ I m sorry…mai kisi layak nhi hu ….mere se kuchh nhi ho sakta….aap ne kitni mehnat ki thi mere liye…maine sab barbad kar diya ….i m soryy..i m really sorry “ aarti fir se rone lagi . Sahil tejise aage badha aur aarti ka chehra apne dono hatho me tham liya.. “chupppp….tu kya samjhti hai???…maine teri help isliye ki thi ki tu apne sapne ko pura karne ki puri kosis kar sake na ki isliye ki mere padhaane se koi guarantee thi ki mai tera entrance clear karwa dunga…zindagi me agar kuchh pane ka zunoon ho to apne dil se puri Imandari se kosis karni chahiye aur wo tune kiya ……kyuki fir kabhi life me ye pachhtawa to nhi rahega ki yar ek bar aur kar liya hota ..ya yar ek bar dil se padh liya hota ……bas itna hi chhataa tha mai ki teri life me tujhe kabhi wo pachhtawa na ho ….…result positive aana na aana hamare hath me nhi hota ….aur tera to abhi ye first result hai ,,,abhi aur kitne result aane hai …aur kya kahaa tune……maine mehnat ki thi???? Ha ki thi ,to ??? Tu meri kuchh nhi lagti kya jo mai tere liye kuchh kar na saku ???? kya maine tujhe padhate samay ye shart rakhi thi ki tujhe exam clear hi karna ha ….nhiiii….mai bas ye chahta tha kit u apne pure potential ke sath apne aim ko pane ki kosis kar …samjhi” Aarti ke aansu rook gaye the ….use sahil ki kuchh bate samjh me aa rhi thi kuchh nhi …ha ek bat jo samjh me aayi thi wo ye ki agar life me kisi chij ko pane ka zunnon ho to dil se puri imandari se kosis karni chahiye ,….aur ab aarti wo kosis karne wali thi ….---sahil ko dil se pane ki kosis. “tahnk you ,,,thank u so much….aap meri zindagi ki andhero raste par ek ujale ke tarah aa jate ho …jab bhi kuchh samjh me nhi aata ki kya galat hai kya sahi ,kya karu kya na karu ,aap roshni ki ek kiran ki tarah mujhe rasta dikhate ho …..aap se is zanam me mera jo rishta ho wo to sab log jante hai …lekin kisi zanam ka aur bahut gahra rishta rahaa hai hmara ??” Sahil chup ho jata hai …aarti ki baten use samjh me to khub aa rhi thi ..lekin un bato ka wo kya zawab de use khud pta nhi tha …. “kuchh jyada bol gayi mai” “nhi..wo…mai ja rha hu..aurrr..ab rona mat ..plzzz.. “ sahil se jab kuchh bolte na bana to wo uthkar jane lagaa. “ agar fir roungi to aap wapas aaoge na ?” aarti ke is bat par sahil kekadam mano zam se gaye ,usne palat kar aarti ki or dekha…uske aankho me sahil ke liye pyar ka sagar hilore mar rha tha…sahil ko dar sa lagne lagaa tha us pyar ka anjaam sochkar … “aarti plzzz” wo bas itna hi bol paya. Aarti chalte huye uske pass aa khadi huyi . “kyu itna kuchh apne dil me rakhte ho aap…kah do jo kuchh bhi aapke dil me hai ….wada hai aapse.. mujhe har kadam par apne sath khada paoge …chahe rasta kaise bhi,chahe manjil koi bhi ho …mai hamesa aapke sath chalungi “ “aarti plzz samjhne ki kosis karo….” “samjha do “ aarti ne uske aakho me dekhte huye haule se kahaa. Sahil fir se chup rah jata hai …aur teji se chalet huye room se bahar nikal jata hai …. Sahil neeche aaya to didi ko baitha hua paya.. “didi mai kuchh dino ke liye ghar jana chahata hu…abhi result aane me bhi time hai …bhaiya ko bol deta hu ticket karwa denge” “ ha beta mai khud bolne wali thi …jao kafi time ho gayaa…sab se mil aao “ “ jee..” Sahil ne bas itna hi kahaa aur dheeraj se bat karne lagaa…usne bataya 4 din bad ka ticket confirm mil rahaa hai…aur sahil jane ko raji h jata hai .. Wo ab jaldi se jaldi aarti se door chale jaana chahta tha …kyu ki use ptaa tha ki agar wo yha rahaa tu kabhi na kbhi dil ki bat hotho se na sahi ankho se bayaan ho hi jayegi aur fir aarti ko chhod kar jana bahut kathin ho jayega…. Sahil muhabbat se bhag rha tha ….kitna nadaan tha becharaa ??????? Sahil didi ko bolkar kisi friend key ha chala jata hai …delhi me allahabd ke kafi ladke the aur sahil ye char din ghar se door bitana chahta tha…. Aaj sahil ko gaye dusra din tha ..wo delhi me hi tha lekin aarti se door tha…sahil ka mann bikul nhi lag rha tha ..aarti ka masoom chehara bar bar uski aankho ke samne aa rha tha ….uska dil bahut bechain tha lekin sahil sab bardasht kar rha tha …..is waqt sahil apne kuchh dosto ke sath ek coofee shop me baitha tha …pas ki table par baithe kuchh ladke ladkiya kisi exam aur result ki bat kar rhe the…. Sahil se rha na gya ..usne palat te huye puchha ..”excuse me…kaun sa result declare hua hai ??” “bhiya wo AIPMT ka, mera selection ho gya hai ….” Ek ladke ne chahkate huye jwab diya . “oh…great yar,,,congratulations…” “Thnk you bhaiya” Sahil ki bechaini aur badh gayi..pta nhi aarti ka kya hua…usne phone bhi nhi kiya….jab se aaya hu ek bar bhi phone nhi kya …na koi msg ….shayad naraz hai mujhse …koi bat nhi ..kuchh dino ki narazagi zindagi bhar ki tadap se bachaane ke liye jaan. Sahil dil me soch hi raha tha ki tabhi uska mobile par “beep” ki tune baji ….usne phone nikal kar dekha ….aarti ka msg tha …. “aap mujhse door rahne ya paass rahne ka fiasla kar sakte ho , mere jeene marne ka nhi ,BYE” Sahil ki to jaise saanse hi rook gayi… “vipul bike ki chabhi de “ sahil ne lagbahg chhekhte huye kaha… Sahil ke is tarah chhekhne se wha baitha lagbhag har shakhs uski taraf dekhne laga…uske dost bhi hairan the ..sahil badi narmi se suljhe huye tarike se bat karne wala ladka tha …lekin aaj uska rang uda hua sa tha….vipul ne bina kuchh puchhe bike ki chabhi uski or badha di .. Sahil ne phone nikalkar aarti ko kayi bar phone kiya par wo phone nhi utha rhi thi ,,,usne jeeja ko phone kiya to pta chala ki didi aur wo aaj subah se hi kahi bahar hai …ab sahil ka dil aur joro se dhadkane lagaaa… Wo teji se bike chalate huye didi ke ghar ki or badh chalaa…. “kahi aarti ka result fir se negative to nhi aaya???? …kahi usne kuchh kar ‘’’…..???? nhi..nhi …aisa kuchh nhi karegi wo “ sahil apne dil ko tassalli de rha tha lekin uski aankhe baras rhi thi . Koi 40 minut ki tej drive ke bad sahil didi keghar phucha …bike bahar hi patak kar wo teji se andar bhaga…”aarti…aarti..kaha ho tum ….???” Ghar me pahuchate hi wo tej tej aarti ko aawaze dene lagaa…par aarti ko kahi na pakar wo teji se upar ki or bhaga… Third floor par pahuchte hi usne dekha ki aarti ke room ka door andar se band tha ….. “aarti darwaza kholo …plzzzz…” wo teji se door peetne laga… Kuchh hi palo bad darwaza khola aarti ne ……sahil ke nazre uske chehre par jam thi ,,,use dekhkar aisa lag rha tha ki bahut der se roti rahi thi …aankho se ratjagi saf pat chal rhi thi …uski halat dekh kar kisis ki bhi uspar taras aa jata,,,par sahl ko nhi aayaa….. aaj nhi …. Sahil ka ek jordar chata uske galo par pada….aarti ka chehra sunn ho gya …uski aankh se aansu nikal gaye …lekin wo waise hi khadi rahi ….. “kya sabit karna chahti ho tum ???” Sahil khud bhi ro rha tha ….aarti ko chup dekhkar jhunjhala gya … “bolo damn it …jawab do “ “kuchh sabit nhi karna chahti ,,,bas dekhna chahti thi ki jis tarah mujhse door hone se aapko koi fark nhi padta ,kya vaise hi mere jeene marne se bhi nhi padta “ aarti ke aankho se aansu nikal rhe the aue wo ektak sahil ki aankho me dekhe ja rhi thi. Ab sahil se bardasht nhi ho rha tha … “fark padta hai damn it…..tumse door hokar kaise raha hu mai hi janta hu …..agar tumhe kuchh ho jata to tumhari kasam mai bhi nhi jeeta …kaise soch liya tumne ki mujhe koi fark nhi padega …ha..bolo….” sahil ne khichkar use apne gale se lagaa liya .. Aarti sahil se kaskar chipak gayi …dono ki aankho se ansuo ki barsat ho rhi thi …. “ agar aaj aap na aate to kal aapko aarti na milti ,,,aapki kasam jan de deti mai apni “ aarti roye ja rhi thi . “nhi…aisa kabhi nahi karna…tum to jaan ho meri …haa aarti pyar karta hu mai tumse …baut pyar …aaj se nahi barso se …tumhare bina kaise jee paunga kabhi socha nhi ….” Aakhir sahil ke sabr ka bandh toot hi gaya..aur aarti ko to mano man ki murad mil gayi . “ mai bhi aapse bahut pyar karti hu …bahut jyada pyar …mujhe kabhi chhod kar mat jana …jee nhi paungi mai “ aarti aur jor se chipak gayi sahil se . Aaj dono ke pyar ka Milan to ho gaya tha…lekin sangam abhi bhi baki thi …aur baki tha abhi bhi niyatee ka ek ganda khel . ______________________________ Sahil aur aarti kuchh der yuhi ekdusre se lage rahe aur fir jab alag huye to dono ke dilo me khusi thi ,sukoon tha aur dher sara pyar tha …..lekin kuchh aur bhi tha jo dono ke dilo me tha ….aarti ke dil me sharm ki ek nayi lahar aur sahil ki dil me ek chinta ki unke is naye “ RISHTE “ ka anjam kya hoga…lekin aarti ko is bat ki mano koi parwah nhi thi … Sahil aur aarti ek dusre se alag ho chuke the …ab dono khamosh the…rishte k ek naye rang ne un dono ke bich jhijhak ki ek nayi deewar khadi kar di thi …jise door hone me thoda waqt to lagna hi tha …aakhir us khamoshi ko sahil ne hi toda… “tumhara result aa gya hai na AIPMT KA…????” “hmmm” aarti ne kuchh sochte huye kaha…. “kya hua??” sahil ka dil jor se dhadaka… “ ho gya hai” aarti ne aise kaho mano kuchh hua hi na ho… “whatttt??? Aur tum ab bataa rhi ho ?? phone nhi kar sakti thi…??? Itni khusi ki bat….pagal ho kya tum…didi ko bataya…????” sahil ki khusi dekhne layak thi…lekin aarti shant thi … “kya hua?” sahil ne puchha. “kya phone karti ??? aap to naraz the ….…jisne in aankho ke sapne ko udane ke liye pankh diye,hausla diya ,jab wo hi sath na tha to us sapne ke poora hone ki khusi kya manati ????? …. aur ek bat bolu aapse…manjil par pahuchane ki khusi tabhi hoti hai jab hamsafar sath ho” aarti ne sahil ki aankhe me dekhte huye kaha fir nazre jhuka li. Sahil ka dil pyar se bhar gya …kitni badi bat kah di thi aarti ne…sahil ne aarti ko ek bar ifr se gale lagaa liya … “pagal ho tum …chalo mujhe bhi to result dikhao” Sahil aur aarti computer ke samne baithe result check kar rhe the…… Aarti ki 860th ALL INDIA RANK THI ….aur usko MBBS milna tay tha … “tumne kar dikhya aarti …thank you …tumne mere vishwas ka maan rakh liya …” sahil ne pyar se uske najuk gore hath apne hatho me lete huye kaha… “ kaisi bat kar rhe hai aap…aapko mera upar itna bharosa tha jitna shayad mujhe khud par nhi tha …aapne mere sapne ko pura karne ke liye kya nhi kiya…apne itne tough exam ke sar par rahte aapne mere liye fir se padhai ki…...mere liye notes banaye ...maine to us sapne ke pura hona ka sochana bhi chhod diya tha ...agar aap mere sath na hote to mai zindagi bhar ye nhi kar pati …lekin mai aapko thank you nhi bolungi….kyu ki…..” “kyu ki???” sahil ne jhuk kar sar jhukaye aarti ki aankho me dekhte huye bola … “ kuchh nhi ” aarti Sharma gayi… Batao na “ sahil ab use chhed rha tha …tabhi door bell baji …. “kyuki mummy aa gayi “ aarti haste huye darwaza kholne bhagi aur sahil bas muskura kar rah gya … Jahir hai darwaza kholte hi aarti ne mummy papa ko sabkuchh bataa diya tha aur ab mummy use pyar se khud se chipkaye kamre me pahuchi ….aur aaj sahil ki bari thi party mangne ki…………. “ab party to banti hai” sahil ne muskurate huye kahaa.. “haan,haan bhai party jaroor hogi aakhir hamari bitiya rani MBBS jo ban gayi hai ” jeeja pichhe se aate huye bole.” “lekin aaj party bahar hogi,ghar par nhi …aaj party ham denge …chalo sab log taiyar ho jao” unhone apni bat ko aage badhaya.. “nhi papa..abhi to aap aaye hai ..thake honge ..kal ar lenge ..jane dijiye …” aarti ne kaha.. “ ha beta ,thake to the lekin ab sari thakaan mit gaye ...aapne hamara sar fakr se uchaa kar diya ...i m proud of you ...…chalo ab fatafat taiyar ho jao….aur aaj ki party sahil ke nam…thank u sahil …” jeeja ne sahil ke kandhe par hath rakhte huye kahaa. “are jiju aap kaisi bat kar rhe hai…maine kuchh nhi kiya …ye to aarti ki himmat aur mehnat ka fal hai “ sahil ko un sabke khile huye chehre dekhkar kafi khusi ho rhi thi …. “nhi beta,tumhare jeeja thik hi to kah rhe hai …aarti ne mehnat ki hai lekin us mehnat ka vishwas use tumne hi dilaya …ek maa baap ke dil k khusi puri kar di tumne …meri dua hai ki tumhe bhi apna lakshya mile ..zindagi me har khusi mile..….jug jug jiyo” didi ke aankhe bhar aayi itna bolte bolte.. “ oooffho mummy aap bhi na ….chalo sab ready hote hai kahi papa ka mood change na ho jaye “ aarti ne mahol ko badalte huye kaha. Sham ke lagbhag 4 baj sablog ghar se nikle ..aaj aarti ne ek patiyala suit aur pajama pahna tha …yello blue suit me uska roop nikhar sa gya tha …...usne bahut apne mathe par ek chhoti si bindi bhi lagayi thi aur hatho me red aur green chudiya ..thodi si hi ... aaj bahot dino bat aarti behad khus lag rhi thi …aakhir ho bhi kyu na …uski umeed se jyada mil gya tha use... use bhi pyar ho gya tha aur uska pyar uske pas tha ...kam se kam abhi to tha hi ... Jeeja aage ke seat par baithe drive kar rhe the ..unke bagal me didi baithi thi aur pichhe ki seat par sahil aur aarti …sahil aarti ko apne itne pass pakar thoda nervous feel kar rha tha …vaise to wo hames hi sath rahte the padhai ke time apr lekin ab bat alag thi ..tab wo dost the ab wo premi the…aaj aarti behad pyari lag rhi thi …na chahte huye bhi sahil ki nazre bar bar aarti ki or uth rhi thi ..kayi bar aarti ne use apni or dekhte paya aur bas muskura kar rah jati …dil me khusi ho rhi thi …hoti bi kyu na aaj uske liye hi to saji sawari thi …aur wo kahte hai na …. “jab tak na pade dilbar ki nazar ,shingar adhura rahta hai” …sahil ki uthati nazre uske chehre par hayaa ki lali bikher rahi thi aur sachmuch uska shingar pura ho rahaa tha . Raste me jeeja ATM se paise nikalne ke liye utare ..thodi der hone apr didi bhi nikli…sahil aur aarti ko kuchh akele pal mil gaye … “aap mujhe bar bar aise kyu dekh rhe ho ??” aarti ne sahrmate huye puchha. “kahaan…nhi to” saf saf mukar gaya paththaa is bar. “achchha…jyada na jhooth mat bola kijiye …” aarti boli. Sahil thodi der chup rhaa…fir uske kan ke pas apne hoth lejakar bola “tujhe jee bhar ke dekhu mai , mujhe haq hai “ “bade aaye “ aarti ka sharm se buraa hal tha ..bas itna hi bol payi. “ sach me tum bahut khoobsoorat lag rhi ho …ab meri nazar bar bar tum par jar hi hai to mai kya karu …” sahil ko uska yu lajana sharmana bahut achchha lag rha tha…. “jhoote kahi ke “ Aarti ko sahil ke muh se apni tariff bahut achchhi lagi thi …ise pahle sahil kuchh kahata, didi jeeja ko aate dekha to hatkar thode door door baith gaye….. Restaurant me pahuchkar sabne apne apni pasand ke order kiye ....aur khane ke bad aarti ko ukse papa ne shopping karwayi…. der rat sab log ghar pahuche…. chandani rat thi aur sab log apne kamre me the …sahil aur aarti bahar chandani rat me chatai bichahakar chhat par baithe the ….. Sahil yuhi aarti ki or dekhta hai aur aarti fir se muskura deti hai….sahil apni nazre jhuka leta hai…abhi bhi dono me ek jhijhak thi aur unka payr sharmane aur muskurane ki is sarhad ko par nhi kar paya tha. “kya soch rhe ho aap ?” “yhi soch rha hu ki jo ham kar rhe hai galat hai ya sahi ?? “ “kya pyar karna galat hai …???” “nhi aarti ….tum sab kcuhh janti ho fir bhi ….kya hoga hamare is pyar ka anjaam ??? kya koi manega hamare is rishte ko …kya mummy papa manenge,kya didi jeeja manenge…kya duniya manegi …??” “mujhe kisi ki parwah nhi hai …aur meri duniya bas aap se hi hai “ aarti ne sahil ke kandhe par sar tika diya … “aur ek bat aap aur jan lo kabhi mujhe chhodane ki mat sochana….meri life ya to aapke sath hai …ya fir…….nhi hai “ aarti ne apni aankhe band kate huye kahaa. “nhi pagal…kabhi nhi chhodunga …tumhe kya lagta hai mai tumhe chhodakr jee paunga…pyar to tumse hamesa se hi tha…bas kabhi samjh nhi paya…duniyo ke riwajo se dar lagta hai….”sahil ne apne sar uske sar se tikate huye kaha. Aarti kuchh nhi boli ….sahil ke majboot kandho par duniya se beniyaz use sukoon mil rha tha …. “ aarti? “ sahil ne pukara.. “hmmm” “kuchh mangu ,dogi “ “kya??” aarti us se alag huyi aur uski aankho me dekhte huye boli. “ek bar wo geet suno do…dil deewana bin sajna ke ?? sahil ne kaha. Aarti ne koi na nukoor nhi kiya aur fir se sahil ke kandhe par sar rakhkar pyar se gane lagi …aaj aarti ki aawaz me ek alag hi mithas thi …qki aaj uske geet me sachmuch ek sandesh tha ….ek chahat thi .geet khatm hote hote sahil aarti ki god me sar rakhkar let chukka tha aur aarti pyar se uske balo me hath fer rhi thi …. “bahut achchha gati ho , thank you…vaise kis ke liye gaya ye geet?? “ sahil ab firse aarti ko chhedne par aa gya tha .. “mujhe nhi pta “ aarti samjh gayi uski sharaarat. “lekin mujhe to jan na hai ? “to fir khud hi pta lar lo” “tum bta do na “ “achchha bta du ???” “haa” “Sach me ??” “bataa bhi do “ “ek jungali ullu ke liye “ “sadeli si “ sahil ne ruthne ka natak karte huye muh dusri or kar liya … “are,,are..areeeee …naraz ho gaye ..achchha sorry baba…ek bat aap se puchho ?”” “nhi…” sahil ne kaha .. “haan haan jaise aap nhi kah doge aur mai maan jaungi…mai to puchhungi …” sahil ko dusri or dekhta dekhkar aarti ne apne komal hatho se uske gal ko sahlate huye apni or chahra kiya aur uski aankho me dekhte hue boli.. “hey ,,sorry bola na yar …aap ke liye gaa rhi thi ….basss khusss” aarti badi muskil se bol payi … Sahil ka chehra khil gya ….naraz to wo tha nhi lekin apne pyar se koi premi roothta hi isi umeed me hai ki wo use manayegi …aur aisa hi hua…sahil ne aarti ki najuk kalai pakad li …gori kalayiyo me chudiya bahut pyari lag rhi thi …aarti ne apna hath chudane ki koi kosis nhi ki …sahil uski chudiyo se khelne lagaa… “puchhu aap se ek bat ??” “hmm” sahil ne kaha. “aap hamesa mujhe aise hi chahoge na…zindagi bhar ….” Aarti ne bade bharose ,bade maan ke sath puchha. “aarti mai tumhe kuchh sunata hu ….” Sahil uski god se uthkar baith gya …uske dono hath apne hatho me le liye …aur uski aankho me dekhte huye ke pyari si nazm suna ne lagaaa…. Sahil ko aarti ki bat ka jawab bhi dena tha aur apne dil ki gaharayi me usne bachpan se hi aarti ke liye kitna pyar chhupa rakha tha ye bhi batana tha ….usne """"Wo Kehti Hai, Sada Aisey Hi Kya Tumm Mujhko Chahogey K Mai Iss Mai Kami Bilkul Gawara Karr Nahii Sakti Mai Kehta Hoo’n, Mohabbat Kya Hai Ye Tumne Sikhaya Hai Mujhe Tumsey Mohabbat K Siwa Kuchh Bhi Nahii Aata. Wo Kehti Hai Judai Se Boht Darta Hai Dill Mera K Tumko Khudd Se Hatt Kar Daikhna Mumkin Nahii Hai Abb Mai Kehta Hoo’n Yahi Khadshey Boht Mujhko Satatey Hain Magar Sach Hai Mohabbat Mai Judai Sath Chalti Hai. Wo Kehti Hai Batao Kya Merey Binn Jee Sakogay Tumm Meri Batain Meri Yadain, Meri Aankhain Bhula Do Gay? Mai Kehta Hoo’n Kabhi Iss Baat Par Socha Nahii Mainey Agar Ikk Pall Ko Bhi Sochoo’n Tau Sansain Rukne Lagti Hain. Wo Kehti Hai Tumhe Mujhse Mohabbat Iss Qadar Kyu’n Hai K Mai Ikk Aam Si Larhki Tumhe Kyu’n Khas Lagti Hoo’n Mai Kehta Hoon Kabhi Khudko Meri Aankho’n Se Tum Daikho Meri Deevangii Kyu’n Hai Ye Khud Hii Jaan Jaa’ogay. Wo Kehti Hai Mujhe Waraftagee Se Daikhte Kyu’n Ho? K Mai Khuddko Boht Hi Qeematii Mehsoos Karti Hoon Mai Kehta Hoon Mata E Jaa’n Boht Anmol Hoti Hai Tumhe Jab Dekhta Hoon Zindagi Mehsoos Karta Hoon. Wo Kehti Hai Mujhey Alfaaz K Jughnoo Nahi Miltey Tumhe Batla Sakoo’n Dill Mai Merey Kitni Mohabbat Hai Mai Kehta Hoon Mohabbat To Nigaho’n Se Chhalakti Hai Tumhari Khamoshi Mujhse Tumhari Baat Karti Hai. Wo Kehti Hai Batao Na Kisey Khone Se Darte Ho? Batao Kaun Hai Wo Jisko Ye Mausam Bulate Hain? Mai Kehta Hoon Ye Meri Shayari Hai Aaina Dill Ka Zara Daikho Batao Kuchh Tumhe Iss Mai Nazar Aaya. Wo Kehti Hai K “Aashiq” Jee Boht Batain Banatey Ho Magar Such Hai K Ye Batain Boht Hii Shaad Rakhti Hain Mai Kehta Hoon Ye Sab Batain, Fasane Ikk Bahana Hain K Pall Kuchh Zindagani K Tumharey Sath Katt Jayain Phir Uss K Baad Khamoshi Ka Dilkash Raqs Hota Hai Nagahain Bolti Hain Aur Labb Khamosh Rehte Hain. Wo Kehti Hai Suno Jana’n Mohabbat Maum Ka Ghar Hai Tapish Ye Bad Ghumani Ki Kahee’n Pighla Na De Isko Mai Kehta Hoon K Jiss Dil Mai Zara Bhi Bad Ghumani Ho Waha’n Kuchh Aur Ho Tau Ho Mohabbat Ho Nahi Sakti. Wo Kehti Hai, Sada Aisey Hi Kya Tumm Mujhko Chahogey K Mai Iss Mai Kami Bilkul Gawara Karr Nahii Sakti Mai Kehta Hoon, Mohabbat Kya Hai Ye Tumne Sikhaya Hai Mujhe Tumsey Mohabbat K Siwa Kuchh Bhi Nahi…………………….wo kahti hai….""""" Nazm khatm ho chuki thi aur aarti ko lag rha tha ki wo kisi aur hi duniya me hai ….sahil ne aarti ke or dekha uska aankho se aansu k eek boond nikalkar uske gore gore mulayam galo ko bhigo rhi thi …. “ek to tumhe ptaa nhi q har bat par rona aata hai….aansu hai ki rookte hi nhi ? “ sahil ne jhat se uski aankho ke aansu pochh dale . Aarti sahil ke gale se lag gayi .. “jab tak mai hu kabhi mat rona samjhi …mujhe tumhari aankho me aansu nhi dekhe jate …” “ are ye to khusi ke aansu the ….jab aap mere sath ho to mujhe koi gham nhi …bas ye sochkar aansu aa gaye ki itna pyar karte the aap mujhse ….kabhi kah na sakte the ???” “kaise kahta …duniya se darta tha ..aur tum se bhi ….kahi apna sabse pyar dost na kho du “ “pagal ho aap..idhar aao “ aarti ne apni bahe khol di aur sahil un baho me samaa gya …jahaa sukoon tha ,bharosa tha aur ek pyar bharaa jahaan tha. Aarti sahil ke balo ko sahlane lagi ….thodi der sahil yuhi uske gale lagaa rha …rat ke 12.30 baj chuke the … “sone chale ab “ aarti ne uske kan me dheere se kaha.. Sahil us se alag hua …aur naa me garden hila di … “bahut der ho chuki hai …. chalte hai na” aarti usko mano kisi chhote bachche ki tarah samjha rhi thi …. “thik hai …par ek shart hai “ “achchha jee..aur wo kya hai” “bas yhi ki mai aapke sath hi soyunga” sahil aaram se aarti ka hath apne hatho me lekar fir se uski god me let gya aur aankh marta hua bola. “hainnnnn” aarti ne hairat se aankhe badi karte huye uski or dekha …sahil ke hotho par ek shararati muskan thi … “jee haa” usne itminana se kahaa . Aarti sahil ki baton se sharma bhi rhi thi aur thodi paresan bhi lag rhi thi ...fir usne kuchh socha aur uthakar jane lagi ... "kaha ja rhi ho " aarti ko jeene ki taraf jate dekh sahil ne puchha . "abhi aayi "aarti ne mudkar kaha....thodi der bad wapas aakar sahil ke pas baith gayi... "gayi thi jeene ka door andar se band karne ...subah kisi ke uthane se pahle hi uthakar khol dungi " aarti ne sahil ki ankho me dekhte huye kaha..aur sahil ke hotho par bhi muskan aa gayi.... "achchaa to fir ham dono aaj ek sath soyenge..hai naa ? " sahil ek bar fir se aarti ki god me late gya.... aarti bas haule haule muskura rhi thi ....is pyar ke khel me dono hi bilkul kore the .... "sahil ,so jaye ab ? " aarti abhi bhi sahil ke or bina dekhe boli... "haa...yhi so jaye " sahil ne uski marji puchhi. "thik hai " aarti ne kaha aur sahil khud b khud uski god se utarkar niche let gya.... "sahil aap ghar ja rhe hai ,,,mummy bataa rhi thi???" sahil ko aarti ke muh se apna nam kafi achchha lag rha tha ...wo is se pahle aarti ke sath kuchh bat suru karta ,aarti ne puchh diya. "ha...kafi din ho gayaa..soch rha hu ghoom aayu" "aur mai???? " "tum??? tumhe kya hua" sahil bhi sachmuch ka anaadi tha. "kuchh nhi hua...aap to kuchh samjhte hi nhi.....jaiye aap...mera kya...ek bar bhi sochaa mai aapke bina akele kaise rahungi ????" aarti ka ye shikwa sahil ko sachmuch hi bahut bhalaa laga...bahut pyar aa rha tha use aarti par .... toot kar pyar aa rha tha ...aaj use lag rha tha ki life ktni pyari lagne lagti hai jab ksi ko aap ke hone na hone ,aane jane se koi fark padne lagataa hai ...jab aapke sath kisi aur ki zindagi bhi jud jati hai ... "na jau???" sahil ne uski aankho me dekhte huye puchha. "jaiye...mai kyu manaa karu ...lekin mujhe aap ki bahut yad aayegi .." aarti ne ruaansi hote huye kahaa...sahil ke dil me aaya ki sachmuch use apne dil me chhupa le...jaha use uske siwa koi dekh bhi na sake ,,,uspar sirf sahil ka haq ho ... wo thoda serious hote huye bola... "lekin aarti kal ko tumhara admission kahi bhi ho sakta hai ...fir to ham alag honge na ..." "mai admission nhi lungi fir " "kyaaa???" sahil ko lagaa usne kuchh galat sun liya ... "haa...jo cheej aapse door hokar hasil ho uski koi keemat nhi hai meri life me..." "pagal ho gayi ho .....ktni mehanat kii ha tumne uske liye..." "sahil is bare me koi bat nhi karenge ab hum....mai aapse door nhi jaungi ...nhi rah sakti mai ....." aarti mano sachmuch ro dene ko thi "achcha aur agar mera selection ho gaya to ????" sahil ne kaha.. "to aap chale jayiyega" aarti ne aakhir hathiyar dal diye ....par uski aankhe bhar aayi .... "pagal ho tum poori...." sahil ne kaha aur uski or jhukta chalaa gya aarti abhi bhi baithi huyi thi ...sahil ne haule se uska hath pakad kar khicha aur aarti sahil ke seene me samati chali gayi ....aarti ki lower body abhi bhi niche thi lekin uska upper half sahil ke seen se lagta hua uske upar tha ...sahil ko apne seene me aarti ke unnat , unchhuye ubhar dabte se mahssos ho rhe the .... aarti ke lambe,kale ghane bal sahil ki jism par bikhre huye se the aur aarti ne apna chehra uske seene me chhupa rkaha tha....... sunsan chandani rat, gamle me lage phulo ki khusboo se mahakti fiza , vegvati nadi ki bhati saanse leti ek nav yauvanaa aur ek deewana- --- do prem pujariyo ke milan ke liye mano kudarat ne khud hi sari sajawat kar di thi ....pahle pyar ki pahli barsat to ab honi hi thi ... sahil ne aarti ka chehra apne hatho me tham liya aur uski aankho me dekhte huye bola .... "aarti hum dono ko hamesa ke liye door nhi jana hai ....aur hame koi door kar bhi nhi sakta ab......hum fir wapas milenge na.....aur tumse vada hai ki jab bhi tum bulaogi mai sabkuchh chhodkar tumhare pass chala aunga ...ab plz rona mat ....plz jaan ..." aarti ne fataafat apne aankho ke aansu saf kar lye .. . "lekin aapki yad to aayegi na jab aap chale jaoge gaon...." "achcha to fir aisa karte hai ki tum bhi chalo mere sath gaon ...bad ki bad me dekhenge..." sahil ne uske galo ka pyar se sahlate huye kahaa.. "sach" aarti ki aankho ke diye jal uthe .... "haa....abhi admission ki counciling me lagbhag 20 din hai ...di se mai bat kar lunga" "thank you jannu " aarti ne aaj pahli bar sahil ke liye is sabd ka istemaal kiya tha ...sahil ka man jhoom utha... usne aarti ke chehre ko apne bilkul pas kar liya aur ektak uski aankho me dekhte huye bola.... "aaj sirf thank u se kam nhi chalega ....aaj to kuchh aur ...." sahil itna hi bola paya tha ki aarti ne uske hotho par hath rakh diye ..... sahil ne aarti ki najuk kalaii pakdi aur apne hoth uski patli,najuk lambi ungliyo par rakh diye ..sahil ne uske hatho ko chhom liya aur aarti ke sare jism me ek tarang se umad padi .... uska chehra sharm ke mare ekdam laa ho gya aur usne aankhe band kar li...aaj sahil ko sachmuch haq tha usko apni pyar ki barsat se sarabor kar dene ka....bas dekhne ye tha ki ye barsat kitne joro ki hone wali thi. Aarti ka sharm se bura hal tha…lekin wo sahil ko manaa bhi nhi kar rhi thi…aur sahil aaj apne pyar ka haq wasool kar lena chah rha tha ,usne aarti ke hatho ko chumte huye uski aankho me dekha ….aarti ne abhi bhi aankhe band kar rakhi thi..sahil ne aage badhkar uski band aankho ko choom liya …sahil ke larjate labo ke chumban ka ahsas apni aankho par mahsoos karke aarti ke dil ko sukoon mil rha tha lekin use sharm bhi bahut aa rhi thi aur uska dil joron se dhadak rha tha….. Aarti chat par chandani rat me neele aasman ke niche leti huyi apne roop yauvan ka sagar apne pyar par luta dene ko mano puri tarah se taiyar thi…kamdev ka kaam baan un dono par chal chukka tha aur ab kaamaagni me dono ke badan sulag rhe the … Sahil ne aarti ki aankho ko choomne ke bad use niche lita diya aur khud upar ho gya….kuchh der tak aarti ke masoom chehre ko yuhi niharataa rha …. chanadani rat me ek nayi naveli kali ne khud ko samarpit kar diya tha, khud apne jawani ka amrit apne premi par luta dena chahti thi…sahil ko aarti is kadar pavitra lag rhi thi ki mano chhune se maili ho jaye …uska roop dhula dhula sa, khila khila sa is kadar pyara lag rha tha ki sahil ke dil me aaya ki kash sari zindagi yuhi use niharate huye kat jaye .............thodi der tak sahil yuhi use dekgta rha aur aarti ne aankhe khol di…..sahil ke hoth uske aankhe se alag ho chuke the lekin abhi bhi uske chehre par hi the,,,,jaise hi aarti ne aankhe kholi sahil ko apne itane kareeb dekhkar Sharma gayi aur fir se aankhe band kar li…. “ aarti ..plz aankhe kholo na…..plz jaan “ Aarti ne aankhe khole aur sahil ki or dekhne lagi…uske chehre par faili sharm ki laali uske katilana husn me chaar chand lagaa rhi thi…..sahil ne use aankhe khole dekha to muskura utha….. “ek kiss kar loo???” dheere se aarti ke kano me sargoshi ki……….sach me poora anadi tha sahil bhi …. Aarti kuchh nhi boli..bas Sharma kar dusri or muh fer liya …sahil ne aarti k ek hath me apne hath ki anguliya fasai aur dusre hath se uska chehra apne thik samne kiya ……. Aarti ka sharm se bura hal tha aur ek bar fir se usne aankhe band kar li…..sahil ki saanse use apne hotho par mahssos ho rhi thi aur uske mann me yhi chal rha tha ki abbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb………………. Sahil ko sahyad use tang karne me majaa aa rha tha ..wo kuchh der tak yuhi rooka rha …aaakhirkar aarti ne aankhe kholi aur sahil ki or dekha …sahil to mano isi mauke ke intzar me tha ….. “bolo naa kiss kar loo????” Aarti ko sahil par gusaa aa rha tha …kitna tang karta tha wo…. “batao na……??” aarti ko thode gusse me dehakr sahil use aur chhedne lagaa… “nhi….???” Aarti itna hi bol payi thi ki uske mulayam ras bhari gulab ki pankhudiya sahil ke dahkate labo ke bich kaid ho gayi ..aarti ki aankhe khuli thi aur sahil ektak un aankho ki gahrayi me dekhte huye uske hotho ke ras nichod rha tha ….aarti ke hath ki anguliya sahil ki anguliyo me fasi thi au sahil ne use poori tarah se apni baho me lappet liya tha ….aarti mard ke jism ke pratham sparsh se garam hone lagi thi aur usne bhi sahil ke lab halke halke chusne suru kar diye the …. sahil ne aarti ke balo me ungali ferte huye uske galo ,aur hotho ko puri tarah se peena suru kar diya…aarti bhi ab sahil ke lab chus rhi thi aur sahil ke ke balo me ungaliya fer rhi thi….dono ke jism ek dusre se ragad rhe the aur ekdusre ke ubhare hisso ka ahsas dono ko hi ho rha tha…… Kuchh der take ek dusre ke lab chusne ke bad aarti mano thak si gayi thi aur usne sahil ke labo ko aazad kar diya …sahil bhi shayad samjh gya tha ….sahil ne aarti ke ubharo par pade udpatte ko hataya aur uske unnat ,nukile ubhar aur ubharkar mano sahil ko nyota dene lage …. Sahil ne apne lab uske gale se lagaa diye aur apne hotho se uske gale ko chusne laga…aari ke hath ab sahil ke balo me fisal rhe the aur uski back ko sahalaa rhe the ………….aarti aur sahil ekdusre me mano ulajh se gaye the…dono ke pair ekdusre se guthe huye lag rhe the aur sahil aarti ke yauvan ke ras ko pee rha tha mano koi bhawara kisi kali ka ras choos rha ho…..use loot rha ho……aur wo kali bhi khusi khusi lutanaa chaah rhi thi…. “nhi sahil plz…abhi nhi “ sahil ne jaise hi apne hath aarti ke tane huye nipple par rakhe aarti sisak uthi……..sahil ne is teji se apna hath hataya mano use current lag gya ho…jaldi se aarti se hatkar alag baith gya ….sirf is dar se kahi aarti ko bura na lag jaye …kahi aarti naraz na ho jaye ….aarti ko fir se sahil par pyar aaya …kitna bhalaa tha wo …sirf ek bar mana kar dene par ….jabki ye to uska haq tha …. Aarti bhi uthkar baith chuki thi aur sahil us se nazre nhi mila rha tha …..thodi der khamoshi rhi dono ke bich….. “sorry” sahil ne bina uski or dekhe kaha. Aarti ne sahil ka chera apne hatho me liya aur uske aankho me dekhte huye boli…. “nhiii...I m sorry jannn” “tumhe sorry bolne ki koi jaroorat nhi …mai hi galat tha……” sahil ne kaha… “nhi sahil ….meri aankho me dekhiye ….plzzz…aap khud ko galat kyu samjhte hai…ye to har premi ka haq hota hai...........aur samrpan har premika ka kartavya….aap ki kasam mujhe bura nhi lagaa…..mai to bas aap se kuchh kahna chahti thi…kuchh manganaa chahi thi….” Sahil ka etmad fir se wapas aa gaya tha aarti ki bato se…. “mai aur mera sabkuchh to tumhara hi hai …maango kya mangana hai ???” “ sahil mai chahti hu ki hum apni maryada ki deewar ko apn sadi ki pahli rat tak banaye rakhe……mai bas yahi chahti thi…….lekin aap jo bhi kahoge mujhe manjoor hoga ….” “aarti kya sachmuch wo din aaayega ….kya hamari sadi hogi ?????.kya sachmuch tum meri dulhan banogi…..???”””” sahil ne galat time par galat sawal kar diya.. “kya matlab????????????????? Sahil agar mai aapke sath nhi ,to fir mai is duniya me nhi …..aapko shayad meri baton par yakeen nhi …kabhi bhi aajma lijiye…ar agar mai dulhan banungi to sirf aapki nhi to arthi hi sahi……………..” Aarti bahut bhavuk ho gayi thi aur sahil ko apni galti ka ahsas ho gya tha ….usne mahol ko khusnuma banana ki kosis ki……. “achchhaa sorry baba……tum meri hi dulhan banogi……lekin ek bat bolu tum itni kayamat lagti ho ki mai ye vada nhi kar sakta ki sadi ki pahli rat tak ma tumhe …………..” sahil itna hi bol paya tha ki aarti ne uske hotho par hath rakh diye. “besharam kahi ke ….…kuchh bhi bolte jate hai” aarti uski bato se lajaa gayi… “are to yha kaun sun rha hai ???” “kyu…mai sun rhi hu na …mujhe sharam nhi aayegi kya???” “ab tum mujhse kyu Sharmaati ho……tum to meri hi ho aur mai tumhara..hai na…..” “jee ha…par sharram apno se aur bhi jyada aati hai samjhe buddhu ram “ “kya karu yar …tum ho hi itni khoobsoorat aur tumhare ye………..” Sahil ne apni anguli uske ubharo ki or utha di ………………. “youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu? Bahut gande ho aap ….besharam kahi ke …sabke samne to kaise sharif bane firte hai aur akeli ladke ke breasts………..” Aarti bolte bolte rook gayi aur fir apne hotho ko dato se daba liya …galti se usne kya bol diya…..sahil hasne lagaa aarti ki halat par aur aarti uske seene par ghuse marne lage ……pyar ki ladai suru ho gyi…. “aap sach me bahut gande ho… ha nhi to “ aarti ne apna sar sahil ke seene me chhupa liya aur sahil aarti ko apni baho me lapete let gaya…dono ke jism ekdusre se chipke huye the aur mano jaan dono ki ek ho gayi thi….. dono ke pyar ke raste me rukavate thi lekin payr ke pankshi un sab se bekhabar apna ghosala banaa rhe the …duniya se beniyaz,bekhabar bas ek dusre ke liye jeene marne ki kasame khayi jar hi thi …wade kiye ja rhe the…. Lekin payr karne walo ko aur unke pyar ko duniya ki nazar lagati rhi hai aur lagti rahegi……pyar ke vaade toot te rahe hai aur toot te rahenege.yahi duniya ka dastoor hai…ab ye dekhna tha ki pyar ki naiyaa par sawar ye musafir kitni door tak ekdusre ka sath nibha pate hai…. Sahil aur aarti ke pyar ka rang gahra hota ja rha tha….aarti aur sahil ab bhi ekdusre se vaise hi ladte aur ab bhi parinam whi hota- sahil ki haar…..lekin ab aarti sahil se lajati bhi thi…aur sahil ko uska lajana -sharmana bahut achchha lagta tha …. Subah ke 9 baje the…….Sahil aaj gaon ja rha tha..sham 7.30 ki train thi …..aarti ko jane ki permission ghar se to sahil ne dila di thi lekin use bahut sare apne documents etc. tayar rakhne the counciling ke liye isliye wo sahil ke saath nhi ja pa rhi thi….sahil ko aarti aaj subah se hi kam dikh rhi thi aur bar bar uski nazre aarti ko talash rhi thi….ek do bar wo dikhi bhi thi to sahil ke samne nhi rook rhi thi….sab log khana kha kar apne apne room me the …dophar ke koi 2 baj rhe the….sahil ki sari packing ho chuki thi is samay wo chup chap apne room me baitha tha ………..man to uska bhi udas ho rha tha …bhale hi gaon jane ki khusi thi lekinn aarti se door jane ka gham bhi tha…. Aakhirkar us se rha nhi gya aur usne aarti ke mobile par sms kiya……………. “jab koi kahi ja rha ho to us se naraz nhi hote …...kya pata kaun si mulakat aakhiri ho” Sahil ko pta tha ki aarti naraz us se nhi h,,..bas uske jane se udas h isiliye shayad uske samne nhi aa rhi lekin use puri umeed thi ki uske bheje huye is sms ka reply jaroor aayega –usne bat hi aisi likh di thi….jawab to aana hi tha…lekin jo jawab aaya wo sahil ki umeed se badhkar tha …. 2 mi bhi pure nhi huye the ki aarti dandanate huye sahl ke room me pahuchi…… “aapko bahut mjaa aata hai na mujhe rulane me….” Wo darwaze se chand kadam andar aakr khadi thi aur aankho me aa rhi aansuo ke badh ko palko se rokne ki kosis kar rhi thi….uska udas udas sa masoom chehra is kadar pyara lag rha tha ki ek pal ko sachmuch sahil ne khud ko gali di jo use rula diya……aarti ke chehre par dard aur gusse ke mile jule bhav the …uski aankhe surkh lal ho rhi thi aur chehra gulabi ….lambi kali julfo ki chand laten aaj bhi uske galon ko choom rhi thi…aaj bhi aarti utani hi haseen lag rhi thi … “muh me jubaan nhi hai …??? ..aarti kar to gussa rhi thi lekin aankhe thi ki juban ka sath nhi de rhi thi… Sahil dheere se chalta hua aarti ke pas gya aur use pakadkar apne gale se lagaa liya….aarti jo itni der se sabr ki thi sahil ke kandho ka sahara paa kar foot padi…sahil use lekar bed ke pas pahucha….thodi der tak aarti sahil se lage yuhi subakati rhi … sahil ne kaha…. “ro kyu rhi ho yar….???” “chup rahiye aap ….jaise ki kuchh maloom nhi hai…ek to ghar jar he h us par se ulti seedhi baten bolte hain…ha nhi to …..mai nhi jane dungi aapko” aarti sahil se lipat gayi …. Sahil dheere dheere aarti ke balo ko sawarta rha aur use chup kara rha tha… “mai jaldi aa jaunga jan….” “nhi..ab main nhi jane dungi…aapne kyu kaha ki mulakat aakhiri ho ….aap jante hai kitna dar lagta hai mujhe aap se juda hone me…ab main nhi jane dungi…..chahe kuchh bhi ho “ “aarti….sorry jaan…mujhe tumse milne ka bahut man kar rha tha …tumhe bahut miss kar rha tha ..tum subah se mujhse door door thi isliye ye msg kar diya ….lekin tumhe hurt karne ka intention nhi tha…fir bhi sorry …plz jane do na ………..ghar par mummy papa se mile bahut time ho gya …jab tak tum pyar se jane ko nhi bologi mai jaa nhi paunga….plzzz“ “aap mujhe sorry mat bola kijiye …thik hai jaiye ….lekin aap apna khyal rakha kijiye aur mujhse aisi baten mat kiya kijiye….” Aarti sahil ke kande par sar rakhe huye us se lage baithi thi… ..sahil ne uska chehra apne hatho me liya.. “achchaa fir kaisi baten kiya karun….wo wali………..??” sahil ab use chhedane laga . “dhattt…hatiye …chhodiye aap bahut badmash hote ja rhe ho …” Aarti aur kuchh bol pati is se pahle hi sahil ne apni ek angli uske hotho par rakh di aur haule se apne hotho se uske gal ko choom lia….aarti sharm se laal ho gayi….wo mano khud me simat si gayi….sahil ne ek hath uski back par lagay aur aarti sahil ki god me aadhi leti si aa gayi….dono ekdusre ki aankho me dekh rhe the …..sahil ke honth dheere dheere aarti ke hotho ke kareeb aa gaye aur ab dono ke fadkte labo ke bich kuchh inch ka fasalaa tha …..sahil aarti ke labo se apne lab chhu rha tha lekin sirf kuchh seconds ke liye fir hata leta aur fir se halke se uski gulab ki pankhudiyo ko choom kar apne hoth hata leta … Aarti sahil ke hatho me kisi khilone ki tarah padi huyi thi jiske sath sahil khel rha tha …aarti hansti ,sharmati,sisakti aur fir sahil ke harkato ka jawab bhi deti…...halki fulki si aarti ko wo jaise chahe choom rha tha aur aarti bhi puri tarah se uske baho me samarpeet thi….. Sahil ka bar bar aarti ke hotho ko halke se choom liya …..ab aarti ko bardssht nhi ho rha tha…sahil to shayad yhi chahta hi tha…aarti ne is bar sahil ke nichle hoth ko apne dono labo ke bich bharkar chusna suru kar diya…sahil bhi ab uttejana ki seema par karta ja rha tha ….aarti sahil ke gale me bahen dale use apani or khichti ja rhi thi aur uske hotho ko choos rhi thi….aarti ke boobs ab aur tight ur nukile lag rhe the..uske coton ke safed kurte me tane huye wo amrit kalash agar ab bhi na nichode jate to shayad khud ko apmanit mahsoos karte…. Sahil apni jaan ke husn ki daulat ko apmanit bhala kaise hone deta ….is bar usne himmat karke ek hath aarti ke baye santre par rakh diya….aarti ne jhat se sahil ke hoth chhode aur kuchh bolne ke liye muh khola hi tha ki is bar sahil ne morch sambhala aur aarti ke hotho ko muh me bharkar peene lagaa aur haule haule uske santro ko sahlane lagaa….aaarti bhi ab bahut garam ho chuki thi aur usne bhi virodh karna kam kar diya…aarti ke narm gudaj boobs sahil ke hatho se meeje ja rhe the aur sahil aarti ko hotho ko chhod hi nhi rha tha ….aarti mano hosh khoti si jar hi thi …uski aankhe khud band hoti ja rhi thi……sahil dono hatho se uske boobs daba rha tha lekin aarti ki halat dekhkar use thoda dar sa lagaa…. “aarti…aarti..tum thik to ho na” becharaa…. use kya pata ki aarti ko wo sukh mil rha tha jiski tamnna har ladki karti hai…mard ke hatho apne husn ko lutaana har jawan kali ko ek nayi duniya ki sair karata hai…aarti usi duniya me thi shayad… Shahil bhale hi kaam dev ki kam-baano se na bach paya ho lekin tha to abhi kora khiladi hi …usne aarti ko kuchh jawab na deta dekhkar jaldi se use khud se alag kiya bed par litaya aur uske galo ko thapthapne lagaa….aarti ne aankhe khol di…. “aarti tum thik to ho na’’’”sahil ne puchha. Aarti Sharma gyi ….ha me sar hila kar usne dusri or muh fer liya….kuchh palo ke bad sahil ki or dekha …sahil abhi bhi uski or aise dekh rha tha jasie us se koi galti ho gayi ho jiske liye wo sharminda hai…. Aarti ko hasi aa gyi aur usne pyar se apni bahe faila di…sahil jhat se uski baho me samaa gya…. “I m sorry jaan…tumne us din kaha tha ki ham sadi tak wait kar sakte hai ,,,lekin mai…….” sahil uske gale se lipte huye bol rha tha… “koi bat nhi jannu.. …..mai to puri aapki hu…meraa sabkuchh aapka hai…aap kabhi bhi is bat ko lekar sharmnda mat hoiyega..” “haa jaan …lekin mai bhi tumhari feelings ki kadr karta hu …aur tum sahi bhi ho ….mai puri kosis karunga ab..ki ham sadi tak…..” sahil ne janbookjhkar apni bat adhhori chood di…aarti sirf muskura kar rha gyi… “lekin sirf kosis…haan…koi guarntee nhi hai…………..” sahil ne muskurate huye kaha…. Aap sach me bahut gande ho “ aarti fir se lajaa gyi… Sham ke 6.30 baj rhe the aur sahil station ke liye nikal rha tha ….did jeeja bahar the …lekin aarti bahar nhi aayi thi …… “di mai apni watch bhool gya….abhi aaya” sahil teji se andar ki or gya .. Aarti use andar wale darwaje par hi mil gyi ….wo ro rhi thi… Sahil ki dil tadap utha…. “mat ro sona…mai jaldi aa jaunga …dekho tum rowogi to main nhi jaunga….” Aarti ne apne aansu saf kiye … “thank u…dekho time se kha pee lena aur meri kasam tumhe ,rona mat samjhi…tum rowgi to mera man bhi nhi lagega …samjh rhi ho na” aarti ne bas ha me sar hil diya… “chalo ab chalta hu …jeeja ja rhe hai station tak chhodane …bahar wait kar rhe hai…” “sahil plz aap jaldi aa jana..mujhe achchha nhi lagega aapke bina…” aarti uske seen se lag gyi…. “aa jaunga jan..chalo ab jane do ,,,ek kiss kar loo” sahil ne uske gal ko pyar se sahlate huye puchha .. Aarti ne haa me sar hilaya aur sar jhuka liya…. “love you jaan” “love you sona” Sahil ne uske chehre ko hatho me bhar kar uske hotho ko choom liya aur fir bina rooke bahar bhaga… Sahil ko ghar aaye teen din ho gye the ..jis din aa rha tha us di aur uske bad ek din tak to sabkuchh thik tha…aarti se kafi der tak baten hoti …….par kal se aarti uska phone receive nhi kar rhi thi …aur aaj usne phone utha to liya tha lekin abhi busy hu bad me bat karungi khakar rakh diya….sahil ko thoda feel hua lekin fir concilling se related kam sochkar aur aarti ke busy hone ka sochkar usne ignore kar diya.. Ghar par papa ki tabiyat thik nhi thi aur wo admit the 4_5 din tak …unhe kuchh heart problem thi….sahil jitna plan karke aaya tha us se lamba rookna pad gya tha…sahil hospital se ghar aur ghar se hospital inhi chakkaro me fassa tha…time nhi mil rha tha fir bhi wo aarti ko 3-4 bar phone jaroor try karta….aarti ya to phone nhi uthati ya phir kuchh bolkar call cut kar deti…sahil ka man ab bahut udas hone lagaa tha…use samjh me nhi aa rha tha ki kya ho rha hai……aur sabse kamaal ki bat ye thi ki aaj sahil ko aaye lagbhag 15 din ho gye the aur pahle do dino ke bad se aarti ne use ek bar bhi call nhi kiya tha…….sahil se bat bhi thi se nhi kar rhi thi ….aur sahil se kuchh kahaa bhi nhi ....aaj fir ek lambi udasi ke bad sahil ne use phone kiya…kafi der bell jane ke bad aarti ne phone receive kiya…… “ha boliye” phone receive karte hi aarti ne kaha….sahil ko badi insult si feel huyi.. “kaisi ho aarti….?” “ekdam mast hu…aap bataiye kaise phone kiya…kuchh kam tha….” Sahil ke dil me jaise chann se kuchh toot gya…kya jawab deta bechara.. “nhiii..wo…wo….baki…baki sab log kaise hai” kisi tarah se usne apni bat puri ki. “sab log thik hai….achcha aap bad me call karna ..abhi mai thodi busy hu …Bye” “aartiiiiiiiii” sahil ke kuchh bolne se pahle hi phone disconnect ho gya tha… Aaj bhi whi hua jo pichhle 10 dino se ho rha tha …sahil ki aankho me aansu aa gye the ….wo hospital ki seedhiyo pe bitha apne cell phone me feed aarti ke contact number ko dekhta rha tha aur aankh se ek aansu ki boond nikalkar screen par gir gayi……. “aisa kya kar diya maine yar “ sahil ke hotho se bas itna hi nikla. “Aarti mujhe bahut pyar karti hai …jaroor wo kisi bahut badi musibat me hai …ha..bikul aisa hi hai..aur wo mujhse chhupane ki kosis kar rhi hai ….taki mai paresan na hou…ha bikul yhi bat hai …wo bhala mujhe aise naraz kaise ho sakti hai ,,,jaan hai wo meri …mujhe jald hi delhi pahuchkar us se milna hai ….” Sahil apne dil me soch rha tha ….ye ishq bhi ajeeb rog hai dosto …jab bhi harne lagta hai ek nayi shakl akhtiyar kar leta hai …ek aisi shakl jis me wo fir se khud ko sach aur sari duniya ko jhooth manta hai ….aasani se haar nhi manta ye ISHQ! Papa ki tabiytat thik ho jane ke teesre din sahil delhi wapis aa chukka tha …pure 21 din bad ek naye bharam ke sath…..ghar par sirf didi hi thi …aarti kahi gyi huyi thi aur jeeja as usual kuchh dino ke liye city se bahar the …. Koi sham ke 4 baje aarti ka samna sahil se hua … “are aap kab aaye “ ek halki si muskan aarti ke chehre par thi …sahil ko laga use uski purani aarti mil gayi… “mujhe to aaye bahut der ho gayi lekin kise parwah hai meri……….” Sari biti bato ko bhulakar sahil ne ek pyar bhara shikwa kiya….is umeed ke sath ki uski jaan ko thodi si parwah to hogi na uski ….lekin uska ye bharam bhi toot gya… “ha to sabke pass apne kam hai…koi baithkar aapka wait to nhi kar sakta na….” sahil ki itni sharmindagi aarti ke samne kabhi nhi huyi thi…usne aarti ki taraf tadap kar dekha mano yakeen na ho ki ye wahi aarti hai jo use jaan jaan kahti nhi thakti thi ….aarti ne palatkar uski or dekha bhi nhi aur bahar nikal gayi. Rat tak aarti sahil me fir koi bat nhi huyi …sahil toot ta jar ha tha aur aarti ko koi fark nhi pad rha tha ….didi se bato me pata chala tha ki aarti ko usi achchi rank ki vajah se delhi k hi ek top college me admission mil gya tha jo ghar se kuchh hi doori par tha so use hostel me rahne ki jarooat bhi nhi thi ….uski classes 3 din bad suru hone wali thi ….lekin aarti ne use kuchh nhi bataya tha ….ya shayad usne sahil ko batana jaroori nhi samjha tha . Sahil dinner karke apne room me tha …usne soch liya tha ki aaj ek bar fir se wo aarti se bat karega aur puchhega us se ki kya problem hai….aarti bas dinner kar ke upr aayi hi thi… “aarti kuchh bat karn hai “ “ha boliye” “aarti tum aise kyu kar rhi ho …kya galti ho gyi mujhse …bataa do mai sorry bol dunga ya chahe to koi saja de lo …par aise to na karo yar” “kya kiya hai maine …?????.maine to kuchh kahaa bhi nhi aapse “ ise kahte hai jabrdast ignore karna… aarti ne aise kaha ki sahil ke pas na koi sawal bacha na koi jawab …fir bhi usni ek aakhiri kosis ki … “kya hamare bich kuchh nhi hhhhh……….. …………….” sahil ki bat khatm bhi nhi ho payi thi…ki aarti bol padi.. “haan…haan..aapne bahut kiya hai meri study ke liya …ahsan hai aapka mujhpar…thank u so much…mujhe bahut padhna hai abhi…mai ja rhi hu padhne …..GOOD NIGHT.” Aarti apne room me jakar darwaza band kar chuki thi ….sahil thodi der tak band darwaje ko dekhta rha fir apne kamre ki or palat gya …kadmo me mano jan hi na bachi ho …kisi tarah se khud ko ghaseet te huye wo apne room ke andar le gaya aur bistar par pad gya…. “ahsan hai aapka mujhpar “ aarti ke ye sabd hathode ki tarah uske dil par pad rhe tha…. “ahsan kiya maine tum par .????????????ahsaan??? “ sahil ki aankho ki barsat nhi rook rhi thi ……… “aisi kya agalti ho gyi hai yar mujhe se …plz bata do……..aisa mat karo yar….aisa mat karo jan” sahil foot foot kar rone laga.....ab wo tootkar bikhrane lagaa tha….bas ab intzaar tha ek final punch ka Teen din ho gaye the sahil ko di ke ghar par aaye huye aur in teen dino me ek bar bhi aarti ne us se bat nhi ki thi…kam se kam apni taraf se to nhi….sahil ka dil us se bat karne ko tadap rha tha…. kya kiya hai jiski itnai badi sajja use mil rhi hai –bas yhi sawal uske dilo dimag par chhaya hua tha……………di se bhi kam bat kar rha tha…sahil apni taraf se puri kosis kar rha tha ki aarti us se kuchh kahe ,koi shikwa hi kare ,lekin aarti shayad ab uski pahle wali aarti nhi rahi thi …shayad ab aarti patthar ki ho gyi thi …jispar sahil ke udas chehre ka,uski suni aankho ka, uske aansuo ka koi asar nhi ho rha tha,, ……..sahil ne bhi dheere dheere shikyat karna aur apni sajaa ki wajah puchhna chhod diya tha…………ab bas wo dekhna chahta tha ki uski sajaa kitni lambi hai aur kitni kathin hai……….…ab sahil ki nazaro me bas ek sawal hota tha………..jab bhi galti se aarti ki nazre sahil se takra jati ,sahil ki aankho me dard ka ek sailab sa aa jata……..aarti badi berahmi se use nazar andaaz kar jati aur sahil mano ek maut mar jata…….. Aarti sham ko lagbhag 5 baje apne room se bahar nikli to sahil ko bahar railing par khada paya….apne pichhe aahat sunkar sahil ne palat kar dekha…..samne aarti khadi thi….thodi der tak sahil chupchap uski or dekhta rha fir dheere se bola……….. “mera result aa gya………nhi hua mera …” “koi bat nhi …next time ho jayega” aarti ne bas itna kahaa aur seedhiyo se utarte huye niche chali gayi…. sahil ki aankho me aansu aa gaye….pahle prelims exam ke do paper ,fir mains exam ke 9 paper,,sare subjective……….. …itna clear karne ke bad koi civil services ke interview tak pahuchata hai aur fir interview me na hona ??????????…….real heart-break………….lekin sahil ko itna dukh apne result ka nhi hua tha jitna aarti ke response par hua……uski berukhi pe hua……….kitni aasani se ek naseehat de gayi thi …………sahil chupchap apne room me chala gya……tabhi uske phone ki ghanti baji …….Dheeraj ka phone tha…… “ha bhaiya….result aa gya…sorry mera nhi hua….” Sahil ne kisi mujhrim ki tarah kaha….haa….. ab wo mujrim hi to tha…ek aisa mujrim jisne bahot bada sapna dekhne ka jurm kiya tha ………..aise sapna jo shayad uski si hasti walo ke liye kisi gunah se kam nhi the…. Aur agar use pura na kar paye to sajaa to milni hi thi “chalo koi bat nhi ….mujhe umeed thi ho jayega………….waise in sab exams ke liye bahut mehnat karni padti hai……….didi key yha rahkar utni padhai nhi ho sakti…maine pahle hi kaha tha ki wha se chale jao….lekin tum to bas apne man ki karte h ….chalo dekh lo “ “jee…mai ab chala jaunga yha se …..” sahil bas itna hi kah paya.use is bat ka koi dukh nhi tha …qki usne jo kiya tha apni aarti ke liye kiya tha “kaha jaoge ab??” “Delhi me hi kahi….thodi door par alag room lekar” “aur wha rahne ka kharch.????” “jee???” sahil ko is sawal ki umeed nhi thi …dheeraj se to nhi . “dekho mind mat karna lekin mai shayad de nhi paunga…thodi problem me hu………….” “koi bat nhi bhaiya……… …mai dekh lunga” sahil ne kaha lekin tab tak phone dis connect ho chuka tha ……. Sahil ka dil ek bar fir se dukha tha…us bhai ne jisne use sabse pahle IAS ban ne ka sapna dekhna sikhya tha aaj us se muh mod liya tha………….jiske bharose wo delhi aaya tha…………uska apna bada bhai…. thodi der bad jitney logo ko pta tha ki sahil ne IAS ka interview diya tha lagbhag sabke phone aa chuke the ………..kuchh logo ne nayi nayi naseehaten di aur kuchh ne ise uske bas se bahar ki bat bataa di…. “arree college top karna alag bat hai aur IAS ban na alag…koi bachcho ka khel hai???” “aree in sab chijo me bahut source pani chalta hai…” “aree ye sab bade logo ki baten hai…..kahaan tum in sab chakkaro me pad gaye….” “Aree koi bank PO vagairah dekho…ye sab nhi hoga tumse “ Ye kuchh example the un logo ke vicharo ke jo kl tak sahil ki tarifo ke pool bandhate nhi thakte the ki ek kisan ka beta,gaon ka padha likha pahle prayas me IAS ka interview diya hai……aaj jab sahil asafal hua to un sab ki juban ne dil me chhupi bhadas ugal di……. wakayi dosto jab bura waqt aata hai to apna saaya bhi sath chhoda deta hai…aarti sahil ka saaya hi to thi….. sahil har naseehat , har iljam ek tamge ki tarah apne seene par sajata rha………...chupchap sabki baten suntan rha………use koi fark nhi padna tha in baton ka …..…kyoki jiski bat ka fark padta usne to sabse pahle hi muh mod liya tha… sahil ne rat ko hi didi ko bol diya tha kl wo yha se chala jayega… uska koi friend rahta hai aur ab wo usi ke sath rahega…waise bhi ab uske yha rahne ka koi matlab nhi tha……… sahil ne apne bag pack kar liye the…didi ne us bahot mana kiya lekin ab wo chahta to bhi nhi rook pata …aarti ki berukhi use har roz ek nayi maut mar rhi thi….aur ab wo rukta bhi to kiske liye.??? Dosto ek bat aap sabse kahna chahta hu ,….kisi apne ki berukhi zindagi me milne wali sabse badi sajaa h…ek aisi sajaa jiski vajah bahut kam pata chalti hai aur jiska anjaam jyadatar maut hoti hai….zindagi me jise aap pyar karte hai use kbhi bhi ignore mat kijiye …kabhi berukhi ki deewar apne rishte me mat aane dijiye….ekdusre se lad lijiye jhagad lijiye,,ruth jaye ,manaa le…lekin kabhi bahut din tak use ignore mat kare………….aap sab ho sakta hai mujhse sahmat na ho …lekin ye ek request hai ..plz aisa mat kijiyega …..kyoki kayi bar iski itni bhari keemat chukani padti hai jiski bharpayi kabhi nhi ho pati..kabhi bhi nhi… Sahil ne apne bag uthate huye ek nazar aarti ke kamre ke band darwaze par dali ..na chahte huye bhi uski aankho ke kinare bheeg gaye…usne bina ruke apne bag uthaye aur niche chal diya…. “jao apna khyal rakhna….”usne nikalte samay didi ke pair chhuye to unhone kahaa. Sahil bahar ki or chal diya..kuchh kadam hi chala hoga ki thithak gya …pichhe muda..didi usi ki or dekh rhi thi… “didi aarti ko pta hai????” “ha maine rat ko bataya tha………..bula du ????????” di ne kaha… “nhi….rahne de ” sahil ki aawaz bheeg gayi aur wo muda aur bahar nikal gaya….. “ek aakhiri bar to mil leti yar “ auto me baith te samay sahil ki nazar ek bar fir se us ghar ki taraf uth gayi jahaa wo apna sabkuchh chhod kar jaa rha tha.. …use chhodakr jise wo sabse jyada apna samjhta tha…jisne use dosti karna sikhaya tha,pyar karna sikhaya tha,kisi ke liye jeena sikhaya tha………jahaa usne apni jindagi ke kuchh haseen pal jeeye the…aur jahaa usne apne hisse ki kuchh kali rate bhi bitayi ….. “hamesa muskurati rahna aarti…..ishwar kare tumhe duniya ki har khusi mile………..bhale hi us kusi me main na rahu…” sahil ne aarti ko dua di aur chal diya kisi hare huye zuari ki tarah,,, us zuari ki tarah jo apne sath laya to bahut sari daulat tha lekin wapas jaa khali hath rha tha………...sab kuchh harkar . Sahil aarti se door hua to mano puri duniya se uska wastaa hi khatm ho gya…kabhi kabhi ghar par phone karke maa-papa se bat kar leta……….iske alawa use na ab duniya me koi interest rha na duniya walo me…….sahil ab gumnami ki zindag jee rha tha…….usne ek coaching centre join kar liya tha jahaa 12 class student ko biology aur chemistry padhata…lekin uska matlab bas class se hota…bahut kam bolta aur students se class ke bahar bahut kam interact karta….bs kisi tarah se zindagi ko jeeye ja rha tha ….bina kisi umeed ke,bina kisi aas ke aur bina kisi pyar ke……….. june ka month chal rha tha aur interview me fail hone ke bad sahil ne ek bar fir se pre-exam diya tha……………..ye bat aur thi ki is prayas me sahil na to puri tarah se padh paya tha aur na hi use kisi chamtkar ki umeed thi……..aur hua bhi whi…………ek bar fir se sahil ke hath nirasha lagi….september ke month me pre exam ka result aaya aur ek bar fir se sahil asafal rha….sahil ne first attempt me interview tak pahucha tha lekin Is bar uska pre hi clear nhi hua………sach to ye tha ki aarti ke bina sahil ka man nhi lagta tha aur ab uska IAS ban ne ka sapna bhi kahi bahut pichhe chhuta ta ja rhha tha……….. .kahte hai na ki manjil par pahuchane ki khusi tabhi hoti hai jab hamsafar sath ho….aur jab hamsafar hi sath chhod de to fir kaisi manjil aur kaisa safar………….. aaj hi result aaya tha aur aaj sahil ro rha tha ……… isliye ki aaj use ek naummeedi ki zindagi jeeni pad rhi thi……..isliye ki aaj uske pas apnaa koi nhi tha…..isliye ki uska khwab ab choor choor ho rha tha…..dusro ke sapno me rang bharte bharte uske apne sapno par kali syahi fail gyi thi……….wo sahil jo apne school aur college ki shaan tha aaj ek gumnaam shakhs tha………….. aaj wo haar gya tha ……aur hara bhi tha to apno ke hatho……..hausla nhi toota tha sahil ka lekin dil toot gya tha. “aaj mai haar gya aarti………..tumhara sahil haar gya …..zindagi badi udas si ho gyi hai………tumhari bahut yad aati hai………jee karta hai kahi se tum aa jao aur mujhe apne seene se lagaa lo ………mujhse kabhi door mat jao………lekin tum nhi aati?? kyu nhi aati aarti???....….kyu itne gam mere hisse me hai….kitna sangharsh karu mai……….kitna ladu apni kismet ki rekhaon se ……. meri zindagi me kuchh achchhe din aaye….…wo din jb mai tumhara tha……..jab tumne mujhe apni zindagi kahaa…………zindagi badi khubsoorat lagti thi………lekin mai janta hu meri kismet me khusi nhi hai………agar tum meri sath hoti to fir aur koi tamanna hi nhi hoti………..lekin ….jane do …tum khus ho mere liye to itna hi bahut hai…..…mai koi devta nhi hu jo mujhe dard nhi hoga ya mai hurt nhi hounga….haan…….dukh hai mujhe tumse door hone ka…..lekin tumse naraz nhi hu….ho bhi nhi sakta….kya karu pyar jo ho gya tumse……….. Aarti, maine aaj tak life me kuchh achieve nhi kiya …..kuchh nhi kar paya……..aur shayad ab kuchh kar bhi nhi paunga…….bas ek khusi hai ki tum apne sapne ko jee rhi ho…….tumne jo chaha wo paa liya ….…bhagwan se prarthana karunga ki life me tum jo bhi chaho paa jao…….kahno ko to dil bahut kuchh kar rha hai lekin jane do …tumhe disturbance hoga……achchhe se padhna……tumhari yaad bahut aati hai……khud ko to rok leta hu ise nhi rok pata………sorry. Apna khyal rakhna.bye.” Ye letter sahil aarti ke nam likh rha th…....ek chhote se room k eek kone me chair pe baitha wo apne table par jhuka likh rha tha……...yhi karta tha wo ……….jab aarti ki yaden rat ki tanhai me bechain karti to dil ke sare armaan kagaz ke panno par nikal jate….lekin sahil kabhi wo letter post nhi karta….ek file me rakh leta …aise kitne hi letter pade the us file me…..rat ke lagbhag 10.30 baje the…result lagbhag 5 baje sham ko hi aa gya tha …lekin aaj kisi ka bhi phone nhi aaya …na dheeraj ka na ddi ka na kisi chanewale ka ….aur na hi AARTI ka ….sahil ki nazre bar bar phone ki screen pe ja rhi thi…..jane kyu use lag rha tha ki aaj aarti use jaroor phone karegi ….aur sachmuch uska phone baj utha ….didi ka phone tha……sahil ne apni bheegi aankhe pocchi aur phone utha liya….. “ha didi namste” “khus rho…kaise ho sahil” “jee thik hu aap sab kaise ho “ “ham sab bhi thik hai ….rohan aaya hua hai …uske semester ka result bahut achchha aaya hai…kl bachchon ne chhoti si party rakhi hai…………ham sab chah rhe the ki tum bhi aa jao…….” “jee didi kosis karunga….” “Nhi mama aap jaroor aayenge…plzzz” rohan ne didi se phone lete huye kaha.sahil ko bahut aascharya hua…rohan us se thik se bat tak nhi karta tha aur aaj usne use aane ko bola….kuchh soch kar sahil ne haa kar di. Dusre din sham ko sahil koi 7 baje di ke ghar pahucha …lagbhag 5 month bad sahil ne fir us chaukhat ki dahleez par kadam rkahe the jaha se wo ro kar gya tha….jee chah rha thi ki abhi laut jaye lekin usne aisa nhi kiya…. …aarti aur Rohan ke kuchh dost aaye huye the…..sabse salaam dua ke koi 30 min bad use aakhir deedar ho hi gya us jaan-e-sitamgar ka…..aarti din b din aur bhi khoobsoorat hoti ja rhi thi ya shayad sahil ko lag rhi thi ……… “kaisi ho aarti “ sahil ne puchha….sahil ko apne samne dekhkar aarti ek pal ko thithaki…….ek uchatti nazar us par dali ,ek nagwari ke bhav uske chehre par aaye ”thik hu “ …bas tna boli aur fir wo age badh gyi ……….sahil kat kar rah gya……..uski jee chah rha tha ki dharti fat jaye aur wo samaa jaye …….. “kuchh bhi kar lo jaan, mere dil se kabhi baddua nhi niklegi tumhare liye…………..koi badgumani nhi hai mere dil me ……….hamesa khus rho …jabtak tum khus ho mujhe kisi se koi shikwa nhi hai….na apni kismet se ,na tumhare rab se…….mera yha hona tumhe pasand nhi …….kash muhe pahle pata hota……mai kabhi na aata……..ab kabhi tumhe apni manhoos shakl nhi dikhaunga……bachpan se hi tumhe chahta rha ….…paglo ki tarah …….ahsaas bahut bad me hua….. …lekin chahat to hamesa se thi …..ye bat to tum bhi janti ho ki maine aaj tak tumhari khusi ke siwa kuchh nhi chaha……hamesa sochta ki kya kar doo tumhare liye …..tumhari aankh me ek aansu nhi bardsht tha mujhe….tum roti to dil karta ki sari duniya ko aag lagaa du……lekin mai tumhare liye kuchh kar nhi paya…kuchh bhi nhi …….ab tumhe meri shakl nhi pasand hai ….. agar tum mujhse door rahkar hi khus ho to yhi sahi…….kabhi nhi puchhunga ki tumnse aisa kyu kiya…..tumse door chala jaunga bahut door…” sahil apne dil me soch rha tha lekin shayad ab aarti ke dil me sahil ki wo jagah nhi thi tabhi to wo kabhi bhi uske dil ki aawaz ko nhi sun pati thi… Sablog kha pee chuke the …rohan aarti aur unke dost chat par the aur sahil akela niche baitha tha ……tabhi rohan aaya aur sahil ko upar le jane lagaa……sahil ko na chahte huye bhi uske sath jana pada.. Aarti uski friends aur rohan ke friends …kul milakar 9_10 log the ..sab ek gol ghera banaakr baithe the aur antakshari kheli ja rhi thi …….rohan ke behad jor dene par sahil bhi unke group me samil ho gya……aarti ke thik samne baitha tha wo …….SAHIL ko bahut kuchh yad aa rha tha….uske man kr rha tha ki kahi bhag jaye …jahaa koi na ho….use purani yaden rula rhi thi …kitne haseen pal jeeye the usne is chat par……..ek ek pal bhari pad rha tha . Whi chhat thi ,whi chandani rat thi …. Aarti bhi thi ………lekin kaaaaaash!!!!!!!!!!!!!………….wo din nhi the ab…..qki shayad ab Aarti bhi pahle wali aarti nhi thi. Kitna dard liye baith tha sahil apne dil me …apne pyar ke ruthane ka gham,dosti ke tootne ka gham, rishto ke chhutane ka gham ,asafalta ka gham…kuchh nhi pta tha use ki ab zindagi kis or jayegi …..lekin aaj bhi aarti ko apne samne pakar use jeene ko jee chah rha tha ……sabkuchh fir se banane ko jee chah rha tha ……lekin wo janta tha k ab aisa kuchh nhi hoga…..sahil apni hi socho me goom tha jab rohan ne uska kandha pakadkar hilaya .. “‘ mama ham harne wale hai …aap bhi kuchh sunao…..”d” se gana hai….jaldi karo…” kam se kam chauthi bar tha jab rohan ne use gane ko kaha tha….. Sahil ne kuchh socha nhi…uski aawaz to achchhi thi lekin use gane ka koi salika nhi tha …fir jane kis bhawna me aakar wo is bar gane lagaa….. “ dil kahta hai chal unse mil,uthate hai kadam ruk jaate hai, Dil hamko kabhi samjhata hai, ham dil ko kabhi samjhate hai; ………………………………………………………………………………………………….. …………………………………………………………………………………………………….. Wo din the kya hasiii,dono the sath me, Aur bahe aapkiiii,thi mere hath me ; Tum hi tum the sanam,mere din rat me ; par itni bulandi pe tum ho meri jaaa, aaye na daaman ab hath me Paana tumko mumkin hi nhi ,soche bhi to ham ghabrate hai;……………...Dil hamko kabhi samjhata hai ; Sahil geet samapt karke sar jhukaye baitha tha…..sab log sant the……..fir taliyo ki ek gadgadahat uthi ….sahil ne sar uthakar aarti ki or dekha…aarti ke chehre par pahli bar dard ke rang the ….use pta tha sahil ne ye song kyu gaya tha…aur sahil khud ko doshi maan rha tha ki jane kyu apne dil ke dard ko usne aaarti ke samne pesh kar diya…. “lagta hai chot kafi gahri hai “ ek ladki ne mukurate huye kahaa….ab sahil ke liye wha rukna mumkin nhi tha….usne sabko excuse kaha aur niche chalaa gya .Aarti ka chehra jaise ekdam murjha gya tha. Niche baithe sahil ki aankho me ek pachhtawa tha…..bhut sooni ho gyi thi uski aankhe ….un aankho me mayoosi dikhti,haar dikhti,dard dikhta …lekin ek bhi kiran roshani ki, umeed ki aur tamnna ki nhi thi…..naummeedi sabse bada abhishap hai ….umeed ke bina insaan jee nhi sakta aur sahil ke paas kuchh nhi bacha tha ___na dosti-na pyar; na umeed na sapne …fir bhala wo kaise jeeta. Sahil rat me niche hi soya tha …subah jald hi uth gya…rat bhar aarti ke sath bitaye achchhe dino ki yad use rulati rahi….lakho kosiso ke bawzood wo aarti ki mohabbat bhool nhi paa rha tha .pahle pyar ko bhoolna itna aasan bhi to na tha ………….. “aarti mai jaa rha hu “ sahil niche baitha hua tha jab aarti chali aayi….didi kisi kam me busy thi aur wo unka wait kar rha tha ki aa jaye to bta kar jaye….har bar aarti se ek umeed ke sath kuchh bhi kahta…aaj bhi whi umeed thi ki kash aarti use rok le,kash ek bar puchh le ki fir kab aaoge….kash ek bar puchh le ki kyu jaa rhe ho ….lekin itna khuskismat n tha sahil …. “jaiye jaa rhe h to…..vaise bhi kaun sa maine aapko bulaya tha “ alfaz the ya zeher me doobe huye khanjar….sahil ki aankho se lakh jabt ke bawzood ek aansu ludhak gya uske galo par….. “bahut pyar karta hu tumse yar………aisaa ……..” ek aakhiri kosis karna chaha rha tha wo…..sahil bol bhi na paya… “haan…haan…pta h mujhe ki aap bahot pyar karte h…sham se hi to dhindhora peet rhe hai……kaun si bulandi par pahuch gyi hu mai??? Are ek exam hi to pass kiya hai…..aur logo ke dil jalne lage………….jalan hone lagi mujhse……” jane kis mitti ki bani thi aarti,ssahil use dekhta hi rah gya..uski aankhe baras rhi thi aur aarti ko koi fark nhi pad rha tha …… “….mujhe jalan hoti hai tumhari khusi se ?????????? mujhe?...nhi aarti….maine to tumhari khusi ke siwa kuchh chaha hi nhi ………..jaa rha hu mai ….ab kabhi wapas nhi aaunga…..mai yha tha to sirf tumhari khusi ke liye …yha se gya to bhi tumhari khusi ke liye aur age bhi jo kuchh karunga tumhari khusi ke liye hi karunga……agar zindagi me kabhi meri vajah se dukh hua ho to maf kar dena……..khus raho.” Sahil ka dil aaj puri tarah se toot chukka tha …wo utha aur bahar jane lga. “bahot pyar kiya hai na aapne mujhse??? Kuchh mang sakti hu aap se usi pyar ke sadke……..”sahil ke kano me aarti ki aawaz padi aur wo palat gya….lekin is bar use koi umeed nhi thi….kyuki uske dil par bahut gahri chot lagi thi jo ab har aash nirasha se upar thi. “mere pass kuchh nhi tumhe dene ko………jaan mang lo tumhari kasam uff tak nhi karunga” shil bahut jyada dard me tha. “jo kuchh hm dono ke bich hua ...galti se hi sahi …...aap uska zikr kabhi kisi se nhi karenge aur na hi dobara kabhi mujhse is bare me bat karenge” aarti jane kya chati thi us toote huye insane se . “huh…bas itni si bat …nhi karunga…kabhi nhi karunga…..tumse bhi nhi puchhunga ki tune aisa kyu kiya……..bas ek bat bata do….. jo pyar tumhari nazar me ek galti tha us par itna aitbaar kyu hai? Kyu lagta hai ki mai us pyar ki khatir ye karunga? ” Aarti ke paas koi zawab nhi tha…..chupchap sahil ki or dekhe gayi… “jao aarti ,bharosa to tum ab mujh par karti nhi lekin aajma sakti ho, jab chaho jis tarah se chaho …..mai to kabhi tumse nhi puchhunga lekin agar mera pyar sachcha hai to ek din tumhe ahsas hoga ki tumne kya khoya hai………ek din mera pyar tumhe rulayega…...agar zindagi me kabhi is nachij ki zaroorat mahsoos ho to ek aawaz lga dena ,sahil tumhe tumhare pass milega…….. ..chahe tum kisi bhi hal me hi ,zindagi ke kisi bhi mod par ho…………………………………..aur ek aakhiri bat …mai…mai..m…..jalta nhi hu mai tumhari khusi se………..” aakhiri sabd kahte kahte sahil ke aawaz bharaa gya aur wo bhagta hua us ghar se nikal gya. Sahil ka room dilli k eek behad garib aur pichhde huye area me tha….rat ke 10 baj rhe the aur sahil gumsum se sa leta hua tha……subah didi ke yha se aakr wo aise hi bistar par pada tha…..kuchh bhi khaya piya nhi tha..shayad uski aankho ke aansu bhi sookh gaye the…….. “logo ke dil jalne lage ,jalan hone lagi mujhse …”aarti ke sabd sahil ke kano me goonj rhe the aur usi aaj sabkuchh yad aa rha tha….bachpan se lekar jawani tak jis ladki ko apni jan se badhkar chaha tha pichhle 6 mahine me kitni maut mara tha uski yad me… Gaon ke wo din…wo nadi ka kinara ,wo aam ke bagiche ,maa-papa ka pyar …sabkuchh yad aa rha tha …aur sabse jyada yad aa rhi thi wo “BEWAFA”. bachpan me sahil use apni peeth par lekar ghumata…uske liye kuchh bhi karta,har kisi se lad jata uske liye ,apne hisse ki cheejen uske liye bachaa kar rakhta…aur fir jawani ki dosti aur fir wo pyar,wo vaade,kasame………….aaj sahil ko har chhoti badi bat yad aa rhi thi………… “tumne kaise kah diya jaan …kaise jal sakta hu mai tumhari khusi se ….mai pyar karta hu tumse …apni jaan se jyada….tumhara sahil zinadgi ki har jung har gya hai ….mujhe bacha lo jaan ………mai doob rha hu aarti…….. plz kahi se aa jao…plzzz…….” Ek bar fir se sahil foot foot kar rone laga. Jane kab sahil ki aankh lg gyi……..subah neend khuli …..sahil ka dil bahut bhari ho rha tha…aaj wo institute bhi nhi gya…….. “ ye rat to beet gyi,meri zindagi ki kali rat kab beetegi…….kab khatm hogi ye zindagi……..kyu jee rha hu mai…………..?” aaj zindagi me pahli bar sahil ke andar is kadar nirashaa sama gyi thi kise use apne jeene ka maksad sochna pad rha tha… “kiske liye jeeyu” dimag ke kise hisse ne puchha. “nhi jeeyunga mai…..jis life ka koi maksad na ho use jeene ka kya faydaa..” nirasha sahil ki zindagi me fail gayi thi. Sahil ki zindagi kahaa se kahaa aa gyi thi………. Lekin zindagi me chamtkar hote hai ….sahil ko ishwar par bhaut jyada bharosa nhi rah gya tha …lekin BHGWAN ka astitwa kisi ke man ne ya na man ne ka mohtaj nhi hota …wo to bas chupke se apna chamtkar kar deta hai….sahil ki zindagi me bhi ab aise hi kisi chamtkar ki zaroorat thi…….. Sahil apni socho ke bhawar se nikal nhi paaya tha ki uske phone ki ghanti baj uthi………… phone ki ghanti do bar baj kar band ho gyi thi ...ek bar fir se ghanghana uthi ....sahil ke man me bas ek hi vichar aa rha th a...mere jeene ka kya fayada ...kiske liye jiyu...kyta karunga jee kar ..uska man nirasha se bhar gya tha .... jane kya aaya uske man me ki usne ne beman se hi sahi par phone utha liya...chamtkar hote rhe hai aur hote rahenge........... “hello sahil , mai Rajsingh Sharma bol rha hu …aap aaj institute nhi aayenge kya” jis institute me sahil padata tha uske director ka phone tha. “sorry sir ,mai ab institute nhi aa paunga….aap meri jagah kisi ko rakh lijiye…”sahil ka man bat karne ko nhi ka rha tha. “sahil aap plzz aaj thodi der ke liye aa jaye fir aapka jaisa man hi kare” director ne bade israr se kaha.. “thik h sir ek ghante me pahuchata hu “ directot ki bat ko sahil tal na sake …vaise bhi director sahil ki kafi ijjat karta tha aur bure waqt me usne sahil ko sahara diya tha … “sahil aap hai sarfaraz khan ..yha ke ex-MP…aur khan sab ye hai Mr Sahil jinke bare me aapko maine bataya…hamare yha ke sabse achche teacher aur mere personal experience se – ek behatareen insaan” director ne dono ka intro karwaya. “sahil jee aapse milkar kafi khsi huyi ….directore sahib ne aapki bahot tariff ki hai….plz agar aapke pas thoda sa time ho to aap kal mere ghar aa sakte hai …ya mai driver bhej dunga aap address bata de…..” “jee kis silsile me” sahil ko unki bato me koi interest nhi tha …uska dil uchaat hone laga tha…. “darasal meri ek beti hai,,, JUHI KHAN…pichhli sal usne IIT delhi se B.tech complete kiya aur fir IAS ban ne ki dhun sawar ho gyi…hamne last year uska admission ek coaching institute me karwa diya …lekin wo pre exam hi clear nhi kar payi …ab ham chahte hai ki uske liye koi achcha guidance ho qki in sab exams me proper guidance bahut matter karta hai…isi silsile me director sahib ne aap ka nam sujhaya …aapne bhi interview diya hai…agar kuchh ghante nikal sake to……” khan sahib kafi seedhe aur sharif lag rhe the lekin sahil ko ab kisi bhi cheej me interest nhi rha tha. “aapne mujhe is kabil samjha ,thank u …lekin mai shayad aa nhi paunga …I m sorry “ “sahil chale jao…khan sahib bahut achchhe insane hai “ director ne kaha… “hello young man…” is se pahle sahil kuchh kah pata 70-75 sal ke ek bujUrg office me enter huye. sahil uth kar khada ho gya. “ baitho baitho,…mai ZULFIQAR KHAN …iska baap” buzurg ne baithte huye kaha… “jante ho hamare hindustan ki sabse khoobsoorat bat kya hai…....hamre yha insan ko apne sapne pure karne ke liye do janam milta hai.......ek apna aur ek apne bachcho ka...........yha bap apne adhoore sapne apne bête ko pure karte dekhna chata hai…..mai khud to IAS nhi ban paya lekin ise banana chahta tha ….lekin ye bhi nhi ban paya…daulat to bahut kamayi ham dono ne hi …..lekin bas whi ek kasak rah yi….lekin meri JUHI bahot kabil hai …wo jaroor ye sapna pura kar sakti hai …bas use ek sahi disha dikhane wala chahiye……waise to bahot log mil jayenge lekin tum mujhe achchhe lage aur director sahib bhi bahut tariff karte hai tumhari…..tumhare director sahab bhi hamare bete jaise hi hai .....sharif ho tum……nhi to kisi par bharosa karna mushkil h aajkl…..beta hamare ghar par tumhe koi pareani nhi hogi …khuda ki diya bahut hai apne pass…tum apni khud ki taiayri bhi karte rahna …………kisi cheej ki kami nhi hogi ….is budhe ki bat rakh lo beta” kisi ko nhi pta tha ki sahil kis daur se gujar rha tha….sahil manaa nhi kar saka…kam se kam is samya to nhi. ******************************************************************************************************************************************************** “Juhi kaun hai “ aarti ki tej aawaz se sahil socho ke bhawar se bahar nikla aaya…..aarti jane kab room me aayi aur uske hath me sahil ka cell phone tha jo sahil niche hi chhod aaya tha. Sahil aarti ki or palat gya …uske chehre par patthar ke jaisi sakhti thi ……..wo bas aarti ki or dekhta rha….kuchh nhi bola. Aarti uske chere se kuchh anumaan nhi laga paa rhi thi…………… “kaun hai JUHI …kya rishta hai aapka us se ? ” aarti ka chehra kuchh utara hua tha. Sahil phir kuchh nhi bolta……..aarti chalte huye uske pass pahuch jati hai………sahil chupchap uske hatho se phne le leta hai….abhi abhi aaya sms open tha……. “hazaron dastaane hain heer,laila,sheer,ranjhe ki, Tum apne sath mujhko bhi ek aisi dastaa kar do” MISS you ! FROM- JUHI Sahil chupchap sms padhta hai aur phone band kar deta hai…….. “mai aapse kuchh puchh rhi hu…..kya lagti hai wo aapki ?????” aarti ka sabr ab jawab dene lagaa tha …itane lambe intzar ke bad us shakhs ko pane see pahle hi kho dene ka dar sataa rha tha use . “whi lagti hai jo kuchh sal pahle tum lagti thi “ sahil ne bina aarti ki aankho me dekhe kahaa… “lagti thi …? Mai Ab nhi lagti kya sahil???” “ye mai kaise bataa sakta hu….meri zindagi ke aur mere muhabbat ke sare faisle to tumne liye to ye bhi tumhe hi pta hoga” “ sahil maine galti ki hai…uske liye jo chahe aap sajaa de….kuchh mere mann ka bhram aur kuchh halat…lekin zindagi me pyar ek bar hi hua mujhe …. Sirf aapse......... “ aarti itna kahti hai aur udas aankhe liye sahil ke room se nikal jati hai…. “nhi sahil !!!!!!!! ab aapko apne se door nhi jane dungi …chahhe kuchh bhi ho jaye …app sirf mere ho …sirf mere…..mujhe hi pata karna hoga ki ye juhi kaun hai...kaun hai ye chudail jo mere sahil ko mujhse cheen ne aa gyi hai” aarti ke chehre par ek nischay dikh rha tha... Aarti ko ab sahil ki zindagi se judi har wo bat jan ni thi jo pichhle 5 salo me ghatit huyi thi…aur usne suruaat is “ JUHI “ nam ki paheli se ki …… “hello Rahul mai aarti bol rhi hu “ aarti ko rahul hi wo shakhs laga jo use juhi tak pahuchata. “jee aarti ….kaisi hai aap…mera dost kaisa hai…” “wo thik h…mai bhi thik hu…aap ki thodi si help chahiye thi ??” “jee kahe???” rahul ko samajh me nhi aa rha tha ki aarti ko us se kya help chahiye. “rahul mujhe JUHI se milna hai….aap jante hai use…???” “jeee..wo..wo…ha janta to hu…aapko kuchh kam hai kya” “haa…kya aap mujhe uska number de sakte hai” “jee de dunga…par kya mai puchh sakta hu ki kam kya hai” aakhir rahul bhi police wala tha…sawal puchhe bina kaise rah jata. “haa kam hai…bahut jaroori kam…..mai dekhna chahti hu ki wo kaun ha jo mujhse mere sahil ko chhin lena chahati hai…” aarti ke lafje me gussa aur nafarat thi. “jeee?????” rahul ko sab pata to pahle se hi tha lekin aarti ke muh se “ mera sahil “ sunkar hairani ka ijhar karte huye bola. “jee kuchh nhi…aap sawal bahut karte hai…..aap mujhe number denge ya nhi “ “ jee jaroor..abhi aapke number par send kar deta hu …contact no bhi aur address bhi …” rahul ne aarti ka mood bigadta dekh to chupchap man gya… “jee thank u…bye” “ek minut aarti jee…ek bar aapse mujhe bhi milna hai akele me aur kuchh jaroori bat karni hai……..aur ek aakhiri bat kahu aapse ….hamesa sach whi nhi hota jo hamari aankhe dekhti hai…..” rahul ne aarti ko kuchh jatate huye kaha… “mujhse behtar ye bat kaun janta hai…mai bhi bas yhi sabit karne ki kosis kar rhi hu…aur jaise hi free hoti hu aapse milungi ……anyway, thanx for the help…...bye.” aarti ne kaha….rahul uski bat kuchh kuchh hi samjh saka aur fir bye bolkar phone rakh diya… Rat bhar aarti sahil Ko kho dene ke dar se so nhi payi…kahi sahil sachmuch use pasand to nhi karta…aakhir maine bhi to uske sath bahut jyadati ki hai…aakhir wo bhi to insane hai…use bhi sahare ki jaroorat huyi hogi…5 sal bahut lamba samay hota hai….aarti ke man me saikdo aise vichar aa rhe the aur uski aankho se neend gayab thi…… Dusre din subah hi aarti rahull ke diye huye address par pahuch gyi …address delhi ka hi tha ….. “jee kis se milna hai…”peon ne puchha. “juhi se…...i mean juhi khan madam se “ aarti ne apne lahje me narmi laate huye kaha.. “jee aap baithe mai madam se puchh leta hu…apaka nam kya hai…” “jee …aarti….kah dijiyega urgent hai…”aarti ne kaha. Juhi khan,assistant commissioner of Income TAX- aarti jis office ke samne baithi thi uske door ke thik bagal me ye name plate lagi huyi thi…juhi khan Indian Revenue Services ki ek honhar aur imandar officer thi. “jee aap plz aaye madm ne aapko bulaya hai” peon ne bade adab ke sath aari ko andar aane ke liye kaha… Aarti chupchap chalti huyi us cabin me enter huyi……juhi khan …samne rakhi name plate par nam likha hua tha..aur us chair par baithi sakhshiyat vastav me juhi ki kali jaisi hi thi……aarti ek tak use dekhe gayi…. Gora chitta rang ....kashmirir seb ke jaise laal laal gaal , kali bhawara jaisi aankhe…...gulab ki pankhudi jaise patle laal hoth….aur us chehre par ek pyari si smile….jawani ki daulat se labrej…ek mukammal husn ki malika jo kisi bhi jawaa dil ka karar aur sukoon loot le…. .jaroor is chudail ne mere sahil ko faasne ki kosis ki hogi…hai bhi to kamini kitni khoobsoorat …..aarti ne man me hi socha..aarti uski khoobsoorti ki tariff kiye bina na rah saki… “aaiye baithiye aarti jee…badi tamanna thi aapse milne ki” juhi ne khade hote huye aarti ka welcome kiya…..aarti jabardasti ki ek smile apne chehre par le aayi aur samne rakhi chair par baith gyi….. “aur bataiye aari jee…kaisi chal rhi hai life …kaise hain sahil ?”” “sahil se hi puchh lijiye …baten to hoti hi hai aap ki” aarti ke lahje me chhupi talkhi juhi ne mahsoos ki aur uske hotho par ek muskan aa gyi… “jee” juhi bas itna hi bol payi… “kya rishta hai aapka sahil se ??? ” aarti ka sabr ab jawab dene lagaa tha…. “aur agar yhi sawal mai aapse se karu to ?? “ juhi abhi bhi muskura rhi thi… Aarti chup rahi..ek aisi khamoshi jisne ye bayan kar diya ki sahil aarti ka kya rishta hai… “chaliye mai hi aapke sawal ka jawab de deti hu…..mera sahil ka whi rishta hai jo aapka sahil se hai….” “matlab??” aarti ka dil dhakk se rah gya…. “pyar karti hu mai sahil se …be-intahaa pyar….” Juhi ne bade aaram se aarti ke sar par dhamaka kar diya…. Aarti thodi der tak uski or dekti rahi ..aur fir foot foot kar rone lagi….. “nhi plz aisa mat bolo..mai ye nhi sun sakti…sahil mera hai …sirf mera …meri chahat…meri muhabbat …mera pahla pyar….maine bachpan se lekar jawani tak sirf sahil ko pyar kiya hai…..mai sahil ko kisi ke sath nhi baat sakti…..tumhe to koi bhi mil jayega…plz mere sahil ko mujhse mat chino……..plz mai jee nhi paungi uske bina…” Juhi aarti ki halat dekhkar baukhla gayi ……wo apni chair se uthakr aarti ke pas aa gyi aur uske sar par hath rakhkar use chup karane lagi….. Aarti kas ke juhi ko apni baho me beech kar us se chipak kar rone lagi…. “plz sahil ko mujhse alag mat karo…..maine galti ki hai lekin uski itani badi sajaa nhi milni chahiye…plz…plz….” “chup ho jao aarti plz……tumhe sahil se koi juda nhi kar sakta…koi bhi nhi…” Aarti ka rona dekhkar juhi ki aankho me bhi aansu aa gye…..usne badi muskil se aarti ko chup karaya aur fir pas me rakha glass ka pani badhaya uski or… Aarti ab thodi normal huyi….”juhi..plz mujhe bataye sahil ko aap kasie janti hai…plz..” “thik hai mai batatti hu….” Juhi aarti ko lekar pass me rakhe sofe par baith gayi…peon ko bulakar do coffee ko bola aur sahil se pahli mulakat se lekar ab tak ki dastaan aarti ko sunane lagi……….

UPDATE 12 sahil kamre ke bahar hi rook jata hai ...aarti ki baten sun ne lagta hai ... " yar tumhari bat sahi hai ...lekin jaroori to nahi ki har wo sapna jo insan dekhe wo pura hi ho jaye " aarti ko itna seriously bat karte huye dekhakr sahil aur dhyan se uski baten sun ne lagta hai ...use lag rha tha ki wo shayad galat kar rha hai..aarti ki baten chhupkar sun na galat tha ...lekin wo ye bhi jan ta tha ki bat kuchh aisi hai jo aarti us se nhi batana chahti thi aur us bat ne aarti ko behad disturb bhi kar rkha tha ...ab itni vajah kafi thi sahil ke liye uski baten chori se sun ne ko ..agar ye galat tha to galat hi sahi...wo aarti ke liye kuchh bhi kar sakta tha. " nhi aditi ,,,mera sapna to MBBS ban ne ka hi hai ..lekin har sapna pura ho jaye ye jaroori to nhi ...kal maine mummy papa ki baten suni thi ..wo dono chahte hai ki mai BDS me admission le lu...aur mai kya karu unhe manaa bhi nhi kar paa rhi ...kyuki mujhe khud bhi confidence nhi hai ki mai entrance clear kar paungi ...mujhe chemistry bilkul nhi aati ...ab agr mai admission na bhi lu to bhi mai next year MBBS nhi qualify kar paungi ..."' "nhi yar , puri life ye pachhtawa rah jayega ki mera sapna sapna hi rah gya ...lekin mai kuchh nhi kar sakti ...mummy papa bhi mujhe jyada time nhi denge mai janti hu ...aur maine khud ko parakh liya hai ...chemistry mujhe bikul nhi aati aur botany bhi jyada samjh me nhi aati ..ab do subjects ke bina mai kaise entrance nikal paungi" “ ab mai kya kar sakti hu ..coaching kar ke bhi dekh liya …mere basics hi nhi clear hai..tujhe to pata hai ki ghar par bhi koi guide karne wal nhi hai aur chemistry to mera weak point rha hai …kya karu ..papa ko nhi bol sakti jab mai khud hi confident nhi hu “’ Aarti ne thodi der aur baten ki aur fir phone rakh diya…sahil apne kamre me wapas aa gya …aarti ki baton se saf jahir tha ki wo kitni disturb thi ..aur use apne sapne ke tutne ka dukh bhi tha ..sahil ne apne man me kuchh nischay kiya aur fir subah didi jeeja se direct bat karne ki sochne laga. Dusre din sahil jaldi hi fresh hokar niche aaya..jeeja news paper padh rhe the aur didi kitchen me thi ..sahil bhi jeeja ke pas aakr baith gya .. "Aur sale saha …kab shift karne ki sochr rho ho “ jeeja ne ek nazar us par dali aur fir newspaper dekhte huye bole . “ wo jeeja mai....... kuchh bat karna tha aap se” “ ha ha bolo” jeeja ne paper ek taraf rakhte huye kaha. Aur sahil ne aarti ki suni huyi sari bat unhe bata di . “ ab yar hamara man to yhi hai ki wo admission le le…aakhir kab tak taiyari karegi …fir clear karne ke bad bhi 4-5 sal padhna hota hai…ladki hai …shadi byah ka bhi dekhna padta hai “ “jeeja aap ki bat thik hai …lekin kya aap ko nhi lagta ki use uska sapna pura karne ke liye pura samay milne chahiye…ab wo ladki hai to isme uski kya galti …aur agar aap logo ne uspar jor dala to wo admisiion to le leghi lekin puri zindagi uska adhura khwab use dasta rahega …ek kasak rah jayegi man me ki kash ek bar aur try kiya hota ..kash ki mummy papa mujhe ek mauka aur dete ..aur tab wo khud ko kosegi aur aap logo ko bhi “ “ jeeja ji mai aapse bahut chhota hu aur agar meri baten aapko galat lage to maf kar dijiyega lekin ye galat hai …aarti ko pura haq hai apne sapne ko pura karne ka har sambhav prayatn karne ka “ Jeeja ji sahil ki baton se kafi sahmat nazar aa rhe the … “’ chalo thik hai …ham use dete hai mauka ..is sal nhi agle sal bhi …lekin jaisa ki tum khud kah rhe ho ..use khud bhi apne aap par bharoa nhi hai..to agr uska self confidence itna low hai to wo kaise taiyari kar payegi ….batao .?????.agar use hi khud par bharosa nhi hai to ….???” Jeja ne sahil ko katghare me khada kar diya tha .. “ mai dilaunga use wo self confidence “ sahl ne dridhta se kaha. Sahil ne botany , zoology aur chemistry se BSc kiya hua tha aur in subjects me kafi achchha tha . “par beta tum to jar he ho ?“ didi bhi aa chuki thi aur apne bhai par behad garv mahsoos ho rha tha unhe jo apne ladli ke haq ke liye lad rha tha . “ nhi didi main nhi ja rha ..ab mai yhi rah kar padhunga “ “ pushpa ,mujhe lagta tha ki aarti ko mujhse jyada pyar koi nhi karta ..lekin mai galat tha …tum thik kahti h ki aarti sahil ki ladli hai “ jeeja bhi sahil ki baton se kafi prabhavit huye the aur muskurate huye bole . Sahil jhenp gya unki bat par . Aaj aarti kafi der se jagi thi aur fresh hokar niche aayi to sab logo ko ek sath baithe huye paya ...didi jeeja aur sahil teeno kuchh bat kar rhe the aur aarti ko aata dekhkar chup ho gaye... aarti ko thoda ajeeb sa laga ..aisa pahle kabhi nhi hua tha ..... " aao beta baitho " papa ne pyar se aarti ko apne pas bithya. "aarti ! sahil nhi ja rha ..yhi rahega ..hamare pass ..hum sabke sath " didi ne muskurate huye kaha. "par q???" aarti ko samjh me nhi aa rha tha ki kaise react kare isliye ulte seedhe sawal kar rhi thi . " areee...ye kaisa swal hai ???" didi hairan hote huye boli . tabhi sahil ka mobile baj utha aur wo muskurata hua uthakar bahar chala gya. " nhi mummy mera matlab us din to aap bol rhi thi fir bhi mama rukne ke liye taiyar nhi the ..fir achanak ? " aarti ko sachmuch kuchh samjh me nhi aa rha tha . "beta usne rat me teri sari baten sun li thi ...aurr aaj subah se hamse bahas kar rha hai.." aarti ke jehan me rat ki sari baten kisis sapne ke tarah aane lagi .... jab wo apni friend Aditi se bat kar rhi thi .. Aarti samajh gayi ki sahil ne uski bate sun li thi aur ab wo wha uski wajah se rookna chahata tha. Sahil phone par bat smapt karke jaise hi kamre me pahuchata hai aarti ko apni or dekhta pata hai…aarti ki aankho me nami bhi thi aur khusi bhi . Sahil janta tha ki aarti ka sapna MBBS banne ka tha aur wo chahta tha ki aarti ek bar apne pure aatm-bal ke sath apne us sapne ko puri karne ki kosis kare aur iske liye ab use aarti ko mentally prepare karna tha .ye bat to sahil khud bhi mahsus kar chukka tha ki aarti ko khud par bharosa nhi hai ki wo MBBS ka entrance clear kar payegi aur jab tak insane ko khud par bharosa na ho wo koi bhi kam puri lagan se nhi kar sakta .use pta tha ki rasta bahut kathin hai,lekin manjil bahut hi sundar. Jeeja ji par bhi bhi sahil ki bato ka asar behad gahera pada tha aura b unhe bharosa tha ki sahil aarti ke liye jo sochega behtar hi hoga.aur ab sara kam sahil ko karna tha . “mama aapko yha rukne ki koi jarurat nhi hai…mai admission lene wali hu basss….” Aarti ne bahut rudely kaha. “ aarti ye koi tarika hai bat karne ka …” jeeja ,jo ki aarti ko kabhi nhi dan te the, use aise bolte dekhkar thode gusse me bole. “ koi bat nhi jeeja ….aarti mai tumse is bare me bad me bat karunaga…aur mai kahi nhi ja rha bas itna jan lo” sahil bolta hua chhat par chala gya. Rat ko sab log khana khakar apne apne room me pahuch chuke the ..sahil ne didi jeeja ko bol diya tha ki wo aarti se bat kar lega aur use smjha lega.shayad sahil ko pta tha ki aarti use rukne se q mana kar rhi thi .aur use arti ke man me ho rhi kisi bhi shanka ko door karna tha…..rat ko sahil aarti ke room me jata hai… “andar aa sakta hu kya ?” sahil aarti ke room ke darwaze par khada muskura rha tha. “ aa jaiye,,,jaisi ki mai mana kar dungi to aap bada man jaoge” aarti tunak kar boli ,aur sahil ko uska aise ruthe ruthe se bolna kafi achchha lagta tha. Wo muskurate huye aarti ke roo me chala jata hai aur whi rakhi chair khichkar baith jata hai. “ ab batao ..ye subah se angaare kyu chaba rhi ho???? kya ho gya????” sahil ke puchhne ka andaj hi aisa tha ki aarti aur tap gayi. “achchha mai angare chaba rhi hu…aur aapke muh se to jaise phool baras rhe hai???” Wo kaun sa pichhe rahne wali thi fauran hisab pura kar diya. Sahil jor se hasne laga..use aarti ko chidhane me hamesa hi mja aat tha aur aaj uske dil me ek khusi thi,ek sukoon tha …pahli bar wo apni ‘ LADLI’ ke liye itna bada kuchh karne jar ha tha. “achcha baba sorry…ab meri bat suno ..tum kahi admission nhi le rhi …ek bar fir se taiyari karna hai aur sirf MBBS hi karna hai….mai yhi rahunga aur tumhe chemistry padhaya karunga …aur bhi jo difficult lagega tum puchh liya karna…samjhi…. ab is bat par koi behas nhi hogi…ye mera aakhiri faisala hai” sahil ne behad apne pan se kaha. Lekin aarti shayad abhi bhi thodi gusse me thi ya fir shyad isi ko juban fisal jana kahte hai…uske muh se nikle alfaj teer ban kar sahil ke seene me ja lgae…. “aapka faislaaaaaa?? Admission mujhe lena hai…aap kaun hote ho faisla suna ne wale” aarti jhat se ek lahje me bol gayi . Sahil ek tak aarti ki aankho me dekhta rah gaya….use laga jaise kisi ne garamaa garam sheesa uske kano me udel diya tha …aaj tak sahil ko kisi ki kisi bat se itna dukh nhi pahucha tha jitna aarti ki is bat se …. “ aap kaun hote ho faisala lene wale” sahil ko apne kano par yakeen nhi ho rha tha ki aarti kabhi usko aisa bol sakti hai ….wo aarti jise wo is duniya me sabse jyada pyar karta tha…wo aarti jiske sapne ko pura hota dekhne ke liye usne apne carreer ki parwah nhi ki thi….wo aarti jise bachpan se lekar jawani tak sahil ne kabhi ek kadwi bat tak nhi boli thi…aaj us aarti ne use se puchha tha ki “wo kaun hota hai uski zindagi ke faisel lene wala’…kya jwab deta sahil ,jab swal us sakhs ne puchha tha jise wo apni zindagi ke har sawal jawab se bahut upar manta chala aaya tha ???????…. Sahil ki aankho me kab aansu aa gaye use khood pata nhi chala,pata chal jab aansu ki ek boond aankho se nikal kar galo ko bhigo gayi. Sahil kisi hare huye juwari ki tarah utha aur ladkhadate kadmo se wapas uske room se bahar nikal gya. Aarti sahil ki halat dekhkar samjh gayi ki usne kya bol diya….use ahsas ho gya tha ki sahil uske liye kya soch rha tha…usne kya sila diya tha … Lekin aarti sahil ko manane nhi ja rhi thi …jane kya tha uske man me….is samay rat ke 11.30 baj rhe the aur sahil apne room me bed par leta hua tha ….aankho se aansu beh rhe the aur dil aarti ke sath bitaye dino key ado me vicharad kar hr a tha …sahil ki aankho se neend koso door thi..inhi sab yado me rat ke 2 baje gaye aur sahil se jab dil ka dard bardash nhi hua to usne aarti ke number par kuchh sms send kiye …. “ dear aarti….tumahara sawal shayad thik tha ‘ mai kaun hota hu tumhari zindagi me koi faisala lene wala’ ….bahut socha maine…. lekin jab tumne ye sawal puchha hai to fir mere pas iska koi jawab nhi hai..ha agr kisi aur ne ye sawal puchha hota to mere pas iska jwab jarur tha … mai tumhara kya hu ye to duniya janti hai lekin tum meri kya ho ye koi nhi janta,,aur kisi aur ke jan ne se koi fark bhi nhi padta,jab tum hi nhi jan payi to . Mai tumhara jo hu us riste se shayad mai itna bada faisal nhi le sakta ..khaskar ke tab jab tumne hi puchh liya ki mai kaun hota hu….” Dusra sms… “ kal hi yha se chala jaunga..bas ek kasak rah jayegi dil me ki tumhare liye kuchh kar nhi paya ..qki tum lakh puchho ki mai tumhara kaun hu koi faisalaa lene wala…lekin mere dil me ye sawal kabhi nhi aayega ki tum meri kaun ho jo maine bina tumse puchhe apna failsla suna diya......qki mera dil jan ta hai ki tum meri kaun ho". 3rd sms me sahil ko kisi shayar ki likhi ek behad pyari si nazm yad aa gayi….. ""Koi tumse puche kaun hoon main, Tum keh dena koi khaas nahi. Ek dost hai kaccha pakka sa, Ek jhooth hai aadha saccha sa. Jazbaat ko dhake ek parda bas, Ek bahana hai accha sa. Jeevan ka ek aisa saathi hai, Jo pass ho ke bhi pass nahi. Koi tumse puche kaun hoon main, Tum keh dena koi khaas nahi. Hawa ka ek suhana jhonka hai, Kabhi nazuk toh kabhi tufaano sa. Chehra dekh kar jo nazrein jhuka le, Kabhi apna toh kabhi begaano sa. Zindgi ka ek aisa humsafar, Jo samandar hai, par dil ko pyaas nahi. Koi tumse puche kaun hoon main, Tum keh dena koi khaas nahi. Ek saathi jo ankahi kuch baatein keh jaata hai, Yaadon me jiska ek dhundhla chehra reh jaata hai. Yuh toh uske na hone ka kuch gam nahi, Par kabhi kabhi aankho se ansu ban ke beh jaata hai. Yuh rehta toh mere tassavur me hai, Par in aankho ko uski talaash nahi. Koi tumse puche kaun hoon main, Tum keh dena koi khaas nahi!!! " (ek aisi nazm jo sahil ke dil ke behad karib thi ) " aarti tum apne dil par koi bojh mat rakhna ...mai tum se naraz nhi hu ..achcha hi kiya tumne ...dil ne ek galatfahmi pal li thi..jo ab shayad door ho jayegi ...thank you. bas ek aakhiri bat ...ek din maine kaha tha ki mere liye mera carreer sabse jyada important hai ...wo jhooth kaha tha ...bsa itna hi batana tha...aur sorry agar tumhari neend meri vajah se kharab huyi ho to ....aj ke bad kabhi tumhe disturb nhi karunga.....reply karne ki jarooart nahi hai GOOD NIGHT" sahil ne sare sms draft me save kar rakhe the aur fir ek ke bad ek sare aarti ke number par send kar diye . sahil ka dil ye soch kar aur ro rha tha ki aarti ne agar galti se wo bol diya tha to fir use manane kyu nhi aayi ...kyu nhi ek bar aakr boli ki sahil i m sorry. sahil ne soch liya tha ki ab wo yha se chala jayega...hamesa hamesa ke liye. Sahil ko aaj bahut akelapan lag rha tha .......mai itna gair huuuuu ????? Aarti ke liye bhi???? Jab mera koi haq nhi uspar to mai yha kiske liye rukunga ???? Sahil ka man inhi sab socho me gum tha ki achanak uske room ki light jal gyi .......aarti uske room me uske aankho ke samne khadi thi......... Sahil ne ek nazar uthakar uski or dekha ...aarti ke chehre par bhi neend ke koi bhav nhi the ...bas ek hi bhav tha us masoom chehre par-- paschatap ka bhav . Aarti chalti hui sahil ke karib aa gyi ...sahil aadha leta hua sa bistar par pda tha aur kuchh der pahle tham chuki aansuo ki badh fir se aankho me bhar aayi thi jise chhalakne se rokne ki wo puri kosis kar rha tha ...... Aarti uske pas baith jati hai ....dono me se koi bhi kuchh nhi bol rha tha ...sahil aarti se nazre chura rha tha aur aarti uski aankho me jhankne ki kosis kar rhi thi . "Sorry ,, mera kahne ka wo matlab nhi tha ......mai basyhi chahti thi ki meri vajah se aap ka nuksan na ho .....aap yha rahoge to aapki study thik se nhi ho payegi " Aarti ka chehra uski baton ka sath nhi de rha tha ......chehre se saf lag rha tha ki use apni galti par bahut afsos hai lekin wo bat aise kar rhi thi ki mano sirf sahil ka dil rakhne k liye bol rhi ho ........ "Tumhe sorry bolne ki koi jarurat nhi hai .....tumne to mere liye achchha hi socha hai .....sahi hi hai yha rahkar mai nhi padh paunga ....mai chala jaunga yha se ......"" sahil ne bhi usi ke se lahje me kaha . Jane kyu aarti jee tod kosis kar rhi thi ye show karne ki sahil ke rahne se ya jane se use koi khas fark nhi padta .......leki isme kamyabi use bikul nhi mil rhi thi .. "Jao aarti , so jao bahut rat ho chuki hai ...good night " sahil ne aarti ko chup dekha to dil par patthar rakhkar kaha ... Aarti chup chap wapas jane ke liye mudi .....thodi door jakar usne wapas mudkar sahil ki or dekha ...sahil ki aankhe dabdabaa aayi thi ........ "Bye aarti "sahil ne rundhe huye gale se kaha ... AARTI ko use lga kisi ne kaleje se uski jan nikal li ho ...itni tadap thi us alwida me ki aarti ko lga sahil use nhi uski dosti ko alwida kah rha tha ......wo to kahi nhi ja rhi thi .....good night sahil bol chuka tha ...to fir ??????? Sahil ke dil me shayad sach me whi tha ....????? Aarti ke sabra ka bandh toot gya ......wo bhagati huyi sahil ke gale se lag gayi ...... ""I m soryy.......i m really sorry......mujhe maf kar do mama....mai bahut buri hu .....bahut der se kosis kar rhi hu bahut normal dikhne ki ...bahut majboot bane rahne ki .....lekin sach to ye hai ki mai bahut kamjor pad gyi hu.....kuchh samjh nhi aa rha ....apne sapne ko pura hota dekhne ke liye aapke sapno ko dav par to nhi lga sakti ......aap ne mere liye itna socha is jyada khusi aur kya hogi .....mai janti hu agar ye bat mai aapko samjhati to bhi aap na mante...isliye mujhe ye sab karna pada ........i m sorry ...plz mujhe maf kar do aur jao yha se ...jao aap apne lakshya ko pura karo .." aarti ne jaise taise apne dil ki bat kah hi di ...aakhir wo patthar to n thi jo sahil ki halat ko nazar andaz kar deti .. " ha chala jaunga ....vaise bhi mai kaun hota hu tumhari zindagi ke faisle lene wala ......" aarti sahil ke seene se lagi thi aur sahil uski aankho me dekhte huye bola ...uffffff jheel se gahri kali bhawra si aankhe....un aankho me tairate moti sahil ka karar loot lete the aur uske sare mansoobo aur irado par pani fer dete ....wo moti jinki keemat sahil ka dil hi janta tha .... " plz aap aisa mat kaho .....aap se behtar mere liye kaun soch sakta hai ...aap ko pta hai aapke sms padh kar kitna royi hu mai ....maine ek bar bol diya ki aap kaun hote ho ,,,aur aap ne sach me man liya ki aap koi nhi ho ???? Aapke sms ke ek ek sabd ek teer ki tarah chubhe hai mujhe.......aur kya likha tha aapnne ????--- kachcha pakka sa dost ??? Hmmmm batao to zara .....aapke aur meri ladai ke bich me hamari dosti kaha se aagyi.....mai manti hu ki meri galti hai ......leki agar ek dost galti kare to dusra dost use chhodkar jane ki bat nhi karta ...balki use kan khichkar seedha kar deta hai ...samjhe ....ab agr mai bolungi ki hum dost nhi hai ...ya aap mujhse bat mat karo .....to kya aap man jaoge...hmmmm...bolo ???? "Aarti , tumhari kasam agar kabhi dil se bol dogi ki mujhse bat mat karna ...to zindagi bhar tumse bat nhi karunga....mere liye sabse badi tumhari khusi hai ...aur agar mujhe ykeen ho gya ki wo khusi mera bina hai ....to yhi sahi ." Sahil ko aarti ke bate samjh me shayad nhi aayi thi lekin ye samjh me aa gya tha ki aarti ke kahne ka intention kya tha aur ab usne aarti ko apne dil ki ek gahree sachchhai bata di thi ...ki aarti ki khusi uske liye kya mayne rakhti hai ... Aarti sahil ke aankho me dekhti rah jati hai ...kitna sachcha tha sahil ...chhal kapat se pare...nispap, nischhal..aarti is bar kuchh nhi bolti aur sahil ke seene se aur jor se chipak jati hai .... "Aap mat jao ,,,kahi mat jao...yhi mere pas rho ...mere sath... " aarti jane kis bhawna ke aavesh me . bol gyi . Sahil ke dil ka sara dard aarti ke uske seene se lagne ke sath hi gayab ho chuka tha ....uska man bahut halka feel ho rha tha ....aur aarti ki is bat ne ek gudgudi si ki thi uske man me . Par mai kaun hota hu tumhara . " sahil ne ab aarti ko chhedte huye kaha . Aarti buri tarah lajaa gayi , jane kyuuuu??? "Mama , enough is enough,, ab ho gya na .....aap nhi jaoge na?????? "" "Tum nhi chahti ki mai jau .....dil se batana ??????" Sahil ne aarti ko balo me hath pherte huye puchha . aarti ne uski aankho me dekhte huye bas naa me sar hila diya . "To phir nhi jaunga ....hm dono ke sapne pure honge dekhna .......aur ham sath sath pure karenge " sahil ne pyar se kaha aur badi himmat karke aarti ke mathe par ek chumban kar diya..... Aarti ka chehra gulabo sa lal ho gya ...sahil uske khwabo me rang bharte bharte uske dil ke rangeen galiyaro me utarta ja rha tha aur use khabar bhi nhi ho rhi thi ... "Achcha chhodo mujhe ...jane do ab " sahil ko pta hi nhi chala kab aarti ke gale me uski bahe lipatti chali gayi . "Oh....sorry " sahil aise alag hua jaise kisi ne spring ka gudda uchala ho . Aarti muskurate huye uthi aur apne room mr jane lagi aur ek aakhri bar palatkar boli .... " thanx " "Anytime " sahil bas itna hi bola .....ab dono ke dilo me itminan tha aur dono ka rishta majboot hone ke sath sath nayi shakl leta ja rha tha. Agle kuchh mahine sahil ki zindagi ke kuchh sabse mathvapoorn mahine the aur thode muskil bhi ...aur in dino me uska sabse bada sahara bani thi aarti ..... Sahil ke wha rookane se do log bahut jyada khus nhi the ek sahil ke bhaiyya dheeraj aur dusra aarti ka bhai Rohan ...aur iski vajah ya to unhe pta thi ya atit ke garbh me chhupi huyi.....lekin sahil ko achchhi tarah se pta tha ki wo kya kar rha hai ....isliye zindagi me first time dheeraj ki bat na mante huye unhe apne wha rookne aur study ke nuksan na hone ka ykeen dilaya ...Dheeraj ko uski baton par kitna yakeen hua ye kahna bahut muskil tha . Sahil ka main exam november me tha aur aarti ka next year march ke bad se ....is samay june chal rha tha ...to sahil ke pas 4 months the preparation ke liye ....kul 9 paper hone the aur sare subjective ....civil services exam ko har exam ki janani kaha jata hai aur ab sahil ke samne chunouti thi us exam ko clear karne ki aur apne nirnay ko sahi sabit karne ki .....use achchhi tarah se pta tha ki class aur college top karna aur bat thi kintu is exam ko clear karna behad alag aur kayi guna difficult .....yha uska samne all india ke best competitors se the jo us se kahi achchhe aur mahnge schoolo se padhkar nikle the aur us se achchhi sukh suvidhawo me pale badhe ......lekin sahil ka jajba hi uski sabse badi daulat tha .....ek aur daulat thi is samay uske pas thi - Aarti ka sath. Sahil behad dridh tarike se apne aim ko pane ke liye jut gaya tha ......main exam ke form bharne aur document submit karne ke bad usne apne aap ko is taiyari ke jhonk diya tha .... Didi sahil ke khane peene ka behad khyal rakh rhi thi ....sahil rat me 9 se 11 aarti ko padhata tha ....jyadatar wo aarti ko uske room me hi padhata tha .......din me bhi aarti us se kuchh kuchh puchhti lekin use ye hamesa lagta ki wo sahil ko disturb na kare .......sahil der rat tak padhta tha .....aur aarti generally 12.30 tk so jati .... Isi tarah din beet rahe the ....october ka month suru ho chuka tha...... Ek din rat me Sahil aarti ko padhakar apni padhai kar rha tha ...lagbhag 1.00 baj rhe the rat ke ....sahil padhte padhte bahut thak gya tha .......tabhi uske chair ke pichhe aarti aa khadi huyi ...uske hatho me ek cup tha... "Coffee " usne sahil ki table par cup rakhate huye muskura kar kaha .. """"Hainnnnnnn ...???? aarti tu aur coffee???? Maine jyada pdhai kar li ya fir mai koi sapna dekhrha hu " sahil ne usko coffe lekar aaya dekha to ek anjani si khusi ka ahsas hua ...lekin arti ko tang karna aur fir us se pyar wali ladai ab sahil ki aadat ban chuki thi ....usne muskurate huye banvati aascharya ke bhav chehre par late huye use chheda . Aarti ghar ke kam nhi karti thi to sahil ka kahna thoda zayaj bhi tha ..... " jyada nautanki karne ki zarrorat nhi hai ....mujhe laga padhte padhte thak gye hoge so aap ke liye coffee bana di ...mujhe koi shauk nhi hai kisi ki khatir dari karne ka ....aage se khud hi bana lena " wo jo muskurate huye aayi thi ab pair patakte huyd wapas ja thi thi... Sahil ne jaldi se lapakar uska hath pakad liya . " are..are..re...mai to majak kar rha tha " sahil ne bade muskil se use apne pas bed par baithate huye haste huye kahaa. Aarti uske sath baith gyi par chehre par abhi bhi gussa aur narazgi thi...lekin ye ruthna wo roothna tha jabki roothne wale ko pta hota hai ki samne wala use manayega jaroor ...aur hua bhi aisa hi ..... "Wow kya mast coffe banayi hai ...... " sahil ne ek sip liya aur coffee wakai bahut achchhi bani thi .....sahil ko ab lga tha ki aarti ghar ke kam karti bhale na ho lekin aata use sabkuchh hai . Aarti ne kankhiyo se use dekha ....." koi jaroorat nhi hai jhoothi tarif karne ki " " nhi yar ...sach me coffee bahu badhiya bani hai .....achchha sorry ..plzzzzz" Sahil ne vishwas bhari nazro se uski aankho me dekhte huye kaha . " aap mujhe itna tang kyu karte ho " aarti ne narm lahje me puchha ... " bina tujhse lade jhagde mera din hi nhi gujarata...kuchhh adhura sa lagta rahta hai " sahil ne dil ki sachchai bayaa kar di .. Aarti kuchh nhi boli ...sahil ko laga shayad wo kuchh aur hi samajh rhi hai ... " achchha ab nhi tang karunga tujhe , agar tujhe bura lagta hai to ??? "" sahil bola . " ye maine kab kaha ki mujhe bura lagta hai " aarti ne muskurate huye kaha ... " mujhe pta tha ,,, mujhe aadat ho gyi hai tujhse ladne ki " sahil bhi muskurate huye bola . " achchha aur jab mai aapke sath nhi rahungi tab kise tang karoge aur kisse ladoge ???? Vaise jab asp IAS ban jage to bahut sari mil jayengi aap ko mujh jaisi " aarti ne pta nhi kya soch kar ye topic chhed diya ... Aaj pahli bar sahil ne aarti ke muh se ye bat suni thii ki jab ham sath nhi honge ...uska chehra thoda udas ho gya ..... " aarti tumhari jagah meri life me kabhi bhi koi bhi nhi le sakta ...chahe mai kuchh bhi ban jau " sahil ne seedhi bat sheedhe tarike se bol di . Aarti sahil ki bat pr thodi serious si ho gayi...... "Aisa kuchh nhi hai ....life m bahut sare log milenge ...aur bahut se mujhse achchhe bhi honge....meri jagah aisi kya hai jo koi nhi le sakta ????? ""Aarti ne sahil k udas chehre ko gaur se dekhte huye kaha. "Tum mere liye kya ho ye mai kaise batau ...chhodo kabhi mauka mila to bta dunga ...lekin ye nischit h ki tumhari jagah jo mere dil me hai wo koi nhi le sakta "" sahil bhi apni bat par adig tha lekin is bar usne life me kya jagah ke sthan pr dil me kya jagah hai sabd ka pryog kiya tha ....janbojh kar ya bhawnao me behkar ??? Kah pana muskil hai. " mama aap jante ho dil me wo jagah kise di jati hai " ???? Aarti ne mano dhamaka kiya ho , sahil ka chehra fukk pad gya .lekin uske dil me koi mail nhi tha ,,,,sirf pyar tha isliye uske sabdo me vishwas dilane ki kshamta thi... " nhi mai nhi janta ......lekin itna janta hu ki dil me sabse khas jagah use di jati hai jo dil ke sabse karib hota hai ....dil ko jispar ykeen hota hai aur jiske liye kuchh bhi kar jane ko jee chahta hai ......fir chahe wo koi family me ho , dost ho ya mahbooba ho" sahil ki bat me kuchh aisi bat thi ki aarti kuchh pal bas use dekhti rah gayi. " mama aap bahut achchhe ho " aarti aur kuchh kuredna nhi chahti thi lekin sahil ki sachchhai par uski tarif kiye bina n rh saki. "Tu bhi bahut ahchhi hai, sabse achchhi " sahil ne saf sabdo me aarti ki tarif ki . " sach mama??? Mai sabse achchhi hu ????" Aarti sahil ki tarif se kafi khus huyi aur chhote bacchho ki tarah khanakte huye boli. " ha bhai , ab itni rat ko itni achchhi coffe mili hai ,to thodi tarif to banti hai na ...ab aage bhi to cooffee banwani padegi na " sahil ne use fir chhed diya . " koi achchhe nhi ho aap...ullu ho ...junglee ullu ...samjhe.... ha nhi to ...bas bate jane kaha se jadu karne wali sikh rakhi hai " aarti badbadate huye room se chali gayi jabki sahil ki hasi use aur gussa dila rhi thi. Aarti ke jane ke bad sahil fir se padhai me lag gya. Sahil aur aarti ki pyar bhari takrar ab ek naye khoobsoorat rishte ka rang akhtiyar kar rhi thi ...lekin dono hi abhi is bat se anjan the ....aur ab intzar tha us khoobsoorat hadase ka jo un dono ko is bat ka ahsaas dilata . Jaise jaise sahil ka exam pas aa rha tha , uski mehnat aur jyada badhti ja rhi thi ......aarti uske khane peene ka pura khyal rakhti...ab exam me keval 15 din rah gaye the ...sahil is samay aarti ko nhi padhata tha .....bas puri tarah se padhai m hi leen tha .... " aarti , mujhe bahut tension hoti hai exam ki aur fir result ki " ek din sahil aaryi ka hath apne hatho me lekar bola . " tension kyu???? Sab achchha hoga ...mai hu na aapke pas " aarti pyar se use sambhal leti ...aur uski itani si tassalli se sahil ke dil ko bahut himmat mil jati . Dheere dheere sahil ke exam bhi suru ho gaye ...kul 5 din exam the aur har din 2 paper hote the ....dono paper subjective ....sahil ne puri imandari se exam diye ...aur aaj final paper hone ke bad wo ghar pahucha tha . " aa gya mera bachcha ...kaisa kamjor ho gya hai is padhai ke chakkar me " didi ne pyar se use apne pas sofe par bithate huye kaha . Sahil kuchh nhi bola ..aartt bhi whi thi ..... " kaisa hua mama paper ?? " aarti ne puchha . " achchha hua hai " " chalo fir intrview ki taiyari m lg jao ....mains to nikal gya samjho " sahil aarti ki bat par bas halka sa muskura kar rah gya ....par didi nhi ... " ai ladki chup rah tu ...itne dino se paglo ke jaisa padh rha h mera bachchha ...ab thode din aaram karne de ...beta kuchh din kitabe side me rakh ...thoda ghoom fir....logo se mil ...ja kahi baha ghoom aa agar dil kare to " Aarti didi ki bat se chup ho gyi aur sahil use dekh kar muskura diya ... " ha didi dekhta hu .....abhi to thodi der sounga ..." sahil ki aankhe jyada der jagne ki vajah se lal ho rhi thi ... " ha ,tu fresh ho ja ma khana whi lati hu " Sahil kha peekar soya to neend rat ke 8 bje aarti ke jagane par khuli .... " kya mama itti der se so rhe ho .....chalo utho ..ab dinner ka time ho rha hai ...." " bas thodi der ..." sahil ne rajai me fir se ghuste huye kaha .... " plz uth jao na ....mummy papa packing kr rhe hai aur mai akele pagal ho rhi hu " Is bar sahil ne muh bahar nikalkar use dekha ...... " kyu kahi ja rhe hai kya ......" sahil ne ek aankh kholte huye puchha . " ab jago tab to pataa chale .....sab log to bas ghode bechkar sote hai par aapne hathi , hiran, sher bandar sab bech diye hai ...aise so rhe ho " aarti ne tunak kar jwab diya. Sahil ko uski bat par hasi aa gyi...aur wo aarti ke sath niche aa gya ... thodi der bad wo niche sab logo ke sath baithkar khana kha rha tha jab didi ne bataya ki wo kisi relative k yha ja rhe hai jinke yha kuchh din pahle kisi ki death ho gyi thi ....aur ab wo whi ja rhe the .....wo log pune ja rhe the ....3-4 din bad hi aana tha ..... " sahil tum aur aarti ladai mt karna ....aur time se kha lena ....man kare to khana banaa lena nhi to bahar se order kar dena ....aur rat ko gate time se lock kar lena ..." didi subah nikalne se kuchh der pahle dono ko hidayat de rhi thi ... " mummy aap apne bhai ko samjha do ki mujhse na laden ....m to kabhi nhi ladai karti pahle " aarti ne massom sa muh banakar kaha . "Achchha???? " sahil ne use ghoora . "Bas bassss...mana kar rhi hu aur fir se dono suru ho gye ....mujhe pta hai tum dono hi doodh ke dhule ho .....pta nhi kab bade hoge dono ....ab chup raho " didi ki bat sunkar dono chup ho gaye lekin aankho hi aankho me ladai ka elan ho chuka tha. Jeeja chupchap is ladai ke mje le rhe the .... " achchhabhai sale sahab !! Milte hai fir 4 din bad ...bike ki chabhi ye rhi ...kahi aana jana ho to ghoom aana .....aur hm to bas yhi kahenge ki ladai to karna par ekdusre ke bal mat ukhadna " jeeja ne haste huye aakhri bat kahi . " papa !!! " aarti unke gale lag gyi . Thodi der bad ghar me sirf aarti aur sahil the ...samne television chal rhi thi aur dono rajai me ek sath baithe the _________________________

UPDATE 11 Sahil khana khakar apne room me chala jata hai aur bistar par girate hi use need aaj jati hai ...sham ke karib 5 bje sahil ki need khulati hai aur wo fresh hokar neeche aa jata hai ...didi bed pr baithkar sabji kat rhi thi aur aarti whin pas me hi sofe pr chup chap baithi thi .... Use yu gumsum dekhkar shahil ko thodi hairani hoti hai pr wo kuchh bolta nhi h ... " uth gya beta ...baith mai chai le aati hu ." Didi kitchen ki or badh jati hai aur sahil whi aarti ke bagal me sofe par baith jata hai . Kya hua ...itti chup chup q hai ...didi ne fir data kya ???" Aarti kuchh nhi bolti bas chupchap niche dekhti rahti hai .. " kya hua bol na ? " "Mera result aa gya AIPMT ka ......nhi hua hai ???" Aarti ki aankhe bhar aayi sahil ki or dekhte hi ..sahil pyar se uske sar par hath rakh deta hai ... "Koi bat nhi .." Sahil ka hath sar par padte hi aarti jane kis jajbe me aakr sahil ke kandhe par sar rakhkar rone lagti hai ..jo aansu bahot der se aankho me bhare the kisi apna ka ka sahara paa kar chhalak uthe . "Aarti ...tu pagal hai ...ro kyu rhi hai ...koi bat nhi ...MBBS ka exam clear karna koi itna aasan hota hai.????...log 4-5 sal tak taiyari karte hai aur tune to abhi bas suru Hi ki hai ...." AArti bs roye ja rhi thi aur sahil ko samajh me hhi aa rha tha ki use kaise chup karaye ... " hm apni taraf se puri kosis karte hai lekin safalta ya asafalat hamre hath me to nhi hoti ..aur fir tune aur bhi exam diye hai na..abhi unke result bhi to aane hai ...ho jayega kisi na kisi me "" sahil use tassali de rha tha ... Dekh le tu bhi aisi hi hai ye " kitchen se aate huye didi ne kaha . Samjha ise mai to samjha samjha kar thak gyi hu ...."" Koi bat nhi didi samjh jayegi ...aur fir mehnat karne ke bad parinam nkaratmk rahe to dukh to hota hi hai " Sahil ko didi ke samne aarti ka uske kandhe se lagna thoda ajeeb lag rha tha aur shayad aarti ko bhi laga tabhi wo sahil ke kandhe se alag ho jati hai . Thodi der tak sab yuhi chup rahte hai ...fir sahil bat badalne ke irade se puchhta hai - Jeeja kab tak aayenge Di ??? " Dekho ...abhi kl sham ko hi to gaye hai ..15 din ka kam bol rhe the "" "" Didi aane se pahle bhaiya se bat huyi thi ...unhone kaha ki agar jaruri hai to delhi chale jao ...aur wo monthly kharch bhi dekh lenge ...m kahi thodi door par alag rahna chahta hu family se ...padhai ke liye alag rahna hi sahi hota hai .." "Dekh beta tu yha rahkar bhi padh sakta h ...upar ke floor par ek room le le ...aarti bhi whi padhti hai ...koi disturb nhi karega ...kya alag rhega ..mujhe achchha nhi lagega tu yhi rahkar alag room lega to ,,,"" Darasal sahil Rohan ki vajah se yha nhi rahna chata tha ...bhale hi wo is samay yha nhi tha lekin aakhirkar ye uska ghar tha .....sahil ko pta tha ki usne renu ke sath jaroor kuchh kiya tha aur vaise bhi rohan aur uski aadaten sahil ko psand nhi thi ... Par wo ye bat didi se to nhi kah sakta tha ... Aree nhi didi ...vaisi bhi kisi din teri jethani aayengi to bolengi ki dekho behan ke yha aakar pda hua hai ...." Aati ke tau aur tayi thodi hi door par rahte the ...kafi ameer the ..bas ek beti hi thi unke pas ...sahil se ek sal badi , kafi khoobsoirat aur modernn .....Mba karke job kar rhi thi ...nam tha VARSHA .... eklauti hone ke karan thodi bigdi huyi thi ... Sahil ki bat se didi gussa ho gyi . Bas kar diya na tune paraya apni behan ko ...bhai sab kuchh kare to koi bat nnhi aur behan karde to wo thik nhi ....ja tera jaha man kare rah ...mai kyu mana karungi aur wo kaun hote hai bolne wale ...??"" Aree di wo to m mjak kr rha tha ...m vastav me apni study ke liye hi family se thoda door rhna chahta hu ....fsmily me raho to din rat mai gappe hi ladata rahta hu ...."" Thik h ..jaisa tujhe sahi lage ..ab tere padhai ka sawal h to mai force to nhi kar sakti ..."" Sahil bhi chup ho jata hai ...sahil ke bde bhaiya dheeraj gudgaon me joab karte the aur mahine me ek do bar didi ke yha ate the ..didi ke jeth jeyhani se bhi unki achhchhi banti thi aur wo wha bhi jate the .. Sahil ko pta tha ki didi ko uska alag rhna thoda bura kagega lekin wo soch rha tha ki kuchh din bat sab log samjh jayenge aur fur wo aat jata to rahega hi ... Aarti abhi bhi chup chap baithi thi a... "Achchha sun ..ja ise kahi thoda ghuma la ...subah se result ki tension me padi thi ..aur ab aaya to aur tension me aa gyi ....pas me hi park hai ...ja tu bhi ghoom lena "" Sahil ko di ki bat thik lagi ..aarti ka thodi der bahar ghumna jroori tha taki uske dimag se result ki bate nikal sake ...sahil use jabardasti park me le aata hai ... Park me sham ke samay kafi bhid thi...har umar ke log the ..lekin sab apne me hi mast kisi se kisi ko matlab nhi .. ..sahil aarti ko lekar ek kinare ghaso par baith jata hai .. Aarti abhi bhi jyad nhi bol rhi thi.... Oh god ,,, tu itni der chup bhi rah sakti hai ...yakeen nhi hota " sahil ab use normal karne ki koisi kar rha tha . Aarti use ghoor kar dekhti hai ... Agar mera kisi me hhi hua to ???? " abhi bhi uske dimag me result hi chal rha tha ..isliye sahil ke mjak ka jwab nhi diya . To next year fir se dena "" sahil ne jvab diya . “aur agar us sal fir na ho paya to ?” aarti jane sahil se kya kahna chahti thi . "Yar aisa thode hi hota hai … kismat ek bar dhokha de sakti hai do bar dhokha de sakti hai lekin har bar thode hi dhokha degi .” sahil ne fir jor dekar kaha. “ hmm…aap ka paper kaisa hua hai “ “Thik hua hai ….lekin competition bahut hai isliye mai sure nhi hu ki cut off kitni jayegi” “Aapka to hi ho jayega ..aap to itne brilliant ho suru se hi” “Nhi yar aisa nhi hai …school college top karna aur bat hai,,,ye all india exam hai …isme har areas ke top students aate hai....IITs , IIMs jaise top institute ke students hote hai aur hum thahre gaon ke college se simple graduate…” Aarti ko sahil ke chehre par thodi nirasha aur mayusi dikh rhi thi … “Us se kya hota hai …aapka mind sharp hai ..aur fir duniya me bhagwan nam ki bhi koi cheej hai jo sabkuchh dekhta hai” aarti sahil ko udas dekhkar samjhate huye boli . Sahil aajtak aarti ko samjh nhi paya tha…pal me shoal pal me masha….thodi der pahle hi wo khud kitni nirash me thi aur ab use kitni ummeeden bandha rhi thi …. sahil janta tha ki wo kisi bhi mood me rhe lekin uske chehre par udasi nhi dekh sakti thi ..yhi sochkar sahil ke chehre par halki si muskan aa jati hai . “Achchhaaaa!! To kya bhagwan par mera copyright hai jo wo sirf meri bat sunege??? Kya unhe teri mehnat nhi dikhegi ..bta to jaraa…tu fir kyu kah rhi thi kin hi hoga ?”” Sahil ne usi ki bato me use fasate huye puchha . “Achchaa ,,, bahut chalu ho aap “ sahil ki chalaki par aarti muskuraye bina na rah saki. “Aise hi rha kar …tu udas hoti hai to achchhi nhi lagti “ sahil ne bhi muskurate huye kaha. Thodi der dono chup ho jate hai …. “Mama aap hamre sath hi q nhi rahte ??” “Nhi yar …fir mai aur tu dono gappe marte rahenge aur na tu padhegi na mai …aur fir kaun sa mai tere sath rah paunga ..tera to kahi na kahi is sal ho jayega aur fir tu chali jayegi wah apni padhai ke liye to kya fayada” sahil ne asli karan na batate huye us se kaha. “Matlab agr mera na hua to aap rah sakte ho hamare yaha” aarti ne sahil ki bato ko kuchh aur hi matlab laga liya jabki sahil ne to bas bat talne ke liye kaha tha , “Nhi aarti…dekh tu khud taiyari kar rhi hai to tu janti hai..kitna pressure hota hai …hamare liye hmari study se jaruri kuchh bhi nhi hota ..aur mujhe lagta hai ki mai family se door rahkar better preparation kar sakta hu …” “Mama???” Ha?” “Kya sach me aapke liye sabse jaruri aap ki preparation hi hai ??”” aarti ko jane kya sujhi ye sawal puchhane ki . Ha ..bilkul…” sahil ne bina jayda dhyan diye jawab diya . Aarti ka chehra thoda utar gya aur sahil ko apni galti ka ahsa bhi ho gya lekin usne kuchh nhi kaha. Thodi der idhar udhar ki baten karne ke bad dono ghar aa gaye..ab aarti ka mood pahle se thik tha ..bas sahil ki wo k bat uske dil me ghar kar gyi thi …”.mere liye sabse jaruri meri study hai “ Sham ko dinner karte samay didi ne sahil se kaha…. “Tera jeeja ka phone aaya tha …maine sab baten batayi to naraz ho rhe the ki yha aa kra sahil dusre ke ghar me kyu rahenge …lekin mere samjhane par bole ki 10-12 din yhi rook jao phir wo aate hi kahi room ki vyawastha kar denge …koi problem nhi hai na…itne din to rook sakta hai na …tab tak yhi padh “ “Kaisi bat kar rhi ho di ..prblm kya hogi …jabtak jeeja aayenge mai yhi rahunga” Aur fir idhar udhar ki baten hone lagi .. Rat ko didi ne sahil ka bistar aarti ke bagal wale room me laga diya …sahil khana kha kr thodi der didi se bate karta hai aur fir upar apne room me chala jata hai …aarti bhi thodi der bad uske room me coffe lekar aati hai ….. Sahil kisi kitab me sar ghusaye huye tha aur aarti ke aane par kitab band karke ek side rakh deta hai…aarti use coffee dekar whi baith jati hai …. “Kya mama aaj hi aaye ho kam se kam aaj to aaram kar lete …” “Ha yar padhne ka man bhi nhi kar rha tha …wo to yuhi bas book khol li ..koi nhi tha to bor ho rha tha …” “Aur batao Allahabad me kuchh nya kiya ..ya bas kitabe hi padhte rhe …” Kya matlab ..yar ghar bar chhodkar wha padhne ke liye gaya hu to padhunga na …” “Are aap ne wo gana nhi suna hai … ‘kitaben to tumne bahut si padhi hai magar koi chehra bhi tumne padha hai’ …he he eh…he..he “ aarti kafi mood me lag rhi thi . Pagal hai tu puri…” sahil ne thoda jhenpte huye kaha. “Oh ho ,,,aap to ladkiyo se bhi jayda sharmate ho …batao na ??” “Kya batau…kuchh nhi hai batane ko …?” "sach me ?...oh god aap bhi na ..chalo achcha hai .." "are kya mai bhi na ...??" "kuchh nhi...wha pe koi naye dost bane ??" "ha ek dost hai ...Rahul nam hai ..achcha hai ..kuchh dino bad wo bhi delhi aane wala hai ...bahut achhha dost hai mera " sahil ko ab aarti ko chidhane me maj aane laga tha . aarti fir kuchh nhi bolti ... "chalo thik hai ..aap aaram karo mai chalti hu ..." thik hai " aur aarti mudkar wapas jane lagti hai .. aarti ??" wo darwaje ke pas pahuchi hi thi ki sahil ki aawaz par wapas mudkar swaliya nazro se use dekhne lagti hai ... "lekin rahul mera best friend nhi hai " sahil muskurate huye kah rha tha . aarti uski bat par halka sa muskura deti hai "good night " "good night " sahil aur aarti ki nok jhok aise hi chal rahi thi aur dhhere dheere 10 din beet jate hai . ...sahil ko do dino ke liye allahabad gya hua tha tha ...aaj wo allahabad se wapas aaya tha ...rat ke 10 baje ke aas pas wo di ke ghar par pahucha . jeeja bhi wapas aa chuke the . in 10 dino me aarti ke sare result aa gye the aur ghar par is samy ek nya mudde par discussion chal rha tha . darasal aarti ka kisi bhi university me MBBS me nhi ho paya tha ...lekin ek university me uska BDS me ho gya tha aur ek nursing ka entrance clear hua tha .. jeeja ka poora man tha ki aarti dono me se kisi ek me admisiion le le . sahil ke ghar pahuchane par jeeja use bhi sari bate batayii... ye bhi batate hai ki uske room ka intzam ho gya hai aur teen din bad wo shift kar sakta hai . sahil kafi thak gya tha ..to wo khana khakr apne room me chala jata hai . tabhi rahul ka phone aata hai aur wo sahil ko batata hai ki kl shayad result aane wala hai . sahil kha kr sone ki kosis kar rha tha par ab ue neend nhi aa rhi thi ...result ki tension ho rhi thi .... jab se sahil aaya tha uski aarti se koi bat nhi ho payi thi ..use ek do bar wo dikhi thi par koi bat nhi huyi thi ...aarti bhi thodi udas si lg rhi thi ...lekin ab sahil ko apne result ki chinta ho rhi thi aur wo bisatr par uthakar baith jata hai .. sahil ka man ho rha atha aarti se bat karne ka aur isi ko shayad dil se dil ka male kahte hai ..aarti chali aayi thi suke room me .. kaise ho mama??" usne sahil ki bagal me baith te huye puchha . sahil apne result ki tension me tha nhi to wo jaroor smjh jata ki aarti us se kuchh kahne ko aayi thi ...lekin abhi use bas ek hi tension thi .. "aarti kl mera result aa rha hai " sahil ne bina uski bat ka jwab diye kaha. "achcha ..jaldi aa rha hai na ?" ha is bar UPSC jaldi nikal rhi hai ...bahut dar lag rha hai yar " "areee ..kaisi bate kar rhe ho aap ...aapne to itna hard work kiya hai ...fir dar kaisa aap ka jroor ho jayega " aarti ne sahil ke kandhe par hath rakhte huye kaha. "aur agar nhi hua to..." "to next year fir se dena ...aur mai hu na aapke sath " aarti ne dhhere se kaha .. sahil ko apni kahi bat yad aa gyi ....lekin jo aarti ne kaha tha ki ' mai hu na ' us bat me kuchh aisa tha jo sahil ka hausal badha gya tha . sahil ko aarti ki ye bat bahut achchi lagi thi ... "thank you aarti " aur aarti ne halke se uske kandhe ko daba diya mano kah rhi ho ki hamesa aapke sath hu . aarti mujhe neend nhi aa rhi ...bahut tension ho rhi hai ..." "are bola na ki aap ka ho jayega ...aur tension mat lo samjhe "...aarti ne dant te se lahje me kaha. thodi der aarti se bate karne ke bad sahil thoda better feel kar rha tha. aur fir letakar baten karne laga ...aarti uske sirhane abithi thi ..jane kab sahil ko neend aa gyi aur aarti use sota hua dekhkar chup chap apne kamre me chali aayi ....uski aankho se aansu ki ek nanhi si boond ludhak gayi . kal sahil ka result aane wal tha aur sahil aur aarti ke rishte me ek nya mod bhi aane wala tha . aaj subah se hi sahil thoda disturb feel kar rha tha ......result ki tension hona lazmi tha ...subah ka breakfast aur fir lunch karke wo apne kamre me hi tha jab aarti chali aayi uske room me .... "kya bat hai aaj kamre se bahar kyu nhi nikal rhe ho mama?" usne sahil ke bistar par baithate huye kaha. nhiii to ...wo aise hi aaj man nhi lag rha kahi ..." "hmmm.....mujhe pata hai aapka man result ko sochkar nhi lag rha hai ...result ki tension ho rhi h na???" " ha yar ...pure sal sirf is ek exam ke liye taiyari karte hai aur agar na hua to fir ek sal bad hi dubara mauka milega ....kabhi kabhi sochata hu ki kahi galat decision to nhi le liya taiyari karne ka ...itna bada exam h aur itna competition..."" " aisa kuchh nhi hai ...aapka decision bilkul sahi hai ...aapke talent ke samne badi chunauti na hoti to aapka talent waste hi mana jata...bas patience rakho aur tension mat lo " "fir bhi yar ...tumhe to sab pata hi hai ...kayi bar lagta hai ki ek financial burden ban gya hu ....aakhir bhaiya bhi kab tak mera kharch denge..unki bhi apni life hai ..apne kharche hai ...." "arrrreee to aap kaun sa unki puri salary le lete ho .... aur bade mama aapko bahut pyar karte hai aur aapko end tak support karenge ...chhodo ye sab baten .... chalo baher chalte h kahi " "pagal hai itni dhoop me ...." " achchha to kam se kam is room se bahar to chalo ...mai akele bor ho rhi hu ...papa kahi apne kam se gaye huye hai aur mummy tayi ke yha .ab mai sham tak pagal ho jaungi akele...aur ek aap ho ki dulhan ki tarah room se bahr hi nhi nikal rhe " sahil uski baten sunkar muskura deta hai .....lekin jane kyu use aarti ke chehre par wo hamesa wali chamak nhi dikh rhi thi ..use aisa lag rhi tha ki aarti khud ke liye nhi balki uske liye yha aayi thi taki wo result ke bare me jyada na soche ...usne aarti se puchhna chaha ...fir kuchh sochkar rah gya .....aur uske sath niche aa jata hai ... dono baithkar T.V dekhne lagte hai ....sahil channel change kar rha tha ...ek .channel par salman khan aur bhagya shree ki ' maine pyar kiya' movie aa rhi thi aur dusre par wrestling aa rhi thi ..sahil ko wrestling pasand thi aur wo movie aarti ki favourite thi ...to ladai honi hi thi .... sahil ne jaise h wo movie aate dekha channel change karke wrestling par lga diya.... "mama plz....movie dekhte h na..."aarti ne ladai ki suruwat request se ki . " nhi wrestling dekhenge...Wrestlemania aa rha hai" " wo bhi koi dekhne ki cheej hai ...sab ekdusre ko kutte ki tarah peet rhe hai ...usme kya mja aata hai aapko "" " to is moovie me hi kya rakha hai ...faltu ki story aur faltu dher sare gaane" sahil jab bhi aarti se ladta kuchh pal ke liye sare masle bhool jata..koi tension koi fikar nhi . nhi mujhe dekhna hai ...." aarti kaun sa man ne wali thi. " kam se kam 100 bar dekhi hogi tune ye movie ..aur wrestlmania to pahli bar aa rha h mai dekhunga...." sahil ko pta tha ki haar to use hi man ni padegi jaisa ki unki ladai me hamesa hi hota tha ..lekin aarti se haar use apni sabse badi jeet se bhi jyada pyari thi. "thik hai chal mai jhel lunga ise ...lekin ek shart par ...." kya??" "tujhe mujhe isi moviee ka ek song suna na padega ...bol manjoor hai ..." "okkk...lekin aap muh dusri taraf karoge ..mai aapke samne nhi ga sakti ..." "ab ye kya bat huyi ...mai nhi kar rha ..."sahil ko use chhedne me mja aa rha tha .. " to fir mai nhi gaungi ..aur remote to aapko dena hi padega ..ye aap bhi jante ho " arti ne mano use dhamki di . sahil muskura deta hai ...kuchh din pahle usne aarti ko is film ka ek geet gun gunate suna tha ..aur ab film me whi geet aane wal tha ...aarti ke muh se use wo geet kafi achcha laga tha ..isliye usne gaane ki shart rakhi .. "thik h lekin fir tujhe yhi geet gana hoga jo abhi aa rha h '''' "thik h aap muh udhar kar lo " aarti ne shayad isliye bhi uski bat man li kyuki use lag rha tha ki kahi sahil fir se room me na jaye .T.V ko mute kar diya jata hai . aur sahil ne dusri taraf muh kar liya aur aarti ne badi muskil se gaana suru kiya...school me kayi bar cultuarl activities me usne price jeete the ..uski aawaz kafi surili thi aur ye geet to wo sachmuch hi bahut pyara gati thi .............. ** dil deewana bin sajna ke mane naaaaa ...** sahil uski aawaz ke jadu me mano kho sa gya tha . tabhi sahil ka mobile bja ..sms aaya tha ... "sahil result aa gya ....mera shruti ka aur rajan teeno ka hi nhi hua yar ... hope tumhara ho jaye best of luck" roshani nam ki kisi ladki ka msg tha ... ahil jo aarti ke bilkul pass hi dusri or muh karke baitha tha ..uski or ghoom jata hai ...aarti aankhe band kiye pure dil se gaa rhi thi . sahil ko uske chere ki massomiyat aur uske larjate hoth dekhkar kuchh kuchh ho rha tha aur use bichh me tokana thik nhi lgaa' aarti ne jaisa hi geet smaapt karke aankhe kholi sahil ko apne bilkul samne apni or dekhta paya .. "youu cheater ....abhi batati hu tumheee...." sahil ko marne ke liye jhapati aur sahil ne use pakad liya...aarti ki dono najuk kalayiya sahil ke hatho me thi ... 'aarti result aa gya yar " aarti jo sahil ke hatho me apni kalaiyo ko pakar kafi nervous si feel kar rha thi , chauk jati hai .. "chalo chalo dekhte hai..." aarti chahkate huye computer ki or mudi . "tum site kholo,mai roll no lekar aata hu ..." sahil apna admit card lne upar ki or bhaga aur aarti ne ek nazar pas me rakhe ganesh ji ki murti ki or dali ... "hey prabhu ...mera na hone ka mujhe utna dukh nhi hai ...lekin plz mama ka clear karwa dena ...plzzz...agar ek bhi punya hai mere hisse ka to use mama ke hisse me dal dena " aur aarti ne upsc ki site kholkar result ki pdf download kar li ...aur tabhi sahil bhi aa gya... pdf par ctrl + F karke sahil ka roll no dala - 029729. aur bada sa blue spot ban kar aa gya us list me .......aur wo blue coloured spot par likha hua tha whi no -029729 ..sahil ne aarti ki or dekha ....aur sahil aur aarti ek dusre se bel ki tarah lipat gaye . sahil aarti se alag hota hai aur uske galo ko choom leta hai.. " aarti i m sooo happy........." aarti janti thi ki sahil ne ye bas khusi me aakr kar diya tha lekin fir bhi uska chehra sharm ke mare laal ho gya aur apne aap uski nazre jhuk gyi . ab sahil ko apni galti ka ahsas hua... " sorry " wo shant ho gya aur sar jhuka kar bola. aarti janti thi ki agr usne kuchh nhi kiya to sahil isi bat par khud ko guilty man ta rahega aur wo itni khusi ke mauke par uska mood off nhi kar sakti thi .use sahil ko chhedene ka ek mauka bhi mil gya tha.. " pahle galti karte ho fir bas sar jhuka kar khade ho jate ho ???" usne thode gusse me bolte huye kaha. " sorry bol to diya ....wo maine janbujhkar nhi kiya ..bas ho gya" sahil ki masoomiyat par aarti ko behad hasi aa rhi thi ..lekin wo jabt karte huye aur kadak lahje me boli.. "ha sab kuchh anjane me hi hota hai ....ab sar jhukakar kya khade ho ...upar karo sar ...meri taraf dekho" aur jaise hi sahil ne sar uthaya,aarti ne apne hotho se uske galo ko pyar se choom liya... sahil sannn rah gya ..kuchh pal tak use samjh me nhi aaya ki kya hua . " ha...ha..ha...buddhhu banaya...kasie dar gye the aap ...he he eh" aarti khilkhilakar has rhi thi . "chudail !!!! hamesa mujhe tang karti rahti hai ...chal achchha aaj tujhe maf kiya ...vaise bhi tu mere liye lucky hai ..." " hmm...maska mat lagao...mujhe party chahiye samjhe "aarti ne kaha. " are party abhi kis liye ...abhi to mains exam hai fir intrview ..agr final result positive aaya to jarur party dunga....pata hai tujhe main exam me 9 paper hote hai aur har paper subjective ...kam se kam 10 guna kathin hota hai wo is pre exam se " sahil ne use samjhana chaha...lekin wo aarti hi kya jo man jaye aur fir sahil par to wo apna sbse jyada haq samjhti thi ... " wo sab mai nhi janti ...aapka result aaya hai aur aapka usme ho gya hai ...basss....abbbbbb....party to banti hai ...party to banti hai " aarti gaate huye sahil ko chidha rhi thi ...aur sahil pyar se use hi dekh rha tha ...sahil ki khusi pe us se jyada khus thi aarti . " thik hai...thik hai baba..le lena party ...vaise bhi aaj tak mai kabhi tujhse jeeta hu jo aaj jeet paunga " sahil ne muskurate huye aarti ke hatho ek aur haar khusi khusi accept kar li thi . "yesss" aaarti chahak uthi . " kis bat ki party di ja rhi hai bhai ..zara hme bhi to pta chale" didi ne kamre me kadam rkahte huye puchha. is se pahle sahil kuchh bolta aarti bol padi... "mummy..mama ka rsult aa gya aur usme unka ho gya ...hurrreeyyyy" aarti ka celebration abhi khatm nhi hua tha. " sach me???'''ooo mera bachha ..mehnat bhi to kitni ki thi isne ..bhagwan kare har exam me safalta tere kadam chume...jug jug jiyo beta " sahil ne didi ke pair chhuye to unhone use gale se laga liya . " mummy party ?????" aarti ki suyi abhi tak whi ataki huyi thi . " haa..haan..kar le party ..ab tu kaun sa man jayegi ...jao dono market chale jao aur jo bhi lene hai le lo" didi ne muskurate huye kaha . sham tak jab aarti aur sahil ghar wapas aaye to ghar par dheeraj aur aarti ke tayi , tau aur unki beti varsha sab log aa chuke the ....jeeja bhi ghar aa chuke the ..sab log hi behad khus the ... sahil ka gaon kafi pichhde areas me aata tha aur wha ke log itni bade exam ke bare me sochate bhi nhi the ..us background se aakar ye exam qualify karna sach me ek achievement se kam nhi tha .. dheeraj n pyar se sahil ko gale laga liya .. kahne ko to party aarti ne sahil se li thi lekin sab kuchh intzam wo khud hi kar rhi thi aur sahil mahaj uski madad hi kar rha tha ,,,aur agr khud se kuchh kar deta to aarti ko use check karna padta ...aarti khud bhi behad khus thi ...lekin fir bhi sahil ko ahsas ho rha tha ki kuchh bat jarur hai jo aarti ne abhi u se nhi btaya hai aur ab wo us se puchhn wala tha ... rat 10 bje tak party khatm huyi aur sab log apne apne ghar chale gaye ..sahil ke kuchh dosto ka bhi phone aay tha jinhone use congratulate kiya aur main exam ke liye jam kar taiyari karne ko kaha.... Dheeraj ka bhi dusre din office tha isliye didi ke rokne par bhi wo rook na saka...jate jate dheeraj sahil ko bolta gya tha ki jaldi se jaldi naye room me shift kar lo aur padhai suru kar do ...jeeja ne room dekh liya tha ab bas shift karna tha ...aur sahil agle ek do din me yha se shift karne hi wala tha . rat ko sahil , aarti , didi aur jeeja sab log ek sath hi baithe the aur idhar udha ki bate ho rhi thi .. "aarti , beta ab tum bhi final kar do ..dekho mujhe to lagta hai ki BDS me admission lena thik rahega...kyo sahil ??" jeeja ne kaha. "jee...ha..thik hai" sahil ne hami bhari lekin wo bat ki gahrayi samjh nhi paya tha abhi . "jee papa ..jaisa aapko thik lage " aarti ne bhi haa kar diya ...lekin sahil ko uska chehra dekhkar yakeen ho gya ki kuchh to bat hai .. rat ko sab log apne apne kamre me the ...karib 11 baj rhe the aur sahil ko neend nhi aa rhi thi ...wo pure din ki ghatnawo ke bare me soch rha tha .....aarti ki di gayi party aur aarti ka wo hasta muskurata chehra ...use sab kuchh yad aa rha tha ..aur fir aarti ki wo udas si 'haa' ?????..sahil aarti ko kabhi udas nhi dekh sakta tha ... aarti ki chehre se hasi gayab hoti aur use lagta uska kuchh apna kho gya .....uski udasi us se bardsht nhi hoti thi ....usne nischay kiya ki ab wo aarti se khulkar puchhega....sahil uthkar aarti ke kamre ke pass pahucha..darwaza andar se band tha aur aarti kisi se phone par bat kar rhi thi ............

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UPDATE 10 sahil aarti ko apne majboot bajuo me utha kar bistar par baitha deta h aur fir uske aansu ponchhata hai ....pas pada pani gilas me use peene ke liye deta hai aur fir lunch lekar kitchen me chala jata hai. thodi der bad wo ek bade se plate me kahan lgakar aarti ke bagal me baith jat hai ... "lo kha lo " sahil apne hath ke nivale ko aarti ke hotho tak le jata hai. aarti uski aankho me dekhti hai aur fir aarti ki aankho se aansu ki do bunde ludhak jati hai ... "lo ..plzzz rowo mat ..kha lo ..i m sorry " "ab kabhi aap aise mujhe chhod kar nahi jaoge na" ..aarti dabadabyi aankho se sahil se puchhati hai . "ha nahi jaunga ..lo kha lo " aansuo se bhiga masoom chera sahil ki dil ka karar loot rha tha ..."shhh aaj bhi kitne majboor kar dete h mujhe tumhar aansu " sahil ke dil ke kisi kone me ek dard utha . aarti sahil ke hatho se khane lagti h aur apne hatho se sahil ko khilane lagti h ..sahil thoda jhijhakata hai fir aarti ki khusi ke liye kha leta hai .. thodi der bad sahil aarti ko bed par litakar uske upar chaddar udha deta hai .. "tum thoda aaram kar lo mai abhi baher se aat hu " sahil baher nikal jata h . bahar ka mausam kuchh bhari sa ho rha tha aur sahil ke dil ka mausam bhi ... "aarti tum mera dard nahi samjh sakti ...chalo thik h ,, aaj tak maine jo kiya tumhari khusi ke liye kiya hai....ek bar fi se tumhari khusi ke liye khus ho lunga " sahil man me sochane lagta hai ...tabhi uske cell par call aane lagta hai . rahul ka nam screen par dekhkar sahil ke hotho par muskan aa jati hai. "kaisa hai meri jaan " sahil ke call recieve karte hi rahul chahak kar bolta hai. "ekdam mast yaraa...aur DSP saheb kya hal chal hai ?" sahil hamesa ki tarah rahul se bat karte huye kafi khus tha ... "abe kyu khich rha hai ..aur bata tu kaisa h ??? ab health thik h " "ha yar ekdam thik ...achchha sun tu mere wapsi ka ticket kara de ...bahut rest ho gya ..ab govt ko apne sewaye dete hai " "ok boss ...pahle ek bar aarti se bat karwa uske bad ticket hoga ...nahi to tu bina pura fit huye hi wapas aa jayega " "chal thik h abhi baher hu ..tu use hi call kar lena " dono lagbhag 10 min bat karte hai ...fir achanak rahul bota hai.. ""chal achcha laga bat karke tujhse ..mujhe to laga kahi tu bhool to nahi gaya..isliye call kiya "" "yar tujhe kaise bhool sakta hu ..ek tu hi to hai apna..." sahil ne dil se kaha "nahi mere yar ..koi hai jo tujhe mujhse bhi jyada chahta hai ...bahut jyada ..." sahil janta to tha ki rahul kis ki bat kar rha tha lekin wo anjaan bante huye bolta hai .."kaun???" ""chal jyada bhola mat ban ...sahil..ek bat bolu ...jab koi chij hamare pas hoti h to hame uski kadar nahi hoti lekin jab wahi chij hamse chhin jati h ya hamse door chali jati h tab hame uski kami ka ahsa hota h ..."" rahul bole ja rha tha aur sahil ki ankho ke samne zindagi ka aayina saf hota ja rha tha ... ""aarti tere liye bahut tadapi hai... ...jab tu hospital me tha to kitni hi rate usne jagte huye aur rote huye gujari ... aisa lgata tha ki teri har dhadkan se uski har dhadkan judi hai ...din rat duaye mangi hai usne teri zindagi ki ......mai janta hu aur maine dekha hai ki zinadagi me tune kitna kuchh bardast kiya hai ..kitna ghut ghut ke jiya hai tu ...aur mai nahi janta ki uska jimmedar kaun hai ...lekin dost har insan ko life second chance jaroor milna chahiye .....apne past ko nazr me rakhkar apna future mat kharab karna ere yar ..bas yhi kahna tha .." rahul ne sahil ki zindagi aur aarti ke samrpan ki tulna kar di thi aaur faisal sahil ke hatho me chhod diya tha . "thanx " sahil bas itna hi bolta hai aur is se jyada shyad use pta bhi nahi tha ki kya bole .. sahil bat karte karte kafi door aa gya tha aur aasaman me kale kale badal aa gaye the ....aisa lag rha tha barish kis bhi pal ho jayegi . thodi der bat kar ke sahil rahul ko bye bolta hai aur wapas room ki or chal deta hai ... sahil ne aarti ke aankho ke aansuo se majboor hokar khus dikhane ka samjhauta to kar liya tha lekin abhi bhi ajeeb kas- makash me tha ..aarti ko dil se maaf nahi kar paa rha tha ..aur shayad koi bhi na kar pata jab tak use haqiqat ka pta na chal jata . sahi teji se l wapas aane lagta hai ..barish suru ho chuki thi aur sahil ab bheeg rha tha . sahil apne room tak pahuchate pahuchate poori tarah se bhig gya tha ...darwaze par ek bar dastak dete hi aarti darwaaza kholti h mano wo usi ka wait kar rhi ho ... aap bhig kaise gye ?" wo thoda door nikal gya tha...barish suru ho gyi aur aate aate bhig gya " sahil ne dsuri taraf dekhte huye kahaa. kya jaroorat thi door jane ki ...badal to dikh rhe the na aasman me ...sardi lag jayegi aapko ...aaiye andar au kapde bada lijiye ..." aarti ke man se mano sara bojh hat gya tha .ab wo sahil ke sath pure adhikar se bat kar rhi thi ...jaise koi premika apne premi ke sath ya koi patni apne pati ke sath karti hai ...lekin sahil abhi bhi us se nazre chura rha tha ..aarti aaj roj se jyada khili khili aur khus lg rhi thi aur uske chehre ki raunak ne uske sundarta me char chand lga diye the. sahil andar se kapde badal kr aaakr sofe par baith jata hai..aarti hath me towel lekar uska sar se pani pochhane lagti hai ...sahil ko bahut sukoon mil rha tha aarti ko apne pas pakar ...aarti ke liye apne dil me basi chahat ko wo kabhi nahi nikal paya tha lekin jab bhi uske apne karib aate dekhta ya khud uske karib aane ki kosis karta ,aarti ke sitam use yad aa jate aur uske man me fir whi sawal aa jata " aakhir meri galti kya thi ????????" aarti bade pyar se sahil ke sar kko pochh rhi thi ...thodi der bad dono baith kar chai ki chuskiya le rhe the ...aarti T.V delh rhi thi aur sahil aarti ko ...aarti ne yellow colour ka full sleeve suit pahna hua tha aur ek bada sa dupaat uske vaksh sthal ko dhake huye tha ...kano me blue gereen jhumke aur gale me ek patli si neckless...sahil ne notice kiya ki aaj is 5 barso ke bad ki mulakat me pahli bar aarti ne ek chhoti si bindi apne mathe par lagayi thi ...aarti nazar lag jane ki had tak pyari lag rhi thi ...sahil uske saundarya me khoya hua sa ektak use hi nihare ja rha tha ...achanak aarti sahil ki or mudkar dekhti h aur sahil ko apni or takta pakar thodi nervous si ho jati h .... "aise kya dekh rhe h???" aarti sharmate huye puchhati h ..barso bad aaj use sahi ki aankho me pyar nazar aaya tha ... jwab dene ki bajay sahil jor se chhink deta h...aur fir bahut bari chhinke aati hai aur rat hote hote sahil ko tej bukhar aur common cold pure tarah se jakad chuka tha.. sahil halka phulka khana kha kar apne bed par let jata hai ..aarti bhi kha kar sahil ke pas aa jati ahi....sahil ko saans lene me thodi dikkat ho rhi thi aur fever ki vajah se sar dard bhi ho rha tha ...aarti sahil ki halat se bahut chintit ho jati h ...use sahil ko bhiga hua dekhakr hi aashanka ho gyi thi ki sahil ko sardi lag sakti h aur fir wo ek Dr ban ne wali thi to use itna knowledge to tha hi ..usne sahil ko kuchh medicine diya aur garam oil se sahil ke sar ki massaj karne lagi .. sahil ki aankhe band thi aur aarti uske sirhane baithi uske sar ki masaj kar rhi thi ... "mujhe thand lag rhi hai " sahil bolta hai . barish fir se suru ho chuki thi aur is bar pahle se jayda tej thi ...tej tej hawaye bhi chal rhi thi .....aarti ne pahle hi kuchh kambal manga liye the ..use pta tha ki pahado par barish ke sath barf bari bhi ho jati hai aur fir thand lagti hai ... aarti ne ek kambal lakar sahil ko udha diya aur fir se sahil ke sar dabane lagi .. sahil kambal odhane ke bad bhi kaap rha tha lekin dusre kambal ke liye nhi bol rha tha ..use pta tha ki rat me aarti ko bhi kambal ki jaroorat padegi qki thand sach me lag rhi thi ..ha use fever ki vajah se thodi jyada lag rhi thi ... sahil apne ghutano ko mod kar sar ki or kar leta hai ..arti samjh jati hai ki use abhi bhi thand lag rhi hai ...wo dusra kambal bhi la kar sahil ko udhane lagti hai .. "nahi rahne do ...tum kya odhogi ???...mai thik hu ..itani bhi thand anhi hai ..." "chup rahiye aap aur chup chap lete rahiye " aarti ki pyar bhari ghudaki use bahut achchhi lagi thi..bahut dino bad kisi ka itna apnepan se bhare hua pyar mila tha aur sahil kuchh fever ki vajah se aur kuchh aarti ki nazdiki ki vajah se usme khota ja rha tha ...sare shikwe gile mano kahi pichhe chhoot gaye the .. ______________________________ sahil chup ho jata hai aur aarti uske sar ki masaj karne lagti hai aur dhhere dheere uske balo me hath pherne lagti ahi...aarti ko lagta ahi ki sahil so gya ahi aur wo uthakar jane lagti hai ... "thodi der aur karo na ..bahut sukoon mil rha hai " sahil ki aavaj par aarti ke kadam whi rrok jate hai..aarti ki chre par khusi saf jhalak rhi thi ...barso bad sahil ne pyar se use apne liye kuchh karne ko kaha tha ..nhi to wo ya to khud sabkuchh kar rhi thi ya fir sahil majboori me use bolta ..lekin is bar aisa nhi tha .. aarti dobara sahil ke pas baith jati hai aur is bar sahil ka sar apne god me rakhkar uske sar ko pyar se sahlane lagti hai aur fir si apni anguliya halki halki uske balo me fene lagti hai ...dono ke dilo me ek sukoon tha....ye lamha dono ko hi kuchh yad kara rha tha ...aise kitne hi lamhe jiye the dono ne lekin wo 5 sal pahle ki bat thi ...sahil ki aankho se aansu ki ek boond uske galo par chhalak jati hai ...aarti uske aansu dekhkar tadap utha ti hai ... wo apne hatho se uske aansu pochh deti hai .. " nahi sahil plzz ab aur nahi ...plzz...meri khatir " aarti ki apni khd ki aavaz aansuo me bhigi si lag rhi thi sahil ki aankhe abhi band thi par ab uska chehra ek dam shant tha ....aarti uske sar me hath fer rhi thi aur sahil dheere dheere need ke aagosh me sama rha tha ... aarti ko sahil pr behad pyar aa rha tha ....usne apne chehre ko niche late huye sahil ke mathe par ek pyara sa chumban kar diya ...sahil abhi bhi purit arah se need me nahi thi ...lekin wo puri tarah se jagaa hua bhi nhi tha ..kuchh fever ki vajah se aur thodi need ki vajah se bhi ,,use thik se hosh na tha ..lekin aarti ke narm hotho ka sparsh use apne mathe par mahsoos hota hai aur usi kuchh soyi aur kuchh jagi huy si usi halat me wo aarti ko khich kar apni baho me bhar leta hai...... " kahaa chali gayi thi tum mujhe chhodkar ..hummm bolo ..kitna akela ho gya tha mai ..ab nahi jaogi na chhodka r ..ab meri baho me rahogi na ....." aarti sahil ki baho me puri tarah se samaa chuki thi ..wo janti thi ki sahil pure hosh me nahi hai lekin wo fir bhi sahil ko nhi rok rhi thi ...usne khud ko sahil ke baho me pighal jane ke liye chhod diya tha ...sahil ke jism ki garmi , baher hoti dhuandhar barish ,mausam me halki si thand , barso ki doori aur dher sara pyar - sab milkar aarti ko sahil ki baho me bikhar jane ko kah rhe the mano . is pahle aari kuchh bolti sahil ne apne dahkte lab aarti ke narm mulayam aur najuk galo par rakh diye ..apne dilbar ki judai ke gam me taraste aarti ke pyase jism ko mano barso bad barish ki ek boond naseeb hogyi thi sahil aarti se chipka hua uske gal par pyar se kiss kar leta hai..aarti ko aaj barso bad sukoon mil rha tha ...wo bhi sahil se chipak jati hai...sahil hosh me puri tarah se nhi tha kintu aarti ki nazdiki use mahsoos ho rhi thi .... ""mai akela bahut thak gya hu aarti ...bahut roya hu mai tumhare liye ....bahut si rate tumhari yad me ro ro ka r gujari hai maine... ab mujhe chhod ke mat jana ... mai tumhare bina jee nhi paunga aarti ...tumhe kisi aur ka hota nhi dekh paunga ...plzz mujhe mat chhod ke jana ....kabhi bhi mat chhod ke jana"" sahil aarti ke seene me sar chhupaye bole ja rha tha... sahil aarti se whi bate bol rha tha jo uske dil me aarti ke liye thi ..jo wo rato ko uski tasweer se bola karta tha ...jo wo uske yad karke rote huye bola karta tha ....tabhi pure hosh me na hone ke bavjood whi bate wo aarti se kah rha tha ....sahil ki ek ek bat se uski tadap pta chal rhi thi ..aarti ka dil kirchi kirchi bikhar rha tha ...wo sahil ko kisi chhote bachche ki tarah apne seene se chipka leti hai ... 'nhi meri jaaan..tumhari aarti ab tumhe chhod kar kabhi nhi jayegi ...bahut door rh liye ham ekdusre se ...tumne meri raho me phool bichhaye aur maine har kadam par kante bichha diye tumhare liye ...lekin ab aur nhi ...chahe kisi ko bhi chhodana pad jaye , chahe kisi bhi had se gujarna pad jaye ..ab mujhe tumse koi zuda nhi kar payega...mai apne sona ko chhodkar kahi nhi jaungi " aarti sahil ke pure chehre ko choomne lagti hai aur jor se uske sar ko apne seene me bheech leti hai mano aaj use puri duniya se chura kar sirf apna banakar apne dil me chhupa lena chahti thi . sahil aarti ke kamar par apne baju dalkar us se bikul chipak jata hai aur yuhi sar ko uske seene me chhupaye neend ke aagosh me chala jata hai ...aarti sahil ke mathe ko choom leti hai aur use khud me samete huye sone ki kosis me lag jati hai. subah aarti ki neend pahle khulti hai ...sahil abhi bhi us se chipak kar soya hua tha ...aarti se chipka hua ..uski gale me bahe dalkar usko aise pakde huye mano ab use kabhi bhi khud se alag nhi hone dega , mano wo usne chhod diya to wo us se fir kahi door na chali jaye ...aarti ko sahil par bahut pyar aa rha tha ...wo puri tarah se sahil ki ho jana chahti thi lekin wo janti thi ki abhi is me kuchh samay lagega ....sahil ne rat me jo kaha tha wo neend ki halat me kaha tha aur aarti chahati thi ki ek bar wo pure hosh me us se bol de ki maine tumhe maf kar diya aarti ...wo janti thi isme kuchh samay lagega lekin use bharosa ho chala tha ki ab wo din jyada door nhi h. aarti ek bar uthana chahti hai ..par uske uthane se sahil bhi jag jata yhi sochakar wo wapa s kambal odhakr sahil se chipak kar biasta par let jati hai ..lagbhag 10 abje sahil ki neend khulti hai ...sahil khud ko aarti ke pas soya hua pakar hadbada kar uth jata hai ..sahil ke chehre par hairani ke bhav the whi aarti ka chehra bikul shant tha ..aarti dhyan se uski aankho me dekh rhi thi mano andaza lagana chah rhi ho ki sahil kya soch rha hai ..aur ye andaja sahil ke chehre se ho rha tha ...uske chehre par sharmindagi ke bhav the .. good morning ' aarti ne muskura kkar kaha. good morng" sahil ne sapat lahje me jwab diya aur fir bina uski or dekhe bistar se nikal kar washroom me ghus gya . sahil kafi halka fulka mahsoos kar rha tha ...aarti ki baho me use badi sukoon ki neend aayi thi ...lekin rat ki sari bate ab dhhere dheere use yad aa rhi thi aur uska man vichalit ho rha tha ... " kaise mai ek lamhe ke liye itna kamjor pad gya ...jo bat 5 sal me nhi boli thi ab kya jaroorat thi bolne ki ...jee leta kisi tarah ...jab itna sab kuchh sah liya to uska kisi aur ka hona bhi sah leta ...aye uparwale kya khel khel rha h mere sath ..kya chata hu tu mere se...ab jaldi hi mujhe yha se jana hoga ..kuchh din aur uske sath rha to jane kya hoga "" sahil yhi sab sochate huye fresh hokar washroom se baher nikalta hai ..aur joging ke liye jane ko taiyar hota hai .. "ab aapki tabiyat kaisi hai " aarti use baher aata dekhakr puchhati ahi . "hmm ..thik hu...woo..wo..rat ko jo kuchh hua uske liye sorry ...actually bukhar ki vajah se mai jane kya anap shanap bol gya " "koi bat nhi " aarti muskura deti hai ...aur sahil joging ke liye bahar nikalne lagta h aur apna cell phone utha leta h aur baher chala jata hai . ""aaj bhi vaise hi akdoo hain...seedhe se nhi bol sakte ki aarti aaj bhi tum se hi pyar karta hu ...mai bhi dekhti hu ...ekdin aapse bulwa kar rahungi ..dekh lena aap ...janti hu mai aaj bhi aap mujhse hi pyar karte ho ...muh se nhi bolte to kya aaj bhi aapki aarti aapki aankhe padh leti hai " aarti uske jane ke bad sochati hai aur muskura deti hai . sahil baher nikalte hi rahul ko call karta hai .. kya DSP saheb hamre aane ka farmaan aay ki nhi abhi ???" rahul ke phone uthate hi sahil pahli bat yhi puchhata hai . ""abe na salaam na dua ye kya tarika hai dosto se bat karne ka ??"" rahul bhi use chhedne ko taiyar hi tha . ""kamine jo puchh rha hu wo bta ???" sahil chidh kar bolta hai ...jise sunkar rahul hasne lagta ahi .. " "nhi ... aapki doctor ne abhi kuchh aur time maanga hai... kis stage par hai tera ilaaj is samay ...vaise teri doctor jab sath hai to hame chinta karne ki koi jaroorat nhi ??"" rahul ab sahil ke maje le rha tha . sale tu nhi sudharega .."" sahil bhi ab samjh chuka tha ki wo kya kah rha hai . thodi der bad wo phone rakh deta hai ...use pta tha ki jab tak aarti nhi kahegi rahul uska ticket nhi karwayega ..aur ab wo yha rukna nhi chahta tha ..sahil ne ek travel agency ke owner ko phone kiya aur kal ke flight ke do tickets book karwayi delhi ke liye . rahul joging karke laut rha tha ki uske phone par renu ka phone aa gya .. "kaise ho bhai ...tabiyat thik hai ab...kab aa rhe ho??? " thik hu renu ...tu kaisi hai ..kl aa rha hu "" renu se kuchh der bat karke sahil phon rakhta hai aur room ki or chal deta hai . sahil andar phuchata hai to dekhta hai ki aarti table par breakfast lga rhi thi...sahil par nazar padte hi wo thode gusse me uski or dekhti h ... aapne kal ki ticket karwayi hai ?" "ha" sahil ko ascharya hota hai ...ye renu ki bachchi na ..wo apne man me sochta h ki jaroor renu ne aarti ko phone kya hoga . thik hai ,,,kariye apne man ki mere se puchhna bhi jaroori nhi samjha ...???"' aarti naraz hone lagi . "office jana jaroori ho rha tha ab " sahil jhoothi safai pesh karta hai .. thodi der bad sahil kapde change karke breakfast karne table par aata hai ...aarti wha nhi thi aur washroom se pani girne ki aawz aa rhi thi ....aarti washroom me thi . sahil baith kar nashta krne lagta hai tabhi uska dhyan pas rakhe aarti ke cell phone par jata hai aur wo yu hi use uthakar dekhne lagta hai..sahil aise hi aarti ki call list check karta hai ...uska dimag bahut confuse ho jata hai ...last call rahul ke number se thi aur uske pahle aarti ki kuchh dosto ki call aayi thi ...renu ka nam kahi nhi tha call list me .. ""agar renu ne aarti ko phone nhi kiya tha fir use pta kaise chala...ye to sirf renu ko pta tha ..iska matlab renu ne rahul ko ...aur fir rahul ne aarti ko ...par renu rahul ko kyu batayegi ...unki to bate bhi jyada nhi hoti hongi...kahi rahul aur renu ....o god ...kya sach me.??..nhi nhi ...mai hi galat soch rha hu ...lekin koi ladki to hai rahul ki life m...jab mai hospital me tha tab bhi kai bra phone aate the to rahul ya to cut kar deta ya bad me phone karne ko bolta tha ...to kya rahul ne meri hi behan ke sath ....???? kya rahul ne bhi mujhe dhokha diya ....????aur aarti usne bhi...??? mere bharosa ka kya khub sila diya hai har insan ne meri zindagi me .....lekin renu mere sath aisa nhi kar sakti ..ek bar usne galti ki aur maine aaj tak pucha tak nhi ..nhi nhi wo dubara aisa kuchh nhi karegi ...aur agar aisa hua to mai samjh lunga meri koi behan hi nhi hai ......aur rahul tu ????...mai teri puri history janta hu ...mujhe to lga tha tu sudhar gya ....lekin tu ???...tune achchha nhi kiya rahul...renu behan hai meri jan se jyada pyar karta hu mai use ...agr tune uske sath kuchh ulta sidha .....rahul umeed karta hu ki mera andesha galat hoga ...qki agar ye sahi hua to anjaam achchha nhi hoga ...."' sahil ki muththiya bandh gyi thi aur uska chehra gusse me bhabhak rha tha . sahil ke man me baht sare sawal aa rhe the ..saath hi uske dil me fir se ek dard utha tha.... ""har kadam pr mujhe dhokha kyu mila hai ?? maine to kbhi kisi ka bura nhi chaha ...hamesa yhi kosis ki kki meri vajah se kisi ko dukh na ho ..jitna ho saka dusro ke liye kiya ...fir kyu har insan mera bahrosa tod deta hai..kyu mere hi sath aisa hota hai ??? "renu! agar mera shak sahi hua to aaj ke bad se har rishta tod lunga mai is duniya se ....aur mai bhi sirf apne liye jiyunga ""sahil aaj sachmuch emotionally bahut toot chuka tha . aarti ko uska udas chehra dekh kar kuchh gadbad hone ki aashanka ho rhi thi par usne kuchh nhi kaha ...waise bhi wo sahil ke wapas jane ke faisle se khus nhi thi lekin wo janti thi ki ab sahil nhi manega ...rat me fir sabkuchh pahle jaisa hi rha bas aaj aarti fir se apne bed par soyi aur sahil apne. aarti ko is bat ki khusi jarur thi ki sahil ko yha aane se swasthya ka labh hua hai aur ab wo lagbhag pahle ki hi tarah fit lagta tha ...in dino me kahi na kahi sahil aur aarti ke bich ki doori bhi kuchh kam jaroor ho gyi thi ....dono ko hi pta chal gya tha ki wo ab bhi ekdusre se hi pyar karte hai ...antar bas itna tha sahil abhi us pyar ko apna bnane ki nhi soch paa rha tha jabki aarti ab us se door kisi hal me nhi hona chahti thi ...sahil ko abhi bhi akeen nhi tha ki aarti kabhi uski ho payegi. aarti ne use khud se 5 sal door rakha ye kasak abhi bhi uske dil me thi . dusre din aarti aur sahil dophar ke 12 bje tak delhi aa chuke the ...kal sham se lekar aaj delhi pahuchane tak sahil gumsum sa hi tha ...aarti se bahot jyada baten to pahle bhi nhi hui thi lekin us ghatna ke bad se uske chehre par ek aur udasi ka rang aa gya tha . delhi me aarti ke ghar par is samay uski mummy yani sahil ki didi hi bas thi ...sahil ke jeeja gujarat gaye huye the jabki rohan pune gaya hua tha ...usne bhi apne papa ka hi business sabhal liya tha . sahil aur aarti ko dekhkar uski didi bahut khus huyi aur sahil ko gale se laga liya ...sahiln ne unke pair chhuye aur sofe par bag rakhkar baith gya ...sahil aarti ya didi ki bato ka hu ha me hi jawab de rha tha ...abhi uske dimag me sirf rahul aur renu ki baten chal rhi thi ...use bar bar lag rha tha ki kahi mai galat to nhi soch rha lekin fir ek aur dhokha milne ki bat se hi sihar jata ...wo bhi us behan se jise jaan se jayada chaha aur us dost se jise bhai ke barabar mana. sahil thoda thaka hua sa feel kar rha tha so usne bath liya aur fir khana khakar sone jane laga .... "didi mera wala kamra khali hai ya koi hai usme...???""" ha ...maine jab tum delhi aaye the tabhi saf karwa diya tha ..jao aaram karo ...mai abhi coffee bhijwa deti hu " didi ne pyar se uski or dekhte huye jwab diya .sahil ko didi par bahut pyar aaya ...aaj bhi didi ko yad hai ki mai khane ke bad coffee pita hu ... thanx di" sahil jab bahut pyar se bat karta tha to didi ko di bolta tha . chal pagle didi ko thanku bolta hai ??" sahil halka sa muskurata hai aur fir apne room ki or badh jata hai . sahil aaj panch salo bad us room me ja rha tha jaha usne apni zindahi ke sabse achche do sal gujare the . sahil ka room seconda floor par tha ...scond floor par teen room the ..ek sahil ko diya gya tha jab wo delhi aaya tha aur uske bagal wala room aarti ka tha (( dosto abhi ye sari baten detail me story ke aaage ke parts me aayengi )).aur third room guests ke liye tha ...us se niche ke floor par did jija ka bedroom tha aur do aur room the jisme se ek rohan ka tha aur dusra aise hi common room ki tarah use hota tha . sahil apne room ka darwaja kholkar andar jata hai ..room achchi tarah se saf kar diya gaya tha ..sahil ko ye dekh kar kafi hairani hoti hai ki aaj bhi room bikul vaisa hi tha jaisa uske padhne ke samay me tha ...do chair ek table ..ek bed aur ek table fan aur ek chhota sa lakadi ka bana hua mandir ....jab sahil yha padhta tha tab kcuhh aur chije thi jaise ki cooler vagairah lekin wo sb hata di gyi thi .sahil room ko dekhkar thoda emotional ho jata hai ....achanak use kuchh yad aata hai .... sahil teji se aage badhta hai aur bed par bichche bisatr ko ek taraf kar ke bed ke sirhane ki or bani patli si darar me kuchh dhundhane lagta hai ....uski ungali us patle hole me nhi ja paa rhi thi ....usne aas pas dekh...fir manidr me padi machis ki dibbi se ek tili nikalakar us se andar dalkr kuch dhundane lagta hai ...thodi der ki kosis ke bad ek kagaz ka tukda sahil ke hatho me tha aur uski ankho me the aansu............ kagaz ke us chhote se tukde par kuchh panktiya likhi thi ............ ""Kachchi Deewar Hoon Thokar Na Lagana Mujh Ko Apni Nazron Mai Basa Ker Na Giraana Mujh Ko Tum Ko Aankho Mai Tasawwoor Ki Tarah Rakhti Hoon Dil Mai Dharkan Ki Tarah Tum Bhi Basana Mujh Ko Baat Karnay Main Jo Mushkil Ho Tumhein Mehfil May Main Samajh Jaaongi Nazron Se Bataana Mujh Ko Waada Utna Hi Karo Jitna Nibha Saktay Ho Khuwab Pura Jo Na Ho Wo Na Dikhana Mujh Ko Apne Rishtey Ki Nazaakat Ka Bharam Rakh Lena Main To mashooq Hoon Deewane Na Banana Mujh Ko."" ye ghazal aarti ne sahil ke liye likhi thi ...sahil ko aarti ka wo pyar yad aa jata hai ...jan chhidakti thi aarti sahil par ...lekin fir......?????? "kyu kiya aarti tumne aisa ....mujhe to lagta tha ki jitna pyar tum mujhe karti ho utna koi kisi se nahi kar sakta ...apni jan se jyada chahti thi tum mujhe ...aisa kyu kyu kar diya tumne ...tum to kahti thi tum meri aankhe padh leti ho fir in aankho ka dard kyu nahi dikha tumne ...maine to apna har vada nibha diya fir tumne apna vada akyu nhi nibhya.....maine to hamesa tumhe seene se lagakr rakhna chaha fir tumn mujhe thokar kyu laga diya ...????? "" sahil ko aaj is kamre me wapas aakar aarti ki kahi ek ek bat yad aarhi thi ..aur ek bar fir se aarti ke chahat me bilakh padta hai .. "".kay ho gya hu mai ...kyu itna kamjor ho gya hu ??? ...aarti mai tumko kahta tha na ki tum bahut roti ho ..dekho aaj mai bhi bahut rota hu ...tum sach kahti thi ...jab tak tum sath thi mai kabhi nahi roya...kaise rota ....mere hisse ke aansu to sach me tum baha leti thi ...lekin ab mai rota hu ....bahut rota hu .....kyu aarti??????? ...kya ab mere aansu tumhari aankho se nhi niklte ...kya ab mai tumhara kuchh nhi lagta ???"" aarti jo abhi abhi us kamre me sahil ki coffee lekar aayi thi. thik sahil ke pichhe khadi thi ...sahil ke hatho me wo kagaz dekhkar sab samjh jati hai...sahil ko is tarah toot ta dekhkar wo bhi tadap uthati h....wo teji se coffe ko table par rakhti hai aur sahil ko apne seene se laga leti hai ... "nhi sahil ...nhi jan...aaj bhi aap hi mere sab kuchh ho ...kitn bar aapko ye batau ...aaj bhi mai aapki aankhe padh sakti hu ...aapki aankho ka dard padh sakti hu ....mujhe maf kar do ....mai aap ko is tarah tadapta nhi dekh sakti ...thik h ..mai aapko sab bataungi ...sabkuchh batungi ...bas mujhe thoda time de do ...plzzz rowo mat...aapke aansu dekhkar hazaro maut marti hai aapki aarti ..plzz...sona mat rowo ..."" aarti teji se sahil ke aansu ponchh rhi thi aur use apne seene se lagaye bolti ja rhi thi .. thodi der sahil yuhi aarti se lage khada rhata hai aur fir aarti use sath lekar bed ki or jati ahi aur dono bed par baith jate hai .... sahil ab dhhere dheere apne aap ko sambhal chuka tha aur aarti ki aankho me dekh rha tha ...ek sawal tha uski nazro me ... "ha sahil mai aapko sab bataungi ...plz mujhe kuchh time de dijiye...pllzzzz" sahil kuchh nhi bolta bas ha me sar hila deta hai ... "thik hai ab aap coffee pee lo aur aaram karo " aarti uth kar kahdi ho jati hai ... ""auur sun lijiye -ab kabhi mat royiyega aap ....mai aapko ab kabhi nhi rone dungi ....aap jan ho hamari ...samjhe ....aapki aarti aapke pas hai na ab ....aapke hisse ke aansu bhi bahaa legi ...ab aapko hamse koi nhi alag kar sakta sahil ...koi bhi nhi ..."" aarti ne sahil ke mathe par ek kiss kiya aur baher jane lagi ...ye 5 sal bad pahli bar tha jab aarti ne sahil ko uske pure hosh me hote huye kiss kiya tha . sahil bhi kahna chahta tha ki aarti mai bhi tumhari ankho me kabhi aansu nhi aane dunga lekin kah nhi pata .. wo aarti ko bahar jata dekhta rhata hai ..aur coffee khatm karke bistar par let jata hai..sahil us kagaz ko abhi bhi hath me pakde tha ..aur ek tak use dekhe ja rha tha ...5 sal...kitna lamba waqt hota hai ..aur us se do sal pahle ..matlab lagbhag sat sal pahle aaya tha sahil pahli bar dilli ...apni didi ke ghar aur apni aarti ke pas .....sahil ko wo sari bate aur wo din yad aane lagte hai ...jab pahli bar wo yha aay tha ...................... *************************************************************** sahil pahli bar delhi aaya tha...wo ghar se jane ke bad 1 year ` allahabad me rah chuka tha aur wha se usne kuchh subjects ki class bhi ki thi ..kuchh dost bhi bane the ...lekin unse bhi matlab sirf class tak hi rha tha ..ha ek achchha aur sachchha dost use mila tha - RAHUL . rahul allahabad ka hi rahne wala tha aur usne khud hi sahil ki taraf dosti ka hath badhaya tha .lekin aaj bhi sahil ke dil me jo jagah aarti ke liye thi wo kisi aur ki nahi thi ...sahil ke allahabad chale jane ke bad aarti se jayada baten nhi ho pati thi ....lekin fir bhi week me ek do bar bat ho jati aur kabhi kabhi messeges bhi kar dete ekdusre ko ...lekin jyadatar baten study se hi related hoti thi ...sahil apni taiyari me lga hua tha aur aarti apni ...aarti ne MBBS ke entrance exam ke liye coaching me admission le liya tha ..... dono ke bich ek underastanding thi ..wo jante the ki un dono ko apna lakshya pana hai to kisi bhi tarah ka diversion nhi aana chahiye ..isliye bhi unki bate km hoti thi.. sahil station se auto karke didi ke ghar ka adress bta deta hai .....may ka end chal rha tha aur garmi puri tarah se apne sabab pr thi ..kuchh hi dino pahle sahil ne civil services PRE ka exam diya tha aur ab use MAINS exam ki taiyari karni thi .. ( dosto yha par mai thodi si additional jankari dena chahung jo ki aage chalkar bhi aawshyak hogi ...CIVIL ser exam 3 tier exam hai PRE, jisme do paper hote hai ,qualify karne ke bad mains jisme 9 subjective paper hote hai aur fr agr mains qualify hua to INTERVIEW ..aur agr kisi bi stage par fail to next year fir se PRE se suru karna padta hai ). .qki result lagbhag 3 months bad aata hai to sahil ke man me thoda sandeh tha result ko lekar ..aur allahabad me mains ki taiyari ke liye achchhe institute nahi the to use dilli aana pad rha tha ...auto wala sahil ko ghar ke pas lakar utar deta hai ..sahil use paise dekar chalta karta hai ...didi ka ghar kafi bada tha ...two floor ka ghar tha ..samne kafi jagah thi aur pichhe ki taraf ek park tha ..vaise to didi ne bola tha ki kisi ko bhej dungi station par sahil ne mana kar diya tha ...uski aadat thi jitna ho sake apne kam ke liye kisi ko paresan na karna .. train right time aa gyi thi thi aur wo subah ke 9 am tak ghar ke gate par pahuch chuka tha . sahil gate par pahunch kar ghanti bja deta hai ... "hiiii.mama ....kasie ho??? wow... kafi smart ho gye ho ..hmmmm"" aarti ne gate kholte hi sahil ko dekhkar chahek kar kaha . ""sach me ??? achchaa hu mai ..tu kaisi hai ...." "mai bhi ek dam mast hu ...oh god itte bade bade bags kya laye ho inme ??....""" sahil ke hath me do bade bags the aur ek bada bag usne niche rakha hua tha jise dekhkar aarti gate par hi enquiry suru kar chuki thi . "na khana na pani ...aate hi iski bakwas suru ho gyi ...dhoop me khada kar diya mere bhai ko ..chal hat yha se " pichhe se didi ne aakr aarti ki khabar li. sahil hasne laga aur aarti rutha hua sa muh banakar andar ki or chali gayi ...sahil ne aage badhakr didi ke pair chhuye ... ""dekha kaisa muh bana kar gyi hai ...hey bhagwan kya karungi mai is ladki ...gussa to nak par rakha rahta hai ..didi ne ek bag uthaya aur andar ki or aati huyi boli ..sahil bhi unke pichhe aa gya . ground floor ek bade se hall ke jaisa hi chhoda gya tha ..wha par ek room bana hua tha ..ek kitchen .ek washroom aur wo bada sa hall jisme ek bada LED T.V laga hua tha ...whi pr ek bed rakha hua tha aur sofa set bhi rakha hua tha ...ek taraf khane ki table lagi huyi thi ...kul milakar ek dining room aur drawing room ka mila jula set up tha ... sahil ko achcha lagaa tha didi ka ghar .. "sahil tum upar chalo ...second floor par chale jao..whi washroom me fresh ho lo fir mai nashta aur khana whi bhijwa dungi ..." "jee didi " "achcha ye bta in bags me kya hai ...sach me bade bhari lag rhe hai ..."" "sab books hai didi " sahil ne kaha. hey bhagwan ..itni sari kitabe utha kar la rha hai itni door se ????..bhagwan kare teri mehnat safal ho...thak gya hoga mera bachcha..chalo jaldi se fresh ho jao ...mai bas aati hu ..."" sahil ek bag me se kuchh kapde nikalata hai aur upar ki or chal deta hai... upa pahuch kar sahil ek room me kapde rakhta ha aur washroom me ghus jata hai ..thodi der bad didi nashta lekar upar hi aa jati hai .. are aap itna upar le aayi mai whi aa jata ?" "koi bat nhi beta ...vaise bhi maharani ke liye to roj lana hi hota hai " sahil haule se muskura deta hai .. "abhi tum nasta karke aaram karo ..thodi der me khana lati hu " nhi mai niche hi aa kar khana kha lunga " "chalo thik hai " sahil nasta khatm karke room se baher niklta hai ..bagal wale room se use khatar patar ki aawaze aa rhi thi ..sahil us room me dekhne ke liye darwaze se andar jhankta hai ... ""kisi ke room me tank jhank karna achchi bat nhi "" aarti ne use dekh liya tha aur tunak kar boli . "ha ha ha...hmmmm ye to sahi bat hai ..par tum kisi ki thodi na ho ..." sahil kahte huye room me ghus gya . aarti ke room me ek bed tha aur bahut sari kitabe ..chair aur table laga hua tha ...lekin room bahut saf suthara tha . aarti muh fulaye narazagi ka ijhar kar rhi thi . sahil thodi der whi baithe rhta hai aur aarti ko dekhta rhata hai ..aarti ab pahle se bhi jayada khubsoorat lag rhi thi ...uska sharir thoda bhar gya tha aur wo ab puri tarah se jawani ke rang me rang gyi thi ...bas ek chij nhi badli thi ..wo thi aarti ka alhadpan aur uska wo bachpanaa. aise kya dekh rhe ho aap?"" sahil ko apni or dekhta dekhkar aarti ghoorkar puchhati h. dekh rha hu ki tu bilkul nhi badli " matlab ???"" ""matlab pahle bhi nakchadhi thi aur ab bhi nakchadhi hi hai " sahil ab use chhedne laga tha . achchha mai nakchadhi hu ...thik h ...bol lo aap nhi ..abhi unhone ne dant diya ab aap ne ....mera to koi h nhi na ...koi meri taraf se to bolta hi nhi na ..."" sahil ko aarti ke bachpane par hasi bhi aa rhi thi aur pyar bhi .. achchha chal sorry ...meri taraf se bhi aur didi ke taraf se bhi ..dekh kan pakad ke sorry "' aarti ne sahil ko kan pakde dekha tha uska gussa turant thanda ho gya ..aur wo khilkhila ke has padi ... "he he he..mama aap bhi nhi badle ...pahle bhi mujhse darte the aur ab bhi mujhse darte the ...." "ek hi to dost hai meri ..agr wo bhi naraz ho gyi to ???...teri dosti ko khone se darta hu isliye tujhse bhi darta hu "" ""ullu ho aap ....koi itni si bat par itna serious hota hai ...mai kya pagal hu jo aap se naaraz ho jaungi ..wo to mai aise hi sabko tang karti hu ...aur dosti kya koi kachcha dhaga hai ki jra se tanaw se toot jayega...aap bhi kya kya sochte ho ..aap sach me ullu ho ....wo jangli ullu ...yad hai aapko na???"' sahil ko ascharya hota h ki nadan si dikhne wali aarti itni gahrayi se sochati hai .. "ha yad hai ..aur tu whi jungali billi "" sahil ne bhi hisab pura kiya ... dono hasne lage us bat ko yad karke ... ""mama aaj bahut dino bad mai khul ke hasi hu" aarti ne sahil se kaha . kyu ..pahle to tu hamesa hi hasti thi ...koi problem hai ?? "" ""nhi problm nhi hai kuchh...bas yhi study ki tension ...aur pta hai ..aaj mera result aa rha hai AIPMT ka ..uski bhi tension hai "" koi bat nhi ..result achcha hi aayega "" i hope so ..." aarti ne kaha . tabhi didi khana lekar aa gyi .. tu fir us se gape ladane lagi ...chal beta tu kha le ...tu bhi kha le "" sorry didi wo mai niche aana bhool gya ..aur didi aap kyu use hamesa dant ti ho ..??"" "are to kaun sa mera dantne ne ka koi asr hota hai us par ...aur ab to tu aa gya hai na ...mai dantungi bhi to tu manaa lega ...tu hi bachapan se manataa aaya hai jab bhi wo ruthati thi gaon me to...ladli jo thahri wo teri ..." sahil ek nazar aarti ki or dekhta hai jo uski hi or dekhkar muskura rhai thi .

UPDATE 9 sahil nadi ke kinare pahuchh chuka tha ..wo renu ka nam lekar chilla rha tha ... ""hey bahgwan plz meri madad karo ...uska dil duba ja rha tha ...renu khi dikh nhi rhi thi ..."kahi maine galti to nhi kar di ..renu kuchh aur to nhi sochkar ghar se nikli ....lekin fir usne aisa q kaha ...." sahil ki nigahe pani me door door tak renu ko dhhondh rhi thi ..aur achanak renu ka sar pani me se baher aaya ..aur kuchh second me hi fir se wapas ndi ki gahrai me samaa gya ...sahil ka andesha sahi nikla..sahil turant nadi me kood jata h aur renu ki or teji se tairne lagta h.... renu kinare se kuchh door par doob rhi thi ..kabhi upar aa jati fir niche chali jati aur sahil teji se uski or badh rha tha ..sahil suru se gaon me rha tha ...use tairna bahut achchhi tarah aata tha ....jabki renu ek gharelu kism ki ladki thi ..wo kabhi nadi ki or aati bhi nhi thi ...jab wo chhote the tb bhi renu aur sahil jab kabhi papa ke sath nadi par ghumne aate to renu dar ke mare nadi ke pani me pair tk nhi dalti ...use nadi se bahut dar lagta tha ...lekin aaj aatm-glani ki bhawna ne use usi dar me samaa jane ki shakti de di thi .. sahil kuchh hi chhado me renu ke karib pahuch jata h...renu ab upar nhi aa rhi thi or teji se uska sarir niche ki or ja rha tha ..sahil niche gota lagata h aur renu ke hath uske hatho me aa jate h..sahil renu ke hatho ko pakdar kinare ki or tairne lagta h ... sahil sharirik roop se samanya hi tha aur renu bhi achhi khasi jawan nav yauwna thi ..sahil ko use khichna kafi muskil ho rha tha lekin aaj uski bahen ki zindagi ka sawal tha aur use bachane ke liye sahil ne apni jan laga di thi ...renu ko pkadakar sahil kinare ki or tair te ja rha tha ..renu ke sharir me kisi bhi prakar ki pratikriya nhi ho rhi thi ...sahil ka man ro rha tha ...".kahi maine apni behan ko ho to nhi diya???? " "nhi behna, ais mt karna ...tu chali jayegi to meri kalai suni ho jayegi...mai bahut akela ho jaunga ..kisko mai apne college ke kisse sunaunga...kaun mujhe papa ke dant se bachayega...kaun apne hisse ki chheje mujhe khilayegi ...bachpan se jawani tak tujh se bada saharaa nhi rha h koi mera ...wo bachpan ki suhani yade ,dukhbhari yade ban jayengi ...plzz...aisa mat karna ...m vada karta hu chahe tune kuchh bhi kiya ho , chahe teri life m koi bhi prblm ho , m sab thik kar dunga ..koi na koi hal jaroor nikalunga...bas tu mera ye hath mt chhodana...mera sath mat chhodana..." sahil apne man me sari bate scoh rha tha aur uski aankho se aansu bah rhe the...ab wo pani me khade hokar chal rha tha...wo buri tarah se thak gya tha..kisi tarah se renu ko god me uthaye kinar tak pahuchata h aur use jameen par lita deta h... "renu ..!!!! renu,????,,uth ja behan ,...dekh m hu na tere pas.. plzz..ek bar aankhe khol na renu ...uth na renu ..???." sahil renu ke galo ko thap thapa rha tha aur roye ja rha tha . "sahil " aarti ne sahil ke kandhe par hath rkha... sahil aarti ko dekhkar uske seene se lag gya ....""aarti renu ko bolo na uth jaye ...plzzz...aarti plz ... renu ko uthao na ...bolo na mujh se bat kare ...plzzz" aarti sahil ki halat dekhkar stabdh ho jati h ....Aur gaur se renu ki or dekhti h ... "renu ko kuchh nhi hua h sahil ...uski sanse chal rhi h ...bas lagta h usne pani bahut sara pee liya h ...tum sambhalo apne aap ko ..."" sahil aarti ki bat sunkar renu ke chere ki or dekhne lagta h ..renu ke ubhar uski tej sanso ke sath upar nichhe ho rhe the ...aarti renu ke pet ko jor jor se dabane lagti h ...renu ke muh se pani baher niklne lagta h ...aise hi kuchh der karne ke bad renu ..dhhere dhhere normal ho jati h aur uski aankhe khul jati h ... sahil niche uske sar ke pas baith kar renu ki or dekhne lagta h ..uski aankho me abhi bhi aansoo dab daba rhe the ..".mujhe q bacha liya bhai.....mujhe mar jane ---..." renu ki bat adhuri hi rhi thi ki sahil ka jordar thappad uske galo par padta h aur wo use khichkar apne seene se laga leta h ...aaj zindagi me pahli bar sahil ne apni jan se pyari behan par hath uthaya tha ..bhai behan dono buri tarah bilakh kar ro rhe the ..aur unke pass khadi aarti ki aankhe bhi bhar aati h ...sahil ke liye aur ijjat badh gyi thi uske man me. "aarti,, isne ne suicide attempt kiya tha ...doob kar marne aayi thi ye yha ...q kar rhi thi tu aisa ..bata ...tune ek bar bhi mere bare me nhi socha...maa ke bare me nhi socha ...papa ki ijjat ke bare me nhi socha ...bol...???" sahil renu ko seene se lagaye huye rota ja rha tha aur aarti gumsum si un dono ko dekhe ja rhi thi . " i m sorry bhai ..maf kar do mujhe ...maine bahut sari galtiya ki ...bhool gyi ki mere pas tumhare jaisa bhai h...ek ghana saya h jiski chhav mai puri tarah mahfooz hu ...mujhe maf kar do ..." renu bhi roye ja rhi thi ... "sahil chalo ghar chale nhi to sab log dundhne lageneg...mai ghar par bol kar aayi hu ki hm sab abhi thodi der me aayenge " aarti ne unka dhyan bant te huye kaha ... renu , behan, zindagi me kabhi ye galti dubara mat karna...m janta hu tu kitni achhhi h aur koi vajah jarur hogi jo tune itna bada kadam uthaya...lekin tere is kadam se pure pariwar ki maryada kalnkit ho jati ..log tarah tarah ki bate karte ..jo bhi prblm ho tu mujhe bta dena ..m tujh par koi aanch nhi aane dunga ...aur ye bat jb tu chahe atb batan tsasalli se .,m tujhe force nhi karunga ..aur ye bat sirf hum teeno ke bich hi rahegi thik h ????.....sahil ne renu ki peshani chhomte huye puchha . a renu ne bas ha me sar hila diya ..aaj uske bhai ne uski zindagi me wo mukam hasil kar liya tha jo kbhi aur koi nhi paa sakta tha ...kitni badi bat ko kitne asan tarike se sahil ne sambhal liya tha ..koi aur insan hota to use kosta , sau sawal puchhta leki wo to uska meharban saya tha jisne aaj uski jan aur laj dono bacha li thi . "tum wha jakr apne kapde badal lo ..vaise bhi andhera kafi ho gya h to kuchh jyada prblm nhi h" aatti ke liye huye kapde dekhkar sahil ne renuko ek teele ki taraf ishara karte huye kaha. thanku bhai ,, thanku ,,,aaj ke bad upar wale se koi shikwa nhi karungi ...tumhare jaisa bhai usne meri jholi me dal diya aur kya chahung mai .." renu ek bar fir sahil se lipat gyai. "pagal bahne bhaiyo ko thanx nhi bolti.. unki balaye leti h ...aur tune to itni bar rakshabandhan par meri balaye li h ..abhi to sirf ek bar ka karz utara h " ...sahil ne ab situation ko normal karte huye kaha "jaa ab..bahut der ho chuki h " sahil ne renu ko chhodate huye us se kaha . thodi der bad sahil renu aur aarti ko lekar gahr par pahuch chuka tha ..ghar par kuchh bahane bana ne pade aur kisi ne jyada puchh tachh nhi ki ..qki sahil sath tha aur ghar walo renu aur sahil par aankh band karke bharosa karte the .. thodi der aaram karne ke bad renu kitchen ki or badhi ... " mausi aap baitho m sab kam karti hu " aarti ne use rokte huye kaha ..renu ki tabiyat thik nhi thi usne shukriya ki nazro se aarti ki or dekha aur whi kitchen me baithkar aarti ko kam samjhane lagi.. "mausi agar aap ko koi bat karni ho ...kuchh aisi bat jo aap sahil se na kar sake to aap mujhse kar sakti ho ...kabhi bhi ..agr koi love vagairh ki bat h to aap bta dena ..m sahil se bat kr lungi .""..aarti apne dimag ke ghode daudati huyi boli. renu ne aarti ki or dekha " thanx aarti...m kabhi tumhe sab kuchh bataungi bas aaj nhi ...kuchh palo ke liye mai bahek gyi thi aur mujhse ek paap ho gya ..mujhe aur kuchh samjh nhi aay aur us paap ke prayaschit ke liye m ek aur paap karne ja rhi thi " "paap???...anayway chhodo in bato ko mujhe pata h aap bahut samjhdar aur seedhi ho..lekin galti to har insan se ho jati h ab aap sab bhool jao ...'mera sahil ' bahut achha h wo saab kuchh thik kar dega .. "' aarti kisi bade buzurg ki tarah use samjha rhi thi aur renu ke hotho par kafi der bat muskurahat aa gyi ...aarti ki massomiyat par aur uske in sabdo par " mera sahil " "ha mujhe pta h ...heera h mera bhai " renu ne bhi fakr se kaha. idhar sahil ke man me sawalo ka tufan chal rha tha ...usne is bat ko is tarah handle kiya taki renu ko glani ka ahsas na ho lekin use lag rha tha ki bat kuchh jyada hi serious thi .. "rohan sun " kafi de bad usne rohan ko dekha jo ki thoda disturb sa lag rha tha .. "jee mama" "tere aur renu ke bich koi ladai hui h kya ??? " "nhi to ..q mausi ne kuchh kaha???" rohan to shatir khiladi tha ..use pata tha renu kabhi ye bat kisi se nhi kahegi .. "kuchh nhi aise .. aaj wo thodi disturb thi ...rohan ek bat jan le ..renu meri behan h aur m use apni jan se jyada manta hu ...agar kisi ne bhi life me uske sath koi fareb kiya to m us se uski zindagi ki har khusi chheen lunga ...fir chahe wo koi bhi kyu na ho " sahil janta tha ki rohan chahe na bataye lekin kuchh to kiya tha usne . sahil chah kar bhi is samay uspar koi dabav nh dal sakta tha ...wo uski didi ka beta tha aur use sirf shak hi tha ..koi saboot nhi tha uske paas aur na hi use sachhai ka pta tha ....jab tak aarti use kuchh nhi bata deti wo kuchh nhi kar sakta tha ...aur aarti par wo koi dabav nhi dalna chahta tha ..lekin use itni khusi thi ki usne apni behan ko bacha liya tha . thodi der bad sab log khana kha kar baher baothe the ...renu apne kamre me upar thi aur rohan T.V dekh rha tha .. kya sahil sari taiyari ho gyiparso hme niklna h " didi ne puchha. "didi mai aap lOgo ke sath nhi aa rha hu " sahil ki is bat se sabse jyada hairani aarti ko hui thi aur shayad dukh bhi . sahil ki bat se aarti gaur se uski or dekhne lagti h .... "q??? abhi tak to tu tyar tha fir ab kya ho gya " didi ne puchha. "jee wo bhaiya se bat huyi to wo kah rhe the ki pahle mai allahabad kuchh din rahkar taiyari kar lu ...delhi me coaching ka standard bahut high hota h aur m abhi suru karne ja rha hu to mujhe problem hogi ..fir agar jarurat padi to delhi aa jaunga ." sahil ne didi ko dheeraj se huyi bate batayi . "ab bhai ye to tum log hi behtar janoge ..wha aarti ka bhi admission karan h ...ye medical ki taiyari karna chahti h ..tu chala hota to sabkuchh dekh leta ..kaun si coaching achchhi h kaun si nhi " "kya mummy aap bhi...m kya koi bachchhi hu ,,,m khud apne kam kar sakti hu..aur isme kaun si badi bat h " aarti ne tunak kar kaha ... agar koi aur din hota to sahil aarti ko chhedne ke ye mauka kabhi na chhodata aur fir un dono ko ladai suru ho jati ...lekin aaj wo samjh rha tha ki aarti ko bura laga h ...aur achchha to khud use bhi nhi lag rha tha . sahil chup chap wha se uthakar chala jata h..sahil ka man janta tha ki bhiya ne aisa q kaha ..abhi unki bhi finacial condition itni achchhi nhi thi ki wo delhi jaise mehnge city ka kharch de pate ...wo sab samjhta tha ..aur use bhiaya ki bat sahi bhi lagi thi .lekin wo ye bat kisi ko bol nhi sakta tha..aisi hi rhi thi sahil ki zindagi ---dil me apne ghamo ko chhupaye hamesa hansta muskurata , khuisya bant ta . renu aur rohan ka aamna samna nh hua tha tab se aur sab logo ko sab kuchh samanya lag rha tha ...kuchh der bate karne ke bad sab log sone ke liye chal diye . aaj subah bhi roj ki tarah hi thi ..sahil kheto par tha ,maa papa ke sath , renu ghar ke kamo me aur didi yuhi idhar udhar ...rohan ab khud renu ke pas jane ki himmat nhi kar rha tha ..use pta tha ki ab renu ka bharam tut chuka h aur usne mobile me uski sar kARtoot dekh li h . aur aarti abhi tak soyi huyi . dopher tak sb log ghar aa chuke the ,,,khana pina khakar sab aaram kar rhe the ..aaj subah se hi aarti sahil ke samne nhi aayi thi ...wo janta tha ki aarti us se naraj h ..lekin wo use manane nhi gya ...kya kah kar mananta ..dil to uska bhi tha uske sath hi jane ka . sahil kha kar thodi der bistar par leta ki use need aa gyi...aur fir uski aankh khuli jab kisi ne uska kandha pakdakr jor se hilaya.. sahil ne dheere se aankhe kholi...samne aarti khadi thi.. "mujhe ghumne chalna h " aarti muh fulaye bol rhi thi...sahil ko samjh me nhi aaya ki wo hukm de rhi h ya request kar rhi h . abhi aata hu 5 minut me " sahl bolta hua washroom me ghus gya . "thodi der aarti aur sahil fir se unhi kheto ki patli pag dandiyo par chale ja rhe the..lekin aaj thode udas se aur ekdusre se thode naraj se . "kuchh bol nhi sakte ...muh me juban nhi h ??? " aarti ne usko chup chap dekha to aur tap kar boli. tum bhi to chup ho " sahil ne kaha. "to aur kya karu ...kl mujhe jana h ..ek bar bhi dil me aaya ki chalo jar kuchh bate kar loo kal chali jayegi ?????...nhi ...mer kya vajood h..tumhe to bas apni kitabo se matalb hota h ..thik h ..ja rhi hu na ab kabhi nhi aaungi .." sahil ko pta tha aarti naraz h lekin itni naraz ye nhi pta tha .. use thoda dukh ho rha tha aur thodi si khusi bhi ... "achchha sorry ... fir q nhi aaogi ...tum nhi aaogi to kya m delhi nhi aa paunga ..bolo? " sahil ne is bar uski aankho me jhankte huye dekha. bato hi bato me dono nadi ke kinare par pahuch chuke the ..aur ek bade se paththar par baith gye...lekin aaj sahil aarti ke pas baitha tha . aarti sahil ko delhi jane ke liye force nhi karna chahti thi ..wo chahti thi sahil apna sapna pura kare fir chahe wo delhi rhe ya allahabad. dono ke bich fir khamosi thi ..is bar khamosi sahil ne todi ..."achcha suno ,, renu ne kuchh bataya tumhe ???? " "nhi , bas itna kaha ki m behak gyi thi " chalo jane do ....m us se nhi puchhunga ...wo jab chahegi khud bata degi ...m nhi chahta ki whi bate uske man me ghumti rhe ..waise meri behan kafi samjhdar h ..lein galti to har insan se hoti h ..ab wo kabhi dubara aisi galti nhi karegi , mujhe pura yakeen h ." sahil ne kaha . hmm...tum allahbd kab jaoge..?? aarti ne puchha . "kal tum logo ko station chhodata hua whi se nikal jaunga ...nhi to kal se ghar par achcha nhi lagega" "q ????????, kyu nhi achchha lagega .." aarti ab use tang karne lagi thi... jabki ye to wo bhi janti thi ki shil kya bol rha h . sahil bhi samjh chuka tha ki ab wo use chidha rhi h .. "wo ek jungali billi rhti h hamre ghar aur wo kal chali jayegi " sahil ne bhi maje liye . achchaaaaaaaaa...m jungali billi hu ..aur khud tum kya ho...jungli ullu ?? aarti buri tarah se chidh gyi ,, "nhi m wo billa hu jiski billi ja rhi h " achanak hi sahil ke muh se nikal gya ..aur fir wo sahrminda hokar niche ki or dekhne lga ...aarti ko hasi aa gyi ..usne sahil ko aur paresan karne ke liye thode kade lahje me puchha ... "kya bole tum .????..jara fir se to bolna " sahil ko lga aarti ko sach mr bura lag gya ... "sorry,,, galti se muh se nikal gya " sahil ne sar jhukaye udas hote huye kaha. aarti ko uska udas chera dekhkar aur tej hasi aagyi ,... "mujhe pta h bhodu ram...tumhare muh se galti se hi nikla h ...tum me himmat hi nhi ki jan boojhkar aisa bolo ..wo bhi kisi ladki ko " aarti ko hasta dekh sahil ki samjh me aa gya ki wo uski tang khich rhi thi ... ":achchha ..to tu mujhe bas tang kar rhi thi ...sadeli si ...m kya darta hu kisi se ..m kisi bhi ladki ko kuchh bhi bol sakta hu samjhi ..aur fir to koi ladki thodi na h "' achha..kya bole m ladki nhi hu??? ..how dare u??? ..kya hu m fir ..haaa..btao to jara????..." ""are baba mera matlab mere liye ' koi bhi ladki' to nhi ho na ...tu to meri bhanji h ..fir mai tujhe dusri ladkiyo jaisa kaise samjh sakta hu ..matlab aur ladkiyo jaisi ladki nhi h mere liye ...ye bol rha tha " sahil ne ab apn safai pesh ki . "hmmm..ye to sahi bat h ..achchaa to m sirf aapki bhanji hu????? " "nhi tu meri pyari si dost h bhi h ..aurrrrrrr.......?" aur kya " aarti ne gaheri nazro se uski or dekhte huye puchha .. aur bhi kuchh h tu " "batao na aur kya ???" bata du..bura to nhi manegi???" aarti ne na me sar hilaya ..uska dil jor se dhadak rha tha ..sahil use achchha lagne lga tha ..aur dil ke kisi kone me uske liye dosti se badhkar kisi riste ne janm le liya tha ...lekin shayad aarti ko abhi is bat ka ahsas nhi tha . "nhi bura man jayegi ..jane de " "batao..nhi bataoge to jarur bura man jaungi " "aur..aur...aur tu ek jangli billi h ..ha..ha..ha" sahil uthakr bhagta hua bola ..use pta tha abki bar aarti use nhi chhodegi . "youuuuu......how dare u...abhi thik karti hu tumhe ...." aarti teji se uske pichhe bhagi . sahil pichhe mudmud kar aarti ko chidha rha tha aur bhag rha tha ..aarti lagbhag usko pakdne hi wali thi ki uska pair ek patthar se takraya aur is se pahle uska sar kisi dusre pathar par padta sahil ne use apni baho me tham liya aur dono ek sath jameen par gir pade ....sahil ne aarti ko safe bacha liya tha ...sahil pith ke bal niche jameen par gira tha aur aarti uske baho me kaid thik uske upar ... cotton ke suit me kaid uske gathe huye dudhiya color ke boobs sahil ki sine me gade huye the ...sahil ne jo se usko baho me jakda hua tha aur aarti ke lab uske labo ke ekdam pas ..itne pas ki dono ko ekdusre ki sanse mahsoos ho rhi thi ..aur aarti ki julfo ki kuchh laten sahil ke chehre par latki huyi thi ..dono mano kisi aur hi duniya me the ..kisi ko kuchh khabar nhi thi ..mano ek lamha tham sa gya tha .dono ek dusre ki aankho me ek tak dekh rhe the .. aarti ne jane kis bhawna ke aavesh me baehkar apni gulab ki pankhudiya sahil ke labo par rakh di. sahil aarti ke hotho ki madhur mithas se mantramugdh sa ho jata h ...aarti dhhere se uske hoth ke upar upne hoth ragad deti h ..dono hi anadi the ..dono ke hoth aaj pahli bar kisi dusre ke hotho ko chhu rhe the aur sabse badi bat ki unke man me romance ya sex jaise koi feelings nhi thi ...ye sabkuchh bahut achanak se ho gya tha ..sahil dheere se apna hath aarti ke balo me ferta h aur dhhere se uska sar niche ki or khich leta h ..dono ke hoth puri tarah se ek dusre ke muh ko band kar lete h aur dono ki aankhe band ho gyi thi...dono me se koi kuchh bhi harkat nhi kar rha tha ...karib 2 min bad sahil ki chetna mano wapas aayi ho ... usne jaldi se aarti ko apne upar se htakar ek taraf kiya aur apne kapde par lagi ret jhadne laga...aarti jmeen par padte hi uth kar khadi ho jati h aur wo bhi apne kapde jhad kar aage badh jati h ...mano sahil ka samna karne ki himmat na ho ...sahil bhi uske pichhe chal deta h ...dono ke hi man me ek hi vichar aa rhe the ... " wo mere bare m kya scoh rha hoga/ hogi " dono hi is bat ko jante the ki dosto ke bich shayad ye nhi hota lekin ye bhi sach tha ki kisi ne bhi ye janbujh kar nh kiya tha . sahil janta tha ki aarti bhale hi sokh, chanchal ho lekin in sab mamlo me bahut seedhi h...aur ab use ye dar lag rha tha ki aarti is bat ko lekar guilty na feel kare ..usi aarti ko is bat ka ahsas dilana tha ki wo aisa bikul nhi sochata ..wo teji se aage badh ta h aur aarti ke bara bar aakar chalne lagta h ...aarti sar jhukaye chalti ja rhi thi .. sabil ne aarti ka hath pakad liya , aarti whi ruk gyi.. "ye kya kar rhe h aap ..chhodiye mera hath " aarti ruansi hote huye boli..jo ararti thodi der pahle use tum tum bol kar uska sar kha rhi thi ab whi use aap kahkar bat kar rhi thi .. sahil hath nhi choodata h bas uski or dekhta rahta h .. "plzz..mama..leave me my hand " "aarti plzz...ham dono jante h ki wha jo kuchh hua usme kisi ki koi galti nhi h ...mai tum par apne aap se jyada bharosa karta hu ..aur mujhe umeed h i tum bhi agr utna nhi to thoda bharosa to mujh par karti hi ho ...karti ho na??? " sahil uska hath pakde ghutno ke bal baithkar uski aankho me dekhte huye bole ja rha tha aur aarti ko uski ek ek bat apne dil me utarti mahsoos ho rhi thi . . maine aap ko to kuchh nhi kaha na ??? " aarti ki aankho me aansu bhar aaye the . "ha tumne mujhe kuchh nhi kaha ..lekin agr tum khud ko guilty samjhogi to mujhe bhi guilty feel hoga ..plz...agr tum mujh par bharosa karti ho to apne aap par bhi bharosa rakho .......hm dono dost h aur puri zindagi rahenge ..insan kabhi kabhi kisi kmjor lamhe ka shikar ho jata h ...lekin iska ye matlab nhi ki wo insan ya wo rishta kalnkit ho gya...rishte kalankit tab ho jate h jab usme wasna ghar kar jaye ...pyar kabhi wasna ka roop nhi leta ....aur pyar har rishte me hota h ...fir chahe wo ghar pariwar ke logo ke liye ho , pati patni ka ho ...lovers ka ho ...ya fir dosto ka ho....agr hmare man me kisi ke liye ijjat h , maan h ,to wo itni chhoti bato se nhi khatm hota .....aarti ishte nibhane ke liye sabsi badi cheej hoti h vishwas, ek dusre ke upar bharosa ...apne kisi bhi rishte me kabhi galatfahmi mat aane do ...tum kuchh aur samjhti rahi aur m kuchh aur ..aur ek din jab tak sachchai ka pta chale tb tak duriya itni badh chuki ho ki ab unhe tay karna mumkin hi na ho ...aarti mujhe tum par aur apne rishte par pura bharosa h ...aur m janta hu ki tumhe bhi h ....h na aarti ???? itna bharosa to h na apni dosti par ?????? " aarti ke ankho ke aansu jo ab tak thahre the ab motiyo ka roop lekar uske najuk galo ko bhigo rhe the .. sahil uski aankho ke aansu dekhkar kahda ho jata h aur apne hatho se unhe saf karne lagta h ... aarti bina kuchh bole uske gale lag jati h .."".thank u ....thank u so much...aap sach me bahut achchhe ho ...thank u for being my freind..." sahil bi usko apni baho me sama leta h ..aur uske reshmi balo me hath ferta hua use chup karane lagta h ...aarti ko rona ab ruk chuka tha lekin wo u hi sahil se chipke huye subak rhi thi ... "'ek to ye tum ladkiyo ke aankho me hamesa hi ganga yamuna aabad rahti h ..kuchh hua nhi ki aansu aane suru ...bhagwan jane kaun si supply h water ki jo kabhi khatm hi nhi hoti " sahil ab use normal karne ki kosis kar rha tha ..aur isme use jyada waqt nhi laga..lekin abki bar jo bat aarti ne boli wo sahil ke dil k chhu gayi thi ..aur use laga ye masoom si dikhne wali , natkhat si ladki kitni sachchi h aur kitna pyaraa h iska dil ... aarti boli ...--" ha hum ladkiya bahut aansu bahati h ...jante ho q???...qki ham tum ladko ke hisse ke aansu bhi apni aankho se baha deti h ...taki tumhari aankho me kabhi aansu na aayen." sahil ko bahut pyar aaya tha uski is bat par ..lekin ab wo aur emotional nhi hona chah rha tha ... ""ha lekin hm to ladkiyo ki bat kar rhe the na,,,,aur tu to meri jangli billi h na""" sahil ne uske chehre ko gaur se dekhte huye bade srious andaz me kaha.. "aap bahut gande ho ....ha nhi to ...i hate u ..." bolti huyi aarti sahil ke seene par pyar se ghuse marne lagi aur fir dono ladte jhagdte ghar ki or chal diye... ************************************************************************************************************************ ""tum ne khana nhi khaya abhi???????????"" sahil ki aawaz par aarti atit ki yado se bahar nikal aayi ...ghadi par nazar dali to rt ke 1.30 baj chuke the ... tum se hi puchh rha hu " use chup dekh kar sahil ne thode gusse se puchhaa. jjeeeee wo aap so gye the ...maine aapko jagaya nhi ...m abhi garam kar deti hu "" "to kya tum mere hatho se khati ???????..m sogya tha to tum kha leti...???"'sahil ne nafrat se aarti ko ghudak diya ..aarti ko teer ki tarah uski bate lagi ..uski aankho me aansu aa gye .. "jee wo maine soch sath me khayenge .......aur aapke khye bina m kaise ...sorryyyyy"" aarti ne teji se apni ankho ko ragda aur andr ki or bhag gyi ..apni aankho ke aansu sahil se chhupane ki nakam kosis ki thi usne. sahil ko khud par kafi gussa aaya .....""sala m bhi kaisa insan hu ..itni rat tak baithi wo mera wait kar rhi thi aur ab maine use rula diya ...laanat h mujh par""" ...tabhi use apne bite din yad aaye aur ek bar fir vicharo ne palti khayi ...""" ha to thik h na ...kya maine kaha tha wait karne ko ...""" sahil inhi khyalo me uljha hua tha tabhi aarti khana garam karke lakar table par lagane lagi ...sahil dhyan se uski or dekh rha tha ...wo normal dikhne ki kosis to kar rhi thi lekin sahil se kab uski dil ki kaifiyat chhup payi thi jo aaj chhup jati...wo janta tha ki aarti andar ro kar aayi h .... aarti ne table par uska khana laga diya au aur akar door rrakhi chair par baith gyi. "ab ye kya h ....tumhe nhi khana h ???" sahil ne puchha ...aarti chup rhi .. "tumhi se puchh rha hu damn it ..reply me ???"" sahil ne gusse se chikhte huye kaha. "aap ko kab fikar rhi h meri ???" aarti ne dabdabayi aankho se kaha. aarti ke is jwab ne sahil ka sara gussa thanda kar diya .. "".kash tumhe pata hota ki tumhari fikar karte karte hi aaj is hal me pahuch gya nu mai " sahil ne apne man me socha aur khana suru kar diya . dono hi apni kosiso me lage huye the --- aarti apne pyar ko wapas lane ki kosis me aur sahil apne dil me bhare pyar ko chhupane ki kosis me. aarti ek tak sahil ko dekhe ja rhe thi ...aur sahil yeh dikhawa karte huye khana kha rha tha ki usi aarti ki koi fikar nhi h ...sahil khana khakr wapas apne bistar par chala jata h aur aankhe band karke sone ki kosis karta rahta h ..aarti bhi chup chap uthakar apne bed par aa jati h aur light off kar deti h ...pura kamra night bulb ki dudhiya roshani me nahaya hua tha . sahil kosis to bahut kar rha tha sone ki lekin need aankho se koso door thi ..rah rah kar yhi bat use bar bar khal rhi thi ki aarti ne khaana nhi khaya..,,, subah se kitni thak gyi h aur ab.... shittt....thodi der aur lete rahne ke bad us se rha nhi jata...aur wo uth jata h ... aarti jo pas hi pade dusri charpayi par leti thi abhi jag hi rhi thi ...light on hone aur fir bartano ke khatar-patar ki aawaz use aaa rhi thi par wo dusri or muh karke leti thi aur palatkar nhi dekhti ... "utho ,khana kha lo " aarti ke kano me sahil ki aawaz padi aur mano shahad ghol gyi ho wo bate... "mai janti hu sahil tum aaj bhi mujhe utna hi chahte ho ...tumhari narazagi jayaz h ...tumne ane upar ye sakhti ki deewar jo bna rakhi h ,use muhe todana h ....uske andar aaj bhi whi sone sa dil h meri jaan ka . mai janti hu .." aarti apne man me sochati hai par uthati nhi h . "plzz...m janta hu tum jag rhi ho ...ab utho aur kha lo ...muh jaise insan ke liye ya meri vajah se khud ko takleef dene ki koi jaroorat nhi h...ab jab itna sara ahsan kar hi diya h to ek chhota sa aur kar do....plzz" sahil ki un bato me pyar tha ,dard tha ,tadap thi ,shikayat thi aur sath hi sath bahut sari talkhi bi thi ...aarti ka dil ro utha tha ...wo ab sahil ko paresan nhi karna chahti thi ...wo chup chap utha ti h aur uski aankho me dekhti h ..sahil us se nazre nhi mila pata aur hath me pakda plate uski or badha deta h ... sahil ke hath se plate lete huye aarti ka hath sahil ke hatho se chhu jata h aur sahil ki nazre chehre ki taraf uth jati h...aarti ki aankh bhar aayi thi ..par ye nhi maloom ki sahil ke pyar par ya uski shikayto par ...sahil aaj bhi aarti ke aansu nhi dekh sakta tha, use bahoot guilty feel hota h ...aisa hi ho rha tha sahil ke sath kuchh dino se...use aarti se lakho shikayate thi ... uski har jyadati use yaad thi ..achanak se sare contact khatm kar lena ,uske samne aane se bachna, uski berukhi ..sabkuchh yad tha use ..lekin jab bhi kabhi aarti ki aankho ke aansu dekhta sab kuchh bhool jata tha .....bas yad rahta to masoom chehra ,wo gahri jeel si kali aankhe aur un ankho me saje wo beshkimti moti.......jinki keemat aarti ki har ""bewafai"" se kahi jayad lagti thi sahil ko . "sorry !" bas itna hi bolta h sahil aur wapas mud kar apne bistar me ghus jata h .. subah sahil ki neend aarti ke jagane par khulti h ..wo bade pyar se uske balo me hath ferte huye use jaga rhi thi ..sahil ki aankhe jaise hi khulti h samne aarti ko khubsoorat chehra hota h ..pal bhar ke liye use apna dil hatho se jata mahsoos hota h lekin agle hi pal wo khud ko sambhal leta h aur dhhere se aarti ka hath hata deta h ... "uthiye abhi hme joging par chalna h, uske bad halka breakfast fir aapko yoga ke liye jana h aur sham ko hm kahi baher chalenge ghumne " aarti use sare programme samjha rhi thi ... mujhe nhi kahi jana ..." sahil ne berukhi se kaha. "sahil plzzz...aap meri galti ki sajaa khud ko mat dijiye ...mai aap ke liye kuchh na sahi to ek doctor aur patient ka rishta hi samjh ljiye hamare bich..." aarti ne shanti se jawab diya. is bar sahil kuchh nhi bola ..thodi der me dono track suit pahne joging karne ke liye nikal jate h...sahil ke andar abhi bhi kafi kamjori thi aur use kafi dekhbhal ki jaroorat thi .... aarti ne sahil ki har tarah se dekh bhal ki thi lekin sahil use apne kareeb aane ka koi mauka nhi deta tha...koi bahut jaroori bat hoti thi tabhi dono ek dusre se bolte nhi to bas apna routine follow karte.... aarti ki din rat ki dekhbahl rang lane lagi thi aur sahil ke chere par pahle jaise chamak aane lage thi ,,..is jagah ke khule mahaul me sahil kafi comfartable feel kar rha tha ab..ab use kamjori ka ahsa bhi nhi hota tha ..aur ab wo kafi der tak joging karta ..aarti thodi der joging karti fir sahil ko kasarat karte dekhti ...wo ab pahle ki tulna me kafi majboot dikhta tha ... ..sahil ko puri tarah thik dekhkar use apni jeet ka ahsas hone laga tha ..uska sahil tan se to pahle jaisa ho gya th aab uske man ko pahle jaisa karna tha ....unhe yha aaye lagbhag 12 dn ho gaye the ..in 12 dino me un dono me koi khas bat chit nhi huyi thi ..din bhar ek set routine ko follow karna aur sham ko aarti sahil ko kahi ghumne liwa jati ...lekin sahil sahayd aarti ko maf nhi kar paa rha tha aur isilye wo jayada se jayad aart ko avoid hi karna chata tha .. ,,aaj subah bhi wo roj ki tarah usi park me tehal rhe the . jeevn vatika ke andar hi yeh park banaya gya tha ...kafi bada park tha ..kinare kinare par kafi choude road banaye gaye the jiske dono or kyariyo me phool lage the ...bahut sare log wha subah ke waqt tahlte the ...aarti sahil ke sath dheere dheere tahal rhi thi .. sahil aur us me kuchh bat chit nhi ho rhi thi ... "hey , aarti ..pahchana???"' samne se aa rhi do ladkiyo me se ek ne uske pas se niklate samay ruk kar puchha..... "ummm..sorry yar ..chehre se to lag rha h mili hu bt yad nhi aa rha kha??? " "are mai aditi , tumhari classmate aarushi ki badi sister ..u remember tum hamre ghar aayi thi ...pryag me ..yaad aaya " "ooo..haa..haa...kaisi h aap ??.aarushi kaha h aajkl...thik h na ab wo ??" "ha ..she got mariied .... SOMESH se shadi ki usne ....i hope u know shomesh ..???""..apne ghar h...bikul thik h ab wo ... " "ohh..thtz so nice ...aap ko ek bat batau somesh use bahut pyar karta tha aur bahut pahle se pyar karta tha ...lekin tab aarushi uske sachche pyar ko pahchan nhi payi thi ..anyway happy ending ..he he...aur bataaye..aap log yha ??? " "wo use bahut pahle se use bahut pyar karta tha " in sabdo ko sunkar anayas hi sahil ki nazar aarti ki or uth jati h aur dono ki nazre mil jati h ...dono ladkiya gaur se is bat ko dekhti h ..aur kuchh kuchh andaza lagane lagti h . . ""haa..wo mere uncle yha ke chief neurosurgeon ho gye h to hm unhi se milne aaye the ..tum batao .. aur ye kaun h ???- pahli bar ladki ne sahil ki or dhyan diya,,aur aarti se puchhte samay uski aankho me kafi sharart thi jise aarti ne bakhoobi mahsoos kya.. ""woo..wo...aap chaliye m aati hu " aarti ne sahil ko whi khada dekhar kaha ..ab wo sahil ke samne bhala kya batati k wo uska kaun h. achchha to ... tumhare '' wo '' hai??? " ladki ne shararat se aankh nachate huye kaha "kya didi aap bhi ...aarti sharma jati h " "achchha achchha jane de ... shadi kar li aur bataya bhi nhi...kya karte h tumhare wo ....aur yha q ???"" "nhi di shadi nhi ki h abhi ....(aarti ko sahil se apni shadi ke bat kafi achchhi lag rhi thi )... jee wo IAS h..inka accident ho gya tha ..ab sab normal to h leki n docotr ne kahi khuli jagah jane ko bola tha to socha yha thik rhega" . "achchaa kiya dear ..chalo hm chalte h ..shadi par jaroor bulana ..bye dear " "jaroor didi , bye " dodno ladkiya agge badh jati h aur aarti bhi teji se chalte huye sahil ke karib aa jati h .. "meri freind ki sister thi ..." aarti bina puchhe hi sahil ko batane lagti h .. "uske boy friend ne use dhokha diya tha ..usne suicide attempt kiya tha par hostel ke hi ek ladke ne use bacha liya ..aur un dono ne shadi kar li ...bahut pyar karta tha wo us se " aarti ne sahil ke man ko tatolane ke liye bola . """hmm?? pyar karta tha ? pyar ...dosti ..sb dhokha h ..sab sali matlab ki duniya h ...koi pyar vyar nhi hota duniya mai...agr aap ke din achche h to sab aapke dost h , sab aap se pyar karte h aur agr bure din aa gaye to apna saya bhi sath chhod deta h ..agr tum chahti ho ki hamre bich thoda bahut jo kuch bacha h wo bacha rhe to plzzzzz...for god sake ...mujhse dosti .pyar mohbbat in sab ki bate mat kiya karo ..bhaarosa uth gya h mera in sab bato se aur in rishto se .." sahil bolta ja rha tha aur aarti ka dil me uski har bat teer ki tarah chubhti ja rhi thi . .""pyar karta tha...huuuunnhh..... maine bhi to bahut pyar kiya tha tumse ..kya hua us pyar ka??? ka hua us dosti ka ???? kya maine tumse kabhi uski keemat mangi ??? pyar me koi khwahish ki ??? are mera pyar to nischhal tha ...nishpaap tha ..kya kami thi mere pyar ..maine to kabhi pyar pane ki kosis bhi nhi ki ..bas pyar karta gaya..pyar nibhata gya... ...bahut jyada pyar...apni jaan se jyada pyar ...jaane do aarti ..tumhe bhi koi dosh kyu du .???.....ek hare huye insaan se kyu koi rishta rakhega ....aur us samay to m ek hara hua insaan hi tha ...sab ne chhod diya , to tumne bhi chhod diya ....lekin plz ab dosti ar pyar ka nam mat liya karo mere samne ..tumhare muh se ye bate achchhi nhi lagti..."" sahil ne apne dil ki sari bhadas nikal di aur aarti ke aankho ke aansu mano jam se gaye the ...wo chup chap teji se chalte huye apne room ki or badh gyi ..room me pahuchhate hi wo bathroom me ghus gayi aur buri tarah se tootkar rone lagi.. aarti washroom me bejar hokar roye ja rhi thi ....aisa kyaa kar diya maine sahil ki aapne aaj mujhe itna paraaya kar diya ...aapne mujhse bahut pyar kiya mai janti hu ...lekin maine bhi aap se utna hi pyar kiya h ...aap q nahi samjh paye ??? maine bhi pyar nibhaya h sahil ...mera pyar bhi sachcha h...mera pyar bhi nishpaap hai......maine to khyalo me bhi aap ki siway kisi aur ke bare me nahi socha ......aaj bhi mere dil me wahi pyar wahi ijjat h aapke liye ...maine aapke sath jyadati ki h mai janati hu....lekin ye saja hum dono ne bhugti h ...aap se 5 sal door mai kaise rhi hu sirf mai hi janti hu ...lekin ab nahi rah sakti ...ab nahi rahoongi ...plz sahil ek bar mujhe maf kar do ...plzzzz..maf kar do mujhe ...maf kar do apni aarti ko ...""" aarti bilakh kar rone lagi ... udhar baher room me baitha sahil aaj fir apne aap se khafa ho rha tha .... .""sala kya jaroorat thi us se shikwa karne ki ...jab 5 sal tak bina kuchh kahe , bina kuchh puchhe mai chup chap sab sahta chala aaya to fir aaj kya jarurat thi ???? aarti mere dil me tumhare liye nafart nahi h ...chahu bhi to tumse nafart nahi kar sakta ...tumhare sath kuchh pal bitane ki tamnna me to mai yha chala aaya...lekin kya karu ..dil ke kisi kone me ek tees si uthati h ...ye sochkar ki kya kiya tha maine aisa jo tumne itani badi saja suna di mujhe ...aur itna haq bhi nahi diya ki ek bar puchh saku ki tumne aisa kyu kiya mere sath .......aur jab ye tees uthati h to mai apne aap me nahi rah pata ..aarti duniya ki aisi koi takat nhi thi jo mujhe tumse alag kar deti lekin jab tumne hi juda hone ka farmaan suna diya to mai kis se ladta ..kis se tumhe chhinta ..tumne to mujhe zahar bhi peen ka hkam diya aur fir na marne ka vada bhi le liya ..tumhi batao mai kya kata ?????...kya karta tumhara sahil..?????........." sahil ka dil bhari ho aay tha..wo wahi room me kapde change karta h aur jeans t- shirt me baher ki or chal deta h .. aarti thodi der bad apne aansuo ko sambhalte huye washroom se baher nikalti h ...kamre me har taraf nazar daudati h par use sahil kahi nhi dikhta ...sahil... sahil......... wo aawaz deti h par sahil kahi nhi dikhta . aarti ko sahil ki chinta hone lagti h ... dopehar ke 1 baj chuke the aur sahil abhi tak laut kar nhi aaya tha ....aarti ke dil me bure bure khyal aa rhe the ...wo janti thi ki sahil ne car ka accident janboojh kar kiya tha...uski shadi ki bat ko sahil bardast nhi kar paya tha aur usne khud ko khatm karne ki kosis ki thi ....aur yhi shanka fir se uske man me aa rhi thi ..kahi sahil fir se waisa koi kadam na utha le .... breakfast aur lunch dono table par jaise ka taisa laga hua tha ...aarti ne kuchh bhi nahi khaya tha ...aaj wo apne rab se sahil ki salamati ki duayen mang rhi thi ...aur us ki duayen rang layi ...sahil ko andar aat dekh uski jan me jan aayi .... "kaha gaye the aap " aarti ne zabt karte huye puchha ...sahil pas rakhe sofe par baithe apne shoes ke lays khol raha tha ..aarti ki bato ka koi jawab nahi diya unse...shoes uthakar rakhte samy uski nazr table par jati h jaha lbreakfast aur kunch laga hua pada tha ..saf pata chal rha tha ki use chhuuaa bh nhi gya hai..sahil samjh jata h ii aarti ne subah se kuchh bhi nhi khaya hai ... mujhe bhookh lagi h ..lunch garam karke lao " sahil uski bato ko unsuna karta hua washroom ki or badhata hai ..lekin aarti uski raste me aa jati h . sahil apni nazre dusri or kar leta h . " hato mere aage se " "kaha gaye the???? " aarti ne fir se puchha .. "ek friend ke yha gaya tha " "mujhe bataa kar nahi ja sakte the " "maine jaroori nahi samjha tumhe batana" ""ha nahi jaroori hu mai tumhare liye ...tumahri kuchh bhi nahi hu mai ...lekin mere sab kuchh ho tum ...kal bhi sab kuchh the aur aaj bhi sabkuchh ho ...janti hu mai ki mai kuchh nhi hu lekin tumne to gairo par bhi ahsan kiye h ..gair samjh kar hi ek ahsan kar do mujh par ....mujhe apne hatho se mar do ...aise tadpa tadpa kar kyu mar rhe ho ...ek bar me hi mar do ...agr mujhe gunahgar man hi liya hai to saj bhi de do ...jo chaho sajaa de do ...lekin..plzz khud ko itni takleef mat do ...tumhe huyi har takleef par ek maut marti hai tumhari aarti ...tumne to is duniya se jane ki taiyari kar li ...mere bare me socha bhi nahi ......." aarti aaj 5 barso se dabi apni bhawnao ka sagar uske kadmao me udel rhi thi . ."""aap ko hospital me dekhkar kuchh pta hai kitni maute mari hu mai....aapki ek ek dhadakan ke liye lakho mannate mangi h maine ....aap nahi jante sahil ...aap kuchh nahi jante ...kuchh bhi nahi.. .maine aapke sath bewfai nahi ki hai sahil ..maine bhi apna pyar nibhaya hai .....apki aarti bahut majboor thi sahil ..bahoot majboor .."" aarti jo pahle sahil ka collar pakad kar uski aankho me dekhkr bate kar rhi thi ab uske kadmo me padi huyi bilakh rahi thi ..sahil ke pairo se lipti thi aarti.. sahil mano boot ho gya tha...uska shari jaise sunn ho gya tha ...aarti . jiska ek aansu wo sah nahi paata tha , aaj uske kadmo me padi apni safai de rahi thi ...itna patthar to n tha sahil ..kisi jamane me aarti ko tootkar chaha tha aur sachchi mohaabat itani jaldi bhaal kaise mar jati .

UPDATE 8 aarti sahil ke kandhe par hath rkhkar bike par baithi thi ..sahil ke dil me behad itminan tha ..aaj uska dil bahut khus tha.. wo dheere dheere bike chala rha tha aur aarti se bate bhi kr rha tha . ab use is bat ki bhi khusi thi ki wo aarti ke sath hi delhi jayega . ghar par sahil aur aarti ke jane ke bad nana-nani market chale gye the aur aarti ki mummy pados ke kisi ghar gayi thi ..rohan kuchh der tk T.V dekhta h fir gahr par kisi ko na dekhkar upar chhat par chal deta h .. chhat par renu apne kamre me kitabo me sar ghusaye kuchh padh rhi thi ..rohan ko darwaze par dekhkar wo bura sa muh bana leti h par bolti kuchh nhi h . "mausi abhi bhi naraz ho ...i m sorry " rohan masoom ban ne ki puri acting kar rha tha .. renu kuchh nhi bolti... "mausi i m sorry , aap mujhe maf kar do plzz...bas do din hi aur rahna h phir to m chala hi jaunga. ab aapko mujhe aur nhi bardasht karna padega ..jab se aaye aapke liye sar dard ban gya hu ..ab kabhi nhi aaunga .. " rohan apni dal na galta dekh emotional blackmail par aa jata h . renu ab bhi kuchh nhi bolti . "thik h mat maf karo ..chala jata hu m" "aa jao andar " renu ko uspar dya aa jati h..aakhir sari galti uski hi to nhi thi ...mano wo man hi man khud ko dant ti h . rohan jakar renu ke pas bistar par baith jata h ...aur jhat se uska hath apne hatho me le leta h .. "thank u mausi ..thank u so much'...aap bahut achchhi ho " "ab rahne do maska lagane ko " haye meri jane teri to mai bina maska lagaye hi lunga .rohan man hi man sochta h . "nhi mausi sach me...aap nhi janti ki mere dil se kitna bada bojh utar gya...mujhe nhi pta tha ki aap itna naraj ho jaogi itni si bat par .. " kya matlab itni si bat par .........wo itni si bat thi ????" renu fir sulag jati h . "oh sorry ...mausi aap bahut innocent ho .. aap nhi janti na saher me ladkiya kaisi hoti h ..wha to ye aam bat h ..isliye mujhse galti ho gyi .." rohan janta tha ki bhale kuchh der ke liye hi sahi lekin renu ne uska sath to diya hi tha ..isliye wo fir se kosis kar rha tha .. "mujhe sab pta h saher me bhi achchhi ladkiya hoti h ...jo jaisa hota h usko vaise log hi dikhte h " renu use koi bhav nhi de rhi thi ya fir shayad wo dar rhi thi ...rohan ke hath lagate hi uspar suroor sa chhane lagta tha ye bat wo bhi janti thi ..aur isi vajah se wo rohan ko bikul bhi lift nhi de rhi thi ...par aaj shayad kismat bhi rohan ke sath thi .. "mausi aap sachme bahut achchhi ho ... aap kitni khubsoorat ho fir bhi itni simple rahti ho ..koi attitude nhi h aapke andar ...aap ki umr ki ladkiya to ab tak kya kya kar leti h .....aur aap kitni sidhi sadhi ho ...bahut kismat wale honge hamare mausa je...m bhi aapki jaisi ladki se hi sadi karunga ,,agr aap meri muasi na hoti to m aapse hi sadi karta.."" rohan apne sare astra sastra se renu ko patane ki kosis kar rha tha .... "jee nhi ..aisa kuchh nhi h ,,bht sari achchhi ladkiya h sirf m hi nhi..aur kya matlb meri umar tak ...kya kya kar chuki hoti h ladkiya ....????.jaise tumhe bada pta h sabkuchh "" rohan ki bate renu ko thodi achchhi to lag hi rhi thi ..aakhir wo bhi ek jawan khubsoorat ladki thi ..aur fir tarif kise achchhi nhi lagti. "sach me mausi ..hmare yha to school ki ladkiya bhi wo sab ...aap samjh hi gyi hogi ..aur sab nhi achchhi hoti ...mujhe to bas aap hi achchhi lagti ho ..sach bol rha hu ...mummy kasam " is bich rohan wapas rnu ka hath pakad chuka tha aur renu ne koi virodh nhi kiya . "q.?????.m q achchhi lagti u .?????.aisa kya h mujhme ...jao jhuthe kahi ke " renu ne pahli bar sharm se najre jhukate huye kaha. mera matlab aap swabhav se bhi bahut achchhi hi aur ..." aur kya???" jane do "" "to fir suru ki kya kiya " "nhi aap bura man jaoge" bol jo bolna h " "wo...wo...wo aapka figure bhi abhut achchha h ,,ekdam tight " pahle bat rohan ne juban se boli dusri dil se nikal gayi . renu sharam ke mare lal ho gyi ..par achchha to laga tha use . "dekh rohan tu bahut chhota h abhi ..in sab bato par dhyan mat diya kar ..abhi tu padhai kar... samajh rha h na " renu ko samjh me nhi aa rha tha ki wo kaise react kare ...rohan ki bato se wo thodi garam ho chuki thi ..waise to ye bate normal hi thi par renu jaisi kali ke liye itna hi bahut tha aur fir rohan ki najre lagatar uske boobs ko nihar rhi thi jis se renu aur sharma rhi thi . "mausi mujhe pta h ....aapki sari bate sahi h ...lekin aapko dekhkar mujhe kuchh kuchh hone..lagta h ..mausi lagta h mujhe aapse pyar ho gya h ".. ROHAN ne apna sabse kargar teer chhoda jo jyadtar kuwari kaliyo ko sahi nishane par hi lagta tha . rohan samjh rha tha ki ab renu line pe aane lagi h ..uski bato me pahle jaisi tivrta bhi nhi thi aur na hi ab wo use naraz lag rhi thi . " ye kya bakwas kar rha h ..??? renu jor se chikhi . rohan ne teer chhod diya tha ab result ka wait kar rha tha.. "mausi m janta hu ,,mujhe koi pyar nhi karta ..thik h aap bhi mat karo mera kya h...m kisi ke pyar ke layak i nhi hu "...rohan roni soorat bana kar sar jhukaye baitha rahta h. aarti use fir samjhane ki koiss karti h "rohan tu janta h ye possible nhi h ...m teri mausi hu aur tu mujhse bahut chhota h..aisi bate mat kiya kar mujhse ...' "thik h nhi karunga ..mere dil me jo tha wo bol diya ..maine aapse iske badle me to kuchh nhi manga na..meri kismat hi kharab h ..." renu bahut asmnjas me pad jati h ..wo rohan ko kaise samjhaye ... "ohh ..oyiiii maaa....ouchhh...rohan !!!!!!!" rohan se buri tarah chipak gayi thi renu ..rohan khud nhi samjh nhi paya ki kya hua ... "rohan jaldi dekh kuchh h meri pith par ...sayad chhipkali h " renu e kamre me chhipakliya thi aur wo kayi bar chhat par chalte chalte gir jati thi . rohan ko lga ki ek bar fir baji uske hath me aa gyi h. "oh...ha mausi chhipakali hi h ..m hata deta hu " rohan renu ke dupatte ko khich leta h aur usi se chhipakali ko jo ki renu ke kandhe par padi thi .use niche gira deta h..chhipakali shayd mari huyi thi jo jane kaise upar se giri thi leki rohan ki duaye jaroor mil rhi thi use . renu ki sase abhut tej chal rhi thi ..wo rohan se chipki huyi thi aur rohan uski pith sahla rha tha .. "rohan chhod mujhe.." rohan use baho me jakde huye sahla rha tha ..renu chhutane ki kosis karti h . "mausi i really love you '' nhi ...ye sab galat h ..tum jhooth bol rhe ho ..koi pyar vyar nhi h " renu bol to rhi thi par rohan ke badan ka ahsas use achch lag rha tha . "nhi mausi sach me ...meri aankho me dekh lo " aur rohan renu ka chera samne karta h . renu uski aankho me kya dekhti ..wo to sharam ke mare apna chera hi nhi uth rhi thi ..rohan dhhere se ek anguli se uska chera utha ta h aur uske rasile labo ko chum leta h ...renu chah kar bhi use mana nhi kar paa rhi thi .. "rohan ! do u really love me??" "ha jan ." renu ko line pe aata dekh rohan ne time wate karna thik nhi samjha aur renu ke mukhde ko apno hatho me lekar uske patle , gulabi labo ki mithas peena suru kar diya. renu abhi bhi uska sath nhi de rhi thi .uske sharir aur man me abhi bhi dwand chal rha tha. rohan renu ke labo ko buri tarah se chus rha tha ...renu ke hath ab uske kandhe aur balo ko sahla rhe the ...dhhere dheere rennu bhi rohan ke hotho ko chusne lagti h ...10 min tk ek dusre ko chusne ke bad jab dono alag hote h tp dono ki sanse ukhadi si hoti h ..rohan jaha behad khus tha wahi renu sharm se gadi ja rhi thi.. "achcha lga ??? " rohan ne puchha ..renu kuchh nhi boli bas sar jhukaye sharma rhi thi..rohan ne fir use gale se laga liya ..uske balo ko clutch se khol diya aur uske kano ke pas chumne lga ... "mausi ????".. ""huuun" kya khati ho jo aapke hoth itne meethe h " wo renu ko chumte chumte huye uske kano me sargoshi karta h . dhatt...badmash..." "sach me ....aap ke hotho ne to mere fvourite rasgullo ke ras ko bhi fail kar diya ..." rohan na kar aisi bateeennnnn" renu ab apne aap me nhi thi ..jwani ki aag ko bhadka diya tha rohan ke hatho ne . mai aapko itni der se pyar kar rha hu ...aap bhi karo na ?" rohan ke hath pet ko sahla rhe the . aur hoth uske galo ko chus rhe the..wo renu ke gale se lekar boobs ke upar tk ka har hissa chat rha tha ..renu ke muh se siskari nikal rhi thi ...uske hath rohan ke balo me fir rahe the . "mujhe nhi aata koi pyar vyar karna ..."" thik h ...m aapko sikha dunga." rohan mujhe jane de .." achanak renu bistar se kahdi ho jati h ..jane ka man to tha nhi uska lekin aakhir ladki thi thode to nakhre dikhayegi apne husn ka ..par rohan bhi koi kachchha khiladi nhi tha wo jante the hasinayo ke na ka matlab ha hota h ..... wo bhi jaldi se khada hokar renu ko peeche se apni baho me bhar leta h ... aur apne hoth uske gale par rakhg deta h .. :kyu itna tadpa rhi ho jan ..plz kar lene do na " kya kar lene do ha?? " wahi jo premi band kamre me karte h " mujhe kya pata kya karte h " "ha tabhi to m kar ke bata rha hu ..ruko jara darvaza band kar du " rohan darvaze ki kundi lagakar fir se renu ko daboch leta h ..wo renu ko itni garam kar dena chahta tha ki wo khud apni kamsn jwani usko saup de ...renu ne cotton ka suit aur salwar pahan rakha tha ...dupaat hat jane ke vajah se unnat urojo ke bich ki ghati se chhalakte ras ke pyale rohan ke hotho ko mano nyota de rhe the.. rohan bhi kaha chukne wala tha ..wo lagatar renu ko chus raha tha lekin jyada aage nhi badh rha tha ..wo renu peche se kas kar apni baho me daboche tha aur lagatar apna hotho se uske gale aur galo ko chus raha tha ..renu bas aahe bhar rhi thi .. mausi ??"" haaa..." renu ne madhoshi me jwab diya.. achchha lag rha h ...???" hmmmm" "aur karu ...aage ...???" rohan renu ko puri tarah khol dena chata tha tak wo khulkar dirty talks kare. "mujhe nhi pta " rohan samjh jata h ki bat karne se bat nhi baneg ...wo gaon ki sharmili hasina use kabhi khud se aage badhne ko nhi bologi. so ab use aage badna hi tha... renu ke boobs ab bahut tight ho chuke the ..rohan uske pet ko sahlata huye apne dono hath uske dono boobs par rakh deta h.... "issshhhhh...rohan nhi plzzzz'" kya hua mausi??" rohan ab uske boobs ko dhhere dheere masalne lga tha ... renu ab aahe bhar rhi thi ..uski sase kafi tez chal rhi thi ..anjane me uska hath apne salwar ke upar se gili ho rhi yoni par chala jata h ... "ohhh rohN ...plzmt kar na ...ohh maaaa..." ...mausi yhi to jwani ka khel h ......mausi ek bat puchhu .." renu ko bolta dekh rohan use aur bolne par uksa rha tha ... "haaaa..ufff.......puchhh" aapke ye itne tight q h ?? " "hiiii...mujhe nhi pta,, itna kas kar mat dbao na ...ummmm ..." renu ab mast hoti ja rhi thi .. mausi .aa kbhi dabati nhi ho kya ...kisi se dabwa liya karo ...bolo na ....isme kya chhupa rakhi ho mausi ???" rohan apni gandi bato se renu ko aur garam kar rha tha .. hiiiii..rohan mat kar aisi bate....uiiimaaa..." batao na mausi ..kabhi kisi ne dabaya h kya...mausi isme kya hota h ?" roahn sa,mjh chuka tha ab bazi uske hath me h . nhiii re...ksis ne nhi dabaya ..ohh...achchhha lag rha h ..aur dba naaa....doodh hota h isme " "mausi kisi pilaogi apn doodh ?" rohan ab kis dracula ki tarah renu ko chus raha tha aur uske boobs ko masalkar mano seene me dbakar wapsa andar kar dena chah rha tha .. chuppkar naaa..ohhhh..." batao na mausi ...mujhe hi pila do ...." rohan ki nazar aage ki oor jati h ..renu apni yoni ko buri tarah ragad rhi thi ... "mausi wo meri h ...ap ka to ye h ..dekho kaisa tadap raha h "" rohan renu ka hath uski yoni par se hatakar apne trouser ke agle hisse par rakh deta hn...uska lund par hath padte hi renu sharma kar hath khichti h ...par rohan uska hath jabardasti uspar rakh deta h ...aur apne hatho ko uske hatho par rakhkar dhere dhere aage pichhe karne lagta h .. thoda sa ise bhi pyar kar do ...dekho aapke pyar ke liye kitna tadap rha h " renu ki chehra wasna ki aag me tap kar laal ho chuka tha...wo rohan ke lund ko sahlane lagti h ...rohan ne mauka achhaha dekhkar dhere dhere apna ek hath renu ki jangho se sarkat hua uski yoni par rakh deta h ... ab rohan renu ki yoni ko sahla rha tha uar sath hi ukse boobs ko bhi masal rha th a...renu rohan ke lund ko aage pichhe karne lagi thi ... apne boobs aur yoni par sahil ke hatho ka masalan use achchha lag rha tha .. rohan ab renu ki yoni ko sahlate huye salwar ke upar se hi uske hole me ungli dalne ki kosis kar rha tha ..aur aakhirkar uski kosis kuchh had tak safal hui ...ungali kapdo ke sath thodi si chhed me ghus gayi ..renu tadap uthi ohhhh....ummm ...rohan ...pllzzzzz...ohhh maaa......"" . mausi u r so wet ,,,,dekho aapki pussy to puri tyar h ...aur aapke ye santre bhi ...mausi mujhe aapko bahut pyar karna h ..u r so hot ... aur rohan dherre dhere anguli yoni me chalane lagta h ..joki jyada andar nhi ja rhi thi ...renu mano baukhla si gyi thi is do tarafa hamle se rohan renu ki yoni ko anguli se kured rha h aur sath hi uske boobs ko ab bedardi se masal bhi rha h ... renu ka dimag bilkul sunn sa ho gya tha ,,rishte , nate maryada ab kuchh bhi yad nhi tha ...agar kuchh yad tha to bas jism ki aag aur pyas. rohan samjh chuka tha ki ab renu uska virodh nhi karegi chahe rohan kisi bhi had tak jaye ...renu bhi ab rohan ke lund ko tej tej hilane lagi thi ... rohan renu ke boobs ke nipple bedardi se masal rha tha ..bich bich me uske pure chuchi ko mutthi me lekar aante ki trah guthne lag jata ....uski badi badi kadak chuchiya dabane ke bad fir vaise hi tan kar khadi ho jati ..aur rohan phir unhe ragad deta ...uski chuchiyo ki motai rihan ke hatho me nhi sama rhi thi ..aur wo mano busse me unhe berahmi se meej rha tha ... renu ko dard ho rha tha par mja bhi bahut aa rha tha aur renu dard aur wasna ki mili juli aawaze nikal rhi thi. "ohh,,mausi....aap ke boobs to ekdam mote santre h ..jane kitno ka man ko tadpaya h inhonekitne rasile h ....ek bar mujhe inka ras pila do na ..plzz" renuko ab ye gandi bate achchhi lag rhi thi par kuchh nhi bolti bas rohan ke lund ko aur tight pakdakar teji se aage pichhe karne lagti h ..uski aankhe band thi aur chhra ekdam lal ho chuka tha ..rohan ki anguli andr tak to nho pahuch rhi thi kintu renu ki yoni ab use aur andr khich rhi thi ...uski tange apne aap phail gyi thi aur rohan teji se usi chhot ko pel rha tha. "mausi pila do na " "hiiii,...kyaaaaa" rohan renu ko aur garam karna chah rha tha ..wo chata tha renu bhi usi ki bhash me dirty talks kare .isi liye wo use uksa rha tha . "apni santre aur is niche wale ke ras...mausi aapki niche wali pari bhi meri liye dher sara ras nikal rhi h ..plzzz ek bar mere muh me de do ..hiii mausi ...do na ??" renu itni gandi bate kisi ke muh se pahli bar sun rhi thi ...par use achchhi bhi lag rhi thi ....... "ohhh.rohannn...nhi na ..plzz zz.." rohan se bhi ab bardasht nhi ho rha tha . usne renu ke salwar ka nada khol diya aur jab tak wo samjh pati uski black colour ki panti bhi niche aa chuki thi ... "rohan ..nhi ...man jao ..koi aa jayega ...ahhh" "koi nhi aayega ..meri pyari mausi ..bas 2 minut..plzz...bas ek bar apni chhoti pari ko pyar kar lene do" rohan renu ko bistar par lita deta h..aur apna bhi pant aur t-shirt nikal kar uske yoni ki pr muh karke uske upar let jata h..renu bhi bahut garam ho chuki thi...ab use is khel me mja aane laga tha aur uske man ke dwand ne ek nya roop le liya tha ..."rohan sach me mujhse pyar karta h ..aur premyo ke bich ye sab hona koi paap nhi h " wo apne man me soch rhi thi ... jism ki aag jab lagi ho to insan ko us aage ko bujhane ke liye bahut sare bahane mil jate h jo har rishte nate , aur har bat ko bhool kar us aag ko bujhane ke liye jawani ka khel khelte h ...isme renu ka bhi kya dosh?? ab rohan ka muh renu ki yoni par tha aur uderwear me kaid uska lund renu ke chehre par latak rha tha..renu ke yoni ko dekhkar sahil ki hotho se lar tapkne lagati..gaon ki gori ki gori chut ekdam kachchi khilen ke liye taiar kali ki tarah lag rhi thi ....us par ek bhi bal nhi the ..uske dono mulayam hoth bikul chipke huye the ..yoni ke hoth thode mote hone ke vajah se uska chhidra bhi nhi dikh rha tha .. "sali ne kabhi ungli bhi nhi dali kya isme ..ekdam kori h iski choot to...wah re banane wale kya choot banayh ..aaj to meri kismat khul gayi " rohan man me soch rha tha . renu aankhe band kiye aage hone wali kriya ka mano intzar kar rhi thi ..uski nak se takrata rohan ka lund use ajeeb si uljhan me dal rha tha ...use chhune ka man to kar rha tha lekin sankoch ka kida abhi bhi uske man me tha .. rohan ne renu ke komal pankhudi jaise choot k hotho par apne garam larjate hoth rakh diye ...aahh..kya mast rasile hoth the..rohan ki to mano lotery lag gyi thi "aah ...ohhh..maaaa" renu sisak padi . rohan ne bas ek kiss kiya aur apni unguli se uski yoni ki phanko ko ragdane laga ...apne nakhun se halke halke kuredte huye usne dono phanko ko alag kiya aur uski aankhe andar ke lal lal mal ko dekhkar fati rah gayi... roahn ne apne muh me renu ke left wale phanke ko bhar liya aur ek anguli se dusre phanke ko viprit dsha me faila diya ... aaahh....ummmm." ..renu sisak uthi ..wo apne pair patak rhi thi, apne sar ko idhar udhar ghuma rhi thi aur uska hah rohan ke balo ko buri tarah noch rhe the . ..uttejana ke mare uska bura hal tha .. rohan ko renu ki halat ka andaza tha aur ab wo use aur tadpana chahta tha..dono phanko ke khul jane se rohan ko uski choot ko chhota sa hole dikh gya tha .... sali ne sach me kabhi ek anguli tak nhi peli h is kali me ...sari meri liye hi chhod di h " rohan buri tarah se renu ke ek phankhe ke ras ko nichod rha tha .. "aah...rohan...ummm...uff..mar jaungi mai...ye kyyaaaa kar rhe ho ...." rohan to mano aaj uski choot ko kha hi jana chahta tha..ek phanke ko chusne ke bad wo dusre muh me le leta h aur pahle wale ko ungali se pakadakr alag kar deta h..ek angli se wo dono phanko ke bich ki lal ghati ko kured rha tha aur apne nakhun dhansa rha tha usme.. .. renu ka mare uttejan ke sanse chadh gyi thi ..usne rohan ke lund ko undrewear ke upar se hi pakad liya aur teji se marodne lagi rohan ko tej dard hua aur uske dant renu ki chhot ke phanko par gad gaye ....... "aaaiii maaa..kutte ..kat kyu rha h ..hiii. maaaaaa...kha jayega kya .????..haiii..uff..chhod mujhe ...aahhh" ab renu se bardash nhi ho rha tha ..usne bhi faisal kar liya tha ab sabkuchh bhoolkar bas rohan ko muh tod jawab dene ka ..rohan ke underwear ko nikalkar kachh se uske supada muh me bhar kar chusne lagti h ...rohan ne to sapne me bhi nhi socha tha ki renu khud hi aisa kar degi ...iski bhi uttejjana aur badh jati h ..aur wo ek sath apni do ungliya renu ki choot ki gahrai me pel deta h ... aahh....renu apne muh se rohan ka lund nikalakr buri tarah tadap uthi thi .. "rohan plzz ...bahut dard kar rhi h ..mere usme kuchh mat karo...aah...aah...ohhhh.maaaaaaa ...plzzz chhod do ..hiiiii" renu ki ankh se aansu bah rhe the ..bechari khul kr chila bhi nhi sakti thi ki bahar koi sun na le . rohan ab rukne wala kaha tha ..wo teji se uski chot ko pelne lagta h ..bahut tej uski ungliya renu ki chhot ka mardan kar rhi thi ... aahh..hiiiii....mausi apki chhot itni tight h ..dekho ungli bhi tni muskil se ja rhi h ...thodi der dalne do nhi to mera lund kaise logi ...ohh.....aaj to aapki chhot ka udghatan hoga mere mote lund se .. bolo karwaogi na ."" renu ko ab koi mja nhi aa rha tha ...use asahniya peeda ho rhi thi ...wo apni kamar chhutane ke liye buri tarah hila rhi thi kintu rohan ne use buri tarah daboch rakha tha ..aur teji se uski chhot pele ja rha tha .. renu lagatar ro rhi thi .. muhe nhi kuchh karwana...tum jalim ho ..koi dya nhi h tum me ...ahhh....rohan plzz chhod do ...aah...fir kabhi kar lena ...aah...plz...chhod do ....hey bhagwan ..bardash nhi ho rha rohan ......plzz...chhod do." renu ki aawaz upar wale nepta nhi suni ya nhi lekin bahr bike rukne ki aawaz aayi aur fir sahil aur aarti ki aawaze aane lagi thi . ROHan ka mood kharab ho chuka tha ... "in salo ko bhi abhi aana tha ...sali ..thodi der tu bhi apni kachchi choot marwa leti apne pyare mama se..randi.." rohan abhi bhi renu ki bur me anguli pel rha tha aur use muh se aarti ki liye bhaddi si gali nikal jati h . "rohan hato ...plzzzzz...mai mar jaungi agr kisi ko pta chala to ..plzzz" renu ne sisakte huye kaha . rohan ne renu ki choot ko ek jordar kiss kiya aur uski chhot ke ras ko peene laga..darwaje pe dastak huyi . .".rohan plzzz..chhodo mujhe " .. renu ka pure sari mano akad gaya aur wo rohan ki pakad dhheeli dekh jaldi se uthakar bhagte huye bathroom me ghus jati h ..darwaje pe lagatar dastak hone lagti h ... rohan ka mood buri tarah se kharab ho chuka tha ..aur darwaze par lagatar dastak ho rhi thi ... "kya hero itni der q lgi darwaza kholne me " drwaza khulte hi sahil ne puchha. mama wo m chhat par tha to aane me der lagi ...mausi shayad washroom me h " rohan ne jwab diya .. aur tu chhat par kya kar rha tha " aarti ne puchha. tujhse matlab ??? kuchh bhi karu " rohan ne gusse se kaha , akhir un dono ne uska khel bigad diya tha . aarti ne is samay uske muh lagna thik nhi samjha aur chup ho gyi ..vaise bhi aaj wo kafi khus thi to apna mood kharab nhi karna chahti thi . idhar washroom me ghusi renu ke man me vicharo ka tufan umad raha tha.. " maine jo kiya wo paap h ....wo mera bhanja h ...aur mujhse kitna chhota bhi ...lekin....wo to mujhse pyar karta h ...usne khud kaha ...aur m bhi to shayad....fir pyar m kuchh galat sahi nhi hota.. pyar to bas pyar hota h " renu khud ko hi samjha rhi thi ...uske man me rohan ke liye pyar ki kaliya foot rhi thi aur usi yhi rati ratayi lines yad aayi " everything is fair in love n war "...aur ek pyari si muskurahat aa gyi us bhole mukhde par . .aarti aur sahil bahut thake hone ki vajah se khakr so gaye ...rohan bahar chala gya aur renu wapas apne kamre me ..wo rohan se sharmane lagi thi ... sham ke karib 6 pm par sahil ki neend khuli ...wo bahar aaya to dekha sare log baithe the..bas renu aur aarti nhi the ...renu apne kamre me sahyad padh rhi ho aur aarti abhi bhi so rhi thi .. kya beta certificate mil gya ??" pita jee ne puchha .. ha papa..." to parso chalna h na ...taiyari kar le " didi boli . ".jee didi" "beta wo tere bhaiya ka phone aaya tha ..tujhse bat karne ko bol rha tha ..ek bar phone karle " maa ne sahil ko bataya. "jee...abhi kar leta hu " sahil phone par dheerj se bat karne lagta h aur bat karte huye wha se thodi door chala jata h ...idhar rohan apna mauka tad kar phir se apne planning m lag jata h ...aakhir kul do din hi bache the uske pas ..lekin ab ek umeed ki kiran use nazar aa rhi thi ...qki aadhi fatah to wo hasil kar hi chuka tha ... rohan andar renu ko dhundta hua jata h .... mausi ...kaha ho aap ???" renu jo ki kitchen me aa chuki thi rat ke khane ke liye,, chauk jati h rohan ki aawaz sunkar ...uska chehra apne aap hi sharm se lala ho jata h .. ..are aap yha ho ..m aapko kab se dhund rha hu " renu kuchh nhi bolti..wo khadi hokar kuchh utar rhi thi upar se aur rohan jakar pichhe se use baho me bhar leta h aur uske gale par apne hoth rakh deta h ... hato ....ye kya kar rhe ho ...koi aa jayega ..." "aapko pyar kar rha hu ..." renu use hatat te huye fir se apne kam me lag jati h ... "bade aaye pyar karne wale ...bahut dekhe h maine aise pyar karne wale ..." renu ne muksurate huyw uska man tatolana chaha ..dheere dheere rohan ke pyar par aitabar ho rha tha use .. "mausi m aapse sach me bahut pyar karta hu ..aap ne agr mera yakeen nhi kiya to m jan de dunga " roahn ne ek aur dav khela. rohan tum jhuth to nhi bol rhe " renu ne pahli bar uski aankho me aankhe dal kar puchha ... "nhi jan "...aur rohan fir whi karta h aur is bar hath seedhe uske madmast santro par tha . "achchha hato koi dekh lega..plzz. """ nhi ..mujhe aapko pyar karna h .." "achchha dophar me kiya tha na ..ab hat jao..plzzz" nhi wo to adhura tha ...mujhe pura karna h ...chao pahle aap batao kab pura pyar karenge, tabhi hatunga...aaj rat ko karne dogi bolo...???"" rohan uske boobs dheere dheere sahla rha tha aur uske gale ko chum rha tha renu ko achchha to bahut lag rha tha ..qki ab use ye paap nhi pyar lag rha tha ... rohan plzz hato ..koi aa jayega ..thik h kar lena " "ohhh ....so sweettttt...muaaaaah" rohan ne renu ke hotho ko jor se chus liya ... "ab hato ..ho gya na " abhi kaha hua...hoaga to tab jab isme jayega..." rohan ne renu ki yoni ko salwar ke upar se hi apne hatho me bhar ke mano nichod diya .. aahhh...ummm....besharam kahi ke...lo m hi ja rhi hu " renu ne muskurate huye kaha. "achchha nhi ...lo m yha baith jata hu ..aap kam karlo ...par rat ko nhi manunga" ....aur rohan pas rakhe takht par baith gya ... renu bhi usko nazaro ko samne dekhte rahna chahti thi ,,so wo bhi khus ho gyi ... "mausi aaj ki rat to ....." rohan aakhir kitna sabr karta samne jab aisi kamsin hasina ho to .. renu ko bhi uski bate ab buri nhi lagti thi ... kya aaj rat ,,,,hmmm...tum chup chap nhi baith sakte" renu ne sarmate huye kaha. tabhi rohan ke phone par " bip" tone baji ..usne phone uthaya aur kuchh type kake reply kiya ..msg aaya tha ... kiska sms tha " renu ne ouchha . wo ek friend ka .." "rohan ye phone lo bhaiya tumse bat karne ko bol rhe h " sahil andar aaya aur phone usko pakdata hua wapas bahar chala gya . rohan ne apna phone whi rakha aur dusfre phone par bat karne laga...bat bat karte karte wo bahar chala gya .. renu kam kar rhi thi kitchen me ki fir se rohan ke phone par msg aaya ...uske man me aaya ki kyu na dekha jaye .. rohan hamesa apne phone par passward laga kar rKhta tha aur kisi ko chhune nhi deta lekin aaj bat karne me wo phone open hi chhodkar bahar chala gya tha . renu ne phone uthaya ..aur dekha kisi Teena ka msg tha ...msg padhkar uski jais chakkar hi aa gya " kuchh nhi baby . kya karungi tumhare bina ..tum bhi kitne din ke liye chale gaye ...u know how horny i m right now ..i miss u....i need u ....i need your big cock ..ummm...plz kuchh pics hi bhej do uske " renu ki ankho se jhar jhar aansu bah rhe the jaise jaise wo rohan ka phone ke folder kholti ja rhi thi uski aankho pe chadha pyar ka parda bhi khulta ja rha tha. alag alag ..ladkiya ke sath sex ke photo ...kisi me ladki ki yoni me muh dale huye ,kisi me ladki uske lund ko muh me liye huye ....,gande sms, chudai ki bate...........renu ka dil baitha ja rha tha ... ""hey bhagwan ye kya kar baithi m ...kaise us kamine ke dhokhe me aa gayi ...q mujhe uski ye chale samjh me nhi aayi ...maine to ue apna sabkuchh man liya tha aur wo bas mere jism se khelna chah rha tha ...renu phoot phoot kar rone lagi..............uusne rohan ke phone ko deewar par khich ke mara aur whi girkar bilkhane lagi ...rote rote uske man me bahut sare khyal aa rhe the ... sabse jyada glani use khud se ho rhi thi ..apne maa_papa ki ijjat , bhai ka garv , pariwar ki maryada sabluchh dav par lag diya tha uski is harkat ne ...sare sanskaro ki tilanzali de di thi usne ... use khud se nafarat ho rhi thi ...jo bhawanye kuchh der pahle use pyar ke nam par sab kcuhh jayaz hone ka waham karwa rhi thi unka sthan ab paap aur ghrida jaise vicharo ne le liya tha . fir ek aisa khyal aaya jis se uski aankho ke aansu rook gaye ..aur aankho me ek nischay dikhne laga --- khud ko khatm karne ka nischay...aatm hatya ka nischaya. ""maine apne mummy papa ki ijjat ko dhool me mila diya ..apne bhai ke sar ko nicha kar diya ..mujh prayaschit karna hoga ...ha meri papo ki yhi saja h aur yhi prayaschit" renu apne aap ko khatm karne ka poora irada bana chuki thi ... tabhi usi kise ke andar aane ki aahat aati h..wo sahil tha .."arre rohan kaha h tu " rohan ko dhundhata hua wo andar aata h aur Renu ko jameen par sar jhukaye baitha dekhkar use lag jata h ki yha kuchh to gad bad hua h ..whi pas me rohan ki tuti mobile ke tukde bhi dikh jate h ...pahle to use lagta h ki renu se mobile tut gya isliye wo ro rhi h .. aur wo renu ke kandhe par hath rakhkar " renu kya hua behna ???" renu jo apni socho me khoyi thi sar uthakar dekhti h ..sahil ko samne dekh kar uska dil tadap uth ta h ..wo jor se sahil ke gale lag jati h ............ bhai , m bahut buri hu ..maine tum sabka bharosa tod diya ..mujhe maf kar do plzz...plzzz mujhe maf kar do..." sahil renu ke balo par hath pherne lagta h aur ab use yakeen ho jata h ki bat kuchh serious h .... renu, kya hua ...bata mujhe ...tu ro kyu rhi h ..m hu na ...hm sab h na ...tu to jan h ham sab ki ...koi galti kar di ho tune to bhi koi bat nhi.....mai sab thik kar dunga ..bata kya hua ..chup ho ja..tu janti h na m tere aansu nhi dekh sakta ...tera bhai zinda h na pagal bol kya bat h ...aree tu bas us din rona jab mai duniya m na rha .."" renu apna rona bhoolkar uske hotho par hath rakh deti h ..." tumhe meri umar lag jaye ...tumhe kuchh ho gya to bhala hm sab jee payenge kya..bhagwan har behan ko ko tum jaisi bhai de ...jug jug jiyo mere veer" renu roti ja rhi thi aur apne bhai ko duaye deti ja rhi thi .. to tu ro q rhi h ...bata mujhe """ "kash m aapko bata sakti ...sorry bhai mujhe maf kar dena ...mere galti ko maf kar dena ..mere bad dil me mere lye nafrat mat rakhna " renu fir jor jor se rone lagi ...sahil baukhla sa gya ...renu kabhi is kadar toot kar nhi royi thi aur sahil se ab uske aansu bardash nhi ho rhe the ..use laga jaroor kuchh rohan ke sath hua h.. "dekh u chup rah ...plzzz..m bas abhi aaya " sahil rohan ko dhundhata hua baher nikla...use lag rha tha ki rohan ko jaroor pta hoga qki thodi der pahle jab wo aaya to renu thik thi aur rohan whi par tha .... renu ne nischay kar liya tha ki use kya karna h aur wo pichhe ke darwaze se nikal padi. renu reji se nad ki taraf badhi ja rhi thi ...are uske aankho se aansu bahte ja rhe the .. papa mujhe kitna pyr karte h ...mujhme to mummy ki jan basti h ..aur sahil..mera bhai kitna pyar karta h mujhse ..aaj tak mere samne aane wali har musibat usne jheli...muhe duniya ki buri nazro se bacha kar rakha..aur maine kya kiya...sab vishwas sab bharosa chaknachhor kar diya ...im sorry papa ..aapki rani beti behak gyi thi ..i m sorry ...ab mai aap logo ka samna ni kar paungi ..mujhe maf kar dijiyega.....i m sorry mummy ... "" au aarti phoot phoot kar robne lagti h .. sahil ke dimag me bahut se khyal aa rhe the ...use lag rha tha ki jaruri kisi ladke ki bat h ...fir us pagal ko aise rone ki kya jaroorat h mujhse bol to sakti h ".......tabhi sahil ke dimag me renu ki wo bat aati h " mujh se nafart mat karna mere bad" "oh god kahi wo bevkoof...oh shitt...sala rohan bhi pta nhi kaha mar gya ...pahle renu ko dekhta hu ..mujhe wha sse aana hi nhi chahiye tha " sahil ko ab ahsas hot h ki renu kya bol rhi thi aur wo teji se andar ki or bhagta h . "renu ..renu ..." sahil ko renu kahi nhi dikhti aur ghar ke pichee ki taraf ka darvaza khul hua dikhta h..wo rast kheto se hota hua nadi ki taraf jata tha ..qki gaon me pahle toilet nhi hote the to kheto ki or hi log nitya kriya ke liye jaya karte the ...ye use uddesh se banaya gya tha.. .. "kahi renu nadi me to nh...????'''hey bhagwan ..nhiii...."".use sara majra samjh me aane laga tha ki renu se koi badi galti ho gyi h aur shayad wo ab us se bhi badi galti karne wali h ..wo teji usi darwaje se baher ki or bhagta h ... sahil teji se kheto ki or bhaga ja rha tha ...pahle bhi gaon ke kayi logo ne nadi me doobkar aatm hatya ki thi aur ab whi khyal sahil ke man me aane laga tha ..wo poora dam laga kar nadi ki or daudata h .. "areee..sahil kaha ja rhe ho " nisha jo kheto se wapas aa rhi thi use bahgta dekhkar chila kar puchhti h .."nisha ek kam karogi ...phone h tumhare pas ..plz mujhe de do ..bad m sab bataunga"nisha uski or apna phone badha deti h ..aage aage nisha ki mummy ja rhi thi isliye wo sahil ke pichhe nhi ja sakti thi ..lekin itna anuman use ho gya tha ki kuchh to gadbad h ..sahil phone lekar fir daudne lagta h ..aur aarti ko call lagata h ... "hello aarti ..m sahil.. jaldi se nadi ki taraf aa jao ..aur suno apna ek suit lekar aana ..aur kisi ko bhi pta nhi chalna chahiye ..jaldi plzz..." aarti ke hello bolte hi sahil ne bina use kuchh bolne ka mauka diye hi puri bat bol di ..use pta tha ki agr renu ne whi harkat k hogi jo wo soch rha h to agr wo use bacha bhi liya to aage bahut se swal khade honge aur uska tej dimag kisi computer ki tarah kam kar rha tha. "hey bhagwan jo m soch rha hu wo kash galat ho ..meri behan aisa nhi kar sakti..use kuchh nhi hone dena .. ..plzzzz " nadi ke kinare bahut unchi pahadiya thi aur keval kuchh hi jagah aisi thi jaha se pahadiya ko katkar nadi ke ghat bane huye the ..ya to fir pahadiyo par chadh kar nadi ke kinare jaya ja sakta tha jisme bahut time lagna tha ...sahil ke dimag me yhi bat aati h ki agar renu nadi ki taraf gayi hogi to yhui se gyi hogi..aur wo poori shakti se usi or bhagne lagta h.

UPDATE 7 Sahil apni hi dhun me bolta chala jata h... fir achanak aarti ki taraf dekhta h, jo apne galo par hath rakhe uski bato bade dhyan se sun rhi thi ..." oh..sorry ..mai jyada hi lecture de gya...mere dost bh yhi kahte h ki m har bat par lecture deta hu jo unhe bura lgta h" "lekin mujhe to aapki bate bilkul buri nhi lagi..infact aapne bahut badi bat kah di " arti ne sahil ki aankho me dekhte huye kaha.. "achcha chalo ab chalte h " "thik h chaliye " dono bate karte huye ghar ki taraf lautne lagte h ..sham k andhera har or failne lga tha . gaon ki sham bahut khubsurat hoti h . raste me gaon ki ek ladki milti h ... "are sahil ye kaun h" nam tha usak NIdhi, achchhi shakal surat ,badi badi aankhe aur seene par do matwale parvat shikhar , rang thoda swala,lekin kul milakar bahut hi aakrshak . "aree tumne pahchana nhi ..ye Aarti h ..meri didi ki beti ..aur aarti ye nidhi h ..mere college me padhti h ..tum mil chuki ho par shayad tumnhe yad na ho " "ha mujhe yad nhi ,,hello nidhi " "hi ,kaisi ho ...kab aayi tum ..aur idhar kaha se aa rhe the " wo ye aaj hi aayi..aur fir mai ise apne khet dikhane laya tha " "hmmm..tabhi to aaj tum bhi dikh gaye ...nhi to tumhe dekhne ko aankhe taras jati h " nidhi muskurate huye kahti h .. sahil jhenp jata h.. ."wo hme der ho rhi h ..chal aarti " aarti ko nidhi se thodi jalan ho rhi thi ya fir us par gussa aa rha tha ...q? shayad khud aarti ko bhi nhi pata tha . "kya chakkar h mama" "hey bhagwan...meri ma koi chakkar nhi h ..wo bas aise hi tang karti h ..college me padhti h to kabhi kabhi mil jati h aate jate aur do char bate ho jati ho jati h ... "mama, bate hi karna sirf , samjhe " "ab tu muh band rakh nhi to pit jayegi mere se " "aap maroge mujhe" aarti ne roni si shakal banae ki acting karte huye kaha ..".fir m ro dungi " sahil bas muskura kar rah jata h .."chal ghar, puri nautanki h tu " aarti aur sahil ghar pahuchate h . rohan phon par kisi se bat kar rha rha aur baki sare log bahar baithe bate kar rhe the . REnu rasoi me thi. "aa gya mera bachcha ..aa ja mere pas baith " nana ne dular se aarti ko apne pas baitha liya . sahil bhi whi padi charpayi par baith gya . "ab jaldi se koi achchha sa ladka dekh kar mere jeete jee iski sadi kar do " nani ne uske sar par hath ferte huye kaha . "kya nani abhi to m bachchi hu " aarti ne apna sar unki god me rakhte huye kaha . sahil ko ye bat kafi buri lagi ..isliye sirf ki aarti ko paraya karne ki bat thi wo ...par wo kuchh nhi bolta aur wha se uthkar chala jata h . "'ha bilkul,,abhi ye bahut chhoti h aur abhi ise bahut padhna h .." nana apni ladli ke bachav me itar aaye . "thank u nanu" aarti khus ho gyi . ""are pushpa tujhse ek bat karni thi ..wo sahil ka man aage ki taiyari karne ka h..wo IAS ki taiyari karne ko bol rha h. sudheer ki ( sahil ke bade bhaiya jo ki diploma kar rhe the ) padhai to ho chuki h aur uski job bhi lag gyi h ..par abhi salary jyada nhi h.. IAS ki taiyari gaon se to nhi ho sakti ..ab yha ke halat to tumhe pata hi h ...kya kare.... tumse puchhna chah rha tha "' "to mama bhi hamare sath dilli chalenge ..simple " didi ke bolne se pahle hi aarti bol padti h "papa aarti bilkul thik kah rhi h ...mai abhi us se bat karti h aur ek bar sudheer se bat karna bhi jaruri h " "beta sudheer se maine bat ki thi ..usne bhi dilli jane ko kaha tha ..lekin wo bol rha tha ki wo alag room lekar rhe ..tumhare yha nhi..mahine ka kharch wo de dega sahil ka ...bas isliliye puchh rha tha ki tum bura na mano " "nhi papa, sudheer thik kah rha tha ..family me rahkar padh nhi payega ..isme bura man ne ki koi bat nhi h " "thik h beta fir ek bar us se puchh lo kab jayega " mama ka sath jane ka sun kar aarti khus ho jati h aur wo daudkar chali jati h sahil ko btane. bato hi bato me kafi rat ho gyi thi ... renu ne aakar sabko khane ke liye andar chalne ko kaha .. sab log khana khae andar chale jate h .. "kya lajwab khana banaya h sali sahiba aapne "' aarti ke papa ne renu ki tarif ki .".jee chahta h aapki ungliya choom loo" is smay sare log rasoi me the bas sahil ke mummy papa ko khana baramde me hi de diya gya tha . "kya jeeja aap bhi na " renu sharma jati h . "are bhai itna to haq h ..aadhi gharwali ho " "chup rahiye aap bachcho ko bhi khyal nhi hota ki bade ho rhe h ..mt tang karo meri bholi bhali behan ko " sahil ki didi ne unhe ghudaki lagayi . "huh jalim jamana" aarti ke papa bole aur sab has diye .. sab khana kha rhe the aur renu sabko puchh puchh kar kuchh kuchh de ri thi ... "jeeja aur kuchh du aapko " "nhi bas pet bhar gya " "are mujhe to puchha hi nhi " rohan ne fir apna mission suru kiya .. "oh sorry , kuchh chahiye tumhe ." "ha "rohan jo bagal wale room me .t.v ke samne baitha kha rha tha ... aarti uske pas chali jati h .."kya chahiye rohan " renu ka dil joro se dhadak rha tha ..use subah ki bate yad aa rhi thi .. "mausi bata du ..par dogi na " renu kuchh nhi bolti bas haa me sar hila deti h ..... "pyas lagi h " renu ka chera sharm se lal ho jata h ... "aur pani aapne diya nhi " rohan hasta hua bolta h .. abhi layi ..renu bhag jati h wha sa... renu kafi sedhi sahrmili si ladki h kintu rohan ki bate use achchhi lagne lagi thi .jawani ki dahleez par khadi har ladki ko aisi bat achchhi lagti h ye aur bat h ki duniya samaj ke dar se aur rishto ke bandhan me badhe hone se wo is bat ko kabhi sweekar nhi karti... ..renu ka bhi yhi hal tha ..use kuchh pal ko achchha lagta fir khud se glani hoti ki wo uska apna bhanja h. sabhi logo ko teen din bat dilli ke liye niklana tha ..rohan ke papa to dusre din hi chale gaye the lekin baki logo ko aaye 6 din ho chuke the .in 6 dino me aarti aur sahil ek dusre ke aur karib aate ja rhe the ..unki nok jhok ab pyar ka rang le rhi thi lekin dono hi anhi is bat se anjan the . whi rohan puri kosis krne ke bavjood renu ke sath apne man ki kuchh nhi kar paaya tha ..ha ab renu use dekhkar thoda sharma jaroor jati aur rohan uske sath hasi majak khul kar karne laga tha ..lekin renu ko apni seemaye pata thi aur wo rohan ko aage nhi badhne deti . aaj ki din bhi roj ki tarah gujara ..rat ka khana khakar sab log t,v dekh rhe the ...sab logo ke khane ke bad renu apna khana lekar chhat par bane room me chali jati h ..wo yhi soti bhi thi sath me attached bathroom aur ek aur room thaa jisme ek T.V aur uske padhne ki books rakhi thi. ...sahil aur aarti ki nok jhok bhi chal rhi thi. thodi der bad .. rohan bolta h " mausi sabko khana khilati h aur mausi ko koi nhi puchhta ,,this is not fair.." "achchha itni fikar ha to ja tu puchh le apni mausi ko " uski mummy bolti h .. "haa.. haaa..puchunga hi jab aap log nhi puchhte " aur sab muskura dete h ..rohan uthkar chat par chala jata h . "mausi are aapne khana kha liya .. m to aapko puchhne aaya tha ki aur kuchh chahiye " rohan upar pahucha to renu kha kar let hi thi . "are orhan aao baitho ..nhi m apne khana sahi lekar aati hu . to kam jyada nhi hota " renu uthakar baith jati h .. "aap leti raho ...m to aise hi mjak kar rha tha..aap thak jati ho na mausi ..kitna kam karti ho aap " rohan uske bed par us se satkar baith jata h .. .. "renu thoda pichhe khisak jati h ..are nhi aisi koi bat nhi h .kam hi kya hota h ..bas banana khana." "rohan, aap bahut achchi ho mausi .". "achchha ,,kyu achchhi hu mai??? " "aap padhne me bhi achchhi ho, ghar ke sare am bhi karti ho ,sabka khyal rakhti ho ...aur aap itni khoobsoorat bhi ho ..shahr ki ladkiya to jara si bat par nakhre dikhati h ..lekin aapke andar kitni sadgi h " renu ko rohan ki muh se apni tarif achchhi lagi thi .".achchha to tumhe shaher ki ladkiya nhi pasand h " renu ne majak kiya . "mujhe to aap pasand ho " rohan bol hi diya aaj . "rohan ye kya bol rhe ho ,,,mausi hu mai tummhari " "meraa ..mt..lab.. tha ki aap jaisi gaon ki ladkiya pasand h ..." renu kuchh nhi bolti . rohan jaldi se uske pair pakad leta h ..."mausi plz mummy ko mat bolna ..aap sach me bahut achchhi ho " rohan renu ke pair pakad gdgdane lagta h .. "achha baba nhi bolungi ..ab mera pair chhodo " renu ne use pair pakde dekha tomuskurate huye boli. inhi sab bato me renu rohan ke sharir anjane me hi kafi pas aa gye the ...rohan ne uske pair par hath rakhe rakhe hi apna chera upar uthaya ...renu ke hoth uske hotho ke ekdam kareeb the . renu ke larajate gulabi rasile hoth rohan ke hotho se bas kuchh cm ki duri par the ...renu rohan ko itna pas dekhkar hadbada jati h ...use kuchh samjh me nhi aa rha tha jaise,,,rohan ko to mano man ki murad mil gyi..usne apne garm sukhe hoth renu ke madhure hotho par rakh diye...RENU ki aankhe band ho gye ..kisi ke bhi hontho ka yah pahle chumban tha un kamsin gulabi pankhudiyo pr...renu ko mano hosh hi na ho ...rohan ke saso ki garm use pighla rahi thi ..salo se bachayi yauvan ki daulat aaj chhalak padi thi .. rohan renu ke madhur hotho par apne hoth aur jibh pherne laga aur uski jeebh renu ke mukh me ghusne ki kosis karne lgi ...rohan ab thodaa confident ho gya tha aur renu ke sar ko pakadakr use achchi tarah se kiss karne lga ... renu ke hoth fadfada rhe the ..rohan ke hotho ka mano virodh kar rhe ho..aur rohan unhe ab dhhere dheere chusne kga tha upar se hi .. rohan ne ek hath se renu ke seene ko chhupaye dupatte ko hata diya ..renu ke suit ke gale se jhankti uski safed chuchiya aur unke bich ki gahri ghati rohan ko pagal banaye ja rhi thi ... rohan ko lga ki renu apne hoth nhi kholegi aur usne apna hath renu ke unnat ubharo par rakh diya aur unhe neeche se hath lagakar sahlane laga mano un bhari santro ko taulne ki kosis kar rha ho ...renu ne abhi tak rohan ka koi sath nhi diya tha lekin virodh bhi nhi kiya tha ..wo mano behoshi ke alam me th ...jawani k dahleez par khadi us sukumari ko mard ke ango ki pahli chhuvan ne madhosh kar diya tha . sahil uski dono chuchiyo ko bari bari sahla rha h aur sath hi uske komal najuk labo ke shahad ko chatne ki kosis kar rha tha.. rohan se ab bardash nhi ho rha tha usne renu ke chuchiyo ko halka sa dba diya aur renu ke muh se aah ki siski nikal gyi ..rohen ne mauka tada aur apni jeebh uske muh me dal di aur uske hotho ko dba kar chusne lga aur hatho se uski chuchiyo ko rgadana bhi jari rakha . renu ko ab ye sab achchha lag raha tha aur usne bhi rohan ke sar ko pakadker uske hoth chusne suru kar diya ..dono ki muh ekdam ek dusre se locked the mano ekdusre ke hotho ko kha jana chah rhe ho . rohan renu ke nipple ko ab halka halka pinch kar rha tha aur uski urojo ko buri tarah se masal rha tha ..renu shayad ab virodh karne ki sthiti me nhi thi ...ek sanskari ladki jisne kabhi isa sochna bhi pap samjh aaj apne hi bhanje ke hatho apna jawani lutwa rhi thi . rohan ka hath ab dheer dheere ab renu ke pet ko sahla rahe the kintu renu rohan ke balo me hath dale abhi bhi uski jeebh chus rhi thi . rohan renu ke pet ko sahlata hua apna hath renu ke gol go salwar me kaid bhare huye nitambo par rakh deta h aur unhe sahlane lagta h.. rohan se ab bardash karna muskil ho rha tha ..usne apna hath aage ki or badhaya aur salwr ke upar se hatho ko renu ki " kuwari-kali "ke upar rakhkar muththi me daboch liya. "nhiiiii" renu rohan se chitkkar dur hat jati h renu ke liye shayad ye bahot jyada tha ,,use mano hosh aa gya tha ki ye kya kar rhi h wo aur kis ke sath. rohan ko dekhkar use apni galti ka mano aehsas ho gya ho ..renu phoot phoot kar rone lagti h ... "maine paap kiya h ...m papin hu ..hey bhgwan mujhe maut de do..main jeene laya nhi hu " rohan ke to hosh ud gaye the ..agr koi upar aa gya to kya jawab dunga . "mausi plz chup ho jao ..koi aa jayega " rohan renu ke kandho ko pakdkar samjhane ki kosis karta h. "door raho mujhse ..sab tumne kiya h...sab tumhari vajah se hua h " "mausi i m sorry ...plzz.." jao yha se " rohan sar ltka kar whi khada rhta h ... renu ko lgta h ki sachmuch koi aa gya to bahut bada anarth ho jayega .. wo siskane lagti h ..aansu lagatar bahe ja rhe the. "rohan tum jao yha se " wo rohan se gusse me bolti h . rohan wha se sar jhukaye chala jata h renu rote huye bistar par let jati h ..aur abhi bhi subak rhi thi ...iske jehan me sari ghatna kisi film ki taarah chal rhi thi aur sath hi sath ek sawal -- "kya sachmuch sab rohan ki hi galti thi " renu ke man me dwand chal rha tha ...ek taraf use lagta ki nhi jo kuchh hua usme meri koi galti nhi h aur dusri taraf ye bhi ki wo ye sab bardast q karti rahi ...rohan ke hatho ka sparsh use bura laga to usne rohan ko itna aage q badhne diya ..inhi khyalo me uski aankh lag gyi. subah renu uthi aur fir se apne dialy ke kamo me lag gyi...sahil uthkar kheto par apne papa ke sath chala gya tha ..jabki aarti aur rohan abhi bhi so rhe the.. 9.00am ke aas pas sahil kheto se wapas aata h..renu sab logo ko chai aur breakfast de chuki thi aur rohan ko usne aonu ma ke hatho bhijwa diya tha ...wo rohan ka samna nhi karna chah rhi thi aur uske man me abhi bhi whi dwand chal rha tha . sahil breakfast krke ,nahata ha aur fir ready hone lagta h ... sahil ki didi : are sahil tu kahi ja rha h ?" "ha didi wo mujhe university jana h apna certificate niklwane" "mama, m bhi aapke sath chalungi ,,,sab log to apne kam m lag jate h aur m bore ho jati hu ..plzzzzz" aarti ne itne pyar se kaha tha ki sahil ko mana karte nhi banta...par wo khud se ha bhi nhi kar sakta tha ..wo chup chap hokar didi ki or dekhne lagta h... 'le ja use bhi , ab wo kaun sa man jayegi mana karne par bhi ...teri ladali h ..har bat uski manta h tu tabhi itni farmaise karti h madm" didi thoda muskurate huye aarti ko gussa karti h... "ha ladali to hai ye meri aur hamesa rahegi" sahil bhi muskura deta h ...aarti khusi se uchhal padti h ..thank u mama, u r the best mama in the world" sahil nsa muskura kar rah jata h .. rohan aarti aur sahil ko jata dekh man hi man khus hota h "aarti abhi kitni der lagegi tumhe ..." sahil ne ghadi par nazar dalte huye tisri bar aawaz lagayi . "aa rhi hu na,, aapne kya itni jaldi macha rakhi h " ''ek ghante lagenge wha pahuchane me ..jayad late hone par bhid bhi badh jati h counter par ...jaldi karo " sahil ne kafi dhary rakhte huye jwab diya .. aarti kamre me taiyar ho rhi thi ur sahiil bahar uska wait kar rha tha ... "aarti lagbhag 15 min bad baher niklti h ...sahil us par ek nigah dalta h aur aage badh jata h ...ek to tum ladkiyo ko pta nhi taiyar hone me itna time q lagta h " "achchha to kya hme ladko jaise bas shirt pant pahnkar nikal jana hota h " aarti ne fauran jawab diya lekin fir apni bat par hi sharm se nazre jhuka liya ... sahil uski bat ko sunkar chup ho jata h..use pta tha uski aarti ke kahne ko wo matlab nhi tha .. ..aur bike lekar gate par aa jata h .. "didi hm ja rhe h " sahil gate par se hi aawaz deta h . "thik h jao aaram se jana aur kisi se ladai jhagda mt karna , bike dhhere chalana" mummy hm koi bachhe h ..aap bhi na "aarti sahil se pahle hi bol deti h ... "haa,haa tu to badi sayani h meri ma..jaa ab" didi aarti ki bat par har mankar bolti h .. aarti ne jeans aur top pahna hua tha ..balo ko khula hi chhoda tha ..jawani ki chanchalta aur alhadhpan se uska khubsurat mukhda jagamaga rha tha ..behad khubsoorat lag rhi thi ..leki aarti ne ye note kiya tha ki sahil kuchh ukhda ukhda sa lag rha tha ... aarti bike par baith jati h ..dono taraf pair karke ..sahil kafi aage khisak kar baitha tha . aarti kuchh kuchh bole ja rhi thi lekin sahil hu ha me hi jawab de rha tha ... aarti ko kafi gussa aa jata h "nhi sath lana tha to pahle hi bol dete " aarti gusse me boli . maine kab bola ki mai nhi lana chata tha " "to fir gussa q ho " "m q gussa hone lga tumse " "ha.... haa..mujhse q gussa hoge... mai hu hi kya tumhari ..mujhe nhi jana chalo wapsa mujhe chhodkar joa fir " hey bhagwan ...tu chahti kya h ..achcha sorry " nhi fir aap batao ki kya bat h " aarti wo...wo...wo.."" kya ..bolo bhi ." "mujhe tumhara gaon me jeans pahn na pasand nhi h..tum nhi janti yha university ka mahol thik nhi hota ...agar kisis ne kuchh bol diya tumhe to m bardasht nhi kar paunga " aarti ko kuchh pal samjh me nhi aata ki wo khus ho ya udas .. "sirf isliye ki log comments karte hya fir aapko jeans paahn na hi nhi pasand " " aarti m koi dakiyanusi khyal ka nhi hu ..lekin mujhe sach me tum paar suit jyada achchaa lagta h ...lekin mere achchha lagne se kuchh nhi hota ...bas jab tum gaon me aaya karo to jeans ghar me hi pahna karo " "to ye ghar par hi bol dete ..ab mai jeans nhi pahnungi...aur aapse kis ne bol diya ki aapke achchha lagne se koi fark nhi padta ...huu..batao to jara " "sach me to tumhe fark padta h " sahil ko bahut anjani si khusi ka ahsas hota h ..pahle bar kisi ko uski pasand napsand ki fikar thi "aur nhi to kya ..." aarti bina jhijhak ke bol deti h ." aise hi halki fulki bate karte wo university pahuch jate h. sahil ne us sal apna college top kiya tha ..so usko jan ne wale kafi the..lekin sahil kafi reserve rhne wala banda tha jyada kisi ko lift nhi deta ...aur kuchh use dost bhi aise hi mile jo sirf uska fayada uthate .. aart ko lekar sahil university ke andar chala jata h ..form bhar kar counter par jma karne ke bad use 2 hr bad aane ko kaha jaat ah .. sahil aarti ko lekar cantene ki taraf chal deta h ...kafi sare ladko ki nighahe aarti ki taraf uth rha thi..kcuhh use ghoor kar dekhte aur kuchh sahil ki kismat par rask karte .. sahil ka bas nhi chal rha tha ki ek ek ki aankhe noch le ...wo aarti ko kahi chhupa lena chahta tha ki ko use dekh bhi na paye .. aarti aur sahil cantene ke andar kakar baith jate h sahil aarti ki pasand ki kuchh cheeje order kar deta h sahil aarti ke sath cantene me baitha tha lekin use achchha bilkul nhi lag rha tha qki kuchh ladko ki nighahe use chubhti huyi si aarti ke jism par padti dikh hri thi aur anayas hi uska sar aarti ki chehre ki tarf uth jata h jo chowmin khane me msat thi ...aarti kitni khoobsoorat h ..uske dil ke tro ko chhed jati h uski ye soch .. aarti use apni or dekta dekhkar " kya hua ,,khao na ,,kya dekh rhe ho ? " "aaan..kuchh nhi " aur sahil bhi isi plate me se khane me lag jarta h .. wo sahil ko jaldi se jaldi wha se le jana chah rha tha. " kya mast mal h bhai" unke table ke bagal wale table par baithe ek ladke ke comments sahil ke kano me padte h..uska hath ruk jata h .. "haye kya hoth h lal lal...kya kismat h spoon ki jo sala andar baher ja rha h ..oh hoye " "abe sale to abhi hotho tak hi pahucha ...uski neeche ki himalaya ki pahadiya to dekh..jan hi le lengi aaj to ye " sahil ka khun khaul uth ta h unki bate sun kar ...aarti samjh chuki thi ki ab yha bahut jyada bat bigad jayegi ..wo sahil ka hath pakda leti h jo gusse se khada ho chuka tha "plzzzz....tumhe merri kasam " aarti sahil ko jabardasti khich kar wha se le jati h ...sahil ka mood bahut kharab ho chuka tha ... ab aarti use normal karne ki kosis me lag jati h .. "jane do mama ...unka yhi kam hi hota h ..har ladki ko dekh kar aise hi bolte honge ..aise logo ke muh nhi lagte.." "sale har ladki ko dekh kar bole chahe ...tumhe koi bol de ye mai nhi sahung aur tumhe kya ye bat bat par ksasm dene ki aadat pad gyi h ..tumhe q lagta h ki tum kasam dogi aur m man jaunga .." sahil apna sara gussa us massom ladki par nikal deta h jo use sabse pyari thi ..aarti ki ankho se aansu ki do bunde uske galo par ludhak jate h .sahil aarti ko kabhi nhi dant ta tha ...aarti suki chhed chhad chalti aur fir roothna manana ...jisme jyadatar sahil hi aarti ko manata ..par usne itni buri tarah kabhi use nhi bola tha .. "sorry ..pata nhi q lagta h ki aap man jaoge meri ksam dene par ...sorry ..ab kabhi apni ksam nhi dungi" aarti ko rota aur sorry bol ta dekh sahil ka sara gussa gayab h jata h ... "mai bhi kitna gadha hu ,,ise rula diya .bhala iski kya galti thi ...."sahil man me bahut jyada pachhtane lagta h.. "aarti plz chup ho jao sab log dekh rhe h " aarti apne aansu ponchhti huyi sahil ke sath aage badh jati h . ab dono me bat chit band thi ...aarti naraz thi aur sahil sharminda. "are sahil aap ...certificate lene aaye h kya ?"sahil is aavaz par mudkar dekhta h .. "hello shashi , kaisi ho aap ,,,ha usi liye aaya hu..summet nhi aaya h kya " "aaya h ..common haal me h ..bas aata hi hoga .....ye kaun h? " shashi nam ki us ladki ne puchha ,aankho me kafi shararat thi. "ye...meri bhanji h .aarti aur aarti ye h shashi meri classmate "" aur mai hu summet ..sahil ka classmate, dost......aur apni shashi ka eklauta boyfriend" peeche se aate ladke ne haste huye kaha. hello,nice to meet u all " aarti ne jabardsti ki muskan chehre par late huye kaha . "hmmm to sahil jee...bhanji ko university ghuma rhe h ...hm bhi soche itni khubsoorat ladki itne bore bande ke sath ..impossible..ha... ha.. ha.." summet ne tanj karne ke andaz me kaha .. "sumeet ??" sahil ne thode sakht lahje me kaha . aarti ko uskia sahil ko bor kana bilkul bhi psand nhi aaya tha aur wo janti thi ki sahil ko dost sab sirf matlab ke liye bolte h. "tu bhi na sumeet ..sahil par to kitni ladkiya apni class ki hi fida thi ...aur yad h apni sonam to sahil ko jee jan se chahti thi ..lekin sahil ne hi kabhi...." shashi ne sahil ek nagawari ko dekhkar bat adhuri chhod di . aarti ko jane q behad khusi ka ahsas ho rha tha ab aur sahil par fakr bhi . "hme niklna chahiye...tum logo ne to apne certificate le liye h ...mujhe abhi lena h ..chal aarti ..exuse me." sahil sabko bye bolta hua nikal jata h ..counter par uska nam bulaya ja rha tha ..sahil jaldi se jakr apna leaving certificte collect karta h aur aarti ko lekar parking ki or chal padta h . aarti abhi bhi sahil se thoda naraz thi .wo janti thi ki sahil ne kisi aur ka gusa uspar nikal diya tha lekin jis sahil ne aaj tak uski koi bat nhi tali thi , bachpan se jisko wo pure hak se apna samjhti thi ...aaj usne use buri tarah se dant diya tha... is bat ka use dukh ho rha tha ..wo jab bhi sahil ki or dekhte sahil nazre chura leta ..use pta tha sahil kafi sharmindaa h bas bol nhi pa rha ..lekin wo ek bar sahil ke muh se sun na chah rhi thi. sahil ki shakhsiyat ka ek aur rang aaj khula tha uspar ..uska majboot character. sahil ke peeche bike par baithe arti kafi chup thi . "aarti, naraz ho mujh se " aarti kuchh nhi bolti .. wo university se thodi door aur aage aa jate h ..ab bhid bhad kafi kam ho chuki thi aur sahil bhi kafi aaram se bike chala rha tha . "aarti ..plz kuchh to bolo " aarti fir bhi chup rhti h ..sahil jan chuka tha ki aarti us se sach me naraz h ..wo bike mod leta h aur pas ke ek khubsoorat park ki or chal deta h. "ye kaha chal rhe h ...mujhe ghar jana h " bas thodi der..mere liye ..plzz" aarti sahil ko mana nhi kar pati.. sahil bike park karta h aur park ki or badh jata h ..kuchh kadam aage badhne ke bad wo dekhta hi aarti abhi whi khadi h ..wo wapas jata h aur uska hath pakad leta h "..plzz" sahil ne pahli bar is tarah se aarti ka hath pakda tha ..arti apna hath chhuda leti h .. "thik h ..chaliye " sahil aarti ko lekar park me pahuchata h..park kafi khubssorat tha par is samy jyada log nhi the wha .sahil aarti ko lekar ek ped ke neeche baith jata h.aarti use ruthi ruthi si kafi pyari lg rhi thi ...ek aisa ruthna jisme ye chahat chhupi hoti h ki koi aap ko manaye aur aap jante h ki wo jarur manayega . sahil aarti ko ek tak dekhe ja rha tha jabki aarti sar niche kiye huye ghaso ko ukhad rhi thi . "mera gussa masoom ghaso par q nikal rhi ho " sahil ne use thoda sa aur chhed diya . aarti ne sar uthakar use ghura lekin boli kuch nhi . sahil " pta h tum jab naraj ho jati ho to aur bhi khubsoorat lagne lagti ho " aarti ne hairat se uthe sar uthakar dekha ..sahl ne kabhi uski tarif itne khule lafjo me nhi ki thi ...aur wo to kisi ki bhi sundarta ki tarif nhi karta tha. aarti ko ab sahil ko chheden me mja aa rha tha .wo janti thi ki sahil use manane ki kosis kar rha h ..wo use satane ke liye fir kuchh nhi bolti ... "aarti kuchh bolo na ..achchha i m sorry" "sorry kis bat ki .galti to meri hi thi ..kuchh jyada hi haq samjh liya tha apna aap par....jane q sochati thi apni kasam dungi aur aap man loge mera kaha ..mai hu hi kaun aapki..apko kya fark padta h bhala" ''aarti plz ..aisa to mat kaho .... tumse jyada mai kisi ko "manta " hu kya ...tu to meri gudiya h ...tum janti ho m gusse me tha ..tumhe koi gandi najro dekhe le to mn karta h uski aankhe noch lo ..aur wo kamine ...jane do ..chhodo un sab bato ko ..achchha maf nhi karogi to koi saza de do ..plzz.." aarti ko sahil ki bato par bahut pyr aa rha tha ..naraz to wo pahle se hi nhi thi qki wo janti thi sahil ne gusse me bol diya tha basss usko sataana tha ...jo wo hamesa karti ..sahil se apne naj uthwana use behad pasand tha ...bachpan se hi wo sahil par apna sabse jyada haq samjhti thi ...kis riste se ???? ye shayd use khud nhi pta tha ...lekin mama_ bhanji ke rishte se to nhi . "m aapse q naraj hone lagi bhala " mujhe pta h tum naraz ho ..aur tum ye janti ho na ki mujhe kisi ko manane nhi aata...ab man bhi jao sorry bol rha hu na ..dekho kan pakdkar sorry " sahil badi masumiyat se kano ko pakad leta h aur yachna bhri aankho se aarti ki or dekhne lagta h . aarti ko hasi aa jati h aur wo muskura deti h .."thik h par aapko mujhe ice cream khilani padegi " "abhi hajir h " sahil khus hota hua icecream wale ki taraf badh jata h . thdi der bad dono icecream kha rhe hote h ..dono ek dusre ke sath baithe the lekin thodi doori thi unke bich me . mama ek bat puchhu" "ha puchho " "wo ladki bol rhi thi kisi sonam nam ki ladki ka aap pr crush tha ...kya usne aap ko propose kiya ???.fir kya aapne use mana kar diya " "are chhodo wo to aise hi bol rhi thi " "nhi mujhe batao " ha mana kar diya tha " q??" " kya matlab q ?? kya ladke kisi ladki ko mana nhi kar sakte " " "ha bilkul kar sakte hai ..par kuchh to vajah rhi hogi ...??" "hmmm...wo meri type ki nhi thi " oh ooo...aapke type ki nhi thi ...dekhne me to itne bhole lagte ho ..aur ladkiyo ke type ka pta h aapko " aarti ko ek achcha point mil gya tha sahil ko chhedne ka . "ab tu meri tang mat khich ..tuu mere pichhe pad gayi to maine uhi bol diya tha " "achcha ..sorry...mama vaise aapki ki type ki ladki kaisi hogi ..matlab kis type ki ldaki aapko psand aayegi " "tu kya bol rhi h ...kya meri sadi ho rhi h jo tu mujhse meri pasand na psand puchh rhi h " sahil ne harat se aankhe chaudi karte huye puchha . plzz batao na ..mai kisi ko nhi bolungi ..promise ." aarti badi masoomiyat se bol deti h . "'koi aisi ladki jo mera sath kabhi na chhode ...mai aaj kya hu kal kya ban paunga ...kya achieve kar paunga ya nhi kar paunga ..in sab bate se jise koi fark na pade .." --sahil jaise sapno ki duniya me khio jata ha--- "aarti tujhe ek bat bolu.....pata nhi kaise log hote h jo kahte h ki ""break up"" ho gya ...fir kabhi kisi ur ke sath ""patch up"' ho gya ..yar pyar kya koi khel hai jisme har jeet ho ki ek bar har gye to fir se khelo aur jeet jao ..mujhe to ye lagta h ki jo sachha pya karte h wo ek dusre ko puri life pyar karte h chahe kabhi mile chahe na mile ..aur unka pyar kabhi nhi harta ..aur jisne pyar me dhokha de diya wo haar gya ...fie chahe kitni bar bhi pyar ka dawa kar le uska payr kabhi nhi jeet sakta ... pyar to ek bar hi ho saktta h aur usi ek bar me ya to wo haar kar hamesa ke liye mar jata h ya fir jeet kar amar ho jata h ...to fir log aisa q bolte h ?"' "q ki wo aap jitne achchhe aur sachche nhi hote " aarti jis par din prtidin sahil ki sakhsiyat apni chhap chhodti ja rhi thi mano uske se hi lahje me bol gayi . kyaaa??" "ha mama wo aap jaisa pyar karna nhi jante ...unhe nhi pta hota pyar kya hota h ...mama ???!" sahil uski aur prasnvachak najro se dekhta h ..."hu??" "aap bahut achche ho " aarti ne dil ki gahraiyo se sahil ki tarif ki "tu bhi bahut achchi h " sahil ne bhi use lahje me jawab diya ..\itna bol kar dono chup ho gaye the mano kahne ko kuchh bachha hi na ho . "aarti chalte h " "mama aap mere dost banoge...mujhse dosti karoge ???" aarti ne sahil ki aankho me dekhte hiye puchha. " "kya ?sach me ..??... kya tumhara bhi koi dost nhi h ??? sahil ko mano yakeen nhi ho rha tha ki aarti kya boli h ..ulte seedhe sawal uski juban se nikal gaye .. "hai to ..par aap jaisa koi nhi h " "aarti ek bat bolu tujhse ...mai jaisa lagta hu vaisa nhi hu ...m kosis karta hu bahut majboot dikhne ki lekin m bht emotional hu ...mujhe bhi ek dost ki kami bahut mahsoos hoti h ..lagta tha ki tu hi h wo ..lekin kabhi kah nhi paya ....kabhi ye dosti todogi nhi na??"" sahil kafi bhavuk ho gya tha . "aaapki kasam kabhi bhi nhi ,,chahe kuchh bhi ho jaye " -aarti ne sahil ka hath apne hatho me le liya mano use bharosa dila rhi ho ki duniya chae idhar ki udhar ho jaye..har koi apka sath chhod de par mai hamesa aapke sath rahung. sahil ki ankho se aansu abhne lage ..."" thank u aarti ..thank u so mach " "aap pure pagal ho ..idhar aao " aarti sahil ko apne seene se lga leti h .sahil ko aaj mano duniya bhar ki daulat mil gyi thi ...us pyare se riste ko jo ek mama bhanji ke riste se bahut aage nikal chuka tha aaj ek nam mil gyaa tha , ek nyi pahchan mil gyi thi aur sahil ko "EK DOST " mil gaya tha sahil aur aarti yuhi thodi der tak gale lage rahe ... sahil aaj sabkuchh bhol kar aarti ke seene se chipka hua tha ...dil me ek nyi khusi ne janm le liya tha ..aaj uski ladli uski dost ban gyi thi ..ek bharosa sa aa gya tha zindagi me .. "mama gahr chale " aarti janti thi ki sahil bahut khus h aur khus to wo bhi bahut thi .usne dusri bar sahil se puchha. "nhi" sahil ne sanchhipt sa jawab diya..aaj use bahut rona aa rha tha ..usi bate jo har kisi ko pravachan ya upadesh si lagti thi aaj life kisi ko is kadar bha gyi thi ..koi aisa tha jise un bato ki , un jajbato ki kadr thi ..koi tha jise uski kadr thi ,,,jise uski dosti ki kadr thi ...har bat use rula rhi thi ..lekin ye khusi ke aansu the. "aarti , tum aajtak meri gudiya thi ab meri dost ho ..kabhi ye dosti mat todna nhi to...." "bharosa nhi h mujhpar " aarti ne sahil ke chre ko pakad kar apne samne karte huye puchha . "huuum..boliye bharosa nhi h apne dost par ..apni dosti par ?" aarti ne uski tasalli karni chi . "khud se bhi jyada" ..sahil ne kaha aur fir uske gale lag gya. "achcha utho ,,, chalo ab ghar chalte h " aarti ne sahil ke balo me hath pherte huye kaha . sahil ne haa me sar hilaya aur dono uthkar bike tka aa gaye ..sahi ne bike start ki aur aarti baith gayi...sahil ke kandhe par hath rakh kar ..sahil ko apne dil me sukoon sa utarta hua mahsoos hua ..usne bike aage badha di.

UPDATE 6 sahil bedroom me rajai ke andar leta hua h ....vaise to bedroom me ek hi bed hota h par aarti ne kahlwa kar ek chhoti charpayi aur rakhwa di thi. aarti hath me oil ki botle lekar aati h aur sahil ke sirhane baith jati h ... sahil ke gale se lipta hua shawl nikalkar alag rakh deti h... "aarti rahne do m thik hu" kitno dino bad sahil ke muh se apna nam suna tha ..aarti ka dil jaise sihar sa jata h . wo sahil ki bat unsuni karke uske balo me tel lagane lagti h ... sahil k aankhe ek sunhare sapne ki aas me band hone lagti h..leki bas kuchh seconds ke liye ..achanak wo aamkhe khol deta h ..kahi fir se koi aisa sapna na dekh le ye aankhe jo toote to dil ke har hisse ko tod jaye ..sahil jaise sapne dekhne se darne laga tha . aarti jaise bina kahe hi sab kuch samjh jati h ..wo sahil ke sar ko halka halksa dabane lagti h...aur sath hi uske balo me hath ferne lagtti h... sahil ke jehan me atit ki bahut si yade aa rhi thi ...aarti ka bhi wahi hal tha ..leki wo ek dusre kuchh kah nhi rahe the ...achanak kuchh sochate schate aarti ki ungalliya sahil ke balo me rook jati h. "rook kyu gayi, karo na " sahil jais anjane me bol gya . aarti firs se hath chalane lagti h.. "tum thak gyi hogi ab rahne do "...sahil utne ki kosis karte huye bolta h.. aarti uska kandha pakdkar wapas use lit deti h.. thodi hi der me sahil ki aankh lag jati h....aarti uthane lagti h ki khane ka order kar de fir sahil ko jagaye ...achanak sahil ke hatho me aarti ki kalai aa jati h. Aarti pyar se sahil k taraf dekhti h ....wo abhi bhi gahri need me h ...... ek pal ko aarti ko lga tha ki sahil ne ye jan bujh kar kiya h .....par shayad jb wo baithi thi uske pas tabhi uska ek hath to sahil ke sar ki malish kar rha tha aur dusra jane kb sahil ke hatho me aa gye tha .... Aarti ko thodi mayusi hoti h ....aur sahil par bahut pyar bhi aata h ...wo aahista se apna hath chhudakar sahil ka hath uske seene par rakh deti h . Rat ke 8.30 baj chuke the ...aarti khane ka order de rhi thi ... Kuchh der bad kishor khana lekar aata h " didi khana hazir h " Kishor ki aawaz par darwazi kholti h aarti . Kishor aarti ko bahut manta tha bilkul badi behan ke jaise ....wo college me rahne wali ladkiya ki chhoti moti saman bhi laya karta tha ..sab use ek naukar ka darza dete lekin aarti use se bahut pyar se pesh aati .... Kishor apne chhote mote karch ke liye kbhi kbhi aarti se kuchhh udhar paise bhi le leta tha ... Aarti hi thi jis se wo thodi bahut bate kiya karta tha .... Didi ? " " Ha bolo " "Ye hamare hone wale jeeja ji h kya ??? " Kishor khane ki sari plate table par lagate huye puchhata h ...qki wo janta tha aarti bahut sidhi sadhi ladki h aur kisi gair mard ke sath ek kamre me rahna ...... "Bahut bolne lga h...bhag ja nhi to pit jayega aaj " Aarti use pyar bhari ghudki deti h ..kishor ki bat vaise bahut achchhi lagi thi use ... Kishor muskura deta h ..aur wapas jane ko mudata h . Sun " Jee didi "" Ha wahi h "" Aarti sharma kar bolti h . " Bahut achchhi jodi rahegi aap dono ki " Aarti fir se buri tarah se lja jati h .... Achchha ab ja tu " aarti sahil ko jagane ke liye jati hai "sahil,sahil " do bar bulane ke bad bhi sahil ki need nahi khulati. aarti halke se uske kandhe ko chhukar uthane ki kosis karti h....par sahil nhi utha ta lagta h sahil bahut gahri need me h" -aarti man me sochati hi ...fir wo uske upar kambal dal deti h aur khud pas me padi hui charpai par late jati h. aarti ki aankho se need koso dur thi jabki aaj yatra aur uske bad sab saman set karne me wo kafi thak gayi thi... ""sahil kitna badal gaye hai ...pahle kitni shokh aur hasmukh hua karte the ...mujhe aapne purane sahil k wapas lana h chahe iske liye mujhe kuchh bhi karna "'pade.. kya ye sab meri vajah se hua ...kya mai sach me in sabke liye jimmedar hu ???? "kash sahil mai tumhe bata pati us samay , to aaj hm ek dusre se itne door n hote..itne sal ek dusre ke bina na gujarate.....ya fir ....sahayad hm kabhi nhi mil pate...shayad aaj mai jinda hi na hoti..... mujhe shayad tumhe bata dena chahiye tha....lekin mai nahi bta saki jan ...qki...... nahi sahil mai ab wo sab sochana bhi nahi chata ..bahut bhayanak din the wo ...ab mai kabhi wo din yad nhi karna chahti." aur aarti ki ankho me aaansu aa jate h.. "lekin maine apne zindagi ke sabse khoobsoorat din bhi tumhare sath gujare h ..tumhari vajah se gujare h.....tumne mujhe jindagi ki har khusi di aur maine ????..." "kash ek bar tum mujhe fir us roop m mil jao...kash wo din fir wapas aa jaye...kash mera wo pyara dost wapas aa jaye......sahil wo nadi ka kinara , wo gaon ka bagicha , wo jharne ki kal kal , wo bachpan ki ladai ...wo roothana wo manana...... tumhare sath bitaya ek ek pal ...sb bahut yad aata h jan....." aarti ki aankho se jhar jhar aansu bahne lagte h aur wo apne nanihal me bitaye khubsoorat dino ki yado me kho jati hai........... station se ghar pahuchane ke bad sab log ka milna milana hota h..... rohan ki nazre apni mausi Renu par chipak jati h... 'gaon ki gori' ye sabd uske muh se nikalte niklate rah jata h...jawani ke dahleez par khadi apni mausi ko wo dekh kar dang tha ..gaon ki ladkiyo me ek khas bat hoti h ..unme ek alhadpan hota h ,,adaye masoomiya se bhari hoti h aur chere par tazgi ki chamak hoti h.. Rohan Renu ke ubharo aur uski sakhti ka anuman uske suit aur uspar pade duppate ke upar se bhi laga leta h... " mausi ki jawani to jan leva h ...chalo achchha hi h ..gaon me din achchhe bitne wale h " wo man me sochata h. "mummy mujhe ghumne jana h... khet dekhne h ..." "beta ab ma to jane se rahi aur teri nani ke ghutano me bhi dard h..nana jee market gaye h ..agr koi jaye to chali ja " "rohan chal na " "kheto me kya rakha h , mai nhi ja raha" rohan to abhi bhi mausi ke husn me hi busy tha . renu ne use apne boobs ko ghurate mahsoos kiya ..parapna bhram samjhkar ignore kar diya tha. areee tu apne mama ko liva le na..bachpan se to uski ladli rahi h...wo thode na mana karega tumjhe " nani ne kaha. tabhi sahil kamre me aata h ... "mama mujhe khet dekhne h ..plzz chalo na mere sath" "mujhe padhna h " are chala ja na ..wo kaun sa yha par zindagi bhar rahegi ..fir padhte rahna " nani ne ghudaki lagai ..jabki aarti rone jaisi shakal bana chuki thi. "thik h chalo " "renu tu bhi chali ja na " "nahi didi abhi bahut kam karne h" " thik h jao tum dono " chalo mausi mai aapke sath kithcen ka kam karwat hu ...renu muskura kar rasoi me chali jati h aur sahil aarti ke sath kheto ki or rohan Renu ke pichhe rasoi me chala jata h ...aur waha rakhe patre par baithkar apne jugad me lag jata h ... "mausi aap kitna kam karti ho " jab bhi gaon aata hu aap ko bas kamkarte hi dekhta hu " " are gaon me to sabhi ladkiya aise hi kam karti h aur fir apne ghar ka kam h " "vaise ye apka apna ghar to nhi h " " q, kyu nahi h mera ghar ? "renu thodi tunak kar puchhati h.. "are apak ghar to wo hoga jab aapki sadi hoga aur hamare mausa jee apko le jayenge doli m " 'dhattt ,,tu kaisi bate karne laga h...didi ko bataungi sab " " are ..lo...isme kya galat bol dya ...aap to shadi ke layak abhi se lagne lagi ho " is bar renu sharmAa jati h .. "hi daiya ...tum shaher ke ladke kitne gande hote ho ...aur koi bat nhi aati tum logo ko " ab rohan chup ho jata h is dar se kahi bat bigad na jaye ... REnu is samay aata guth rahi h aur uske kuchh bal jude se nikalakr aage ki or aa rhe the ..wo hath me aata lage hone ki vajah se unhe kandhe se pichhe karne k asfal kosis kar rhi thi.. tabhi rohan aage badhakr uske balo ko pakdakar pichhe kar deta h...uska hoth renu ke gale ke bilkul pas the ..aur achanak se uske hoth renu ke gale se chhu jate h...renu ka pura badan sihar jata h ...pahli bar kisi mard ke hotho ka sparsh hua tha uske komal jism par. "sorry mausi wo mera pair fisal gya aur balance bigad gya tha ..." renu nagwari se uski or dekhte huye ..."it's ok''plz tum jao yaha se " par m to wo ...." "plz jao abhi " "thik h jata hu " "hmmm itni asani se hath nhi aayegi ye kamsin jawani ki haseen moorat ..koi bat nhi baby...ek din khud meri baho me aakar apne husan ko mujhse lutawaogi " rohan bahar sochata hua baher chala jata h.. "kya rohan ne wo jan bujhkar kiya tha ...lekin uski bat sach bhi ho sakti h ..haa wo sach hi bol raha hoga ..itna bura to nhi ho sakta ....hmmm...kya mujhe uska chhuna achha laga ....issss.." is sawl par khud hi renu confuse si ho jati h. idhar sahil aur aarti kheto ki or chal dete h ..na jane q sahil ko aarti ke sath chalna bahut achchha lag raha tha ...ladli to wo uski bahut pahle se thi lekin ab wo badi ho gayi thi to sahyad sahil ke man me chhupe pyar ne sharm ka roop le liya tha " mama, aap itne chup kyu ho" "nhi to "...dono kheto ke bich bani pag dnadiyo par chalte ja rahe the . " achchha to m paagal ho j aisa bol rahi hu? " pagal hu matlab..koi aaj ki pagal h ..tu to bachapan se hi pagal h " sahil bhi ab thoda mood me aane laga tha ..use lagne laga thi ki ye to wahi meri purani aarti h.sahil use chhed raha tha. achchha .......thik h fir aap mujhse bat mat karna ...koi paglo se bat karta h kya" aarti bhi tunak kar boli...sahil se naaj uthwana uski purani aadat thi aur sahil bade pyar se uske sare nakhre utha ta tha. 'ha ye bhi bat bhi sahi h..to kitne dino tak bat nhi karenge ?" sahil ne use aur chheda . aarti is bar tap gayi puri -" hamesa ke liye" aur tunak ke teji se aage badhi.. sahil ne uska najuk kalai tham liya " pagal tu muhse bat nhi karegi to m jee kaise paunga" aarti ne mudkar sahil ki ankho me dekha...sharm, haya aur dher sara pyar tha un aankho me ...lekin ye pyar lad pyar wala pyar tha ..ek ladki aur ek ladke ke bich ke pyar ka rang kuchh aur hi hota h . sahil khud nhi janta tha uske muh se ye sabd kaise nikal gaye..wo sharminda sa khada tha jaise koi gunah kar diya..par aarti ka hath nhi chhoda tha abhi ...aarti ko us par bahut pyar aaya "to fir mujhe itana tang kyo karte ho ..huuu bolo" "ab nhi karunga ...lekin mujhse aisa kabhi mat ruthna ki kabhi bat na karo" "aur agar ab aap ko m tang karne lagu to ???" sahil ko serious hote dekh aarti ne thoda sa chhed diya use .. "'chudail.... mujhe pata tha tu isiliye mujhe khet layi h ,,,,hamesa khud mujhe tang karti h aur fir sara dosh mujhpar hi dal deti h " aarti kilkhila kar has deti h uski bat par ..aur fir dono hatho me hath dale aage ki or chal dete h. "mama chalo udhar chalte h " dono hatho me hath dale kheto ke bich ghum rahe the jab aarti ne door dikhai de rahi ek pahadi ki taraf isara kiya. lekin fir hame der ho jayegi " "abhi to bahut time h .plzz chalo na" aur sahil muskura kar ha me sar hilata h ..." thik h chal." sahil bachpan se h aarti ki har jid puri karta h ...kisis bhi bat par dono ki bahes ho bhi jati to man na sahil ko hi padta ...aarti ke hatho harna mano usk sabse badi jeet hoti thi ...kyoki us jeet se aarti ke chere par jo khilkhilahat aati thi uske liye sahil hazaro har bardasht kar sakta tha . dono vaose hi ek dusre ka hath pakde do azad panchhiyo ki tarah pahadi ki dusri taraf pahuchh jate h ...pahadi ki god me ek chhoti si nadi pathro ke bich kal kal karti bahti thi ...pani bahut hi saf tha jaisa ki pahadi nadiyo ka hota h ... aarti nadi ko dekhkar bahut hus hoti h aur daudati hui jakr ek teele par baithkar pairo ko pani me dal deti h ... "aao na ..dekho pani kitna thanda h " sahil muskurata hua uske pas jakar khada ho jata h .. "baith bhi jao m koi kat nhi lungi aapko" sunsan jagah , pahadiyo ke bich bahti ek pyari si nadi aur ek masoom si akeli ladki ke sath ...sahil ko thoda ajeeb lag raha tha .. lekin fir bhi wo aarti ki bat mankar uske pas baith jata h ..apne pair pani me dalkar ... aarti apne pairo se uske pairo ko dhakka deti h ...sahil bhi javabi karwayi karke use thoad sa dhakka de deta h ..is bar aarti use jor ka dhakka deti h ...sahil bhi uske pairo ko pani me hi dusri or dhakelne lagta h ...aarti ka balance bigad jata h aur wah girne lagti h ... sahil jaldi se lapakar uski kamar me bahe dalkar apni or khichata h aur aarti uske seene se lag jati h...sahil ko apne seene me uski naram ubharo ko ahsas hota h aur sath hi ek galti ka bhi ...wo jaldi se uthkar khada ho jata h " sorry " sahil bolta h 'kis liye " aarti uski uljhan samjh jati h ..aur muskurate huye puchhati h. "wo ...wo....kuchh nhi ..chalo chalte h .". "baitho na thodi der aur " aarti fir jid karti h ..sahl baith jata h leki is bar us se door dusre patthar par. "mama,aapki koi girlfreind h" "kyaaaa ????" sahil hairat se uski or dekhta h "arrrrreeee..aise q react kar rhe ho..ha ya na bas bata do " "tum ye sab bate karti ho ..kuchh padhne likhne ki bat nhi kar sakti..waise meri ko gf nhi h ..faltu ke kam h ye sab " "kya hamesa padhai..ab m yaha apni vacation spend karne aayi hu ..fir to jakar padhna h" sahil bas muskura deta h . "achcha aapki gf q nhi h " "'q nahi h matlab ???...bahut sare logo ki nhi hoti ...ye koi voter id ya ration card ho jo hona hi chahiye " aarti ko hasi aa jati h uske jawab par . "are mera matlab tha ki koi pasand nhi aayi ya...aap akele rahte ho jabki aapne to college bhi kar liya " "to college kya gf ke liye jate h ????" aur m akele hi achchha hu " "achcha aapka koi dost nhi h " "hai na ...sare class ke hi h ..aksar wo sab mujhse question puchhne ya notes lene ghar par bhi aate hai.. matlab aate the ..ab to college nhi jana " sahil pahle bade garv se batata h fir thodi udas ho jata h ..vaise ye sach tha sahil ko koi aisa dost nhi tha jo use sach me dost samjhe ...qki sahil padhne me kafi achchha tha to aksar sab us se apna kam nikalwate ..sahil kafi bhola tha ..usi ko dosti samjh leta. "to fir wo aapke dost kaha huye..wo to bas aapse apna kam nikalwate h...aise dosto aur unki dosti ka kya fayada. " "chalo wo mujhe apna dost nhi mante to na sahi ..par m to unhe dost manta hu na ...aur dosto ka to kam hi hota apne dost ke kam aana " sahil apni dhun me bolta jata h . "aur janti ho jab kisi ko dost man lo ya kisi se payr karo to fir fayada nuksan mt socho ..bas apni dosti nibhate jao .. rishte bahut anmol hote h..aur agar rishto me fayada nuksan aa jaye to fir wo rishte bemol ho jate h " aarti ek tak sahil ke chehre ko take jati h ...kitni gahri bat kah di thi sahil ne .

UPDATE 5 jeevanvatika kafi bada bana hua tha . thodi thodi door par bunglow jaise kintu unse chhote ghar bane the aur har 4_5 gharo ke madhya ek bagicha. agr koi ek ghar me rahe to dusre ghar wale se koi matllab bilkul nhi h. yeh is bat ka dhyan rakhkar banaya gya tha ki jo bhi yha rahe uska kisi dusre se kisi tarah se disturb na ho. generally log apni family ke kisi memebr ke sath hi aate the aur agar aavshyakata hoti to r bhi mil sakte the . aarti apne college ki sabse achchhi student rahi thi , aur uske colege ke dwara hi yeh chalaya jata tha .. to yha par aarti ki bahut achchhi jan pahchan thi. room tak pahuchate pahuchate sham ke 5 baj gaye the .sardiyo ka musam hone ke karan andhera ghir aaya tha . aarti ne jo "ghar" liya tha wo kafi kinare bana hua tha ..second floor par unka sara set up tha . jeevan vatika ki location is tarah ki thi ki aane wala har insan khud ko nature ke bahut karib mehsus karta ... sahil thik to ho gaya tha lekin abhi bhi kafi kamjori thi .aarti aur sahil ke bich abhi ek deewar thi .dono ek dusre se vaise bilkul bat nhi kar paa rahe the jaise barso pahle karte the - jab wo do jism ek jan hua karte the . aarti janti thi is deewar ko use hi girana h ..aakhir ye deewar banai bhi to uske hi berukhi ne thi. sahil washroom se fresh hokar nikla tha jab uski nazar sofe par aadhi leti si aarti par padti h . aarti bahut thak gayi thi aur uski aankh lag gayi thi. aarti ne woolen suit pahena hua tha jiske upar se sweater aur fir overcoat ..ek shawl uske kandhe se jhul rahi thi . gulabi patle hoth , ghani palke ,kali ,lambi ghani julfe jiska kuchh ansh uske choti se nikal kar galo ko choom raha tha... surahidar gardan aur unke niche wo everest ki do chotiya ...uff kisi ka bhi iman dol jaye is pari ko dekhkar. "huh ..aaj bhi utni hi masoomiyat h is chehre par ..uff ye masoom chehre" sahil ke dil me ek tees si ubharti hai. "didi chai laya hu" kishor ki aavaz par aarti hadbada kar uth jati h aur sahil ko khud ko dekhte pakr halka sa muskura deti h...sahil jaise chori karte pakda gya ho is tarah se nazre jhuka leta h . aarti darvaza kholti h... " kishor kuchh khane ko nhi laye ho ,,bahut bhookh lagi h par m bolna bhool gayi " "laya hu didi, mujhe laga hi tha aap log bhukhe honge " aur ye kahkar wo puri trolly andar kar deta h jis par dher sari cheeje khane ki rakhi thi . "thank u kishore " kishore bas muskura kar rah jaata h aur bahar nikal jata h . aarti chai bana kar sahil ki or badha deti h aur kuchh snakes bhi .sahil chup chap cup pakad leta h . thank you"" sahil ke muh se nikal jata h . "ab itni parayi ho gyi hu m" " m jhuthe sapne nahi dekhta ..sachchai ka samna karna sikh liya h maine " sahil itna bolkar wha se uthkar jane lagta h ..aarti uska hath pakad leti h . "plz jao mat m kuchh nhi bolungi agar tum nahi chate to " sahil tumne sach ka samna abhi kiya hi kaha h ..wo to maine kiya h jan - aarti apne man me ssochati h aur aansu ki do boonde uske galo ko bhigo deti h jinhe wo badi safai se chhupa leti hy "ek bat pucchu " sahil ne kah tumhe mujhse ijajat lene ki jarurat h ???? " ha , kya pata kaun si bat kise buri lag jaye ." " puchho" " " tum mere liye ye sab q kar rhi ho" "sahil !!!!!!" aankhe dab-daba gayi aarti ki..kya sahil mujhse ye sawal nhi kar sakta h. .. kya hamre bich itni doori ho gyi h , kya m ab inki kuchh bhi nahi. aarti sahil ki aANKHO ME EKTAK DEKHTI H..mano uski nazro se sawal kar rhi ho ki kya ye sawal sach me uske sahil ne puchha tha .. sahil nazre chura jata h. "batao na " "tumhare liye nahi apne lye kar rhi hu, is se jyada mujhse kuchh mat puchhna ." sahil uth ar dining room me aa jata h aur wahe rakhe bade se sofe par baithkar channel badal kar T.V dekhne lagta h . aarti sahil ke kapde nikalkr rakhne lagti h... aur fir kuchh garam kapde lekar sahil ki or chal deti h . " ye kapde pahen lijiye ..pahado ki sardi rat ko bahut badh jati h " wo kahte huye uske pas jati h . sahil ke chehre par dard ke bhav the ...aur wo apne mathe ko halka halka daba raha tha . "kya hua sar dard ho rha h " sahil chup rahta h. "chaliye andar yha hawa lag rhi h..m sar daba deti hu " "nahi mai thik hu" "sahil agr aapne yahi man liya h ki mai aapki kuchh nhi lagti to thik h ..ek Dr ke nate mera farz h apne patient ki dekh bhal karna ..so plz mera kaha maniye ..aur andar chalye " sahil ek nazar aarti par dalta h jo bade gusse me lag rhi thi...wo chupp chap kambal lapete andar ki or chal deta hy.