INTIQAAM (Chaar Shola Series: Part 1)

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CHAPTER 20: “Zawal”

 

Insan ko khud pe bara ghumand hota hay.
Sab kuch jab aap ki dastaras mein ho, tou aap khud ko dharti pe khuda se kam nahi samajhtay. 
Lekin har urooj ko zawal hay.
Jitni bulandi pe aap puhnch jatay hain, wahan se girna, utna he takleef de hota hay. Jismani aur zehni tor se aap ko sashdur kardeta hay. Bhonchkay se reh jatay hain. Jis bulandi pe parwaz karnay kay aap aadi ho chukay hotay hain, wo parwaaz jab na rahay, tou aapki auqaat zameen pe reegnay walay kisi pust himmat keeray se bhi bad tar hojati hay. 
Urnay walay, aksar chalna bhool jatay hain.

Mujhay nahi maaloom kay main kab tak andheron mein qaid raha.
Meri ankh khuli tou main ne khud ko Zara kay room mein mojood usi bean bag pe aarha tircha daraz paya. Mera sair peechay kisi mez se takraya tha. Jis ki chot ka ahsas mujhay ab ho raha tha. Jism mein uthti teesain agarchay is waqt qadray kam theen lekin phir bhi mujhay shal karnay ko kaafi theen. Main yaqeenan ye dard sehnay ka qatai aadi na tha.
Girta parta main bean bag se utha, aur kisi kursi ka sahara letay huay khara hua. Bistar pe Rida aur Komal be sudh pari theen. Unkay chehron pe purkaif asaar thay. Main ne time dekha tou pata laga kay main koi 1 ghanta tareekiyon mein ghira, behosh para raha tha.
Bari mushkilon se khud ko yakja karkay main washroom gaya aur apnay aap ko fresh kar kay bamushkil tamam apnay kapray pehnay. Rida aur Komal ko jaga kar phir najanay kis tarah main unko lekar neechay aya aur Azam Gul kay saharay gaari mein beth kay ghar ko rawana hua. Gaari chalanay mein bari dushwari ho rahi thi, isi liye main ahsita chala raha tha. Shukar hay kay shaam dhalay, roads pe traffic qadray kam tha. Komal peechay bethi sar jhukaye huay aik tissue se apni ankhain ponch rahi thi. Us ne jaagnay kay baad koi baat na kee thi. Rida jabkay apni jinsi asoodgi haasil karnay kay baad qadray relaxed thi aur passenger seeth mein dhansi hui apnay mobile pe lagi hui thi. 
Main bilashuba ajeeb see halat mein tha lekin main ne har mumkin koshish kee thi kay main apni bigri halat ko un pe ayaan na honay doon. Main un kay samnay khud ko kamzor zahir nahi karna chahta tha.
Ghar puhcnhay tou Rida ne mujhay hanstay huay kuch kaha aur phir apna saman letay huay, Komal kay galay mein baanhain daalay huay apnay room ki janib ho lee. Us kau jatay he main bari mushkil se gaari se utra aur apnay room kay sath walay room mein ja ghusa. Mujhay is waqt tanhai darkaar thi. Huma se main abhi kuch nahi kehna chahta tha. Saath walay room mein wesay tou Farhan sota tha, lekin filhaal udhar koi na tha. Main udhar paray aik sofay mein dhans gaya aur ankhain band kartay huay main ne dil he dil mein Yusuf ko awaz dee.
“Yusuf... yaqeenan tumko ilm hoga kay is waqt meri kia halat hay... ye sab... ye sab kia horaha hay Yusuf?” 
Main zehn mein yeh baar baar repeat kiye ja raha tha.
Wesay tou yusuf foran se respond karta tha lekin filhaal doosri janib khamooshi he rahi. 
“Kidhar ho bhenchod!? Kahan maray ho???”
Meray zehn ki awaz ab meray labon pe agayee aur main burburanay laga.
Phir kuch lamhon ki khamooshi kay baad aik awaz ubhri.
“Shani...”
Ye Yusuf tha.
“Kahan chalay gaye thay!??? Jawab kyun nahi de rahay?” 
Main ne ghussay se kaha
“Ghussa na karo Shani...” Yusuf ki dheemi see awaz ayee
“Main janta hoon kay tum kis halat se guzar rahay ho. Tumhara dard mujh se chupa nahi...”
“Kya horaha hay mujhay? Aur kyun ho raha hay?”
Main ne taqreeban cheekhtay huay sawal kia.
“Sabar karo Shani... waqt pe aitibaar karo, sab bata dia jayega...”
Yusuf ne hasb e mamool paheliyaan bujhwayeen.
“Mujhay pata hay kay tum kuch jantay ho... meri is halat kay baray mein. Kia Akasha mujh se peechay ho rahi hay? Kia us ne meray sar se apna haath kheench lia hay? Batao Yusuf!!”
Main ne bacho ki tarhan pe dar pe sawalaat daaghay.
“I’m sorry meray dost, tumharay is ‘kyun’ ka jawab denay ki ijazat nahi hay mujhay. Jo cheezain Akasha tumko bata sakti hay, wo main kesay bata sakta hoon...?” Yusuf ne kisi bebasi se kaha.
“AAhhh... kesi na insafi hay ye... halat meri kharab hay... kia mujhay sach jannay ka haq nahi?” 
Main ne shikway bharay lehjay mein kaha tou Yusuf ki awaz meray zehn mein ubhri.
“Sabar karo... aur ye mushkil waqt guzaro. Akasha jald he tumko koi sadd e baab bataye gee... Na umeedi ko khud pe na taari karna, Akasha is kathan samay mein tumko akela nahi choray gee... aitibaar karo us pe...”
Yusuf ne Akasha kay tattay uthaye.
“Dafa ho jao... kisi kaam kay nahi tum!” Main ne usko ghussay se barkhast kia.
“Buht acha. Dafa ho raha hoon. Abhi tum ghussay mein ho... aram karo aur bardasht karo... ye shuruaat hay. Main aas paas he rahoonga.”
Itna keh kar Yusuf ki awaz ghayab hogayee.
Kanjar, madarchod sala! 
Main ne ghussay se bharay lehjay mein zer e lab usko bura bhala kaha aur phir bamushkil uth kay apnay room mein ja ghusa.

Room mein enter hua tou dekha kay Huma khirki kay paas lagi sofa seat pe bethi bahar dekh rahi thi. Uski shakal pe khauf aur nidamat bhari hui thi.
Mujhay larkharata andar ata dekh kar wo uthi aur us ne mujhay pakar kay bistar pe litaya.
“Kia hua Shani?” US ne poocha aur phir apna hath meray mathay pe lagaya.
“Uff, tumko tou sakht bukhaar hay!”
Huma harbarayee aur phir us ne bahar naukar ko awazain deen.
Mera hosh jata raha aur main aik baar phir tareekiyon mein doob gaya...

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Khwaab, aur azaab. 
Acha waqt kisi khwaab kee tarha aapki zindagi mein kayee rang gholta hay, aapko duniya ki zeenaton mein panap kar khushi aur gham ka farq bhula deta hay. Zamanay ki pecheedgiyon mein gum, aap ye bhool jatay hain kay ye khwaab aik din hawa bhi hona hay. Sirf aap kay khayalon mein aik achi aur sunehri yaad ki tarha jalta bujhta rehta hay. Aur sach tou ye hay kay  reality, ya haqeeqat kay samnay aik din aap ghutnay tekay huay is khwaab kay suroor se bedaar hotay hain. Aur phir haqeeqat kay azaab jheltay hain. Jo zindagi ka sach hay. 
Bananay walay nay zindagi kay utaar charhao ko waqt kay teer se is tarah jora hay, kay guzartay lamhon mein, unkay lutf mein, ahsaas mein , aap haqeeqat se nata tor bethtay hain. Aur jab haqeeqat apna khofnaak sar uthati hay, tou aap desperate hojatay hain, usi khwaab ko dobara jeenay mein. Us lutf ko wapas hasil karnay mein. Aur yahi wo khoj hay jo humari zindagi mein behtari kay hasool ki lagan ko barhati hay. 
Negative kay baghair positive kuch nahi.

Main najanay kitnay samay tareekiyon mein gumm raha.
Akasha ki benazir taqatain, meray saath zarur theen. Main unko feel kar sakta tha... lekin lagta aisa tha jesay wo meray paas hotay huay bhi, meri puhnch mein na hon. Jesay aik andekhi rukawat in herat angez taqaton ko mujh se duur rakh rahi hon.
Buht arsay baad beemar para tha. Main shayad beemaar honay ka ahsaas bhula betha tha. Main yaqeenan mafooq ul fitrat tha, aam insaon wali zindagi ka ahsaas mujh se kafi arsay se duur ho chuka tha. Lekin is waqt, main sab mehsoos kar raha tha. Dard, bebasi, besabati.

In tareekiyon mein ghoomtay huay mujhay apnay maazi kay jharokon se kayee roshniyaan aati dikheen. Apnay ma baap ki, bhai ki, us zindagi ki jo Adeel Chacha kay anay se pehlay thi. Masoom see, bayniyaaz see zindagi. Mujhay rona ata tha, dil chahta tha kay waqt ko thaam kar uska dhara ulat doon. Maazi mein chala jaon aur kabhi wapas na aaon. Bhola aur sada shareef sa Shahnawaz ban jaaon jisko haqeeqat ki in hasharsamaniyon ka ilm na ho. Magar in hee sochon mein mujhay sunehri roshniyon mein dhalay kayee wajood nazar atay thay. Jo mujh se kisi na fehm see zaban mein batain kartay, jhiraktay aur meri halat pe qehqahay lagatay. Main bulandiyon se girr raha tha. Azaab ki khayee mein.

Huma batati hay kay mein poora aik din bukhaar mein mubtila, thatharta, sisakta raha. Aur koi 24 ghantay baad meri ankhain, tareekiyon se nikal kay roshnion se baghalgeer hueen... 

“Main kahan hoon...?” 
Dhundhli roshniyon ko meri ankhon ne adjust kartay huay mujhay apnay room ka manzar pesh kia. Aur meray 24 ghantay mein pehlay lafz honton se niklay.

“Tum apnay kamray mein ho Shani... shukar hay tumko hosh agaya...” Huma ki awaz mujhay itni khubsurat lagi kay dil chah raha tha kay abhi usko galay se laga loon aur usko lekar is kaal nagri se duur chala jaon. Hamesha kay liye.
Huma , Rida aur Jana teeno meray itraaf khari theen aur samnay aik adher umr sa shakhs betha mujhay dekh raha tha.
Main ne usay pehchannay ki koshish ki tou mujhay yaad aya kay ye Dr Qambar thay. Hamaray family doctor jo Huma ki pregnancy mein bhi usay consult kar rahay thay.
“Kesi tabiyat hay Shani?” Unhon ne poocha tou mein ne apni kamzorion ko qaboo kartay huay mushkil se jawab detay huay aik sawal kia
“Behtar... lekin.... kia hua tha mujhay?” 

 “Kuch keh nahi saktay abhi... tumharay jism mein shadeed kamzori hay aur tumhain pichlay din 104 bukhaar raha hay... abhi jakar shayad kuch zor toota hay tou tumko hosh aya hay...” Dr sahab ne explain kia.

“Oh...” Main ne uthnay kee koshish ki tou unhon ne mana kartay huay kaha
“Abhi aram karo... shayad shaam tak tumko thori jaan ajaye gee...” 
Phir wo Huma ki janib mutawajja huay
“Yakhni pilayen inko... kuch taqat aye... ghabranay ki koi baat nahi... mosami bukhaar bhi ho sakta hay. Aik baar thora behtar feel karnay lagain, tou phir inkay test karwayen gey...”
Dr Qambar ne hidayat denay kay baad mujhay dekha aur muskuraye
“Relax karo... jaldi na karna kuch karnay ki... jaan pakro thori phir baat karengay...”

Unhon ne itna kaha aur phir ijazat chahi.
Huma ne unka thanks kia aur unko room kay door tak chornay gayee. Unki pusht meri taraf thi aur main unko jatay dekh raha tha. Wo shayad Huma ko kuch aur hidayaat bhi de rahay thay. Normal see baat thi, magar is doran achanak se Dr Qambar ne aik ajeeb andaaz se apni gardan 180 degree kay zaaviye par meri janib ghumaayee aur unki ankhon mein aik sunehri see chamak ubhri. Unka chehra kuch ajeeb wehshat zada aur khofnaak sa hogaya. Unkay lab holnaak se andaaz mein hilay aur jesay kisi aur kay zer e asar unhon ne aik anjani seherzada see awaz mein kaha. Sirf mu khula tha aur us mein se alfaaz ubhar rahay thay!
“SISTER SARAH TUMKO YAAD KAR RAHI HAIN....SCHOOL JAO!”

Mujhay apni samaat aur basarat pe lamhay bhar yaqeen nahi aya. Ye Dr sahab ko kesay is baray mein pata hay?  Mujhay herat aur khof ne gher lia
“Dr Sahab kia kaha aap ne?” 
Main ne harbaraty huay qadray zordar awaz mein taqreeban cheekhtay huay kaha tou jesay sara manzar change hogaya. Dr Qambar, Huma se batain kartay ruk gaye. Unki shakal pe na wo wehshat thi aur na wo wesa khofnaak tha. Kia main ne jaagti aankhon phir koi khwaab dekha tha??

“Kia hua Shani?” Huma ne poocha.
“Dr Sahab bus tumharay liye kuch hidayaat de rahay thay...”

Rida aur Jana foran meray pe jhuk kar meray kandhay sehlanay lagay.
Dr Qambar ne mujhay aisay dekha jesay main koi zehni marez hoon.
“Koi baat nahi, 24 ghantay baad hosh aya hay, shayad abhi bhi koi bhayanak sapna inkay zehn mein phir raha hay.... Acha main chalta hoon...”
Unhon ne muskuratay huay kaha aur phir Huma ko dekhtay huay bahar chalay gaye.
Ufff.... kitna ajeeb tha ye sab. Kia waqai main ne Dr Qambar ko wo kehtay huay suna tha ya ye sab meray dimagh mein tha. Ya phir Sister Sarah mujhay koi message bhijwa rahi theen. Yusuf... kidhar hay Yusuf?
Meray zehn mein kayee sawal ubhar rahay thay.
Main ne dobara lait kar ankhain band karleen. Dimagh saayen saayen kar raha tha aur jism mein sakht dard.
Rida aur Jana meri teemaar daari mein masroof hogayeen aur main aik baar phir tareekiyon mein doob gaya...
Meray dimagh mein Dr Qambar kay zariye bhijwaya hua Akasha ka message ghoomnay laga.

Shaam ko meri ankh khuli tou qdray behtar mehsoos kar raha tha.
Huma se baat cheet hui, Rida aur Jana se bhi. Khurram ka pata chala kay wo 2/3 baar aya tha jab mein behosh tha aur phir wo raat ko mujhay chck karnay ka bol kar kaheen kaam se chala gaya tha.

Main ne yakhni pi, khana khaya tou meri thori jaan mein jaan ayee.
Huma mera bharpoor khayal rakh rahi thi aik ideal biwi ki tarha.
Kuch afaqa hua aur Rida, Jana apnay apnay rooms mein chalay gaye tou tanhai mein main ne sab cheezon kay baray mein sochna shuru kia. Yusuf ghayab tha. Us ne jesay hamari last conversation kay baat se mujh se rabta tor liya tha.
Main in hi sochon mein gum tha kay Huma room mein enter hui. Uska haseen chehra bujha bujha sa tha.
“Kesa feel kar rahay ho ab?” Us ne meray paas bethtay huay poocha aur meray mathay pe haath phera. Uski awaz mein aik afsurdagi see thi.
“Behtar, buht behtar...” Main ne uth kar bethtay huay jawab dia.
“Thats good... main tou pareshaan hogai thi... buht ajeeb sa ho raha hay sab kuch...” Huma ka lehza buht bhara hua tha.
“Kia hua???” Main ne kureda. Kuch sahi nahi lag raha tha mujhay.
“Kuch nahi... abhi tumhari halat sahi nahi... phir bataon gee...” Us ne baat badalni chahi, lekin wo apni awaz ka malaal na chupa saki.
“Batao Huma... main buht behtar feel kar raha hoon...bukhaar toot gaya hay....”
Main ne uska haath thaam kar usay dilasa dia tou yakdam uski ankhon se ansoo chalak paray.
“Shani...” Wo rotay huay boli.
“Kia... kia hum ne sahi kia?”
“Kia matlab?” Main ne foran pareshani se poocha
“Mera matlab... kia hum ne Adeel kay saath sahi kia? Kia hamaray hathon pe uska khoon hay? K....kia jis tarah main ne tumharay bhai ki maut mein aik krdaar ada kia tha... usi tarha Adeel ki maut main bhi mera haath hay? Kkkk... kia main mujrim hoon Shani?” Wo phoot phoot kay ronay lagi.

Ah... yaqeenan kuch sahi nahi tha. Jis tarah meri taqatain mujh se duur hogayeen theen usi tarha shayad mera Huma kay zehn pe control khatam ho raha tha... usko wo sab yaad araha tha jo nahi ana chahiye tha...

“Huma...” main ne zabt kartay huay kehna shuru kia
“Adeel chacha ne jo bhi kia... uska sila bhugta... wo tumko use kartay thay... mujhay bhi... aur Khurram ko bhi... tumhara unki maut se koi link nahi... wo deserve kartay thay ye....”

Huma ne meri taraf dekh kar ansoo ponchay aur badastoor rohansay lehjay mein kehnay lagi
“Mujhay lagta hay kay main ne Adeel ko mara hay.... main hoon uski maut kay peechay. Aur tumharay bhai ki maut kay peechay bhi. Asal muharik, asak zariya main hoon....”

“Nahi Huma... please aisa mat socho.... tum pregnant ho... ye sab uski waja se ho raha hay... tumhari sochin, jazbaat mein muntashir ho rahi hain.... aisa hota hay... tum ne kuch aisa nahi kia jo tum ne jaan boojh kay kia ho.... tum se sab kuch karwaya gaya tha. Adeel chacha ne tumko istimaal kia meray bhai ko phasanay mein.... aur unko apnay is kiye ki saza mili.... aur kuch nahi...”
Main ne usay samjhaya.
“Abhi apna khayal rakho... aur is anay walay mehmaan ka bhi...” Main ne itna kehtay huay halka sa uskay pait pe hath phera.
“Shani...” Us ne rotay huay kuch aur kaha
“Wo... wo ajeeb soorat wali aurat mujhay.... mujhay phir se nazar ayee thi.... aur wo meray pait ki taraf ishara kar kay hans rahi thi... kia main pagal ho rahi hoon Shani? Mujhay khauf anay laga hay.... buht ziada.... wo mujhay le jayegi!”
Huma ne kaanptay huay bataya aur phir se ronay lagi.
“Huma daro nahi..” Main ne uska matha chooma
“Meray hotay huay koi bhi tumko kuch nahi kar sakta... ye sab tumhari imagination hosakti hay... main tumko kuch nahi honay doonga!” Main ne baray confidence se kaha tou Huma kuch ruktay huay apnay khubsurat chehray se ansoo ponchnay lagi.
“Thank you Shani... tum sahi hojao jaldi se please....”
Huma ne fake see hansi kay sath apna huliya sahi kia aur phir hum dil behlanay kay liye batain karnay lagay.
Main dil mein Sister Katherine ko kos raha tha kay ye kesi muhafiz hay meri jo meri biwi ko is tarah dara rahi hay. Main janta tha kay Miss Naheed ki tarha Akasha Huma ko le jaye gee. Aik din. Sister Sarah mujhay bata chuki theen. Mujhay samajh nahi araha tha kay main kia karoon? Jhootay dilasay de de kar Huma ko main ne kuch behtar tou karlia tha lekin hqeeqat main janta tha. Mujhay bataya gaya tha aur hidayat kee gayee thi kay main Huma se duur rahoon aur ziada attach na hoon. Lekin wo meri biwi thi aur us ne mera bara sath dia tha. Main kesay usko bachanay ki tadbeer na karta? Kia Miss Anaya ko in sab cheezon ka ilm tha? Haan mujhay un se contact karna chahiye. Aur 100 feesad Sister Sarah se bhi milna chahiye. Baat karni chahiye. Girgirana chahiye Huma kay liye. Haan! Aisa he karoonga! Mujhay Dr Qambar kay zariyay bhijwaye gaye message ka yaqeenan koi maqsad tha. Main baat karoon ga! School jaonga dobara!
Is doran raat hogai. Khurram bhi kuch lamhay ko aya aur mera ahwaal pooch kar dobara basement office mein apni randiyon kay paas chala gaya.
Yumna, lekin is pooray scene main mujhay nazar nahi ayee. Kia usko pata chal gaya tha kay main ne anchooi Komal ki jawani loot lee thi? Kaheen wo kuch karay gee tou nahi? Hazar tensions theen.
Batain kartay huay phir aik waqt aya jab Huma neend ki wadiyon mein utar gaye aur main akela palkain jhapkata raha aur in sochon mein ghaltaan raha.

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Subha hui aur meray jism mein taqat kafi hadd tak laut ayee. 
Main ne khud uth kar neechay jakar sab kay sath nashta kia. Yumna nazar na ayee lekin baqi sab thay. Baat cheet hui sab se. Meri tabiyat sab ne poochi aur mujhay behtar paa kar sab khush huay.
Nashtay kay baad main Farhan kay room mein gaya tou dekha wo betha kuch khel raha tha. Us ne mujhay dekh kay aik smile dee aur dobara apnay games mein busy ho gaya. Yusuf yaqeenan uskay wajood mein nahi tha.
Kahan mar gaya gandu?!
Main ne usko dil mein gaaliyan deen aur room se bahar aya aur neechay janay laga kay achanak samnay se Yumna kay room ka door khula aur Yumna chehray pe karakhtagi liye namoodaar hui. Main ne usay dekha tou us ne shadeed nafrat se dekhtay huay mujhay aik do gandi gaaliyan nikaltay huay mukhatib kia
“Randi kay bachay! Marr kyun nahi gaye tum? Pagal khanay ki gandagi!”
Yumna shadeed tesh mein thi.
“Zaban sambhaal kay baat karain Yumna!” Main ne tunak kay jawab dia.
Yumna ne ghussay se kapkapatay huay apnay room ka door zor se khola aur mujhay andar anay ka ishara kia.
Main ne idhar udhar dekha. Agar rahdari mein he main us se baat karta tou yaqeenan porray ghar mein awaz jaati.... yaqeenan wo bhi yeh nahi chahti thi isi liye apnay kamray mein bula kay mujh se baat karna chahti thi. Ho na ho, ye Komal wala mamla lagta tha.
Main jaldi se uskay room mein ghus gaya aur Yumna ne darwaza band kar kay meri taraf khoonkhaar nazron se dekha.
“Kia bakwas kar rahi theen aap?” Main daant peestay bola
“Bakwas?.... Kanjar kay bachay mujhay sab pata chal gaya hay!”
Yumna taqreeban dhaari.
“Kia kiya hay tum ne Komal kay saath?! Kesay uska kanwara pan cheena tum ne? Himmaty kesay hui tumhari?”
Oh tou akhir pata chal gaya usay kay main ne uskay armano pe peeshab kardia tha. Chalo acha hua, usko tapanay ka maza ayega.
Lekin aglay he lamhay Yumna ne apni jeb se phone nikala....
Ye Rida ka phone tha!
“Komal ko kharab kar rahay ho... aur saath mei Rida ko bhi????? Kitnay zaleel ho tum? Bachiyon ko isitmaal kar rahay ho tum????!!!”
Yumna ne itna kehtay huay Rida kay phone mein whatsapp pe mujhay bheji gayee shopping mall kay changing room wali pictures dikhayeen!
Oh fuck! Rida ne ye pics delete nahi keen?
“Tu dekh ab!” Yumna dhaari
“Tu ne meri bachi ko apnay ganday haath lagaye! Anay de Khurram ko... teri botiyaan karwa doongi! Wo tujhay kuch bhi samajhta ho.... lekin apni beti kay saath teri is harkato ko kabhi maaf nahi karay ga! Bara shoq hay na tujhay kanwari larkiyon ki masoomiyat cheennay ka? Mujhay tou hamesha se yaqeen tha kay tera ganda khoon humain ganda karay ga! Haram nasal!”
Yumna dhaar rahi thi aur meray peron se zameen nikal rahi thi.
Main janta tha kay Khurram Rida se buht pyaar karta hay, aur wo mujhay bata bhi chuka tha kay Rida off limits hay, uskay saath kisi ne kuch kia tou wo usay jaan se maar dalay ga....
Lekin is se ziada bara masla ye tha kay Safdar aur Anaya ne apni saari tayyari karli thi. Agar is waqt Yumna ne Khurram ko ye sab bata dia tou sara khel chopat hojayega! Kuch dino mein hee raid parnay wala hay aur Khurram ko is baat se kaheen shakk na hojaye!
Kia karoon????
Main ye sochta hua Yumna ki jhaar sunay jaraha tha.
“Khamoosh kyun ho? Saari chalakiyan hawa ho gayeen na? Ab Khurram tumko tukray tukray kardega! Meri beti ko chodnay ki himmat kesay hui teri madarchod!” Wo ye keh kay mujh pe jhapatnay wali thi kay main peechay hua aur jhuktay huay foran uskay peron mein girr gaya.
Akasha ki taqatain meray paas nahi theen lekin mera dimagh meray paas zaruur tha. Gadhay ko baap banana tha is waqt.
“Yumna, aap jo bhi karain meray sath, main tayyar hoon... lekin please Khurram ko ye na batayen. Mujh se buht bari ghalti hogayee.... main bhool gaya kay main Rida kay sath ye sab nahi karsakta tha...”
Yumna ne apnay per peechay kar kay aik zor kee laat meray seenay pe raseed ki.
“AAahhh...” Main dard se bilbila kay peechay gira
“Kam nasal! Jis ne tujh pe ahsaan kia usi ki beti ko chid dia tu ne???? Aur ab maafi mangta hay? Teher ja....”
Yumna ye keh kay agay barhi aur jhuk kar us ne meray gaal pe aik zor ka thappar raseed kia!
Uska hath chapp gaya hoga meray chehray par.
“Nahi choroongee tujhay! Buht chalak banta hay na? Komal ko napaak kia tu ne aur phir Rida ko? Madarzaad namakharam! Anay de Khurram ko aaj! Teri maut ka tohfa doongi tujhay aaj. Tera ganda khoon baha kar tujhay teray kanjar ma baap aur bhai kay paas bhej doongi tujhay!!!!”
Ghussay se uskay mu se jhaag nikal raha tha.
“Pehlay meri behen ko warghala kay phansaya aur ab meri beti pe doray dalay ga?????!”
Wo latain chala rahi thi aur main us se bachtay huay farsh pe ghoom raha tha.

Phir wo ruki aur us ne apnay baal sahi kartay huay meri taraf thooka.
“Nikal ja ab yahan se aur raat ko apni maut ka intizaar kar! Tera khel khatam!”

Main already beemari se utha tha aur uska aik aik hamla, aik aik waar mujhay apni rooh tak mehsoos ho raha tha. Main aam insaanon ki tarha dard seh raha tha. Khaak mafooq ul fitrat!

Main kapray jhaarta, karrahta hua utha aur Yumna ko dekhnay laga.
“Dafa hoja bhenchod!” Yumna dhaari aur us ne darwazay ki janib ishara kia.
Main shikasta sa hokay utha aur darwazay tak khud ko ghaseet-ta hua le gaya. Aik lamhay ko meray zehn mein jhamaka sa hua.
“Yumna...” Main ne darwaza kholnay se pehlay uski taraf gardan mori.
“Chup karo aur dafa hojao!” Wo badastoor ghaseelay lehjay mein boli
“Main janta hoon kay aap ko Komal se kia kaam tha jo aap ne usko parson raat yahan rukwaya tha...”
Main ne dabi awaz se kaha.
“Tu jo bhi janta ho... mujhay koi parwah nahi.... Komal meri manzoor e nazar hay... ja jakar sab ko bata.... mujhay koi asar nahi parta.... magar tu tou gaya aaj!” US ne dant peesay.
“Main kisi ko kuch nahi batanay ja raha... sirf aik guzarish kar raha hoon... main ne Komal ka kanwara pan le kar kar aap ka program kharab kia aur Rida ko warghalaya... main maanta hoon ye sab.... lekin main...”
Main keh he raha tha kay Yumna ne meri baat kaati.
“Kitni dhittai se aitiraaf kar rahay ho bhenchod? Tujhay ab koi nahi bachata, tu laakh bakwaas karlay! Chal Nikal!”
“Aik minute Yumna... meri sirf aik baat sun lein phir aap ko haq hay jo chahay karain...” Main ne apni acting kay tamam johar dikhatay huay kaha
“Mujhay koi safai nahi chahiye..... lekin phir bhi bolo.... tumharay akhri alfaaz samajh kay sun leti hoon tumhari bakwaas..... jaldi bolo is se pehlay kay main tumhara tentva khud daba doon!”
Yumna bhaprai hui thi.
“Main sharminda hoon kay main ne ye sab kia.... lekin main is ghalti kay badlay... aap kay liye agar kuch aisa kardoon jis kay baad humara hisaab barabar hojaye... tou kesa hay?” Main ne usay kuch lalach sa dia
“Kiaaaa?! Mujhay khareednay ki koshish kar raha hay tu madarchod? Aisa kia kar sakta hay tu meray liye? Mujhay tera paisa nahi chahiye..... main 10% ki maalik hoon bharway! Samjha??!?!” Yumna ne mujhay dhutkara
“Kia de sakta hay tu mujhay? Apni chutiya zindaqi kay khatmay ki khabar kay ilawa?” Wo haqarat se hansi 
“Aisa kuch... jis kay husool kay liye aap kayee saalon se koshish kar rahi hain...” Main ne uska ghussa ignore kartay huay apna jumla adhoora chora
“Hain?” Yumna ko kuch kuch hairat hui
“Kia bakwas kar rahay ho? Dimagh sahi hay? Mujhay teray Pagal khanay ki gandagi nahi darkaar! Bara aya mujhay kuch denay wala.... offer marnay wala chutiya!”
“Sochain Yumna...” Main ne badastoor dheemay andaaz mein kaha
“Main apni ghaltiyon ka khamiyaza ada karna chahta hoon... Buht qeemti cheez de sakta hoon is kay badlay mein aapko!”
“Bakwas kar raha hay.... maut ko samnay dekh kar gand phat gayee teri? Awl fol bak raha hay! Bhala kia de sakta hay tu mujhay?”
Yumna kay lehjay mein haqarat aur nafrat ki ameszish thi
Main ne ahista se darwaza khola aur usko teekhi nazron se dekhtay huay halkay se kaha...
“Main aapko Jana de sakta hoon...” 
Itna keh kar main uska reaction dekhay baghair room se bahar nikal gaya.

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Apni taraf se main ne Yumna kay agay aik aisi offer rakh dee thi jo usko kuch na kuch sochnay pe majboor karsakti thi. Lekin mujhay abhi bhi darr tha kay kaheen wo ghussay mein meri offer ignore kar kay Khurram ko phir bhi sab kuch na bata bethay aur saray kiye karaye pe... Anaya aur Safdar ki,  FIA kay logon ki mehnat pe, meri waja se paani na  phir jaye.
Main ye sab sochta neechay lawn mein agaya aur bawarchi se aik cup coffee ki request kar kay lawn mein beth gaya. Coffee ayee, aur main ne uski chuskiyan letay sab cheezon pe ghor karna shuru kia. Phir main ne phone nikala aur Miss Anaya ko milaya.
“Hello darling!” Miss Anaya ki awaz ayee
“Hello...” main ne kaanpti awaz se kaha.
ANAYA: “Meray shehzaday... tum kesay ho? Tumhari awaz ko kia hua...?”
ME: “Pata nahi miss Anaya... kia ho raha hay.... buht ajeeb hay sab....”
ANAYA: “Ah... batao mujhay sab kheriyat hay na?”
Main ne A to Z sab unkay goshguzaar kia. Apni halat, Yumna aur Khurram, aur AKasha ka anhona message.
ANAYA: “Ufff! Ye sahi nahi hua! buht ghalat hua! Tumhari beemari ka reason shayad main jaanti hoon... foran! Shani, foran se pehli fursat mein school aao... Shayad Sister Sarah kuch kar sakain... Aisa pehlay kabhi nahi suna main ne.... Akasha ki taqatain tum se kesay rooth sakti hain...????”
ME: “Main nahi janta miss Anaya... lekin main apnay andar sunehri roshni ko mehsoos nahi kar pa raha... mera control sab cheezon pe.... logon pe khatam sa horha hay...”
ANAYA: “Ghabrao nahi... main tumko pareshan nahi dekh sakti aur .... aur jis cheez kay liye saalon mehnat ki hay.... usko bigarta hua bhi nahi. Milo, jald milo school mein.... Sister Sarah se mashwara karti hoon main...”
ME: “Shukriya... aap meri sachi kherkhwaah hain.... aap please meri madad karain...”
Main taqreeban girgiraya
ANAYA: “Main kuch karti hoon Shani... fikar na karo...”
Uskay baad phone rakh dia gaya.
Jahan mujhay miss Anaya se baat kar kay kuch sakoon mila tha waheen mujhay herat bhi thi kay yoon tou Anaya ko sab khabar hojati thi lekin Akasha ki taqaton kay mujh se rooth janay ka ilm unko bilkul bhi na tha...
Main ne aik do baar Yusuf ko mukhatib kia lekin koi jawab na aya.
Main coffee khatam kar kay andar ko chal para. Kitchen kay paas mujhay Rida khari hui nazar ayee. Uski hawaiyyan uri hui theen.
“Shani bhai....” Us ne ghabratay huay sargoshi ki
“Mama ko sab pata chal gaya hay.... Komal ne... that bitch! US ne sab bata dia mama ko... aur wo wo mera phone bhi le lia unhon ne... us mein...”
“Haan Rida...” Main ne uski baat kaati
“Main jaanta hoon...”
“Oh fuck.... ab wo daddy ko bata dengee aur phir....im so scared Shani bhai!”
Rida bokhlai hui boli.
“Kuch kartay hain. Dont worry... main try kar raha hoon kuch...” Main ne usko khali sa dilasa dia.
“Shani bhai...” 
Rida ne aik dam idhar udhar dekhtay huay ajeeb se lehjay mein kaha
“Agar unhon ne daddy ko bataya tou main... main khud keh doongi kay main aap kay saath rehna chahti hoon.... aap agar mama ki behn se shadi karsaktay hain tou mujh se kyun nahi?”
Rida ne bachpanay ki ghaseeli zehniyat ka muzahira kia
“Relax Rida, ulti seedhi baat kar kay please mamlay ko aur kharab na kardena!” Main ne usay tanbeeh ki
“Shani bhai... meray paas aik plan hay...” Wo Kitchen ki enterance ki oont mein hotay huay boli.
“Kia?” Main ne sawaliya nigahon se usko ghoortay huay kaha
“Daddy late night se pehlay nahi ayengay... humain chahiye kay un kay anay se pehlay hum mama ko maar detay hain... lets fucking kill her!” Us ne junooni andaaz mein kaha aur counter per se aik churi utha kay lehranay lagi.
“Pagal hogai ho?” Main uski is extreme thinking pe heraan sa hogaya.
Akasha ki roshni ne uski personality change zarur kardi thi lekin ab mera us pe se kuch kuch control khonay laga tha. Wo apni personality kay tareek hisson mein kho rahi thi aur ye sab yaqeenan sahi nahi tha!
Main ne uskay haath se churi cheeni.
“Ulti seedhi kuch harkat na karna!” 
Main ne dheemay lekin sakht lehjay mein kaha
“Shani bhai... tou aur kia karain? Mama sab kharab kardengi... wo hamesha sab kharab kardeti hain! Ayen, unko maar kar is maslay se hamesha kay liye chutkara hasil karlain!”
Wo seherzada see bolay ja rahi thi.
 “Aik kaam kartay hain...” 
Us ne phir se mujhay dekhtay huay chamakti ankhon se kaha
“Hum mama ko murder kar kay Huma aunty pe sara ilzaam daal detay hain... daddy Huma ko bhi maar dengay aur phir... ”
“Bakwaas band karo!” Main ne usko jhinjhora.
“Bewaqoof larki, ye socha hay kay uskay baad kia hoga? Police case banega. Hum sab jail jayengay!” Main ne ghussay se usko uskay bachpanay ki planning ka anjaam batanay ki koshish ki. Yaqeenan Meri taqaton kay na honay kee waja se uskay dimaghi hejaan ko balance nahi mil raha tha. Wo Yumna pe ghussay aur Huma se jealosuy kay zer e asar shadeed extreme batain kar rahi thi.
“Mujhay nahi maloom! Mujhay buht ghussa araha hay!” 
Wo junooni lehjay mein boli.
“Kuch nahi karo... mujhay hal nikalnay do!” Main ne sakhti se kaha
“Uffff... main mu noch loongi mama ka!” Wo chillanay lagi.
“Awaz neechi karo... kia sabko batana hay?” Main ne uskay mu pe haath rakha
“Shani bhai... fuck karain mujhay... warna main pagal hojaongi!” Us ne jhat se meray trouser kay ooper se mera lund pakar lia.
“Is waqt jaan kay lalay paray huay hain. Tumhari bewaqoofi ki waja se! Aur us Komal ki waja se! Aur tumko fuck karnay ka bhoot sawar horaha hay?” Main ne ghussay se usko phir se jhinjhora aur duur dhakeltay huay ooper janay laga.
“Apnay aap pe control karo... warna nuqsaan hoga! Mujhay handle karnay do!” Main ne jatay jatay usko kaha
“Agar nahi hua tou yaad rakhain main Daddy se nahi darti, kisi se nahi darti... aaap se bhi nahi! Main maar daloongi mama ko, Komi ko... aur daddy ko... aur Huma ko! Aap mujhay ignore nahi karsaktay aisay! Mujh se ziada control nahi hoga ab!” Wo jhunjhlaye huay andaaz mein bay rabt bolay ja rahi thi.
Itna keh kar wo per ptakhti hui bahar chali gayee.
Main ne pehli baar Rida ka ye roop dekha tha. Ufff! Agar Akasha ki taqatain wapas na ayeen tou ye larki apna dimagh kho bethay gee aur kuch nayee afat le aye gee.
Kuch samajh nahi araha tha. Yani Komal pe bhi meri taqaton ka asar narm par gaya tha... us ne sab bata dia Yumna ko! Ye akhri saboot tha is baat ka kay Akasha ki taqatain mera sath chor chuki hain. Ye purisraar beemari usi ka nateeja thi, ye sab kuch jura tha! Ah... kash main na us haramzadi ko chodnay ka khayal apnay dil mein lata, aur na ye sab hota!
Khair, jo ho chuka tha usay badla nahi ja sakta tha, mehe tadbeer ki ja sakti thi. Magar mera dimagh kuch theek se soch nahi pa raha tha. Akasha ki roshni jis surrut se meray dimaghi faislon ko jumbish deti thi, mujhay uski adat par gayee thi. Main ulajh kay reh gaya tha isi waja se. 
Aik taraf Huma pagal ho rahi thi aur doosri taraf Rida. Yumna ka khauf alag khaye ja raha tha. Najanay Jana ki kia halat hogi? Kia meri taqaton ki adam mojoodgi ne sab kay zehn muntashir kardiye hain? Mera dil chaha kay Jana ko check karoon jakar lekin phir main ne socha kay najanay uska bhi koi dimaghi fatoor na ubhar aya ho. Is waqt meray dimagh ki itni capacity na thi kay main aik aur masla handle karsakoon. Wesay bhi raat honay wali thi. Khurram kay anay se pehlay pehlay mujhay kuch karna tha!
Main ye sochta ooper puhncha aur apnay room mein janay wala tha kay Yumna kay room ka door khula aur us mein se Yumna baramad hui. Us ne mujhay ghoor kay dekha aur andar anay ka ishara kia.
Uff! I hope kay Jana kay husool ki tharak uskay ghussay pe ghalib agayee ho.
Main dabay paaon uskay room mein enter hua.
“Bargain karnay ka buht shoq hay na tumko?” Us ne meray andar atay he tanzia andaaz mein kaha.
“Yumna kia aap ne meri offer pe ghor kia?” Main ne uskay tanz ko ignore kia aur ankhain nicha kay poocha.
“Tum kis tarha se keh saktay ho kay Jana khud ko meray hawalay kardegi itni asani se? 5 saal se main try kar rahi hoon.... aik nazar bhi nahi bhaati main usko!” Yumna ne daant peesay.
“Yumna...” main ne tehrtay huay lehjay mein kehna shuru kia
“Kia aap ne nahi dekha kay Jana meray isharon pe kesay amal karti hay? Agar aap ko manzoor ho tou main ye asani se kar sakta hoon. Khurram ko please aap kuch na batayen. Main sab kardoonga aap kay liye. Jana ko hazir karna aap mujh pe chor dein...”
Yumna ne mujhay terhi nazron se dekha.
“Hmmmm....” Wo boli
“Mujhay buht ghussa hay tum pe. Hamesha se.... zeher lagtay ho tum mujhay. Aur meri beti ko choonay kay baad tum ne meray ghussay ko aur bharka dia hay.”
Wo itna keh kar apnay bed pe beth gayee.
“Ye sach hay kay main aur Khurram, Adeel ko barson se Jana kay husool kay liye push kar rahay hain... Adeel usko kisi tarha America se le tou aya lekin usko is kaam pe amada na karsaka....”
Wo ruki aur us ne bed ki side table pe pari aik wine ki adhi bottle utha kay apny honton se laga lee. Aik bara sa ghoont bharnay kay baad wo phir se boli.
“Kia guarantee hay kay Jana meray zer e asar rahay gee? Aur kia tum ne usay bhi choda hay? Apna ganda paani chora hay us mein Komal ki tarha??”
Wo nafrat se mujhay dekh rahi thi.
“Jana kay saath main ne aisa kuch nahi kia... sirf uskay beghairat boyfriend se uska peecha churaya hay...” Main ne safaid jhoot bola
“Main janta hoon kay aap ko aur Khurram uncle ko, Jana kitni shiddat se chahiye. Fikar na karain... meray paas usko apkay control mein denay kay liye is se behtar moqa nahi.”
Meri baat mukammal honay pe Yumna ne aik lamhay ko lazzat say bhari aik aah lee. Shayad wo Jana ko apnay neechay imagine kar rahi thi.
“Mujhay mardon mein koi interest nahi, samjhay? Aur agar tum Jana ko meray hawalay kartay ho, tou mujhay uskay exclusive rights chahiyen! Main nahi chahti kay meray paas hotay huay koi ghaleez mard usko chuay!”
Us ne aik aur ghoont bhara aur mujhay jesay hukum sadir kia
Jo waday main ne Khurram se kiye thay, wohi main ab Yumna se karnay wala tha. Meri thori jaan mein jaan ayee kay mera teer nishanay pe betha.
“Understood. Main Khurram ko iski bhinak bhi nahi parnay doonga.” Main ne foran se kaha.
“Hmmm...” Wo sochnay lagi. 
“Kia tum ne kabhi Khurram ko ye peshkash nahi ki? Sach sach batana warna mein Khurram pe tumharay sab pol khol doongi!” Wo sakht andaaz mein kehnay lagi.
“Sach kahoon tou unhon ne aisa mujh se nahi kaha. Adeel chacha se meray samnay shayad koi dhaki chupi baat isharatan zaroor ki thi is baray mein .... lekin mujh se nahi....” 
Usko amada hota dekh kar aik baar phir mera confidence chalaknay laga. Aik baar phir meri acting skills ronuma hoyeen. Main usko kaafi convincing andaaz mein aitimaad mein lena chahta tha.
Yumna ne aik lamba ghoont lekar wine ki poori bottle charhayee aut hath se apnay hont saaf kartay huay mujhay dekha. Usi nafrat se, usi ghussay se.
“Kaan khol kay sun lo...” Wo darsht lehjay mein goya hui
“Aaj kay baad, tum meray rastay mein nahi aao gey. Rida se tum koi contact nahi rakho gey. Socho gey bhi nahi uskay baray mein!”
“Jee bilkul...” Main ne modibana tareeqay se kaha
“Poori baat suno kanjar!” Wo dhaari
“Sirf yahi nahi... tum Huma ko talaaq do gey. Apnay hissay se dastbardaar hojao gey. Aur yahan se dafa hojao gey... samjhay?”
“Lekin... Yum...” Main ne uski in sharait ko sun kar kuch protest karna chaha lekin wo mujhay kaat khanay wali nazron se chup karatay huay boli.
“Bakwas band karo! Agar tum ne meri sharait nahi maani tou main abhi Khurram ko sab bata doongi! Itni ziada bargain karnay ki position mein nahi ho tum abhi acha?”
“OK...” Main ne sar jhuka lia. Bari kutti shay thi Yumna. Mujhay kamzor dekh kar us n bharpoor waar karnay ki thaan li thi.
“Good...” 
Wo fatihana andaaz mein hansi aur haqarat se muhay dekhtay huay boli.
“Ab jao aur Jana ko tayyar karo. Kal raat wo mujhay apnay pehloo mein chahiye. Hamesha hamesha kay liye. Aur iskay badlay, main Khurram ko tumhari ghaleez harkaton kay baray mein nahi bataongi. OK?”
“Jee OK...” Main ne thook nigla. Filhaal tou ye sab mujhay karna par raha tha kyunkay main majboor tha.
“Aaur suno, koi choot chalakiyan karnay ki koshish na karna. Mainne tumko tatton se pakar lia hay is baar. Samjhay? Ab dafa ho jao.... aur apnay manhoos saaye ko is ghar, business aur jaidaad se hamesha kay liye duur karnay pe amal karo!”
Wo ghussay se boli.
“Main Khurram ko kia bataonga kay main kyun ja raha hoon?” Main ne halka sa ahtijaaj kia
“Ye mera masla nahi... koi kahani garho... do whatever the fuck you have to! I dont care. Main tumhara ganda wajood ziada is ghar mein bardasht nahi karsakti. Now get lost, and go get me my Jana!!!”
Wo dhaari aur bed se uth kar washroom mein chali gayee.
Main khamooshi se ye sab sun kar, apnay dimagh mein isko process kartay huay sochnay laga kay haami tou bhar li hay lekin ab kia hoga.

Jesay tesay kar kay raat hui aur Khurram aya. Us ne mujh se meri kheriyat daryaft ki; aur phir idhar udhar ki business ki batain kar kay mujh se Jana kay baray mein poocha.
“Bhateejay... buht waqt hua meri apsara mujhay nahi milee... kia uskay ayyam khatam huay?” Wo pant kay ooper se apna lund ragartay huay bola
“Uncle, aik do din dein, main aapkay huzoor pesh kardoonga usay...”
Samajh nahi araha tha kay in dono ajeeb miyaan biwi kay beech aik larki ko kis tarhan se ping pong karoon?
“Buht achay... lekin wait nahi horaha muhj se... jaldi karo warna main khud uskay room mein ghuss jaoonga.... meri apsara hay wo!”
Khurram ne Jana ka sochtay huay apna lund sehlaya.
“Fikar na karain!” Main ne kaha aur phir uth gaya.

Sister Sarah ne, Miss Anaya ne, mujhay school anay ka kaha tha aur main idhar Yumna ki haramzadgiyon mein phans gaya tha. Kal tak ka time tha meray paas. Is doran aur koi hal nahi nazar araha tha. Kia main Yumna ki batain maan kar bilakhir sab kuch kho bethoonga? UFf!

Main neechay Jana kay room ki taraf chala aur makhsoos knock ki.
Jana ne door khola aur mujhay dekh kar side pe hogai. Main andar agaya aur us ne door band karlia.
Apnay night suit mein wo chikni taangon aur sexy clevage kay saat hoor pari lag rahi thi. Lekin meray zehn pe abhi tharak nahi, apna bachao sawar tha.
“Kesay ho Shani? How youre feeling now?” Us ne apnay makhsoos andaaz mein dilfareb awaz se poocha
“Acha hoon...” Main ne kaha. Main usay ab kia batata kay main usko us aurat kay hawalay karnay ja raha hoon jis se usay shadeed nafrat thi. Hamari dosti ka pehla reason he hamari Yumna kay liye mushtarika nafrat thi. Ab kis moun se usay bataon ye sab?

“Kia soch rahay ho? Koi issue hay? Tumharay plans kahan tak puhnchay? Kab azadi mil rahi hay is jahannum se mujhay?” Wo  meray saath bethtay huay poochnay lagi.

“Jana...” Main ne kehna start kia.
“Aik masla hogaya hay...”

US ne mujhay aik dam sawaliya nigahon se dekha
“Mujhay lagta hay kay Khurram aur Yumna ko hamaray plans ki bhinak parnay wali hay...” Main ne kuch baat banai
“Kia???” Wo uchli
“Haan... kisi tarha kuch ilm horaha hay unko.”
Main ne shakal bana kar kaha
“Ohh! Fuck! Ab kia karain?” US ne sar pakar lia
“Jana... tumko apna khwaab yaad hay?” Main ne usko pareshan dekh kay kaha
“Haan kesay bhool sakti hoon? Meri strength hay wo khwaab. Aur tum mera zariya... magar...”
Main ne uski baat kaati
“Tou phir tumko aik.... ya 2 adad qurbaniyan deni hongi...” 
Meray kehnay pe wo taajub se mujhay ghoornay lagi
“Kia kehna chahtay ho?”

“Main chahta hoon kay un dono ka dimagh kisi aur cheez mein lag jaye aur wo hamaray plans se kuch time kay liye ghaafil hojayen.... yahi aik tareeqa reh gaya hay....” Main ne dhakay chupay lafzon mein kuch batana chaha.
“Khul kay kaho Shani!” Jana ne jhulla kay kaha
“Kia tum Yumna kay sath kuch waqt guzaar sakti ho?” Main ne thandi saan bhari
“Ohhhh...” Jana ne ye sun kar apna sar jhuka lia aur kuch seconds jhukaye rakha.
Phir wo ankhain utha kay mujhay ajeen nazron se dekhtay huay boli
“Tum ne kaha tha kay Khurram kay sath sab kuch karnay kay baad mujhay aur kuch nahi karna parega....” Us ne mujhay jalay katay andaaz mein mera wada yaad dialaya
“Haan Jana main ne he kaha tha lekin us waqt cheezain control mein theen... abhi nahi....” Main ne usko explain kia
Jana mujhay ghoorti rahi aur kuch sochti rahi. 
“Mujhay apnay baap se isi liye nafrat thi kay wo apni biwi ki tarha apni beti ki izzat bhi jaidad aur peson ki bheent charhana chahta tha. Un 2 logon kay liye mujhay makhsoos karna chahta tha jin se mujhay shadeed nafrat hay... Aur ab tum...?” Us ne sar jhatkatay huay  kaha.
“YAqeen jano, main tum se kabhi ye favor na mangta agar baat itni sangeen na hoti... is waqt zaroori hay kay un dono ka dimaagh kisi aur cheez mein phansaya jaye.... aisi cheez mein jis ka husool wo dil se chahtay hain...”
Main ne samjhana chaha
“Tumharay khwaab main sach karoonga Jana... im sorry kay main tumko is waqt is kay liye majboor kar raha hoon....”

Jana ne aik thandi aah bhari aur mujhay dekha
“Aik saath un dono ko mujh pe choro gey ya...”

“Nahi nahi!” Main ne foran se kaha
“Main tumhara deviyon jesa husn itna pamaal nahi honay doonga! Kano kaan khabar nahi hogi un dono ko. Alag alag tareeqay se phasana hay unko... aur ye kaam sirf aur sirf tum karsakti ho! Kuch din Jana.... bus kuch din... phir Khurram jail mein hoga aur Yumna... usko main achi tarha dekh loonga!”
Main ne pur azm lehjay mein kaha

“Uhhhh....pehlay bhi yahi waday kiye thay tum ne... lekin lagta hay kay qismat ko mera aur imtehaan lena hay... jis cheez se main khud ko bacha rahi thi... shayad usi mein meri baqa hosakti hay... hamari baqa!” Jana ne khalaon mein ghoortay huay kaha aur phir thandi se hansi hanstay huay meray saath jurr gayee
“In sab ko inki manzilon pe puhncha kay tum kia karo gey?”
Bara ajeeb sawal tha... aisa sawal jo meray zehn mein shayad kayee arsay se ubharta tha lekin main usay apnay intiqaam kay agay faramosh kardeta tha, ignore kardeta tha... aur aaj meray ilawa, kisi aur ne pehli baar mujh se ye sawal kia tha.
“I dont know...” Main ne sar hilaya
Jana hansi aur us ne aik haath meray ghutnay pe phera. Uski hansi ne meray adhay ghum bhula diye. Kia jadooi husn tha is ka. Aisay he sab pagal nahi horahay thay uskay liye
“Meray sath chalo...”
Us ne dheemi awaz mein kaha tou main ne ghor se usko dekha aur uski samandari ankhon mein doobtay doobtay bacha.
“Kidhar?” Main ne sawal kia
“Jahan bhi jaongi... meri nijaat, tumharay zariye hay tou tumhari meray zariye kyun nahi hosakti?” 
Jana ne aisa jawab dia tha, aisi mantaq pesh ki thi kay lamhay bhar ko mujhay laga kay jesay Jana nahi, Sister Sarah koi mashwara de rahi hon.
“Aur Huma?” Main ne khoye huay andaz mein kaha
“Huma se mujhay ikhtilaaf sahi lekin nafrat nahi hay....” Us ne itna keh kar nigahain neechi karleen...
“Hmmm...” Main ne uski baton ko kuch kuch samjhaty huay aah bhari
“Sochtay hain Jana... filhaal tou is musebat se nikalna hay...”
“Main agar ye sab karloongi tou is kay badlay mein kuch chahoon gee zarur...” Jana ne sar jhukaye huay kaha
“Jo mango... lekin tumhari nijaat pehlay....” Main ne jawab dia
Jana ne sar uthaya tou uski ankhain bheegi hui theen.
“Shani...” Wo sisaktay huay boli
“Nomi kay sath jo bhi hua, main us mein barabar ki shareek thi... apnay buzdil aur makkar baap kay jhansay mein agayee thi. Nomi ki maut ne mujhay buht disturb kia tha... mai uski mujrim hoon Shani... aur aur...”
US ne rotay huay apnay hath se apni ankhain ponchi.
“Aur ab... usi makaar aur lalchi beghairat baap ki maut mein bhi main ne apna role play kia... mera mujrim sahi... jesa bhi tha, mera baap tha... aur is ahsas ko lekar mujhay darr hay kay main kaheen dobara kamzor na par jaon... himmat na haar doon....”
Itna keh kar wo jhat se meray seenay se lagtay huay bilak bilak kay ronay lagi. Main ne uski kamar pe hath pherna shuru kardia.
Rida kay baraks, uski personality mein jo Suenhri roshni ne changes peda keen theen, wo uskay baap, Adeel chacha ki maut kay baad muntashir ho rahi theen. Huma ki tarhan usko bhi ahsaas e nidamat gher raha tha. Meri taqaton ki adam mojoodgi sab ko pagal kar rahi thi. In sab ka zimmedaar tha main. Sirf main. 
Lekin agar main ne bhi ye buhtaan apnay sar le liye tou sab kuch chopat hojana tha! Mujhay kuch karna tha! Akasha ki roshni mujh se rooth gayee thi lekin meray hath per chal rahay thay. Dimagh chal raha tha. Mujhay Miss Anaya ki baat yaad agai aur main ne Jana ka chehra pni janib kartay huay uskay honton se apnay hont laga diyay. Ah... kia ahsaas tha. Duniya is kay peechay bavli ho rahi hay aur ye mujhay apnay sath chalnay ka keh rahi hay. Kia qismat thi meri bhi.
Hamaray lab alag huay tou jesay mujhay dobara aik naya walwala sa agaya. Jana ki rafaqat ne mujhay jesay kuch sochnay pe majboor kardia tha.
“Tum agar ye karlo, tou main tumharay sath har jaga janay ko tayyar hoon... Hum is girdaab se yaqeenan kamyaabi se niklain ge! Aik sath!” Main ne shayad pehli baar sachay dil se aik wada kia tha.

Jana muskurayee aur main ne hath se uskay ansoo ponchay.
“Main tumko message karoonga kay kia karna hay... abhi mujhay kuch aur cheezon ka bandobast karnay do... OK?”
Jana ne mera hath pakar kay zor se dabaya aur asbaat mein sar hilaya.

Main Jana kay room se tezi se nikalta hua bahar janay laga.
Chokidaar khara hua charas ka sutta maar raha tha. Mujhay dekh kar us ne foran se sutta bujhaya aur mustaadi se khara hoagaya.
“Gaari nikalni hay main zara kaam se ja raha hoon... kal dopeher tak aaonga. Begum sahiba ko bata dena...OK?” 
Main ne hukum sadir kiye aur gaari mein beth gaya.
“Jee sahab...” 
Chokidaar ne order maantay huay ghari ko dekha aur jaldi se gate kholnay laga. Raat kay 11 bajj rahay thay wo bhi heraan pareshan tha kay is waqt main kam kam he bahar jata hoon, aaj kia museebat hay? Main ne uski herat ko ignore kartay huay gaari start ki aur driveway se bahar agaya. Road pe atay he meray pair accelator pe aisay jamay kay gaari hawa se batain karnay lagi. Gear pe gear shift hotay rahay aur main junooni andaaz mein drive kartay huay main road pe gaari dorata raha. Meray sar pe is waqt aik he dhun sawar thi: mujhay apna intiqaam har soorat poora karna hay. Har soorat sab ko kefr e kirdaar tak puhnchana hay! Apnay saray sawalon ka jawab, saray maslon ka hal mujhay bus ab aik jaga he milnay wala tha. 
Gaari road pe sarpat daur rahi thi. Apni manzil ki janib.
Boarding school ki janib. Akasha ki janib...

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Sheher se bahar anay mein mujhay mushkil se koi ghanta laga. Sunsaan roads pe main ghanton ka fasla shayad minutes mein tey kar raha tha. Raat ki tareeki kab subah ki roshni mein dhal gayee mujha pata na chala. Paanch saarhay paanch ghanton ki non stop drive kay baad, bilakhir meray pair gari kay brakes pe aye aur churchurahat kay saath gari aik tooti hui road pe ruki.
Meray samnay windscreen se shikasta road ooper kisi saanp ki tarhan murti balkhati hui nazar arahi thi... aur uskay agay aik siyaah khonaak see imarat. Wo imarat jis ne Shahnawaz ko Shani banaya tha. Mera boarding school.
Ghari dekhi tou subha kay 6 bajnay walay thay. Main ne aik baar phir zor se accelerator dabaya aur gaari tooti hui road kay khaddon pe ooper neechay hoti boarding school kay darwazay pe aagayee. Main ne engine off kia aur jaldi se gari se utar kay gate ki taraf barha.
Andar dakhil hotay he jesay main kayee saal peechay chala gaya. 
Samnay school ka ground tha jidhar subha subha warzish kay liye larkay jama ho rahay thay. Chust libaas mein malboos teachers unka muaayena kar rahi theen. Miss Sukaina aur Sister Serena ki jhalak dikhayee dee. Kuch lamhon ko dil mein aisa sakoon utra jesay main wapas apnay asal ghar agaya hoon. Akasha ki panah mein. Jahan mera koi kuch nahi bigaar sakta tha. 
Main tez qadam uthatay huay, main imarat ki janib barh raha tha. Achanak meri pusht se kisi ne awaz lagayee.
Buht manoos see awaz thi. 
Jisko main kaheen bhi pehchaan sakta tha.... jisko main pichlay kuch dino se khoj raha tha. Main hairat se mura tou apnay samnay aik 11/12 sala larkay ko dekha.
Yusuf. Mera pehla dost. Kameena kaheen ka!
Itnay arsay main sirf uski awaz sunta tha, usko Farhan kay roop mein dekhta tha, lekin aaj itnay time baad usko asli halat mein dekh raha tha.
“Kameenay!” Main ne ghussay aur khusi ki milee juli see kefiyat mein usko dekhtay he nara sa lagaya.
“Meray bewaqoof dost! Kesay ho?” Yusuf ne apni usi mukurahat kay sath jawab dia jo main bhool chuka tha.
Main dorta hua us tak puhncha aur us se baghalgeer hogaya. Uska jism main feel kar raha tha, sirf uski awaz he nahi.
“Tum kidhar chalay gaye thay?????” Main ne shikwa kia.
“Sab pata chal jayega dost! Mujhay sister Sarah ne idhar wapas bula lia tha... jab tak tum nahi aao ge, mujhay wapsi ki ijazat na thi! Akhir meri apni haqeeqat bhi tum se juri hay...” 
Yusuf ne paheliyon walay apnay makhsoos andaz se kaha.
“Kia ab bhi tum sirf mujhay dikhayee de rahay ho?” Main ne poocha
“Haan... tumhain... aur kuch makhsoos logon ko... jo meri haqeeqat jantay hain...”
US ne khilkhila kay hastay huay kaha aur phir yakdam us ne peechay murr kay kuch dekha aur meri taraf gardan ghuma kay bola.
“Shayad tumko bulaya ja raha hay... apnay puranay room ki taraf jao... Anaya tumhara intizaar kar rahi hain...” Yusuf ne itna kaha aur phir aik dam se shaadiyon mei dornay walay bachon ki tarhan aik taraf bhaagtay huay ghayab ho gaya. Main hakka bakka dekhta raha aur phir rooms ki janib chal para.
Mujhay har qadam pe aik aik cheez yaad arahi thi. Sehma hua 12 saal ka Shahnawaz jab idhar aya tha. Apna room, uska bistar, kitabain, library... aik aik character; sister Katherine se pehli dafa milna, phir sister Sarah, miss Naheed, Anaya.... aur unkay saath experience kia gaya aik aik second wapas araha tha.
Maazi ko khangaltay huay main rooms ki taraf aya tou mujhay line se banay rooms kay agay mojood rahdaari mein koi khara nazar aya. Sab larkay assembly mein ja chukay thay tou is taraf koi na tha. Main dabay paaon agay barha tou dekha kay rooms kay baad bani aik deewar kay sath koi aurat apni pusht kiye khari thi. Main ne aur ghor se dekha tou wo miss Anaya theen.
Lekin unkay saath koi aur bhi tha.
Aik 14/15 saal ka larka deewar se laga khara tha aur miss Anaya uskay saath khareen theen. Mera angle aisa tha kay main un dono ko daikh sakta tha lekin wo dono mujhay nahi. Main ne akhri room ki oont se jhanktay huay dekha tou  wo larka ankhain band kiye apna sar deewar se lagaye khara tha. Miss Anaya us kay samnay khareen theen. Unka sar larkay ki gardan pe jhuka hua tha aur wo uski gardan ko choom rahi theen. Larkay ki uniform ki pant uskay ghutno tak neechay utri hui thi aur miss Anaya ka aik hath uski underwear kay andar ghusa hua tha. Wo uskay tattay apnay hathon se daba daba kay feel kar raheen theen. Larkay kay chehray pe masti aur maza saaf zahir tha. Band ankhon kay sath wo apnay tatton ko dabata hua Miss Anaya ka hath baray mazay se feel kar raha tha.
Uski gardan ko choomtay huay unka doosra hath larkay ki gardan kay gird hamayal tha. Mujhay yaad aya kay kis tarah Sister Sarah ne sab se pehlay meray lund ko zabardasti pakar kay dabaya tha aur mujhay us mazay se roshnas karaya tha jo aaj mujhay Akasha ki ‘battery’ bana gaya tha. Meri zindagi change kargaya tha. Main ye sab sochtay huay Miss Anaya ki lazzat bhari saanson ko sun sakta tha. Idhar atay he jesay meri taqatain bahal see hogayee theen. Larkay kay tatton ko sehlatay huay miss Anaya ne aik dam se uska underwear neechay kia, aur uski gardan kay gird daka apna doosra haath hatatay huay uska chota sa lund pakar lia. Aik haath se wo uskay tattay ahista ahista daba kay feel kar rahi theen aur doosray se uska lund apni muthi mein liye uski muth maar rahi theen.
YAqeenan is larkay ko bhi wo meri tarhan tayyar kar rahi theen. Wo bhi meri tarha halaat ka sataya hua koi larka hoga. Jo pagal khanay ya isi tarha kisi aur jaga se yahan laya gaya tha. Ab ya tou us ne is ‘test’ mein paas hokar Akasha ka madadgaar ban jana tha... ya phir sister Katherine ki khuraak....
Achanak larkay ki tangon pe larza taari hua aur uskay chotay se lund se thori se muth nikal kay neechay zameen pe gir gayee. Wo farigh ho chuka tha aur pharphara raha tha. Miss Anaya ne abhi bhi uskay tattay pakray huay thay aur wo unhain halkay se feel kar rahi theen. Apnay saray maslay bhula kay mera lund bhi ye sab dekh kay khara ho gaya tha. Mujhay Miss Anaya kay sath guzaray lamhaat yaad anay lagay.
Aur phir achanak Miss Anaya ne larkay ki gardan se apna sar hataya aur ghoom kar rooms ki janib dekha. Jis ki aar main mein khara ye hejaani manzar dekh raha tha. Unhon ne mujhay dekha aur aik mast bhari smile dee. IS kay sath he unhon ne larkay ko apni pants aur underwear charhanay ka boltay huay uskay tattay bamushkil chor diye. Larka jaldi jaldi pant charha kay peechay ki rahdaari mein taqreeban bhaagta hua ghayab hogaya. 
USkay jatay he miss Anaya ne phir se ghoom kay mujhay dekha.
“Ahhh.... Shani.... meray shehzaday! Chup chup kay kia dekh rahay ho?”
Wo khilkhila kay hansi aur meri janib barheen.
Meray paas akar wo mujh se baghalgeer hogayeen
“Oh Shani... tum sahi ho na? Ab kesi tabiyat hay?”
Unkay poochnay pe main ne jawab dia
“Buht acha. Buht behtar.... aap se mil kay aadhi beemari duur!” 
“HAha... naughty!” Miss Anaya ne aik hath se pan kay ooper se meray lund ko tahooka dia
“Aao... tumharay puranay room mein chaltay hain... kuch yadain taza karnay... kuch sawalaat kay jawabaat dhoondhnay!” 
Miss Anaya ne ye kehtay huay mera haath thama aur muskuratay huay mujhay saath liye meray agay chalnay lageen. Unkay badan ki khsuhboo itnay arsay baad mehsoos hui thi. Unki qurbat mein bitaya har lamha zehen mein refresh honay laga. Aur lund ne angraiyan leni shuru keen.
Hum chaltay huay meray puranay room tak puhnchay aur phir Anaya ne darwaza khol kay mujhay andar kheench lia.
“Yaad hay ye kamra?” Unhon ne poocha
Aur main aik aik deewar, aik aik eent ko dekh kar sarshaar hota gaya. Jesay in mein se roshni phoot rahi ho jo meri nass nass mein bass rahi ho.
“Haan... kesay bhoool sakta hoon?” Main ne charon taraf dekhtay huay kaha
“Inhi deewaron ne mujhay aik kamzor larkay se aik mazboot mard bantay dekha hay...”
“Falsafa bara agaya hay tumko hain?” Miss Anaya ne hanstay huay kaha aur aik baar phir mujh se baghalgeer hogayeen.
“Kitnay time baad tum se tanhai mein mulaqaat hui hay! Aao... tumhari kuch yadain taaza karoon...” Ye kehtay huay Miss Anaya ne apnay hath meri pant pe lejatay huay meri belt kholna shuru kardi....
Meri pant giree aur meri raano pe unkay sard hathon ka ahsaas mujhay pagal kargaya.
Main apnay saray maslay bhool kar is lamhay mein kho gaya.
Meri underwear neechay hui aur unkay hath meray tatton pe jam gaye. Unko dabatay huay, ahista ahista unko feel kartay huay wo unhain ooper ko push kar rahi theen.
“MMmmmmm...” meray mu se suroor ki aik leher see barpa hui
Jis tarah wo us larkay kay saath kar rahi theen, ab wohi meray sath bhi kia ja raha tha. Farq sirf ye tha kay mera mota lund, teer ki tarhan khara hua unko salami de raha tha aur meray haath unkay seenay ko khoj rahay thay.
“Kitna bara hogaya hay ye... kitnay arsay se is se duur rahi hoon main Shani... Kaheen ye mujhay bhool tou nahi gaya?”
Miss Anaya ne josh mein meray kaan kay qareeb apnay hont kartay huay sargoshi ki.
“Aapko kesay bhool sakta hay ye... aap kay sath aik waqt guzara hay is ne...” 
Main ne dono hathon se unkay mummay unki chust shirt kay ooper se dabatay huay kaha.
“Oh Shani...mmmmm....” Miss Anaya ne aik lazzat bhari awaz mein kaha aur jhat se mera lund pakar lia. Miss Anaya ko tattay sehlanay ka buht shoq tha. Mujhay yaad hay kay jab hum saath sotay thay tou wo saari raat, waqtan fawaqtan meray tatton ko sehlati rehti theen. Sirf yahi nahi... balkay Hall mein, library mein, canteen mein... jahan bhi moqa milta unkay hath meray tatton ko mehsoos karna na bhooltay.
“Kaash meray paas aur waqt hota, tou tumko aisa khush karti kay mujh se juri tumhari har aik yaad, zinda javed ho kar tumko sarshaar kardeti... lekin khair hay... jitna bhi waqt hay... is waqt tumharay liye hay...” 
Miss Anaya ne lazzat se hont kaatay aur aik dam se mujhay dhakka detay huay bed pe gira dia. Usi bed pe, jis ki chadar ki silwaton mein meray aur miss Anaya kay jismon ki sarsarahat ne kayee dastanain raqam kee theen...

Miss Anaya ne aik lamha bhi waste na kia aur meray bed pe girtay he meray kharay huay lambay se motay lund pe jhuktay huay, usko jhat se apnay mu mein qaid kar liya. Meri Ankhain bhi us larkay ki tarhan band hogayeen. Aur main is lamhay ko bharpoor enjoy kartay huay khud ko dheela chornay laga.
Miss Anaya kay hont meray topay ko jakray uskay gird tang horahay thay aur unki zubaan ki nok, meray lund kay soorakh pe phir rahi thi.
Unkay dono haath lund se ooper mery nichlay pait ko nanga kartay huay ghoom rahay thay. Mera lund aisa sakht ho raha tha jesay pathar ka ho. Pichlay kuch dino ki tension mein, main ye bhool gaya tha kay sex ka maza, har tesnion pe bhari hota hay. Main pooray josh kay sath miss Anaya kay maahir mu mein lund diyay aik pursaroor choopa lagwa raha tha. Thori der meray pait pe phernay kay baad, miss Anaya ne apnay hathon ko peechay kartay huay aik baar phir aik hath se meray tattay pakray aur doosra hath se meray lund kay gird muthi banatay huay, apnay mu kay sath usko lund pe ooper neechay karnay lageen.
“AAahhh...” Mazay ki shiddat se meri ahain siskiyaan nikalnay lageen aur main ne apnay dono hathon ko khudbakhud unkay sar pe jamatay huay unkay makhmal ki taaron jesay baal jakray, aur zor zor se unka sar apnay lund pay dabatay huay ooper neechay karnay laga. Miss Anaya ne apnay hath se meray lund ko azad kia aur meray hathon kay dabao kay sath ooper neechay hotay huay meray lund ko poora apnay mu mein andar bahar karnay lageen. Unki zaban shaft pe lipat lipat kay meray mazay ko bharka rahi thi.
Choopay ki shapar shapar awazain mera dimagh kisi aur duniya mein leja rahi theen. Us duniya mein jis se mera taaluq Akasha ki roshniyon ne jor dia tha.
Aik din ki us pur israar beemari ne mujhay kuch laghir sa kar dala tha. Woh bhi aik waqt tha kay jab main miss Anaya ka mu chod chod kay unko adhmua kardeta tha lekin aaj Miss Anaya ka mu chodtay huay mera apna bura haal honay laga tha. Meri halatko kuch samajhtay huay miss Anaya ne khud ba khud apna mu meray lund pe chalan shuru kardia aur mera apna zor kam lagnay laga. Aik ajab connection tha hamaray beech jo kayee raaton ki qurbat se jura tha. Alfazon ki zarurat na parti thi. Dil ko dil se rah thi.
Miss Anaya ki speed tez hogayee thi. Wo aik ghair muraai se tezi kay sath apna sar meray lund kay ooper neehay kartay huay mera choopa laga rahi theen. 
Ahh.. mujhay aisa lag raha tha kay main ab ziada na seh paaon ga aur unkay mu mein lund ka paani undel kar shaant hojaonga... lekin isi doran aik baar phir miss Anaya ne mera zehn parhtay huay apni speed yakdam ghata dee, jesay train kay station pe anay se pehlay. 
Main kuch aur mazay mein doob gaya. Wo ab ahista ahista se baray pyaar se mera lund jarr tak apnay garam mu mein bhartay huay, apnay luaab e  dehen aur zaban se usko tarr kar kay bahar nikaltay huay topi tak jaateen. Is slow blowjob ka maza aur bhi ziada tha. 
Kuch der aur yahi daur chalta raha aur phir miss Anaya ne apnay daanton se meray sakht lund ko halka sa dabatay huay usay apnay mu se nikaal diya. Precum ki aik boond meray topay pe saji thi jo unkay peechay hotay huay honton se touch hokar, meray lund aur unkay honton kay darmayan aik patli se lakeer banatay huay bikhar gayee.
Unhon ne aik baar ohir meray tattay sehlanay shuru kiye aur muskura kar meri taraf dekha. Main ne sar bistar se utha kay un se ankhain milayeen aur phir wo dobara neechay jhuk gayee. Lekin is baar mujhay unkay thook aur precum se tar honton kee geelahat, aur unki zaban ka lums, apnay tatton pe feel hua.
Miss Anaya meray tatton ko be tahasha choom raheen theen aur apni zaban pher pher kay chaat rahi theen. Kabhi aik ball pe hont bhar kay usay halka sa choosteen aur phir doosray ko. Phir apni zaban dono pe chalatay huay mujhay mazay se bechain karteen. Main is lazzat ko khoob mehsoos karta raha aur suroor se mustafeed hota raha. Kafi der meray tatton se khelnay kay baad unka sar meri tangon kay beech se ubhra aur wo crawl karti hui meray ooper agayeen. Unkay geelay hont meray honton se milay aur phir wo meri gardan ko choomtay huay apna sar meray seenay mein ragarti hui boleen.
“Dil tou chah raha hay kay tumharay tatton ka sara paani tumharay lund ko choos choos kar pi jaaon.... aahhh kitna time hogaya hay jo main ne aisa nahi kia Shani...lekin...”
Wo rukeen aur sar uthay kay meri ankhon mein dekhtay huay meray baalon mein hath phernay lageen
“Lekin mujhay iski ijazat nahi... Abhi tumharay is hejaan, is josh ka koi aur bhi muntazir hay...” Wo hansi aur phir unhon ne meray gaal choom kar kaha
“Kia meri is seva ne tumhari kuch yaadain taaza keen meray shehzaday?”

“Kuch?” main ne hans kar kaha...
“Buht saari yaadain... aik aik second dobara jiya main ne is doran.” Main ne unkay chehray pe hath phertay huay apna angootha unkay labon se mass kia aur pyar  se usay masal dia.

“Shani...” Wo kuch sanjeeda see tone mein boleen
“Kuch haqeeqatain aaj tum pe aaj khulen gee...”

“Kesi haqeeqatain?” Main ne sawal kia

“Kuch aisi haqeeqatain... jinka ilm Akasha kay aksar madadgaron ko nahi hay... ya nahi ho sakta... shayad mujhay bhi nahi... magar tum special ho. Akasha ne tumko hazaron mein chuna hay. Kayee logon ki zindagiyan, aur taqaton ka mehvar tum ho... ye baat na bhoolna. Agar tum ye samajh rahay ho kay Akasha ne tumko be yaar o madad gaar chor kar apni taqatain tum se duur karlii hain... tou ye tumhari bhool hay... Akasha ki roshni tum se hay... aur main janti hoon kay tum aik buht ahem role play karo gey in sab kay liye. Buht ahem... wo kia hoga? Ye mujhay nahi maloom... aur na he mujhay bataya jaye ga...”
Wo saans lenay ko rukeen aur phir dobara se apni nihayat purisraar baton ko continue kia. Main unkay neechay daba, baray ahnimaak se unki ye seherangez batain sun raha tha.
“Mujhay jab tum se munsalik kia gaya tha tou Akasha ne har waqt tum par nazar rakhnay ki hidayat kee thi. Tumharay andar basi Akasha ki roshni ko khoob ubhaarnay ki hidayat. Koi buht he bara maqsad tha tumko chunnay ka. Akasha ka purisraar maqsad... jo Akasha ki battery bannay se kaheen ziada hay...”

Main kuch kuch samajh paya aur buht kuch meri aql o fehm se duur kahen guzar gaya. Wo hanstay huay meray ooper se utheen aur phir apnay baalon ko peechay kartay huay boleen.
“Jao Shani... sister Sarah kay paas jao. Wo tumhari shiddat se muntazir hain...”
Wo muskuratay huay bahar chali gayeen.
Main utha aur main ne apni pant pehn kay apna hulia durust kia aur room se bahar nikla. Meray qadam ab main building kay staff offices ki taraf uth rahay thay. Main imarat ke pathreeli seerhion pe ghoom kar ooper charhtay huay meray dimagh mein wo saray manzar dornay lagay jab mujhay pehli baar idhar laya gaya tha. 
Film ki tarhan aik aik manzar zehn ki reel pe fast forward honay laga. Main chotay baray qadam bharta bilakhir us hujray mein ja puhncha jidhar Sister Sarah ka room tha. Pathar ki imarat aur lakri kay darwazay, din ho ya raat, kisi bhi aam insaan ko khofzada karnay kay liye kaafi thay. Main aik darwazay pe puhnch kay ruk gaya. Yaho wo jaga thi jidhar pehli baar Sister Sarah ne mujhay apnay deedaar se nawaza tha aur meray andar sunehri roshni bedaar kee thi.
Darwaza halka sa khula tha aur us kay paar hewlay hiltay huay mehsoos horahay thay. Main ne halki se knock ki darwazay pe.
“Kia main andar asakta hoon Sister Sarah?” 
Main ne adab ko malkhooz e khatir rakhtay huay poocha.
Andar se koi awaz na ayee tou main ne darwazay ko halka sa push kia aur khol kay andar daakhil ho gaya. Samnay mojood chimney mein aag jal rahi thi jis se kamray mein kuch roshni thi. Wo hewlay isi aag kay bharaknay se bantay deewaron pe saaye thay. Us kay samnay mez pe kuch fruit paray thay aur deewar pe bari see pathar ki arch wali band khirki kay paas sister Sarah ka purisraar wajood khara tha. Unhon ne lamba siyah chogha orha hua tha jis mein unka sar cover horaha tha. Unka rukh khirki ki janib tha. Meray dakhil hotay he meray peechay kamray ka darwaza khud ba khud dharr se band hogaya.
“Ghar main dakhlay ki ijazat tou wo mangtay hain jo ghar kay na hon...”
Sister Sarah ki awaz room mein ubhri. Aur uskay sath he unhon ne apna rukh meri janib kia. 
Unka deo malai husn, neem andheray mein sunehri roshni se aisay chamak raha tha jesay raat mein chaand. Choghay kay andar se chalakti hui roshni.
“Tum tou isi ghar kay palay barhay ho...tumhain ijazat ki kia zarurat?”
Sister Sarah ne itna keh kar aik dilfreb jadui muskaan kay sath mera istaqbaal kia
“Betho Shani... betho. Buht kuch hay jo tumharay zehn pe bojh ban kar tumhain pareshaan kar raha hay...”
Unhon ne ishara kia aur main mez kay sath paray aik chotay se lakri kay stool pe baith gaya. 
“Sister Sarah, mujhay bulaya tha aap ne... der hogai thori, lekin...” 
Main kitnay arsay baad un se directly mukhatib ho raha tha... unki sunehri golay se ubharnay wali parchayee se nahi.

“Der andher, sab bewaja... jab waqt hota hay tou he har cheez amal mein aati hay. Bilkul sahi aye ho tum Shani...” Sister Sarah ne muskuratay huay aik  gehra falsafiyana jawab dia.

Meri nazar unkay roop se hat nahi rahi thi. Wo aaj bhi utni he deviyon see haseen theen jesay meray zehen mein naqsh theen. Bay nuqs, bay daagh. Lekin kuch badla sa zarur tha jo main mehsoos kar raha tha. Unka lehja. Jesay wo kisi lambay safar se thak haar kar ayee hon.
“Sister Sarah... kia Akasha ki roshni mujh se juda ho gayee hay?” Main ne foran se apna sawal poocha.
“Tum aisa sochtay ho?” Sister Sarah ne taajub se mujhay dekha
“Akasha ki roshni tumko sonpi gayee thi... aur jis maqsad kay liye sonpi gayee thi... wo abhi poora nahi hua... tou phir tum kesay soch saktay ho kay ye roshni tum se alag ho chuki hay?”
Unho ne ajeeb see aik baat kahi, bari mukhfi see baat.
“Maqsad? Kesa maqsad? Aur... agar sunehri roshni mujh mein hay tou main usay mehsoos kyun nahi kar pa raha?” 
Main ne garbaraye huay andaz mein sawaliya cheray se poocha
“Shani...” Sister Sarah ne meri taraf aik qadam uthaya aur hathon ko ooper leja kar chogha apnay sar se utaar kar peechay kia. Unkay sunehri baal jesay zinda thay. Hawa kay baghair harkat kartay huay unkay gird lipattay huay, bal khatay huay, un kay husn ko mazeedubhartay huay. Aisa seher angez husn jiski aam admi taab na la sakay.
“Mayoosi, duniya ki sab se buri shay hay...” Unki kuch thaki hui see awaz ubhri
“Jantay ho kyun Shani? Kyunkay mayoosi mein mubtila admi, ye bhool jata hay kay us kay paas kia hay... aur wo sirf us pe apna zehen markooz kardeta hay jo nahi hay, ya nahi raha.  Moqay khota hay mayoos admi. Wo moqay jo uskay liye behtari peda kar saktay hain.... aur tum... Shani tum mayoos nahi ho. Bus pareshan ho...”
Unhon ne aik hath barha kay mera gaal chuaa. Current dora, chingariyaan ureen aur mein jhurjhura gaya. Aisa laga jesay meray andar sard hoti aag dobara dehki ho. Sholay lapkay hon. Unka mujhay choona mujhay jesay kuch lamhon ko dobara zinda sa kar gaya tha.
“Agar tum mayoos hotay... tou apnay maslay ka hal na dhoondh patay... Yumna ko daana na daltay...” Woh phir se muskurayeen
Meri har move se, har action se waqif theen woh. Aur shayad sahi keh rahi theen. Main ne Yumna ko aaj apni taqaton se nahi, apnay dimagh se tala tha. Wo aur baat hay kay us kay badlay mein us ne jo sharait rakhi theen wo... meray against ja rahi theen.
“Tum se roshni roothi nahi... balkay ye aik nishani hay...” Unhon ne Yusuf ki tarha batain shuru kardi theen. Paheliyon wali.
“Nishani?” Main ne taajub se mu banatay huay poocha,
“Kesi nishaani?”

“Tumharay is sawal ka jawab denay se pehlay... main tumhain aik kahani sunana chahti hoon... suno gey Shani?” 
Sister Sarah ne halki see smile kay sath kaha.
Kahani? Ye aaj sab itni mukhfi see, pahliyon wali batain kyun kar rahay thay? Sab Yusuf kyun ban rahay thay? Kia aaj duniya bhar mein ‘Yusuf Day’ manaya ja raha hay??
Main ne apni sochain ignore kar kay unko dekha. Wo yaqeenan meri sochon se juda nahi theen. Unkay chehray pe smile barh gayee thi. Wo yaqeenan meray zehen mein ubharti in sochon ko parh rahi theen.
“Sunayen...” Main ne kaha tou wo aik saans letay huay dobara band khirki ki taraf murr gayeen. Unhon ne halkay se gardan meri janib mori aur kehna shuru kia.

“Koi derh, do sadiyan qabal, aik ghareeb larki... Bartania kay nawahi ilaqon mein apni boorhi maa kay sath rehti thi. Uska baap kon tha aur kahan tha... ye wo nahi janti thi, aur na hee uski maa ne kabhi usay bataya. Ghurbat ne kabhi is se agay sochnay ka moqa he na dia usay... magar log ye batain banatay thay kay wo aik haram zadi hay. Uska baap koi ayyash raees tha jis ne uski maa ko jhansa dekar uski izzat se khela, aur jab wo hamal se hui... tou aisa ruposh hua kay palat kay na dekha. Wo ye sab batain sunti, kurhti aur tahiya karti kay aik din maa se zarur poochay gee lekin roz khanay kay lalay paray rehtay thay. Isi tig o dau mein na wo aik din kabhi aya aur na us ne ana tha....
“Aik chota sa farm tha unka. Murghiyon ka... pyari safaid murghiyaan... lekin jaray kay mosam mein... wo dono becharay lakh koshishain kartay, lekin sari murghiyon ko thand se na bacha patay... aur har dafa unki murghiyon kee tadad kam se kam tar hoti jaati... aur un se anay walay andon ki bhi – jinko wo shehr kay beoparion kay hathon, kuch roti aur kapron kay aiwaz, bech deti theen. Aur unki amdani isi tarha ghat-ti rahi... hattakay aik saal aisa aya jab beoparion ne bhi phooti koriaan deni shuru kardeen. Pareshani barh gayee... lekin asal pareshani tou abhi aani thi...

Usi saal, us larki pe aisa roop charha kay logon ne usko khoob ghoor ghoor kay dekhna shuru kardiya. Uskay boseeda se phatay puranay libaas mein se dikhtay uskay badan pe ab logon ki nazrain rukti jati theen. Wo jawan ho gayee thi. Aur isi jawani ne uspay aisa sitam dhaya kay gaaon kay logon ki tarha, wahan kay padri kay buddhay ayyash baray bhai ki nazar bhi us pe ja tehri.
Us ne larki ki maa ko peghaam bhijwaya kay wo ko usay khareedna chahta hay, jis kay badlay mein wo usko malamaal kardega. Maan ne ye sun kay sar peet lia aur uskay peghaam bardar ko khoob gaaliyan de kar bura bhala kaha. Aur ghar se ye keh kar nikaal dia kay unki izzat baraye farokht nahi!
Lekin... uski is jurrat ka khamiyaza burhiya ko bari buri tarha bhugatna para.
Padri kay bhai ne jab ye suna tou wo tesh mein agaya aur us ne padri kay zariye uski ma pe churail aur jadu garni honay ka ilzaam lagaya. Us zamanay mein is tarha ka ilzam kisi aurat pe lagaya jata tou sarkaar usko chorahay pe zinda jala deti thi... shaitaan ki pujaran kay tor pe... aur unki jaidaad, aulaad waghera sarkar aur maqami church khud hathiya letay thay. Aur yahi hua...
Sipahi aye, aur uski maa ko giraftaar kar kay le gaye. Log wesay he unko achi nazron se nahi dekhtay thay, tou lihaza chemingoiyyan honay lagee kay burhiya wesay he aik haram zadi ki maa hay, na koi agay na peechay... yaqeenan ye jadugarni he hogi. Shaitan ki pujaran! 
Sipahi us larki ki burhiya maan ko ghaseet-tay huay le ja rahay thay aur gaon kay log us pe kankar maar rahay thay.... galiyan de rahay thay. Larki roti cheekhti rahi lekin... kisi ne na suni uski. Aur phir... sham dhalay, uski ankhon kay samnay, chorahay pe uski maa ko zinda jala dia gaya. Larki ki dildoz cheekhain asmaan hila rahi hongi... lekin zameen pe basnay walay us pe zara bhi rehem nahi kha rahay thay. Aur dekhtay he dekhtay uski ma uski nazron kay samnay jala kay koyla kardi gayee. Wo ab be sar o sahara thi, aik haram zadi thi. Jiska agay peechay koi na tha. Gaon kay har mard ki nigahain usko hawas se dekh rahi theen. Jesay wo bheriyon kay beech koi bakri ho...
Sipahiyon ne padri kay hukum pe usko utha kay padri ki tehweel mein de dia. Wo cheekhti rahi, gaaon walon ko madad kay liye pukarti rahi magar padri kay agay kon ata? 
Usay aik kothri mein daal dia gaya. Usi raat, padri aur uska bhai, nashay mein dhutt kothri mein dakhil huay. Wo dono khoonkhaar kuttay masoom, nehatti aur tanha larki ki izzat ko aaj taar taar karnay walay thay...
Aik ne uska libaas kheenchna shuru kia tou doosray ne uska jism khasootna. Qehqahay lagatay huay wo usko rondnay lagay, uski bebasi pe hasnay lagay. Isi muzahimmat kay doran, padri kay bhai kay hath mein mojood sharab ki botal, kisi tarha se chut gaye aur farsh pe ja giri... larki ko chor kay wo kaanch se khud ko bachatay peechay hua tou uski grift dheeli par gayee, wo larkhara kay giri aur uskay hathon mein kaanch se zakham par gaye... magar in zakhmon kay sath aik kaanch ka bara tukra bhi uskay hath mein aa laga. Wo apni natawani ko pichartay huay apni muzahimmat ko apni taqat banatay huay uthi... aur us ne wohi kaanch ka tukra utha kay padri kay mu pe waar kardia. Wo achanak se is afat se bokhla kay apna mu peechay karnay laga tou kaanch kay tukray ka nokeela hissa, uski gardan se takratay huay uska narkhara cheer gaya! 
Khoon ka aik fawwara ubhra aur padri usi bebasi se idhar udhar haath maarnay laga. Padri ka bhai pehlay se he nashay mein dhut tha, us ne jo ye dekha tou uskay hosh urr gaye. Wo cheekhnay laga. Ye sab kuch itna anan fanan hua kay larki ko kuch nahi samajh araha tha. Wo bechari kisi ko marna thori chahti thi. Khud ko bachatay huay, apnay difa mein us ne aisa kia tha... aik fitri amal. Usay kia maloom tha kay wo padri ki gardan mein surakh kardegi. Usay kuch na soojhi tou wo padri kay makrooh bhai kay shor machanay pe jesay jaag see gayee... us ne aao dekha na taao, aur daur laga dee. Kothri se, galiyon se, gaaon se wo peechay muray baghair bus bhagti gayee. Uskay pairon mein kanch, kantay aur kankar chubhtay rahay lekin wo na ruki. Gaaon se bahar jungle mein aik darakhton kay jhund me jakar us ne saans lia aur chup kay neechay gaaon kee janib dekha. Padri kay mashal bardaar pehray daar, gaaon se bhagtay huay nikaltay nazar arahay thay. Wo yaqeenan usay dhoondnay arahay thay. Unka rukh jungle ki janib tha. Agar wo unkay hathay charh jaati tou uska hashar bhi apni maa se alag na hota, shayad us se bhi bad tar... kyunkay wo jawan thi... akeli thi. Us ne darakhton kay jhund se agay janay ki thaani aur jungle ki gehraiyon mein utar gayee.
“Ah... kia zulm tha. Wo bechari na chahtay huay, bethay bithaye aik azab se dochaar hogai thi. Padri aur uskay bhai kay itaab kay zer e asar,  pehlay wo jadugarni ki najaiz beti thehrai ja chuki thi... aur ab aik qatila!
Padri ka bara rasookh tha. Aur wo ye achi tarha janti thi. Agar usay jeena tha tou usay kaheen duur jana tha.... is gaaon se koson duur. Wo yehi sochtay huay jungle ki tareekiyon mein shaakhon, tehniyon kaanton se larti, bhagay ja rahi thi. Uskay bhagnay se parindon ki pharpharahat ka shor utha. Peechay pehray daaron ki mashalon ki roshniyaan andheray mein qareeb hoti ja rahi theen. Wo yaqeenan parindon kay shor se is janib mutawajja hogaye thay. Unka shor, larki kay kaano tak araha tha. Wo bechari poori taqat se bhaag rahi thi, poori zakhmon se choor. Magar uskay taaqub mein anay walay kayee, aur tawana thay. 
Wo bhagtay bhagtay ronay lagi... us ka dil chah raha tha kay koi aye aur usay duur, buht duur lejaye... Aur isi doran aik urta hua teer uski janib aya aur uskay dayen shanay ko cheerta hua nikal gaya.
Pehray daaron ne usko dhoondh lia tha. Uski dilkharash cheekh ubhri aur wo larkhara kay gir gayee. Uskay shanay se khoon jaari tha... Aur uskay samnay pehray daar teer kaman aur mashalain roshan kiya huay us tak apuhcnhay thay. Waqt qareeb tha. Uski jaan un kay rehm o karam pe thi. Uskay shanay mein dard ki shadeed teesain uth rahi theen... 
Pehray daar us tak puhcnhay he thay kay achanak... kuch ajab hua!
Mojiza... ya kuch aur!
Ooper ghanay darakht se aik siyaah sa hewla neechay kooda!
Uski pusht larki ki janib thi aur uska siyah choghay mein dhaka chehra pehray daaron ki janib. Aur is se pehlay kay koi kuch samajhta, us hewlay ne chogha apnay sar se hata diya. Pehray daaron kay chehron pe khauf phel gaya. Mashalain gir gayeen. Koi aik do ne teer bhi daghay... lekin wo hawa mein he mur tur kay gir gaye. Aur lamhon mein he saray pehray daar badhawas ho kar bhaag gaye.
Wo hewla zameen pe giri aik mashal ko uthatay huay larki ki janib aya aur phir us ne uska chehra mashal ki roshni mein dekha... aur phir usay kuch hosh na raha!”
Sister Sarah aik lamhay ko rukeen aur unhon ne apna chehra neechay kia. Unkay chehray pe karb kay asaar thay. Wo phir lamba saans letay huay meri janib mureen aur dobara kahani ko continue kia:

“Wo hewla nahi tha... wo us nehatti tanha larki kay liye bheja gaya aik madadgaar tha. Aik andekhi duniya ka madadgaar...
Uski jaadoi quwwaton kay zer e asar larki ko aik nayee zindagi milee. Us ne larki kay zakhmon pe aisa marham lagaya kay zakham dino mein ghayab hogaye... wo kon tha? kia tha? ye wo nahi janti thi. Usay bus ye pata tha kay ye uska nijat dehinda hay! Us ka muhafiz hay...
Sehatyaab honay kay baad, andekhi duniya kay madadgaar ne phir usay bataya kay jab wo pehray daaron se bhaag rahi thi tou us ne dil ki gehraiyon se khwahish ki thi kay wo kaheen duur chali jaye... aur uski wo iltija kisi ne suni thi. Us jungle ki tareekiyon mein qaid aik pur israar hasti ne, aik Devi ne...
Wo usi devi ka bheja gaya madadgaar tha.
Kayee zamanay qabal darakhton mein basnay walay Sabzposh Devta, Karnoonos ne uski devi ko is jungle mein qaid kardia tha. 
Uski devi ab is qadeem qaid se rihai chahti thi. Us larki kay zariye. 
Larki ne kuch na socha... uskay paas koi aur thikana na tha. US ne devi ki is rihai mein uski madad karnay ki haami bhar lee...
Andekhi duniya kay madadgar ne phir apni devi ko us larki pe naazil kardia... uskay seenay mein aik chura ghonp kar!!
“Wo mari nahi Shani... wo dobara peda kar dee gayee... naye roop mein. Aik devi ban kay... aur phir apnay madadgaar kay saath... wo Inglistaan ki aik chai bananay wali company kay aik jahaz mein kisi tarha sawar hokar maheeno ka safar tey kar kay idhar a puhnchi... aur phir us ne apnay madadgaron ka qabeela barhaya... us waqt ki angrez hukoomat tak rasookh hasil kar kay... is jaga... aam logon se posheeda aik guzargaah pe apnay qabeelay kay liye aik ibadat gaah, aik jaaye amaan banayee...jo aaj tak qayam hay...”

Sister Sarah ne itna bata kar meri janib ghor se dekha... unka chehra damak raha tha. Main unki is kahani ko hazam karnay ki koshish kar raha tha... buht kuch samajh raha tha...

“Aaj 2 sadiyan beeteen... wo devi tumharay samnay khari.. tum se madad maang rahi hay... kyunkay aisa sirf tum he karsaktay ho Shani!” 
Sister Sarah ka lehja bara jazbati hogaya tha!

“Sister Sarah... kia wo larki aap hain?” Main ne dartay huay poocha.

“Main thi Shani... main thi. Ab bus main aik saya hoon apnay us maazi ka jisay main ne apni marzi se chora...” Wo usi jazbaat se boleen

“Lekin aik devi ko meri madad...??” 
Main ne seherzada andaaz mein sawal kia. Sach tou ye hay kay main abhi bhi is kahani ko bamushkil hazam kar paa raha tha.... uffff Miss Anaya ne sahi kaha tha... aaj mujh pe kayee ajeeb haqeeqatain khulen gee!
Buht ajeb tha ye sab... bilashuba... buht he herat angez!

“Hah...” Wo halka sa qehqaha laga kay boleen
“Akasha... ko maut nahi... kyunkay wo amar hay.... lekin jis kay jism mein woh bas jaye... usko aik din maut zaroor aani hoti hay....”
“Main samjha nahi...” Mera dimagh ghotay kha raha tha
“Akasha insani jism mein sama tou jaati hay... aur us jism ko insnai lihaaz se kafee arsay tak tuul bhi de sakti hay... magar iski bhi aik hadd hay...”
Wo jhijhaktay huay dobara boleen
“Aik insani jism Akasha kay zer e istimaal, 200 insani saalon tak reh sakta hay... aisa kyun hay? Iska jawab Akasha kay paas nahi... Ye sab us badbakht Sabzposh Devta ki karni hay...”
“Tou kia...” Main herat se mu pharay kuch kehnay he laga tha kay Sister Sarah muskura kay boleen
 “Haan Shani... 200 saal beetnay walay hain is jism pe. Aur us larki ki andhonaak dastaan ko bhi....”

“Ffuuuck...” Meray mu se beikhtiaar nikal gaya
“Aaap dou... douu sau saal se isi tarhan hain... I mean apki age???”
“Hah..” Wo phir hansi
“Der andher, sab bewaja... jab waqt hota hay tou he har cheez amal mein aati hay.” Unhon ne apna jumla douhraya
“Jab us larki ka waqt tha... Akasha uskay wajood mein sama gayee... aur age... hah age ruk gayee.... uska jism, gosht post ka jism, ruk gaya. Apnay joban pe...! Akasha ki taqatain beshumaar hain...Shani....”
Unhon ne mujhay jesay chertay huay samjhaya. Mujhay khud pe hansi ayee. Khud sab dekh chuka tha. Jab Akasha kay madadgaaron ki ages nahi barhteen, tou jis wajood mein wo khud samayee ho, wo kesay age karay ga? Aur phir main khud unhi taqaton ka kuch hissa experience kar raha tha... mujh se behtar kon bashar ye janta hoga?

“Tou ab...?” Main ne sawal kiya
“Ab is devi ko tumhari madad chahiye...” Sister Sarah kharay hotay huay boleen.
“Tumharay he zariye is devi ko aglay jism mein muntaqil hona hay... aik aisay jism mein jo is devi kay shayaan e shaan ho...”
Itna keh kar unhon ne mujhay ghor se dekha aur phir kaha
“Aur tum us jism se achi tarha waqif ho...”

“Kia?” Mujhay shadeed shock sa laga...
“KKkon?”

Meray haklanay pe wo phir se hansi
“Kia tum samajhtay ho kay Akasha ne bus aisay he us larki pe karam kar kay usko khud se jora tha?? Kia ye sab ittifaaq tha? Nahi Shani nahi... Akasha ki nazar mutaharrik rehti hay, dhoondhti hay, parakhti hay. Us larki ko jis tarah barson qabal, Akasha ne chun lia tha... wesay he is janam mein Akasha ki agli amad bhi chun lee gayee thee... aur tum... haan Shani tum, isi chunao ki aik larri ho...”
Sister Sarah  ne ye keh kar zer e lab muskuratay huay mujhay dekha
Mujhay samajh nahi araha tha. Mujh se baeed tha ye sab. Aik tou unki apni anhoni kahani aur phir Akasha kay aglay janam se mera link? Ye sab kia tha? Dimagh chakra denay walay sawalaat aur inkishafaat thay.
“Tumhari wo purisraar beemaari... aur tumhari taqaton ka dheema parjana bhi na tou koi ittefaaq hay aur na he meri kisi narazgi kay sabab. Ye kuch hich-kicha-hatain hain jo sirf is liye arahi hain kay ye jism ab meri taqaton kay zer e asar nahi reh sakta... aur ye hich-kicha-hatain hamesha kay liye bhi asakti hain... “Kyunkay Akasha ki aglay jism mein muntaqli se pehlay agar ye jism fana hogaya, tou Akasha ki taqatain is duniya se salb ho jayen gee... wo wapas apni qaid mein chali jaye gee...tareek jungle mein... hamesha kay liye!”
Unka chehra kuch ajeeb sa hogaya... kuch ghambeer sa
“Kia tum aisa honay do gey?” Wo sambhaltay huay boleen
“Nahi!” Main beikhtiaar bola
“Kabhi nahi!”

“Tou phir suno... Tum ko chunnay ki aik buht bari waja ye bhi thi kay tumharay zariyay agli Akasha pe nazar rakhi jaye aur usay parkha jaye... aur tumharay zariye he aisa mumkin hua. Tumhara us se qareebi taaluq tha... aur yehi chez tumko Akasha ka ala e kaar bananay ki behtareen waja sabit hui.”
“Jaantay ho kis ki baat ho rahi hay?”
Sister Sarah ne meray dimagh ko mazeed aur  ghumatay huay poocha
“Kon sister Sarah? Please batayen?” Main ne bachon ki tarhan zid ki
Sister Sarah ne aik muskurahat se mujhay dekha aur kaha

“Tumhari saheli... Jana!” 

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Mujh pe hairaton kay pahar toot rahay thay.
Ye aik saath itna kuch kyun mujh pe ayaan kiya gaya tha?
Main samajhta tha kay Akasha ki meray se jurnay ki waja main khud tha... lekin idhar tou maamla kuch aur pata chal raha tha...
Jana? 
I mean... haan, uska husn bilashuba deviyon kay shayan e shaan tha magar... ye sab kesay mumkin tha? Jana kay wajood mein saraiiyat karnay kay baad kia Akasha ki mujh pe karam farmaniyaan yoon hi rahain gee? Ya phir maqsad poora honay pe mujhay istimaal shuda material ki tarha radd kardia jayega?
Ah... pata nhi... mera dimagh phatnay ko ho raha tha.
Main ne khali ankhon se Sister Sarah ko dekha
“Ufff... kitna zehn ko chakra denay walay inkishafaat hain ye Sister Sarah!”
“Waqt anay par tumhain ye sab pata chalna tha Shani...” Wo boleen.
“Kaho? Karo ge meri madad?”

Main ne kuch sochtay huay kaha
“Main apki har mumkin madad karoonga... Jana ko aap kay wajood se roshnaas karaonga...but... hamaray paas waqt kitna hay?”
“Good, tumhara dimagh sahi rah pe chalna shuru hogaya hay, tum sahi sawal kar rahay ho...” Wo muskura kay boleen aur phir unki peshani pe, pareshani ki silwatain ubhreen
“Kuch maheenay Shani... haan kuch maheenay...”

“Ohhh...” Main ne mu sukertay huay kaha
“Kia aur kesay karna hoga ye sab mujhay?”

“Tumhara dost Yusuf, waqt anay pe tumhain sab bata dega... usko ijazat hay...” Sister Sarah itna keh kar rukeen aur meri taraf rukh kar kay barheen.
“Thank you Shani... aao.. tumhain seraab kardoon...”
Ye kehtay huay unhon ne aik jhatkay se apna chogha, samnay se khol diya. Neechay unka badan chamakta hua sunehri roshniyon mein lipta hua aisa jalwagar hua kay meri ankhain chundhiya gayeen. Sister Sarah kay makhrooti jaadui seenay kay ubhaar meri ankhon kay samnay thay.
“Aao Shani... tumhain seraab kardoon... tumhari taqatain dobara jaga doon... har mayoosi aur naumeedi tumhari rooh se mita doon... ajao...” 
Wo ye boltay huay apnay mummon ko apnay hathon se thora daba kay meri janib karnay lageen. 
Meri zaban pe unkay mummon zaiqa phir se ghul gaya aur main besakhta barhtay huay unki janib chala. Mera mu khud ba khud unkay seenay pe jhuka aur unkay uriyan ubhaaron ki khubsurat nipple ko main ne tezi se apnay honton mein kheench lia... Ah! Ye ras, ye zaiqa jo main bhool na paya...
Main kisi bachay ki tarha mu lagaye unkay mummon ko choostay huay unko bari bari dabay raha tha. Meray andar aik junoon ubhar aya tha unkay mummom ka khaas zaiqa paa kar. Kamray kay neem andheray mein jesay aik dam se sunehri roshni phelnay lagi. Meri skin se, meray rooain rooain se sunehri shuaain phoot rahi theen. Sister Sarah pyaar se meray sar kay baalon mein hath phertay huay mujhay apnay mummay chuswa rahi theen. Mujhay feed karwa rahi theen.
Meri zaban unkay nipples kay gird ghoomti aur main mu khol khol kay un se mustafeed ho raha tha. Meray hont baari bari unki nipples ko suck kartay, aur phir mera sar unkay ubhaaron kay beech ki wadiyon mein gumm hojata. Meray hath is doran unki perfect shape ko tatol kar unhain khoob dabatay aur sister Sarah ki mashoor kun aahain meri lazzat ko bharkateen.
Unkay mummon ka zaiqa paa kar meray wajood mein Akasha ki roshniyan khoon ki tarha gardish kar rahi theen. Wohi manoos see energy meray andar bharnay lagi, jesay main kabhi us se alag hua hee nahi tha.
Sister Sarah ab mera sar sehlatay huay apnay seenay pe daba bhi rahi theen. Unkay mummon ka pressure meray chehray pe feel ho raha tha aur main mazeed mu khol kay unkay mummon ko khanay ki koshish kar raha tha. Daant maar raha tha... kaat raha tha, choos raha tha... zaban se unkay nipples tarr kar raha tha... aur wo suroor bhari ahain bharti mujhay apnay mummon ka russ pila pila kar Akasha ki battery ko ‘recharge’ kar rahi theen.
Janay kab tak main unkay ubharon ko aisay hee choosnay mein magan raha... aur phir aik dam se aisa laga kay meray wajood mein lava ubal para ho. Meri jild se shadeed tapish uthnay lagi. Sister Sarah ne aik bar zor se mujhay apnay seenay pe bheencha. Tapish barh gayee. Aik aag unka jism tha aur aik mera... kuch lamhay aisa laga kay dono taraf jalti ye aag, aik shola ban gayee ho. Unkay aur meray jismon kay beech koi farq na raha ho. Dono aik he hon, aik doosray se juray... Mujhay aisa lag raha tha kay mujhay nazr e aatish kardia gaya ho. Sunehri aag mein jal raha tha main... magar majal hay jo mujhay koi dard, koi jalan mehsoos ho rahi ho. Ye tapish mujhay tawana kar rahi thi...
Sister Sarah ne mujhay kafi der tak younhi zor se bheenchay rakha. Unka aik nipple badastoor meray mu mein raha aur uska arq meray honton kay rastay meray mu mein sheerni gholta raha...
Aur phir sab kuch pur sakoon hogaya.
Roshniyan wapas khinchti hui hamaray jismon mein sama gayeen. Sister Sarah ne mujhay bheechna chor kay mera sar sehlatay huay apnay seenay se alag kia.
Main ne ankhain kholeen aur sar utha kay unki taraf dekha.
Wo apni jaadui muskurahat sajaye mujhay pyaar se ghoor rahi theen.
“Kiasa mehsoos kar rahay ho Shani?” Unki apnaiyat bhari awaz ayee
Main mummon ko aik soft se kiss kartay huay unkay pehloo se utha aur unhon ne apnay choghay ko aik baar phir samnay se band karliya.
“Bilkul wesa, jesay pichli baar yahan se jatay huay feel kar raha tha... tawana, bekhauf, be asar...” 
Main ne apnay hathon ko dekhtay huay jawab diya. Meri ungliyon ki tips se chingariyan urr rahi theen. Shahnawaz phir se Shani ban chuka tha.
“Aap ka buht buht shukriya sister Sarah... aap ne mujhay dobara apni roshniyon se nawaza...”

“Tum ne Akasha aur uskay madadgaron kay liye buht kuch kia hay is arsay mein... shukria nahi, tum iskay ain mustahiq ho...” 
Sister Sarah ne rukay rukay se lehjay mein kaha. Thakan wazeh thi.

“Aap theek tou hain na sister Sarah?” 
Main ne unko kuch kamzor sa paa kar poocha

“Waqt... is jism ka waqt poora honay ko hay... bus ab tum pe inhisaar hay Shani...” Wo phir se ruk ruk kay kehnay lageen
“Is jism ki bachi kuchi tawanai main ne tum ko sonp dee hay... takay tum apna wada bharpoor tareeqay se poora karsako... Waqt... Shani... waqt ziada nahi hay... yaad rakhna...”
Unhon ne itna keh kar bistar ki taraf rukh kia aur mez ka sahara lekar bistar pe beth gayeen.
“Main apna wada zarur poora karunga...” Main ne pur azm se lehjay mein kaha
“Shukria... buht shukriya tumhara...Akasha tumhara ye ahsaan kabhi nahi bhoolay gee... Akasha ka chunao ghalat nahi tha... tum ye kaam khush asloobi se anjaam dedo... tou mera wada hay kay sunehri roshniyaan... tumhain kabhi na choren gee... is ahsaan ka badla zarur dia jayega tumhain Shani!”
Sister Sarah ki thaki thaki see awaz mein tashakkur tha aur pyaar bhi.
Main ne unkay chehray ko ghor se dekhtay huay kuch kehna chaha lekin zaban sath na de rahi thi...
“Kuch kehna chahtay ho Shani?” Wo meri halat bhaanp gayeen theen.
“JJ..jee sister Sarah...” Main ne sar jhuka kay kaha...
“Aap ko maloom hay kay meray dil mein kia hay... aik request... aur main janta hoon kay aap... aap pehlay bhi mujhay bata chuki hain... Akasha kay asool hain... lekin main aik baar phir...”

Sister Sarah ne meri taraf yaajub se dekha aur phir achanak unki thakan se bhari ankhain aik lamhay ko chamkeen.

“Asool, asool hotay hain... main janti hoon kay tum kia chahtay ho... apni biwi aur apnay bachay ki baqaaa..”

Unka lehja aik dam sard hota gaya
“Shani… mujhay lagta hay kay shayad tum meri baton ko poori tawajja se nahi suntay…”

Unki awaz mein jalal sa tha. Unka jism ghussay aur naqahat se kaanp sa raha tha. Haibat see taati honay lagi aur ragon mein khoon munjamind sa honay laga.
“Yahan anay se qabl, tumhari jo halat thi… kia tum us se pareshan na thay? Kia main ne tum pe taras khatay huay, apni tamam taqat de kar tumhain dobara aik devta nahi banaya? Bolo? Ki main ne tumhari madad nahi ki??”

Sister Sarah ki awaz ka jaah o jalal meray wajood pe kapkapi taari kar raha tha.
Main ne dartay dartay asbaat mein sar hilaya.

“Tou phir kia tumhain apnay is sawal, is request pe, pashemani nahi horahi? Idhar sadiyon puranay silsilon ka, taqaton ka ruk Janay, khatam hojanay ka khadsha hay… aur tum… tum mehez aik aurat aur… uskay honay walay bachay kay liye pareshan ho???”

Main khauf se thittar raha tha. Sister Sarah ne qeher alood nazron se  mujhay dekha aur 2 tok se alfaaz mein kaha:

“Andekhi duniya kay asool nahi badal saktay. Apni biwi … aur uskay honay walay bachay ko bhool jao Shani!”

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Sister Sarah kay hujray se nikaltay huay mera roan roan kaanp raha tha. Kesi anhoni haqeeqatain mujh pe khuleen theen aaj! 
Meray dimagh ki cholain hil chuki theen.
Aur saath he dil mein jesay aik ghaao sa lag gaya tha. Main Huma aur apnay honay walay bachay ko kabhi na bacha sakoon ga… Meri nigahon mein reh reh kay Huma ka chehra ghoom raha tha.
Main in dildoz, lekin hairat angez aur naqabil e yaqeen baton ko sochta sister Sarah kay hujray ki rahdaari se nikal he raha tha kay achanak… bahar se aati Roshni jesay kam honay lagi. Rahdari mein andhera chanay laga. Meray per jumm kay reh gaye. Lamhon mein poori rahdari aisi tareek hogai kay haath ko haath na sujhai de. Main ne laakh ankhain jhapka jhapka kay dekhnay ki koshish ki lekin aisa lag raha tha jesay meri taqatain is andheray kay agay bebas hon.
Aur phir achanak meray samnay halki surkh Roshni see ubhri…
Main ne ankhain phaar kay dekha aur us Roshni mein se aik tareek hevla baramad hua…

“Sister Katherine…” Meray mu se khudbakhud nikla

Laal Roshni rahdaari mein mojood andheray ko jesay sudhaa chuki thi. 
Sister Katherine fiza mein terti hui meray paas ayeen aur unkay siyaah choghay  mein se unki haibat naak soorat ubhri.
“Shahnawaz urf Shani…” Unkay lab na hilay lekin unki awaz meray dimagh mein goonji.
“Mayoosi… insaan kay zehn ko khatam kar deti hay… uski taqaton ko murjhaa deti hay… kia tum mayoos ho Shani?”

Sister Katherine ka sawal meray hawas pe chaa gaya.
“Mujhay nahi maloom Sister Katherine… Akasha kay asool hain… main… main kuch nahi kar sakta…”
Meri ankhain aik dam se namm see hogayeen
“Aap… Huma ko… le jayengee…. Aur main… main dekhta rahoonga… aaah…kaisa zulm hoga ye!”
Un kay sawal ne meray jazbaat jaga dalay thay.

“Akasha kay asool…hmmmm…”
Sister Katherine kay chehray pe aik kareeha see muskurahat ayee.
“Beshak Akasha kay asool muhtaram hain… magar… kia tum nahi jaantay kay har asool ka qurbani se gehra Rishta hay…”

Sister Katherine ka maani khez andaaz meri bikhri sochon ko yakja sa kar gaya
“Kkk.. kia matlab sister Katherine?” Main ne bedharak pooocha

“Qurbani do gey?” Wo mera sawal radd kartay huay dobara goya hueen

Main ne unki ankhon mein ankhain daal kar shiddat e jazbaat se kehna shuru kia
“Jesay main Akasha ki madad kay liye sab kuch kar sakta hoon... wesay.... wesay mujhay asoolon ki qeemat chukanay mein... koi... koi aar nahi hoga...” 

“Hmmm… andekhi duniya mein asoolon ki qeemat bhaari hoti hay... tum samajh rahay ho Shahnawaz urf Shani?”
Wo mujhay qadray tanbeehana andaaz mein samjhanay lageen

“Mujhay qeemat se koi sarokaar nahi… mujhay bus nateejay ki parwa hay!”
Meri awaz mein aik jazbaati sa azam tha
“Kia main aap ko apnay waadon mein saabit qadam nahi lagta?”
Mera sawal, naye jawab dhoondh raha tha.

“Hmmm...” Aisa lag raha tha jesay Sister Katherine apni ankhon kay surkh khofnaak delon se mujhay dekhtay huay kisi gehri soch mein doob gayeen hon. Kuch tawaqquf kay baad wo mujhay ghoortay huay goya hueen.
“Tum heraan kardetay ho mujhay Shahnawaz urf Shani... insaan bara matlabi hay... apna nafa dhoondhta hay har shay mein... magar tum... hmmmmm...”
Woh ruk kar mujhay jesay herat se dekhnay lageen
“Tum jantay ho na kay tumhain Akasha ki ye devtaaon jesi taqatain, aik karbnaak bachpan jhelnay kay aiwaz naseeb hueen hain?”

“Jee... main aisa he samajhta hoon...” Main ne modibana andaz mein kaha.

“Bus to phir jaan lo kay har cheez ki qeemat hoti hay.... Is tilsimati asoodgi ka sab se bara asool bhi yehi hay... kuch panay kay liyay... kuch qurbaan karna parta hay...”
Itna keh kar unkay daraonay chehray pe aik baar phir utni he daraoni hansi phelti chali gayee
“Sister Sarah kay roop mein Akasha ki roshniyan zaroor janam le sakti hain… wo devi zaroor hay lekin…”
“Lekin kia?” Wo jesay he kuch rukeen tou main ne ujlat se poocha
“Lekin wo andekhi duniya kay asoolon se ziada…. Apni marzi ko tarjeeh de rahi hain…”

“KKia matlab?” Main ne ankhain pharay poocha
“Matlab… Sister Sarah tum se jhoot bol rahi hay…” Wo phir se apnay surkh delon ko ghumatay huay meray zehn mein apni awaz ki goonj phelanay lageen

“Hain??? Magar kyun???” Mujhay aaj kuch samajh nahi araha tha…

“Haan… fareb dia hay us ne tumhain! Magar main janti hoon kay aik tareeqa hay Shahnawaz urf Shani… tumhari biwi aur bachay ko bachanay ka… aur shayad tumhain bhi…” Unkay chehray ki smile aur kareeha hogayee thi

“Kia?!!! Kaisa tareeqa Sister Katherine??” 
Meri betabi, yakayak meray jazbaat pe havi hogayee. Main tou azal se yahi samajh raha tha kay Sister Katherine he wo bala hain jo Akasha ki taqaton kay zer e asar peda honay walon aur peda karnay waliyon ko le jati hay…. lekin idhar tou ye ulta mujhay unkay bachao ka tareeqa bata rahi thi!

“Kia tumhain Sister Sarah ne bataya kay tumhain Jana ko Akasha banana kay liye kia karna paray ga…?”
Sister Katherine ne ghoorti nazron se sawal kia

“NNahi… wo… keh raheen theen kay… Yusuf… Yusuf mujhay bataye ga…”
Mujhay jitna kaha gaya tha main utna he bata paya.

“Hahahaha!” Sister Katherine ka aik qehqaha sa buland hua. Kuch lamhay ko aisa laga kay unkay gird pheli surkh Roshni aur us mein dhala andhera bhi unkay saath qehqaha laga raha ho. Wo phir aik dam khamoosh hueen aur mujhay badastoor ghoortay huay meray dimagh mein boleen.

“Yusuf? Us badrooh ki kia hesiat hay devtaon kay is khel mein!”

Yusuf? Badrooh? Meray zehn mein chapaka hua

Sister Katherine yaqeenan mera zehn parh rahi theen. Unki holnaak awaz phir se goonji.
“Yusuf ki haqeeqat bas itni hay kay wo… is chaar deewari mein batakhti aik badrooh hay… jisko Akasha ne tum par nazar rakhnay, tumko apnay mansoobon mein jakray rakhnay kay liye tum se jor dala hay…”
“Aur is kay badlay mein… Akasha ne us se aik wada kia hay… jantay ho wo kia wada hay?”
Sister Katherine ne phir se sawal kia. 
Unkay sawalon ka meray paas koi jawab na tha
Meri khamooshi pe muskuratay huay wo phir se boleen
“Usko dobara se aik insani jism dilanay ka wada! Jo tumharay zariyay poora hogaya!”

Oh! Mujh pe aik aur haqeeqat khuli.
Farhan kay jism pe qabza karnay ka plan yaqeenan Yusuf ne he meray zehn mein dala tha…

“Lekin…” Sister Katherine ne dobara kehna shuru kia
“Agar wo aisa na karta… tou tumhain meri madad na milti… Hallinta ki dawa na milti… main muslihat ko khud se qareeb rakhti hoon Shahnawaz urf Shani…”

Ye sach tha kay Hallinta ki dawa meray buht kaam aayee thi. Aisay aisay moqon pe jab mujhay kuch soojhai na dia ho, main us kay zariye buht kuch kar chuka tha.

“Jaao… jakar apnay Yusuf se poochna kay tumhain Jana ko Akasha bananay kay liye kia karna parega… aur shayad tumko Akasha kay is khel mein apna asli kirdar samajh ajayega…”

Sister Katherine ne haqqarat se kaha.
Main janta tha kay Sister Katherine mujh pe meherbaan rahi thi. Meri muhafiz ban kay meri madad bhi ki thi. Magar aaj aisa lag raha tha jesay main unkay nazdeek koi aur maqam bhi rakhta hoon.

Wo meri sochon se ghafil na theen. Meray zehn mein awaz goonji.
“Agar tum mujhay mehez Akasha ka madadgar samajhtay ho… tou ye tumhari bhool hay! Main kia hoon.. aur kia thi… aur kia hosakti hoon… ye filhaal tumhari soch se bala tar hay.”
Unkay chehray se jesay pighaltay lohay jesi garmi nikal rahi thi jo mujhay apnay wajood pe achi tarah mehsoos ho rahi thi. 
Wo ruk kar jaisay mera jaiza letay huay boleen
“Waqt aur halaat ne kuch aisay tanay banay jor diye hain… kay mujhay Sister Sarah se ziada… tumhari fikar ho chali hay…”
Wo hawa mein terti hui meray aur qareeb agayeen. Garam hawa kay jhonkay jesay mujhay jhulsanay lagay. Unkay chehray se gehri laal Roshni uth rahi thi jo unko Aur khofnaak bana rahi thi.

“Jis tarah Akasha ki mansooba bandi hay… wesay he meri… aur shayad mujh se juri kuch aur hastiyon ki bhi… aik alag mansooba bandi hay… samajh rahay ho?”
Wo apna chehra mujh se kuch inches duur le ayeen theen. Main phir se kaanpnay laga tha. Khauf chanay laga tha. Magar main ne us pe qaabu patay huay kuch himmat dikha kar poocha.

“KK…Kesi mansooba bandiii?” meray mu se sawal khud ba khud nikal rahay thay. 
 
“Hmmmm…” Wo apna chehra aik taraf kartay huay meri ankhon mein jhanknay lageen.
“Waqt se pehlay main tumhain kuch nahi bata sakti… magar itna samajh lo kay meri mansooba bandi mein… Akasha ki is kahani ka markazi kirdar na tou sister Sarah hay… aur na he Jana… balkay tum ho!”

“Main?” Main ne kuch masoomiyat se poocha

“Haan tum… Shahnawaz urf Shani! Tum ahem ho. Buht ahem. Anay walay waqton mein… na sirf meray liye, balkay shayad mujh se juri kuch aur hastiyon kay liye bhi!” 
Sister Katherine ne apni ankhain baghair jhapkaye meri taraf dekhtay huay kaha

“Lekin…” Meray fitri tajassus ne khauf ko pichaartay huay mujhay sawal karnay pe uksa dia tha
“Aap… aap he tou Huma kay samnay jalwagar hokar usko apnay sath lejanay ka keh kar usay dara rahi theen… aap he tou usay Akasha ki duniya mein le ja rahi theen… tou phir main kesay yaqeen karloon kay aap meray liye kuch aisa karen gee jo mujhay Akasha kay asoolon ko badalnay ne dega? Aur…. Aur agar ye… ye sab aap kar sakti theen… tou is waqt mujh pe kyun ayaan kar rahi hain? Ufff…. Kon sahi hay kon ghalat, mujhay kuch samajh nahi araha!”
Main ne akhri alfaaz chinghaartay huay kahay aur phir apna sar pakar lia.

“Bewaqoof ho tum.”
Sister Katherine ne meri chingaar ko aik halkay se qehqahay kay sath radd kia. Phir wo fiza mein tertay huay peechay hueen aur apni teer jesy nazrain meray wajood se aar paar kartay huay boleen
“Ahmaq ho. Tumharay dekhnay, samajhnay aur parakhnay ki salahiyatain, insaano jesi hain… bawajood iskay, kay tumharay badan mein aik devi ki Roshni gardish karti hay…”

Wo jesay meray insaan honay ka mazaq ura rahi theen. Ghin khaa rahi theen mujh se.

“Aik martaba phir, kaan khol kay suno…” 
Wo mujhay usi tarha ghoortay huay jesay ghurrayeen
“Kia Miss Naheed ko bhool gaye ho tum?” 

Sister Katherine ne sawal kia tou main chonka. Kesay bhool sakta hoon Miss Naheed ko. Jinhon ne apni bholi bhali masoom beti ko bakhushi Sister Katherine ki khurak bana dala tha. Jin kay saath main ne usi beti ki qurbani kay badlay mein, unko hamla kar kay doosra bacha denay ki haami bhari thi…. Aur uskay baad wo kabhi nazar nahi ayeen theen.
“Jee… bilkul bhi nahi..” Main ne sab yaad kartay huay halkay se jawab dia

“Jis din tum ne usko hamla kiya tha… kia us kay baad tum ne usay kabhi dekha?” Sister Katherine yaqeenan mera dimagh parh chuki theen.

“Nahi…” Main ne foran sar hilaya
“Hahaha….” Unka haibat naak qehqaha goonja.
“Aur phir bhi tum insan khud ko Afzal samajhtay ho?”
Wo mera, aur sath mein tamam insaniyat ka tamaskhar uratay huay bolay ja rahi theen. Aur phir wo rukeen aur unhon ne usi tarha mujhay dobara se ghoortay huay kehna shuru kia

“Kabhi ye socha kay hamla hotay he Miss Naheed tou ghayab ho gayee… lekin uskay bar aks, Huma ko tou hamal tehray huay kaafi arsa ho chuka hay… wo abhi tak kyun nahi khench lee gayee Akasha ki dunia mein?”
Sister Katherine ka sawal mujhay kisi Stinger Missile ki tarha akar laga.
Mujhay realize hua kay main ne apni bewaqoofi mein kabhi is cheez kay baray mein nahi socha tha. Akasha kay asool tou asool hotay hain, der andher kesi?

“Nahi socha na kabhi aisa?” Unhon ne phir se aik qehqaha sa lagaya
“Suno, aur samjho…. Jis din, Akasha ki Roshni kay zer e asar hamal teherta hay… bus usi din, usi lamhay, usi saa’at mein Andekhi duniya usay apni janib kheench leti hay… is dunia se ghayab kardeti hay… lekin… Huma…. Tumhari biwi Huma. Wo abhi tak isi liye mehfooz hay… kyunkay wo meri tehweel mein hay!”

“Apki?” Main abhi bhi aik missile kay shell shck se na nikla tha kay doosra fire honay ko tha
“Magar aap tou… aap tou usko darati theen akar? Kay aap usay le jayengi….”

“Bewaqoof ho tum.”
Sister Katherine ne usi tarha apna jumla dohraya.
“Main usay kaheen nahi le ja rahi. Aur na ye mera kaam hay. Dar haqeeqat, main ne uskay gird aik hisaar kheench dala hay… jo usay rokay huay hay… Andekhi duniya ki taraf khinch Janay se…”
Wo sappat lehjay mein bolay ja rahi theen
“Aur ye sab kuch main… Akasha kay kehnay pe kar rahi hoon… usi kay kehnay pe main ne Huma ko hisaar mein lia hay aur usi kay kehnay pe main usay dara bhi rahi hoon….”

Sister Katherine ki ankhon se surkh angaray ubhar rahay thay. Aaj ka din, haqeeqat ka din tha. Aaj mujhay andaza ho raha tha kay main jis ko apnay intiqaam ki kahani sanajh raha tha, wo dar hqeeqat, aik bari aur pecheeda dastaan ka mehz chota sa baab thi. Aik gumnaam sa chapter. Jis ki ahmiyat shayad sirf meray nazdeek thi. Insano kay nazdeek. Jis kay honay na honay se is bay karaan dastan pe koi ziada farq nahi parna tha. Mera intiqam goya meri tarha haqeer tha. 

“Mm..magar kyun?” 
Meray paas sawalon kay siwa tha he kia?

“Kyunkay Sister Sarah, Huma ko us waqt tak is dunia mein rakhna chahti hay jab tak tum apna asli maqsad poora na kar lo… takay tum ko jazbati tor se blackmail kar sakay… tumharay jazbaat kay zariye tumhain ghulaam banaye rakhay…”

Wo rukeen aur fiza mein tertay huay meray qareeb aayeen
“Is waqt tum pe ye sab zahir karnay ka maqsad ye hay kay Sister Sarah kay baraks… main tumhari fana nahi… baqaa chahti hoon…”

Sister Katherine aaj mujhay heraan o pareshan kar gayeen theen. Is jadunagri mein sab se ajeeb character shayad wo he theen. Jin se mein kabhi khauf khaya karta tha… main kia, aik zamana khauf khata tha… shayad is waqt, wohi meri sab se bari kherkhwaah lag rahi theen. Meri muhafiz.

“Meray mansoobon mein… Akasha ki raza mandi ka koi kirdaar nahi. Isi liye aaj se pehlay, main apni mansooba bandi ko ayan nahi karsakti thi… lekin aaj… Haan aaj mujh pe Akasha ki nazar nahi… meray mansoobay us ki nazar, uski taqaton  se ojhal ho chukay hain!”
Wo apnay lehjay mein aik ajab see Khushi liye bol rahi theen.

“Kyun? Aaj kia hua aisa?” Main ne chup tortay huay aaj kay din ki munasbat, aik aur sawal kia.

“Insano ki dekhnay aur partakhnay ki salahiyatain mujhay buht bezaar karti hain…” Wo insaniyat ko aaj zaleel karnay ki qasam kha kay ayeen theen
“Tum ne dekha tha kay kis tarah Sister Sarah, nidhaal ho gayeen theen tumko seraab karnay kay baad? Jantay ho kyun?”

“Nahi…” Main ne sar hilaya

“Kyunkay wo apni tamam bachi kuchi taqat tumharay supurd kar chuki hain. Takay tum apna kaam karsako. Us ka maqsad poora kar sako. Uski taqatain ab usi maqsad ki takmeel kay baad he poori tarha jalwa gar hongi… apnay naye roop kay sath! Isi liye wo ab na tumhara dimagh parh sakti hay… na meray mansoobay!”

“Mmm..Matlab kia wo mujh pe bhi nazar nahi rakh sakteen ab? Kia wo nahi sun sakteen jo mein soch raha hoon?”
Mujhay yaqeen nahi araha tha

“Haan, yahi waja hay kay wo Huma ko aakhir tak tumharay samnay rakhna chahti hay. Takay usay dekh kay tumko har martaba apna maqsad yaad aye… lekin hum… uski is kamzori ko uskay khilaaf istimaal karsaktay hain…!”
Wo badastoor usi tarha boleen

“Tou aap… kia meri madad karen gee?” Main ne bari miskeen see awaz mein shayad aaj ka akhri sawal kia tha. Ye sab meray liye process karna buht muhskil hochuka tha.
 
“Haan… tumhari madad… aur apni bhi. Isi liye main… tumhain apni biwi aur honay walay bachay ko bachanay ka tareeqa bataongi. Tumharay seenay mein ye raaz muntaqil karoongi main, Shahnawaz urf Shani!”
Unki awaz aik dam se buland hogayee aur mujhay aisa laga jesay meray dil o dimagh mein wohi jhulsa deni wali garmi utar rahi ho… lekin is garmi mein kuch chupa tha… jesay is tapish kay saath kuch hidayaat bhi utar rahi hon. Aisa lag raha tha jesay mayoosi kay andheray, Sister Katherine kay wajood se liptay surkh andheron kay agay haar gaye hon…

Meray zehn mein aik jumla sa ubhra… Soch meri thi, magar awaz Sister Katherine ki thi…
“Aik kay badlay mein, Dou… Jo mujh se na hon…”

Main ne ghair yaqeeni kay say andaz mein sister Katherine ko dekha tou wo muskura rahi theen. Mujhay unki muskurahat se khof nahi araha tha…. Balkay aik ajab dharas see ho rahi thi.

Sister Katherine ne mujhay dekhtay huay apni ghani bhanwain charhayeen
“Soch lo... manzoor hay?”

Main unki ankhon mein dekhta raha... aur sochta raha.
Meray faislay devtaaon jesay atal thay. Magar main kabhi insaan bhi raha tha... 

TO BE CONTINUED...

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